I Am a Twinless-twin

This is for those of us who had twins who died - at birth or anytime in life. 304 People

    Within the first 24 hours of my life,

    I lost my mother, my father and my twin brother. Choices were made that created the separation from my family – those choices were out of my control. Everything that I needed in the world vanished. I have spent the majority of my life trying to find family or at least find...
    jabanu jabanu
    46-50, M
    2 Responses Sep 3, 2015

    theirs a thing called vanishing twin syndrome

    it happens very early in the pregnancy and the baby is absorbed but the mother, child, or placenta... no one knows if i definelty had a twin... but I know somehow I had a twin it was a girl and we were identicle... I'm not making this up, they say you have a void that doesn't...
    Jessandjordyn0702 Jessandjordyn0702
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jan 8, 2014

    It has been six years to the day

    that I became a twinless-twin: I lost my twin brother, Michon when we were both thirteen years old, he had died due to a severe case of pneumonia. He died teary-eyed in my arms. Both me and my brother were identical twins and almost everyone who knew us had trouble telling us...
    Wattouat Wattouat
    22-25, F
    3 Responses May 15, 2014

    For as long as I can remember,

    I had an obsession with twins, even before I knew I was one. As soon as I knew twins existed in the world, I wanted to know everything about them. I had an older sister I loved dearly, and after her death in her teens my obsession about twins became more incessant. I watched tv...
    mandabanana25 mandabanana25
    26-30, F
    1 Response Feb 12, 2016

    I was supposed to be a twin

    but my mother miscarried my sister early on in the pregnancy.
    pinksteam pinksteam
    22-25, F
    May 27, 2014

    My Natalie

    My twin sister Natalie passed away Feb. 1988. We were only 2 years old, but I remember that horrible day like it was just yesterday, I remember my mom and I running after my sister but we couldn't catch up to her, the car was reversing and ran over her, I remember screaming for...
    Lisso Lisso
    26-30, F
    Oct 24, 2013

    My Twin Miscarried; I Lived.

    I do not know the whole story;  I have only overhead my mother tell female members of the family what happened. Apparently my mother was pregnant with fraternal twins and did not know it.  She miscarried and took the remains to the hospital - I think this was at 4...
    maurelius maurelius
    5 Responses Dec 13, 2010

    Imagine being told that there would've been two

    of you. Another half to make one. In that instant you understand why you've always felt like you were not enough. It's because you weren't meant to be alone like you are. Knowing the fact I would've had a sister, it helps me to understand all of my (slightly, most likely...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Nov 23, 2014

    To The Other Half Of Me

    i feel like im drowning in my grief, stranded in the middle of an ocean, with no relief, from this cold empty feeling, from the pain of losing you, bet you would never imagine getting a mention from The View, i dont know if this is part of Gods plan, but i'll try to carry on with...
    Barry26 Barry26
    26-30, M
    4 Responses May 29, 2012

    My Identical Twin Died On October 3rd 2013

    My Identical twin, John, died in a traffic accident on Oct. 3rd. The funeral is this friday. I just cannot believe that this happened. It seems impossible to me that I will never see or talk to him again. We were very close and were fortunate to always live close to one another...
    Bigwavedave1 Bigwavedave1
    61-65, M
    2 Responses Oct 8, 2013

    I lost my twin about 4 hours

    after we were born, we were both 6 weeks early. I hadn't really been aware until recently (I'm 24) how this has effected all my relationships since and how I cope with loss. I've always been unconsciously searching to replace her in relationships and never felt good enough on my...
    beth21 beth21
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Oct 6, 2014

    Hi my name is kirsten.

    I am 26 years old, and I lost my twin sister this past Saturday in a terrible car accident. I don't know where to turn. I feel like there are a million people around, but no one in the world at the same time. My twin sister kaitlin and I always hated the question "what does it...
    kirstierae9 kirstierae9
    26-30, F
    Mar 26, 2016

    My twin sister died when we were

    both born. I dont actually know how or why, i only found out two years ago when my uncle told me before he died. The rest of the family has wanted to keep it a secret from me, so now i have to act like i dont know. But finding out explains the whole i have in my life. That...
    deleted deleted
    Aug 22, 2015


    She commit suicide when we were nine years old... I miss her every day...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Sep 5, 2012

    I lost my identical twin sister,

    Ze Xing, the day before my parents' divorce. What a coincidence. We were only 4 years old when my twin died of cancer. I remember being in the hospital with my three elder sisters, elder brother, two younger sisters and four younger brothers. My mother and father were too busy...
    IIblueII IIblueII
    22-25, F
    Jun 9, 2014

    It's almost been a month

    since I lost my twin. I am not handling it well at all. My selfharm has gotten really bad. Suicide thoughts are swimming around in my head. How to I go on without my other half. I miss her so much. She was my only family, my only friend. I've got nothing now :( I may be joining...
    alanabean alanabean
    18-21, F
    3 Responses May 1, 2014

    We look up at the stars

    and wonder how far apart we are although we are always together now and forever
    Outerspzce Outerspzce
    22-25, M
    1 Response Jul 2, 2014

    Twinless Twin Poetry

      I sit back, I relax, but there is always something there A feeling, an emotion, like something in the air A feeling that is always with me It’s been there all my life Through good times, bad times, happiness and strife It’s a feeling of confusion, of not...
    antonyi antonyi
    2 Responses Aug 26, 2011

    I was born in December.

    I was supposed to have a twin brother but he didn't grow right and was born two months after me. He died and didn't even make it properly through birth. I had no idea I had a twin until a couple of weeks ago. I felt somewhat relieved when I found out. For my whole life I felt so...
    hm384823 hm384823
    22-25, F
    1 Response Mar 30, 2014

    Trying To Be One Instead Of Two :-(

    I lost my twinny in April 1997, a few weeks after our 49th birthday. I took Pippi, and being a twin, for granted and we always said we would be two old ladies together. She died in tragically silly and sad circumstances - suddenly. I'm 65 now, and I still think about her...
    tessibear tessibear
    66-70, F
    2 Responses Aug 11, 2013

    my twin brother was born stillborn i was told

    when i was younger but my mother or family never talked with me about this or ever acknowledged my brother so i do not have very strong since of family i have always felt like something is missing and wonder how it would have been growing up with my twin. my sister brought the...
    dgs375 dgs375
    41-45, M
    May 27, 2015

    I just lost my identical twin sister.

    She was hit by a car as I stood frozen. A drunk driver to her life. She was all I had. It's a week today since that horrible day. I held her as she died in the middle of the road. I miss my sister so much. How do you move on when you've lost your other half? We turned 17 just a...
    alanabean alanabean
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 7, 2014
    deleted deleted
    Sep 5, 2015

    My Twin Loss

    So glad that found this cite I lost my twin brother Michael on 7/12/2012 to suicide aged 35 I am screaming for help I am struggling the pain is to strong and thinking the same can someone please help me your all I have?
    Matthewjohntierney Matthewjohntierney
    36-40, M
    4 Responses Sep 30, 2012

    I was born 3 months early in the late 80's.

    fraternal twin to a brother. Today, July 27th, marks the day my brother died 28 years ago. We were only 3 weeks old. I try not to show my parents how much this day hurts me because I know it hurts them too... so I keep my pain to myself. I don't want to hurt them more. Just...
    rmunday rmunday
    26-30, F
    Jul 28, 2015
    jpeace2462 jpeace2462
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jul 7, 2014

    My other half . I survived

    while my twin brother died. I'm graduating in 2 days. I feel lost without him. I feel as if I'm graduating for two people. I want to do everything he wasn't able to do, I wish he's watching over me.
    Iloveyouxo2 Iloveyouxo2
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 10, 2015

    I still vividly remember the night

    that I felt like I had lost my other half because I had actually lost my other half. My twin brother was killed in a car accident. It all happened on June 23, 2014 just a month after we had graduated high school. The whole thing could have been avoided if the other driver was...
    shygirl1316 shygirl1316
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jan 13, 2015

    Some people know I'm a twin.

    I was suppose to have a brother but he never made it. I often wonder what if i was the only that didn't make it. Would he have had a better life than i am?
    badgirlbee badgirlbee
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jul 30, 2015

    I Love And Miss My Twn

    I lost my twn brother 2 weeks ago I went to pick him up for work and I found him he was my best friend we spent every day together life will never be the same. I really don't know what to say I'm heartbroken I've always had my bro for34 years of my Life. and I know life will...
    josephtwn josephtwn
    36-40, M
    1 Response Nov 6, 2013

    I am a twinless twin

    who feels her everyday , I also have a brother who is also a twinless twin .. Since I lost my twin first , he thinks I should be able to tell him how I dealt with my list . I just don't know how I dealt with her lost , I feel she lives forever in my heart .. And told him he has...
    PattyBurr PattyBurr
    56-60, F
    Apr 29, 2014

    I am a twinless twin.

    My twin sister died before we were born. I always felt i was missing something in life, I finally know what it was. My twin sister. Her name would have been Madison. Also when she died, she took part of my immune system with her. now i get sick easily and quick. I wish she was...
    minecraft1229 minecraft1229
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Apr 4, 2015

    My mom told when when I was pretty young,

    around 3 or 4, I think. Apparently my mom didn't even find out until she had a miscarriage. Thinking she was miscarrying her only baby, she rushed to the doctor, who informed her that she did miscarry a baby... but that there was a surviving twin. (me!) When I was 3 - 4 years...
    baileywhale baileywhale
    26-30, F
    Mar 27, 2015

    Two Sister's Together & Apart

    Hi. My twin and I were born at 27 weeks. We were very sick. We both had complications with breathing and brain bleeds. Hers was the worst. She passed because her lungs collapsed. We were born March 20 1993 & she passed March 22 1993. I never got to meet her obviously. I've come a...
    sisters2getherapart sisters2getherapart
    22-25, F
    1 Response Nov 18, 2013

    I am 25 years old and lost my identical twin

    brother 3 weeks ago unexpectedly. I am not doing well at all and I feel as if I cannot live on without him. I really need to talk to someone who can relate to the pain I am feeling.
    Hbwows Hbwows
    26-30, M
    4 Responses Mar 1, 2016

    I am almost positive.

    I can just feel it. I cannot stress how much I do. It's like... I don't know how to explain it. My mum tells me that I have never had/nor have a twin, but I just... I don't know why but I feel it. Like, I literally could cry right now because of how strong the feeling is. It...
    ghostsings ghostsings
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Jan 31, 2014

    I lost my twin sister at age 3

    when she died from heart failure due to a congenital heart defect. I remember faintly being in the hospital with her. She was very weak and wanted to play with me but couldn't. Her last words were to me, as I was told by my parents, she asked "Will you come with me?" because...
    alexane183 alexane183
    18-21, F
    Dec 22, 2014

    I am a twinless twin,

    sometimes i wish i was never born at all. I mean what is the point of living when you were meant to come with someone like you or looks like you, instead i think of what it could have been of he was here. I blame the problem of my twin dying on my dad soulless ****. Hope in the...
    tizzy95uk tizzy95uk
    Aug 10, 2015

    My Experience Being A Twinless Twin.

         Losing a twin is like losing a limb.  A part of yourself is missing, you have to learn how to live without it, but even with the loss you still feel them with you.  I was born on April 15, 1980.  Just two minutes after my twin Jason. We...
    alwaysatwin alwaysatwin
    26-30, F
    21 Responses Apr 10, 2010

    My mother told me when I was 18

    that I was a twin although she lost the other twin by miscarriage around 20 weeks gestation. I couldn't believe it was real when she told me. I remembered as a kid telling my mom and friends that I felt like I had a twin. And I felt like I always tried to fill the void by...
    jmcgee831 jmcgee831
    26-30, F
    Apr 20, 2014

    I Hated The Funeral Speeches

    Mason, my brother, my other half. He died two years ago, but everyday when I wake up it feels like it was yesterday. Mason wasn't just my twin, he wasn't just my brother. He was my shoulder to cry on, the band aide to my injury, the food to my hunger, the beat to my heart. He...
    JinxSilver JinxSilver
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Jun 12, 2013

    I was supposed to be a twin my entire life.

    I found out when I was 8 and found a death certificate dated a few months before my birthday. I later found out My name supposed to be Caleb (even though I'm a girl) and his Chase. I feel like I killed him because I was the bigger of us two.. Because he didn't last as long as I...
    OctoberMalfoy OctoberMalfoy
    Nov 18, 2014

    I Am A Twinless Twin

    I lost my twin sister in January of 2012 in a car accident. I was also in the car accident and witnessed it all. I had to call 911 while my mom was hugging her body and screaming. I'm scarred and always get flashbacks. I can't get the sight of her laying there out of my head. It...
    Cooperluv23 Cooperluv23
    18-21, F
    Aug 25, 2013

    I am a fraternal twin.

    I was born 4 months early im March of 1991 so was my twin brother I weighed 1 pound 6 onces then dropped down to just 8 ounces my brother was born 1 pound 4 ounces he died a day after we were born due to his breathing my mom took him off life support..but I was able to breathe...
    Eriicuh24 Eriicuh24
    Jun 16, 2015

    Gone Way To Young

    My name is Nicole I just lost my twin may 10 2012 we just shared our 31st birthday april 12 my sister died due to a tragic motorcycle. Accident she left behind 2 amazing little boys well the thing is I feel as if half of my soul is gone I never been alone I always. Had her to...
    nicolemccrief nicolemccrief
    7 Responses May 20, 2012

    34 years old & confined to solitude

    My mother miscarried my twin about 5 months into her pregnancy. She was unaware she was having twins until about a month and a half later. I was still there. They never hid the twin from me, and we've all made our jokes that this world couldn't handle two of me. I never realized...
    Tcavness Tcavness
    36-40, F
    1 Response Dec 6, 2013

    my little brother told my mother

    that he felt as if he wasn’t wanted when he was 8 years old as if he was just a reminder of my twin brother a burden at ******* 8 years old he didn’t want to be alive because he felt unwanted guilty which is basically how i feel guilty i’m not supposed to be alive all i do...
    silentwithsomuchtosay silentwithsomuchtosay
    18-21, F
    Nov 9, 2015

    My twin sister Summer passed away two weeks ago

    and I feel like half of me is missing. I keep expecting her to be there, eating breakfast when I come downstairs one morning, or come running to tell me all about last night's business with some new guy. It was always Summer and Savanna and now it's just Savanna and I don't know...
    Savvy360 Savvy360
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Mar 8, 2015

    I lost my sister Ariel

    when we were about almost 5 month gestation due to twin twin transfusion. I have known about her since I was about 5 years old. My whole life i have constantly felt like there was something missing, and nothing has been able to fill this void i have inside. I sometime get sad...
    12Angariel 12Angariel
    26-30, F
    Jun 1, 2014
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