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I Am a Twinless-twin

This is for those of us who had twins who died - at birth or anytime in life. 281 People

    My twin sister Summer passed away two weeks ago

    and I feel like half of me is missing. I keep expecting her to be there, eating breakfast when I come downstairs one morning, or come running to tell me all about last night's business with some new guy. It was always Summer and Savanna and now it's just Savanna and I don't know...
    Savvy360 Savvy360 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 8

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    We look up at the stars

    and wonder how far apart we are although we are always together now and forever
    Outerspzce Outerspzce 18-21, M Jul 2, 2014

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    The entire pregnancy was normal.

    There weren't any complications until the birth.(Katie's placenta had ruptured) I lost my identical twin sister Katie 18 hours after our birth. I spent my entire childhood with Katie. My best friend was my dead twin that I haven't ever met. I hadn't made a real friend until my...
    daniellenotnobody daniellenotnobody 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 14, 2014

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    I lost my twin sister at age 3

    when she died from heart failure due to a congenital heart defect. I remember faintly being in the hospital with her. She was very weak and wanted to play with me but couldn't. Her last words were to me, as I was told by my parents, she asked "Will you come with me?" because...
    alexane183 alexane183 18-21, F Dec 22, 2014

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    My twin died when we were at 5 months gestation.

    I survived and was born only two weeks early. They think we had twin to twin transfusion syndrome because we were identical and shared a placenta. Her death probably saved my life. I have given her the name Emily.
    chaoticidealism chaoticidealism 31-35 4 Responses Feb 19, 2014

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    I just lost my identical twin February 9th.

    She was my past, present and future. I have lost part of my being. I can't accept it.
    tatee1 tatee1 56-60 1 Response Mar 28, 2014

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    My mom told when when I was pretty young,

    around 3 or 4, I think. Apparently my mom didn't even find out until she had a miscarriage. Thinking she was miscarrying her only baby, she rushed to the doctor, who informed her that she did miscarry a baby... but that there was a surviving twin. (me!) When I was 3 - 4 years...
    baileywhale baileywhale 26-30, F Mar 27

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    34 years old & confined to solitude

    My mother miscarried my twin about 5 months into her pregnancy. She was unaware she was having twins until about a month and a half later. I was still there. They never hid the twin from me, and we've all made our jokes that this world couldn't handle two of me. I never realized...
    Tcavness Tcavness 31-35, F 1 Response Dec 6, 2013

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    My Twin Miscarried; I Lived.

    I do not know the whole story;  I have only overhead my mother tell female members of the family what happened. Apparently my mother was pregnant with fraternal twins and did not know it.  She miscarried and took the remains to the hospital - I think this was at 4...
    maurelius maurelius 41-45 5 Responses Dec 13, 2010

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    Imagine being told that there would've been two

    of you. Another half to make one. In that instant you understand why you've always felt like you were not enough. It's because you weren't meant to be alone like you are. Knowing the fact I would've had a sister, it helps me to understand all of my (slightly, most likely...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 23, 2014

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    To The Other Half Of Me

    i feel like im drowning in my grief, stranded in the middle of an ocean, with no relief, from this cold empty feeling, from the pain of losing you, bet you would never imagine getting a mention from The View, i dont know if this is part of Gods plan, but i'll try to carry on with...
    Barry26 Barry26 26-30, M 3 Responses May 29, 2012

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    I was supposed to be a twin

    but my mother miscarried my sister early on in the pregnancy.
    pinksteam pinksteam 18-21, F 1 Response May 27, 2014

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    I Love And Miss My Twn

    I lost my twn brother 2 weeks ago I went to pick him up for work and I found him he was my best friend we spent every day together life will never be the same. I really don't know what to say I'm heartbroken I've always had my bro for34 years of my Life. and I know life will...
    josephtwn josephtwn 36-40, M Nov 6, 2013

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    Gone....

    She commit suicide when we were nine years old... I miss her every day...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Sep 5, 2012

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    I am almost positive.

    I can just feel it. I cannot stress how much I do. It's like... I don't know how to explain it. My mum tells me that I have never had/nor have a twin, but I just... I don't know why but I feel it. Like, I literally could cry right now because of how strong the feeling is. It...
    ghostsings ghostsings 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 31, 2014

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    It's so weird when I look at my birth

    certificate and it says that I'm the second born twin. I sometimes wonder what it would've been like to actually grow up with them in my life but I know everything happens for a reason.
    Itsnotareligion Itsnotareligion 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 5

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    theirs a thing called vanishing twin syndrome

    it happens very early in the pregnancy and the baby is absorbed but the mother, child, or placenta... no one knows if i definelty had a twin... but I know somehow I had a twin it was a girl and we were identicle... I'm not making this up, they say you have a void that doesn't...
    Jessandjordyn0702 Jessandjordyn0702 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 8, 2014

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    I've Been Lost Without My Twin

    I too lost my twin to suicide. Richard decided to take his own life when we were 27.  Almost 20 years has passed since his death but not a day goes by when I don't think about him.   The blessings and experiences in having a twin were many.  Our birthday is coming up soon...
    thehip thehip 46-50 1 Response Jan 2, 2011

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    I lost my twin brother Jonny to a Brain

    aneurysm 2 years ago this month. He was 36 and we did everything together since birth. I don't know how to go on other than looking out after my family and Jonnys wife. I also had a brain bleed 10yrs ago and recovered, we both had congenial defects i guess, but why am i still...
    martusmatt martusmatt 36-40, M 1 Response Jan 15, 2014

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    I am a twinless twin.

    My twin sister died before we were born. I always felt i was missing something in life, I finally know what it was. My twin sister. Her name would have been Madison. Also when she died, she took part of my immune system with her. now i get sick easily and quick. I wish she was...
    minecraft1229 minecraft1229 13-15, F Apr 4

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    My Twin Loss

    So glad that found this cite I lost my twin brother Michael on 7/12/2012 to suicide aged 35 I am screaming for help I am struggling the pain is to strong and thinking the same can someone please help me your all I have?
    Matthewjohntierney Matthewjohntierney 36-40, M 4 Responses Sep 30, 2012

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    I just lost my identical twin sister.

    She was hit by a car as I stood frozen. A drunk driver to her life. She was all I had. It's a week today since that horrible day. I held her as she died in the middle of the road. I miss my sister so much. How do you move on when you've lost your other half? We turned 17 just a...
    alanabean alanabean 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 7, 2014

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    My Natalie

    My twin sister Natalie passed away Feb. 1988. We were only 2 years old, but I remember that horrible day like it was just yesterday, I remember my mom and I running after my sister but we couldn't catch up to her, the car was reversing and ran over her, I remember screaming for...
    Lisso Lisso 26-30, F Oct 24, 2013

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    My twin died at 5 months in my mom whom

    and what makes me mad that my mom didnt tell me tell i was 11 years old I all was think is she / he looking down on me well I ever see my twin one day I hope soo
    funnygirl32226 funnygirl32226 16-17, F Feb 22, 2014

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    My Twin Angel

    My twin and I were super close all our lives together.  As kids, we had some of our own toys but we never fought over the ones we shared.  We shared a room until she died at the age of 23.  We were in the same clubs, on the same team, home-schooled from 2nd grade...
    zoeticism zoeticism 36-40 4 Responses Aug 19, 2009

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    My Twin, Daniel

    My twin brother died the day after we were born of Polycystic Kidney Disease. Actually, a year before that, my parents had another son who died the day he was born - of the same disease, only of a different form. I'm almost 21 years old and I wish he was here with me. I really...
    downtheroad downtheroad 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 8, 2008

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    I lost my identical twin sister,

    Ze Xing, the day before my parents' divorce. What a coincidence. We were only 4 years old when my twin died of cancer. I remember being in the hospital with my three elder sisters, elder brother, two younger sisters and four younger brothers. My mother and father were too busy...
    IIblueII IIblueII 18-21, F Jun 9, 2014

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    Twinless Twin Poetry

      I sit back, I relax, but there is always something there A feeling, an emotion, like something in the air A feeling that is always with me It’s been there all my life Through good times, bad times, happiness and strife It’s a feeling of confusion, of not...
    antonyi antonyi 26-30 3 Responses Aug 26, 2011

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    Gone Way To Young

    My name is Nicole I just lost my twin may 10 2012 we just shared our 31st birthday april 12 my sister died due to a tragic motorcycle. Accident she left behind 2 amazing little boys well the thing is I feel as if half of my soul is gone I never been alone I always. Had her to...
    nicolemccrief nicolemccrief 31-35 7 Responses May 20, 2012

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    It's almost been a month

    since I lost my twin. I am not handling it well at all. My selfharm has gotten really bad. Suicide thoughts are swimming around in my head. How to I go on without my other half. I miss her so much. She was my only family, my only friend. I've got nothing now :( I may be joining...
    alanabean alanabean 18-21, F 3 Responses May 1, 2014

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    My Identical Twin Died On October 3rd 2013

    My Identical twin, John, died in a traffic accident on Oct. 3rd. The funeral is this friday. I just cannot believe that this happened. It seems impossible to me that I will never see or talk to him again. We were very close and were fortunate to always live close to one another...
    Bigwavedave1 Bigwavedave1 56-60, M 2 Responses Oct 8, 2013

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    I am a twinless twin

    who feels her everyday , I also have a brother who is also a twinless twin .. Since I lost my twin first , he thinks I should be able to tell him how I dealt with my list . I just don't know how I dealt with her lost , I feel she lives forever in my heart .. And told him he has...
    PattyBurr PattyBurr 56-60, F Apr 29, 2014

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    Mirror Images

        Sixty-four years together and now I am alone.  How do you become a single entity after walking hand in hand since birth.  She has been gone two years now and it seems like yesterday.  Secretely, I know I will never truly be happy again.  Not truly, truly.  I am a...
    ripples2 ripples2 61-65 4 Responses May 26, 2012

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    I still vividly remember the night

    that I felt like I had lost my other half because I had actually lost my other half. My twin brother was killed in a car accident. It all happened on June 23, 2014 just a month after we had graduated high school. The whole thing could have been avoided if the other driver was...
    shygirl1316 shygirl1316 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 13

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    Lost Twin To Suicide- Yes, Moms Ok

    My story title comes from the countless greetings,from friends and loved ones, who were concerned. Many times I regret staying around my mother, because apparently, its easier to identify losing a child, than losing a twin. Over and over again, I would have people ask me how my...
    Marz1118 Marz1118 31-35, F 4 Responses Sep 13, 2013

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    Two Sister's Together & Apart

    Hi. My twin and I were born at 27 weeks. We were very sick. We both had complications with breathing and brain bleeds. Hers was the worst. She passed because her lungs collapsed. We were born March 20 1993 & she passed March 22 1993. I never got to meet her obviously. I've come a...
    sisters2getherapart sisters2getherapart 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 18, 2013

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    I Hated The Funeral Speeches

    Mason, my brother, my other half. He died two years ago, but everyday when I wake up it feels like it was yesterday. Mason wasn't just my twin, he wasn't just my brother. He was my shoulder to cry on, the band aide to my injury, the food to my hunger, the beat to my heart. He...
    JinxSilver JinxSilver 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 12, 2013

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    The loss of my identical twin,

    Brian, is so hard to escape.
    jeffat jeffat 46-50, M 2 Responses Mar 25, 2014

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    I was born in December.

    I was supposed to have a twin brother but he didn't grow right and was born two months after me. He died and didn't even make it properly through birth. I had no idea I had a twin until a couple of weeks ago. I felt somewhat relieved when I found out. For my whole life I felt so...
    hm384823 hm384823 22-25, F Mar 30, 2014

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    My Experience Being A Twinless Twin.

         Losing a twin is like losing a limb.  A part of yourself is missing, you have to learn how to live without it, but even with the loss you still feel them with you.  I was born on April 15, 1980.  Just two minutes after my twin Jason. We...
    alwaysatwin alwaysatwin 26-30, F 20 Responses Apr 10, 2010

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    Trying To Be One Instead Of Two :-(

    I lost my twinny in April 1997, a few weeks after our 49th birthday. I took Pippi, and being a twin, for granted and we always said we would be two old ladies together. She died in tragically silly and sad circumstances - suddenly. I'm 65 now, and I still think about her...
    tessibear tessibear 66-70, F 2 Responses Aug 11, 2013

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    It has been six years to the day

    that I became a twinless-twin: I lost my twin brother, Michon when we were both thirteen years old, he had died due to a severe case of pneumonia. He died teary-eyed in my arms. Both me and my brother were identical twins and almost everyone who knew us had trouble telling us...
    Wattouat Wattouat 18-21, F 3 Responses May 15, 2014

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    The Rariety Of A Best Friend

    Me and my best friend are one in the same, one day we both were really sick in the morning but we still went to school, we both felt something was going to go really wrong and we had anxiety attacks all day, and then that very day I had my first near death experience. its crazy...
    SilentShallowBlogger SilentShallowBlogger 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 14, 2011

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    My mother told me when I was 18

    that I was a twin although she lost the other twin by miscarriage around 20 weeks gestation. I couldn't believe it was real when she told me. I remembered as a kid telling my mom and friends that I felt like I had a twin. And I felt like I always tried to fill the void by...
    jmcgee831 jmcgee831 22-25, F Apr 20, 2014

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    I Am A Twinless Twin

    I lost my twin sister in January of 2012 in a car accident. I was also in the car accident and witnessed it all. I had to call 911 while my mom was hugging her body and screaming. I'm scarred and always get flashbacks. I can't get the sight of her laying there out of my head. It...
    Cooperluv23 Cooperluv23 16-17, F Aug 25, 2013

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    I was supposed to be a twin my entire life.

    I found out when I was 8 and found a death certificate dated a few months before my birthday. I later found out My name supposed to be Caleb (even though I'm a girl) and his Chase. I feel like I killed him because I was the bigger of us two.. Because he didn't last as long as I...
    OctoberMalfoy OctoberMalfoy 18-21 1 Response Nov 18, 2014

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