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I Am a Victim of Extreme Depression

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 224 People

    Experiencing Depression

    People keep asking me to explain my feelings, to snap out of it. I'm just writing this to explain a bit of depression feels like. This is only a brief explanation because you can't "explain" being sad or suicidal sometimes, it's just your feelings. So here it goes. : Imagine...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Dec 1, 2012

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    My Mind... Is Against Me.

    I become depressed and i dont know why. my mind starts to ask stupid questions and i start to think of ways i could die. i dont think if anyone will miss me or if i will be remembered. i just think of how i can die. i think and think, i start to cry and i become cold inside , i...
    VictimOfCircumstance VictimOfCircumstance 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 31, 2013

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    Suffering In Silence

    I'm 13 this year, I've been suffering from depression since I was bout' 5 years old. I don't have a father. My mother is more concerned about work than family. I have learnt how to disguise my true feelings, fake a smile, force a laugh, hide my hurt from others. I have constant...
    Josephineong Josephineong 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 28, 2013

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    New Research Regarding Depression

    H ello all, I am a fellow depressive. I am a pretty motivated person, so I did a lot of research on my own because the doctors didn't really help me all that much. 8 years later, I got it figured out. Now, I just wanna make sure that everyone else knows what I know, so...
    UV4D UV4D 26-30 2 Responses Apr 28, 2008

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    My Story

    it hurts when all u can do is watch.. i used to  cut myself... it was really bad.. but thats felt like the only thing i can do. my family really didn't do anything about it at first.. but as i kept doin it.. the finally came around.. i dont do it anymore.. but...
    hottii12 hottii12 19-21, F 1 Response Feb 8, 2008

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    It's Back Again

    I have always had depression I just didn't know it when I was younger I got diagnosed at 14 and started taking all sorts of different Meds I just felt num So after a year an a half I stoped taking them and I started to feel really happy I was able to bond more with friends and...
    Izakay420 Izakay420 16-17 Oct 1, 2012

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    Bored

    Hi.I feel lonley very much.I need some one to talk to....oh god.I'm dying :(
    lonely1boy lonely1boy 22-25, M 1 Response Dec 2, 2012

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    Depression is real. Why,

    depression is as real as emotions.
    Ichilicious Ichilicious 26-30, M Aug 18, 2014

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    I'm not a typical teenager i know.

    I've been through things most teens could never imagine or hope to go thru, but yet i still manage to keep a smile on my face and take every opertunity i can to be happy, and be happy. I've been cheated on, abused, my mom and i have no bond i moved out her house to live with my...
    misscomplicated2013 misscomplicated2013 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 3, 2014

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    The Truth

    victim explains it all i hate it wen ppl lable me emo like i choose to b depressed i hate the word emo its such a ******* lable god ppl r ******* they don't even try to understand they r just so quick to lable*sigh* will it even end?
    SuicidalMess SuicidalMess 22-25, F 5 Responses Oct 24, 2007

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    The Wanderer

    Yup, been wandering since hormones took over my body @ 12 years of age. Drinkin, drugs and boys were my self- medication back then. It has only excerbated over the years. Always runnin and hidin from society, yet tryin to fit into a middle-class life with my children for their...
    whitedove whitedove 31-35 1 Response Jan 1, 2009

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    megster16 megster16 16-17, F Nov 6, 2014

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    Never Noticed.

    so. depression RUNS in my family. like more than 3 people have had it, AND i have obvious scars all over my right arm, and that is the last time im cutting. (always say that but then a year or so later im at it again)  parents dont even notice. nobody notices. in fact my mom...
    kimosabi kimosabi 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 13, 2008

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    Letting Go

    I know I love you, I just feel dead. This unexpected grief and sadness that we have been battling for over a year now. We were happy, I was happy- Before. Until the cancer, Until the terminal Until the sickness pounding in her head. We're at the mercy of the ghost. She changed...
    jenniferxlove jenniferxlove 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 10, 2011

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    Related Experiences

    I haven't figure out if this is bipolar or depression. It's so hard to figure out because I was raised in a depressed, negative, abusive environment, and I was bullied a lot -- so...
    ChellyRocker ChellyRocker 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 16

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    I've had extreme depression and bipolar depression. Latley I've just been feeling numb and when I was numb I thought I was happy bc I just didn't care anymore . Now I'm starting to...
    laquilamarie laquilamarie 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 19

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    To put it simply, I'm a 19 year old suffering from anxiety and depression, I have an older brother who has been physically abusive, a younger brother who is autistic and I am a...
    CPJS CPJS 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 9

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    I am SOOO TIRED of the stereotyping it makes me SICK . It takes REAL courage to cry so for all you guys who have been told to to be a man and suck it up FORGET that trash it...
    RedsSaphire RedsSaphire 31-35, F 2 hrs ago

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    False. Depression and selfishness go hand in hand. Withdrawing from the world hurts the people we love. What is more selfish than wallowing in self-pity? Most of us want to...
    adianoeta adianoeta 26-30, F 6 Responses Jan 3

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    Depression has been a part of my life since I was 11 years old, when I was diagnosed as Manic Depressive and prescribed Sertraline (Zoloft) to help manage it. Since then, it has...
    Boulier Boulier 18-21, F Jan 18

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    Hi my name is Michael Guynn and i live in Utah. I am 16. I have been struggling with major depression since 5th grade, before that I was a happy, normal kid. One day I remember...
    MikeyGuynn MikeyGuynn 16-17, M Jan 18

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    I am new here & not quite sure how all of this works. I have been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder although I still don't know as much as I'd like about it because my...
    mandy32893 mandy32893 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    2). What ideas do I find uncomfortable, troubling, or dangerous? Why?I find the idea of a God to be dangerous. People use their God as a way to ask for strength they already have...
    TwentyTwoReasons TwentyTwoReasons 18-21, M 2 Responses Jan 21

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    I will not be a victim of my past relationships.... I will not be a victim of my childhood... I will not allow myself to be a victim of emotional abuse.... I'm trying to overcome...
    Orangerocket Orangerocket 31-35, F 7 Responses 3 days ago

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    my depression is on and of. I was fine today. I was actually extremely random and happy, I was posting random questions on EP and I was fine. now all of a sudden im depressed and...
    EnjoyTheSilenceX EnjoyTheSilenceX 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 3

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    I don't appreciate it when people say that having depression or being depressed is being selfish because, yes there is a lot of things in the world that are going on and for people...
    theultimatesashacourtney theultimatesashacourtney 13-15, F Jan 4

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    It utterly ****** me off how my mood can change in a span of seconds from extremely happy to really depressed and miserable !! The little things that the close ones in my life...
    TheLeftBehind TheLeftBehind 16-17, M 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    I have a question for those of you who have depression along with bipolar disorder. what do your mixed episodes feel like? mine feel like extreme agitation and I can't be touched...
    danielle18 danielle18 18-21, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    My former wife would get very angry particularly prior to her period. Her moods would change. Nothing anybody did was right. On one occasion she threw her birthday dinner across...
    picklebobble picklebobble 46-50, M 1 Response Jan 7

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    im suffering i am addicted to my abusive ex. hes extremely mean
    amtired amtired 22-25 Jan 14

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    I feel really, really frusterated. I HATE feeling like a victim to my emotions like this but when something over takes you so much it can be SO hard to not loathe yourself. When...
    Virgo1929 Virgo1929 18-21, F Jan 15

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    Hey y'all. Long time me no love you. Everything is an ordeal in my eyes. The reason for this is slowly being unraveled through introspection and conversation with therapists and...
    adianoeta adianoeta 26-30, F Jan 17

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    I've been thinking a lot about young people that I've met over the past several years. I keep hearing a common theme. They all start different but they end the same. They put me...
    SRayne SRayne 41-45 2 Responses Jan 17

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    For as long as I can remember, my parents have emotionally and mentally abused me. Over the years, I've developed some serious issues with anxiety and depression due to the abuse...
    DarkDesires019 DarkDesires019 18-21, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    ~THE ART OF EMOTIONAL ABUSE~ THE CANVAS How do you become the victim of emotional abuse? Why don’t you just get out? I've been asked “What did he do to you?” BRUSH STROKES...
    Breeziiee Breeziiee 41-45, F 1 Response Jan 4

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    I am a victim of physical and emotional abuse, I am 25 and met him when I was 19. As many people say, they are charming at first and seemed very clever and manipulative with his...
    Brightheart89 Brightheart89 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 16

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    I have read story after story of people violated by transsexuals whom misrepresented themselves and became involved with members of their same actual sex. These victims became...
    PixieCutLover PixieCutLover 41-45, M 3 days ago

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    I've been depressed for 7 years now. I may get temporary respite- say a month of semi enjoying myself but then it comes back. I can't really relate to most people, and they in turn...
    nikkip1989 nikkip1989 22-25, F 4 Responses Dec 30, 2014

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    Everything just suddenly crashed on me. It's becoming more and more of a battle to simply have conversations when my mind is just a mess. I can't talk to my friends because I don't...
    Wiltedleaves Wiltedleaves 16-17, F 4 Responses Jan 7

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    The distractions I've tried so desperately to cling to do nothing for me anymore. I have always been painfully self aware of all the dark inside of me. The problem with that is...
    airisfleeting airisfleeting 22-25, M Jan 11

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    Anyone want to talk to me? I'm feeling extremely suicidal and feel like I want to...well idk
    aqphoen aqphoen 18-21, M 5 Responses Jan 16

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    today I woke up really feeling it. and to make matters worse. I feel as though I may have jumped the gun on something. I'm in that mode of I don't know if I'm right or if I'm...
    greeneyz83 greeneyz83 31-35, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    This seems very trivial to me... People I speak to here would probably say I'm fairly optimistic. I have to be, sometimes it's the only thing I have to keep me moving forward. I...
    WytW0lf WytW0lf 22-25, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I love feeling so depressed that I just start balling over something I should feel happy and act calm about... Perfect and with school tomorrow insomnia can start now.... *Hint...
    purplesucidaldreams purplesucidaldreams 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    A time before I was truly depressed, I was worried about depression. I thought I was happy, bubbly, I liked living. Those moments where I would stare in the bathroom mirror with an...
    BridieNM BridieNM 13-15, F Jan 1

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    Meditation helps depression HUGELY. If you’ve always heard meditation could help but never really took the plunge, this is for you. My name is Jerimiah, and I wrote an eBook on...
    TheMeditatingCat TheMeditatingCat 18-21, M 2 Responses Jan 9

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