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I Am a Victim of Extreme Depression

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 222 People

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    Hi.I feel lonley very much.I need some one to talk to....oh god.I'm dying :(
    lonely1boy lonely1boy 22-25, M 1 Response Dec 2, 2012

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    The Wanderer

    Yup, been wandering since hormones took over my body @ 12 years of age. Drinkin, drugs and boys were my self- medication back then. It has only excerbated over the years. Always runnin and hidin from society, yet tryin to fit into a middle-class life with my children for their...
    whitedove whitedove 31-35 1 Response Jan 1, 2009

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    My Story

    it hurts when all u can do is watch.. i used to  cut myself... it was really bad.. but thats felt like the only thing i can do. my family really didn't do anything about it at first.. but as i kept doin it.. the finally came around.. i dont do it anymore.. but...
    hottii12 hottii12 19-21, F 1 Response Feb 8, 2008

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    megster16 megster16 16-17, F Nov 6

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    Experiencing Depression

    People keep asking me to explain my feelings, to snap out of it. I'm just writing this to explain a bit of depression feels like. This is only a brief explanation because you can't "explain" being sad or suicidal sometimes, it's just your feelings. So here it goes. : Imagine...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Dec 1, 2012

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    Letting Go

    I know I love you, I just feel dead. This unexpected grief and sadness that we have been battling for over a year now. We were happy, I was happy- Before. Until the cancer, Until the terminal Until the sickness pounding in her head. We're at the mercy of the ghost. She changed...
    jenniferxlove jenniferxlove 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 10, 2011

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    Never Noticed.

    so. depression RUNS in my family. like more than 3 people have had it, AND i have obvious scars all over my right arm, and that is the last time im cutting. (always say that but then a year or so later im at it again)  parents dont even notice. nobody notices. in fact my mom...
    kimosabi kimosabi 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 13, 2008

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    I'm not a typical teenager i know.

    I've been through things most teens could never imagine or hope to go thru, but yet i still manage to keep a smile on my face and take every opertunity i can to be happy, and be happy. I've been cheated on, abused, my mom and i have no bond i moved out her house to live with my...
    misscomplicated2013 misscomplicated2013 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 3

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    New Research Regarding Depression

    H ello all, I am a fellow depressive. I am a pretty motivated person, so I did a lot of research on my own because the doctors didn't really help me all that much. 8 years later, I got it figured out. Now, I just wanna make sure that everyone else knows what I know, so...
    UV4D UV4D 26-30 2 Responses Apr 28, 2008

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    Suffering In Silence

    I'm 13 this year, I've been suffering from depression since I was bout' 5 years old. I don't have a father. My mother is more concerned about work than family. I have learnt how to disguise my true feelings, fake a smile, force a laugh, hide my hurt from others. I have constant...
    Josephineong Josephineong 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 28, 2013

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    My Mind... Is Against Me.

    I become depressed and i dont know why. my mind starts to ask stupid questions and i start to think of ways i could die. i dont think if anyone will miss me or if i will be remembered. i just think of how i can die. i think and think, i start to cry and i become cold inside , i...
    VictimOfCircumstance VictimOfCircumstance 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 31, 2013

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    It's Back Again

    I have always had depression I just didn't know it when I was younger I got diagnosed at 14 and started taking all sorts of different Meds I just felt num So after a year an a half I stoped taking them and I started to feel really happy I was able to bond more with friends and...
    Izakay420 Izakay420 16-17 Oct 1, 2012

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    The Truth

    victim explains it all i hate it wen ppl lable me emo like i choose to b depressed i hate the word emo its such a ******* lable god ppl r ******* they don't even try to understand they r just so quick to lable*sigh* will it even end?
    SuicidalMess SuicidalMess 22-25, F 5 Responses Oct 24, 2007

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    Depression is real. Why,

    depression is as real as emotions.
    Ichilicious Ichilicious 26-30, M Aug 18

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    The sad part in depression are people who doesn't understand depression or just completely ignore people with depression. Depression comes from a lot of things, not going to say...
    Kiritosteele Kiritosteele 22-25, M 3 days ago

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    I am about to open my heart completely in here. Today I am living one of the worst days of my life and yes. It's depression, this ghost that has been haunting my life for a long...
    Allaloneandpoisoned Allaloneandpoisoned 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 29

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    All my life I have battled depression and my depression is extremely bad for me...all I have to do is look at a knife or anything dangerous and all I want to do is hurt myself...
    Scarsdontfade Scarsdontfade 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 16

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    I joined this experience, not because I am a victim of emotional abuse by somebody else, but because I am emotional abuse's victim. in other words, I am the emotional abuser. I...
    WeArePilots WeArePilots 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 11

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    Okay so about 15 weeks ago tomorrow. I will be a big mile stone for me and i an extremely happy that i am able to say i made it this far & that i am not even halfway finished on my...
    MichellexxLevine314 MichellexxLevine314 16-17, F 3 Responses Dec 7

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    it's hard to move on, when everyone knows your past, my dirty secrets. I wish it remained a secret. I wish, I could just smile to people and not carry around a sign I have...
    XxSxarletxX XxSxarletxX 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 1

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    So I was one of those "smart" ppl who thought that if I feel normal I can stop taking my Prozac..such a shame especially when I work as a nurse lol. Well few months later my...
    Elalala Elalala 26-30, F 4 Responses Dec 4

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    Today has been a bad day. Despite my three medications the downside of my depressive bipolar kicked in big time. Spent all day with no desire to do anything, no appetite...
    Neondaze Neondaze 51-55, M 1 Response Dec 10

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    3 shades: Black White & Grey What are the colors of the rainbow? Most eyes see a vibrant world painted by the full color spectrum soaking up the light prisms as they cast...
    writingmyrelease writingmyrelease 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 11

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    3 shades: Black White & Grey What are the colors of the rainbow? Most eyes see a vibrant world painted by the full color spectrum soaking up the light prisms as they cast...
    writingmyrelease writingmyrelease 26-30, F Dec 11

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    I turn the lights out, turn up the speakers. Listen to the sound pouring out. It goes through me, almost as if there is electricity in the air. It's dark, but I move as though I...
    airisfleeting airisfleeting 22-25, M 1 Response Dec 13

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    Therapy update: Went back again today. Talked about the voices I've been hearing, and about how I've been treating my body with the pills. It's been a few weeks of extreme ups and...
    gybe gybe 18-21, M 3 Responses Dec 5

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    I had an episode yesterday. The thing is, it was made worse by people close to me. They had no patience for me and it was extremely obvious. I was dismissed by two of them. One of...
    SwanInTheWater SwanInTheWater 22-25, F 5 Responses Dec 8

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    Some days no matters how hard you try, nothing seems to get right. My usual self would say, go to sleep, and keep trying tomorrow will bring something new, maybe better... who...
    valeMar valeMar 41-45 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    *i wrote this on my notes a few months ago, but forgot to post it. I'm not sure which experience to post this on, so I'll post it here* I just got done reading all of my stories...
    SleepyRose22 SleepyRose22 22-25, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I've been diagnosed with this for about 2 years. My moods are low and today I am really feeling it. My therapist let me down by cancelling our first appointment. I know she was...
    SpiritualBunny SpiritualBunny 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 28

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    I am so worried about future. I am upset with my ignorant parents though I feel pitiful for them because they were victims of their government in another place, born and grew at...
    Ssslm Ssslm 26-30, F 5 Responses Nov 30

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    I met this guy in 7th grade. At first I had very little interest in him and someway or another (I believe through Facebook) he contacted me and we started speaking very often...
    Neverbackaway Neverbackaway 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 1

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    Hey guys! Well, I decided to try posting something motivational. Here goes nothing I guess. Everyone screws up at some point in their life. We all do. I know as a 17 year old, my...
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 4

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    I'm confused, are you saying, that you want to help those who commit murder of souls by therapy?? I neither believe that a child abuser can change..... statically, professionally...
    081275fizz 081275fizz 36-40, F Dec 12

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    When i was little i remember my mom always trying to "protect me" from different kind of things. she would never let me do things that i liked, for example cheer leading claiming...
    hxnnaah hxnnaah 16-17, F Dec 14

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    I was bullied as a kid, ignored as a teen, and put down by most every guy I dated until recently. I grew up in a home where my father emotionally and physically abused my mom and...
    hoobityhobbity hoobityhobbity 26-30, F 9 Responses Dec 18

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    I mean really, a long history of victimization has left me so strong in so many aspects but there is still the residual leftovers deep inside. I tell myself I am worthless, that I...
    SameOldLoneliness SameOldLoneliness 31-35, F 1 Response Dec 8

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    It took me 6 years to realize that I am a victim of emotional abuse. As a teenager I also said that I would never be "one of those girls" and be in a relationship that destroyed...
    Laniemae45 Laniemae45 22-25, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    holidays is when the i get extremely depressed...i think about my family and wish for day when i would be welcomed back. i sometimes think if i were to die would anyone miss me or...
    lizzypoo1971tnapk lizzypoo1971tnapk 41-45, F 1 Response Nov 27

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    I miss that feeling of genuine happiness. Faking smiles is extremely exhausting . I wonder at what point in my life that my brain just drowned in my thoughts completely . If I...
    BeverlyPills BeverlyPills 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 28

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    I am extremely depressed. I feel so bad. I just want to die or hurt myself really bad. No one likes to be around me. I'm a burden to my family. I feel like I have an anchor tied to...
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F Nov 30

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    The best article I've read about depression yet!!! What I Wish People Knew about Depression By Therese J. Borchard Associate Editor robin-williamsSomeone recently asked me to...
    heavenlyskyflower heavenlyskyflower 31-35, F 2 Responses Nov 30

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    am 40 had good parents, stable family good early education, no socialization though (small parochial school) history of alcoholism in the family dad came from broken home he swore...
    stumblin stumblin 41-45, M Dec 1

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    Life has been so much better lately, thanks to the extremely amazing people in my life. I really hope I can continue to get back on track and discontinue my hiatus from life. I'm...
    SammiSakura SammiSakura 13-15, F 3 Responses Dec 2

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    I have good days, but then I'm thrown off by feeling low and extremely depressed. I guess I try to suppress my emotions and it becomes unbearable. I feel constantly down with...
    fragmentsoflife fragmentsoflife 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 8

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    Therapy update: went back to one of my psychologists today for the last time until next year. We talked about my new medication and my aural hallucinations. She seemed concerned...
    gybe gybe 18-21, M Dec 10

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    I become depressed even though nothing is happening in my life which is common for people who suffer on and off for yrs. I also have arthritis in my right knee, and spine...
    McCannT12 McCannT12 41-45, F 1 Response Dec 18

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