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I Am a Victim of Extreme Depression

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 228 People

    Never Noticed.

    so. depression RUNS in my family. like more than 3 people have had it, AND i have obvious scars all over my right arm, and that is the last time im cutting. (always say that but then a year or so later im at it again)  parents dont even notice. nobody notices. in fact my mom...
    kimosabi kimosabi 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 13, 2008

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    My Mind... Is Against Me.

    I become depressed and i dont know why. my mind starts to ask stupid questions and i start to think of ways i could die. i dont think if anyone will miss me or if i will be remembered. i just think of how i can die. i think and think, i start to cry and i become cold inside , i...
    VictimOfCircumstance VictimOfCircumstance 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 31, 2013

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    Bored

    Hi.I feel lonley very much.I need some one to talk to....oh god.I'm dying :(
    lonely1boy lonely1boy 22-25, M 1 Response Dec 2, 2012

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    Letting Go

    I know I love you, I just feel dead. This unexpected grief and sadness that we have been battling for over a year now. We were happy, I was happy- Before. Until the cancer, Until the terminal Until the sickness pounding in her head. We're at the mercy of the ghost. She changed...
    jenniferxlove jenniferxlove 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 10, 2011

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    My Story

    it hurts when all u can do is watch.. i used to  cut myself... it was really bad.. but thats felt like the only thing i can do. my family really didn't do anything about it at first.. but as i kept doin it.. the finally came around.. i dont do it anymore.. but...
    hottii12 hottii12 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 8, 2008

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    Experiencing Depression

    People keep asking me to explain my feelings, to snap out of it. I'm just writing this to explain a bit of depression feels like. This is only a brief explanation because you can't "explain" being sad or suicidal sometimes, it's just your feelings. So here it goes. : Imagine...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Dec 1, 2012

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    The Wanderer

    Yup, been wandering since hormones took over my body @ 12 years of age. Drinkin, drugs and boys were my self- medication back then. It has only excerbated over the years. Always runnin and hidin from society, yet tryin to fit into a middle-class life with my children for their...
    whitedove whitedove 31-35 1 Response Jan 1, 2009

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    New Research Regarding Depression

    H ello all, I am a fellow depressive. I am a pretty motivated person, so I did a lot of research on my own because the doctors didn't really help me all that much. 8 years later, I got it figured out. Now, I just wanna make sure that everyone else knows what I know, so...
    UV4D UV4D 26-30 2 Responses Apr 28, 2008

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    I'm not a typical teenager i know.

    I've been through things most teens could never imagine or hope to go thru, but yet i still manage to keep a smile on my face and take every opertunity i can to be happy, and be happy. I've been cheated on, abused, my mom and i have no bond i moved out her house to live with my...
    misscomplicated2013 misscomplicated2013 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 3, 2014

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    Depression is real. Why,

    depression is as real as emotions.
    Ichilicious Ichilicious 26-30, M Aug 18, 2014

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    megster16 megster16 18-21, F Nov 6, 2014

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    The Truth

    victim explains it all i hate it wen ppl lable me emo like i choose to b depressed i hate the word emo its such a ******* lable god ppl r ******* they don't even try to understand they r just so quick to lable*sigh* will it even end?
    SuicidalMess SuicidalMess 22-25, F 5 Responses Oct 24, 2007

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    Suffering In Silence

    I'm 13 this year, I've been suffering from depression since I was bout' 5 years old. I don't have a father. My mother is more concerned about work than family. I have learnt how to disguise my true feelings, fake a smile, force a laugh, hide my hurt from others. I have constant...
    Josephineong Josephineong 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 28, 2013

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    The last seven months have been hell My

    soulmate passed away with bladder cancer we where incredible close The fact is i don't want to be here and there is nothing i can do as i do not want to hurt family my wife and myself have been together for twenty five years . I am Know on antidepressants have weight gain...
    waiheke waiheke 61-65, M 1 Response Apr 28

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    It's Back Again

    I have always had depression I just didn't know it when I was younger I got diagnosed at 14 and started taking all sorts of different Meds I just felt num So after a year an a half I stoped taking them and I started to feel really happy I was able to bond more with friends and...
    Izakay420 Izakay420 16-17 Oct 1, 2012

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    Related Experiences

    i cant do anything right. my whole life i have not been able to gain weight or absorb fat in my body. ive been bullied so much thats my life. i hate how i look. im a stick. and i...
    ineedhelp122 ineedhelp122 18-21, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    Depression, fear, and failure has been my worst enemy. I'm my own worst enemy. I could think and dream about all the great things about what life could be like, but I sell myself...
    RichiNatural97 RichiNatural97 70+, M 1 Response 34 mins ago

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    i have had depression and anxiety since i was a very young child. its a long story, but recently i have left school. i am so lonely now, i am studying online so i have no immediate...
    butterflykisses11 butterflykisses11 16-17, F 2 Responses 1 hr ago

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    i have honestly been suffering from depression and anxiety since i was 4. horrible i know. i grew up at 7, i was forced. i never got to be kid. i was discussing budgets and bills...
    butterflykisses11 butterflykisses11 16-17, F 1 Response 57 mins ago

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    I've been doing good with depression for the past months or so. I've been happy. Been going out and doing things. But now over the past few days I've been starting to relapse. I'm...
    JonnySlackMallon JonnySlackMallon 22-25, M 1 Response 29 mins ago

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    I was physically, verbally and emotionally abused as a child...Im bipolar and have to deal with anixiety and depression issues..As an adult I was almost free from all of the abuse...
    serenityshadow serenityshadow 18-21, F 5 Responses Apr 12

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    When I was four years old, I developed depression issues due to the fact that I was treated like my life meant nothing and because I was physically abused. Then, when I was 11, I...
    TheKatAttack TheKatAttack 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 19

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    Yesterday was a horrible day. I just can't believe how much I'm getting bullied by my own family. They aren't helping with my depression at all. They worsen the whole situation...
    AndreaCulea AndreaCulea 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 12

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    I have been in counseling since I was 8 for these problems, I like to call them episodes where all of a sudden extreme emotion and sadness comes over me almost like a physical pain...
    goldfishcrackers123 goldfishcrackers123 18-21, F Apr 10

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    I believe I won depression. Losing weight has changed my life in so many ways. I feel extremely good about myself.
    gisel607 gisel607 18-21, F Apr 24

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    And I won. Oh my god. Those panic attacks and violent thoughts were enough to make me never have another baby! I knew I was at risk because of my history with depression, but...
    rhiajanita rhiajanita 22-25, F Apr 25

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    My story isn't as bad as most people's but I still suffer from it so.... When I was ten years old my parents started fighting a lot. More than ever. They threw things. yelled...
    Littlemiss02 Littlemiss02 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 27

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    What ???? Who would like to educate those monsters ??! ...Since I've seen a documentary about people who wanted to educate them and use psychologist to help them, my blood is...
    TheAngryBrownBambina2 TheAngryBrownBambina2 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    My family just makes everything worse . My mom just tells me to get over my depression and anxiety, and that its all stupid . "Why do you have to ruin my life" oh I'm sorry, I'd be...
    toxicpastels toxicpastels 13-15, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    When I was 17 I was involved in a car accident that left me with 3rd and 4th degree burns on my legs. My friend was pumping gas and static ignited a fire. I was still in the car...
    adriekristine adriekristine 26-30 6 days ago

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    I have attempted to write my story three times now. Let's hope this one works. I can not identify with a victim or survivor due to how my injury occurred. It was due to my own...
    jessintenesee jessintenesee 41-45, F 4 Responses Apr 23

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    It took me 10 years to fight what seemed like the inevitable outcome of my fractured mind. I do not belittle your struggles. Life is hard and mental health is real. But know this...
    DaniAllsopp DaniAllsopp 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 25

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    My ex was a *****. Repeatedly. Let's leave it at that. I was also sexually assaulted by my neighbour when I was very, very young. And I had a third attacker when I was in college...
    dontyouunderstand dontyouunderstand 18-21 Apr 26

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    I am 17, and I am a victim of adult-child abuse. My parents dislike me, My father is violent, and a victim of emotional abuse himself. I am terrified of him, and can't talk to him...
    Aydelide Aydelide 26-30, M a week ago

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    I was a victim not am . he tried to tell me it was normal and I was just experiencing what happens in other peoples relationships behind closed doors . I was too sensitive , to...
    blonde10 blonde10 36-40, F 1 day ago

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    Another day and another let down by a so called friend. Well this really helps my mistrust of people and feeling social isolation... Oh wait...no I'm lamenting on this site again...
    NicoNever NicoNever 22-25, M 1 Response Apr 10

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    I try so very desperately to stay away from this website....not because it's a bad place but because any small sort of happiness always follows complete and utter despair. I chase...
    airisfleeting airisfleeting 22-25, M 5 Responses Apr 13

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    When I was young, I was a happy child that wanted to grow up really badly, now I see how age can change your life in many terrible ways. My mother is extremely strict and all my...
    HermioneGlasse HermioneGlasse 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 23

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    I remember thinking I was so depressed or sad all the time a couple years ago... Little did I know that I wasn't even close to the worst of it. Now, I suffer from sleeping too much...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 26

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    tonight for the second week in a row, I got upset in an otherwise happy situation and made my boyfriend feel like **** unnecessarily which in turn made me feel like ****. in order...
    krazylilmeow krazylilmeow 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 28

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    I used to. I still do from time to time, but it's more the usual I'm having a sucky day kind of thing. I used to feel extremely lonely and like I had no friends. In high school...
    astrokitty4341 astrokitty4341 22-25, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    As I look up at the hastily darkening dull sky, I can't help but let my frivolous emotions run a-muck. Such a dark yet ominously gentle world we live in, don't you think? Why do we...
    chaoshead chaoshead 13-15, M 1 Response Apr 7

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    I just heard the front door open and it terrifies me...Im in my room, but Im filled with overwhelming fear and anxiety...I know that they wont physically abuse me, but I was badly...
    serenityshadow serenityshadow 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 12

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