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I Am A Victim Of Rape And Molestation

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    I was molested by guys

    when I was young (12-16) and that me believe that if guys want to do things to you, you just let them. I felt that way for years, doing things with guys just because they wanted. I cheated on my husband many times because I felt I had to. When no guy used me for a couple...
    donna415 donna415 36-40, F 3 Responses Mar 21

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    My first post, if only it was my first

    experience I have never told anyone anything and slowly it's eating away at me...it's happened more then once but let's start off slowly, I'm 18 and never cared for relationships saw my parents fail over and over and decided I didn't need one to make me happy. Then I met him...
    rbambro rbambro 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 4

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    mrrua mrrua 36-40, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    how many years can go by

    before you report something like a rape or a sexual assault by any chance does anybody know ?
    jennaxxo94 jennaxxo94 13-15, F 4 Responses Aug 18

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    I didn't think I was

    for a long time because I never resisted and I enjoyed it. Only now when I am getting older am I looking back and realizing the truth and how deeply it really has effected me. Strange typing this because it is not something people know about me. I felt responsible for it for a...
    Lewshun Lewshun 16-17, M 5 Responses Dec 16, 2013

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    As I lie in bed, I suddenly wake in the heat of

    the night. I get a funny feeling like I am being watched... like an intense adrenalin rush. I feel sweat trickling down my brow, and I try to move my hand to wipe it off, but I notice I cannnot for it is restrained against my bedposts. Writhing impatiently, my legs are...
    butthumbs butthumbs 26-30, F Apr 27, 2014

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    Okay, please bare with me,

    as this is the first time I'm publicly sharing my story, and I really need to get this out of me, because it's becoming too overwhelming and I'm not sure how much more I can take... This time of year is always so difficult for me to deal with, because it's when my repressed...
    fuckitol fuckitol 26-30, F 10 Responses Nov 25, 2014

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    We haven't put him in jail

    because idk how he would even get arrested. Like I was little and just didn't tell anyone until a year and a half ago. My neighbors dad sexually abused me for years. It would basically be his word against mine now.. I don't know how he can be put away.. But he needs to be! He...
    learnfromexp learnfromexp 16-17, F 3 Responses Aug 7

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    I've been raped and my body has been used in

    ways to get drugs ect. I was almost killed by a man forcing himself on me. Now I'm engaged to a wonderful man and we have been together for almost two years. My whole life has become positive again but I have a REALLY hard time being comfortable having sexual relations with the...
    sonja82 sonja82 31-35, F 5 Responses Oct 1, 2014

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    Do I think about it too much?

    I hate feeling sorry for myself I hate how it drags me down everytime I have a 'semi flashback' I start to shake from the inside out. They happen randomly I have no control anymore. I sometimes wonder if God even sees me why did he let that happen to me not by one person but by...
    00Broken00 00Broken00 18-21, F 1 Response May 10

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    My dad was the villain in this situation.

    It doesn't matter what he did. But he tore my family apart and it was hard at the time. Let's just say I thought I was a lesbian for a long time after. Which caused me to lose allot of people I cared about in life. I have a bf and I can admit that I still have never spoken...
    Kristina00089 Kristina00089 18-21, F 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    When i was young my dad touched me.

    He sold me to his friends and they tried to rape me. I started cutting at 9/10 because my dad took it too far and hurt me bad. I have been sensitive to the touch ever since the first day he touched me. He sent me to his friends this kid duncon made me touch my self as he took...
    EmoNekoNiki EmoNekoNiki 18-21, F 4 Responses Sep 23, 2014

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    Yea I was raped .....

    I don't think I can tell the story but I can tell you fellow rape victims I feel for you.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Aug 17

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    When i was young my dad touched me.

    He sold me to his friends and they tried to rape me. I started cutting at 9/10 because my dad took it too far and hurt me bad. I have been sensitive to the touch ever since the first day he touched me. When i was 13 my cousins friend Jason took me into his cabin and raped me. He...
    VampreEmoNeko VampreEmoNeko 18-21, F 6 Responses Jan 2, 2014

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    When I was little...like about 7 years old my

    mother got jealous of my dad for taking us to Hawaii, she wanted us to love her. So she got my dad to somehow keep us in her house for about 1 week and one week only. My dad called my mother to drop us off back at home.., but she wanted us to stay longer. And so e stayed for a...
    Gr8Fellings Gr8Fellings 16-17, F 4 Responses May 23

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    Dead. You've killed me,

    You've won. I'm done. Trying to bring myself back every time. It gets hard each time. I can't cry, I have no emotion. I pray death isn't the way, out. I'm waiting for a resolve. Something, someone to solve, me. I'm on the outside of my life looking in. My life, looks like a den...
    UnderTheSleeves UnderTheSleeves 13-15, F 2 Responses May 6

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    the other day I was talking to an old friend.

    I told her about what had happened to me when I was young. oddly it didn't bother me much. like I was talking and I was okay. But today, today hasn't been to good for me. like now it's bothering me. I keep zoning out and such.
    EFairy EFairy 22-25, F 4 Responses Aug 6

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    By a family friend at the age of 14

    and also an ex boyfriend who was extremely violent towards me and raped me on a regular basis. I have recently read about my ex in the news. He is on bail for raping a 12 year old. I know who is fulling capable of doing this I just wish I had of reported him sooner.
    rachchar rachchar 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 6

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    This is basically my first post,

    I guess. I have never fully opened up to anyone about my situation but lately it's been drilling into my head deeply. I’m 18 now, but at a very young age, I would say about 4-5 up until i was 8, an male family friend who was a few years older than me would perform sexual...
    deepmaroon deepmaroon 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 10

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    I need to start talking about it now.

    It happened about 5 years ago. And i dont want to be a victim anymore. My father assaulted me in the middle of the night. He was drunk. I went to the police the next day, because he had been to jail when i was 14 for molesting other women. He only got house arrest. My mother now...
    hjolsh hjolsh 26-30, F 2 Responses May 3, 2014

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    I was molested by a women repeatedly .

    I am confused. My body was exploited and the ******* was intense. I feel ashamed that I like her rubbing me between my legs??
    thesecrettearkeeper thesecrettearkeeper 26-30, F 1 Response Oct 25, 2014

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    I've been molested by my nanny at age 6.

    And i've started my sex life at 26 with a man who sexually used me and abused me verbally. I don't know if there is a way to get rid of the fear and hate.
    miel2015 miel2015 26-30, F 2 Responses May 17

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    I'm A Guy Who Was Molested! Guys/girl's Please Read!

    Yes. Guys do get molested. But, they do not talk about it. They never do. It's one of those taboos that plagues men from the time that they heard the first comment in there lives..."Big boys don't cry!" Guys do not talk about emotions. They do not cry on other guys...
    Sparrowhawk1161 Sparrowhawk1161 51-55 9 Responses Nov 8, 2012

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    I just need someone to talk to.

    . some one that can help me clear my mind.. someone that can help me instead of feeling sorry
    sara589 sara589 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 22

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    Cowering in fear,hidden under her bed A five

    year old child lays,quiet as can be Tears down her face,are constantly shed Never heard murmuring her constant,almost silent plea Footsteps sound heavily down the hall Coming closer and closer to where she hides in fear She squeezes in closer,against the wall Frightened,yet too...
    butthumbs butthumbs 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 9, 2014

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    Sometimes I wish I can go back

    and relive those treacherous moments. 7 years of molestation (6yr.-12yr.) and recent experience of rape. I've been hurting myself for ages along with the people who care and love me. I feel like I deserve this pain, this pain needs to feed off my mind,body, and heart. I've...
    Katrinastory Katrinastory 16-17 3 Responses Oct 2, 2014

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    by my grandfathers closest friend.

    .i was either 6 or 7 and it didnt stop until i was 11. i finally spoke up around 14..then the same year in septemper i was abused by 3 young guys..9 years later i finally came into peace with my past
    ladytasia92 ladytasia92 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 9

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    Rape jokes are NEVER okay.

    And they are NEVER funny. So just stop. Please.
    makaiajane makaiajane 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 30, 2014

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    At age 5 i was molested by a teacher at school,

    remembered it at age 13. Even developed PTSD. It took time but 2 years later i can finally say I am a survivor of sexual assault. And if you have been raped/molested, it gets better, it really does. I never thought i would get over it but now, I'm stronger then ever. And please...
    iseektobeme iseektobeme 16-17, M Aug 21

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    When I was 6 years old we were going to lose

    the house, so, with nothing left to sell, and no one else to borrow from, they sold my virginity for 9,000$. After that they continued to pimp me out for 3 years. It is now almost impossible for me to allow another human being to come close enough to me to touch me.
    MoonlightRain1999 MoonlightRain1999 16-17, F 1 Response 23 hrs ago

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    I just wanted to respond to this feed,

    I'm am trying to at least write something about all the experiences that i clicked "me too" on. i was date raped once. and i was molested by a family member at a very young age.... explain in mo deets, later. or refer to my other experience blogs..... thanks! n feel free to msg...
    StreetgirlnamedDesire504 StreetgirlnamedDesire504 36-40 Jul 12

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    I found EP two days ago,

    and realized its benefits for girls like me. I was sexually abused but never,still haven't, told anyone in real life. Many on here seem to share the experience, and talking about it, which I personally believe helps, is anonamous. I have read maybe ten accounts of girls...
    gwenagain gwenagain 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 24

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    I suppose it would make the most sense to start

    at the start. Im not a very girly girl and all of my friends are boys,when i moved house a few years ago i met too people.one who lives beside me and another close by,we became the best of friends and would pretty much spend our free time with each other playing xbox,ps3...
    Femshep Femshep 22-25, F 4 Responses Dec 22, 2013

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    I don't like to go back to this era & I chose

    to forget it all. I am 31 now but when I was 12-13 my older sister moved back into the house I grew up in & brought her boyfriend to live with us in moms house. My mom was married to my step dad at the time but neither if them were ever home much. He molested me all those years...
    BlueEyes3182 BlueEyes3182 31-35, F 3 Responses Mar 28, 2014

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    Rape isn't funny. You have no idea what it's

    like unless it's happened to you. I am a Rape victim. This is the first time I'm coming out about what has happened to me. It was on the 25th of October 2013 I was walking home alone. I was not dressed inappropriately I was wearing jeans and my band merch. it was getting...
    Kiya98 Kiya98 16-17, F 6 Responses Apr 29, 2014

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    Why wont it just go away?

    I don't want to spend any more time thinking about it, I'm tired and I just want some peace in my life. I don't know how to keep it out of my head. I've pressed the memories so far down, I thought they would just dissapair, but they don't, they pop up at the worst possible times...
    NotAllScarsCanBeSeen NotAllScarsCanBeSeen 18-21, F 6 Responses Feb 28, 2014

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    6 months ago I was hanging out with my neighbor

    as I usually do...(I'm 18 he is 19) but this time it was different. We were watching a movie and he put his arm around me. I said nothing, though it felt awkward. He then started trying to "fill me up" I told him to stop. It did to no I tried pushing,shoving, and yelling. Still...
    nojusticefortaylor nojusticefortaylor 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 3

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    Wen i was around 5 years old,

    i lived on a farm with my grandparents. There was this older boy who i played with. my grandparents were taking a nap wen he pulled me into my room nd lifted my dress and started touching me. i just layed there i dont know why i couldn't move. he continued to touch me and he...
    AngelQii AngelQii 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 23

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    I was molested 2 times by different people

    that were my family first time I was between the ages 4 and 5 I was spending the night over my stepdad's sisters house and I believe I was sleeping in his room on the bottom bunk bed and he came in the room touching my private parts I didn't know what was going and he had to be...
    benson3211 benson3211 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 17

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    Too Young

    I was too young to know right from wrong, angels from demons. When he said my name, I thought he was an angel, here to help absolve me of my sins and aid me on my way to greatness, godliness, to pave my way and heal me of all my wrongs, current and future. I was too young to...
    rskywalker rskywalker 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 9, 2013

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    i really need to talk to someone .

    ..... my whole body aches. i cant even sleep
    enoughnowitstimeforachange enoughnowitstimeforachange 16-17, M 1 Response Apr 12

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    Please don't judge me.

    I'm not quite sure if it's rape. I remember at random times, when I was young I'd go with my dad to his friend's house and there was this older guy. I don't remember the age maybe 15-20 while I was like 4-6. He'd always let me sit in his lap and play blues clues or Dora. In the...
    lifeschallenge lifeschallenge 22-25, F 3 Responses Dec 4, 2013

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    It was my sisters boyfriend .

    . I was in the 6th grade , it was a Saturday night and I was with all my friends at this roller skating place called champs. , he was also there , (his name is Robert) well I was outside waiting for my mom and she called and said she couldn't pick me up so I called my sister and...
    Tmia Tmia 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 3, 2014

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    I am a victim of child molestation,

    I was 11 or 12 years of age. My mother had remarried a nameless s.o.b. when I was 10. I never liked him, I always got a creepy vibe from him. My mother just assumed I was being a brat towards him she ignored my fear/dislike towards him. Anyway, I began to warm up to him a year...
    breakingfree88 breakingfree88 26-30 3 Responses Jan 26

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    I Am

    I was raped maybe about a year ago, by another girl, she "Used" to be my friend, apparently she wasn't how I thought she was, I can't think about her the same:/
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 20 Responses Nov 16, 2013

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    I'm just so tired of all of it.

    Remembering what he did, me just lying there, the hypervigilance, the triggers too numerous to count, I'm tired. of all of it.
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