I Am a Victim of Rape

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 325 People

    I feel abit better after last weekend putting

    my self in hospital, when you come so close to what you think you wanted, you realise it is not at all what you want, I know I can overcome this and things will get better, it is a struggle to see how and when that will eventually happen because my past will never leave me, he...
    naturallyhappy naturallyhappy
    18-21, F
    Apr 25, 2015

    And it changed me entirely

    and I'm not sure I like the new me but don't think I can ever be the old me after what happened
    M1362 M1362
    22-25, F
    Jan 19, 2015

    I was raped when I was 4

    until I was 6. I was forced to believe it otherwise I'd be hurt. I don't know why I'm saying this. I need support, and it's easy to tell this to a stranger. I don't think anyone would ever care about me because of it and it led me to self harm and having suicidal thoughts
    Blurryface5936 Blurryface5936
    16-17, F
    5 Responses Mar 27, 2016

    My ex was a *****. Repeatedly.

    Let's leave it at that. I was also sexually assaulted by my neighbour when I was very, very young. And I had a third attacker when I was in college.. I dropped out after it. Is it normal for someone to be a repeat victim by different attackers at different points in their life...
    dontyouunderstand dontyouunderstand
    2 Responses Apr 26, 2015

    I was raped when i was 10y old by a ex

    neighbour. At that time i didnt knew what i felt but i was confused but somehow i liked it. Feeling the touch of a man, was so different but in the days later i felt so embarrassed and sick and i could do was crying. I started not to believe in guys but one day i meet a...
    thedeadtones thedeadtones
    26-30, M
    Sep 16, 2014

    Heyy guys...I am here to serve the victims here.

    Although i m not a victim of rape but i m follwing this site to read all of urs stories and help u guys recover mentally....Feel free to ask me for any advice
    deleted deleted
    May 24, 2015

    Why Cant I Believe I Was Raped?

    I met "you know who" when I was 16, I had just gotten clean and sober And realluy thought I knew what I was getting myself into because I I had been through all the abuse already. How could it happen to me again? Its not like I don't already know the signs of a psycho right? I...
    michaelaj89 michaelaj89
    3 Responses Aug 15, 2012

    I feel as though it's all I'm good for,

    all I'm wanted for. I'm a complete mess. I say that I don't want it to define me, but it runs through my mind, it controls how I act, so it kind of does define me. And I can't seem to stop it.
    betruetoyourself14 betruetoyourself14
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Apr 14, 2015

    I was forced to conceive,

    carry, deliver and keep the product of one rape. I became pregnant 3 times in this fashion but I only had one baby. I struggle to be the mom society says I should be, and the victim who wants to run deep inside.
    mln2010 mln2010
    26-30, F
    1 Response Apr 12, 2016

    I guess the first time it happen it was

    when I was around 3. It's the first memory I have. It started with my father getting in bed with me all the time and rubbing me down there.. He then began to sodomize me with his fingers before he just plane out sodomized me.. I still remember laying on the bottom of the shower...
    swimmingwolf0 swimmingwolf0
    22-25, F
    15 Responses Jun 7, 2014

    I've never told anyone,

    and it haunts me. I was 14 at the time, which was 2 years ago. My brother had some of his friends to spend the night, and normally I wasn't very fond of his friends, they were normally mean to me, but one time, his friend "Jackson" came over. He was 17, he was the nicest guy...
    kaylynx kaylynx
    18-21, F
    3 Responses May 26, 2015

    He used to be the only person

    that understands me. But everything changed when drugs changed him. It was a mistake that we took him in and he abused the welcome. I can never forget the night that he touched me and all thats left was to act normal coz i can never hurt the people around me. I cried in front...
    WifeOfVegeta WifeOfVegeta
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Mar 5, 2015

    Hi, I am currently new here.

    As you can see from the title, I'm a victim of rape. I've been raped, well, a few times. No one knows. I just don't feel ready to tell anyone I know personally, so that's why I came to hear, hoping to talk to someone who can relate to my experience. I'll post about each time...
    anongirl2 anongirl2
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Sep 13, 2015

    Today's one of the bad days.

    Flashbacks and memories. Every little thing reminds you. You try to keep your mind off it, to keep busy, keep talking about other things, but it's still there. Haunting you. Laughing at you. You can't get rid of it. I don't know I coped, whenever he was staying over, I would...
    betruetoyourself14 betruetoyourself14
    16-17, F
    1 Response Apr 7, 2015

    I was in a sexually abusive relationship about

    a year ago with my first girlfriend. I was 14 and thrown into a BDSM relationship, and I didn't really have a choice in it. There weren't any safe words and she would guilt trip me into letting her tie me up and do things because "that's love" right? No, see I always used to ask...
    deleted deleted
    Jul 2, 2015

    I posted this experience under I suffer from

    depression but it probably fits more here. When I was 4 I had a friend named Amber and she was 8 we always hangout and played I don't know when it happened or many specific details but I remember her teaching me the game she called "sex" she raped me countless times and the...
    Kaitlynw01 Kaitlynw01
    26-30, F
    Feb 12, 2016

    Last May I went out with some friends

    and drank more than I should have. I made it home that night and was texting a 2 different guys that I kinda knew. At this point everything is a blur and I had re-piece the events in the morning. I woke up the next morning in the bed of one of the guys I had been texting the...
    thaxton thaxton
    22-25, F
    1 Response Sep 24, 2015

    I was 3 years old when my cousin did it to me.

    It went something along the lines of you want a cookie and me being a 3 year old OF COURSE i wanted the cookie... well in order to get it I had to take off my pants and he made me lay down and ill spare you those nasty graphics. I told my parents and they did not believe me; but...
    deniseee deniseee
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Jul 19, 2015

    It's been about a year

    since he's touched me. I finally told. I told my mother, but it didn't do much good. She didn't believe me. I left though, left that house. I've gone to a group a few times, but I don't know if I really like it. I might give it another shot. I had my baby girl 6 months ago...
    Bree31996 Bree31996
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 6, 2015

    5 Years Old, And Already Scarrd

    I was at my dad's mothers house, playing like a normal 5 year old. I got up and walked up to my 10 year old uncle. " Come play with me in my room" he said, and so i followed. When we got there he told me to crawl up underneath the covers. When he got up on the bed he started...
    deleted deleted
    5 Responses Oct 24, 2012

    The day My uncle died,

    my mom went to his flat to join My Auntie and my brother there My 2 cousins come to ours to get me and my brother to go down my Aunties who lives down the road. My great uncle come and My brother and my 1 cousin were explaining what had happened to My uncle and I went to the...
    2012sbp 2012sbp
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Mar 22, 2015

    I am Christine. When I was 15 I was raped by

    someone close to me. Someone I called a brother (not actual blood). It showed me, you have to be careful no matter how much you trust someone. It started with sexual assault. He was always feeling me up and trying to force me to do things since I was younger. But it lead to...
    Chrissyjasminexx Chrissyjasminexx
    18-21, F
    Sep 13, 2015

    Trapped By 4 Alcoholic Guys

    i was 23 yr old when i got raped by 4 people, they were all of my age, they were all drunk. it was around 9 in the night and i was waiting for my uncle to pick me up from the station. but before uncle can come there to pick me up. a car stopped near me offering lift but i deny...
    diazveronica111 diazveronica111
    22-25, F
    7 Responses Oct 11, 2012

    the guy who was my first kiss,

    ended up raping me because i refused to have sex with him. he said that he accepted that i believe sex is for marriage but apparently not :/ it wasnt just one time he did it. it was 3 :/
    chevonsmith chevonsmith
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Nov 18, 2014

    I was at a concert with some friends

    that got me very drunk they are very curious about me and afterwards they took me out to the back parking lot ripped off my clothes and humiliated me then they bent me over the car and raped me over and over. Screaming and laughing saying ha ha we write that it we write that it
    deleted deleted
    Aug 2, 2015

    I'm 15 years old and I've been raped.

    this guy had asked me out and I said yes. he's 18 years old. for awhile it was good he was kind to me but he was a possessive when guys were around me. then a few nights ago I heard he hurt one of my friends just for asking for me. I didn't like that but I didn't brake up with...
    ShadowRiver ShadowRiver
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 9, 2015

    I went school bit far from my own place

    when I was 11. It was new place, and my classmate was like 16 or so as he failed many times. He used to sit with me on same bench. He used to threaten me and force me to hold his d** k in class whenever we are sitting in last bench and in corner...and in break time, he used to...
    deleted deleted
    Sep 14, 2015

    I was 5 years old when I woke up one night

    and found my brother touching me. I pretended to be sleeping because I was scared and every night from there it got worse. He would come into the bathroom while I had a shower, or touch me under a blanket on the couch. One day I confessed to my mom that he was going into the...
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses May 28, 2015

    Today was a bad day, no this week was bad I was

    almost shaking just holding my boyfriends hand, I just can't stop thinking about what happened ten years ago and that I'll never be able to move forward I was doing good I really I was almost happy now I feel like I'm back in square one I get agitated so easily and I don't know...
    Kaitlynw01 Kaitlynw01
    26-30, F
    Feb 12, 2016

    Its hard for me to share this,

    but I have been learning that talking about it helps more than I ever thought it would. I am a rape victim, my brothers use to rape me while I was growing up. At first I didn't know it was wrong, so I didn't do anything or tell anyone. But as I grew up I figured out that it was...
    Bear17 Bear17
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 11, 2015

    I was seven years old

    when all of this started. all the touching and grabbing and the kissing all around my body. I was an innocent little girl. I never thought this could happen to me specially by an uncle, a family member, someone I thought loved me. well it started one lonely night when I was...
    Juliannaa Juliannaa
    18-21, F
    2 Responses May 28, 2014

    I've recently been the victim of multiple rape

    over a period of 3 weeks.. I was drugged in my own home with Midazolam, suspected Rohypnol, suspected GHB (hair is with forensics and waiting to hear back from police)... to hide the pain I was administered Fentanyl patches.. an opiate 20 times more powerful than diamorphine...
    craigyp craigyp
    46-50, M
    Apr 23, 2015

    It's my own fault I was stupid.

    I shouldn't have let it happen. If it wasn't my fault then why did no one believe me. It has to be because it was my fault, it's the only thing that makes sense.
    lanybugg17 lanybugg17
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Jan 1, 2016


    I was raped a few years ago although I thought that until a few weeks ago that the trauma and brutality of the rape I had dealt with. I have been told by my doctor that my emotional state is not the best at the moment due to having to many triggers in a short space of time...
    Maz1980 Maz1980
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Dec 16, 2012

    You learn how to cover it up.

    It's simple, really. It just becomes a part of your day to day life. Sometimes I used excuses, sometimes I pretended I was daydreaming, and sometimes I just flat out lied. I get these periods of just being empty, out of it, where the depression just takes its hold of me and...
    betruetoyourself14 betruetoyourself14
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Mar 11, 2015

    I was raped in a public place,

    I froze during my assault, I often have terrible dreams about it. I feel so dirty, learning how to deal with it isn't easy but I've got amazing support. However people I thought where friends aren't. I've been told I should have stop it but I didn't and some people even think I...
    gettingstronger1111 gettingstronger1111
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Sep 9, 2014

    You Think You Know Your Family.

    I was 6 years old. I never di anything to anyone. I was super shy & skid dish. Even towards my parents. I still am. Caleb (My brother) was the only one I talked to. He hated my mom. She was always doing meth. Or some other drug. And, if not doing the drug, she was coming off of...
    Gonthrax011 Gonthrax011
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Aug 15, 2012

    First year College. I was new to the City,

    just moved there all be my self. I lived in a dormroom With 13 other guys, the College i went to there was mostly guys. I remember the first party, i have been Drinking at parties since i was 16 so i knew my limit. This extremly handsome guy came over to me and gave me a cup...
    KatEmeliaG KatEmeliaG
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Oct 10, 2014

    What people don't understand about rape is

    that it's never over!!! We constantly live with the nightmares and flashbacks! We never truly leave that moment, everyday it's like we're re-living it! How long can I hold on to the past? I know this will always be part of my life and that I'll never be able to truly let go but...
    skysplits skysplits
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Aug 14, 2014

    6 years ago this month my bastard ex bf from hs

    came home from the navy. I was abput to go to boot camp in a coupple months. the son of a ***** said he just wanted to talk......he didnt.....i didn't want to....but no one believes me and now I have no proof other then the lasting mental effects. I can't do the laundry in the...
    inevertoldne1 inevertoldne1
    26-30, F
    May 17, 2015

    Poor Excuse For A 'man'

    I just turned 17 and I was dating the best guy in the world. My ex called me up because we were still cool with each other. He asked if I wanted to run down the street for lunch. I agreed and we went. After we went back to his house but as I was leaving he dragged me down stairs...
    standbyme33 standbyme33
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Jun 22, 2012

    So back when I was 17 one of my friends invited

    me to a house party she was going to, I had met the host on one occasion before on a night out. I was driving that night as her house was in the middle of the countryside. The night was going so well, laughing and dancing, playing games and making new friends! I started...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Mar 17, 2015
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