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I Am a Widow and Miss My Husband

In our group we can discuss how the death of our loved one has affected us, our family and our daily lives. We can share experiences and give advice and support to each other. 286 People

    Four Months....

    Its four months ago tomorrow that I lost my husband, my lover, my best friend and the father of my three teenage daughters in a car crash. He left the house to go to work about a half hour before me, it was dark and icy and we use the same route for some of the journey and as I...
    siobanwade siobanwade 36-40, F 12 Responses Feb 27, 2011

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    Miss My Husband

    My husband just died 6 days ago. I'm lost without him. I feel like there's no hope for me. I feel sick inside and cry almost all the time. He died of Cirrhosis of the liver at 40. He was a good man just had this terrible "disease". I keep wondering when I'll ever get some peace...
    girllatte girllatte 41-45 8 Responses Mar 21, 2013

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    18 Days Of Loneliness... Missing U Bhebheqo

    its been 18 days since my husband passed away... i miss him so badly. right now im crying again because i dont know how to live life without him. i know i have to move on because of our 3 kids. so please bhe help me to move on... pls take away all my worries i know you will...
    widow32 widow32 31-35, F 4 Responses Apr 20, 2013

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    I can't try any harder then I am.

    It seems I am spinning my wheels and getting no where fast. It has to be the hardest thing I've ever had to deal with. Being a single mom that is not the kind that gets to send her kids to her exes for the weekend. The kind whose is totally solo and never gets a break. When my...
    NotmyCircusNotmymonkeys NotmyCircusNotmymonkeys 41-45, F 3 Responses Sep 27

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    I'm a 34 year old widow,

    my husband passed away unexpectedly on June 5, 2014, only a few months ago. We had a fairly tail relationship for 12 years. I hurt so much somedays I just feel like any somedays there is no hope. Is there any hope for some relief .
    unluckalee unluckalee 31-35, F 2 Responses Aug 14

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    On April 13, 2014 my husband died suddenly of a

    heart attack. He was 59 years old. We always wanted to have children. We tried infertility treatments, but they never worked. I am grieving alone because I don't have any family in town. I have wonderful friends, but they have their own lives, so I am feeling sad, but no one...
    widowbeth widowbeth 56-60, F 2 Responses Jun 22

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    I Miss My Husband So Bad!!!

    We're together for only 2 years. My husband killed a day before our second weeding aniversary. and in the weeding of here sister rigth the time of receiptions while he was eating. i feel nothing by that time. im woried of what will happen to us (my kids). and now im missing my...
    RBdazal RBdazal 26-30, F 4 Responses Feb 25, 2013

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    I have been a widow for 18 months,

    it is so painful. My family for the most part now is my dog, Woody. He is 12 and i love him dearly, I don't know how much long I will have him
    icena icena 66-70, F Jul 12

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    The Perfect Man (for Me)

    I was loved perfectly... He was a sweetheart. Nicest man I ever knew.  He fell in love with me when I wasn't loveable. Angry, hurt and suspicious.  He pursued me, content to wait for me to learn to trust him and love him. I  was 39 and he was 59. For the first few months, he...
    emilypeterson emilypeterson 46-50 3 Responses Apr 12, 2012

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    For Someone Who Left This World But Still Present In Me.....

    Just four days of loveand then it is seperation for a long time from my belovedWithout you my love, my heart doesnt feel good anywhereWithout you my life doesnt lead anywhereAfter so long have I remembered youPs: Love never Dies. You do everything to forget it but still Pure love...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 5, 2012

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    My Fiance passed away

    and I miss him more then anything. He is constantly on my mind. We spent every moment together and then for him to just slip away has left me confused. I am in a cloud of disbelief...
    Rose22Jc Rose22Jc 31-35, F 1 Response Feb 5

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    What do I miss the most ?

    He was so good at always making me feel wanted. I never had to wonder if he loved me and still wanted me. He didn't even need to say it. His actions spoke volumes. I miss him so much every night.
    NotmyCircusNotmymonkeys NotmyCircusNotmymonkeys 41-45, F 2 Responses Aug 21

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    Where Do I Go From Here?

    My story started 7yrs ago, I have been divorced for 6 yrs and had given up on love. I met a gentlemen and we became just friends and just talked when we ran into each other. He got a divorce from his wife and searched for me for a year and a half. When he found me, it was instant...
    lostwithkids lostwithkids 41-45 11 Responses Aug 6, 2012

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    Young Widow At 33, Mother Of 10mth Old And Pregnant...all 10 Years Ago

    all in one sentence i can say it all....it sucks!...Hi, I am Maggie, i lost my husband suddenly in our home by unknown natural causes the coraner says.... I was pregnant 17 weeks with my daughter and my son at the time was on 10 mths old..... Yes life had been rough back then...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Dec 4, 2011

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    My Love

    I lost my husband of 28 years suddenly on July 7, 2013. We had just celebrated our anniversary on June 8 and were getting ready to celebrate his 5oth birthday on July 25. We had canoed all day and I went to bed he stayed up to do fireworks off our pier with our oldest daughter...
    ttlkyates ttlkyates 46-50, F 1 Response Oct 13, 2013

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    Rest Easy My Darling Husband

    I can't sleep, i can't eat...this is all so crazy i refuse to believe that this is reality. I roll over in our bed and don't see your face. You're gone, you're actually gone... this is the worst pain i have ever had to endeavor. I see your face in our children and it kills me...
    Bevynn11 Bevynn11 31-35, F 10 Responses Dec 9, 2013

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    Still Miss Him

    my husband died in 2009. he was in a VA hospital 1200 miles away from us. sometimes it seems as if he is still here. i dream about him.
    dorothy1959 dorothy1959 51-55, F 2 Responses Jun 18, 2013

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    Not A Day

    not one day goes by i don't miss him ....his sweet smile and those melt your heart away eyes ....
    goodseemore goodseemore 41-45, F 6 Responses Feb 5, 2011

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    My Childhood Sweetheart

    My husband and I met when I was 12 and he was 14. He was my first love. He then moved away with his family and we eventually married different people who we later divorced. A little over two years ago we found each other again on a social networking sight and when we saw each...
    JanBB JanBB 46-50, F 2 Responses May 15, 2013

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    My husband died. In my kitchen.

    In front of me. As I talked to him. As our three year old looked on. As we laughed about how he didn't like the dinner I made. As we discussed politics and human rights in Iran. As the laundry was washing. In the middle of a typical night that was anything but. He died...
    mikescookie mikescookie 36-40, F 2 Responses Dec 5, 2013

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    Missing My Husband

    My husband passed away in his sleep on 1/6/09 of a heart attack. I miss him so much. I feel like my heart has been torn from my chest. I have 2 grown daughters and a grandson. We try to be strong for each other but their grief is different then what mine is.  I lost my best...
    suetom suetom 51-55, F 8 Responses Feb 28, 2009

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    Dear John,

    It has been two years and eight months since you left this world. I still miss you so much. I know I'm finally finding my way on my own, I can feel myself moving forward. I used to be so afraid of that feeling. Every step I took from you was a step that tore into my soul and left...
    theredlady theredlady 41-45, F 4 Responses Dec 17, 2009

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    Husband Died Suddenly

    My Husband died suddenly on 9/16/2009 We were married 19 years. I have a 16 year old son with Asbergers. I feel so alone and cry a lot. My family thinks I should be over this by now. I dont have many friends that I can lean on. Death is so final. My husband and I spent our time...
    debfar debfar 51-55, F 12 Responses Feb 22, 2011

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    Love Lives On Even After He's Gone

    when I got down and my health went away, I never knew I would look back and see how blessed we really were. In those days the pain was so bad Rug was right there with me, trying so hard to make the hurt go away. And the time over the road with just me and him, laughing and...
    mommaceitta mommaceitta 51-55, F 1 Response Apr 14, 2013

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    I Prayed For God To Take Him

    Oh god,,Please take him tonight so he doesn't suffer anymore. Please Jesus. Let him go to sleep. Please don't let him struggle to breath another night. Those were the prayers I said everynight for two months as I watched my husband being slowly taken from me. He had severe COPD...
    gr8tfulsue gr8tfulsue 61-65, F 4 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    How Do I Let Go

    My counsellor advised me to let go, to release my husband, how on earth do I do that, How?????? I still think he has a right to be part of my family. How do I release him from the family?
    luvu4rever luvu4rever 36-40 1 Response Mar 20, 2013

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    I Miss My Husband

    My husband died December 13, 2008 from a sudden heart attack.  He was only 46 years old and we were married 14 years.  I never considered living my life without him and now I find myself alone.  We had no children and I don't know if that is a blessing or not. ...
    Zingara37 Zingara37 46-50, F 16 Responses Jan 21, 2009

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    My Victor For Life

    I thought it was going to get better with time. Its getting worse, I miss my husband more and more each day. I miss his strong arms around me, I miss his smile. If only I could have a chance to hold your hand again. I know I will not be able to touch you again, but I cant...
    luvu4rever luvu4rever 36-40 2 Responses Mar 4, 2013

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    Terri & Rick

    I met my husband in Wichita Kansas I went in for a job interview on a Thursday Valentine's Day Friday they called me to work then I had the weekend off I worked on Monday when to work on Tuesday Rick asked me out Tuesday evening and we were together ever since for 32 years he had...
    terririck1960 terririck1960 51-55, F Jun 30, 2013

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    Four Days

    I'm quiet lately. I'm not saying much on EP. I talk too much at home. Some sort of false bravado seems to take over me around my family and friends. I know I don't feel it truly, but I can't seem to help myself. I worry about business and bills and kids and repairs around the...
    theredlady theredlady 41-45, F 12 Responses Mar 10, 2010

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    Wings To Fly

    If I had wings to fly... I would fly so very high past the clouds the sun and the moon, then I would fly up to Heaven and ask if I could visit oh for just a moment, just a wave, just to see your face, just the sound of your voice calling my name. If I had wings to fly... I...
    mommaceitta mommaceitta 51-55, F 4 Responses Jun 18, 2013

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    One-Flesh Relationship Day 117 A part of

    who you are is gone. Your identity is shaken to the very core. You wonder if you will ever feel normal again or if you will ever enjoy life again. “When you lose a mate, you lose part of yourself,” says Dr. Jim Conway. “It’s as if you’ve had an amputation of an arm or...
    mommaceitta mommaceitta 51-55, F 5 Responses Feb 9

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    Hello Everyone, I have been a widow now,

    since November, 2013,and I still miss my husband as much as I did,the day he died. I can't listen to live songs,watch love scenes on TV or do pretty much anything without crying these days. I fear,I will never have a fulfilling happy life,without my husband. He was my best friend...
    missyr1970 missyr1970 36-40, F 1 Response Jul 29

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    welly56 welly56 51-55 3 Responses Jan 4

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    I lost my Hubby a month ago.

    He died from Liver cancer. Tho he was diagnosed April of 2012. The start of June this year symptoms started to show and from then on everything just happened so fast. From his work-up last Aug. our Doctor gave us 3 to 6 months. But every paracentesis procedure took a toll on him...
    ladyequine74 ladyequine74 36-40 4 Responses Oct 5

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    Girf

    hi everyone,I'm in my midddle4o's.recently widow2 children one turning 13 in just days.christmas ,thanksgivingwasis  hard but  i think this is going to the hardest,first birthday without dad.is anyone in my shoes or just went to talk please let me know.has anyone gone...
    wanitta wanitta 46-50, F 3 Responses Mar 23, 2009

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    Gone 2 Soon

    My husband died November 16,2012 from an asthma attack on October 23,2012.he was my soul mate I feel so incomplete I miss him so much I feel so bad because he said 1 of our son had a baby that he never got 2 c . We have 2 sons 22 &20 yrs of age they looks exactly like him now...
    chocolatequeen1 chocolatequeen1 51-55 1 Response Jan 12, 2013

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    You Just Have To Know

    You just have to know he loves you....loved you. I still grieve. Even though so much time has passed and my life has changed, I find myself waking up at nights or while I'm cleaning house suddenly sad and thinking of a past life. He loved me. I know he did and that is how...
    theredlady theredlady 41-45, F 6 Responses Oct 15, 2011

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    Pictures of Him

    I see pictures of my husband now and I smile. I used to cry everytime. I got to where I would just turn pictures of him away, because I was so messed up from crying all the time. I stopped looking at them for months. I missed him so much I couldn't  bare looking at him. Now...
    theredlady theredlady 41-45, F 19 Responses Sep 2, 2009

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    My Husband's Birthday Is Coming Up On December 5th

    He would have been 46. I would have thrown him a party. I really thought he would still be here. After everything I never lost hope that he was going to get better. I never let go of the dream of growing old together. And now I'm alone again. Well not entirely alone, I have...
    terrishaun terrishaun 46-50, F 5 Responses Dec 1, 2013

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    Missing You

    its been two months scence i lost my husband. yesterday easter day was hard.i dont know how i keep going on.but somehow i do.i miss your smile i miss holding hands and talking to you i miss the sound of your voice.sometimes i hope that its all just a dream and your just gone out...
    myluvmylifemybestfriend myluvmylifemybestfriend 46-50, F 5 Responses Apr 13, 2009

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    I Miss You Sammy!

    Sam died 2 months after our 10 year anniversary. I'm so thankful that we took a cruise to celebrate. It was our FIRST time away from our kids. We were gone for 5 days. It was difficult to leave them but we needed it. I'm very happy we had that last vacation before he died. I miss...
    PrincessBea PrincessBea 36-40, F 1 Response Apr 11, 2013

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    Trying

    The darkest hour is just before dawn!! This I have always been told... Last night I looked in the mirror at swollen eyes, unbrushed hair..an unknown woman stared back at me from that glass. A woman who looked as if she had given up and given in. So in an attempt to get God to...
    mommaceitta mommaceitta 51-55, F 4 Responses Jun 19, 2013

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    Missing Him

    I still miss him. Every once in awhile It seems as though he is standing right next to me telling me what to do next. I listen sometimes and other times I tell him that he needs to go on about his own stuff. I don't know why. It is comforting to still talk to him every so often...
    theredlady theredlady 41-45, F 8 Responses Feb 27, 2009

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    The Love Of My Life

    On the 21st of January 2013 I received a call informing me that my husband had a car accident and was trapped in the car, the fire-brigade were trying to remove him from the car. 30 minutes later I was told he was no more. I cannot explain the feeling I had. I loved and still...
    luvu4rever luvu4rever 36-40 3 Responses Feb 18, 2013

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    I do not live in the past: all the time !

    ! I miss my husband, I lived every minute of my life for a lot of years just to make him happy. He never left my mind, even in the worst of the worst fights we had, even if I cried for 3 days before he put an end to the fight. It didn't matter, I loved him and it was always him...
    mommaceitta mommaceitta 51-55, F 1 Response Jun 3

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    Free Will

      The power of a praying wife is a subject that came to my attention just the other day in a book my daughter bought me. It's also the title. I can't tell you much about the book because I couldn't get past the table of contents page. I was suddenly wracked with a...
    theredlady theredlady 41-45, F 7 Responses Sep 12, 2010

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    My beloved passed away last June of 2013,

    we don't have children . He's a clinical Audiologist and I work with him as his secretary, after a good dinner that he cooked for Thanks Giving Day that we celebrate on the next morning he heart attack and he die. Now, I feel so lonely being alone, every corner of the house...
    buddy1436 buddy1436 56-60, F 4 Responses Aug 9

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    Related Experiences

    Well it's been 6 months with 10.5 to go. It hasn't been easy but we are becoming stronger together everyday. I miss him so much. I'm lucky to have him close by. We talk almost...
    DeniseMarie72 DeniseMarie72 41-45, F 2 hrs ago

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    My husband of 24 years died suddenly 4 years ago. It's been a very difficult and also very interesting journey so far and I'm always intrigued about what the future might yet still...
    50ShadesOfWidowhood 50ShadesOfWidowhood 46-50, F 1 day ago

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    Reasons I Left My Ex Husband Almost 14 Years Ago- 1. He talked to me like a dog. Actually I wouldn't even talk to my dog the way he talked to me. 2. He was jealous,possessive,and...
    SexiestChocolate SexiestChocolate 41-45, F 2 Responses Oct 9

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    My husband died in a car accident a month and a half ago only one week after his 37th birthday . I am completely lost without him ..I don't understand what happened or why i went...
    MzVeiga1 MzVeiga1 36-40, F 8 Responses 3 days ago

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    I am 25 years old and I lost my soul mate, best friend and husband almost three weeks ago to suicide. Although that is what it looked like, I know in my heart that it was an...
    jcamacho2189 jcamacho2189 22-25, F 7 Responses 2 days ago