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I Am a Widow

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    I would like to share my experiences

    after my husband passing. My husband died of lung cancer, before he died I always reminded him of his promise to come to my dream or giving me my some signals of him being well in the new world. We are Chinese and we believe the sole of the decease will still be around the...
    BR7362 BR7362 61-65, F 2 Responses Mar 14, 2014

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    Widowed At 29

    3 weeks ago my life was amazing,loving loyal husband, 5 beautiful children then bang...its all gone so terribly wrong...I have been plunged into an existence that I can only describe as a living nightmare...my husband was my rock,my one love,my saviour and now all I want is for...
    soulsearchingforever soulsearchingforever 31-35, F 7 Responses Dec 27, 2012

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    Love

    We weren't married, but we may as well have been. I love her with all my heart and she felt the same way about me. One day in November of 2007 the love of my life was admitted into the hospital and just a few days later she passed away. She was in pain every second and I was...
    godsmack666 godsmack666 18-21, M 26 Responses Feb 9, 2009

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    I watched the time and I remembered the perfume,

    I got obsessed, but this feeling is gross and filthy. Purity is what keeps ringing after these feelings of lust bursting inside of me, a mutual desire and a thirst for attention, but was it mutual?. Again, I cared for the time I have spent thinking dazzled by this secret inner...
    Aspirationalaureliano Aspirationalaureliano 18-21 Dec 31, 2013

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    I have been putting off grieving

    since I had 3 knee surgeries and had to handle the care and death of my mother in law. All of sudden, I have stopped sleeping, I cry at the sight of a photograph. It has been since 2008 and I have no clue what to do. I feel like I am in this all alone. Can anyone tell me where...
    zoche zoche 61-65, F 3 Responses Sep 30, 2014

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    Hi, I have been a widow

    for one and a half years. I woke up on August 11th, 2012 to find my husband gone. He had a massive coronary. I was devastated. I stayed in the house we rented until just recently and I just moved. This is the first place I ever moved into by myself. I went straight from my...
    bellaboo2 bellaboo2 51-55, F 3 Responses Apr 1, 2014

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    My husband died of prostate cancer March 10,

    2013. We were marred for 32years. I miss him everyday, even his grumblings. I can now make it through a couple of days of the week without breaking into tears. The oddest things can bring tears to my eyes, Grocery shopping and going past an item that I always bought special for...
    dkirk dkirk 61-65 3 Responses Feb 19, 2014

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    I lost my husband very suddenly on Halloween of

    2013, though it was technically November 1 since it was 12:05. We had gotten married just 6 weeks earlier, but had been together for nearly 9 years. He was the closest thing to perfect a man can be. My world had changed so drastically so quickly. I just wish it could go back...
    Maerwyn Maerwyn 26-30, F 4 Responses Jan 21, 2014

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    My Husband Died In a Car Accident

    My husband died in a car accident,3 weeks ago the pain is unbearable we have a two year son,who keeps asking for daddy,my life was all about him and I cant visualise a day without him,even looking at my son is painful, the thought that any new things he says or does his dad wont...
    delladolittle delladolittle 36-40 14 Responses Mar 31, 2009

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    He Was Not Next To Me

    My husband died four years ago, we were together for 27 years, since i was 16. I thought i was doing so well when at four am on sunday morning i woke up and was all disorientated, where was my husband? why was he not in bed with me, i couldnt work out why, i went searching for...
    Erinlee Erinlee 41-45 5 Responses Mar 12, 2013

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    The Journey Of A Widow

    Was 4 years ago Aug26th2009 that tuned my life upside down and inside out my husband at the age of 54  we thought healthy had a stroke never woke up and passed away 3days later.. Still after 4 years I say time makes it tolerable. I knew this and I knew I would get thru it...
    goahead goahead 56-60, F 1 Response Oct 12, 2013

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    My husband died in a car accident a month

    and a half ago only one week after his 37th birthday . I am completely lost without him ..I don't understand what happened or why i went to bed he went out with his brother 2 hrs later i get a knock at the door saying he was in a accident and didn't make it. His brother made it...
    MzVeiga1 MzVeiga1 36-40, F 8 Responses Oct 16, 2014

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    I smile and I smile I pretend

    and I smile more I lash out. And I cry I push those I care about away. Then I pretend more And I lash out more I create more heartache for lack of knowing what else to do I cry out for help and nobody hears. Or nobody cares. My hurt hurts them Too much. It's easier to...
    totalnamechanger totalnamechanger 41-45 15 Responses Mar 28

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    Widowed At 39 With A 5 Year Old Daughter

    Eighteen months ago my husband of 6 years woke me at two in the morning with difficulty breathing. I rushed him to the Emergency room where we were informed that he was having an irregular heartbeat and that his left lung had collapsed. From there he was transferred to a bigger...
    nursevcc nursevcc 41-45, F 5 Responses Sep 5, 2013

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    Widows

    I think of you often those that were here when I came and those after me. You understood the pain I felt, you lent me an ear, you encouraged me, you where here when I could not sleep when I could not get myself together. So many of you reached out to me. I am so grateful that...
    goahead goahead 56-60, F Oct 21, 2013

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    Widowed and Lost

    [After receiving a few kind comments, I've decided to update this a bit and share a bit more of "Myself". It's Aug 19th, 2009 and, just today, I called Salvation Army to come get her clothes and misc items. Even though it's now been 39 months, it was extremely hard...
    TrueBlues59 TrueBlues59 46-50 14 Responses Feb 4, 2009

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    Lonesome Journey

    One year and 3 months ago I started this long and lonesome journey I have come far but have a long way to go. I do not let myself dwell on  what was, what I have lost and what I miss with all my heart for me to do that would defeat  all that my love tought and gave...
    goahead goahead 56-60, F 16 Responses Nov 29, 2010

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    My husband died on March 31,

    2012. It was sudden, and I didn't get to say goodbye. I sometimes remember so clearly running into the emergency room, thinking he'd be okay, but then I saw him on the bed and the nurse said I'm sorry, he's gone. I screamed and burst into tears and stroked his face and his soft...
    msmemyself msmemyself 56-60, F 4 Responses Nov 30, 2014

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    I am a lady aged 21 I lost my husband 7 months

    ago .he died in a car accident and died on the spot.he was the man of my dreams.we had a baby girl he died two months before she turned two. During the first month after his death I felt him sleeping next to me at first I thought I was dreaming but I then discovered that it was...
    ruth49 ruth49 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 5, 2014

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    I Lost My Soulmate

    On Jan 23,2013 i lost my wife suddenly, i called 911 at 7am and she was pronounced dead at 12:30pm....the same day.....I did get to kiss her and tell her i loved her and she told me she loved me...but neither one of us had to say anything after 20 years....we both knew and said...
    Southernmagic Southernmagic 61-65 5 Responses Jun 4, 2013

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    I recently lost my loving husband few weeks

    back. 15 February 2015 after battling cancer metastesis Stage 4 . It was lately that I knew about the metastesis few days before he died. I just cried helplessly on top of my heart and he just saw me weeping, I felt that he wants to reach me but, through his severe pain...
    lohans lohans 46-50 3 Responses Mar 7

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    I lost my husband in October 25,

    2014 suddenly. He was not sick. He woke u on a Saturday morning to take our boys to their soccer game. At 8 he felt dizzy and by ten he died. I have no idea what happened. I still don't have any answers because the autopsy results has not come back. I feel like I'm in a stand...
    mmatias mmatias 36-40, F 3 Responses Jan 24

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    I lost my husband to cancer on Sept.

    8, 2012, so I'm coming up on two years. It's been a strange couple of years. I moved out of the house we raised our kids in and then they moved out in April. Both are in they're early 20's. My husband loved to collect things so it was really hard to clean out a big house full of...
    Larsman Larsman 51-55, T 2 Responses Jul 12, 2014

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    Young Widow

    I met my 2nd husband in 1993. We were both living and travelling  on boats in the med area. Despite being  already married with a young daughter, I fell hopelessly in love .  We returned to the uk in 1995. We married and had 2 lovely boys. I settled into...
    cornishchick cornishchick 41-45, F 16 Responses Aug 15, 2007

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    Hello Everyone !

    I've been reading about all of you and just want to say, I too know where you are coming from and my heart goes out to all of you. My precious Husband of 36 years was taken from me and his beautiful daughters and son, by a deliberate act of the doctor who was suppose to save his...
    LKRK LKRK 56-60 20 Responses Mar 3, 2009

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    E P changed the title from widower to widow.

    Thanks E P As I shake my head in wonder............. My wife passed away a few years back from a motor vehicle accident. A drunk ran a red light and hit the car that she was driving. I won't go into any details and just leave it as that. But what surprises me is how so many...
    nudejersey nudejersey 41-45 2 Responses Oct 21, 2014

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    Hi. This is my third Christmas without my

    husband and this is the most emotional one I have gone through. I am crying constantly and I am seeing him everywhere. Everything I am looking at is just making me remember our 21 Christmases that we shared. I guess it is loneliness that is bringing a lot of this out too. I...
    bellaboo2 bellaboo2 51-55, F 3 Responses Nov 30, 2014

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    Im sorry for your loss.

    The important dates are hard. Im told they get easier as time passes. I lost my wife about a year and a half ago and still go through the anxiety of birthdays and holidays. Im also looking for that day when it all becomes manageable again.
    kjbiker11 kjbiker11 26-30, M 1 Response Jun 22, 2014

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    Where should I start.

    Oh yes.. I am a widow and I am 26 years old I lost my husband unexpectedly July 2, 2013 he was 29 years old and we have been married for 8 years. We just got home from a camping trip went shopping for food and then we went outside to do some yard work. We where having a great...
    Littlezummy Littlezummy 26-30, F 6 Responses Mar 25, 2014

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    Every so often I dream about my husband.

    I have come to terms with his leaving. With my not ever being able to see him again or talk to him. To have him hold me in his arms. But whenever I do dream of him, I wake up feeling bereft all over again and life seems so unfair.
    Helianthus52N Helianthus52N 56-60, F 5 Responses Aug 22, 2014

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    The Love Gone And Left Me Alone

    I was 43 and my wife was 38. Friday afternoon I kissed her good bye and left for work, and she went to the doctor.  I was at work for 12 hours and came home and 2 am. And she was sleeping so i thought. i went to bed at 245am. My dog's woke me up at 1030am on saturday, 2 days...
    stanley5385 stanley5385 51-55, M 9 Responses Jul 9, 2011

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    In a Moment My Life Was Forever Changed.

    Steven and I had known from the start that we were to be together . After 10 years of living without each other we married on October 26 2007 . After praying for a baby I became Pregnant in May of 08...My third His first. We bought a house and had every thing we ever wanted...
    lonelymomof3 lonelymomof3 31-35 33 Responses Apr 18, 2009

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    I lost my husband in October 2014 to a battle

    against leukemia. I'm 31 with a small child. I don't know if I'm ever going to be "normal" most of the time I'm so lost without him I can't think, or accomplish daily things. Does anyone know what happens next.....
    deleted deleted 26-30 8 Responses Jan 22

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    Hello,Everyone, I haven't been on here in a

    really long time. My husband, of 20 years,Charlie, died last November. For me it seems like only,yesterday. This is by far,the worst thing I have ever been through. Nobody in my life,understands what I am going through. My husband was my best friend, and now I feel completely...
    missyr1970 missyr1970 36-40, F 2 Responses Jul 27, 2014

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    Our Anniversary

    It's been 6 years since I lost my Darling and I miss him tremendously. He was such a big part of my life that I thought I would just die of a broken heart when he left this world. Today would have marked our 21st Anniversary. It's funny how much my life has changed and how little...
    Martha45 Martha45 41-45, F 6 Responses Sep 21, 2012

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    I am a widow for the second time.

    My first husband passed away in 2008 from lung cancer. My second husband passed away in May went into vfib due to an arithmia and I found him after work in the kitchen floor. He was the love of my life. The best man I had ever met. My first husband was an alcoholic so I had a...
    Kyrasmamaw Kyrasmamaw 51-55, F 3 Responses Jul 4, 2014

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    I am an Army widow. My husband

    and I were together for three years and married for two months. We had gotten married on March 28th just a month after he came home from his third deployment. On June 1st he shot and killed himself. It was so hard... It took me weeks just to sleep in our bed again. My family and...
    Zombeezy Zombeezy 22-25, F 18 Responses Feb 8, 2014

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    My 1st Day On Ep/ My Man Died In Car Crash

    hi, glad to find this group 5 years ago it happen - he and i got hit by drunk driver he died and i got disabled. i dont want to go into specs atm - my 1st day at EP and here i am. i rarely speak of him. except he is in my heart. he had just turned 37 when he died I was 30...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Apr 12, 2009

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    I lost my wife on Saturday the 18th of Jan 2014.

    We have a 3 year old son together who is such a mommies boy. My wife was just 30 years old and we had been married for 5 years (beautiful marriage I love her so much). She had a horse riding accident on the 30th of October 2013 that’s the day my whole life changed !!! She...
    youngwidower34 youngwidower34 31-35, M 1 Response Jan 21, 2014

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    He Would Be Glad

    I woke up and he was not in bed but that was normal  because he was always so active,  so I got up and he was sitting in the balcony  with messy hair.                  He was crying  so I...
    sweetmeisje sweetmeisje 26-30, F 15 Responses Jan 7, 2010

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    My wife died very suddenly in 1995

    when my children were quite young and needed some looking after.I changed my job to one that was less demanding.I have never thought of getting married again.
    Wulfstan Wulfstan 70+, M 2 Responses Feb 25, 2014

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    My husband passed away one year ago this month.

    I miss him so much. Cancer sucks.
    missy51 missy51 51-55, F 2 Responses May 16, 2014

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    Recently Became A Widow After Ft.hood Incident

    My husband and I got married August 22, 2009. We were only married for 2 months when he was murdered at Ft.Hood on November 5, 2009. I miss him so much, I keep questioning my faith, but I just have to hope that he remembers us and is watching over me and the kids. It still feels...
    jennhunt83 jennhunt83 26-30, F 35 Responses Nov 30, 2009

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    when I found her in the back yard;I started to

    scream that my wife was gone!!the light appeared!.she was under it;my dad was to the right of the light and my grandma was to the left of the light;It was like at [night] when you breakdown and someone is walking in front of their headlight at you.My grandma put a cloth over her...
    bobbynorth bobbynorth 51-55, M Mar 5, 2014

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    Lost My Husband At 26 :(

    i lost my husband justin back in march 2009, i never thought something so horrible could happen, he was the love of my life and could never picture my life without him..dont know why god did this. we were together from h.s. since we were 15 ..we have an 8 year old son together...
    ashleypope ashleypope 26-30, F 12 Responses Jan 20, 2010

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    Just Us Two

    I am a widow.  Every day I wake up and have to remember that.  After 22 years of marriage my husband's prediction, "I will not live past 60," is so insanely true. How did he know? Admittedly, he had been deathly ill.  In July he had a stroke and...
    champ68193 champ68193 51-55 40 Responses Jan 12, 2009

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