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I Am a Widow

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    Happy Birthday

    It was my husbands 46th birthday yesterday and it was a bad day all round, work was crappy my mood was crappy and I was just missing him so much, those waves of pain just kept washing over my all day, the radio even conspired against me by playing song that had meaning to us...
    stillgrieving stillgrieving 41-45 4 Responses Mar 26, 2010

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    Don't Let Anyone Rush You Part II

    Another disadvantage of dating too soon (before you are healed emotionally) is: You as a person are not at your best mentally and emotionally while in mourning. Example, I remember those early months after the loss of my dear husband that I could not concentrate and keep up with...
    CourageousUnafraid CourageousUnafraid 56-60 Sep 4, 2013

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    Life Stinks

    My husband has been gone now for a little over 2 years now. I wish me would of listened to me and got in the car. They might of been able to save him. He was complaining that his arms hurt and that his legs hurt. He asked me to rub them and I did. He said he felt better. It was...
    Terrapin Terrapin 31-35, F 5 Responses Mar 2, 2008

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    Widows

    I think of you often those that were here when I came and those after me. You understood the pain I felt, you lent me an ear, you encouraged me, you where here when I could not sleep when I could not get myself together. So many of you reached out to me. I am so grateful that...
    goahead goahead 56-60, F Oct 21, 2013

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    I Survived A Year

    Hi, I haven't been here for a long time. I have been trying to survive without the love of my life. So far I have succeeded and I know that he would be glad. I had him in my life for 22 years.(The best years of my life) On August 11th it was a year since he left us. We didn...
    bellaboo2 bellaboo2 46-50, F Sep 2, 2013

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    Love

    We weren't married, but we may as well have been. I love her with all my heart and she felt the same way about me. One day in November of 2007 the love of my life was admitted into the hospital and just a few days later she passed away. She was in pain every second and I was...
    godsmack666 godsmack666 18-21, M 26 Responses Feb 9, 2009

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    Lonesome Journey

    One year and 3 months ago I started this long and lonesome journey I have come far but have a long way to go. I do not let myself dwell on  what was, what I have lost and what I miss with all my heart for me to do that would defeat  all that my love tought and gave...
    goahead goahead 56-60, F 16 Responses Nov 29, 2010

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    Widowed and Lost

    [After receiving a few kind comments, I've decided to update this a bit and share a bit more of "Myself". It's Aug 19th, 2009 and, just today, I called Salvation Army to come get her clothes and misc items. Even though it's now been 39 months, it was extremely hard...
    TrueBlues59 TrueBlues59 46-50 13 Responses Feb 4, 2009

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    I would like to share my experiences

    after my husband passing. My husband died of lung cancer, before he died I always reminded him of his promise to come to my dream or giving me my some signals of him being well in the new world. We are Chinese and we believe the sole of the decease will still be around the...
    BR7362 BR7362 61-65, F 1 Response Mar 14

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    My Husband Died In a Car Accident

    My husband died in a car accident,3 weeks ago the pain is unbearable we have a two year son,who keeps asking for daddy,my life was all about him and I cant visualise a day without him,even looking at my son is painful, the thought that any new things he says or does his dad wont...
    delladolittle delladolittle 36-40 13 Responses Mar 31, 2009

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    Im A Widow

    im a widow,how i hate those words. my life ended jan 2013. my husband of 28 yrs ,had been in and out of hospital for years. he had so many things wrong with him,diabetes,low blood pressure,c.o.p.d.,neuropathy in hands and feet,he`d had several strokes,heart failure and fluid...
    heatherj61 heatherj61 51-55 2 Responses Sep 17, 2013

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    So Shocking

    My husband, my beautiful inside and out, husband died of a heart attack on Feb.23 2009. We were on holidays in Mexico. We arrived Sat.evening and he was gone Monday afternoon. I will never forget the horror-of finding him, of doing mouth to mouth and of coming...
    sallyf sallyf 46-50 3 Responses Apr 30, 2009

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    Loss

    I lost my husband 13 years ago this month. I miss him so much. I was talking long distance on the phone with my mom when I heard our dog bark. Just once, went into the bathroom to find him dying of a heart attack. The paramedics said it was one of the kind where if he had been in...
    Petmom69 Petmom69 66-70, F 2 Responses Sep 1, 2013

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    Love Is A Journey That Began At Forever & Ends At Never.

    I lost my friend, my partner, my children Father, our grandchildren's PaPa, my lover, my husband. If only I could wake up from this horrible nightmare. I work nights I came home the morning of August 7th 2013. After looking in our bed room I looked in his office, there he was...
    Lostu Lostu 51-55, F 2 Responses Aug 20, 2013

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    In a Moment My Life Was Forever Changed.

    Steven and I had known from the start that we were to be together . After 10 years of living without each other we married on October 26 2007 . After praying for a baby I became Pregnant in May of 08...My third His first. We bought a house and had every thing we ever wanted...
    lonelymomof3 lonelymomof3 31-35 33 Responses Apr 18, 2009

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    Recently Became A Widow After Ft.hood Incident

    My husband and I got married August 22, 2009. We were only married for 2 months when he was murdered at Ft.Hood on November 5, 2009. I miss him so much, I keep questioning my faith, but I just have to hope that he remembers us and is watching over me and the kids. It still feels...
    jennhunt83 jennhunt83 26-30, F 35 Responses Nov 30, 2009

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    Our Anniversary

    It's been 6 years since I lost my Darling and I miss him tremendously. He was such a big part of my life that I thought I would just die of a broken heart when he left this world. Today would have marked our 21st Anniversary. It's funny how much my life has changed and how little...
    Martha45 Martha45 41-45, F 7 Responses Sep 21, 2012

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    Recently Bereaved

    I lost my husband suddenly 2 weeks ago. We have been together since we were 15 years old. He died the day before his 40th birthday. We have 4 lovely, beautiful children aged 22, 20, 8 and 6. He spoilt us all, which is why the loss is so devastating. His funeral was on Friday...
    Coral1973 Coral1973 36-40, F 2 Responses Oct 27, 2013

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    lost my dear wife of 28 years last month.

    today would be our 28th anniversary. just completely lost.
    drudallas drudallas 46-50, M 2 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    I watched the time and I remembered the perfume,

    I got obsessed, but this feeling is gross and filthy. Purity is what keeps ringing after these feelings of lust bursting inside of me, a mutual desire and a thirst for attention, but was it mutual?. Again, I cared for the time I have spent thinking dazzled by this secret inner...
    Aspirationalaureliano Aspirationalaureliano 18-21 Dec 31, 2013

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    I am an Army widow. My husband

    and I were together for three years and married for two months. We had gotten married on March 28th just a month after he came home from his third deployment. On June 1st he shot and killed himself. It was so hard... It took me weeks just to sleep in our bed again. My family and...
    Zombeezy Zombeezy 22-25, F 22 Responses Feb 8

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    Widowed At 39 With A 5 Year Old Daughter

    Eighteen months ago my husband of 6 years woke me at two in the morning with difficulty breathing. I rushed him to the Emergency room where we were informed that he was having an irregular heartbeat and that his left lung had collapsed. From there he was transferred to a bigger...
    nursevcc nursevcc 41-45, F 5 Responses Sep 5, 2013

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    I lost my husband on Oct 31,

    2013. he was electrocuted on the job. he went to work on Monday Oct 28 and never came home. this is the hardest thing I have ever had to try and get through. I cant stop crying. Our 21st anniversary was October 17. the flowers he gave me were still on the dining room...
    joannefog joannefog 51-55, F 4 Responses Dec 8, 2013

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    I Just Lost My Husband

    Hello I just lost my husband (it will be two months on the 30th). It was ver sudden with no warning. I have been lost ever since my world has turned upside I have to get up and go to work everyday to pay the bills and me and my daughter afloat I don't even know if I can hold...
    Cuzcontrol Cuzcontrol 46-50, F 4 Responses Nov 14, 2013

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    He Was Not Next To Me

    My husband died four years ago, we were together for 27 years, since i was 16. I thought i was doing so well when at four am on sunday morning i woke up and was all disorientated, where was my husband? why was he not in bed with me, i couldnt work out why, i went searching for...
    Erinlee Erinlee 41-45 5 Responses Mar 12, 2013

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    when I found her in the back yard;I started to

    scream that my wife was gone!!the light appeared!.she was under it;my dad was to the right of the light and my grandma was to the left of the light;It was like at [night] when you breakdown and someone is walking in front of their headlight at you.My grandma put a cloth over her...
    bobbynorth bobbynorth 51-55, M Mar 5

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    I am a lady aged 21 I lost my husband 7 months

    ago .he died in a car accident and died on the spot.he was the man of my dreams.we had a baby girl he died two months before she turned two. During the first month after his death I felt him sleeping next to me at first I thought I was dreaming but I then discovered that it was...
    ruth49 ruth49 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 5

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    I Am a Widow With 5 Children

    And after many years, I am surviving and happy, there is hope.
    RedheadJolene RedheadJolene 41-45, F 6 Responses Sep 9, 2008

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    He Would Be Glad

    I woke up and he was not in bed but that was normal  because he was always so active,  so I got up and he was sitting in the balcony  with messy hair.                  He was crying  so I...
    sweetmeisje sweetmeisje 26-30, F 17 Responses Jan 7, 2010

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    My Jacquie

    I very recently lost "my Jacquie" to cancer on September 3, 2013. We were married for 25 years this past April. She was everything to me. We were not social people, we spent most of our time together. We were best friends, confided in one another with everything. We have an...
    lostwithoutmyjacquie lostwithoutmyjacquie 46-50, M 3 Responses Sep 26, 2013

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    Missing Him

    I married when I was 18. I had our first child by 19. We both wanted children right away. By the time I was 24 we had 3 children. I recently lost my Father in March of this year and then my Husband died unexpectedly June 28th. We had our ups and downs thru the years. He drank for...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Oct 16, 2013

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    My husband died of prostate cancer March 10,

    2013. We were marred for 32years. I miss him everyday, even his grumblings. I can now make it through a couple of days of the week without breaking into tears. The oddest things can bring tears to my eyes, Grocery shopping and going past an item that I always bought special for...
    dkirk dkirk 56-60 2 Responses Feb 19

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    I lost my wife on Saturday the 18th of Jan 2014.

    We have a 3 year old son together who is such a mommies boy. My wife was just 30 years old and we had been married for 5 years (beautiful marriage I love her so much). She had a horse riding accident on the 30th of October 2013 that’s the day my whole life changed !!! She...
    youngwidower34 youngwidower34 31-35, M Jan 21

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    Lost My Husband At 26 :(

    i lost my husband justin back in march 2009, i never thought something so horrible could happen, he was the love of my life and could never picture my life without him..dont know why god did this. we were together from h.s. since we were 15 ..we have an 8 year old son together...
    ashleypope ashleypope 26-30, F 12 Responses Jan 20, 2010

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    Missing My Husband & Soulmate

    We thought we were going home for the week-end to attend his step-sister's funeral.  My husband, the love of my life, was actually returning home to go to his heavenly home.  It's been almost six months now and I still can't believe it, he was only 59...
    rme879 rme879 56-60 51 Responses Oct 6, 2008

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    Young Widow

    I met my 2nd husband in 1993. We were both living and travelling  on boats in the med area. Despite being  already married with a young daughter, I fell hopelessly in love .  We returned to the uk in 1995. We married and had 2 lovely boys. I settled into...
    cornishchick cornishchick 41-45, F 16 Responses Aug 15, 2007

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    My 1st Day On Ep/ My Man Died In Car Crash

    hi, glad to find this group 5 years ago it happen - he and i got hit by drunk driver he died and i got disabled. i dont want to go into specs atm - my 1st day at EP and here i am. i rarely speak of him. except he is in my heart. he had just turned 37 when he died I was 30...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Apr 12, 2009

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    Widowed At 29

    3 weeks ago my life was amazing,loving loyal husband, 5 beautiful children then bang...its all gone so terribly wrong...I have been plunged into an existence that I can only describe as a living nightmare...my husband was my rock,my one love,my saviour and now all I want is for...
    soulsearchingforever soulsearchingforever 26-30, F 7 Responses Dec 27, 2012

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    Just Us Two

    I am a widow.  Every day I wake up and have to remember that.  After 22 years of marriage my husband's prediction, "I will not live past 60," is so insanely true. How did he know? Admittedly, he had been deathly ill.  In July he had a stroke and...
    champ68193 champ68193 51-55 40 Responses Jan 12, 2009

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    I Need Help

    Hi im angie my husband past away on may7th of this year im behind on rent 2 months im in need of help can anyone help me
    angie2122 angie2122 46-50, F Sep 2, 2013

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    My wife died very suddenly in 1995

    when my children were quite young and needed some looking after.I changed my job to one that was less demanding.I have never thought of getting married again.
    Wulfstan Wulfstan 70+, M 2 Responses Feb 25

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    Tears For Fears

    Am a widow since November 22, 2010. He struggled his illness for 6 long years. Now he is in heaven.
    Jennypinks Jennypinks 46-50, F 3 Responses Sep 1, 2013

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    I Lost My Soulmate

    On Jan 23,2013 i lost my wife suddenly, i called 911 at 7am and she was pronounced dead at 12:30pm....the same day.....I did get to kiss her and tell her i loved her and she told me she loved me...but neither one of us had to say anything after 20 years....we both knew and said...
    Southernmagic Southernmagic 56-60 5 Responses Jun 4, 2013

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    I Am A Widow

    I LOST MY HUSBAND OF 42 YEARS ON Dec 20th of 09, one minute he was here and the next he was gone, he had a massive heart attack, i will never be the same person i once was. When he died part of me went with him, nothing is the same, my daughter has been wonderful to me so has my...
    peachesl624 peachesl624 66-70 1 Response Jun 27, 2011

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    Lonely

    I am so lonely without my husband.  We would have been together 13 yrs & married 5 yrs on feb 21st. We have a now 4 yrs old child.  I am raising her without him. She tells me everyday how she misses her daddy.  My husband died on nov 20, 2008 from...
    lml11202008 lml11202008 31-35 7 Responses Mar 26, 2009

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    My Chrissy And Bugaboo

    yes i'm a widow as of 31 days ago my david was a wonderful man and father i dnt have any family worth mentioning and neither did he his father has stolen everything david ever earned and he could get to including the dividends off his life insurance that his grandparents had...
    mychrissy mychrissy 41-45, F 1 Response Sep 16, 2013

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    The Journey Of A Widow

    Was 4 years ago Aug26th2009 that tuned my life upside down and inside out my husband at the age of 54  we thought healthy had a stroke never woke up and passed away 3days later.. Still after 4 years I say time makes it tolerable. I knew this and I knew I would get thru it...
    goahead goahead 56-60, F Oct 12, 2013

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    Hello Everyone !

    I've been reading about all of you and just want to say, I too know where you are coming from and my heart goes out to all of you. My precious Husband of 36 years was taken from me and his beautiful daughters and son, by a deliberate act of the doctor who was suppose to save his...
    LKRK LKRK 56-60 18 Responses Mar 3, 2009

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    Short And Sweet

    I am 28 years old. I got into a relationship very young....at the age of 14. I got engaged at 17. I loved this boy with everything I had.... heart soul and all. He was my best friend. We were like two peas in a pod. His name was Jason. We got along so well I couldn't imagine my...
    alicia164 alicia164 26-30, F Sep 10, 2013

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    The Holidays

    I AM RECENTLY WIDOWED.. ITS BEEN ONLY 6 MONTHS.. WE WERE HIGH SCHOOL SWEETHEARTS.. IF ITS POSSIBLE, THE LAST 3 YRS OF HIS LIFE, WE GREW EVEN MORE IN LOVE WITH THE BIRTH OF OUR GRANDSON.. BUT ON MAY 14, 2009, MY HUSBAND, AGE 54,  OF 33 YRS PASSED AWAY SUDDENLY, IN FRONT OF ME...
    EC29 EC29 51-55, F 6 Responses Nov 23, 2009

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    Where should I start.

    Oh yes.. I am a widow and I am 26 years old I lost my husband unexpectedly July 2, 2013 he was 29 years old and we have been married for 8 years. We just got home from a camping trip went shopping for food and then we went outside to do some yard work. We where having a great...
    Littlezummy Littlezummy 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 25

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    My Heart Is Broken

    On December 13, 2008 my husband called me and stated that he saved a dog from getting run over on the interstate.  We work in 2 different states (3 hours away from each other).  He said he would call me after he got her settled, bathed and fed.  I never heard from...
    Zingara37 Zingara37 46-50, F 15 Responses Jan 24, 2009

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    Invisible Widow

    Ten years ago, my fiance died six weeks before our wedding. I'm not legally a widow, but I certainly feel like one.  I haven't loved like that again. It's almost like i have a force field around me.  The lonliness is unbearable.
    MichaelsWidow MichaelsWidow 41-45, F 12 Responses Nov 12, 2007

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    Life Of A Year 13 Year Old Girl

    I got married at the age of 13 I am 16 years old right now My beloved husband died in a car crash and left me after 2 months of our marriage :( I don't know where to start really :( but I still love him No one can ever make me as happy as him I need him back I can still...
    Lost2011December Lost2011December 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 20, 2013

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    I lost my husband very suddenly on Halloween of

    2013, though it was technically November 1 since it was 12:05. We had gotten married just 6 weeks earlier, but had been together for nearly 9 years. He was the closest thing to perfect a man can be. My world had changed so drastically so quickly. I just wish it could go back...
    harperjoplin harperjoplin 26-30, F 5 Responses Jan 21

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    Hi, I have been a widow

    for one and a half years. I woke up on August 11th, 2012 to find my husband gone. He had a massive coronary. I was devastated. I stayed in the house we rented until just recently and I just moved. This is the first place I ever moved into by myself. I went straight from my...
    bellaboo2 bellaboo2 46-50, F 1 Response Apr 1

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    Related Experiences

    My husband died 49 days ago.. on Lunar new Year.. He went to his hometown to visit his family and I stayed at home with our 2 daughters, 1 and a half and 3 and a half.. The next...
    Tisimi Tisimi 26-30, F 5 Responses Mar 19

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