I Am a Widow

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    My husband John was so easy to love.

    He was so good for me in so many ways. He brought out the best in me. I miss him every minute of everyday. I feel him close sometimes and it gives me comfort. Other times I am mad at him for leaving me so soon, we were suppose to grow old together. The thing that kills me is...
    IPleadthe5th IPleadthe5th
    46-50, F
    9 Responses Aug 28, 2015

    Widowed and Lost

    [After receiving a few kind comments, I've decided to update this a bit and share a bit more of "Myself". It's Aug 19th, 2009 and, just today, I called Salvation Army to come get her clothes and misc items. Even though it's now been 39 months, it was extremely hard...
    TrueBlues59 TrueBlues59
    14 Responses Feb 4, 2009

    Just Us Two

    I am a widow.  Every day I wake up and have to remember that.  After 22 years of marriage my husband's prediction, "I will not live past 60," is so insanely true. How did he know? Admittedly, he had been deathly ill.  In July he had a stroke and...
    champ68193 champ68193
    41 Responses Jan 12, 2009

    Young Widow

    I met my 2nd husband in 1993. We were both living and travelling  on boats in the med area. Despite being  already married with a young daughter, I fell hopelessly in love .  We returned to the uk in 1995. We married and had 2 lovely boys. I settled into...
    cornishchick cornishchick
    41-45, F
    16 Responses Aug 15, 2007

    Our Anniversary

    It's been 6 years since I lost my Darling and I miss him tremendously. He was such a big part of my life that I thought I would just die of a broken heart when he left this world. Today would have marked our 21st Anniversary. It's funny how much my life has changed and how little...
    Martha45 Martha45
    41-45, F
    4 Responses Sep 21, 2012

    My husband died of an aneurysm a couple of

    years ago . He was my true soulmate. We had an amazing relationship and he was a wonderful father to my daughters. Everyone who knew him, loved him. I miss the laughter , companionship, and knowing he truly loved me and was always there for me. I'm trying to move forward...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Aug 23, 2015

    I lost my husband in October 25,

    2014 suddenly. He was not sick. He woke u on a Saturday morning to take our boys to their soccer game. At 8 he felt dizzy and by ten he died. I have no idea what happened. I still don't have any answers because the autopsy results has not come back. I feel like I'm in a stand...
    mmatias mmatias
    41-45, F
    4 Responses Jan 24, 2015

    I am a widow. I have been

    since 2007. #coping
    MsG23 MsG23
    56-60, F
    1 Response Mar 15, 2016

    The Journey Of A Widow

    Was 4 years ago Aug26th2009 that tuned my life upside down and inside out my husband at the age of 54  we thought healthy had a stroke never woke up and passed away 3days later.. Still after 4 years I say time makes it tolerable. I knew this and I knew I would get thru it...
    goahead goahead
    56-60, F
    1 Response Oct 12, 2013

    My husband died on March 31,

    2012. It was sudden, and I didn't get to say goodbye. I sometimes remember so clearly running into the emergency room, thinking he'd be okay, but then I saw him on the bed and the nurse said I'm sorry, he's gone. I screamed and burst into tears and stroked his face and his soft...
    msmemyself msmemyself
    61-65, F
    3 Responses Nov 30, 2014

    Its been three years this february.

    Hard to believe he is gone. We were married forty years, and what a great man. I miss him, but Im getting better. If I let myself think about it I will cry. But most times I try to stay busy on projects and just hope he is fine. I know he is. Now and then I think he drops by...
    Shellfinder Shellfinder
    56-60, F
    3 Responses Mar 4, 2015

    One of the best quotes

    that I have heard while attending a grief support meeting was "grief is the price of love".
    NancyfromCA NancyfromCA
    61-65, F
    2 Responses Jan 30, 2016

    Lost him to alcohol poisoning-2 years ago.

    Secret-most people think it was heart failure. He was a wonderful husband 💕
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Sep 6, 2015

    I am an Army widow. My husband

    and I were together for three years and married for two months. We had gotten married on March 28th just a month after he came home from his third deployment. On June 1st he shot and killed himself. It was so hard... It took me weeks just to sleep in our bed again. My family and...
    Zombeezy Zombeezy
    26-30, F
    19 Responses Feb 8, 2014

    Recently Became A Widow After Ft.hood Incident

    My husband and I got married August 22, 2009. We were only married for 2 months when he was murdered at Ft.Hood on November 5, 2009. I miss him so much, I keep questioning my faith, but I just have to hope that he remembers us and is watching over me and the kids. It still feels...
    jennhunt83 jennhunt83
    26-30, F
    35 Responses Nov 30, 2009

    Its been a long day (actually,

    its been 2 years) without you my friend :(
    MJSousa MJSousa
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Jul 5, 2015

    My Husband passed away 4 weeks ago he had end

    stage renal failure but was doing fine the death xame.unexpectedly He was only forty Having an awful day I cries off an on over the last month but focusing om how I was going to pay for a funeral he and then how to do theorial service and the honoring what would have been...
    Lolacraced Lolacraced
    41-45, F
    5 Responses Sep 24, 2015

    Lonesome Journey

    One year and 3 months ago I started this long and lonesome journey I have come far but have a long way to go. I do not let myself dwell on  what was, what I have lost and what I miss with all my heart for me to do that would defeat  all that my love tought and gave...
    goahead goahead
    56-60, F
    16 Responses Nov 29, 2010

    Technically I think the term is widower

    for a male spouse. I often wonder why the distinction? Surely the same meaning is applied to both situations of loss of a married partner. Will there be a relaxation of the distinction when same sex partners die?
    robcharles11 robcharles11
    66-70, M
    2 Responses Sep 17, 2015

    I lost my husband in October 2014 to a battle

    against leukemia. I'm 31 with a small child. I don't know if I'm ever going to be "normal" most of the time I'm so lost without him I can't think, or accomplish daily things. Does anyone know what happens next.....
    deleted deleted
    6 Responses Jan 22, 2015

    Missing My Husband & Soulmate

    We thought we were going home for the week-end to attend his step-sister's funeral.  My husband, the love of my life, was actually returning home to go to his heavenly home.  It's been almost six months now and I still can't believe it, he was only 59...
    rme879 rme879
    55 Responses Oct 6, 2008

    I loss my partner last june 19,

    2015 i really miss him so much, we're going to celebrate our 1st anniversary this coming July 12 . i really feel the pain when she left me. She was an OFW she worked abroad last Feb. 2015 she was hospitalized because she felt pain on her stomach and found a mass on her stomach...
    dadamie dadamie
    41-45, F
    1 Response Jul 1, 2015

    Hi, I am a widow. I lost my husband to

    Pancreatic Cancer. I am 31. He battled a hard fight against it for 2 1/2 years. Sadly, he was called home on 3/18/15. I am on here to find support with those who are in the same boat as I. Young and now facing this world alone.
    kumy1 kumy1
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Jan 6, 2016

    I had a dream about my passed away husband last

    night. I told him all the things I wish I'd had a chance to before he was gone. We held hands and just laid together. I woke up unable to move or breathe, my chest heavy with sadness. It was so real I didn't want it to end. It's been 10 months since he passed, almost a year. Our...
    Aevali Aevali
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jan 4, 2016

    I Miss My Husband -- Strange Things That Happened

    This is coming up on 3 years after my husband died and I wanted to share some unusual things that happened and ask if anyone else has experienced anything like this.  But, first I wanted to tell those of you who have lost the love of their life that life is a gift.  God has a...
    2ndchildhood 2ndchildhood
    44 Responses May 1, 2011

    Ive had quite the wretched year.

    My husband was Navy and passed away august 6th of 2014 and since then life has been a nightmare. I suffer from severe depression, anxiety, and ptsd. Because of this my son, born two months before my husband's untimely death at 21, was given to my mother in law. I completed a...
    watchyourgrammar watchyourgrammar
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jan 11, 2016

    I was a princess, special,

    always true that was how you saw me. You put me on a pedestal and kept me there for 31 years Because you loved me. You told me to move on when you where gone, but I don't know how. It was always you for me also.
    TrueClassicBlond TrueClassicBlond
    56-60, F
    2 Responses Mar 6, 2016

    Lost My Husband At 26 :(

    i lost my husband justin back in march 2009, i never thought something so horrible could happen, he was the love of my life and could never picture my life without him..dont know why god did this. we were together from h.s. since we were 15 ..we have an 8 year old son together...
    ashleypope ashleypope
    26-30, F
    12 Responses Jan 20, 2010

    Widowed At 39 With A 5 Year Old Daughter

    Eighteen months ago my husband of 6 years woke me at two in the morning with difficulty breathing. I rushed him to the Emergency room where we were informed that he was having an irregular heartbeat and that his left lung had collapsed. From there he was transferred to a bigger...
    nursevcc nursevcc
    41-45, F
    5 Responses Sep 5, 2013

    The Love Gone And Left Me Alone

    I was 43 and my wife was 38. Friday afternoon I kissed her good bye and left for work, and she went to the doctor.  I was at work for 12 hours and came home and 2 am. And she was sleeping so i thought. i went to bed at 245am. My dog's woke me up at 1030am on saturday, 2 days...
    stanley5385 stanley5385
    51-55, M
    8 Responses Jul 9, 2011

    A little over a month ago on July 24th 2015,

    my home was invaded by 5 men who kicked our back door in and held my 6 year old and on the floor face down at gun point. I have 4 daughters ages 20, 18, 15 and 6 and I'm 7 months pregnant with our 5th daughter. Luckily the three teenagers weren't home. My husband had been in our...
    tuansteph tuansteph
    2 Responses Aug 1, 2015

    Widowed At 29

    3 weeks ago my life was amazing,loving loyal husband, 5 beautiful children then bang...its all gone so terribly wrong...I have been plunged into an existence that I can only describe as a living nightmare...my husband was my rock,my one love,my saviour and now all I want is for...
    soulsearchingforever soulsearchingforever
    31-35, F
    7 Responses Dec 27, 2012

    My sixth year as a widow today .

    My hope that this may help those going on this journey now. Time makes it tolerable I prayed that God would take my pain away but leave the memories my pain is something I can look at now and not feel the scorching pain. I remember the day my husband died our families had...
    goahead goahead
    56-60, F
    2 Responses Aug 30, 2015

    I smile and I smile I pretend

    and I smile more I lash out. And I cry I push those I care about away. Then I pretend more And I lash out more I create more heartache for lack of knowing what else to do I cry out for help and nobody hears. Or nobody cares. My hurt hurts them Too much. It's easier to...
    IPleadthe5th IPleadthe5th
    46-50, F
    13 Responses Mar 28, 2015

    This is my 7th Christmas without my best

    friend and the most wonderful time of the year . Christmas for me is a time to rejoice it is the day my savior was born and gave me the promise that only for a time will we be separated what a lift that gives to my heart and the years have gone so fast I never knew that was in...
    goahead goahead
    56-60, F
    3 Responses Dec 21, 2015

    My husband passed away almost 8 months ago of

    hypothermia. Completely unexpected.. Leaving me and our 9 month old daughter behind. I still cry daily, I feel so alone. He was my best friend. I want to find a way to be ok, to date. I want our daughter to have a dad and siblings and my heart rebreaks daily.
    Aevali Aevali
    26-30, F
    6 Responses Nov 14, 2015

    It's been a year and a.

    half and my world and heart are as broken as the day he died. I first posted here 7 weeks after my bestfriend my soul mate, passed away very unexpectedly in his sleep. I miss him so much I could just lie down and die but I have two small children and dont have any chance to rest...
    missfrank missfrank
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Sep 2, 2015

    I just don't see how anyone get's through this.

    My husband died Aug. 31, 2012, and I am still having a hard time going on without him. We were together 18 years he was my everything. I was very well taken care of by him I never had to do a thing cause he did it all, our love for each other was unconditional. He became ill...
    lifeanew lifeanew
    46-50, F
    3 Responses Jun 17, 2015


    We weren't married, but we may as well have been. I love her with all my heart and she felt the same way about me. One day in November of 2007 the love of my life was admitted into the hospital and just a few days later she passed away. She was in pain every second and I was...
    godsmack666 godsmack666
    18-21, M
    26 Responses Feb 9, 2009

    And I miss him every day of my life.

    I have changed since I lost my husband and not in a good way. He kept me stable and tolerant. I am neither of these things now. I visit alone the places we visited together and try to hide my tears. Now my children are up and grown I look forward to the end, when I will be...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Apr 8, 2016

    I lost my husband 6 1/2 months ago.

    It has been really rough. I would love to hear from others who have lost their spouse and have a sort of support group going on here. I think loneliness is the worst part about it.
    csusanne csusanne
    51-55, F
    6 Responses Mar 13, 2016


    I think of you often those that were here when I came and those after me. You understood the pain I felt, you lent me an ear, you encouraged me, you where here when I could not sleep when I could not get myself together. So many of you reached out to me. I am so grateful that...
    goahead goahead
    56-60, F
    2 Responses Oct 21, 2013

    Where should I start.

    Oh yes.. I am a widow and I am 26 years old I lost my husband unexpectedly July 2, 2013 he was 29 years old and we have been married for 8 years. We just got home from a camping trip went shopping for food and then we went outside to do some yard work. We where having a great...
    Littlezummy Littlezummy
    26-30, F
    6 Responses Mar 25, 2014

    In a Moment My Life Was Forever Changed.

    Steven and I had known from the start that we were to be together . After 10 years of living without each other we married on October 26 2007 . After praying for a baby I became Pregnant in May of 08...My third His first. We bought a house and had every thing we ever wanted...
    lonelymomof3 lonelymomof3
    37 Responses Apr 18, 2009

    I can't believe today it has been 8 yrs

    since my husband past away. We had are ups and downs. I choose to remember the good times. As I sit here and remember are life together......There are times that I am still angry and pissed at him for leaving me here to handle things alone. For not being here for our girls. For...
    gigi1425 gigi1425
    46-50, F
    3 Responses Mar 26, 2016

    Am a widower,i feel really

    so depressed and so lonely,i need help.
    alang12345 alang12345
    56-60, M
    4 Responses Sep 7, 2015

    I recently lost my loving husband few weeks

    back. 15 February 2015 after battling cancer metastesis Stage 4 . It was lately that I knew about the metastesis few days before he died. I just cried helplessly on top of my heart and he just saw me weeping, I felt that he wants to reach me but, through his severe pain...
    lohans lohans
    3 Responses Mar 7, 2015

    Hi. This is my third Christmas without my

    husband and this is the most emotional one I have gone through. I am crying constantly and I am seeing him everywhere. Everything I am looking at is just making me remember our 21 Christmases that we shared. I guess it is loneliness that is bringing a lot of this out too. I...
    bellaboo2 bellaboo2
    51-55, F
    4 Responses Nov 30, 2014
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