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I Am a Young Widow

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    I feel I have damaged my children.

    . I shout and scream every single day at them. I am exhausted. I am on my own and shouting is the only way they get things done otherwise I be doing everything for them .im sick of the way things are
    uncontrollabledesire88 uncontrollabledesire88 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 27, 2015

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    Those of you who have lost a spouse some years

    ago and if you post here how you coped with your loss since then would help those of us who have lost our spouse recently. It helps to know how others cope in similar situations and how they pick up the pieces of their lives after such a devastating loss. Thanks.
    TRMT TRMT 51-55 1 Response Dec 8, 2014

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    on this day I had an awesome day having my third

    and final wedding party on a beach in rural japan. 3 parties seems accessive but all were great fun. It was an incredible day surrounded by great people. How I miss u my angel. Always in my heart, may life go quickly. Inshallah we will b together again. Thank u always for...
    Widower1 Widower1 31-35 1 Response Aug 1, 2015

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    I saw the new Avengers movie Age of Ultron.

    I remember the great days when wifey was alive and taking my angel to see transformers 3. I told her it was a romantic comedy an I could see her getting more an more confused in cinema. After a time I noticed she appeared quite angry so I placated her with the robots fall in...
    Widower1 Widower1 31-35 Apr 25, 2015

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    Every night while the rest of the country

    sleeps, I lie awake or pace my house crying over the loss my best friend, my soulmate, my husband. Most days I can't even tell you what I have done, we had his funeral and Celebration of Life 8 days ago and everyone that was here has gone home, life is going on for them, but...
    Besidmyself Besidmyself 31-35, F 2 Responses Jul 20, 2015

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    Almost 4 years after my husbands loss,

    am still in love with him. Then 28, now 32yrs. No kids, just my beloved female dog. Don't know how to continue, life has no meaning. My in-laws took our money (we are at the court for that issue) and I don't know if it's worthy fighting (even if under the law his insurances...
    Sandybina Sandybina 31-35 6 Responses Aug 29, 2015

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    Whenever things do not go well in my life,

    I can't help but go five step backwards with my grieving. Everything would be so much easier if my husband was still alive. Connecting with another potential partner is so hard on my spirit because the truth is I really do not want anyone but my husband. He was such a hard act...
    IPleadthe5th IPleadthe5th 41-45, F 17 Responses Jul 18, 2015

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    I Just Lost the Love of My Life

    My husband and companion for the last 20 years, more than half of my life, died 14 days ago of cancer.  The memorial service is done, the kids are starting back to school for what is left, but it seems like I don't know what to do except remember and cry.  I miss him so...
    Girlsmom Girlsmom 36-40, F 2 Responses Jun 13, 2009

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    My husband passed away April 18th.

    He was my life. We had such a wonderful relationship. He was only 37 and I don't know how to deal with this.
    sadlori sadlori 36-40, F 3 Responses May 7, 2015

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    My husband died suddenly on 2nd Jan 2013 from a

    blood clot on his brain, we had only been married 6 months and he was my world. 2 years, 6 months later and i still miss him so much xx
    Amy4Luke Amy4Luke 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 5, 2015

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    Reason,season Or Lifetime

    i met my love when we were 18yrs old. i knew we were soul mates the moment i saw his beautiful blue eyes and heard his contagious laugh. we had an amazing connection,he called me angel,funny thing is now he is mine...after six years of eating out every friday night we continued...
    gracehopepeace gracehopepeace 31-35, F 2 Responses Jan 11, 2011

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    I lost my soulmate of over a decade years (but

    married for less than 2 years) when he got into an accident overseas. That was in July 2014. My biggest regret is being rude and irritable in our last messages, and opting not to call him the night before he passed, thinking that I would tell him all the nice stuff face to face...
    MrsC0314 MrsC0314 31-35, F 3 Responses Jun 10, 2015

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    Hello

    my wife died 10th jan 2010 from brain tumor aged 35 I have two children 6 and three and after not doing to bad for the first month I am starting to find it a lot harder
    gjww gjww 31-35, M 3 Responses Feb 23, 2010

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    My husband died 2 years ago due to medical

    negligence. Was a sudden death that no one expected. A freak thing. I was 7 months pregnant at the time to our second baby boy. We also had a 1 year old. I've been lost for the last two years. I'm making the difficult decision to find happiness again. Where do I start......
    bellaAUS bellaAUS 31-35, F 4 Responses Jan 21

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    I will have to move out of my house soon,

    my father-in law owns more of the property them I do. I know I need to be living day by day. but I also so lost about moving. Where do I go? the whole moving process hasn't even started...There are time when I think about packing a bag, grabbing my passport and walk out the...
    Mcrossbrand Mcrossbrand 46-50, F 1 Response Jun 22, 2015

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    My wife died 8 years ago.

    Was a hard time but my 2 daughters help me come through it. And now we 3 are closer then most families due to this. Still misses my wife but I am now glad for what she brought to me and I see her in my daughters everyday.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jun 23, 2015

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    Seems Like Just Yesterday

    My husband passed away almost 5yrs ago after an extremely brief battle with lung cancer. I was 35yrs old when he passed away and my four children ranged in age from 16 to 3. I can't explain the shock and grief that happens when you lose someone so suddenly. He had been fighting...
    coffeemom73 coffeemom73 36-40, F 3 Responses Jan 17, 2013

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    I lost my husband in an accident on March 1.

    I dont know how to live live without him. I just want to stay in bed
    Mcrossbrand Mcrossbrand 46-50, F 1 Response Jun 22, 2015

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    I am 25 years old and I lost my soul mate,

    best friend and husband almost three weeks ago to suicide. Although that is what it looked like, I know in my heart that it was an accident. My husband left me with our two small children, a 6 year old girl and a 2 year old boy. We met when I was 16 and he was 18, and got...
    jcamacho2189 jcamacho2189 26-30, F 8 Responses Oct 17, 2014

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    I found true love when I met my wife.

    We laughed talked about deep thing as well as stupid thing. We would dance in our bathroom, she was there when I lost my dad last December and she truly loved me as I did her.she passed away in her sleep feb 23, it been a true hell without her. She was the best woman I've ever...
    Jmurphy5 Jmurphy5 46-50, M 1 Response Jun 9, 2015

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    I lost my sweet husband not

    even 2 months ago. He was hard-working and dedicated to his family. He was also a rider and on this day, as with the past year he commuted to work on his motorcycle. I hadn't slept the night before so naturally I was heavily asleep as he got ready to leave. I pray he gave me a...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Nov 4, 2015

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    Gone Too Soon

    It has been 9mo since my husband died of a brain tumor. He was 36 and so am I. I miss him so much it physically hurts sometimes. He fought for 17 months...surgery, chemo, radiation, etc...I still have such a hard time just accepting that he is not coming back. I am trying to pick...
    samp77 samp77 36-40, F 2 Responses Sep 14, 2013

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    i am 32 and i my 5 year old son and,

    husband of 10 years died in a car accident on june 19th 2015. we had been together since 14 and were best friends. we were such a happy family. i have a four year old daughter who misses the boys so much and i am right there with her. everyday requires so much energy just to...
    uliu uliu 31-35, F 5 Responses Jul 14, 2015

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    First New Year Alone

    Never did I imagine I would hate christmas and new year...it was always such a happy time, but this year how different....new years day tommorow, 2 weeks to the day that my soulmate was buried....the weathers been horrendous, bad storms, powercuts, so scary to be on my own...the...
    soulsearchingforever soulsearchingforever 31-35, F 7 Responses Dec 31, 2012

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    I Lost My Husband 210913 - My Heart Is Broken

    Hi all - 2 weeks after loosing my husband, searching Google to try and find someone like me and found this page Im sharing my story as ive just lost my beautiful soulmate/husband. He was 48, the happiest he has ever been, had 3 great children and grandfather of 4. He was fit as a...
    lumibi lumibi 46-50, F 5 Responses Oct 3, 2013

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    To all the young widows out there,

    my heart feels for you. Dr Google says it takes time but you ask when will it pass. My friend it does but it is no easy task. Some days you can acknowledge the timing and the very next day you ask why and why us. No one understands YOUR dilemma and what YOU are experiencing. It...
    jozido jozido 61-65, F Sep 6, 2015

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    29 Year Old Widow

    Hello all, i came upon this site when looking for a group to talk with that have experienced the same heartache, life changing, most difficult thing that has happened to me that I experienced a month ago.  My husband and I just got married in September and in the...
    hisforeverandalways hisforeverandalways 26-30, F 33 Responses Dec 5, 2009

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    I'm glad I came across this site cause everyone

    around me says I understand but they don't cause they have their spouse I married my high school sweetheart Aug 2005 and knew him since I was 15 we have 2 kids a 10 year old and a 2 year old. I lost my love my soul mate Jan 3 2016 we went to bed and he never woke up. I'm 30 and...
    jessicawren85 jessicawren85 26-30, F 3 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    Can't sleep and find myself looking at old

    photos of my late husband.. It's voluntary torture. The memories are beautiful but it is shredding whatever composure I have scrapped together during the day. I know I will be exhausted tomorrow and so many more reasons not to be in my dark place but I just can't sleep...
    Widow106 Widow106 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 3, 2015

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    I lost my husband on 3/13/08

    when I was 31. I was pregnant with our son who is now five. I still miss him so much. I have had a few relationships that haven't worked out, but I still have hope I can love like that again.
    purplegallinule purplegallinule 36-40, F 3 Responses Nov 29, 2013

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    My husband was an alcoholic.

    He'd been drinking socially since he was a teenager, and he started drinking really heavily when he could legally buy it for himself at age 21. He'd had health problems (issues with cholesterol and heart-related problems) his whole life. At the age of 25, less than four years...
    Mollywobbles225 Mollywobbles225 26-30, F 5 Responses Feb 25, 2015

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    I recently lost my fiance on June 20,

    2015 in a motorcycle accident. He was on his way home and lost control and crashed into a concrete median and died at the scene. He was 25. We have a 5 yr old daughter. She's been going through different emotions and I'm not sure what to do. She cries in her sleep and has been...
    dle282 dle282 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 28, 2015

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    Ive had quite the wretched year.

    My husband was Navy and passed away august 6th of 2014 and since then life has been a nightmare. I suffer from severe depression, anxiety, and ptsd. Because of this my son, born two months before my husband's untimely death at 21, was given to my mother in law. I completed a...
    watchyourgrammar watchyourgrammar 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 11

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    I carry your heart, I carry it in my heart.

    I am 30 years old and I lost my husband to a long battle with addiction early on Halloween of 2013. He was 29 years old. People try to comfort me by saying "it takes time" or "time heals all wounds" it's just not true. I met him when I was 11 years old. He was my everything. I...
    desireediane desireediane 31-35, F 2 Responses Mar 5, 2014

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    My head spins. My heart aches My soul is

    hurting like I never knew it could. My hopes are crushed My dreams are shattered. My beliefs are completely deranged My spirit will never be the same. My drive is lost My world is unfamiliar. My intentions have become unintentional My existence has been turned upside...
    IPleadthe5th IPleadthe5th 41-45, F 13 Responses Dec 5, 2014

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    It is one week away from being 4 months

    since he left me, I always refer to it as he left me. I am not doing well in any sense and in any way. We have no family and no you. He was sick with what we were told 6 days earlier as viral, he was given a zpack and cough medicine then sent home, they failed to tell us he had...
    tdrwTexas tdrwTexas 41-45, F 1 Response May 18, 2015

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    I Lost My Soul Mate...I'M Only 25

    My husband passed away 2 months ago. Jan,13th. He died in my arms. I'm so heartbroken. I don't want to live without him. We met 7 years ago and became best friend and got married 4 years ago. He died from Fanconi and a brain tumor. He fought it so hard. I'm just so lost and...
    Thefatpanda1 Thefatpanda1 26-30, F 6 Responses Mar 15, 2013

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    My husband loved life.

    He always said he never wanted to die. We had our future planned. He was funny and sweet and he took care of me. He loved me. Then, he was gone. The list time I saw him was at the wreck. but I was taken away, and didn't get to talk to him. We were both flown to Wichita and in...
    Mcrossbrand Mcrossbrand 46-50, F 1 Response Jun 22, 2015

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    WIdow At 30 With 3 Children

    Hello everyone, I'm hoping to share my story and grief with young widows. I lost my husband on 1/19/09 to suicide. At first I was angry and confused and it later turned into guilt to later sadness. I feel like I'm going crazy because ALL i think about is HIM and how...
    roth429 roth429 26-30, F 10 Responses Feb 8, 2009

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    Those who have read my story know

    that my husband was killed in a motorcycle accident on June 1, 2015. They also know that I had a spiritual experience that day where he came to say goodbye to me by saying "hey, I love you". Which then got me checking for accidents in the area after not being able to reach him...
    Besidmyself Besidmyself 31-35, F 3 Responses Nov 30, 2015

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    I became a widow this last May,

    2013. My husband had a cardiac arrest on our front lawn just three months after our first child was born. It is weird being widowed at a young age, I just turned 25, and I am in need of some people who understand.
    Heartforheaven Heartforheaven 26-30, F 6 Responses Jan 22, 2014

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    i am 36 years old.. just 40 days agi my husband

    died.. hea wqs diagnosed 2 years of non hodgkin lymphoma in his sacral part.. now i have so many bashers in my colleague.. they tend to judge or think but things.. i have difficulty coping now a days and with this negative vubes the more i feel sad and depress.. i have an 16...
    bebetwinkle bebetwinkle 36-40, F 2 Responses Aug 15, 2015

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    I've never done anything like this before

    but I am struggling to find anyone who can relate and/or give me advice on how to cope or even just make me feel like I am not alone. Next week would have been my husband and my 5th anniversary. Next month will mark 4 years since he passed away. We were high school sweethearts...
    ForeverIsntLongEnough ForeverIsntLongEnough 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 2, 2015

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    ************ and started thinking of the sex

    with my dead ex partner😔 what an ****** killer 😔 tmi maybe
    uncontrollabledesire88 uncontrollabledesire88 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 22, 2015

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    Never Saw This Coming, Still Can't Believe It's Happening To Me.

    My husband Dual died on June 21, 2013 after a year long battle with stage 4 kidney cancer. He died almost a month to the day after our fourth wedding anniversary. What makes this whole story just a little bit worse is that he wasn't home when he died, he was at his mother's...
    terrishaun terrishaun 46-50, F 16 Responses Oct 3, 2013

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