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I Am a Young Widow

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    My husband was an alcoholic.

    He'd been drinking socially since he was a teenager, and he started drinking really heavily when he could legally buy it for himself at age 21. He'd had health problems (issues with cholesterol and heart-related problems) his whole life. At the age of 25, less than four years...
    Mollywobbles225 Mollywobbles225 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 25

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    I lost my husband on 3/13/08

    when I was 31. I was pregnant with our son who is now five. I still miss him so much. I have had a few relationships that haven't worked out, but I still have hope I can love like that again.
    purplegallinule purplegallinule 36-40, F 2 Responses Nov 29, 2013

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    Young Widow With 4 Kids

    We lost my husband on Dec. 29th, 2009. He was 37yrs old. We have 4 beautiful children that miss him very much. I am 32yrs old and feel like I am so alone. I know that I have to start living again but I just seem to be going through the motions right now...
    amyleighann amyleighann 31-35, F 22 Responses Jan 13, 2010

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    I was 36 when my husband died from a heart

    attack. I am now 43 and still single. I have almost finished raising the 4 kids we have together. November it will be 7 years.
    meximamaz meximamaz 41-45, F 3 Responses Jul 24, 2014

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    First New Year Alone

    Never did I imagine I would hate christmas and new year...it was always such a happy time, but this year how different....new years day tommorow, 2 weeks to the day that my soulmate was buried....the weathers been horrendous, bad storms, powercuts, so scary to be on my own...the...
    soulsearchingforever soulsearchingforever 31-35, F 7 Responses Dec 31, 2012

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    I carry your heart, I carry it in my heart.

    I am 30 years old and I lost my husband to a long battle with addiction early on Halloween of 2013. He was 29 years old. People try to comfort me by saying "it takes time" or "time heals all wounds" it's just not true. I met him when I was 11 years old. He was my everything. I...
    desireediane desireediane 31-35, F 2 Responses Mar 5, 2014

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    I lost my beloved husband this past August to

    lung cancer. He was 49 years old. He was diagnosed at Stage IV, terminal. When we were given the diagnosis that he had 2 years at the outside, it seemed like the sky had fallen. It didn't make sense; it seemed utterly cruel and impossible. We huddled together in bed and we were...
    TRMT TRMT 51-55 2 Responses Dec 3, 2014

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    I lost my husband Jan 6th,

    2011. I was 29, he was 35. It was almost 5 months after the birth of our second child. It was completely sudden. Just like any other day. He had a seizure and stopped breathing, and I was unable to resuscitate him. Grief is one of the most difficult things a human has to endure...
    jet6707 jet6707 31-35, F 3 Responses Apr 19, 2014

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    Pecan butter cupcakes frosted with cream cheese,

    topped with candied lemon. Every Christmas day, I visit an old widow, twenty years my senior. When we first met, she talked about her life being a faded glory, lonely, forgotten by relatives and friends. On New Year's eve, she would stand by the porch alone by herself, and...
    stiltcourt stiltcourt 41-45, F 2 Responses Dec 23, 2014

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    I've never done anything like this before

    but I am struggling to find anyone who can relate and/or give me advice on how to cope or even just make me feel like I am not alone. Next week would have been my husband and my 5th anniversary. Next month will mark 4 years since he passed away. We were high school sweethearts...
    ForeverIsntLongEnough ForeverIsntLongEnough 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 2

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    I am 21 years old and I lost my husband in a

    freak accident, I am having trouble accepting it, I miss him so much.
    mariibella mariibella 22-25, F 5 Responses Aug 29, 2014

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    I Lost My Soul Mate...I'M Only 25

    My husband passed away 2 months ago. Jan,13th. He died in my arms. I'm so heartbroken. I don't want to live without him. We met 7 years ago and became best friend and got married 4 years ago. He died from Fanconi and a brain tumor. He fought it so hard. I'm just so lost and...
    Thefatpanda1 Thefatpanda1 26-30, F 6 Responses Mar 15, 2013

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    I Just Lost the Love of My Life

    My husband and companion for the last 20 years, more than half of my life, died 14 days ago of cancer.  The memorial service is done, the kids are starting back to school for what is left, but it seems like I don't know what to do except remember and cry.  I miss him so...
    Girlsmom Girlsmom 36-40, F 2 Responses Jun 13, 2009

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    WIdow At 30 With 3 Children

    Hello everyone, I'm hoping to share my story and grief with young widows. I lost my husband on 1/19/09 to suicide. At first I was angry and confused and it later turned into guilt to later sadness. I feel like I'm going crazy because ALL i think about is HIM and how...
    roth429 roth429 26-30, F 10 Responses Feb 8, 2009

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    I am 25 years old and I lost my soul mate,

    best friend and husband almost three weeks ago to suicide. Although that is what it looked like, I know in my heart that it was an accident. My husband left me with our two small children, a 6 year old girl and a 2 year old boy. We met when I was 16 and he was 18, and got...
    jcamacho2189 jcamacho2189 26-30, F 8 Responses Oct 17, 2014

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    Hello, I am a young widow.

    I am 31 yrs old. I lost my beloved husband November 22,2010 to a trailer fire. Its been a hard journey taking on life experiences without him. I miss him everyday. We have a son together who is now almost 7 yrs old. He is severely autistic. I have been able to make it thru my...
    anmcg31 anmcg31 31-35, F 1 Response May 31, 2014

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    Hello

    my wife died 10th jan 2010 from brain tumor aged 35 I have two children 6 and three and after not doing to bad for the first month I am starting to find it a lot harder
    gjww gjww 31-35, M 3 Responses Feb 23, 2010

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    Never Saw This Coming, Still Can't Believe It's Happening To Me.

    My husband Dual died on June 21, 2013 after a year long battle with stage 4 kidney cancer. He died almost a month to the day after our fourth wedding anniversary. What makes this whole story just a little bit worse is that he wasn't home when he died, he was at his mother's...
    terrishaun terrishaun 46-50, F 16 Responses Oct 3, 2013

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    I was one of those crying humanity's perpetual

    "WHY?". I wanted to know so badly why my husband had to go so sudden, so soon. I was not ready. If only I had the answer, then I could rest my case. No amount of explanation could ever satisfy. After years of being stucked, on the eve of his 4th death anniversary, as I was...
    stiltcourt stiltcourt 41-45, F 6 Responses Jan 14

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    I lost my husband on July 16,

    2013 to sudden cardiac arrest 2 days after our 15th wedding anniversary. He was 42 and we have two daughters. What was most shocking to me was after his autopsy the ME told me that due to the damage from the previous "heart attacks" his heart just failed on that day. We did...
    Moodybleu Moodybleu 41-45 2 Responses Sep 25, 2014

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    I'm not yet. But I will be.

    I'm 38. I met my husband when I was 19 but we didn't really even talk until I was about 21, he was 42. We began talking and it was off to the races. One date and I don't think a day went by we didn't see each other. I KNEW the feelings I had were different and it had to love. We...
    Amginn Amginn 36-40 4 Responses Jul 14, 2014

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    Seems Like Just Yesterday

    My husband passed away almost 5yrs ago after an extremely brief battle with lung cancer. I was 35yrs old when he passed away and my four children ranged in age from 16 to 3. I can't explain the shock and grief that happens when you lose someone so suddenly. He had been fighting...
    coffeemom73 coffeemom73 36-40, F 3 Responses Jan 17, 2013

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    Loneliness is a resilient,

    persistent little beast. For most of the year, those of us who live alone can rub along pretty well. We tell ourselves everything is fine, that it's better to live alone than in a loveless relationship, that we enjoy the peace and quiet and the freedom, and the ability to sleep...
    stiltcourt stiltcourt 41-45, F 2 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    Change...Change...Change When I was a fresh

    widow, people would comment, "You will marry again...you're still young." It would p.i.s.s me off or set me into self-pity; judging how insensitive people could get. It was annoying to listen to someone about grief esp. when that someone hasn't experienced it. As a defense to...
    stiltcourt stiltcourt 41-45, F 6 Responses Mar 6

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    My head spins. My heart aches My soul is

    hurting like I never knew it could. My hopes are crushed My dreams are shattered. My beliefs are completely deranged My spirit will never be the same. My drive is lost My world is unfamiliar. My intentions have become unintentional My existence has been turned upside...
    thecowboysdaughter thecowboysdaughter 41-45 10 Responses Dec 5, 2014

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    I became a widow this last May,

    2013. My husband had a cardiac arrest on our front lawn just three months after our first child was born. It is weird being widowed at a young age, I just turned 25, and I am in need of some people who understand.
    Heartforheaven Heartforheaven 26-30, F 6 Responses Jan 22, 2014

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    "Can I find love again?

    " When you lose your spouse you often re-examine what love really is. You may feel unlovable and even be afraid that you will never be in love again. This fear can be overwhelming. Here it is - I'm going to talk about sex, that forbidden topic that no one wants to bring up. What...
    stiltcourt stiltcourt 41-45, F 4 Responses Jan 5

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    Gone Too Soon

    It has been 9mo since my husband died of a brain tumor. He was 36 and so am I. I miss him so much it physically hurts sometimes. He fought for 17 months...surgery, chemo, radiation, etc...I still have such a hard time just accepting that he is not coming back. I am trying to pick...
    samp77 samp77 36-40, F 2 Responses Sep 14, 2013

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    I lost my husband to stomach cancer Oct 2013.

    He was 44 when he passed ans i just turned 40 this summer. I still stuggle with the grief but I think knowing his destiny and having almost a year and 1/2 to prepare (if there is such a thing) I have been able to cope. So I have been dating someone who was a great friend during...
    mslady02 mslady02 36-40, F Feb 2

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    And the Great Loneliness - it seems we must go

    through, when life as we have known it is over, and yet we don't know who we are supposed to become. All we know is that something bigger is calling us to change. And though we must make the journey alone, and even if pain is our only companion, what wants to live in you may be...
    stiltcourt stiltcourt 41-45, F 2 Responses Feb 28

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    On Feb 11 my soulmate passed away only days

    after the birth of our 2nd baby I'm lost without him we were born two days apart the same year my world is broken
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 14, 2014

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    I still remember the way your eyes sparkle

    when you smile. The sound of your lazy morning voice. I remember the weight of your body on mine. and how small my hands are in yours. I remember the way you smell. I still smell you sometimes. Not often. Less now than before. My fingers remember tracing the lines next to...
    Thekidsmom Thekidsmom 36-40, F 7 Responses Sep 1, 2014

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    I have written my three Christmas cards: to my

    bf, who lives 200 miles away, to John the postman; and to the dustbin men. A lovely trio who often bypass my house because I have so little rubbish. I have done my Christmas food shop. There I was in my local supermarket, surrounded by harassed mums with lists longer than their...
    stiltcourt stiltcourt 41-45, F 1 Response Dec 17, 2014

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    A Love That's Once-in-a-Lifetime...By Lon's Baby Pie

    I met Lon in Apr. of 2004. The day we met was the day we became a couple. I had finally met my soulmate and finally knew what true love was. We moved out of town shortly after we met for his job. We were happy there for awhile. Got married there after a year and a half. We both...
    soulmateinheaven soulmateinheaven 41-45, F 3 Responses Mar 1, 2013

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    Why Did You Leave Me Here

    why did you leave me here all alone .....you know my heart still beats but its cold ...you were my everything my soul and my heart you own ...you took a very big piece of it with you that day ....and i can not get it backĀ  till i go though the pearly white gates ..i hate waiting...
    goodseemore goodseemore 41-45, F 23 Responses Feb 2, 2011

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    I lost my husband just 3 weeks ago.

    I do not even feel like the word husband begins to explain our relationship. He was my best friend, my soulmate, my everything. Oh yea, and I'm 25. He was 24 and died of pnemonia. We were only married 2 years, but we've been a part of each other lives for 7 solid years. I...
    biscuitforeva biscuitforeva 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 17

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    I am again a single mom

    for 5 short years we had a real family. Its been 65 days since daddy passed and it feels like yesterday. I was a single mom for 13 years before the luv of my life made me whole.when we got together I would tell him I've missed you like we were always together and he had been...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 15, 2014

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    I read a quote the other day

    that I love (Of course, now I can't find it). It went something like "I know I'm having a hard day, but so far my success rate at getting through tough moments is 100%." And that's true. I've done it this Christmas holiday. And I will have to do it again. 'Tho I will find myself...
    stiltcourt stiltcourt 41-45, F 3 Responses Dec 26, 2014

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    I am 32 years old and have been looking

    for some sort of support. My husband took his life 2 weeks ago and I am not sure how I will ever survive. He left me with 3 children to raise-- 10 (from a previous relationship), 4 and 3. I feel so alone and hopeless. He was my soul mate, we said that from the time we met. He...
    kdm629 kdm629 31-35, F 3 Responses Sep 17, 2014

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    My Soul Mate Left Me

    I don't understand what happened. We had our whole lives ahead of us...we were going to start having kids towards the end of the year when I finish nursing school. He wanted to go back to school once I became a nurse. I thought we were happy. I thought he loved and adored me. He...
    kristi1300 kristi1300 26-30, F 7 Responses Aug 17, 2012

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    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 14, 2014

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    Everything is still raw

    and numb. I just lost my 39 yr. old husband of almost 15yrs Sunday March 16th (I am 36). The business of death has me running in circles making phone calls and my 2 kids (boy 10 and girl 5) are both just trying to keep busy so they don't have to deal. Everything is moving so...
    dekaL dekaL 36-40 5 Responses Mar 27, 2014

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    I lost my husband last Saturday,

    29th March, he was killed in a light aircraft crash. He was only 29, 30 in May. I am only 33 myself and we have a 20 month old boy. I just feel numb, our boy is the only thing keeping me going x
    piglet80 piglet80 31-35, F 2 Responses Apr 6, 2014

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    Those of you who have lost a spouse some years

    ago and if you post here how you coped with your loss since then would help those of us who have lost our spouse recently. It helps to know how others cope in similar situations and how they pick up the pieces of their lives after such a devastating loss. Thanks.
    TRMT TRMT 51-55 1 Response Dec 8, 2014

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    I am a young widow, of 29 feeling alone

    and hoping someone can understand how I am feeling. My husband 62 passed away last October 2013. My darling husband, my soulmate, unexpectedly had a heart attack - he never regained consciousness and I can remember the next 8 days being an emotional roller coaster as I sat by...
    MrsHJS MrsHJS 26-30, F 4 Responses Jun 4, 2014

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    29 Year Old Widow

    Hello all, i came upon this site when looking for a group to talk with that have experienced the same heartache, life changing, most difficult thing that has happened to me that I experienced a month ago.  My husband and I just got married in September and in the...
    hisforeverandalways hisforeverandalways 26-30, F 33 Responses Dec 5, 2009

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