I Am About to Buckle

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 347 People

    They Say It's Hereditary

    My life right now is growing more and more difficult. Sometimes I have these thoughts- these thoughts that don't sound like me in my head and they are always negative. My mom killed herself in 96 and she suffered from schizophrenia and manic depressive disorder. All of the people...
    smallprice smallprice
    Nov 2, 2011

    How I Feel

    I feel I can't take this much longer I am going to fall apart I have not been out of bed in 6 days now I can't find the strengh to pull myself from this rut I can't talk to friends because I have none anymore and I don't get along with my family some days all I want to do is kill...
    TheDevilsOwn TheDevilsOwn
    22-25, M
    3 Responses Dec 27, 2010

    I'm Not About To Buckle Anymore But I Still Want To Cry

    I had recently been sad due to lots of events in my life that had happened to me. I had recently had my heart broken, and then after I got over that I still didn't have an ability to cry. Before this had happened I had embarrassed myself at school because I had cried in front of...
    DarkJadenGirl DarkJadenGirl
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 13, 2010

    I am not sure where to start I feel trapped in

    my marriage to an emotionally and verbally abusive man and of course we have a child together so I can't just pack up and leave. I am terrified of the future as I have never really had to go it alone and I am scared of all the uncertainty. Add to that the fact that I have...
    VBLOVE1106 VBLOVE1106
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Mar 24, 2014

    I Cant Take It Anymore

    ever since i was little iv been picked on by kids and have always felt like i dont belong. i go through the different groups of kids at schoool and no one seems to accept me. i dont know what to do any more.
    kp0525 kp0525
    8 Responses Mar 18, 2011

    This Feels Like Complaining, Yet I Need To Get It Out

    I worry way too much. Mostly about money. I've managed it poorly and now i'm experiencing non-sufficient funds fees from the bank and late fees tacked onto my one credit card bill that I only got to use for my daughters dental treatment. I have a husband and two children and...
    JennyKroh JennyKroh
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Jun 15, 2012

    Needing A Real Hug So Bad It Hurts!

    i am sure this sounds so lame or pathetic. but i think hugs are as important as water or air. and i haven't had a real hug by someone who cares about me in over a year.  i physically am aching i miss that feeling soooo bad.  before  a year ago it had been almost 2 yrs before...
    darlinsam darlinsam
    36-40, F
    4 Responses Sep 7, 2011

    Apologies In Advance

    ..because I am a little drunk as i write this. My husband has asked me to avoid verbal of physical conflict with my father-in-law (his father) until we can move out of his house. I am hoping I can make it. This evening the father-in-law had a fit over some coffee mugs which...
    Ivanova Ivanova
    31-35, F
    5 Responses Jul 21, 2010

    I dont know whats the point with life.

    . You just go to school, get a job and get a wife/husband and start a family.. And school never ends! I am 13 years old, i live in Norway. I dont know whats the point of living. I have 3 friends, 2 of them goes in my class and one is in Netherlands. Most of the time i feel alone...
    Amanda9880 Amanda9880
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Mar 19, 2014

    I Am So Tired

    vivlee1955 vivlee1955
    3 Responses Dec 30, 2011

    About To Fall

    Not sure where to start what to do. I feel lost with my teens, we used to be so close when they were younger now they are very far away I have been told that they need space I give them too much love. My marriage is empty, I now have no job, and the stress level is rising by...
    foggydarkness foggydarkness
    41-45, F
    3 Responses Aug 11, 2011

    Can't deal with life

    and 3 out of 3 sons being addicts! Want to die.. It's all to much
    exbunner exbunner
    46-50, F
    3 Responses Mar 12, 2014

    Um, Not At the Moment.  I...

    Um, not at the moment.  I'm feeling good and groovey.
    22-25, F
    Feb 15, 2007


    Maybe I have always been just posing as a strong girl? I do things relatively independently. I used to live by my lonesome, drive myself to work, clean my flat, etc etc. Of course I have my friends and family whom I meet up for dinner or go home to on weekends. But I depended on...
    lylac lylac
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Oct 4, 2011

    It Gets Better :)

    Hey :) i just found out that dysthymia exists and it explained so much, i realise that i had dysthymia for 4/5 years ending a year ago, it started when i moved to a totally new town and i didnt fit in at all, i couldnt make friends, i was bullied because of my accent, i stopped...
    pr1ncessarah pr1ncessarah
    Sep 6, 2011

    I Feel Trapped By The Things That Are Hurting Me.

    Life has really gotten me down lately. I don't really have many friends anymore, none of which are close. I moved to a different country than I was raised to go to University, they just have a better education system here and I have more respect to be a citizen of this country...
    thequietguy thequietguy
    18-21, M
    9 Responses Mar 2, 2011

    I'm Going To Snap Soon.

    that's all I'll say. I'm sick of everything, i'm angry at nothing, I want to make people suffer, just so I know I'm not the only one.
    Musical Musical
    36-40, M
    4 Responses Sep 11, 2010


    I often find myself feeling as though my life has no meaning. And then the tears come and I cry for hours and hours. My life is not going so well right now. I dropped out of school because I had to be hospitalized several times for an eating disorder. It still has a great hold...
    ColorMeRed ColorMeRed
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 20, 2011

    Not This Strong

    Everywhere I turn I'm faced by drama.  Online, real life...it's nearly too much.On top of that I'm having another series of flashbacks.  And struggling with the urge to self-injure.I'm so damn brittle right now it feels like I could break if someone looks at me wrong.  Hells...
    Plaid Plaid
    31-35, F
    Jul 28, 2011

    Is The End Near

    I've dealt with it since I was 16. This whole complicated romantic depressive. I've never been hit on, crushed on, liked, loved etc. The perfect friend, but nothing more. I managed to survive, until now. Images of couples are everywhere. At home, at work, at church, the internet...
    DGSteele DGSteele
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Apr 27, 2012

    Sometimes I Do Feel As If I...

    Sometimes I do feel as if I'm about to buckle, but then I remember what's more important and calm down.
    SnoBunny SnoBunny
    18-21, F
    Jan 6, 2007

    My Own Worst Enemy

    Waking up in the mornings are the worst, I feel so completely lost and overwhelmed with grieve that before I can do anything I will just on my bed and cry. I have fallen apart so many times, for some or other reason I just cannot hold my life long enough together before I fall...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Aug 31, 2011

    My Life Should Be Full.........why Do I Feel So Empty?

    My life should be full.......why do I feel so empty inside? I sometimes cry in the car on my way home from work. I don't know why, sad things just flood into my mind. I have 2 kids, a husband, and 2 dogs ,should I be feeling like this? No one cares about me, no one cares when I...
    ccarey1979 ccarey1979
    31-35, F
    9 Responses Mar 17, 2011

    Teri, You Are The Tough One

    All my life, ive heard that. From my mom. My sister. My friends.... my husband. TERI. YOU ARE THE TOUGH ONE. And, I have been. Through every trial.... and there have been many, I have stood with my stubborn bull head butted against the obstacles, and I am here. But, lately...
    trugritt02 trugritt02
    5 Responses Jul 11, 2011


    Felt I was about to buckle years ago and it never went away. Many times during the years I've felt like I couldn't go on. I don't know how I've been able to hold out this whole time. But some how I have held out and kept trying to forge a path in this world.
    doritos1254 doritos1254
    26-30, M
    1 Response Jun 21, 2011

    Alone In Deep Depression

    I am in a deep depression, I feel completely alone and in fact I am, I do not have any friends of family in the state I live in. I am 36 years old; when I was 30 I started a loving relationship with a woman. I told her from the beginning that I was looking for someone to have a...
    Clark777 Clark777
    36-40, M
    7 Responses Jan 1, 2011

    Did You Know Whay We Are Feeling Like This.. Becuase We Are Lost Direction In Life .. Lost Compass Life

    mrjem mrjem
    36-40, M
    Nov 20, 2010


     I'm thinking about everything right now. My parents, my sihty health, my family I haven't seen in ages, my older brother, my little sister, and my past. Its going to make me buckle. But it always makes me buckle though.
    XLunaXLovegoodX XLunaXLovegoodX
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jun 22, 2008

    My Battle With Depression, Loneliness And A Broken Home.

    My story seems like a simple one but indeed it is not. Ever since I can remember my mother has been hoarding and has only gotten worse and worse over the years. I grew up living like this just thinking that it is normal and then I went over to my friends' houses and it was...
    blackcloudnorain blackcloudnorain
    22-25, M
    4 Responses Nov 28, 2010

    I am a 19 year old female ,

    my life in my eyes is a barrel rolling down hill. I don't know where to start so I guess I should start with when I first start feeling this monster inside me grow. I was 8 when my mom was sent to prison for doing something terrible.... She did two years and six months at this...
    EbbyS EbbyS
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Mar 15, 2014

    I Can't Even Describe It Anymore

    When i get home, someone opens the door... i get inside and put my school bag down, and pet the dog. Then it happens differently everyday... I do something, something Wrong. Something Dumb Something completly out of the question, like ask for some help with Homework. Every...
    BrokenAndScared BrokenAndScared
    18-21, F
    14 Responses Feb 10, 2011

    About to Buckle

    I became disabled at age 29 because of a condition that ultimately caused gangrene, which in turn required multiple amputations.  I fought like a wildcat for so many years thereafter, then my child became deathly ill and required a very long hospitalization that took us on a...
    nubby8 nubby8
    31-35, F
    13 Responses Apr 13, 2006

    Relationship Troubles! :'(

    Ever since I can remember I feel like my life has been a rollercoaster ride. I haven't had any real tragity in my life but I have felt like everything combined has brought me to a place where I feel I won't be able to ever accomplish anything. I am married now and have 2...
    reallybummed reallybummed
    36-40, F
    1 Response Jun 5, 2011

    I'm Almost Out Of Time.......

    I don't know how much longer I can take this pressure and pain.....I just wanna give up. I want to curl up in a little ball, go to sleep and never wake up......I don't feel like I have anyting to live for...There is no light in my life only fear, pain, and depression. I can feel...
    LauraStorm LauraStorm
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Sep 3, 2011

    As I Feel I Have No-one And That All The Good Stuff Gets Taken Away From Me...

    New friend? Guaranteed that they will be taken away. Success and happiness in job? Guaranteed that it won't last. I am sick of everything that makes me happy being taken away. I feel so lonely and angry. Nobody seems to realise that I am hurting. Maybe they don't realise but part...
    deleted deleted
    4 Responses Jun 28, 2011

    I Cant Do Any Thing About It Today

    I am a truck driver on the road , so what's going on is my wife who I love and adore and thought I was going to be with for everhas found some one else while I have. Been gone.... so she. Wants a devorce, ok but I. Am out here sending home all my money we have 6 children and she...
    starman5000 starman5000
    41-45, M
    1 Response Jun 26, 2012

    It's Weighing Down On Me

    Fisrt off, for everyone in this group, know that you are not alone. I know exactly how you feel. For me its this big pressure just squeezing me until I pop, and other times its this huge weight that just drags me down and I feel like I cant handle it anymore. I've always been...
    lexross96 lexross96
    2 Responses May 18, 2011

    My Life's Going Really Well, A...

    My life's going really well, actually.
    sondosia sondosia
    18-21, F
    Jan 6, 2007

    I Am Breaking My Will

    If I were to relate my will to something... it would be something similar to glass. On top is... well everything negative. My low self-esteem, my self hatred, my dark thoughts, my suicidal thoughts, my anger. Under neath all of it is a retractable support know as hope. From...
    ForgottenMale ForgottenMale
    26-30, M
    5 Responses May 3, 2011

    Any Day Now... Any Day Now.....

    I swear any day now I am going to snap. The boyfriend I have is getting on my nerves. He is all the time following me around the house like a little lost puppy dog. I swear he is getting under my skin. I can't stand to be followed or texted a million times a day. I hate it.. If I...
    FolsomOrchid FolsomOrchid
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Sep 11, 2010

    Im At The Peak Of Depression

    My parents just dragged me across the country to bellingham washington. At this point im so depressed and angry and apathetic and all these emotions and im just so. I can't even fully explain. I have no motivation to get up in the morning nor to get out of bed at all. I feel like...
    lexross96 lexross96
    2 Responses Aug 10, 2011

    What's The Point To Life...

    I hate my life so much and am very much trapped because of my current financial situation. I am a 22 year old college grad who is underemployed. I rarely talk to anyone in my family. I hate my life day in and day out. My family has hurt me too much for me to ever let them back...
    1anonymous1 1anonymous1
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Oct 3, 2011

    It's Almost Over

    I've tried so hard for the longest time to make my life better. I've done so much to better myself but every time i try, things just tend to get worse. Im at a crossroads in my life and feel as if im about to buckle under the pressure of it all. I don't know what im going to do...
    misternobrain misternobrain
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Jun 30, 2011
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