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I Am About to Fall Apart Under the Surface

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    I Tried - i tried to live n love i tried to love n let live i turned the outher cheek i asked 4 help and i helped if i could have but now i asked help 4rm the last person i could...
    itsindaeyes itsindaeyes 26-30, M Jun 15, 2013

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    Sometimes; I Fear - Sometimes it is hard for me to get through the day. There are so many people, sounds, voices, and just way too many THINGS going around inside and outside of my...
    LittleMsGreenEyes LittleMsGreenEyes 16-17, F 1 Response May 28, 2013

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    Don't Trust the Surface... - I look alright, together, confident and strong. It's just a veneer. I'm about to break, it's all my doing.
    TheRealWoman TheRealWoman 31-35, F 17 Responses Mar 14, 2009

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    No Way To Breathe. - Holding on too tight for too long. It feels like I'm stuck in one place while the whole world shifts around me. I barely catch my breath and a month passes by...
    Jenna1225 Jenna1225 13-15, F Nov 3, 2013

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    Watch Out - Watch out,Under the surface,I’m falling apart,I may not show it,You’ve been warned!
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M 1 Response Nov 25, 2011

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