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I Am About to Fall Apart Under the Surface

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 71 People

    Don't Trust the Surface...

    I look alright, together, confident and strong. It's just a veneer. I'm about to break, it's all my doing.
    TheRealWoman TheRealWoman 31-35, F 16 Responses Mar 14, 2009

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    Sometimes; I Fear

    Sometimes it is hard for me to get through the day. There are so many people, sounds, voices, and just way too many THINGS going around inside and outside of my head. I feel like I am on the verge of going crazy sometimes. It seems to have gotten a lot worse lately and that...
    LittleMsGreenEyes LittleMsGreenEyes 18-21, F 1 Response May 28, 2013

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    No Way To Breathe.

    Holding on too tight for too long. It feels like I'm stuck in one place while the whole world shifts around me. I barely catch my breath and a month passes by.I can't keep up with all the noises and lights and the people walking by. I guess that sadness has caught up with me and...
    Jenna1225 Jenna1225 22-25, F Nov 3, 2013

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    I Tried

    i tried to live n love i tried to love n let live i turned the outher cheek i asked 4 help and i helped if i could have but now i asked help 4rm the last person i could and they say i have to leave but now truly i have no where else to go i kno if i leave it will be the last of...
    itsindaeyes itsindaeyes 31-35, M Jun 15, 2013

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    Watch Out

    Watch out,Under the surface,I’m falling apart,I may not show it,You’ve been warned!
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M 1 Response Nov 25, 2011

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    I'm falling for my best friend's sister. I've known them all for over a decade, and I've always had a crush on her. But I never did anything about it because I'm very close to the...
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    I just want to shut everything down and start over. A new life. But I can't I just can't. I'm falling apart every day
    FallingApart33 FallingApart33 22-25, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    1. I do not believe I will finish this. 2. I am 5'2" AND THREE QUARTERS. 3. I really speak out when something feels wrong to me. 4. I'm an 'INFJ' 5. I believe looking at the world...
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    Everyone has their own definitive principles for what they consider a true emotion, a philosophical concept, or a an aspiration. When it comes to the idea of falling love, I've...
    Lentocrates778 Lentocrates778 22-25, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    About three years ago, I was diagnosed with Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder. Even before the diagnosis, I felt that something was severely off with my emotional demographic...
    Lentocrates778 Lentocrates778 22-25, F 6 days ago

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    I really need help. My boyfriend and I have been together for almost 5 years, talking about marriage and whatnot, and due to family reasons we broke up for about a month. But we...
    DaisyDuke101 DaisyDuke101 22-25, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    You were my first love and the last person I loved deeply - completely open and welcomed in to my life, my darkness and my light. It was a predictable summers night in the city...
    neurokitty99 neurokitty99 22-25, F 6 days ago

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    I haven't been helping myself much. I haven't been taking my medication that my endocrinologist prescribed. It's been difficult to get with friends. I end up trying to do most...
    BloodMoonFlower BloodMoonFlower 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 30

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    in a dark place,**** it.....spark a candle
    Rain0069 Rain0069 26-30, F Jan 29

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    I taught you said it was easy listening to your heart i taught you said i will be OK then why i am falling apart
    Desperate25 Desperate25 22-25, M Jan 29

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    If you find yourself in love with someone who does not love you, be gentle with yourself. There is nothing wrong with you. Love just didn't choose to rest in the other person's...
    lemongrass09 lemongrass09 46-50, F 3 Responses Jan 26

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    I've posted a lot about my previous experiences before..but this experience sticks out for me right now because on Friday I'm going on a date with this guy that I'm really starting...
    cupcakes1995 cupcakes1995 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 26

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    NASA scientists have reported that they've successfully tested an engine called the electromagnetic propulsion drive, or the EM Drive, in a vacuum that replicates space. The EM...
    texaspilot texaspilot 46-50, M 3 Responses Jan 26

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    I've realized that I am, in fact, afraid. I used to try to convince myself that nothing could or should scare me: Spiders, heights, deep waters, even death. These things might be...
    TigerAtHeart TigerAtHeart 22-25, F Jan 25

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    Apartments are the worst place to live. I seriously loath living in these tiny boxes paying too much for rent and living next to rude and loud neighbors. I compare houses to heaven...
    Sable25 Sable25 22-25 Jan 25

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    1.) I live in Florida (grew up on a farm and moved closer to the city after college). We had horses, cattle, goats, chickens and mules...I learned the meaning of "Hard Work" and...
    Jfour001 Jfour001 31-35, M 1 Response Jan 25

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    Tonight All I know is my tears The weakness in me Like an unwritten story Pulling the words through the skin of my chest Tonight I came apart Gravity resumed its space inside...
    Angelofthesilence Angelofthesilence 31-35, F 2 Responses Jan 24

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    πŸ’–Baby, are you down?πŸ’–πŸ’–Even if the sky is fallin' downπŸ’–πŸ’–πŸ’–πŸ’–πŸ’–πŸ’–πŸ’–πŸ’–πŸ’–πŸ’–πŸ’–πŸ’–πŸ’–πŸ’–πŸ’–πŸ’–πŸ’–πŸ’–πŸ’–πŸ’–πŸ’–πŸ’–πŸ’–πŸ’–πŸ’–πŸ’–You ought to...
    GamesBOSS GamesBOSS 18-21, M Jan 24

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    I fall in love with everyone. Just a smile or a laugh, or a passing glance, and I fall in love with them. I fall in love with their interests and their passions and their talents...
    TryingMyBestToSmile TryingMyBestToSmile 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 23

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    dreams they are so powerful. i have a dream that i would give anything to live in. but the dream isn't complete alone. you are a part of the dream. you are the core of it...
    ArnoldJRimmer ArnoldJRimmer 46-50, M Jan 23

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    I was walking through a park in this really rough area on my way home one day after school, smart i know, and some women in a tight black hoodie and sweat pants suddenly stands in...
    MightyDucksGo MightyDucksGo 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 23

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    LOL So I am playing Fallout 4 and I am on my first mission in the town of Concord. I go into the Concord Speakeasy and I go upstairs. All of a sudden I find myself in a bathroom...
    50shadesofexodus 50shadesofexodus 26-30, F 3 Responses Jan 23

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    Both of my straight best friends (we'll call them X [female] and Y [male]) who know that I'm bisexual, started dating each other a couple months ago. Since these are my two best...
    bruddah bruddah 18-21, M Jan 22

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    I have fallen before,and was left to shatter.That scares me.I have fallen before,and torn apart.That scares me.I have fallen before,and made a fool.That scares me.I'm scared of how...
    TacoBellQueen TacoBellQueen 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 22

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    22 years ago I fell in love with a man I worked with. I was in my mid 20s and he was a year older than me. We started as friends and it turned to flirting. One day a coworker said...
    Freckles1969 Freckles1969 46-50, F 4 Responses Jan 20

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    Pretty much,though i think i already have..I'm having trouble even doing basic things to take care of myself,my sleeping is pretty ****** up too,going to bed in the afternoon and...
    simpleandpossible simpleandpossible 22-25, F Jan 19

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    With myself! I say this in the humblest of ways, but I really am falling in love with myself. I'm falling in love with my talk, walk, laugh, body, sense of humor, pretty much...
    GettingOverShit GettingOverShit 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 18

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    I know that God created someone who was meant just for me. He created someone who would handle my changing moods, anti social personality, and overall weirdness. But I cant help...
    everlastingjoy770 everlastingjoy770 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 18

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    Lately, my writing stints have been fan fictions of myself being thrown in a fictional universe with the power of immortality. My skeleton cannot break apart from itself, but I...
    BloodMoonFlower BloodMoonFlower 22-25, F Jan 18

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    I Am Very Scared About Becoming Homeless,After My Children's Mother and I (I Am An Person W/A Disability,And Am Constantly Denied Benefits)Split Up.I Was Forced To Move Back In...
    BIGGSKEET BIGGSKEET 46-50, M 1 Response Jan 17

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    He's already on my mind too much,last night he invaded my dreams for the first time.which I don't mind,I'm like a nieve schoolgirl,impressed by every little thing,I try to not...
    jenny5144 jenny5144 26-30, F Jan 17

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    My life is falling apart. I can't do this no more. I don't want to. Worst part I'm pregnant, and regardless of how much I want to die, I can't do it now. My life is so very...
    dirtyxxxwhore dirtyxxxwhore 18-21 5 Responses Jan 16

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    I don't think I ever will kill myself. but oh God I think about it constantly. I was in a car wreck on new years eve. a few days later, my friend died. he was supposed to live. I...
    veganjello veganjello 18-21, T 1 Response Jan 15

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    I'm not skeptical of faith, religion, or even a degree of superstition. However, the whole deal of a mass group of people "reawakening", for lack of a better word, as Fallen Angles...
    RoseyAlien RoseyAlien 18-21, F Jan 15

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