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I Am About to Fall Apart Under the Surface

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    Don't Trust the Surface...

    I look alright, together, confident and strong. It's just a veneer. I'm about to break, it's all my doing.
    TheRealWoman TheRealWoman 31-35, F 17 Responses Mar 14, 2009

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    Sometimes; I Fear

    Sometimes it is hard for me to get through the day. There are so many people, sounds, voices, and just way too many THINGS going around inside and outside of my head. I feel like I am on the verge of going crazy sometimes. It seems to have gotten a lot worse lately and that...
    LittleMsGreenEyes LittleMsGreenEyes 16-17, F 1 Response May 28, 2013

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    Watch Out

    Watch out,Under the surface,I’m falling apart,I may not show it,You’ve been warned!
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M 1 Response Nov 25, 2011

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    I Tried

    i tried to live n love i tried to love n let live i turned the outher cheek i asked 4 help and i helped if i could have but now i asked help 4rm the last person i could and they say i have to leave but now truly i have no where else to go i kno if i leave it will be the last of...
    itsindaeyes itsindaeyes 26-30, M Jun 15, 2013

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    No Way To Breathe.

    Holding on too tight for too long. It feels like I'm stuck in one place while the whole world shifts around me. I barely catch my breath and a month passes by.I can't keep up with all the noises and lights and the people walking by. I guess that sadness has caught up with me and...
    Jenna1225 Jenna1225 13-15, F Nov 3, 2013

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    Related Experiences

    ever since we moved and ever since my mom died, we are all now physically alive but emotionally and in terms of living life-- we are dead. My sisters are across the universe...
    Shamandora Shamandora 16-17, F Apr 13

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    I am falling apart right now. Its partly my fault, I'm letting everyone walk all over me, and use me however they want, and I don't have the physical strength to stick up for...
    AlyAngel AlyAngel 22-25, F Mar 24

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    ever felt as thought everything in your life is just falling apart? right from your work life to your personal life? I know I am still young and have my entire life ahead of me...
    teddybarom teddybarom 22-25, M Mar 29

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    I wake up every morning with the intentions to be a better me and to have a good day but something always ruin those purposes. I'm falling apart and I have no one around to help...
    TheBlackVelma TheBlackVelma 22-25, F Apr 2

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    So this might be long. I do feel like a pretty lucky guy with a lot of blessings.. But I do have a lot of worries about my family which I will express here.. Ok so my family is...
    PhindingPhronesis PhindingPhronesis 16-17, M Mar 30

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    It's getting at that point where I have one person that I can call a friend. My now ex best friend has got the whole school turned against me....I can't go anywhere in the building...
    Justanobody17 Justanobody17 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 6

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    "Isn't it tiring to live like this, when nothing is real, when nothing is right, when nothing is true, when nothing made sense? Won't it be easier to just end it all and say...
    AlyssaTM AlyssaTM 16-17, F Mar 29

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    Who cares about weather you wear underwear or not, what kind you wear, male or female. I really don't give a damn about your underwear and how manly or girly you feel wearing it.
    Maurelle Maurelle 22-25 3 Responses Apr 8

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    I feel so lost so alone and i wanna cry. i never felt so not my self. i feel like the outcast that nobody want to help but feel sorry for. i becoming so distance from every one...
    thuff01 thuff01 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 29

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    My mum kicked my brother out today. He nearly drink drove last night due to his girlfriend being terrible and he was plastered and we had to take his keys off him and hide them.
    AHelpfulLover AHelpfulLover 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 30

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    Everything is in a tailspin. It seems like all of the decisions I made to better my life are backfiring right now, I just hope all these wires untangle themselves soon.
    Rayonkier Rayonkier 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 30

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    I don't see how ill ever be able to move forward. I just wish i could go back in time so i could relive when we were together.
    BiO811HazarD BiO811HazarD 18-21, M Apr 2

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    I sometimes cry for no real reason except I just can't keep myself together any longer.
    TheWaySheFeels3 TheWaySheFeels3 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 6

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    Sometimes I wonder what my future husband is doing at the moment (not trying to sound creepy or anything) but then I wonder what if my future husband is wondering what I'm doing at...
    jazzy2468 jazzy2468 22-25, F 2 days ago

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    I had unprotected sex. I know it wasn't smart but it happened. I was supposed to start my period today and didn't. I'm so scared, I'm falling apart. I'm only 17, and my parents...
    RNicole35 RNicole35 16-17, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Do u believe in love at first sight..? I do. I believe two strangers can bump into each other in some busy street..or introduced by others in a three,four degrees connections, can...
    bellabong bellabong 26-30, F 22 hrs ago

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    It seems that no matter where I go online there is usually someone on some forum out there who constantly stalks me, screencaps my work and just plain bashes me as if he/she/ was...
    Monstermaster13 Monstermaster13 22-25, M Mar 28

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    I hate that my thoughts are able to paralyze me. I hate that I allow them to stop me doing what I need to do. I hate that one or two bad nights make it impossible for it to seem...
    Mackas14 Mackas14 18-21, F 2 hrs ago

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    Water, Water, Everywhere?In honor of Earth Day, I thought a post about our most precious natural resource (water) would be in order.About 71% of the Earth’s surface is...
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    I thought of you today. I think of you most days. I miss you. I'm sorry things are all messy right now. I'm sorry you feel the way you do about it all. I wish you could see my...
    CaliLove87 CaliLove87 26-30, F Apr 12

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    I think about sex far too often (all the time). On the surface I'm warm, courteous, and professional. Underneath I'm a sexual maniac (at least that's how I feel). If meet a woman...
    Bullbuddy Bullbuddy 31-35, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    For almost two years I have been in love with someone else. The first part of my story is at: EP Link That was in Sept 2012, I also posted an update to that part of the story in...
    browneyedgirl1234 browneyedgirl1234 31-35, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I want someone who can share their opinions and ideas. Someone to teach something new every day. A person who won't get upset if not agree on same subject. talk to me about...
    learning2bmyself learning2bmyself 18-21, F 3 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    I have always been careful when it came to men and dating, but finding out I was HIV made me realize that I didn't have to have a lot of sexual partners to contract the disease. I...
    keyaya keyaya 18-21, F 47 mins ago

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    Having broken up with my ex, about 3 years ago, I went through the usual cycle of depression, obsession and craving. Its not unlike an addiction... So while I was in this funk, I...
    v33rh0ra v33rh0ra 26-30, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    An email I sent to my fiancée I understand that everyone has dreams and aspirations in life. But there has to be a point where one either makes it or fall on to their plan B...
    reasonseasonlifetime reasonseasonlifetime 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 23

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    He's a great guy, but I am a very verbal person and fairly intuitive about other people's feelings and needs. He can go days without hardly saying two words to anyone and he is...
    CaptainXeno CaptainXeno 31-35, F 1 Response Mar 25

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    The meeting point of social activism and political influence..... I have always admired the work of Medha Patkar since college times. My initial interest came from a regional...
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    I was once confident and outgoing with girls. Not that I was a player, but I could easily maintain a conversation with them and flirt every now and then. When I reached my freshman...
    NoPseudonym NoPseudonym 16-17, M 2 Responses Apr 7

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    Lei is when u move your hand up and down multiple times non-stop on a surface. It's good for both your health aswell.
    CommanderToffen CommanderToffen 16-17, M Apr 6

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    I have been with him for over three years, and his near-constant nitpicking has just kept escalating. Now, I know I'm not perfect. I'm still hanging on to the baby fat after more...
    Lovelornmother Lovelornmother 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 14

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    FOR MEN WHO LIKE TROPHY WOMEN: The prettier they are the more psycho they are... only in the most rare cases will you find the one who isn't.. even then she still requires a lot...
    destinyisfate destinyisfate 22-25, F 6 Responses 6 days ago

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    I am extremely lost. I have driven myself away from my family. I have built a wall around me hiding from everyone. I don't know what to do anymore. it has been four long and...
    lizquiet lizquiet 16-17, F 2 days ago

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    I’m in my own personal hell. While S and I have managed to maintain a somewhat dignified plutonic relationship, my feelings for him remain unchanged. When we’re apart I...
    myownproblem13 myownproblem13 31-35, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I am finally living for myself. No longer scared of what others might think of me. It's the only way you can really get through your life the fullest. As I've gotten older I have...
    SylenaEverlasting SylenaEverlasting 13-15, F Apr 7

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    Ever since I was about 13 its been nagging me at the back of my conscience. Every car ride I would get the thought stuck in my head that i should open just open the door. Fall out...
    baaron4 baaron4 18-21, M Apr 13

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    I feel people should know these things about me Ps brownie points if you find all the song references and can message me with the songs and artists. So, my list: 1. I am gay 2. I...
    ZC343454 ZC343454 18-21, M 5 days ago

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    Hi, I am engaged to a guy named Mike and have been with him for 4 years. He does so many things for his mom, but not for me. For instance Mike and I were visiting my parents for my...
    katie415 katie415 26-30, F 9 Responses Apr 11

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    I think I'm falling in love with somebody on EP.... I feel my heart skip when I see that they're online and I get excited whenever I have a message.... Then disappointed if it's...
    Dan123123 Dan123123 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 12

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    im falling asleep! and the oddest images are popping in my head!! I see voices... people speaking jibberish.. and I see babies... sliding under door, old men using staplers, Miley...
    kidrawrr kidrawrr 13-15, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    My husband has been battling depression for our entire 10-year relationship. It's become a third member of our marriage; a wedge pushing us apart. And I don't know what to do. I...
    FakeIsTheNewReal FakeIsTheNewReal 31-35, F 5 Responses Mar 24

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    I've always been a sucker for love and romance. When I was a little girl I would often day dream about meeting my special someone. I used to be all about writing love letters and...
    couldbeheaven couldbeheaven 26-30, F 3 Responses Mar 29

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    I done one silly mistake in my life, and it gets magnified. I think to myself and wonder when it will end. I don't like feeling like this; the nights without sleep, meals you don't...
    J3ssii3 J3ssii3 22-25, F Mar 31

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    English Is Very Strange Did you know that "verb" is a noun? How can you look up words in a dictionary if you can't spell them? If a word is misspelled in a dictionary, how...
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