I Am About to Fall Apart Under the Surface

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 68 People

    Watch Out

    Watch out,Under the surface,I’m falling apart,I may not show it,You’ve been warned!
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket
    46-50, M
    1 Response Nov 25, 2011

    No Way To Breathe.

    Holding on too tight for too long. It feels like I'm stuck in one place while the whole world shifts around me. I barely catch my breath and a month passes by.I can't keep up with all the noises and lights and the people walking by. I guess that sadness has caught up with me and...
    Jenna1225 Jenna1225
    22-25, F
    Nov 3, 2013

    Don't Trust the Surface...

    I look alright, together, confident and strong. It's just a veneer. I'm about to break, it's all my doing.
    TheRealWoman TheRealWoman
    31-35, F
    15 Responses Mar 14, 2009

    I Tried

    i tried to live n love i tried to love n let live i turned the outher cheek i asked 4 help and i helped if i could have but now i asked help 4rm the last person i could and they say i have to leave but now truly i have no where else to go i kno if i leave it will be the last of...
    itsindaeyes itsindaeyes
    31-35, M
    Jun 15, 2013

    Sometimes; I Fear

    Sometimes it is hard for me to get through the day. There are so many people, sounds, voices, and just way too many THINGS going around inside and outside of my head. I feel like I am on the verge of going crazy sometimes. It seems to have gotten a lot worse lately and that...
    LittleMsGreenEyes LittleMsGreenEyes
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 28, 2013

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