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I Am About to Fall Apart Under the Surface

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 72 People

    Sometimes; I Fear

    Sometimes it is hard for me to get through the day. There are so many people, sounds, voices, and just way too many THINGS going around inside and outside of my head. I feel like I am on the verge of going crazy sometimes. It seems to have gotten a lot worse lately and that...
    LittleMsGreenEyes LittleMsGreenEyes 18-21, F 1 Response May 28, 2013

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    Watch Out

    Watch out,Under the surface,I’m falling apart,I may not show it,You’ve been warned!
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M 1 Response Nov 25, 2011

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    Don't Trust the Surface...

    I look alright, together, confident and strong. It's just a veneer. I'm about to break, it's all my doing.
    TheRealWoman TheRealWoman 31-35, F 17 Responses Mar 14, 2009

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    No Way To Breathe.

    Holding on too tight for too long. It feels like I'm stuck in one place while the whole world shifts around me. I barely catch my breath and a month passes by.I can't keep up with all the noises and lights and the people walking by. I guess that sadness has caught up with me and...
    Jenna1225 Jenna1225 18-21, F Nov 3, 2013

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    I Tried

    i tried to live n love i tried to love n let live i turned the outher cheek i asked 4 help and i helped if i could have but now i asked help 4rm the last person i could and they say i have to leave but now truly i have no where else to go i kno if i leave it will be the last of...
    itsindaeyes itsindaeyes 26-30, M Jun 15, 2013

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    I had a break up a year ago....I got fine after a while...that's when I joined EP but then I found this guy who really loves me and is great...but he's the carefree type...and...
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    I fell apart quite a while ago. I am scattered into a million pieces. I am having a very hard time right now feeling like I will ever be able to pick up these pieces and make...
    InfiniteBlue InfiniteBlue 36-40, F 2 Responses Apr 6

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    It's like a hard cookie. That a ton of people stepped on and now it's gross and crumbly. And no one wants a gross cookie
    Hiiamawhovian Hiiamawhovian 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 20

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    Can I just give up already??
    maddog1000 maddog1000 13-15, F Mar 25

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    I came out, I knew it wouldn't be an easy road. I feel so alone, I'm not but nothing and no one sounds appealing. I can't find comfort, I can't fill the void. I'm lost, totally...
    RobertE22 RobertE22 31-35 1 Response Mar 27

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    My girlfriend recently just broke up with me, I feel so lost and broken. After a few days, she's with someone else already. I want to hate her for it but I couldn't. I still love...
    RichieMad RichieMad 26-30, M Apr 6

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    nothing is right anymore... he's moves on and he's happy. It hurts, someone who knows everything, who you've been with, were close with is just gone. He was my best friend and more...
    WhyWasIStupid WhyWasIStupid 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    where do I start the past... im just lost...
    nixf1 nixf1 22-25, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    You know I'd fall apart without you I don't know how you do what you do 'Cause everything that don't make sense about me Makes sense when I'm with you Like everything that's green...
    varjakpaw varjakpaw 18-21, F 4 hrs ago

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    LOVE IS LOVE…This is a something I have never been able to understand. If two people are attracted to one another and fall in love, why oh why does it matter if they are of the...
    AutumnBliss AutumnBliss 46-50, F 4 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    Im tired of everything. It seems like no one understands me. I got friends but i still feel lonely most of the time. Theyre only good for hang out and stuff, but idk, i feel like...
    Nubeeh Nubeeh 16-17, F 3 Responses 20 hrs ago

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    Sometimes I just feel unloved in my current relationship. I feel like I'm giving out more effort than he does. I don't know, we've been together for almost 2 months now and I...
    Liebeeiram Liebeeiram 22-25, F 4 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    Everyone around me has become extremely self-centered around me which is something I could never be,I am always trying to help others and in the process I have forgotten how to...
    ChihiroKagamine ChihiroKagamine 13-15, F 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    Hell I mean the whole Debate about the First amendment typically goes like this tYOU ARE CRITICAL OF THE REPUBLICANS AND CHRISTIANS ALL THE TIME, HOW WOULD YOU FEEL IF THEY COULD...
    ManifestoOfThePhoenix ManifestoOfThePhoenix 26-30, M 3 hrs ago

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    CHEESY POST ALERT Not so much though. I'm still on the process of reevaluating whether I am legitimately falling in love, or I already am, or it's just a whole new level of...
    kixisback kixisback 22-25 1 Response Apr 6

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    I want to fall in love one day
    teenwolf360 teenwolf360 13-15, F 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    hi I am not really sure what I am doing I just joined my husband said that its a great place to write your stories and see what everyone writes I too would love to fall in love...
    smuffette1967 smuffette1967 46-50, F 1 Response Mar 23

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    I hope you like this poem I made its called A Wall That Surrounds My Heart You know the girl who smiles With the brightest one of all? You may think you know her, But that's not...
    RavenNightwing RavenNightwing 16-17, F Apr 5

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    People get married because they are in ‘Love”. This is a four letter word that people use to describe their strong desire for each other. Many look at this for hope, while for...
    Byeluv Byeluv 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 4

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    I have wondered this for a while. What would it be like. Granted I know plenty of women, and get different answers each time I asked, but it's still something I'd like to know. I...
    Eikenmaster Eikenmaster 22-25, M 1 Response Apr 5

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    It been a few days since I moved out of my family ancestral home only to find a dim lit one bedroom apartment two towns over where no one knows me or have heard my name. My phone...
    kankuro18 kankuro18 18-21, M Apr 2

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    life they say is good but i see nothing good about life ...
    ruthlove123 ruthlove123 31-35, F 18 hrs ago

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    I can't do it anymore, I don't want to be here know one understands and it's so ******* hard, I'm so weak I can't do it
    naturallyhappy naturallyhappy 16-17, F 2 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    I think that' sometimes and it gives me a really sad feeling , at times and all one can do is *sigh* , it's one of those things were when you first sit across from the dinner table...
    Prettibrowngirl Prettibrowngirl 70+, F Apr 2

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    I truly understand now what that woman meant. I was never apart of this family to begin with. From the day I was born I was hated. From the moment I was born I wasn't expected to...
    HigherCalling HigherCalling 26-30, F Mar 31

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    So often it can be so much easier just to fake a smile and internalise the struggles instead of having to explain everything to people who may or may not understand. It's even...
    mattywheels25 mattywheels25 26-30, M Apr 9

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    I think there is a cycle of judgement. Those that fear judgement are judgemental themselves. Lately I've come to accept the term judgemental. I honestly don't feel that I am I...
    HigherCalling HigherCalling 26-30, F Mar 19

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    Yeah. You could say a lot of things about my Mom. Well now I can. She's dead,so it's easier. Mom was an old time belived when it came to disciplining her children. "Spare the rod...
    lifeisforfree lifeisforfree 66-70, M 1 Response Mar 21

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    Life always has to change. For me, it's always for the worse. I really thought things would stay the same growing up, I honestly did. I mean, I knew some things would change like...
    TheMasterMan1 TheMasterMan1 16-17, M 2 Responses Mar 22

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    Sometimes, I plan how I would kill myself. I would first buy some white sheets for my bed and a beautiful white smooth dress.I would clean my whole room until everythings just...
    LivingDeadGirl2000 LivingDeadGirl2000 18-21, F 5 Responses Mar 30

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    First of all, to get this out of the way, I am a 15 year old boy, soon to be 16, and I adore the LGBT community. Also, while I generally have great grammar, I tend to switch tenses...
    mynameisxman mynameisxman 13-15, M 4 Responses Apr 2

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    "Falling in love" just because you like the way somebody looks is almost shallow in a way. It's like you won't accept somebody if they don't meet up to your expectations for the...
    RhinosaurusRex RhinosaurusRex 18-21, F 10 Responses Apr 9

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    All i want in life to have someone who understands how i feel. But i have to wait until i die to meet that person.
    phaselove86 phaselove86 16-17, F 1 hr ago

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