I Am About to Have a Mental Breakdown

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 293 People

    A few months ago I saved my best friends life.

    .. She might have just returned the favor...
    davisbre davisbre
    22-25, M
    Feb 26, 2014

    I'm Scarred

    I feel so helpless never before have I felt so much rage. I hate everything and everyone. I don't have anyone to talk to. My family ignores me because i'm always having issues with my boyfriend of 13 yrs. It's just one of those things they sweep under the carpet. He verbally...
    imnotok imnotok
    26-30
    2 Responses Aug 16, 2009

    Ticking Time Bomb Ready To Explode

    I've been on a downward spiral for so long right now and there is just too much running through mind at the moment,can't concentrate and am losing focus and interest on responsibilities and things that used to matter a lot to me,I don't sleep at night anymore and when I do I only...
    Alan132 Alan132
    22-25, M
    1 Response Apr 6, 2011

    Sitting in Class And I Can't Breathe I'm

    Shaking Qbd I'm bored and my ex boyfriend yelling all my friends gon cut me off and showing our sex tape to people and when I told the office only thing they told him to do was delete it I went to the police but they haven't even done anything yet I feel so distance and I hate...
    adoreeceleste adoreeceleste
    16-17, F
    Apr 4, 2014

    How do you get over the fact

    that your husband has a female co worker that has a mouth like a pig and you have seen some inappropriate emails from her to him and another male co worker . He swears nothing is going on and admits emails were wrong .
    sarah390 sarah390
    41-45, F
    1 Response Apr 4, 2014

    I'm about to have a break down.

    I'm on my second week of my internship I had this past winter as well and it's much harder than before because of traveling. Last winter I lived with my bf and it was a much shorter commute to NYC, now, I'm waking up at 4am everyday, traveling for 3.5 hours to work, then another...
    KrisMiss KrisMiss
    22-25, F
    Jun 6, 2014

    I'm Giving Up...

    It is official, I have no character at all. I tried to go cold turkey on all my meds at the same time, because my parents say that A) all my problems come from my meds and B) if you’re a strong person you don’t need medical support. Well, it turns out I’m not a strong...
    Quantumphysica Quantumphysica
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Dec 19, 2012
    Wyattcooper Wyattcooper
    18-21, F
    Jul 9, 2015

    Not That I Want To

    but...everything just keeps building up.  at the rate i'm going, i'm going to have to boycott thanksgiving and christmas with my family b/c i won't be mentally stable and will just shut myself out of life entirely.  if it wasn't for my daughter, i wouldn't do anything...
    KinkyFlower KinkyFlower
    31-35, F
    4 Responses Nov 14, 2010

    someone help please! im about to cry

    and i want to cut so bad :'(
    DeathIsMyVice DeathIsMyVice
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Apr 30, 2014

    Perhaps For The Best?

    Sometimes, you have to break down to build yourself back up into something stronger. Trying to build upon a shaky foundation will usually result in no progress. But for sure, I need to either break through or break down. I feel that this is what's keeping me from making any sort...
    KewlioMZX KewlioMZX
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Sep 3, 2010

    Body Problems

    So last year my brother bought me this Real Madrid jersey and I loveeee it because I love Christiano Ronaldo but the thing is....ugh this is so embarrassing ..... It doesn't fit right Like its tight so I never wore it And I cleaned my dresser yesterday and I forgot to put that...
    Anonymous700 Anonymous700
    16-17, F
    Jan 3, 2013

    It's Always Like This

    My aunt is the cause of my break downs. That might sound harsh, blaming another person for my problems, but it's true. I never had this problem until i lived with her. I never hated myself, or lacked confidence , i wasn't so weak-willed and terrified of the most mundane...
    xbreathexmusicx xbreathexmusicx
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 4, 2012

    So I'm in the middle of a breakdown right now.

    I don't have any real friends I can call, I just have my unreliable self and my immaginary company. Special thanks to social networks of course.
    justspeechless justspeechless
    18-21, F
    May 1, 2015

    Having the shittest day right now:'( don't

    even know what to do anymore
    lostgirl299 lostgirl299
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 26, 2014

    That's It

    That's whats been bothering me, for the past couple of months. I am about to have a mental breakdown, it dosen't matter anymore. Nothing matters anymore, it's not fair, o yea I know life isn't fair but it's never fair ever. That's how I feel, everything is gone, I'm pretty much...
    XLunaXLovegoodX XLunaXLovegoodX
    22-25, F
    1 Response Oct 4, 2009

    Ever since this girl first walked into our

    school for the first time, I couldn't take my eyes off her, and I know I probably wasn't the only one gazing at her beauty. Through my mind I was thinking "you know what, I'm gonna try to talk to her, I need to man up, I need to know how to talk to a girl and here's my first...
    elugo123456789 elugo123456789
    18-21, M
    Apr 4, 2014

    Sometimes I think I'm having a breakdown.

    The hurt overwhelms me and take over. My doctor put me on Prozac, but I guess it hasn't kicked in yet. I can't shake the depressed feelings I have and the stupid anxiety attacks are ridiculous.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Apr 4, 2014

    I just wonna die. I'm

    so empty. Lonely. No friends. Not connected to family.
    Wyattcooper Wyattcooper
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 9, 2015

    What Should I Do?

    I've been dating this guy, its a long distance relationship. He does not have a job, does not go to school and has gotten his high school equivalence since he is a drop out. I, on the other hand, am about to graduate from a university in a few months. I love this person but he...
    WinterSkies WinterSkies
    18-21
    3 Responses May 4, 2011

    Merry-go-round

    That's exactly how my life feels like a mery-go-round gone rouge! Nothing has gone the way I thought it should of...my mind is spinning out of control...emotionally I'm at the point of crying yet I don't. I find myself sleeping alot less...anger builds in my heart from the...
    Beast75 Beast75
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Oct 27, 2009

    My Everything Hurts

    everything right now is shaking with rage, depression, energy, and just generally hating everything right now.....i got rejected yet again by another girl who could care less about what im feeling. she stomped on my dignity and my heart.........i cant even think what to type...
    Estiban Estiban
    18-21, M
    4 Responses May 4, 2009

    I'm Scarred

    I feel so helpless never before have I felt so much rage. I hate everything and everyone. I don't have anyone to talk to. My family ignores me because i'm always having issues with my boyfriend of 13 yrs. It's just one of those things they sweep under the carpet. He verbally...
    imnotok imnotok
    26-30
    2 Responses Aug 16, 2009

    If I Dont Stop Lying To Myself

     i just might...probably :/
    kittycat101303 kittycat101303
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Dec 30, 2009

    I feel bad about myself.

    .. And its getting bad. I try to talk to people about it but they just shrug it off, and that makes me feel even worse. I've even pulled away slightly but nobody has noticed... I feel unimportant and unwanted everywhere I go. I could disappear and it'd be barely noticeable.
    Bigcat1697 Bigcat1697
    18-21, F
    Feb 26

    ......god help me,cant do this anymore.

    .....going insane......
    efox7 efox7
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Mar 29, 2014

    He Called Me

    Oh why why why did he call me on the 5th..I tought I was done with that..and I am so lonely I am thinking of calling him back! I had nightmares that I was talking to him on the phone and he was saying he was interested in other girls or something. I am scred the right thing is...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    7 Responses Dec 7, 2009

    Declining And Rapidly

    I am on the verge of falling off a cliff into a bottomless pit of psychosis. I am getting extremely overwhelmed with daily life and my mind is shutting down. I have thoughts and they can not stay planted long enough before the tornado comes and carries them away. I can't think...
    americanidiot87 americanidiot87
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Feb 7, 2012

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