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I Am Addicted to Adderall

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    It all started when I went back to see my

    doctor just to get back on my depression pills and anxiety pills.. I told him how I couldn't focus I always missed places things.. I would clean all day an realize I didn't get anything don't.. I was so hyper by the end of the day I was so exhausted.. Which wasn't good because I...
    Shorti125 Shorti125 26-30, F 3 Responses Sep 6, 2014

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    ya know... they say the first step of coming to

    terms with addiction is denial. then the other stages follow. but I think the lowest point is when you've finally reached acceptance and you just lay down like a dog and keep doing what you're trained to do. I've finally accepted im an addict and yet I don't WANT to change.
    nickrosenbery nickrosenbery 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 15, 2014

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    Sooo I ****** up and went way overboard with my

    pills today... I can't sleep worth ****. Anybody else??
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 30, 2015

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    is there anybody who has actually quit Adderall

    after using it? It's ruining my life and I want to stop but I just can't… Please help me.
    cherBearCJ cherBearCJ 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 29, 2014

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    I've been taking adderal recreationally

    and I've lost my mind. I have lost friends because of it, I can't stop crying, and I'm making decisions that I know will sabatage me. I'm digging myself in a hole, but I can only see the light when I'm on adderal
    straylay straylay 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 30, 2015

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    I'm a recovering adderall addict

    and I want to share my story with all you people. If you think you may have a problem with adderall then read along and see if you identify with my story. If you finish reading this and think you have a problem, rest assured that there is a solution. When I was in 4th grade I...
    SlammyDe SlammyDe 18-21, M Mar 28, 2015

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    Adderall Addiction

    I am addicted to Adderall. I am a drug addict & 26-year old male who is hopelessly addicted to our little round, or football- shaped, 30mg orange friends. AND LOVIN' IT!!!! Now wait just a minute before you criticize..... While on Adderall (of which I've been...
    Kleen Kleen 26-30, M 41 Responses Nov 21, 2007

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    My Turn to Tell My Adderall Story.

    I never thought that I would bring myself to admit this, but I have an addiction. I guess I should go back to the beginning so that I can explain how this happend to me. About 4 years ago, I was struggling with depression really bad. I weighed about 200 lbs at 4'11,My...
    missluvlie missluvlie 31-35 24 Responses Apr 17, 2009

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    My World Revolves Around Adderall...

    I am terribly addicted to adderall. My life has turned into an unhealthy, hellish cycle; fill my script, binge until its gone (10 days +/-), crash into a dark and debilitating state of withdrawal, recover to a basic functioning level, refill RX asap, repeat. Oh refill day is...
    cherrysnthesnow cherrysnthesnow 26-30, F 10 Responses Nov 7, 2012

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    I started taking adderall 7 years ago

    after my doctor told me I have ADHD... based off of some 1 page questionnaire lol. If I had any idea of how that would change me and my life I would have ran like hell out of that office. instead I followed "Doctors Orders"... At first it seemed to be the answer to all my...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jul 27, 2015

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    Please Read This Story, If You Suffer From Adderall/vyvanse Addiction.

    I have always been a happy and social person, especially when I was a kid. I was also different, when I was about 11 began to notice I had different sexual interests, basically I was gay. I obviously desperately tried to hide it, but it was very difficult. A lot of kids were very...
    DanVan DanVan 16-17, M 39 Responses Apr 19, 2012

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    In highschool I was the same guy you know me

    as now. Sociable, loving, friendly, and always loved being around people and fostering my time and attention in my relationships with friends. School wasn’t my favorite, but I was able to get by. Did the busy work, bullshitted my papers, and got through “studying for exams...
    blaabs blaabs 22-25, M 2 Responses Feb 3, 2014

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    I have been abusing Adderall ever

    since my best friend introduced it to me in the 8th grade. I am now in college and more addicted than ever. I am not afraid to admit that I have a serious problem that I need to get a hold of. I have tried so many times to quit and I just cant. When I don't have it, all I want...
    Anne58 Anne58 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 3, 2015

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    I have experienced nearly everything written on

    here, exactly. This drug is a soul crusher. I too, discovered it through a friend. I literally wondered how I had not known about something that filled every void in my life. I was able to be an amazing, fun mommy. I was outgoing, didn't lay around anymore. My depression was...
    fixyou4 fixyou4 36-40, F 2 Responses Jun 25, 2014

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    Adderall has caused nothing

    but problems for me in the long run. You feel great for 1 day then depressed the next 2? No. Don't even get me started on addy binges...
    TheOnetheOnly8414 TheOnetheOnly8414 18-21, M Jul 3, 2015

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    I was 15 when I tried Adderall

    for the first time. I felt so confident and motivated. By the end of my sophomore year I had lost 20 ibs and I felt amazing about myself. All through out high school I just bought them off friends, each day feeding the 'monster' inside me. Well, all good things come to an end...
    hazeoflove26 hazeoflove26 26-30, F 4 Responses Feb 5, 2014

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    my OCD is exhasterbated by addy

    and I become a picky eater. I've been living off Gatorade, water, salt and vinegar chips and sweet and salty bars
    adderallgrinch adderallgrinch 18-21, F Jun 5, 2015

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    I've been snorting Adderall all weekend.

    Currently, I've been awake for 81 hours straight. I feel like **** and I'm starting to hallucinate. My right ring finger and pinky are totally numb and my fingertips hurt like hell.
    mattCooke02 mattCooke02 16-17, M 3 Responses Apr 27, 2015

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    Ok just got off of a 3 day adderall binge

    and I am mad at myself for even doing it but I did take the step and flushed the rest down the toilet. so far this morning I am ok I just started Paxil today and so far that is going ok. I am going to try and stay positive
    PGBRAT14 PGBRAT14 31-35, F 2 Responses Apr 16, 2015

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    Honestly, I think it is almost impossible not

    to get addicted to Adderall. It's the perfect drug: motivation, weight loss, better grades, increased dopamine, and it's much easier to get than other drugs. But its perfection is the worst part. It helps so much and improves your life (at first) in every way. Until it wears...
    xmer831x xmer831x 16-17, F 7 Responses Mar 27, 2014

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    Admitting Adderall Addiction

    Seven months ago, I was telling a freind at work about my difficult school semester, how I was having a hard time staying on top of everything. She told me she took Adderall, a pill that helped her with focus and energy. She offered me a couple and the next day, I took one. I...
    lynnekay11 lynnekay11 22-25 7 Responses Sep 7, 2011

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    Adderal Is Satan

      If you're currently about to read my post, and typed in my title than you're probably in SEVERE mental pain as well.  I have battled with ADD, anxiety and depression now for 11 years. I have seen so many medications, none of which have really ever helped, but more just...
    addictionPain addictionPain 26-30, M 16 Responses Aug 26, 2011

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    getting close to the end of my script ND its

    scary because I know what's to come.. I get angry so easily even though I am still taking them I am not happy.. during the day I am but the come down I am so miserable hope this will all end
    Shorti125 Shorti125 26-30, F 6 Responses Jan 15, 2015

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    Right now I am obligated to take all of my

    medications as prescribed, as my probation orders it, but it makes me extremely anxious, especially on comedowns, and it occasionally gives me some kind of excited delirium or psychosis! I'll delude myself and live in pure paranoia for days on end (as pointed out by multiple...
    aj1996 aj1996 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 4, 2014

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    It all started in December of 2012

    when my doctor prescribed me Vyvanse. I was diagnosed with ADHD as a young child but didn't really take medicine growing up. I am in college and when I told my doctor I was having a hard time focusing on the work, he looked at my records and saw my earlier diagnoses and...
    RealBaratheon RealBaratheon 22-25, M 1 Response Oct 14, 2014

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    I hate, hate, Adderall!

    Why can't I quit taking it. My Brain is so foggy, I'm depressed on and off adderall. I don't want to depend on it, it makes me feel weak.
    RM686 RM686 36-40 2 Responses Oct 21, 2015

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    I'm a recovering adderall addict that's

    addicted to stimulants for appetite suppression. Now I'm sober and overweight, and I'm not sure which is worse. Does anyone have any experience or words of encouragement around adderall addiction for weight loss? How did you overcome your addiction/eating disorder?
    lived2tell lived2tell 31-35, F 3 Responses Jul 9, 2015

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    I've only started taking it about 8 months ago.

    The first was 30mg xr, the rush was crazy and I got so much work done. Afterward I got a script, 20mg ir, you know for school. Work and school became my life, the only time I wouldn't take adderall was when I spent time with my boyfriend, but after months passed I found myself...
    chelle3163 chelle3163 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 14, 2015

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    Everyday I wonder what's the point.

    My medicine has turned me into someone I don't know anymore. I have taken my Adderall for so long, that I have forgotten what real joy feels like. All of moments of happiness, joy, accomplishment, they were fueled by a chemical substance. I don't know what it feels like to be me...
    captureyourmind captureyourmind 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 10, 2015

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    Chronicle Of An Adderall Addict

    This is my story. (Originally posted as a response to this this thread http://www.experienceproject.com/stories/Am-Addicted-To-Adderall/3273866 )  The urgency to stop doing Adderall becomes more apparent every time I do them.  And every time I do them I say, "what the hell is...
    Addicteded Addicteded 36-40, M 11 Responses Jul 10, 2013

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    when will these cravings stop I know I am doing

    the right thing by stopping but there is still a part of me that really wants some
    PGBRAT14 PGBRAT14 31-35, F 1 Response Mar 22, 2015

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    I got my prescription

    for adderall when I was going through a bad marriage. I am now divorced from him, engaged to the most wonderful man who makes me happier than I ever thought possible. We have a 1 year old daughter and he has a 14 year old son from a previous relationship. My life is better than...
    jmh816 jmh816 26-30, F 5 Responses Aug 18, 2014

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    I am a 27 year old male with an amazing life

    and wonderful family all thanks to Adderall... Or at least that's what I want to believe. Is adderall really helping me or is it ultimately ruining my life without me even noticing. Let me explain in the shortest way possible, please bare with me and take the time to read my...
    Cragan61 Cragan61 26-30, M 2 Responses Feb 28, 2015

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    I'm addicted to adderall.

    I feel like I can't do anything without it. I was very depressed before being prescribed. I also take antidepressants but at this point i feel like I will never win my battle against depression. My mother died not too long ago and I've been downhill since then. I live alone with...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Sep 5, 2015

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    I have been on Adderall

    for 12 years and have been abusing it heavily for 4 years. Every month is the same now, I get my pills and live a happy week followed by an at home detox where I sleep for a week straight then wait two miserable weeks of Adderall until I can get my next script filled. I can't...
    nessagirl82 nessagirl82 31-35, F 2 Responses May 18, 2015

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    I go through adderall binges every month

    when I get my script filled and it starts a roller-coaster of feeling miserable. I will take up to 10 20 mg ir throughout the day then smoke up to 2 packs of cigarettes also them of course I cannot not sleep so I do like I did last night I took 2 lunesta, probably 20 benadryl...
    PGBRAT14 PGBRAT14 31-35, F 2 Responses Mar 19, 2015

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    Life After Adderall

    Life goes on. Must be approaching my second month without this crap. So easy to quit. Cancelled Doc appointment and stayed broke. Apparently this is the secret to quitting. Having my oldest brother and employer take his own life provided distraction for sure . I have yet to...
    bob237 bob237 41-45 2 Responses Nov 20, 2013

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    Bittersweet Haze With The Devil

    Hello, I am 17 years old and a girl, in her senior year at high school. My relationship with Adderall has been a Bittersweet haze. My diagnosis is unclear, doctors are not sure whether I have Bipolar and ADHD. I remember the first time I walked into my first doctor’s office...
    tumblingls tumblingls 18-21 2 Responses Nov 16, 2012

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    It Is Done.

    Well ****!  I'm already kicking myself for doing it and it's only been 2 minutes.  The Addy Monster inside me is FLIPPING out right now.  Calling me every name in the book.   Saying, "You might as well kill yourself because you CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT ME!!!" Anyways, I just wrote...
    Addicteded Addicteded 36-40, M 9 Responses Jul 17, 2013

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    well, I was recently prescribed Addy

    when I went to college. it made a huge difference. i am passing and making good grades. i hope i dont become addicted. i attend substance abuse classes with my fiance. i am learning about dangers and triggers! but, if i can kick powder and H. i wont let addy get the better of me...
    Evenflo95South Evenflo95South 18-21, F Sep 6, 2015

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    Adderall (ir) 30mg, 20mg.

    Adderall (IR) 30mg, $45 - 30 tabs, $55 - 60 tabs. 20mg, $40 - 30 tabs, $50 - 60 tabs.  Contact at - meds4sale44@yahoo.com
    meds4sale44 meds4sale44 22-25, M 7 Responses Jun 2, 2010

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    Once again, 30 pills filled last week

    and I'm burning through them. This drug is destroying me.
    dmcevo dmcevo 26-30, F 2 Responses Sep 29, 2015

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    so I been trying my hardest to stop over doing

    it on my adderall. I'm starting to get sick of this feeling all the time. hardly sleep I feel like a zombie my muscles hurt from moving around so much. the stress is getting to me really bad .I need to do this for my daughter I don't want something to happen to me or she grows...
    Shorti125 Shorti125 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 4, 2015

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    I'm 21 years old about to graduate college.

    I wasted the last two years of my life abusing adderall/vyvanse. I started taking it for different reasons...school...appetite suppressant...energy booster, etc. I never actually needed it, just wanted it and getting the prescription was a breeze. I have never regretted...
    lifesajourney2014 lifesajourney2014 22-25, F 5 Responses Sep 2, 2014

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    I have been on adderall 7 years.

    Am now 23.Anyone been on it as long? Or around my age?
    trentphuzz trentphuzz 22-25, M 1 Response Nov 1, 2014

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