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I Am Addicted to Adderall

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    Everyday I wonder what's the point.

    My medicine has turned me into someone I don't know anymore. I have taken my Adderall for so long, that I have forgotten what real joy feels like. All of moments of happiness, joy, accomplishment, they were fueled by a chemical substance. I don't know what it feels like to be me...
    captureyourmind captureyourmind 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 10

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    my OCD is exhasterbated by addy

    and I become a picky eater. I've been living off Gatorade, water, salt and vinegar chips and sweet and salty bars
    adderallgrinch adderallgrinch 18-21, F Jun 5

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    I have experienced nearly everything written on

    here, exactly. This drug is a soul crusher. I too, discovered it through a friend. I literally wondered how I had not known about something that filled every void in my life. I was able to be an amazing, fun mommy. I was outgoing, didn't lay around anymore. My depression was...
    fixyou4 fixyou4 36-40, F 2 Responses Jun 25, 2014

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    MaskedMan86 MaskedMan86 26-30, M 2 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    it is mind blowing to me how much cheaper it is

    to have prescriptions for different drugs versus going through a dealer. I used to spend 15 dollars for 5, 1mg Ativan, 30 dollars for 10 20mg Ritalin LA (long acting), 40 dollars for 10 20mg Ritalin IR (instant release) and 20 dollars for 5 vicodin 750s. now that I have...
    nickrosenbery nickrosenbery 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 23, 2014

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    I've taken Adderall for nearly eight years.

    I want to quit so badly. I used to be fun and creative. I used to have friends. I used to love socializing. Adderall was a miracle when I first started it. I was 15, by the way. Just 10mg of Adderall XR was enough to make me say, "It's like I can see all the colors now." There...
    Alanameyers89 Alanameyers89 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 30, 2014

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    Teeth Grinding Adderall

        Hi I'm New on this...I'm 20years old and I have a Drug Addiction to that one little orange pill to stay awake for the day than the night, then the day the night. I've been on and off Adderall and Ritalin for the past 7 or 8 years now,  got back on Adderall...
    MorphineXxLipsxX MorphineXxLipsxX 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 18, 2009

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    Oh Adderall, What Am I Going To Do With You

    I'm a mental health professional, I should not be misusing a medication. I'm a hypocrite. But Adderall enables to to function, get my research done, lose weight, be social, be generous toward others, and actually have conversations with people. My doctor diagnosed me with ADD...
    AgentScully1013 AgentScully1013 26-30, F 3 Responses Feb 6, 2011

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    I've been snorting Adderall all weekend.

    Currently, I've been awake for 81 hours straight. I feel like **** and I'm starting to hallucinate. My right ring finger and pinky are totally numb and my fingertips hurt like hell.
    mattCooke02 mattCooke02 16-17, M 3 Responses Apr 27

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    Please Read This Story, If You Suffer From Adderall/vyvanse Addiction.

    I have always been a happy and social person, especially when I was a kid. I was also different, when I was about 11 began to notice I had different sexual interests, basically I was gay. I obviously desperately tried to hide it, but it was very difficult. A lot of kids were very...
    DanVan DanVan 16-17, M 33 Responses Apr 19, 2012

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    Life After Adderall

    Life goes on. Must be approaching my second month without this crap. So easy to quit. Cancelled Doc appointment and stayed broke. Apparently this is the secret to quitting. Having my oldest brother and employer take his own life provided distraction for sure . I have yet to...
    bob237 bob237 41-45 2 Responses Nov 20, 2013

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    I got my prescription

    for adderall when I was going through a bad marriage. I am now divorced from him, engaged to the most wonderful man who makes me happier than I ever thought possible. We have a 1 year old daughter and he has a 14 year old son from a previous relationship. My life is better than...
    jmh816 jmh816 26-30, F 5 Responses Aug 18, 2014

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    you know its funny. I am under the belief

    that the pharmaceutical industries are amongst the most evil companies in the world and yet I look back the last couple years and realize I am the POSTER BOY for big pharma. I took a tally on all the meds ive been prescribed since I graduated high school four years ago and its...
    nickrosenbery nickrosenbery 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 17, 2014

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    Hopeless?

    First experienced adderall when i was 14. First 5 hours were great, but i totally overdid it and had some sort of episode the rest of the night where i couldn't breathe right, speak, move, sleep. I was convinced i was dying. Didn't have my second encounter until i was 16. I then...
    Searchingsoul9 Searchingsoul9 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 29, 2012

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    Ok just got off of a 3 day adderall binge

    and I am mad at myself for even doing it but I did take the step and flushed the rest down the toilet. so far this morning I am ok I just started Paxil today and so far that is going ok. I am going to try and stay positive
    PGBRAT14 PGBRAT14 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 16

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    My Turn to Tell My Adderall Story.

    I never thought that I would bring myself to admit this, but I have an addiction. I guess I should go back to the beginning so that I can explain how this happend to me. About 4 years ago, I was struggling with depression really bad. I weighed about 200 lbs at 4'11,My...
    missluvlie missluvlie 31-35 24 Responses Apr 17, 2009

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    A Love/Hate Struggle

    I've been prescribed adderall by three different doctors over the course of three years. 2 have been psychiatrists and one a regular family practice doctor. Trying to remember what life was like before adderall is hard for me.  I go through my 30 day scrip of 20mg instant...
    kth92485 kth92485 26-30, F 7 Responses Jul 16, 2013

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    It all started when I went back to see my

    doctor just to get back on my depression pills and anxiety pills.. I told him how I couldn't focus I always missed places things.. I would clean all day an realize I didn't get anything don't.. I was so hyper by the end of the day I was so exhausted.. Which wasn't good because I...
    Shorti125 Shorti125 26-30, F 3 Responses Sep 6, 2014

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    hmm so this may be the only solution to my

    problem with over consuming my meds other then quitting them. I am currently on Ritalin 60 mg a day. I also take 1 mg of Ativan when the Ritalin wears off and it helps illeviate the bodily discomfort but im still super depressed and fried, leading me to take more of both drugs...
    nickrosenbery nickrosenbery 22-25, M 2 Responses Jul 19, 2014

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    I am a 27 year old male with an amazing life

    and wonderful family all thanks to Adderall... Or at least that's what I want to believe. Is adderall really helping me or is it ultimately ruining my life without me even noticing. Let me explain in the shortest way possible, please bare with me and take the time to read my...
    Cragan61 Cragan61 26-30, M 2 Responses Feb 28

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    I was 15 when I tried Adderall

    for the first time. I felt so confident and motivated. By the end of my sophomore year I had lost 20 ibs and I felt amazing about myself. All through out high school I just bought them off friends, each day feeding the 'monster' inside me. Well, all good things come to an end...
    hazeoflove26 hazeoflove26 22-25, F 4 Responses Feb 5, 2014

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    getting close to the end of my script ND its

    scary because I know what's to come.. I get angry so easily even though I am still taking them I am not happy.. during the day I am but the come down I am so miserable hope this will all end
    Shorti125 Shorti125 26-30, F 5 Responses Jan 15

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    Chronicle Of An Adderall Addict

    This is my story. (Originally posted as a response to this this thread http://www.experienceproject.com/stories/Am-Addicted-To-Adderall/3273866 )  The urgency to stop doing Adderall becomes more apparent every time I do them.  And every time I do them I say, "what the hell is...
    Addicteded Addicteded 36-40, M 11 Responses Jul 10, 2013

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    I'm a little worried about myself.

    I have pretty bad ADD, and without my adderall I have a hard time getting things done. When I was pregnant I was a hot mess. My doctor has me on 20mg 2x a day, and when I'm out of adderall I'm Ok, I don't try to find more I just deal with it until it's time for me to get a new...
    ben873 ben873 31-35, F 2 Responses May 2

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    I Want Myself Back...

    Wow, I've never really talked about this to anyone or even thought about it until now. Sitting here in my room...took 90mg of adderall just hours earlier. Now one would think this could last anyone throughout the whole day! Not me, my tolerance is so high I can take up to 180mg...
    Frosty6 Frosty6 22-25, M 6 Responses Aug 26, 2012

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    I have been on Adderall

    for 12 years and have been abusing it heavily for 4 years. Every month is the same now, I get my pills and live a happy week followed by an at home detox where I sleep for a week straight then wait two miserable weeks of Adderall until I can get my next script filled. I can't...
    nessagirl82 nessagirl82 31-35, F 3 Responses May 18

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    Bittersweet Haze With The Devil

    Hello, I am 17 years old and a girl, in her senior year at high school. My relationship with Adderall has been a Bittersweet haze. My diagnosis is unclear, doctors are not sure whether I have Bipolar and ADHD. I remember the first time I walked into my first doctor’s office...
    tumblingls tumblingls 18-21 2 Responses Nov 16, 2012

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    As Of Now...Feb 2013

    Another member inspired me to post an update ;)Yes, i still get my rx refilled every month (religiously and usually early). Yes, I still take a months supply within an average of 10-14 days. Yes, still experience a debilitating withdrawal.However, I have held a job that ive grown...
    cherrysnthesnow cherrysnthesnow 26-30, F 3 Responses Feb 5, 2013

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    My World Revolves Around Adderall...

    I am terribly addicted to adderall. My life has turned into an unhealthy, hellish cycle; fill my script, binge until its gone (10 days +/-), crash into a dark and debilitating state of withdrawal, recover to a basic functioning level, refill RX asap, repeat. Oh refill day is...
    cherrysnthesnow cherrysnthesnow 26-30, F 9 Responses Nov 7, 2012

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    when will these cravings stop I know I am doing

    the right thing by stopping but there is still a part of me that really wants some
    PGBRAT14 PGBRAT14 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 22

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    I'm 21 years old about to graduate college.

    I wasted the last two years of my life abusing adderall/vyvanse. I started taking it for different reasons...school...appetite suppressant...energy booster, etc. I never actually needed it, just wanted it and getting the prescription was a breeze. I have never regretted...
    lifesajourney2014 lifesajourney2014 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 2, 2014

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    I'Ve Been Drawn Into Your Magnet Tar Pit Trap

    Everyday I find myself feeling less and less connected. And I mean connected to the world, friends, family, and most of all, myself. I'm losing myself little by little to a bottle of pills I get every month. And I don't even want to stop, which is so ******* frustrating. And what...
    Paige5 Paige5 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 7, 2013

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    I Can Barely Function With Or Without It

    I feel like such a failure
    amortize amortize 22-25, F 5 Responses Oct 7, 2013

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    Adderall Addiction

    I am addicted to Adderall. I am a drug addict & 26-year old male who is hopelessly addicted to our little round, or football- shaped, 30mg orange friends. AND LOVIN' IT!!!! Now wait just a minute before you criticize..... While on Adderall (of which I've been...
    Kleen Kleen 26-30, M 40 Responses Nov 21, 2007

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    Honestly, I think it is almost impossible not

    to get addicted to Adderall. It's the perfect drug: motivation, weight loss, better grades, increased dopamine, and it's much easier to get than other drugs. But its perfection is the worst part. It helps so much and improves your life (at first) in every way. Until it wears...
    xmer831x xmer831x 13-15, F 7 Responses Mar 27, 2014

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    Admitting Adderall Addiction

    Seven months ago, I was telling a freind at work about my difficult school semester, how I was having a hard time staying on top of everything. She told me she took Adderall, a pill that helped her with focus and energy. She offered me a couple and the next day, I took one. I...
    lynnekay11 lynnekay11 22-25 7 Responses Sep 7, 2011

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    was an am still addicted to adall I get it with

    no insurance or prescription fron inline store the new darj web drugstore.comli.com/sleeping_pills.html
    drodre40 drodre40 26-30, T Feb 2

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    ya know... they say the first step of coming to

    terms with addiction is denial. then the other stages follow. but I think the lowest point is when you've finally reached acceptance and you just lay down like a dog and keep doing what you're trained to do. I've finally accepted im an addict and yet I don't WANT to change.
    nickrosenbery nickrosenbery 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 15, 2014

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    is there anybody who has actually quit Adderall

    after using it? It's ruining my life and I want to stop but I just can't… Please help me.
    cherBearCJ cherBearCJ 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 29, 2014

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    I'm 24 years old, 5'5",

    115 pounds, the day bartender at a very successful bar, and the single mother to one beautiful girl. I've been abusing my Adderall lately...and loving it. I first was introduced to Adderall about 8 months ago when I was tired after pulling a double shift and a girl I worked with...
    powsupermum powsupermum 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 1, 2014

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    I have been abusing Adderall ever

    since my best friend introduced it to me in the 8th grade. I am now in college and more addicted than ever. I am not afraid to admit that I have a serious problem that I need to get a hold of. I have tried so many times to quit and I just cant. When I don't have it, all I want...
    Anne58 Anne58 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 3

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    In highschool I was the same guy you know me

    as now. Sociable, loving, friendly, and always loved being around people and fostering my time and attention in my relationships with friends. School wasn’t my favorite, but I was able to get by. Did the busy work, bullshitted my papers, and got through “studying for exams...
    blaabs blaabs 22-25, M 2 Responses Feb 3, 2014

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    It all started in December of 2012

    when my doctor prescribed me Vyvanse. I was diagnosed with ADHD as a young child but didn't really take medicine growing up. I am in college and when I told my doctor I was having a hard time focusing on the work, he looked at my records and saw my earlier diagnoses and...
    RealBaratheon RealBaratheon 22-25, M 1 Response Oct 14, 2014

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    I am prescribed a certain type of med

    for adhd that is easily abused. Ive developed a habit of taking more than i should. How can i taper off? Change my mind set? Bc it does do what its intended for but i just take way to much. Any suggestions??
    MaskedMan86 MaskedMan86 26-30, M 1 Response Jul 14, 2014

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    Addicted For 4 Years, Dont Know Where My Life Is Going, I Need Help

    So I've taken adderall for 4 years now and it has changed my life ever since. During highschool I could never stay focused or awake throughout the day and many of my friends had already been taking it since middle school so I never thought of it as a big deal. I always had some...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Nov 27, 2013

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    It Is Done.

    Well ****!  I'm already kicking myself for doing it and it's only been 2 minutes.  The Addy Monster inside me is FLIPPING out right now.  Calling me every name in the book.   Saying, "You might as well kill yourself because you CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT ME!!!" Anyways, I just wrote...
    Addicteded Addicteded 36-40, M 9 Responses Jul 17, 2013

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