I Am Addicted to Adderall

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    Once again, 30 pills filled last week

    and I'm burning through them. This drug is destroying me.
    dmcevo dmcevo
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Sep 29, 2015

    Adderall has caused nothing

    but problems for me in the long run. You feel great for 1 day then depressed the next 2? No. Don't even get me started on addy binges...
    TheOnetheOnly8414 TheOnetheOnly8414
    22-25, M
    Jul 3, 2015

    I've only started taking it about 8 months ago.

    The first was 30mg xr, the rush was crazy and I got so much work done. Afterward I got a script, 20mg ir, you know for school. Work and school became my life, the only time I wouldn't take adderall was when I spent time with my boyfriend, but after months passed I found myself...
    chelle3163 chelle3163
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Aug 14, 2015

    A Love/Hate Struggle

    I've been prescribed adderall by three different doctors over the course of three years. 2 have been psychiatrists and one a regular family practice doctor. Trying to remember what life was like before adderall is hard for me.  I go through my 30 day scrip of 20mg instant...
    deleted deleted
    6 Responses Jul 16, 2013

    my OCD is exhasterbated by addy

    and I become a picky eater. I've been living off Gatorade, water, salt and vinegar chips and sweet and salty bars
    adderallgrinch adderallgrinch
    18-21, F
    Jun 5, 2015

    Adderal Is Satan

      If you're currently about to read my post, and typed in my title than you're probably in SEVERE mental pain as well.  I have battled with ADD, anxiety and depression now for 11 years. I have seen so many medications, none of which have really ever helped, but more just...
    addictionPain addictionPain
    26-30, M
    16 Responses Aug 26, 2011

    Honestly, I think it is almost impossible not

    to get addicted to Adderall. It's the perfect drug: motivation, weight loss, better grades, increased dopamine, and it's much easier to get than other drugs. But its perfection is the worst part. It helps so much and improves your life (at first) in every way. Until it wears...
    xmer831x xmer831x
    18-21, F
    7 Responses Mar 27, 2014

    I've taken Adderall for nearly eight years.

    I want to quit so badly. I used to be fun and creative. I used to have friends. I used to love socializing. Adderall was a miracle when I first started it. I was 15, by the way. Just 10mg of Adderall XR was enough to make me say, "It's like I can see all the colors now." There...
    Alanameyers89 Alanameyers89
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Mar 30, 2014

    I'm a recovering adderall addict

    and I want to share my story with all you people. If you think you may have a problem with adderall then read along and see if you identify with my story. If you finish reading this and think you have a problem, rest assured that there is a solution. When I was in 4th grade I...
    SlammyDe SlammyDe
    22-25, M
    Mar 28, 2015

    Admitting Adderall Addiction

    Seven months ago, I was telling a freind at work about my difficult school semester, how I was having a hard time staying on top of everything. She told me she took Adderall, a pill that helped her with focus and energy. She offered me a couple and the next day, I took one. I...
    lynnekay11 lynnekay11
    6 Responses Sep 7, 2011

    In highschool I was the same guy you know me

    as now. Sociable, loving, friendly, and always loved being around people and fostering my time and attention in my relationships with friends. School wasn’t my favorite, but I was able to get by. Did the busy work, bullshitted my papers, and got through “studying for exams...
    blaabs blaabs
    26-30, M
    1 Response Feb 3, 2014

    I have been abusing Adderall ever

    since my best friend introduced it to me in the 8th grade. I am now in college and more addicted than ever. I am not afraid to admit that I have a serious problem that I need to get a hold of. I have tried so many times to quit and I just cant. When I don't have it, all I want...
    Anne58 Anne58
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jan 3, 2015

    Bittersweet Haze With The Devil

    Hello, I am 17 years old and a girl, in her senior year at high school. My relationship with Adderall has been a Bittersweet haze. My diagnosis is unclear, doctors are not sure whether I have Bipolar and ADHD. I remember the first time I walked into my first doctor’s office...
    tumblingls tumblingls
    2 Responses Nov 16, 2012

    Adderall Addiction

    I am addicted to Adderall. I am a drug addict & 26-year old male who is hopelessly addicted to our little round, or football- shaped, 30mg orange friends. AND LOVIN' IT!!!! Now wait just a minute before you criticize..... While on Adderall (of which I've been...
    Kleen Kleen
    26-30, M
    40 Responses Nov 21, 2007

    I started taking adderall 7 years ago

    after my doctor told me I have ADHD... based off of some 1 page questionnaire lol. If I had any idea of how that would change me and my life I would have ran like hell out of that office. instead I followed "Doctors Orders"... At first it seemed to be the answer to all my...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Jul 27, 2015

    I'm 21 years old about to graduate college.

    I wasted the last two years of my life abusing adderall/vyvanse. I started taking it for different reasons...school...appetite suppressant...energy booster, etc. I never actually needed it, just wanted it and getting the prescription was a breeze. I have never regretted...
    lifesajourney2014 lifesajourney2014
    22-25, F
    5 Responses Sep 2, 2014

    I hate, hate, Adderall!

    Why can't I quit taking it. My Brain is so foggy, I'm depressed on and off adderall. I don't want to depend on it, it makes me feel weak.
    RM686 RM686
    2 Responses Oct 21, 2015

    I go through adderall binges every month

    when I get my script filled and it starts a roller-coaster of feeling miserable. I will take up to 10 20 mg ir throughout the day then smoke up to 2 packs of cigarettes also them of course I cannot not sleep so I do like I did last night I took 2 lunesta, probably 20 benadryl...
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Mar 19, 2015

    I'm addicted to adderall.

    I feel like I can't do anything without it. I was very depressed before being prescribed. I also take antidepressants but at this point i feel like I will never win my battle against depression. My mother died not too long ago and I've been downhill since then. I live alone with...
    deleted deleted
    Sep 5, 2015

    Sooo I ****** up and went way overboard with my

    pills today... I can't sleep worth ****. Anybody else??
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jul 30, 2015

    In relevance to my other post: I already have

    lowered my intake a quarter of a pill. I usually will take them in halves or quarters to avoid insomnia, running out, tolerance, self control, etc. Although, down side to doing that is you subconscious sometimes take more (especially if alcohol is involved). It's not much, but...
    blancasinatra blancasinatra
    22-25, F
    Mar 1, 2016


    First experienced adderall when i was 14. First 5 hours were great, but i totally overdid it and had some sort of episode the rest of the night where i couldn't breathe right, speak, move, sleep. I was convinced i was dying. Didn't have my second encounter until i was 16. I then...
    Searchingsoul9 Searchingsoul9
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Nov 29, 2012

    Please Read This Story, If You Suffer From Adderall/vyvanse Addiction.

    I have always been a happy and social person, especially when I was a kid. I was also different, when I was about 11 began to notice I had different sexual interests, basically I was gay. I obviously desperately tried to hide it, but it was very difficult. A lot of kids were very...
    DanVan DanVan
    18-21, M
    39 Responses Apr 19, 2012

    I was 15 when I tried Adderall

    for the first time. I felt so confident and motivated. By the end of my sophomore year I had lost 20 ibs and I felt amazing about myself. All through out high school I just bought them off friends, each day feeding the 'monster' inside me. Well, all good things come to an end...
    hazeoflove26 hazeoflove26
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Feb 5, 2014

    As Of Now...Feb 2013

    Another member inspired me to post an update ;)Yes, i still get my rx refilled every month (religiously and usually early). Yes, I still take a months supply within an average of 10-14 days. Yes, still experience a debilitating withdrawal.However, I have held a job that ive grown...
    cherrysnthesnow cherrysnthesnow
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Feb 5, 2013

    60 Pills 18 Left I filled March 15th.

    Why? Why do I do it? Why can't I take the two 20mgs twice daily. I can't go on like this.
    dmcevo dmcevo
    26-30, F
    1 Response Mar 21, 2016

    Productive Junkies

    I'm just going to come forth with my anomosity.  Every coke head out there also feels 'on point' when they get a fix.  Speed is speed.  Adderall is not a godsend, just a very convincing lie.  For all of us who have become hooked on this chemical, this...
    SxDx SxDx
    26-30, F
    13 Responses Aug 11, 2009

    I've been snorting Adderall all weekend.

    Currently, I've been awake for 81 hours straight. I feel like **** and I'm starting to hallucinate. My right ring finger and pinky are totally numb and my fingertips hurt like hell.
    mattCooke02 mattCooke02
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Apr 27, 2015

    I am a 27 year old male with an amazing life

    and wonderful family all thanks to Adderall... Or at least that's what I want to believe. Is adderall really helping me or is it ultimately ruining my life without me even noticing. Let me explain in the shortest way possible, please bare with me and take the time to read my...
    Cragan61 Cragan61
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Feb 28, 2015

    Chronicle Of An Adderall Addict

    This is my story. (Originally posted as a response to this this thread http://www.experienceproject.com/stories/Am-Addicted-To-Adderall/3273866 )  The urgency to stop doing Adderall becomes more apparent every time I do them.  And every time I do them I say, "what the hell is...
    Addicteded Addicteded
    41-45, M
    9 Responses Jul 10, 2013

    Adderall (ir) 30mg, 20mg.

    Adderall (IR) 30mg, $45 - 30 tabs, $55 - 60 tabs. 20mg, $40 - 30 tabs, $50 - 60 tabs.  Contact at - meds4sale44@yahoo.com
    meds4sale44 meds4sale44
    22-25, M
    7 Responses Jun 2, 2010

    Breaking Point 9 was my magic number.

    9 magic pills. In less than a few hours. 9 was enough to make me lose count. 9 that night made my whole body go numb and lifeless, while my heart rate couldn't decided if it wanted to race to speeds fast enough to induce cardiac arrest or slow and deep enough to stop my...
    Justanotheradderalljunkie Justanotheradderalljunkie
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Feb 21, 2016

    Life After Adderall

    Life goes on. Must be approaching my second month without this crap. So easy to quit. Cancelled Doc appointment and stayed broke. Apparently this is the secret to quitting. Having my oldest brother and employer take his own life provided distraction for sure . I have yet to...
    bob237 bob237
    2 Responses Nov 20, 2013

    My siblings both are older

    and have addictive personalities/ have and continue to struggle with reliance and addiction. I used to be the smart one who observed and deterred myself from walking the same fires as them. My oldest pitched me adderall for ADD while she has ADHD, and from 18 to now 23 I have...
    blancasinatra blancasinatra
    22-25, F
    Feb 29, 2016

    I have been abusing Vyvanse

    for about 3 months now. I get scripted 30 60mg caps each month. Every month I vow to take one pill a day....However, by the middle of the month, I'm finding myself desperately trying to cling to that 1 last pill, so I have something when the withdrawal gets bad. Obviously I'm...
    m0leXX m0leXX
    31-35, M
    2 Responses Mar 15, 2016

    getting close to the end of my script ND its

    scary because I know what's to come.. I get angry so easily even though I am still taking them I am not happy.. during the day I am but the come down I am so miserable hope this will all end
    Shorti125 Shorti125
    31-35, F
    6 Responses Jan 15, 2015

    when will these cravings stop I know I am doing

    the right thing by stopping but there is still a part of me that really wants some
    31-35, F
    1 Response Mar 22, 2015

    I have been on Adderall

    for 12 years and have been abusing it heavily for 4 years. Every month is the same now, I get my pills and live a happy week followed by an at home detox where I sleep for a week straight then wait two miserable weeks of Adderall until I can get my next script filled. I can't...
    nessagirl82 nessagirl82
    31-35, F
    2 Responses May 18, 2015

    Everyday I wonder what's the point.

    My medicine has turned me into someone I don't know anymore. I have taken my Adderall for so long, that I have forgotten what real joy feels like. All of moments of happiness, joy, accomplishment, they were fueled by a chemical substance. I don't know what it feels like to be me...
    captureyourmind captureyourmind
    26-30, F
    1 Response Mar 10, 2015

    AtHerAll-Nighter: A Love StoryBy Ava AddieLast

    class:Muddled mind and bleary eyedConcentration took a fallFind a hollow - crawl insideLost the pills to Naoto HallBenzos - always second choiceWear my Kpen like a shawlWant to whine with all my voiceGIVE ME BACK MY ADDERALLThis class:Iris in on what's insideOrange bottle of...
    AtHerAll AtHerAll
    22-25, F
    Feb 20, 2016

    so I been trying my hardest to stop over doing

    it on my adderall. I'm starting to get sick of this feeling all the time. hardly sleep I feel like a zombie my muscles hurt from moving around so much. the stress is getting to me really bad .I need to do this for my daughter I don't want something to happen to me or she grows...
    Shorti125 Shorti125
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Jan 4, 2015

    I'm a little worried about myself.

    I have pretty bad ADD, and without my adderall I have a hard time getting things done. When I was pregnant I was a hot mess. My doctor has me on 20mg 2x a day, and when I'm out of adderall I'm Ok, I don't try to find more I just deal with it until it's time for me to get a new...
    ben873 ben873
    31-35, F
    2 Responses May 2, 2015

    well, I was recently prescribed Addy

    when I went to college. it made a huge difference. i am passing and making good grades. i hope i dont become addicted. i attend substance abuse classes with my fiance. i am learning about dangers and triggers! but, if i can kick powder and H. i wont let addy get the better of me...
    Evenflo95South Evenflo95South
    22-25, F
    Sep 6, 2015

    I'm a recovering adderall addict that's

    addicted to stimulants for appetite suppression. Now I'm sober and overweight, and I'm not sure which is worse. Does anyone have any experience or words of encouragement around adderall addiction for weight loss? How did you overcome your addiction/eating disorder?
    lived2tell lived2tell
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Jul 9, 2015

    I got my prescription

    for adderall when I was going through a bad marriage. I am now divorced from him, engaged to the most wonderful man who makes me happier than I ever thought possible. We have a 1 year old daughter and he has a 14 year old son from a previous relationship. My life is better than...
    jmh816 jmh816
    31-35, F
    4 Responses Aug 18, 2014

    My Turn to Tell My Adderall Story.

    I never thought that I would bring myself to admit this, but I have an addiction. I guess I should go back to the beginning so that I can explain how this happend to me. About 4 years ago, I was struggling with depression really bad. I weighed about 200 lbs at 4'11,My...
    missluvlie missluvlie
    25 Responses Apr 17, 2009

    Ok just got off of a 3 day adderall binge

    and I am mad at myself for even doing it but I did take the step and flushed the rest down the toilet. so far this morning I am ok I just started Paxil today and so far that is going ok. I am going to try and stay positive
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Apr 16, 2015

    It Is Done.

    Well ****!  I'm already kicking myself for doing it and it's only been 2 minutes.  The Addy Monster inside me is FLIPPING out right now.  Calling me every name in the book.   Saying, "You might as well kill yourself because you CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT ME!!!" Anyways, I just wrote...
    Addicteded Addicteded
    41-45, M
    8 Responses Jul 17, 2013

    Addicted For 4 Years, Dont Know Where My Life Is Going, I Need Help

    So I've taken adderall for 4 years now and it has changed my life ever since. During highschool I could never stay focused or awake throughout the day and many of my friends had already been taking it since middle school so I never thought of it as a big deal. I always had some...
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Nov 27, 2013

    I have experienced nearly everything written on

    here, exactly. This drug is a soul crusher. I too, discovered it through a friend. I literally wondered how I had not known about something that filled every void in my life. I was able to be an amazing, fun mommy. I was outgoing, didn't lay around anymore. My depression was...
    fixyou4 fixyou4
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Jun 25, 2014

    I Can Barely Function With Or Without It

    I feel like such a failure
    amortize amortize
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Oct 7, 2013

    I've managed to continue lowering my intake

    and mentally rising above the desire to overstimulate vs utilize the prescription as it should be. Basically, allowing the high feeling to conclude without grabbing for more. I've weaned myself down from 30-60 mgs a day to 3/4ths of 1 30MG a day. Stay determined and you can do...
    blancasinatra blancasinatra
    22-25, F
    Mar 6, 2016

    i love adderall it's all i think about

    and even talk about sometimes. i can see myself getting addicted to it right now but at the same i feel like there's no way ill let myself get addicted even though i already know i am (if that even makes sense) im having a hard time admitting it to myself but i know i am and...
    emilee00 emilee00
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Mar 6, 2016

    ya know... they say the first step of coming to

    terms with addiction is denial. then the other stages follow. but I think the lowest point is when you've finally reached acceptance and you just lay down like a dog and keep doing what you're trained to do. I've finally accepted im an addict and yet I don't WANT to change.
    nickrosenbery nickrosenbery
    26-30, M
    1 Response Jul 15, 2014

    I've been taking adderal recreationally

    and I've lost my mind. I have lost friends because of it, I can't stop crying, and I'm making decisions that I know will sabatage me. I'm digging myself in a hole, but I can only see the light when I'm on adderal
    straylay straylay
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jun 30, 2015
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