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I Am Addicted to Adderall

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    My World Revolves Around Adderall...

    I am terribly addicted to adderall. My life has turned into an unhealthy, hellish cycle; fill my script, binge until its gone (10 days +/-), crash into a dark and debilitating state of withdrawal, recover to a basic functioning level, refill RX asap, repeat. Oh refill day is...
    cherrysnthesnow cherrysnthesnow 26-30, F 9 Responses Nov 7, 2012

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    Your self control makes me feel aloneI've

    tried confidence, had it for breakfast todayI've lost the perfection, a mess without wordsAs the seasons change I'll continue to ignoreThe image I project is living in meThe picture that I scanned is borrowedAfter the education, you stopped making sense to meSeems to me that it...
    Livefree93 Livefree93 18-21, M Feb 24

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    Chronicle Of An Adderall Addict

    This is my story. (Originally posted as a response to this this thread http://www.experienceproject.com/stories/Am-Addicted-To-Adderall/3273866 )  The urgency to stop doing Adderall becomes more apparent every time I do them.  And every time I do them I say, "what the hell is...
    Addicteded Addicteded 36-40, M 11 Responses Jul 10, 2013

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    I started taking Adderall in 2004.

    Im a mother I her thirties, and a professional in many different aspects. Everything was fine until 2009 after two increases I noticed that I still was not having the same effects, and I started drinking socially ore and more. Since 2009 I have gained almost 100 pounds starving...
    ladyg47 ladyg47 31-35, F 2 Responses Dec 4, 2013

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    Adderal Is Satan

      If you're currently about to read my post, and typed in my title than you're probably in SEVERE mental pain as well.  I have battled with ADD, anxiety and depression now for 11 years. I have seen so many medications, none of which have really ever helped, but more just...
    addictionPain addictionPain 26-30, M 16 Responses Aug 26, 2011

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    you know its funny. I am under the belief

    that the pharmaceutical industries are amongst the most evil companies in the world and yet I look back the last couple years and realize I am the POSTER BOY for big pharma. I took a tally on all the meds ive been prescribed since I graduated high school four years ago and its...
    nickrosenbery nickrosenbery 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 17

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    I have experienced nearly everything written on

    here, exactly. This drug is a soul crusher. I too, discovered it through a friend. I literally wondered how I had not known about something that filled every void in my life. I was able to be an amazing, fun mommy. I was outgoing, didn't lay around anymore. My depression was...
    fixyou4 fixyou4 36-40, F 2 Responses Jun 25

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    I can feel and relate to everyone in these posts

    when you tell your stories of your love/hate relationship with adderall. For the first 2 years it was as if I found life. I had been missing out on parties, friends, boyfriends, and so much more because I was always tired and had no motivation. Adderall changed all of that and 5...
    Delayinginevitable66 Delayinginevitable66 31-35 2 Responses Jan 23

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    I am prescribed a certain type of med

    for adhd that is easily abused. Ive developed a habit of taking more than i should. How can i taper off? Change my mind set? Bc it does do what its intended for but i just take way to much. Any suggestions??
    MaskedMan86 MaskedMan86 26-30, M 1 Response Jul 14

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    I got my prescription

    for adderall when I was going through a bad marriage. I am now divorced from him, engaged to the most wonderful man who makes me happier than I ever thought possible. We have a 1 year old daughter and he has a 14 year old son from a previous relationship. My life is better than...
    jmh816 jmh816 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 18

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    Saying Goodbye To Hyde, And This Time, Jekyll Won'T Hide.

    Reading others experiences has given me courage to get rid of my adderall (Hyde) all together. I have tried to gradually come off of it in attempts of finding a sense of getting back to mere ambition, but it is only ever a brief thought. My mind has been able to manipulate...
    vp13 vp13 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 31, 2013

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    hmm so this may be the only solution to my

    problem with over consuming my meds other then quitting them. I am currently on Ritalin 60 mg a day. I also take 1 mg of Ativan when the Ritalin wears off and it helps illeviate the bodily discomfort but im still super depressed and fried, leading me to take more of both drugs...
    nickrosenbery nickrosenbery 22-25, M 2 Responses Jul 19

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    Honestly, I think it is almost impossible not

    to get addicted to Adderall. It's the perfect drug: motivation, weight loss, better grades, increased dopamine, and it's much easier to get than other drugs. But its perfection is the worst part. It helps so much and improves your life (at first) in every way. Until it wears...
    xmer831x xmer831x 13-15, F 8 Responses Mar 27

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    Bittersweet Haze With The Devil

    Hello, I am 17 years old and a girl, in her senior year at high school. My relationship with Adderall has been a Bittersweet haze. My diagnosis is unclear, doctors are not sure whether I have Bipolar and ADHD. I remember the first time I walked into my first doctor’s office...
    tumblingls tumblingls 18-21 2 Responses Nov 16, 2012

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    A Love/Hate Struggle

    I've been prescribed adderall by three different doctors over the course of three years. 2 have been psychiatrists and one a regular family practice doctor. Trying to remember what life was like before adderall is hard for me.  I go through my 30 day scrip of 20mg instant...
    kth92485 kth92485 26-30, F 6 Responses Jul 16, 2013

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    Admitting Adderall Addiction

    Seven months ago, I was telling a freind at work about my difficult school semester, how I was having a hard time staying on top of everything. She told me she took Adderall, a pill that helped her with focus and energy. She offered me a couple and the next day, I took one. I...
    lynnekay11 lynnekay11 22-25 5 Responses Sep 7, 2011

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    ya know... they say the first step of coming to

    terms with addiction is denial. then the other stages follow. but I think the lowest point is when you've finally reached acceptance and you just lay down like a dog and keep doing what you're trained to do. I've finally accepted im an addict and yet I don't WANT to change.
    nickrosenbery nickrosenbery 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 15

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    Man idk wtf to say cause I have

    so much to say about this but I loveeeee this pill and kinda hate it too. Can't get enough . That's for sure though
    Narik94 Narik94 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 9

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    Clean

    Today is December first, which means I am one month clean. Maybe I should be proud of myself or happy but I still see no light at the end of the tunnel. I wish I could be excited because some things are better since I've quit but a lot of things are harder. So I'm back to...
    Paige5 Paige5 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 1, 2013

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    I Want Myself Back...

    Wow, I've never really talked about this to anyone or even thought about it until now. Sitting here in my room...took 90mg of adderall just hours earlier. Now one would think this could last anyone throughout the whole day! Not me, my tolerance is so high I can take up to 180mg...
    Frosty6 Frosty6 22-25, M 6 Responses Aug 26, 2012

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    I Can Barely Function With Or Without It

    I feel like such a failure
    amortize amortize 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 7, 2013

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    Addicted For 4 Years, Dont Know Where My Life Is Going, I Need Help

    So I've taken adderall for 4 years now and it has changed my life ever since. During highschool I could never stay focused or awake throughout the day and many of my friends had already been taking it since middle school so I never thought of it as a big deal. I always had some...
    Livefree93 Livefree93 18-21, M 3 Responses Nov 27, 2013

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    Productive Junkies

    I'm just going to come forth with my anomosity.  Every coke head out there also feels 'on point' when they get a fix.  Speed is speed.  Adderall is not a godsend, just a very convincing lie.  For all of us who have become hooked on this chemical, this...
    SxDx SxDx 26-30, F 14 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    Adderall (ir) 30mg, 20mg.

    Adderall (IR) 30mg, $45 - 30 tabs, $55 - 60 tabs. 20mg, $40 - 30 tabs, $50 - 60 tabs.  Contact at - meds4sale44@yahoo.com
    meds4sale44 meds4sale44 22-25, M 7 Responses Jun 2, 2010

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    My Turn to Tell My Adderall Story.

    I never thought that I would bring myself to admit this, but I have an addiction. I guess I should go back to the beginning so that I can explain how this happend to me. About 4 years ago, I was struggling with depression really bad. I weighed about 200 lbs at 4'11,My...
    missluvlie missluvlie 31-35 19 Responses Apr 17, 2009

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    I'm here in search of hope

    and understanding. Im in this alone. 32 year old special needs mother who started taking adderall for the energy. It has been three years of daily use and I no longer feel any affects from even 30 mgIR tablets three times a day. I feel bad with or without the meds but always...
    mommy2floyd mommy2floyd 31-35, F 6 Responses Feb 14

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    Oh Adderall, What Am I Going To Do With You

    I'm a mental health professional, I should not be misusing a medication. I'm a hypocrite. But Adderall enables to to function, get my research done, lose weight, be social, be generous toward others, and actually have conversations with people. My doctor diagnosed me with ADD...
    AgentScully1013 AgentScully1013 26-30, F 3 Responses Feb 6, 2011

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    I've taken Adderall for nearly eight years.

    I want to quit so badly. I used to be fun and creative. I used to have friends. I used to love socializing. Adderall was a miracle when I first started it. I was 15, by the way. Just 10mg of Adderall XR was enough to make me say, "It's like I can see all the colors now." There...
    Alanameyers89 Alanameyers89 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 30

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    I was 15 when I tried Adderall

    for the first time. I felt so confident and motivated. By the end of my sophomore year I had lost 20 ibs and I felt amazing about myself. All through out high school I just bought them off friends, each day feeding the 'monster' inside me. Well, all good things come to an end...
    hazeoflove26 hazeoflove26 22-25, F 3 Responses Feb 5

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    Adderall Addiction

    I am addicted to Adderall. I am a drug addict & 26-year old male who is hopelessly addicted to our little round, or football- shaped, 30mg orange friends. AND LOVIN' IT!!!! Now wait just a minute before you criticize..... While on Adderall (of which I've been...
    Kleen Kleen 26-30, M 40 Responses Nov 21, 2007

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    Sometimes I feel like I live off of pills.

    My sophomore year of college I was buying adderall or 70 mg vyvanse when finally a doctor started prescribing me 30-70 mg vyvanse & 30-30 mg addy a month. I knew the amount was absurd & never would take all the vyvanse a month. My junior year of college, I consider myself a 20...
    collegedependent collegedependent 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 4, 2013

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    In 2009 during my senior year of high school I

    started buying adderall from a friend. Started off 20mg a few days a week just for those mornings when I wsa super tired. Over the course of 6 months my tolerance increased and I was taking 60mg of adderall a day and my dealer couldn't give me the supply I needed. So i went to...
    lrb316 lrb316 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 29

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    As Of Now...Feb 2013

    Another member inspired me to post an update ;)Yes, i still get my rx refilled every month (religiously and usually early). Yes, I still take a months supply within an average of 10-14 days. Yes, still experience a debilitating withdrawal.However, I have held a job that ive grown...
    cherrysnthesnow cherrysnthesnow 26-30, F 2 Responses Feb 5, 2013

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    I'm 24 years old, 5'5",

    115 pounds, the day bartender at a very successful bar, and the single mother to one beautiful girl. I've been abusing my Adderall lately...and loving it. I first was introduced to Adderall about 8 months ago when I was tired after pulling a double shift and a girl I worked with...
    powsupermum powsupermum 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 1

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    I have been taking prescription adderall

    since I was in 4th grade. However now I am in my senior year of college and I have noticed that I take way more than I need, and then end up not getting anything done. I keep telling myself it's not that bad. But After I've realized I spent literally 48 hours procrastinating in...
    Skirtsftw Skirtsftw 18-21, M 2 Responses Jan 11

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    I can't stop shaking on Adderall?

    Hii.. So I just took 20mg XR more than prescribed and now I can't stop shaking!! I've had this happen many times before but never this bad. What can I do to reduce this? Thank you in advance :)
    xmer831x xmer831x 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 27

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    it is mind blowing to me how much cheaper it is

    to have prescriptions for different drugs versus going through a dealer. I used to spend 15 dollars for 5, 1mg Ativan, 30 dollars for 10 20mg Ritalin LA (long acting), 40 dollars for 10 20mg Ritalin IR (instant release) and 20 dollars for 5 vicodin 750s. now that I have...
    nickrosenbery nickrosenbery 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 23

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    It Is Done.

    Well ****!  I'm already kicking myself for doing it and it's only been 2 minutes.  The Addy Monster inside me is FLIPPING out right now.  Calling me every name in the book.   Saying, "You might as well kill yourself because you CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT ME!!!" Anyways, I just wrote...
    Addicteded Addicteded 36-40, M 9 Responses Jul 17, 2013

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    Teeth Grinding Adderall

        Hi I'm New on this...I'm 20years old and I have a Drug Addiction to that one little orange pill to stay awake for the day than the night, then the day the night. I've been on and off Adderall and Ritalin for the past 7 or 8 years now,  got back on Adderall...
    MorphineXxLipsxX MorphineXxLipsxX 18-21, F 4 Responses Oct 18, 2009

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    Further Research And Things To Know.

    Already, I've posted before but I am coming back to share some more information I have learned and read up on. But first... I have been on adderall for ... perhaps just under a year if all my experiences with it were combined. These include periods of abusing adderall (the...
    ABoundDevil ABoundDevil 22-25, M 6 Responses Sep 10, 2011

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    Life After Adderall

    Life goes on. Must be approaching my second month without this crap. So easy to quit. Cancelled Doc appointment and stayed broke. Apparently this is the secret to quitting. Having my oldest brother and employer take his own life provided distraction for sure . I have yet to...
    bob237 bob237 41-45 2 Responses Nov 20, 2013

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    I will never forget the first time I ever took

    adderall. I just finished my freshman year of high school and it was the beginning of summer. Throughout my whole first year of high school, some of my friends would talk about how their parents put them on this medication that helps them focus in class. Of course that...
    Bfox07 Bfox07 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 2

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    I am writing to get some advice on trying to

    get off of adderall. I have taken it since I was 13 years old and I am now 22. At first I took it to focus in school, now I don't know if I can be without it. I have noticed it affecting my personal relationships more as I get older and I no longer want to take it. I am afraid...
    tsal123 tsal123 22-25, F 3 Responses May 8

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    It's way too easy. Too easy to find a doctor,

    to get diagnosed, to get a prescription written. Say it's not working enough and they'll bump up the dose, no questions asked. Need a little kick start? Just ask for something else. Run out of pills? There's definitely someone a phone call away who will sell you some. It all...
    goodbyebluesky goodbyebluesky 22-25 1 Response Aug 5

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    I tried adderall for 3 years

    and I want to change my life this is my 2nd day without adderall I slept too Mutch
    kassem21 kassem21 26-30, M 4 Responses Mar 6

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    I can't believe that me of all people am able

    to get addicted to adderall. I always told myself that I couldn't get addicted to anything, that I wouldn't let myself. Recently I was prescribed adderall for my ADHD. Having used it for recreational value in the past I was excited because I remember how it did wonders for me...
    YouShouldHaveKilledMe YouShouldHaveKilledMe 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 19

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    I'm a twenty year old college student that's

    tired of depending on Adderall. I've been prescribed the drug for about six years and it helps my ADD a ton. When I'm on it I'm happy, focused, and feel like the "real" me. But once those short eight hours are over, however, I feel like the biggest idiot on the planet. Without...
    Rzero Rzero 18-21, M 2 Responses Jan 12

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    In highschool I was the same guy you know me

    as now. Sociable, loving, friendly, and always loved being around people and fostering my time and attention in my relationships with friends. School wasn’t my favorite, but I was able to get by. Did the busy work, bullshitted my papers, and got through “studying for exams...
    blaabs blaabs 22-25, M 2 Responses Feb 3

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    MaskedMan86 MaskedMan86 26-30, M 2 Responses Jul 17

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    I Love Adderall.

    hi (:, I am 17 and I first tried adderall about 2  months ago and I absolutley love taking it.  I started off saying i'd take one 30 mg every other day which worked out fine for about a week, so then i started taking a 30 everyday and sometimes even two 30's. ...
    elohelsmiley elohelsmiley 16-17, F 9 Responses Apr 1, 2010

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    Never in my life would I have thought

    that I'd become addicted to this awful stuff. Let alone any kind of drug. I've never been that kind of person. Until now. I have even begun to love the way it makes me feel strung out and tweaked. It's a feeling I've just gotten used to over time. I love everything about this...
    Akindofpeace Akindofpeace 18-21, F 2 Responses May 20

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    It Gave Me Everything I Ever Wanted and then Destroyed it all Right In front of the Soulless Person it had Created.

    I'm a 24 year old guy and.I had never done any kind of drug until I was 23, I do drink occasionally. I was in college and was an average student, but I wanted to get A's and have professors applaud work. Also, my girlfriend broke up with me and it hit me like a a million tons of...
    u0474573 u0474573 22-25, M 3 Responses May 14, 2012

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    I'Ve Been Drawn Into Your Magnet Tar Pit Trap

    Everyday I find myself feeling less and less connected. And I mean connected to the world, friends, family, and most of all, myself. I'm losing myself little by little to a bottle of pills I get every month. And I don't even want to stop, which is so ******* frustrating. And what...
    Paige5 Paige5 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 7, 2013

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