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I Am Addicted to Cocaine

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    I'd love to stop my addiction

    but I've grown to like my weight and I'm worried I'll gain all the weight back..
    joshpaulsmith123 joshpaulsmith123 31-35, M 1 Response Feb 15

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    Distraction

    i just got done with a super alcohol yayo run for a week and im trying to calm down.. i thought trying meth would be a good way to coupe its not my drug of choice and can at least distract my mind which it did at first but then i just wanted the yay high it didnt do the same...
    thegirlwhosmiles thegirlwhosmiles 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 10, 2013

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    ≫≫≫≫≫S.T.U.C.K≪≪≪≪

    ok after months of denial i've come to admit that i have an addiction to cocaine. i've tried stopping by myself but the withdrawals just get so bad to the point where i break down and cry and end up having a huge binge. it's terrible.. i don't want to stop, i NEED to. i can't...
    KOLyn KOLyn 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 28, 2013

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    so, my mom went to rehab

    for 8 months, my boyfriend beat be half to death 2 weeks later and my step dad saved my life, he took my to the police and we gave our statements and 2 weeks later my step dad killed himself. i was alone and i havent gone more then 2 weeks without cocaine since. i literally cant...
    pixiejones pixiejones 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 26

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    You Think You Are An Addict Because You Just Ran Out

    Funny but isnt it true that you only really think 'poor me, im such a bad person, im addicted and my life is gone to ****... boo hoo hoo' when you are coming to the end or just ran out of your bob marley. Running out or coming to the end of a binge is all part of the cycle and...
    Janluca Janluca 36-40 1 Response Mar 24, 2013

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    I Want to Quit Before I Lose Everything

    I have always been envied for having the best self control.  I have been able to smoke cigarettes only when drinking for over 10 years and never became a smoker.  Cocaine is different, at least for me.  I started off doing just a little but every time you do it...
    MeowKitty MeowKitty 31-35, F 10 Responses Apr 30, 2008

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    New Tv Series - Help For Your Addicted Loved Ones!

    DO YOU HAVE AN OUT OF CONTROL LOVED ONE BEHAVING SO BADLY THAT THEY ARE A DANGER TO YOU OR THEMSELVES? Are they sex addicts, gamblers, runaway teenagers, cult members or gang affiliated? Do they have weird obsessions? Are they hoarders or extreme addicts? DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT...
    FamilyRescue FamilyRescue 26-30 Jan 24, 2013

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    Not Who I Am...

    I'm 18 years old and addicted to cocaine. Earlier this year i went through a really hard time when i was raped. i switched schools to escape from all the ridicule i got from it. I started to party and drink every weekend and even during the week. Things were exciting a new for me...
    AyoforYayo AyoforYayo 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 1, 2008

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    How?

    Upon leaving high school I scored a 10 out of 100 my chemistry class. When I went to college, things started to take off. I studied biology and managed to graduate with my b.s. in biology. For a yr after that, things were really good. I managed to get a really good job on Wall...
    Wreck24 Wreck24 22-25, M 1 Response Feb 7, 2013

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    How Did It All Happen...

    When I was 15 I started experimenting with liqour, then cigarettes, then ecstasy and finally coke. I have been able to quit a few times for even up to periods of 9 months, but as soon as the stress in my life comes around I begin feeling the desire for a little pick me up. Things...
    dbirnham224 dbirnham224 18-21 3 Responses Feb 25, 2011

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    Hate What I Have Become, Just Want To Be All I Can Be

    well don't really know what to say, this is the first time iv been on something like this. I started using 12 years ago, and if im honest probably been addicted now for 3 to 4 years depending on your definition of the change from recreational to addiction. tried beating it on on...
    whathashappenedtome whathashappenedtome 31-35, M 3 Responses Dec 2, 2013

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    Hy everybody! I'm a cocaine adict

    and I decide myself to stop from tomorrow
    Miclaus1986 Miclaus1986 26-30, M 1 Response Mar 30

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    I Crave

    I never touched hard drugs until just over a year ago, and it was love at first line. I felt so confident, so free. It made me feel like I was all the things I wanted to be but couldn't when I was sober. I became a regular user shortly after that. The longest I have gone without...
    CreateYourGod CreateYourGod 26-30 1 Response Dec 21, 2012

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    My Boyfriend Is A Cocaine Addict

    I really want to help him but i do not know how. He will disappear at the weekends with his phone turned off all day then turning it back on at stupid o clock in the morning, then monday he will not go to work. I desperately want to help him as i am the only person around him who...
    helpless222 helpless222 31-35 1 Response Nov 4, 2013

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    Oh Boy.

    Look what I've turned to... Not to downplay this site, because I find it very insightful. I guess I just can't believe I'm here. I have no one to turn to, actually I take that back. I DO have people to turn to. The fact is I don't want to. Nor do I want my close friends to know...
    terriblefixations terriblefixations 22-25, F 6 Responses Nov 4, 2013

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    Fear Of What Comes Next

    For many years i always promised myself that I will never try coke because I LOVE stimulants and I knew that i would love it to much. I would constantly wonder what it was like, and if it were even better than my first love with adderall. Then one day my adderall dealer informed...
    H0P3lESS H0P3lESS 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 15, 2013

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    I Can'T Stay Away

    I have been to two different rehab facilities in the past year. I spend all my money on it when i get paid. I've had to get a conservator to make sure my bills get paid. It's destroyin my life. And yet i can't stop. This sucks. How did i end up here?
    irrevocablyshattered irrevocablyshattered 36-40, M 1 Response Mar 15, 2013

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    I Am High And Disgusted

    I am tired of this horrid habit
    prodri5 prodri5 31-35, M 1 Response Nov 3, 2013

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    rkalapat rkalapat 31-35 1 Response Nov 20, 2011

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    Never thought I'd actually be addicted,

    I wouldn't really call myself an addict but the once a month habit turned weekly. I've been hooked up with great stuff and that's not good. The better it is the more I want. Of course I was attracted to the glitz and glamour of it and now it's a part of my lifestyle. It helps me...
    Bellsecrets Bellsecrets 22-25, F 3 Responses Dec 3, 2013

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    I Want To Change My Life

    I can´t remember when everything turned sour, life was fun, self destruction was fun, parties were fun. Now fun has departed and left my soul exhausted. Now i can´t find love within my soul, i know its there but its buried under years of piled up **** and i keep adding to that...
    wordsoundpower wordsoundpower 26-30, M 1 Response Jan 2, 2013

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    Spiralled Out Of Control

    Life in my 20's was mostly good fun....I worked in busy sales environment...driven by targets and incentives. We all drank on works nights out to excess and most if us also sniffed cocaine. My 1st line was when I was 23, I'm now 34 and cocaine binge at least once a week. Usually...
    Bowlman31 Bowlman31 31-35, F 3 Responses Aug 12, 2013

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    Cocaine Addled Brain

    Nights of no sleep and a million sunrises…blood red like my noses lining. I was wild. An unfettered maniac; a dopamine dinosaur; dangerous to myself and others – not intentionally but just the same… “Reckless to the point of selfishness” Something’s wrong here…I...
    ak3160 ak3160 22-25, M 3 Responses May 9, 2012

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    Hmmmm

    Well what can I say............ I love it !!!!  I tried to stop and just have fun at a party drinking.  It does not work for me.  I am a weekend person, used to be an everday person.  For real I would rather be high then a silly drunk.  Do...
    sabbi sabbi 31-35, F 1 Response Sep 12, 2009

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    13 Years

    I am now 27. I started using when I was 13. Had a few breaks here and there nly becuse I had to. I got pregnant and nursed both my kids. I quit for that. I have been angry for as long as I can remember I talk with a nasty tone and I don't even mean too. I realized I was sexually...
    reia27 reia27 26-30 2 Responses Nov 24, 2010

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    And Now, I Feel Nothing

    "It was the best of times, it was the worst of times, it was the age of wisdom, it was the age of foolishness" and it still is. first I start to take it only on weekends, you know just to relax and have fun. Then on Tuesdays. then on Thursdays. and suddenly I start to take it...
    Scarlet777 Scarlet777 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 28, 2012

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    Someone Please Help

    I am posting this because I desperately need some advice. I am addicted to cocaine. I am starting nursing school in august and my primary goal for this summer is to get clean and stay clean so that I can survive through nursing school. I have turned to my friends for advice, but...
    H0P3lESS H0P3lESS 22-25, F 1 Response May 24, 2013

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    Yayo

    i've always been on the heavier side but never resorted to drastic moves in order to lose weight. i started experimenting with drugs when i was in 7th grade beginning with alcohol then weed, ecstasy, cocaine and shrooms. i am addicted to uppers. i have stolen money and other...
    heytheredelilah1 heytheredelilah1 19-21, F 1 Response Dec 2, 2007

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    I Need to Talk

    I have been using cocaine for quite some time
    Marchaos Marchaos 31-35 4 Responses Apr 17, 2009

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    Cocaine My Shame

    I do fat lines on my inspirational books, how inspiring! I lost a lot from the devils dust, lost my soul mate and son, almost lost my house. I Never battled anything as controlling as this addiction, I think I'm getting close to a breakthrough, I went 4 days clean last week...
    Stareater Stareater 41-45 1 Response Apr 2, 2013

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    No Understanding!

    This is how I feel normal this is how I deal and honestly this is how I have been for years and years the longest I have been clean was two months because of my relationship but he doesn't see cocaine as an addiction because there is no withdraws so he puts it around me not...
    thegirlwhosmiles thegirlwhosmiles 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 29, 2013

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    Calls My Name

    When I'm very upset or depressed I tend to self destruct. I end up doing blow all night till the morning. , not wanting to go to sleep. It makes me feel numb and stop crying. I don't do it too much but once in blue moon. But once I start for the night I can't stop. Said part is...
    2 Responses Feb 7, 2013

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    Everyone who is addicted more then 9 years comment me!
    angel8i angel8i 31-35, F 5 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    To everyone on here NEVER start doing coke. It makes the problems you are trying to get rid of way worse. Today is a new day and the start of my sobriety. If anyone has any tips or...
    dontsaycant dontsaycant 22-25, M 1 day ago

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    I had a fantastic time this evening doing cocaine - so much so that i'm writing this at 5 in the morning! Me and a group of friends at work all did it together, and it was...
    howmanyseanwalshsarethere howmanyseanwalshsarethere 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 4

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    Games have ruined my life since I was a kid. I am a shy person. As a kid, I didn't deal well with this, so I quickly resorted to games, but then it was ok. I grew up in a way...
    nyancat26 nyancat26 18-21, M 2 days ago

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    If you're concerned with your addiction to video games, please read this. Games have ruined my life since I was a kid. I am a shy person. As a kid, I didn't deal well with this...
    nyancat26 nyancat26 18-21, M 2 days ago

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    I have been in love with Minecraft for awhile now and I'm addicted! Lol I have Minecraft on my Playstation 3, All my IPhones and phones and I have 4 phones lol and when I'm not on...
    TheGamerGuy95 TheGamerGuy95 18-21, T 1 Response Jun 28

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    As unfortunate/fortunate as it may be, I am indeed addicted to the internet. The reason why I'm addicted is probably because of how I stay up until late talking to my internet...
    KMargatroid KMargatroid 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 5

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    Addicted to your touch, the way you run your hands through my hair when we kiss, your kiss I get so turned on by kissing you, your breathe on my skin, our bodies touching, the...
    classynsassy34 classynsassy34 31-35, F 4 Responses Jul 8

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    Like seriously listening to music is all I do. But because of how quiet I am people don't believe me when I tell them the music I listen to hahaha But I'm like addicted to music...
    JalenFrankie616 JalenFrankie616 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 22

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    im addicted to about 5 main things manga,mike and ikes,****,falling in love,and music. these are things i can not do without in life. manga helps me hope. mike and ikes jolly joes...
    ihaveaname99 ihaveaname99 13-15, F Jun 22

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    I'm addicted to music not any kind of music Asian music. Why? Cause I'm weird like that. But I always listen to it day and night. I'm honestly surprise my iPod isn't dead from the...
    FighterWolf FighterWolf 13-15, F Jun 22

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    Both my boys have it on the iPod, computer and PS3 they are super addicted.
    carebear1019 carebear1019 31-35, F 3 Responses Jun 23

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    I have been addicted to psychic hotlines for more than 3 years, over 12,000 € have gone down the drain. None of the predictions came to pass. I' wondering whether they were...
    Raissa74 Raissa74 36-40 Jun 25

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    Well, in October 2013, I had Chiari Malformation surgery (for type 1 (it still isn't any better, if anything it's worse -.-)) Okay so. After the surgery ya know I was still healing...
    GabriellaFae GabriellaFae 13-15, F 3 Responses Jun 26

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    I'm afraid I'm growing an addiction. I take 1 laxative every week. The most I probably take is 2 a week. Sometimes I abuse and sometimes I need them to help with my bowel movements...
    BriannaMack BriannaMack 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 26

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    I had acl surgery a year ago from today and have been addicted to pain killers (morphine, hydro co, codeine) ever since and I haven't been able to put them down. The physical pain...
    Marielights Marielights 16-17, F Jun 27

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    I have been addicted now for the last four year to cope with never being about to have sex and it's ruining my sex drive and relationships
    Wonderinsoul Wonderinsoul 22-25, M 1 Response Jun 30

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    My husband of thirteen years has been addicted to spice for two or more years he has spent ten thousand or more on it including a treatment center medical bills from a resulting...
    jnoga jnoga 31-35, F 1 Response Jun 30

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    This is a very serious problem for me. It all started when I was just a kid. I believe to this day that it started when I saw a computer in my house for the first time. I was two...
    TacTaco TacTaco 22-25, M Jul 1