I Am Addicted to Cocaine

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 154 People

    How Did It All Happen...

    When I was 15 I started experimenting with liqour, then cigarettes, then ecstasy and finally coke. I have been able to quit a few times for even up to periods of 9 months, but as soon as the stress in my life comes around I begin feeling the desire for a little pick me up. Things...
    dbirnham224 dbirnham224
    18-21
    3 Responses Feb 25, 2011

    I'm not addicted right now

    but I'll post my experience. I hooked up with cocaine on spring 2013. I spent all my money and dropped out from school. Until this moment I'm trying to recover from it's affect on my future. I was depressed and learned a lesson, a short puzz doesn't worth all the money. It's...
    Arobi Arobi
    31-35, M
    1 Response Jul 26, 2014

    New Tv Series - Help For Your Addicted Loved Ones!

    DO YOU HAVE AN OUT OF CONTROL LOVED ONE BEHAVING SO BADLY THAT THEY ARE A DANGER TO YOU OR THEMSELVES? Are they sex addicts, gamblers, runaway teenagers, cult members or gang affiliated? Do they have weird obsessions? Are they hoarders or extreme addicts? DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT...
    FamilyRescue FamilyRescue
    26-30
    Jan 24, 2013

    Ok, I just deleted my drug dealers number from

    everywhere. Next weekend when I change my mind and end up deciding to call him I won't have his number anymore.
    Offoff Offoff
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Oct 19, 2014

    My Boyfriend Is A Cocaine Addict

    I really want to help him but i do not know how. He will disappear at the weekends with his phone turned off all day then turning it back on at stupid o clock in the morning, then monday he will not go to work. I desperately want to help him as i am the only person around him who...
    helpless222 helpless222
    31-35
    1 Response Nov 4, 2013

    Not Who I Am...

    I'm 18 years old and addicted to cocaine. Earlier this year i went through a really hard time when i was raped. i switched schools to escape from all the ridicule i got from it. I started to party and drink every weekend and even during the week. Things were exciting a new for me...
    AyoforYayo AyoforYayo
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Jun 1, 2008

    I don't know if addicted

    but I must be as I've been doing it every weekend. I feel it has ****** up my mood. I keep saying I'm not doing next weekend but I end up buying it. I do it mostly to boost confidence, just can't feel confident anymore. It probably already damaged my dopamine receptors. I guess...
    Offoff Offoff
    26-30, M
    Oct 19, 2014

    Hy everybody! I'm a cocaine adict

    and I decide myself to stop from tomorrow
    Miclaus1986 Miclaus1986
    26-30, M
    1 Response Mar 30, 2014
    joeped2 joeped2
    31-35, M
    2 Responses Jan 8, 2015

    Hmmmm

    Well what can I say............ I love it !!!!  I tried to stop and just have fun at a party drinking.  It does not work for me.  I am a weekend person, used to be an everday person.  For real I would rather be high then a silly drunk.  Do...
    sabbi sabbi
    31-35, F
    1 Response Sep 12, 2009

    You Think You Are An Addict Because You Just Ran Out

    Funny but isnt it true that you only really think 'poor me, im such a bad person, im addicted and my life is gone to ****... boo hoo hoo' when you are coming to the end or just ran out of your bob marley. Running out or coming to the end of a binge is all part of the cycle and...
    Janluca Janluca
    41-45
    1 Response Mar 24, 2013

    Boy boy boy, what can I tell ya lol I do an

    eight ball a night because the quality is so good. It's best to share with one you love. I successfully turned my wife out. Best move ever. Anyway, glad to have a forum like this. Share back please.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses May 16, 2015

    I Crave

    I never touched hard drugs until just over a year ago, and it was love at first line. I felt so confident, so free. It made me feel like I was all the things I wanted to be but couldn't when I was sober. I became a regular user shortly after that. The longest I have gone without...
    CreateYourGod CreateYourGod
    26-30
    2 Responses Dec 21, 2012

    13 Years

    I am now 27. I started using when I was 13. Had a few breaks here and there nly becuse I had to. I got pregnant and nursed both my kids. I quit for that. I have been angry for as long as I can remember I talk with a nasty tone and I don't even mean too. I realized I was sexually...
    reia27 reia27
    26-30
    2 Responses Nov 24, 2010

    but I can't find any

    where I live.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Jun 30, 2015

    Yayo

    i've always been on the heavier side but never resorted to drastic moves in order to lose weight. i started experimenting with drugs when i was in 7th grade beginning with alcohol then weed, ecstasy, cocaine and shrooms. i am addicted to uppers. i have stolen money and other...
    heytheredelilah1 heytheredelilah1
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 2, 2007

    Hate What I Have Become, Just Want To Be All I Can Be

    well don't really know what to say, this is the first time iv been on something like this. I started using 12 years ago, and if im honest probably been addicted now for 3 to 4 years depending on your definition of the change from recreational to addiction. tried beating it on on...
    whathashappenedtome whathashappenedtome
    31-35, M
    2 Responses Dec 2, 2013

    I'd love to stop my addiction

    but I've grown to like my weight and I'm worried I'll gain all the weight back..
    joshpaulsmith123 joshpaulsmith123
    36-40, M
    1 Response Feb 15, 2014

    Fear Of What Comes Next

    For many years i always promised myself that I will never try coke because I LOVE stimulants and I knew that i would love it to much. I would constantly wonder what it was like, and if it were even better than my first love with adderall. Then one day my adderall dealer informed...
    H0P3lESS H0P3lESS
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Apr 15, 2013

    I Need to Talk

    I have been using cocaine for quite some time
    Marchaos Marchaos
    31-35
    4 Responses Apr 17, 2009

    I've been in treatment

    for 3 weeks now. Hardest thing I've ever had to do I just wanna feel that drippppp
    Embaby8 Embaby8
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Sep 17, 2015

    Distraction

    i just got done with a super alcohol yayo run for a week and im trying to calm down.. i thought trying meth would be a good way to coupe its not my drug of choice and can at least distract my mind which it did at first but then i just wanted the yay high it didnt do the same...
    thegirlwhosmiles thegirlwhosmiles
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Sep 10, 2013

    No Understanding!

    This is how I feel normal this is how I deal and honestly this is how I have been for years and years the longest I have been clean was two months because of my relationship but he doesn't see cocaine as an addiction because there is no withdraws so he puts it around me not...
    thegirlwhosmiles thegirlwhosmiles
    22-25, F
    1 Response Aug 29, 2013

    Cocaine Addled Brain

    Nights of no sleep and a million sunrises…blood red like my noses lining. I was wild. An unfettered maniac; a dopamine dinosaur; dangerous to myself and others – not intentionally but just the same… “Reckless to the point of selfishness” Something’s wrong here…I...
    ak3160 ak3160
    22-25, M
    3 Responses May 9, 2012

    Oh Boy.

    Look what I've turned to... Not to downplay this site, because I find it very insightful. I guess I just can't believe I'm here. I have no one to turn to, actually I take that back. I DO have people to turn to. The fact is I don't want to. Nor do I want my close friends to know...
    terriblefixations terriblefixations
    22-25, F
    7 Responses Nov 4, 2013

    Someone Please Help

    I am posting this because I desperately need some advice. I am addicted to cocaine. I am starting nursing school in august and my primary goal for this summer is to get clean and stay clean so that I can survive through nursing school. I have turned to my friends for advice, but...
    H0P3lESS H0P3lESS
    22-25, F
    1 Response May 24, 2013

    And Now, I Feel Nothing

    "It was the best of times, it was the worst of times, it was the age of wisdom, it was the age of foolishness" and it still is. first I start to take it only on weekends, you know just to relax and have fun. Then on Tuesdays. then on Thursdays. and suddenly I start to take it...
    Scarlet777 Scarlet777
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Nov 28, 2012

    I Can'T Stay Away

    I have been to two different rehab facilities in the past year. I spend all my money on it when i get paid. I've had to get a conservator to make sure my bills get paid. It's destroyin my life. And yet i can't stop. This sucks. How did i end up here?
    irrevocablyshattered irrevocablyshattered
    41-45, M
    1 Response Mar 15, 2013

    Never thought I'd actually be addicted,

    I wouldn't really call myself an addict but the once a month habit turned weekly. I've been hooked up with great stuff and that's not good. The better it is the more I want. Of course I was attracted to the glitz and glamour of it and now it's a part of my lifestyle. It helps me...
    Bellsecrets Bellsecrets
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Dec 3, 2013

    I Want To Change My Life

    I can´t remember when everything turned sour, life was fun, self destruction was fun, parties were fun. Now fun has departed and left my soul exhausted. Now i can´t find love within my soul, i know its there but its buried under years of piled up **** and i keep adding to that...
    wordsoundpower wordsoundpower
    26-30, M
    1 Response Jan 2, 2013

    so, my mom went to rehab

    for 8 months, my boyfriend beat be half to death 2 weeks later and my step dad saved my life, he took my to the police and we gave our statements and 2 weeks later my step dad killed himself. i was alone and i havent gone more then 2 weeks without cocaine since. i literally cant...
    pixiejones pixiejones
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Apr 26, 2014

    I Am High And Disgusted

    I am tired of this horrid habit
    prodri5 prodri5
    36-40, M
    1 Response Nov 3, 2013

    Research Treatment Study For Users Of Cocaine Or Crack

    Are you between the age of 21 & 65 and regularly use Cocaine or Crack? Do you have difficulty paying attention, concentrating, remembering, or thinking? Is this affecting your daily life? If so, you may be eligible for a FREE confidential research treatment study. NO...
    rkalapat rkalapat
    31-35
    1 Response Nov 20, 2011

    How?

    Upon leaving high school I scored a 10 out of 100 my chemistry class. When I went to college, things started to take off. I studied biology and managed to graduate with my b.s. in biology. For a yr after that, things were really good. I managed to get a really good job on Wall...
    Wreck24 Wreck24
    22-25, M
    1 Response Feb 7, 2013

    I Want to Quit Before I Lose Everything

    I have always been envied for having the best self control.  I have been able to smoke cigarettes only when drinking for over 10 years and never became a smoker.  Cocaine is different, at least for me.  I started off doing just a little but every time you do it...
    MeowKitty MeowKitty
    31-35, F
    10 Responses Apr 30, 2008

    Calls My Name

    When I'm very upset or depressed I tend to self destruct. I end up doing blow all night till the morning. , not wanting to go to sleep. It makes me feel numb and stop crying. I don't do it too much but once in blue moon. But once I start for the night I can't stop. Said part is...
    2 Responses Feb 7, 2013

    Cocaine sucks, never worked

    for me. Plus it's way tooo expensive. It's not worth it at alllll
    aKe2 aKe2
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Oct 19, 2014

    Spiralled Out Of Control

    Life in my 20's was mostly good fun....I worked in busy sales environment...driven by targets and incentives. We all drank on works nights out to excess and most if us also sniffed cocaine. My 1st line was when I was 23, I'm now 34 and cocaine binge at least once a week. Usually...
    Bowlman31 Bowlman31
    31-35, F
    4 Responses Aug 12, 2013

    Cocaine My Shame

    I do fat lines on my inspirational books, how inspiring! I lost a lot from the devils dust, lost my soul mate and son, almost lost my house. I Never battled anything as controlling as this addiction, I think I'm getting close to a breakthrough, I went 4 days clean last week...
    Stareater Stareater
    41-45
    1 Response Apr 2, 2013
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