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I Am Addicted to Drugs

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    Cocaine Was A Cruel Mistress

    Nights of no sleep and a million sunrises…blood red like my noses lining. I was wild. An unfettered maniac; a dopamine dinosaur; dangerous to myself and others – not intentionally but just the same… “Reckless to the point of selfishness” Something’s wrong here…I...
    ak3160 ak3160 22-25, M 1 Response May 9, 2012

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    I'am Not An Addict Nbut Married To One.......

    If you need an ear i will listen and never judge.HUGS< KIC
    kimintheclouds kimintheclouds 36-40, F 1 Response Jun 29, 2012

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    Dilauded Addiction.

    About a year ago, I became seriously ill. I had lancing pain all through my abdomen. My doctor was attempting to find me an answer as to why this was happening, and in the meantime, started me on Hydromorphone (Dilauded) and Hydromorph Contin (extended release). As the months...
    Malynne Malynne 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 29, 2009

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    In My Skin....

    Your in my head your in my skin your taking me 6ft under making me believe this life is a sin trying so hard to keep hold dragging me under pulling me in feeling real dam cold but still i reach for your stem clear glass pipe look what you do to me this reality is my very own...
    Tashez11 Tashez11 22-25, F Mar 9, 2013

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    Sometimes I Just Need to Get High

    i wouldnt neccisarily consider myself an addict, but sometimes have strong urges to get high, high off anything i can find. probably cause im feeling down or something. the other problem is if i cant resist drugs if i have them, or if they are in front of me. i dont do this often...
    nickwentskating nickwentskating 18-21, M 3 Responses Oct 6, 2008

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    Just Plain Tired

    I'm twenty-years-old. I am an opiate addict and I also have a very large weakness for amphetamine. My drug use went down hill very quickly. I got braver with each use and began to make bold decisions. I went from popping tabs to snorting oxy to slamming ice in a matter of a...
    nemmynem nemmynem 18-21, F 4 Responses May 9, 2010

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    Um, Yeah. I'm An Addict.

    So I'm fifteen going to be sixteen in a couple months. My drug use has been going on for almost two years now &I just can't quit. My parents help feed the addiction by constantly giving me money to pay for them, without even knowing where all their money goes to. As long as I...
    bamiminwonderland bamiminwonderland 16-17 5 Responses Jul 23, 2009

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    Legal & Otc Drugs

    I'm addicted to certain Over The Counter drugs and legal drugs. I really like getting high off Salvia. I usually smoke the least potent kind (green level from Salvia Zone) because it doesn't cause me to hallucinate. I also take 5-HTP and take an edible drug (a candy from Salvia...
    carriewolf12 carriewolf12 22-25, T 1 Response Feb 2, 2012

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    One

    It started in the 8th grade and i , so far, don't regret it. I started out with weed like most people , then slowly descended into a world of pills, beer, alcohol, coke and at one point meth. Amazingly its always been free (with the exception of beer) my acquaintances are amateur...
    s0undgarden s0undgarden 16-17, M 5 Responses Aug 9, 2013

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    I am a 29 year old white female

    that has been dealing and doing drugs since I was about 12. I am currently doing cocaine in the powder form and I find myself bouncing from one drug to another. I have tried a lot of drugs...although I have tried a lot of drugs I can say that I have never used needles or shot up...
    openbk84 openbk84 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 16, 2013

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    Crystals....

    crystals in my body crystal on my mind another man on top of me so i can pay for the next dime i hate who i am the person i become maby one day it'll all take my breth away like 3 2 1 my skin so cold and face so white powder on my nose what a F * * * ed up sight people will...
    Tashez11 Tashez11 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 15, 2012

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    I went to my friends

    and took two hits of acid. I feel so light so free. This is why I do this. I have a feeling if euphoria. However it hurts everyone around me I'm lying and I am cheating. I lied to my boyfriend just so he wouldn't get mad me for it. So I wouldn't get a talking to
    Haleyannbudddd Haleyannbudddd 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 30, 2013

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    Im Fighting For My Life

    im addicted to crack cocaine, and im so ashamed iv been addicted for three years and i spend a min 300 hun a day every day, last year i spent over 108,000 on crack alone.
    jaymehigh jaymehigh 26-30, F 8 Responses May 7, 2008

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    JUST Say No!!! Ha! I Wish I Could!

    I wish i had the will power to just say no to drugs but ive tried and tried and have been trying for the past 7 years and i still cant do it.ive been a herion addict for the past 7 years but i did manage to get clean and stay clean for 2 years but i started again which i regreat...
    helplessangel helplessangel 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 25, 2008

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    I'M Addicted To Marijuana

    The first time I smoked, I was 16. I've done other drugs also. I was addicted to ecstasy & computer cleaner for 2 years. Then after I quit the "hard stuff" I just smoke bud. I smoked for about 5 years. The first 2 years I smoked all day, everyday....now that I look back, I...
    OTexperience OTexperience 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 14, 2013

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    There Wasn't Even A Shred Left....

    Looking back now, over the last year, I can only fathom as a nightmare. It amazes me how I am even alive today. In one years time my body suffered so much that had I not been the one living the story I am about to tell, I would’ve thought the main character never made it out...
    lionsdenn lionsdenn 26-30, M 7 Responses Oct 3, 2010

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    I don't think its that bad using drugs.

    I stay with all natural things like pot and shrooms. Yesterday was the first time I had ever done DMT though and man was it crazy haha.
    oaklandman oaklandman 16-17, M Feb 2

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    Drug Induced Phsychosis Made Me Throw Myself Out Of A Window

    I started taking drugs from the age of 19 years old when I started dancing on the club scene, amphetamine and ecstasy where the first recreational drugs that I used. They would give me a sense of being free with loads of confidence and would help me party all through the night...
    dannymcc dannymcc 26-30 1 Response Jul 5, 2011

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    Addicted &Amp; Alone: A Look Into My Life

    It's thursday morning. I'm on the bus on my way to school. What a ***** it is to have been up all night on adderall and have to come to school the next day. Thank god you can always take a little more adderall though. This morning before I left I nearly had a mental breakdown...
    Paige5 Paige5 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 27, 2013

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    Pipe Dreams

    DREAM HAS ALWAYS BEEN MY FAVORITE WORD...AND ONE OF MY FAVORITE THINGS TO DO. FUNNY MY DRUG OF CHOICE TURNED OUT TO BE SOMETHING THAT DEPRIVES YOU OF SLEEP. I AM 20 YEARS OLD. I STARTED SMOKING WEED WHEN I WAS 12, I TRIED EXTACY WHEN I WAS 13, COKE, CRACK, HEROIN AND METH WHEN I...
    oshun88 oshun88 18-21 3 Responses Nov 19, 2012

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    Your First Thought.

    Is probably, "drug addicts are useless. They bring it on themselves" Get the fück off my story. Narrow minded Bïtch. Every person has a story. Stay open minded to EVERYONE'S perspective. I'm addicted to pills. I've overdosed 3-4 times. It started when I was 10? Or 11...
    IWillMakeYouThink IWillMakeYouThink 18-21, F 10 Responses May 13, 2013

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    i am currently a heroin user,

    the one thing i always said i would never do. i am 32, i have a steady job, have a presentable appearance and no one would ever expect it. it started with percocets once in a while, which became weekly, then daily. very expensive habit. "friends" who aren't friends suggested...
    shadowjacket shadowjacket 31-35, F 1 Response Mar 11

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    Tweekr

    i first tried meth when i was 16, i fell in love with it.i have spent years hustling to get high. now at 23 i am married and my husband is also a meth addict. we have the most disfunctional marriage u can possibly imagine. i know that using meth deystroys lives but ...
    Mytweek Mytweek 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 15, 2009

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    My Mother's Addiction And Mine

    My mother is addicted to painkillers, heavily, and I think I might have fueled my own addiction too. Im fifteen and have been fxxking with various opiates and perscription drugs for around two years. When it comes to stealing pills from a family member, I don't even think twice...
    ineedtoleave ineedtoleave 16-17 5 Responses Jul 9, 2012

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    Little Blue Flowers

    Dear roxy, i love you so ******* much its sick. it makes me sick, YOU make me sick. You make me scared to go to sleep because it seams like i close my eyes for 5 minutes them wake up thrashing from pain. But when me and you come together, gee its magical. its beautiful. You make...
    BellaVara BellaVara 18-21, F Jul 25, 2012

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    Running Away From Everything.

    At first it was just weed, and that was all it was ever gonna be. i'll lost my father and i just wanted the pain to stop. Weed was a good way to do that. but its got worse, i started with shrooms. you know, never anything unnatural but if it grows its fine. then came MDMA...
    thefingereater thefingereater 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 3, 2012

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    Why I Take Drugs!!

    I first became interested in drugs in my teens. I had tried pot,acid and poppers, but I wasn't satisfied. Then I met a lad who introduced me to hard drugs. It was like a light going off in my head! This was what I had been searching for.People warned me to stay away from him. "He...
    kidakidder kidakidder 36-40, F 3 Responses Feb 12, 2012

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    I Am Vyvanse.

    I am Vyvanse, a cloud breezing through the sky in secrecy. I am the test I couldn't finish, a pencil dropped on the ground. I am moving but standing still, a sermon with no message. I am bruised without the pain, the ball coming my way without realization. I am the girl who can't...
    DanniDarling DanniDarling 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 2, 2013

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    In This Skin

    im almost 40. have a home, a totally toxic relationship thats suffocating me. i have 5 kids, custody of 2. i have been using regularly, daily, multiple X's daily since age 14. if not drinking, then dope. i was clean almost 8 years (if u call a pint a day clean). ive started...
    missmeema missmeema 36-40, F 6 Responses Jun 5, 2011

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    15yr Old Meth Addict

    I looked at him slowly as I closed my eyes, How can something so good be full of lies? I promised that it would be only one time, I would commit this life destroying crime. Hands are shaking; I’m dripping of sweat, i feel the mirror staring at me like a threat. Heart beats...
    shannjane shannjane 16-17, F 2 Responses May 10, 2013

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    I've been self medicating

    and it's not as fun anymore... I'm slipping into the nothing. Almost daily I am treated like a homeless person. I am starting to talk to myself. I feel like the world just wants me gone... The joy is almost completely gone. I want to be back to normal , not slip further into the...
    X11ELEVEN11X X11ELEVEN11X 46-50, M Apr 4

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    Love The Feeling

    I have been addicted to drugs for about 4 years now. My drug of choice would have to be pain killlers.I love the numbness I feel when I take them. I have tried almost everything, I was addicted to meth at one point, but I went to rehab and I am able to keep myself from it. The...
    imperfectbeauty imperfectbeauty 18-21, F 10 Responses Apr 5, 2012

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    I Can Never Break Free...

    I have been addicted to drugs since I was 12; I am now 20. Drugs have always been there when no one else was willing to be there for me. My long journey with addiction started off very simple, a few pain pills here and there and a bit of weed every now and then. It didn't take...
    imperfectbeauty imperfectbeauty 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 30, 2013

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    I Just Don't Know

    Hydrocodone is my drug of choice. I've tried others, but hydros have me hooked. I've been abusing them for over a year. It started as just trying them out of curiosity to I can't have a good time without them to I absolutely have to have them or else. I also use inhalants, mainly...
    jmama20 jmama20 18-21, F 9 Responses Jun 21, 2009

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    Up, Up, And Away...

    I'm losing it. Every month is worse and worse, every prescription lasts less and less time. I'm taking 70 mgs of Vyvanse and just re-filled Tuesday. I've slept maybe 8 hours total since then. This is only my 6th month of Vyvanse. When I was in my early twenties I was addicted to...
    Jenjee Jenjee 31-35, F 2 Responses Aug 17, 2013

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    Addicted

    In order to have any king of quality of life I must take certain prescriptions. Blood pressure, cholesterol,depression, pain meds(I have been on narcotics since 1985).Since I need to take these to continue to live I guess you could say I am addicted to them.
    mailmanshadow mailmanshadow 51-55, M 1 Response Sep 12, 2011

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    Pills & Opiates

    I love all pills...especially benzodiazepines. I feel i cant go a day without them. I have even committed crimes because of this. I have a 10 yr old son of which I feel so guilty of. I don't just take 1 or 2 , I take as much as my hands can hold & more. They don't do anything...
    frigidgirl frigidgirl 36-40, F 3 Responses Oct 22, 2012

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    Just How It Is

    I've been doing drugs for about two years now. I'm only at the ripe age of 17. I never thought i would ever do drugs becuase in elementary, middle and even high school parents and teachers would scare us and tell us how drugs effect the body and things but its because they never...
    retteXmich19 retteXmich19 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 8, 2010

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    Adhd Meds

    Hi. Im 18 now, and I have two weeks before i am graduating high school, and i am addicted to Vyvanse. I first started taking it to control my ADHD hyperactivity and attention issues four years ago, but now that purpose is gone. Ever since I first started taking it I knew that it...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 12, 2012

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    Related Experiences

    Hey! I'm new here at EP and I really need someone to talk to, good advice, experiences and such.. I don't know what to do! My boyfriend did do drugs and tried to take his own life...
    lilcarey lilcarey 22-25, F Mar 27

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    I am 22 years old but for 2 years now i have been addicted to alcohol. A year ago I started doing a simple upper ( drug ) and didnt realize how addicted i had become. Last month I...
    IndependentGrl IndependentGrl 18-21, F Apr 7

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    Honestly, I think it is almost impossible not to get addicted to Adderall. It's the perfect drug: motivation, weight loss, better grades, increased dopamine, and it's much easier...
    xmer831x xmer831x 13-15, F 4 Responses Mar 27

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    If you ask me, drugs are disgusting. How could you do something so terrible to your own body. People do it for the little amount if time it makes them feel "good", when really...
    jessieann0921 jessieann0921 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 30

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    I took ADHD pills hardcore, they were my drugs. From age 5 to 14 I took over a 150 milligrams a day and sometimes even twice a day. It started off as I was "hyper" and needed...
    kitcat2013 kitcat2013 18-21, F Apr 10

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    I've taken Adderall for nearly eight years. I want to quit so badly. I used to be fun and creative. I used to have friends. I used to love socializing. Adderall was a miracle when...
    Alanameyers89 Alanameyers89 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 30

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    I didnt realize this until but metal has been my drug and it has been for a while. Everyone handles their emotions differently ways to escape reality. Some people do drugs, hurt...
    Livefree93 Livefree93 18-21, M 2 Responses Mar 31

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    Where do I even start? First and foremost, I would like to just point out how similar these stories are: Started off as the answer to all problems... and then steadily destroyed...
    midasnemi midasnemi 18-21, F Apr 4

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    There are so many things I could say about this that it's difficult to organize my thoughts, but I'll do my best.First of all, before we even talk about the common sense reasons...
    greatgig91 greatgig91 22-25, M 1 Response Apr 5

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    I am so addicted to the internet and to my computer in general. I first started to do online shopping. All of a sudden I was doing lots of research for others and personal...
    birthdaypartyforme birthdaypartyforme 41-45, F 2 Responses Apr 1

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    Completely addicted and if the cure is to break that addiction there is no way I am taking it. Someday she will come be with me and the addiction will grow stronger but for now I...
    ballen0420 ballen0420 36-40, M Apr 3

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    Ok in October 2013 I purchased minecraft and became TOTALLY ADDICTED. I barely did anything else than play hunger games and skyblock and factions and survival. My parents hate that...
    Cookzie Cookzie 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 11

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    Around my early time as a 16 year old I lost my best friend. I met him when I was 15 during summer camp and we bonded ever since. He didn't die though, my parents thought that he...
    HeyRainbow HeyRainbow 16-17, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I used to take meth. It started out as an experiment, to enhance sex. I took it for a period of 10 months. I wasn't a heavy user, buying a gram that could last me 2 weeks, but it...
    alifeofpoz alifeofpoz 31-35, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I'm addicted to xanax, but i don't want to damage my brain! I love my brain! But yet my brain is the thing addicted to it in the first place, stupid brain, **** you brain!! I...
    fishfood7 fishfood7 18-21, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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