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I Am Addicted to Drugs

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    15yr Old Meth Addict

    I looked at him slowly as I closed my eyes, How can something so good be full of lies? I promised that it would be only one time, I would commit this life destroying crime. Hands are shaking; I’m dripping of sweat, i feel the mirror staring at me like a threat. Heart beats...
    olddays13 olddays13 18-21, F 1 Response May 10, 2013

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    You can always tell which people have an addict

    and which people have never done drugs or never been addicted the people who say just say no and it's ok it's easy you can do it, or just stop doing them its easy as that those are the people who have never tasted addictions hold don't you think if it was that easy no one would...
    crazybeautiful26 crazybeautiful26 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 30, 2014

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    Two months ago I had a family,

    my own car, a house, was in college and had a well paying job-- until I let Mr. Crystal Meth take it all from me. I have never felt so hopeless.
    0abigail 0abigail 18-21, F 3 Responses May 25, 2014

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    Legal & Otc Drugs

    I'm addicted to certain Over The Counter drugs and legal drugs. I really like getting high off Salvia. I usually smoke the least potent kind (green level from Salvia Zone) because it doesn't cause me to hallucinate. I also take 5-HTP and take an edible drug (a candy from Salvia...
    carriewolf12 carriewolf12 22-25, T 1 Response Feb 2, 2012

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    Addicted &Amp; Alone: A Look Into My Life

    It's thursday morning. I'm on the bus on my way to school. What a ***** it is to have been up all night on adderall and have to come to school the next day. Thank god you can always take a little more adderall though. This morning before I left I nearly had a mental breakdown...
    Paige5 Paige5 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 27, 2013

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    I was addicted to various drugs

    and still suffer from after effects and cravings to this day. It's the price you pay for being an idiot!
    IngensImpetum IngensImpetum 18-21, M 2 Responses Jan 21

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    In My Skin....

    Your in my head your in my skin your taking me 6ft under making me believe this life is a sin trying so hard to keep hold dragging me under pulling me in feeling real dam cold but still i reach for your stem clear glass pipe look what you do to me this reality is my very own...
    Tashez11 Tashez11 22-25, F Mar 9, 2013

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    I went to my friends

    and took two hits of acid. I feel so light so free. This is why I do this. I have a feeling if euphoria. However it hurts everyone around me I'm lying and I am cheating. I lied to my boyfriend just so he wouldn't get mad me for it. So I wouldn't get a talking to
    Haleyannbudddd Haleyannbudddd 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 30, 2013

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    roslyn1990 roslyn1990 22-25, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    METH. meth controls my every move,

    my every thought . meth is what keeps me sane . without meth there is only shakes , voices within my head , nightmares , sweats .. I am insane without it . I can't handle being sober . meth has taken so much from me . it has stolen my hopes and dreams, my self worth , my...
    imperfectbeauty imperfectbeauty 18-21, F 5 Responses Jul 1, 2014

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    Aild2014 Aild2014 31-35, M 1 Response Jan 20

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    Love The Feeling

    I have been addicted to drugs for about 4 years now. My drug of choice would have to be pain killlers.I love the numbness I feel when I take them. I have tried almost everything, I was addicted to meth at one point, but I went to rehab and I am able to keep myself from it. The...
    imperfectbeauty imperfectbeauty 18-21, F 10 Responses Apr 5, 2012

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    It started with weed &

    and alcohol at 14, now I'm 27, and done all the drugs I can name. I've come to the realization that I'm addicted to heroin and I'm going to need help to stop. I've slowly watched my life get more and more ****** up, but I've kept going down this path. Sometimes I don't think I...
    TimboSlice01 TimboSlice01 26-30, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Just Plain Tired

    I'm twenty-years-old. I am an opiate addict and I also have a very large weakness for amphetamine. My drug use went down hill very quickly. I got braver with each use and began to make bold decisions. I went from popping tabs to snorting oxy to slamming ice in a matter of a...
    nemmynem nemmynem 18-21, F 4 Responses May 9, 2010

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    I am no longer addicted :)

    but I used to be addicted to prescription painkillers. I was 15. I would steal pills from parents, siblings, grandparents, basically anyone who had any pills. I hated myself for it. I decided to talk to someone about it, I talked to my boyfriend. He also did drugs, but not...
    francake16 francake16 16-17, F 2 Responses Oct 24, 2014

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    I Can Never Break Free...

    I have been addicted to drugs since I was 12; I am now 20. Drugs have always been there when no one else was willing to be there for me. My long journey with addiction started off very simple, a few pain pills here and there and a bit of weed every now and then. It didn't take...
    imperfectbeauty imperfectbeauty 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 30, 2013

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    Im Fighting For My Life

    im addicted to crack cocaine, and im so ashamed iv been addicted for three years and i spend a min 300 hun a day every day, last year i spent over 108,000 on crack alone.
    jaymehigh jaymehigh 26-30, F 8 Responses May 7, 2008

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    It started with just a bit of weed every now

    and then, then i tried cocaine, and then when the coke stopped numbing my pain i moved to heroin.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response May 4, 2014

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    Drug Induced Phsychosis Made Me Throw Myself Out Of A Window

    I started taking drugs from the age of 19 years old when I started dancing on the club scene, amphetamine and ecstasy where the first recreational drugs that I used. They would give me a sense of being free with loads of confidence and would help me party all through the night...
    dannymcc dannymcc 26-30 1 Response Jul 5, 2011

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    Tweekr

    i first tried meth when i was 16, i fell in love with it.i have spent years hustling to get high. now at 23 i am married and my husband is also a meth addict. we have the most disfunctional marriage u can possibly imagine. i know that using meth deystroys lives but ...
    Mytweek Mytweek 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 15, 2009

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    I Just Don't Know

    Hydrocodone is my drug of choice. I've tried others, but hydros have me hooked. I've been abusing them for over a year. It started as just trying them out of curiosity to I can't have a good time without them to I absolutely have to have them or else. I also use inhalants, mainly...
    jmama20 jmama20 18-21, F 9 Responses Jun 21, 2009

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    One

    It started in the 8th grade and i , so far, don't regret it. I started out with weed like most people , then slowly descended into a world of pills, beer, alcohol, coke and at one point meth. Amazingly its always been free (with the exception of beer) my acquaintances are amateur...
    s0undgarden s0undgarden 16-17, M 6 Responses Aug 9, 2013

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    Sometimes I Just Need to Get High

    i wouldnt neccisarily consider myself an addict, but sometimes have strong urges to get high, high off anything i can find. probably cause im feeling down or something. the other problem is if i cant resist drugs if i have them, or if they are in front of me. i dont do this often...
    nickwentskating nickwentskating 18-21, M 3 Responses Oct 6, 2008

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    this is my past but it will never leave my mind.

    ... that knot you get in your stomach the anxiety build up as you poor that dope into a cap, fill the rig with water and pour water on your poison. the anticipation feels lime and eternity when really its been one minute. the tie off the smack and the ***** that feels so good...
    roslyn1990 roslyn1990 22-25, F 4 Responses Nov 27, 2014

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    Up, Up, And Away...

    I'm losing it. Every month is worse and worse, every prescription lasts less and less time. I'm taking 70 mgs of Vyvanse and just re-filled Tuesday. I've slept maybe 8 hours total since then. This is only my 6th month of Vyvanse. When I was in my early twenties I was addicted to...
    Jenjee Jenjee 31-35, F 2 Responses Aug 17, 2013

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    Crystals....

    crystals in my body crystal on my mind another man on top of me so i can pay for the next dime i hate who i am the person i become maby one day it'll all take my breth away like 3 2 1 my skin so cold and face so white powder on my nose what a F * * * ed up sight people will...
    Tashez11 Tashez11 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 15, 2012

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    I'M Addicted To Marijuana

    The first time I smoked, I was 16. I've done other drugs also. I was addicted to ecstasy & computer cleaner for 2 years. Then after I quit the "hard stuff" I just smoke bud. I smoked for about 5 years. The first 2 years I smoked all day, everyday....now that I look back, I...
    OTexperience OTexperience 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 14, 2013

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    she will consume part of you

    and never give that part back. she will make you shiver for her and also ache of pain. she will take your muscles and make them fade. she will feed you silence and even give you a little peace but don't be fooled cause that is how she guides you to right where she wants you to...
    roslyn1990 roslyn1990 22-25, F 5 Responses Nov 28, 2014

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    Cocaine Was A Cruel Mistress

    Nights of no sleep and a million sunrises…blood red like my noses lining. I was wild. An unfettered maniac; a dopamine dinosaur; dangerous to myself and others – not intentionally but just the same… “Reckless to the point of selfishness” Something’s wrong here…I...
    ak3160 ak3160 22-25, M 1 Response May 9, 2012

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    There Wasn't Even A Shred Left....

    Looking back now, over the last year, I can only fathom as a nightmare. It amazes me how I am even alive today. In one years time my body suffered so much that had I not been the one living the story I am about to tell, I would’ve thought the main character never made it out...
    lionsdenn lionsdenn 26-30, M 7 Responses Oct 3, 2010

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    I am a 29 year old white female

    that has been dealing and doing drugs since I was about 12. I am currently doing cocaine in the powder form and I find myself bouncing from one drug to another. I have tried a lot of drugs...although I have tried a lot of drugs I can say that I have never used needles or shot up...
    openbk84 openbk84 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 16, 2013

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    I am 24 years old and I started abusing

    OxyContin when I was 17. It all started with marijuana and alcohol at a younger age, then eventually my group of friends changed and they were all popping pills. I had no idea what they were and didn't know they were so addictive. By age 21 I was shooting heroin. My life had...
    reckless1990 reckless1990 22-25, M 3 Responses Nov 13, 2014

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    The beginning. I am 18 y/o.

    I tried my first drug when I was 14 or 15. It was the type of thing that was just around me every now & then. I would try random pain killers, but it was never really serious. I don't really remember much of my childhood (diagnosed memory disorder) but it all really got bad when...
    phukinsweetheart phukinsweetheart 18-21, F 4 Responses May 1, 2014

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    My Mother's Addiction And Mine

    My mother is addicted to painkillers, heavily, and I think I might have fueled my own addiction too. Im fifteen and have been fxxking with various opiates and perscription drugs for around two years. When it comes to stealing pills from a family member, I don't even think twice...
    ineedtoleave ineedtoleave 16-17 5 Responses Jul 9, 2012

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    So first I was caught shoplifting.

    When I got home my parents made me empty my bag to check for anything bad. They found Valium, morphine, liquor, and lighters
    rabecka rabecka 13-15, F 4 Responses May 25, 2014

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    I've been addicted to cocaine

    for 4 months everyday usage now. Today is Saturday and makes my 8th day clean. I'm very proud of myself for being mentally strong enough and self aware to be conscious of this habit and its affect on my health, my success and the people I love and care about. I had been...
    neurokitty99 neurokitty99 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 24

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    i am currently a heroin user,

    the one thing i always said i would never do. i am 32, i have a steady job, have a presentable appearance and no one would ever expect it. it started with percocets once in a while, which became weekly, then daily. very expensive habit. "friends" who aren't friends suggested...
    shadowjacket shadowjacket 31-35, F 3 Responses Mar 11, 2014

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    I Decided To Quit Drugs And Drinking.

    And after 5 days I get my first test. My back is KILLING me, and it would be so easy to smoke a bowl, or pop a pill, but I'm trying not too. This is a little harder than I first thought it was going to be.
    justaguy86 justaguy86 26-30, M 4 Responses Nov 24, 2013

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    I was bored and she convinced me to do up.

    worst decision of my life
    vivamore vivamore 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 12, 2014

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    I Am Vyvanse.

    I am Vyvanse, a cloud breezing through the sky in secrecy. I am the test I couldn't finish, a pencil dropped on the ground. I am moving but standing still, a sermon with no message. I am bruised without the pain, the ball coming my way without realization. I am the girl who can't...
    DanniDarling DanniDarling 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 2, 2013

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    "I'm METH" *****PLEASE READ***** I've read

    this once and can't read again, it hurts too bad. I thought this was a wonderful poem I recieved in an email and it really says a lot about what drugs can do to not only you but all of those around you! I just thought I would share with everyone, you never know when it could...
    looper1975 looper1975 36-40, M Dec 25, 2013

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    Um, Yeah. I'm An Addict.

    So I'm fifteen going to be sixteen in a couple months. My drug use has been going on for almost two years now &I just can't quit. My parents help feed the addiction by constantly giving me money to pay for them, without even knowing where all their money goes to. As long as I...
    bamiminwonderland bamiminwonderland 16-17 5 Responses Jul 23, 2009

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    Just How It Is

    I've been doing drugs for about two years now. I'm only at the ripe age of 17. I never thought i would ever do drugs becuase in elementary, middle and even high school parents and teachers would scare us and tell us how drugs effect the body and things but its because they never...
    retteXmich19 retteXmich19 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 8, 2010

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    Your First Thought.

    Is probably, "drug addicts are useless. They bring it on themselves" Get the fück off my story. Narrow minded Bïtch. Every person has a story. Stay open minded to EVERYONE'S perspective. I'm addicted to pills. I've overdosed 3-4 times. It started when I was 10? Or 11...
    IWillMakeYouThink IWillMakeYouThink 22-25, F 9 Responses May 13, 2013

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    wisconsin52 wisconsin52 26-30, M Jan 19

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    There had been many times n many late nights consisting of drugs but I will never forget that night that me n the few fellas had eaten a whole swack of mushrooms n were lost in a...
    lintin420 lintin420 18-21, M 12 hrs ago

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    I am addicted to cannabis, I cant go a day without smoking it, I would probably be able to do it if I had friends that didn't smoke weed, that would distract me long enough from...
    RyHam1993 RyHam1993 18-21, M 2 hrs ago

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    I have been addicted to drugs in my past I have been clean for almost a year and last night I slipped up :( I'm so mad at myself and even more depressed :( idk how much longer I...
    Kenziebear44 Kenziebear44 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 18

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    Alcohol is a drug. I feel that I've expressed things on facebook, Ep, and to regular friends, that I might not have if it wasn't for alcohol, that ultimately do more good than bad...
    Cetacean Cetacean 36-40, M 1 Response Jan 20

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    Mj, Meth and Opium, Yep, Never got addicted, Mainly because I didn't like them, I only liked weed and it's not even addictive, But I stopped using now.
    MichaelDovahkiin MichaelDovahkiin 16-17, M 1 Response Jan 4

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    I live to eat, not eat to live. It should be the other way around for me, but it's so hard. Take a drug addicts drugs away and see how they react. Now put it in front of their face...
    Alyssasaurous Alyssasaurous 16-17, F