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I Am Addicted to Meth

Meth Addiction And Its Deadly Grip 160 People

    I Think Im Scared.

    I used for the first time I think when I was 16. One of my parents friends gave me a white cross, I thought my heart was gonna explode. I tried crank for the first time when I was 17 at a party, it sobered me up and made me talk a lot and gave me a feeling of...
    nuckinfuts74 nuckinfuts74 31-35 2 Responses Aug 10, 2009

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    Why Did This Precious Sweet Boy Get Stuck With Me As A "mother"?

    I had every opportunity in life just handed to me on a silver platter,but i threw it away....My son could have had his own room with an airconditioner in it.......He could have had all the great things in life that he deserves...I robbed that boy of a wonderful life and alot of...
    geminight2u geminight2u 22-25 2 Responses Mar 16, 2011

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    They Say It Only Takes Once. They Were Right.

    I was a pothead at first. To me weed is the least harmful drug. When I was younger I thought Meth was the lowest of the low. Because, in reality; It is. It scared me too think about it. But May 17th 2011 changed my life forever. I had a new boyfriend and he's a junkie for...
    CrystalMethPrincess CrystalMethPrincess 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 16, 2011

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    I Cant Stop

    i first tried it just after my 17th birthday and within 3 months i was whoring myself and using daily. i went from 56kg to 43kg and didnt sleep for up to 9 days in a row. i remember once id been up for 5 dys and wen i tried to remember when id last eaten it had been half a cheese...
    crakalol crakalol 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 15, 2012

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    I Am Addicted to Meth

    None of my friends know I do it. My parents dont have a clue. My girlfriend who I live with has no friggin idea that I buy a gram of this **** about twice a month. Sometimes more sometimes less. I stasy up all night, smoke it before work. I sweat at work and I know my boss and...
    addicted415 addicted415 31-35, M 4 Responses Apr 30, 2008

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    The First Taste of Death

    The first time I ever used, I was 15. We went to a party and there was a dealer there named Tim but he called himself "SadEyes". Back then, I didn't understand why he called himself that but now I know why...  A few of my friends where there with me and we all...
    LostLamb LostLamb 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 5, 2007

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    I Am 8 Years Clean Off Meth, This Is Part Of My Story Of How I Hit Rock Bottom.

    i began using meth in august of 2002 and i used for 9 months until end of june 2003. i just had my 8 year clean mark yesterday :) i also have a family, a house, i just paid off my new car, i have a career. my children are beautiful and my husband (who was my new bf at the time...
    js206 js206 26-30, F 3 Responses Jun 26, 2011

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    Fight With the Monster....

     yes I'm slowly getting addicted to meth... again.... I fought the monster of meth and I have won but then I have lost... I've been struggling with this fight for some time... I won last year and forgot about it... but this year it's slowly eating at me again.... Hopefully I...
    XLunaXLovegoodX XLunaXLovegoodX 22-25, F 15 Responses Aug 30, 2008

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    Love Jacking On Meth

    I get the feeling this isn't the right site for this story ... but there's nothing on earth better than long hours of ************ while taking meth. Personally, I prefer to "slam," or inject meth. The rush the comes on is totally unbelievable. And if the dope's good, it goes...
    ericjorocks ericjorocks 51-55, M 1 Response Aug 17, 2010

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    The Making of a Monster

    It sucks. Wish I had never touched the stuff.  I tried it when I was 13 and havent stopped since. I have taken a few breaks here and there. Had two kids without using. But it still runs my life. 16 years of this "****". 16 freaking years. Thats insane. And I...
    KarmaKatcher KarmaKatcher 31-35, F 7 Responses May 8, 2007

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    Its A Weekend Adventure!

    A weekend adventure that turns into one continuous day ,,two weekends a month i party down and what really sucks is that its always by myself but yet i still do it and enjoy myself,,,i don't criticize anyone at all and dont expectit back to me either,,dont know if its much of a...
    jhflying jhflying 36-40, M Oct 11, 2013

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    Love/hate Relationship

    Dear crystal meth, i love you so much but you are so bad for me... and for my family. When i was alone and so depressed you were there for me but also you have made me do things i will never do again. i gave you up to have a family, but then the cravings started again and you...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Apr 27, 2012

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    I Am Still Here, I Think.

    Well, I am still here. Fighting the fight. I havent let it get me by the boo boo just yet. I struggle constantly. Battle my inner demons. Its so much easier sometime to just shut them up though. For a few days or so. Then, in stopping the madness of my using, I also allow them to...
    KarmaKatcher KarmaKatcher 31-35, F 2 Responses Nov 25, 2007

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    The Devil

    I have been addicted to meth for about 20 years of my life. I have been in treatment programs and tried to quit a bunch of times. I wish the stuff wasn't so damn easy to get and readily available. I try to get it away from me but it seems to always come right back into...
    DANDDLAND DANDDLAND 36-40, F 1 Response Nov 5, 2009

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    The Love/hate of Crystal

    I started using meth when I was about 15 years old, back when the stuff came in chunks that looked like soap and tasted really bad when you smoked it. My addiction to it progressed and mentally I felt I needed it. Then came the "glass" and it really took off. No more...
    AmorphousCranberry AmorphousCranberry 26-30 4 Responses Jul 29, 2008

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    So You Think You Are An Exception To Becoming Addicted?

    I have really more of a comment than a story. My story would be so long and ugly, well it would also reveal who I am to some who read it. Not that I am a famous person, I am not,just your ordinary person like yourself. I have written my story on other sites such as methology...
    dailyuser dailyuser 46-50, M 3 Responses Jan 25, 2012

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    Not Addicted... Yet

    Personally, I don't think I've gotten to the stage of full tweeker status addiction. I started around June or July of this year. Smoking it, feeling alright. I'd smoke a whole night, once a week. Didn't eat and didn't sleep. Then I snorted it and my relationship with Crystal went...
    ItsEnough ItsEnough 18-21, F 8 Responses Oct 2, 2011

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    I Am A "meth Addict"

    This will be shocking to some but i don't care. I have been doing Meth now for over 20 years and I have come to accept the fact that i will do it till i die. Without it i am a depressed, unfocused, apathetic mess. Can you say ADD. Anyways apparently according to my psychiatrist i...
    alicia2316 alicia2316 41-45, F 5 Responses Mar 24, 2012

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    stdel stdel 26-30, M Jul 27, 2012

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    Again and Again

    Have been going to NA since I was 16 years old. Have known that I have had a problem since then. And if anyone were to ask me I am up front with my problem, and will admit I am an addict from the word GO. Unfortunately in my area, all the dealers like to prey on the weak at the...
    KarmaKatcher KarmaKatcher 31-35, F 6 Responses Jun 3, 2007

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    The Meth Rush

    If you're going to do it, slamming's the best. The rush begins as you work up the dope ... cutting out the right amount, putting it in the spoon, adding the water, crushing it and getting it ready. Placing the cotton and working up the point ... by that time, my hands are...
    ericjorocks ericjorocks 51-55, M Aug 17, 2010

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    A Rose For Rosalie

     a few yrs back after my devorse i started seeing a woman that i new before i devorsed , hum not planned realy ,, her name was rosalie very beuitiful woman peteite very buisiness type woman man had the nicest *** you could ever imagine ,dam i loved it .,we started seeing...
    garywaynejones garywaynejones 41-45, M 1 Response Nov 27, 2011

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    Nothing Much To Say

    I started out wiht meth just yesterday and already now am I addicted. cam 2 cam any young adult girl.
    bigbigbigdouche bigbigbigdouche 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 20, 2012

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    Broken

    I was interduced to meth at age of 33 then quit at 39 (i was in jail looing at secen years)  luckily i got off.  First thing i did is go to do drug dealer and shot up what i use to do before 3 months in jail  and almost died. first snorting then smoking...
    MzBreze MzBreze 41-45 1 Response Feb 26, 2008

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    Dear Tina,

    I love you , Your my best friend, the only one that knows how i feel... But at the same time i hate you, you are ruining my life once again.
    Lexilovely Lexilovely 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 2, 2013

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    I Feel Like Givin Up:(

    Well ive been clean for a year and some months but its gettin hard to stay that way i dont know wat to do..
    23sillygirl2562 23sillygirl2562 16-17, F 5 Responses Mar 15, 2011

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    Meth...your Best Friend N Worst Enemy

    I started smoking dope a yr ago.my husband came home n said he had tried some.so of course.i wanted to do it too (stupidest idea ever) I shoulda.got mad it woulda never got this far. The first time I smoked it I freaked out swore id never do it again, but sure enough I did it...
    Lostinthetwirl Lostinthetwirl 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 10, 2012

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    I can't stop thinking about our.

    I get paid on Wednesday and I'm hoping to get it on Saturday. Boy will I be so ******* upset if I don't get it. Ill just have to settle for some coke buy I don't want coke I want my ice! 24/7 it's on my mind I need it so bad I just can't wait to have it back on my life again...
    Rozzysings Rozzysings 18-21, F 2 Responses May 12

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    I Love Meth And I Will Never Stop Using It!

    It is the greatest thing in the world, there is no better high! fukk all ther haters, they stupid!
    sno1646 sno1646 26-30 3 Responses May 29, 2011

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    Meth

    i am going to make an effort to quit, it will be a battle but i am sure i cn do it, meth has been a god friend, and i loved loved loved sex on meth. good bye old friend. i can do this
    wormosa wormosa 46-50, M 5 Responses Aug 11, 2011

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    Still a Zombie

    I did speed every now and then after that first time when I was 15, but not everyday. That was until I was about 17yrs old then I started doing it almost everyday. By the end of my senior year, I was graduated early and I was doing speed everyday. That summer I was 18 and my...
    LostLamb LostLamb 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 5, 2007

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    In Hiding

    Playing Pretend. Again and Again. What is really the point.? It saddens me that I have no one to confide in. No one to say....I cant stop. No one to reach out to and say "Please hit the brakes on this roller coaster!" Its just me. Alone. What else is new. I am to...
    KarmaKatcher KarmaKatcher 31-35, F 10 Responses Jun 3, 2007

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    Someday I'll Stop

    I hope I can get off it for good someday. I can't seem to ever get past a week or two. I don't know if sex will ever be as good sober. I don't believe in the Twelve Steps
    leprechaun199 leprechaun199 26-30, M 3 Responses Jan 8, 2011

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    A Very Different Experience, Somehow.....anyone Else?

    I've had a really bizarre experience with meth and I literally have never met or talked to anyone else with a similar story, so if this sounds like you, let me know so I don't feel like the only weirdo.  When I was younger I had had a few run-ins with the stuff which went...
    donotforget donotforget 26-30, F 3 Responses Oct 1, 2010

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    Chasing The White Dragon

    I will die for that magically white cloud that I have fallen in love with. I would do anything that I have to do to be able to have you in life. I have turned my back on it a couple of times in my life, but I promise never again. I dont want to continue without it.Meth had me...
    imperfectbeauty imperfectbeauty 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 26, 2012

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    I Dont Think Im Addicted...

    hey, i was reading a few posts on meth.... and i came across a bunch that are not similar to my expiriance.... i tried meth like 3 weeks ago for the first time. i took my first hit and your right. its amazing.... but every time after that like 5 times n a row i never feel...
    myhondarebel myhondarebel 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 13, 2010

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    Drowning In Self-loathing....

    I have always been an addict - I can't remember when I wasn't one. Whether it was drinking, drugs, eating, sex, men, shoes; Whatever - If I like it and it makes me feel good - I go overboard. The first time I tried meth was when I was 17 - back then it was bathtub crank...
    zaneselle zaneselle 41-45, F 1 Response Feb 19, 2012

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    Lost Control

    When I lived in Montana my habit never really got out of control partly because it wasw expensive and often could be a real hassle to get. When I moved to Seattle, it got worse because its cheaper (comparitively) and the market is so plentiful. Here its always 10 minutes away...
    leprechaun199 leprechaun199 26-30, M Jan 12, 2011

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    21 Years I've Struggled With Meth

    I have had an on and off again relationship with meth for 21 years. I was 15 when I snorted my first line. I feel in love at that moment. After about two weeks of snorting I found out that my brother used meth too. I was at my mom's apartment cleaning two apartments and...
    Darkfairygirl Darkfairygirl 36-40, F 2 Responses Sep 7, 2013

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    Its been 4 years since I stopped smoking

    meth But I have always said, if I had the opportunity to do meth again then I would. No doubt about it. And that opportunity has now come. Icant fight it. Meth is my weakness.
    Rozzysings Rozzysings 18-21, F May 6

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    Methamphetamine Controls My Life

    I am a methamphetamine addict, and meth controls my life. I used meth for the 1st time around 15 years ago, but didn't start using it often until 6 years ago. I pretty much have always done some form of a drug since I can remember. For the majority of my adult life I drank...
    theman1973 theman1973 36-40, M 1 Response Oct 29, 2012

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    Hurt Myself Today...

    White dragon i seek you , I chase you As i do I have lost them all Alone i cry Still waiting on the pretty white cloud to appear, Silence I need you to save me from myself....
    Lexilovely Lexilovely 18-21, F Jun 1, 2013

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    The Monster

    Let's play a little gameA game made for only twoYou start by playing with your friendsBut quickly you learn its just between me and youDon't try to fight me, I'm not your little boyfriend or one night standI always win and I will be the end of you, so just take my handLet's take...
    nodopenohope nodopenohope 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 10, 2012

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    My Story

      Hi,      I have read storys from this site, some inspiring, some moving and some just plain horrific. I can understand though, growing up in Los Angeles County, I can definately relate to a lot of what I had read. I would like to begin by saying, I...
    silent2373 silent2373 31-35 3 Responses Jan 13, 2009

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    I might as well face it I'm addicted to love....to the man I love, that is........ and I don't want to be cured. 
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