I Am Addicted to Pain Killers

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 257 People

    Well EP addicts, since I've last shared any

    stories on here my best friend died of an over dose. August 22nd last year. He was my very best ******* friend. And I still didn't stop using. Eventually, last May I had a friend shoot me up with heroin. Omg the best feeling I thought I ever had. We drove about 50 miles...
    Woofy1 Woofy1
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 12, 2014


    im unsure of why i choose to vent on an overpopulated website where the mood is of a mutual indifference but i need to vent in some form. For the past three years i have been moving from one faded fantasy to another, slowly losing any uniqe sence of difference from everybody...
    deleted deleted
    Jan 2, 2013

    My Addiction

    I started having bad arm pain in September and was admitted to three hospitals this month. Not a single doctor could figure out why I was in such agony and pain in my arm, but began prescribing myself with pain killers, percocets, vicodin, morphine and muscle relaxers. So far I...
    katecx20 katecx20
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Oct 30, 2013

    Nobody Knows

    It started when i was getting chronic migraines people think i am done taking them. But i cant stop...
    hrclx31 hrclx31
    26-30, M
    1 Response Nov 27, 2012

    Update: Realisation And Withdrawal

    Not long ago I wrote a story: "I don't think I am but others beg to differ". It was regarding the fact that I refused to believe I had a problem with my excessive, long term painkiller consumption. I am now almost on day 5 of cold turkey. In the last 5 days I've had no codeine...
    AlreadyExiled AlreadyExiled
    18-21, F
    3 Responses May 8, 2013


    Well like many others, I became addicted to opiate type pain killer medication. My wife was diagnosed with cancer 5 years ago and had to have surgery, post-surgery she was prescribed Percocet to deal with the pain. Me being the drug addict that I have always been, decided I would...
    Blueyez34 Blueyez34
    36-40, M
    2 Responses Feb 25, 2013

    3 Days Free

    Today is the third day free of my addiction. Five days ago I bought 16 narco's 10/325, the good ones, right? And then the guy dumped out 20 more and said, "Here pay me $100 in a week, try and make some money". Well that did it right there. Friday and Saturday I had so many...
    Woofy1 Woofy1
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jan 30, 2013

    Cancer Survivor Stg 3...But Failure On Pain Pill Addiction

    I'm on with drawel mode and been here many times waitin on script filled because I would go threw pills withen 10 to 14 days...well not really cause than you just buy off street..or if worse comes to worse soboxine....3 yrs ago before cancer I worked asset protection for a...
    heartnotes72 heartnotes72
    41-45, F
    7 Responses Aug 27, 2013

    Bitten By The Cookie Monster.

    Four years ago i had my wisdom teeth taken out. Around that same time my husband and i separated. I was prescribed lorocets and with all the emotional pain, stress, self loathing, etc i fell in love with the drug. I live, breathe, sleep painkillers.I am now at about 6-10a day and...
    Trish1986 Trish1986
    31-35, F
    2 Responses May 29, 2013

    Oh How I Love Those Little Pills

    It started innocently enough, I just had a back ache but no aspirin. Someone at work handed me a little oval pill with M357 on it. Well that was it, my back didn't hurt, nothing hurt, hell after a few weeks of them I didn't feel ANYTHING. 3 years later, after losing everything I...
    bvb1123 bvb1123
    41-45, M
    8 Responses Apr 25, 2009


    i started usein 3 years ago and it only got worse and worse i couldnt even stop last november when i found out i was pregnant i loved 512s to much to stop but now im in a treatment ive been here since june and ive been on a methadone program since march 28th i hate bein on it but...
    goobz35 goobz35
    26-30, F
    1 Response Aug 17, 2013

    Pretty Sure I'm Addicted.

    The funny thing is my father was a drug dealer, I did every drug under the sun for years yet never got addicted to any of them. I could have a bag of meth sit for months and never use it. My mother has rheumatoid arthritis and is in constant pain, she always has bottles of...
    ToxicPrincess ToxicPrincess
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Apr 28, 2010

    I'M A Fully Functioning Drug Addict

    I'm addicted to trams and oxys. Most people say trams don't give them a buzz, but they do for me. It's like oxy, but usually leaves bad side effects like puking, falling asleep, or insomnia. Anyway, no one knows about my problem. I can go for days without taking pills (i dont...
    Wintertimemadness Wintertimemadness
    1 Response Feb 14, 2013

    I Am 17 Years Old and Addicted to Painkillers.

    I began smoking pot at the age of 11, I thought it tasted like beef jerkey and I got stoned out of my mind. It went down hill from there. Freshman year I was introduced to aderol, and liked the fact it made me feel wired but wanted a different high. One day I was offered perks...
    ilzombie ilzombie
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Sep 7, 2009

    I Am Addicted To Pain Killers

    It started when i got my depression, i started taking pills for it. i took one a day but after a while it wasn't doing anything so i started taking two a day and then three and so on. After a year my GP thought i didn't need them anymore and stop giving them to me. After that i...
    bornconfused bornconfused
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 1, 2012

    I *Was* Addicted To Painkillers.

    But I joined this group because I think I will always be addicted to painkillers, even if I'm sober and off of them. Not entirely sober - I turned to drinking to keep me off them. And I'm hoping some day soon, if I can move out of this horrid small, dying southern town with...
    eviltwins eviltwins
    22-25, F
    Feb 1, 2013

    I Was Wondering...

    Can you ever just enjoy pain killers? Can you like the way they make you feel without it being a problem? Can you like your life better with the drugs, without it being an "addiction"? Are the negative connotations that surround "addiction" justified? Is some incredibly sad...
    kikis2 kikis2
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Sep 6, 2011

    Almost Dead

    I have been addicted to pain killers for the last 8 years it started back when I was in high school Ran outta weed one night and a buddy of mine Had some Vicodin Es 7.5 mg lord if I could go back In time I would have never took it. Well time progressed And one pill turned into 2...
    Blacktop29 Blacktop29
    Apr 29, 2012


    How I love the hug of a Panda. Best feeling ever.
    ScareBere ScareBere
    2 Responses Oct 9, 2012

    Shamed To Determined.

    I became pregnant last September and slowly made myself back into the habit of taking Percocet. It started to be a once in awhile kind of thing, then a once a week thing, and moved into a bad habit. I was using them for work, because I couldn't quit my job just yet as I needed...
    Embarassment2all Embarassment2all
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Jul 17, 2013

    My Last Binge

    In December 2010, I just said yes to oxy's again. I hadn't used in months, and decided to hang out with an old friend for the weekend. She was able to get blues cheap and said she hadn't used in months either. At first I said I wasn't interested, I just wanted to talk to her...
    luvme23 luvme23
    36-40, F
    6 Responses Apr 7, 2013

    My Pills

    i started when i was in high school and i got really bad i was taking so meany it when from just paracetamol to anything i could get my hand on.. every day was a battle to find something to take they were like sweet i didnt need water it was just easy to swallow.. i got put in...
    imsorry1 imsorry1
    18-21, F
    1 Response Oct 30, 2012

    A Shadow Of My Former Self.

    Im 19 years old andI've been battling addiction for a year now. I know to some people a year means nothing but to me it feels like an eternity... It all started when I started my fight with depression. I couldn't sleep, eat, or socialize with the people that I called my closest...
    LoveisLove1 LoveisLove1
    22-25, M
    1 Response Apr 1, 2013

    Scared, Addicted To Opiates And Withdrawing.

    Hey all, I'm lmbeliever.. I've been prescribed oxycodone for multiple back issues. I'm a doper period. I'm in pretty bad withdrawl right now and scared. I'm on day 4 with nothing except my shameful, pitiful self. I do this every couple of weeks, I get 2 weeks worth of medication...
    Lmbeliever Lmbeliever
    46-50, F
    4 Responses May 7, 2013

    Struggling To Stay Sober

    I have always been in love with pain killers. I have been an addict for 10 years. I have not used/abused in 22 months, but I do think about it every day. I miss the warmth. I long for the feeling of bliss and numbness. It is hard. I moved away from all of my family and...
    luvme23 luvme23
    36-40, F
    5 Responses Mar 9, 2013

    Being A Person I Dont Know.

    It started when I was a junior in High School. Before it was clarified what I haed I went to a doctor who believed I was faking it and just gave me loratab to deal with the pain I was having. He really did not care about figuring out what I had. My mother and I where eager to...
    MustLoveDogs92 MustLoveDogs92
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Oct 21, 2012

    My Background & Whats Going On Now.

    I'm 24 years old. I've always had an affection towards pain killers. I played sports my whole life up until the past 6 years or so. I always enjoyed taking Vicodin and smaller things like that. But not often. Maybe once a week or when I could get my hands on them. But about 3...
    RickyUofO RickyUofO
    3 Responses Oct 26, 2013

    Well, in October 2013,

    I had Chiari Malformation surgery (for type 1 (it still isn't any better, if anything it's worse -.-)) Okay so. After the surgery ya know I was still healing which was very painful so they gave me Tramadol.. And some other pill but I can't remember the name. I never really took...
    GabriellaFae GabriellaFae
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Jun 26, 2014


    Today I went to the doctor, because I have been having extreme pain from cramps. She gave my hydrocodone. I wasnt drug seeking, but boy am I happy.... Hydros make me so happy, and they make my eyes so blue. they make me talkative and friendly. :) Love yall
    loveismyweapon94 loveismyweapon94
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Feb 25, 2013

    One Of My Biggest Fears Is Addiction

    But here I am pill sick.I started taking pain pills after being ejected from the bed of a truck that rolled when I was 17.For 3 years I took the pills orally as prescribed but towards the end they stopped helping my pain.A friend suggested snorting one so that it kicked in faster...
    OsageAphrodite OsageAphrodite
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Aug 14, 2012

    A Plea For Understanding

    Well,Trying to explain this mess I have created for myself for the first time ever. I am 18 years old And no longer trying to make excuses for my heavy opiate use. With such a disease that even disolves apathy,consuming every moment of my life. Just another one of hundreds of...
    revoltandresist revoltandresist
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Jan 28, 2013

    I Eat Vicodin Like Candy.

    I went on a seven month narcotics binge. I got clean in March. There hasn't been a day that I haven't thought about my addiction. About wanting just a few vicodin, or morphine, or oxycodone, or any other kind of pill along those lines. I used to eat them like candy. And, I might...
    absolutionist absolutionist
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Oct 2, 2010


    I think I love pain killers. I love fading out under the stars or with my friends relaxing to some good music. But I need to stop and don't know how. Withdrawls suck but I can do that. I just cant mentally give that up.
    XpeacexfrogX XpeacexfrogX
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Mar 5, 2013

    Well If All Else Fails

    Everything i ever loved in my life has been taken away. After getting really depressed i tryed to kill my self via pain killers and just got numb and forgot...even before that i used them to thin my blood before cutting and now i have my friends that cant leave and come by the 80...
    phiniamoon phiniamoon
    18-21, F
    Jun 2, 2013

    I Would If I Could But I Can't

    I love them, but have access to none. But I know if I did I'd probably be an addict. Just being honest!
    deleted deleted
    4 Responses Jan 27, 2010

    One hydrocodone wasnt enough

    so I snorted a second in the bathroom at work while shaking uncontrollably with need. Now thats not enough but I have to drive home. I need to snort another and Im trying to resist but its so damn hard. Should I do it? Opinions welcome. But i know its dangerous so you dont need...
    PrettyNPain PrettyNPain
    22-25, F
    Mar 24, 2015

    I Don'T Think I Am But Others Beg To Differ...

    Since I can remember, there have always been painkillers in my house. My mum ins't addicted but she gets frequent headaches, so takes a few ibuprofen or paracetamol for the pain. Anyway, from the age of 10 I suffered with sever pain in my knees, so started taking ibuprofen and...
    AlreadyExiled AlreadyExiled
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Mar 27, 2013

    You Can Trust Me I'm A Doctor, A Physician's Story Of Addiction And Recovery Ac Gross

    ttp://www.facebook.com/pages/A-C-Gross/246162455511972 I just published my story about addiction to mainly the pain pill Ultram and my recovery available Amazon, iuniverse, Barnes and Noble and Kindle
    zangkitty95 zangkitty95
    2 Responses Nov 22, 2012

    I had acl surgery a year ago from today

    and have been addicted to pain killers (morphine, hydro co, codeine) ever since and I haven't been able to put them down. The physical pain is mostly gone, but the mental pain never went away. I took the drugs so that I would feel numb, that way I wouldn't be aware of what was...
    narcoed narcoed
    18-21, F
    Jun 27, 2014

    I Dont Know How I'm Here Today?

    16 years old in the 10th grade. Hearing about drugs in the halls from my older sibilings. I knew things yah know. More than the average 10th grader. I started smoking weed in 9th grade. But it's just weed. That's what I thought at least. It is the gate way drug. My dad was...
    Js201034 Js201034
    Jul 21, 2013

    The Devils Food

    I became addicted to Vicodin, morphine, dilaudid because of a back injury in 08..as I type this I finally decided to get it together! I am still in withdrawal mode though..its tough..didn't sleep all night long...but I have faith I'll make it through....
    wenzy wenzy
    26-30, F
    1 Response Sep 19, 2010

    Cant Stop Takin Painkillers

    I am constantly takin painkillers. started takin them due to havin bad migraines at least one migraine a week. i think nothing of takin at least eight or ten a day of co codamol 500mg. within the last fewmonths i have been told i have skin cancer, with a tumour under my left eye...
    grovychick grovychick
    5 Responses Jun 26, 2009

    Dirty Little Secret

    I am addicted to pain pills and I'm pretty sure no one knows. I am a very good functioning drug addict. But I want out. You see, I now have a two year old boy who I love more than the pills. I have to get clean for him. I am all he has. His dad abused me very bad, went to prison...
    Gigi1974 Gigi1974
    36-40, F
    4 Responses Jul 10, 2012
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