I Am Addicted To Pain

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    I sometimes do hurt myself physically, but not too often. What I mean by addicted to pain is that I like people who treat me like shitt. Seriously, how fuckked up is that? I guess since I grew in an environment where I wasn't typically praised, I learned that I liked to rather be...
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick
    9 Responses Jan 13, 2011

    My Pain

    I use pain to punish myself, and it may sound stupid but I love the feeling after I physically hurt myself because I know that I have got what I deserve. It's one way I know that I have pushed the pain that I may have cause to someone else, and inflicted it on myself...
    hurtandpain hurtandpain
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Mar 15, 2010

    I Wrote This Before I Quit Therapy

    Pain: an unpleasant sensation that can range from mild, localized discomfort to agony. According to human nature, pain is unpleasant. But what's it mean whenever we grow fond of it? For me, it started as a tool for creating interest. But children can't see that pain is stronger...
    dthwtchbeetle dthwtchbeetle
    18-21, F
    Jul 18, 2012

    I can't stop hurting myself.

    I don't even know why. It's not to get a sense of release. It's not because I feel numb. I'm not punishing myself. Maybe it's just a sense of accomplishment, of control over myself. Maybe I'm trying to train myself not to fear pain. Maybe I'm just a freak and completely screwed...
    MurderAndCreate MurderAndCreate
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Feb 28, 2015

    I Need An Absolutely Straight Answer.

    I have a simple question: Is this something that I have to stop? I've been to the doctor, and she poker-faced me. She told me nothing, gave me no help. I've been to a councillor. She didn't help either. I need a simple answer - just a yes or no would be nice. Since I was...
    StripyRose StripyRose
    Jul 27, 2012

    My addiction is human imperfection

    and suffering. I always have to find the pain in others, their secrets and feelings. I want to be able to depend on someone through a promise of pain, fear, anger and a twisted love. Someone who can see the savage boy in me restrained by morals, love and hope.
    JonathanCTVirgo JonathanCTVirgo
    22-25, M
    1 Response Aug 11, 2014

    The First Time

    when i was about fourteen. i was riding my bike at a skate-park (rebel yeah i know) and i ride up the half-pipe when some stupid kid runs up in front of me. i swerve off the edge about half way up. fly over the handle-bars and land on my face. my right eyebrow to be exact. i...
    Twiztedkid Twiztedkid
    22-25, M
    Mar 6, 2013

    It's My Coping Mechanism

    By feeling pain, I don't have to feel my depression. I know, it's sounds completely irrational. But then again, I don't really care. That's what most addictions are like right?
    girlanonymous girlanonymous
    22-25, F
    Feb 9, 2011

    Im Not Crazy

    Im addicted to pain I will do anything that will cause me physical pain. My favourite is carving smiley faces and love hearts into my skin with blades. But I can go from anything from hitting myself to jumping off small cliffs The pain just feels soo good. Which is wierd...
    deleted deleted
    4 Responses Mar 17, 2010

    Its Not Punishment To Me

    i love it pain is a turn on being cut, hit, bit anything that causes pain i love it excites me. yeah i used to punish myself when i was younger but cutting but now i do it for a more positive way
    bloodyhippie bloodyhippie
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Mar 16, 2010

    Ever feel like emotional pain is

    so addictive. Something that makes you happy high and keeps you on your toes. But at the same time eating you away from the inside. Bit by bit unwilling to let go.
    lusicqued lusicqued
    1 Response Apr 13, 2014

    Where I Am: My Addiction

    Whenever I was a child, my life was the way it was meant to be. Graced with a family that provided me. Had one friend and was okay with it. Well-behaved, for the most part. Couldn't be bothered by the state of everything. Normal. Since the time of adolescence, up until this point...
    dthwtchbeetle dthwtchbeetle
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jul 9, 2012

    I explained this to my best friend just now.

    . Turns out so is she.. Good to know I'm not a total freak.. And if I am then I'm not alone.
    Sarabell00 Sarabell00
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jun 8, 2015
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