I Am Addicted To Self Harming

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    Last time I cut there were just little scratches

    so I thought it was ok because "relapse is a thing no need to stress over it so much". But I proved myself wrong this morning I got triggered by something and I'm back where I started. It's as if nothing changed. I hurt myself because I don't know how to deal with my emotions. I...
    SecludedSeaTurtle SecludedSeaTurtle
    18-21, F
    Aug 21, 2015

    I cut myself a lot, Maine reason

    why I made this tonight. I had a break thru, and I just did what I needed to do. I'm hoping some day I'll stop.
    HeartBigBeatsQuiet HeartBigBeatsQuiet
    18-21, F
    Dec 4, 2013

    Anyone know of another way

    for me to harm myself besides cutting? I hate feeling upset and need another way to help relieve this pressure I get when I'm upset.
    PetiteandShort PetiteandShort
    18-21, F
    May 26, 2015

    I've tried to stop self harming 2 times.

    The first time I hadn't cut for 2-3 weeks. I thought that I could do it. But after every day I had been "clean" I just wanted to cut more and more. And in the end, one night when I was home alone and I was sure nobody will come for the next 48 hours I did it again. And it was...
    elena1998 elena1998
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Jul 3, 2014

    I'm not feeling that bad

    or depressed as much as I was 2 months ago... but I feel like I'm getting worse. I kinda don't think I'll get that bad but whatever. The good thing is that I can turn off/on my emotions whenever I want to. But I still miss cutting. I miss it so fu*king bad. Each time I look at...
    elena1998 elena1998
    18-21, F
    Jun 18, 2015
    CatWithScars CatWithScars
    16-17, F
    Jul 13, 2014

    I've gone completely stupid I have cuts on my

    arm all the way up to my elbow and everytime I try and carry my books during school it starts to burn
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Oct 2, 2015

    I haven't been cutting

    for that long only 5 months or so but I am already hooked and I have been trying to stop before I go to far but I can't tell anybody they would be so ashamed of me I just don't know what to do
    staystrong07 staystrong07
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 10, 2014

    I haven't been cutting

    since 12 which was 5 years ago. Recently negative thoughts just keeps coming and I started cutting. And now I can't stop, it's even worst than 5 years ago. I used to just cut very lightly so I don't get any scars, now I'm cutting deeper and deeper to relieve my pain. I feel...
    Verasayshi Verasayshi
    18-21, F
    Sep 16, 2014

    i cut myself almost every night,

    it's really bad but it's the only thing that helps my sadness. it relieves me, it makes me feel alive.
    silentsufferingg silentsufferingg
    18-21, F
    Jan 6, 2014

    I cut once when I was extremely depressed

    and now every time I'm sad or angry my instinct is to grab my knife
    ItsJustBryce ItsJustBryce
    16-17, M
    5 Responses Mar 10, 2014

    I wish I could stop its killing me

    and my family. I just want to stop but I'm so addicted...
    annajvbanana annajvbanana
    18-21, F
    Mar 3, 2015

    Hey...don't ignore this,

    just give me a chance to explain Don't grab your "tools" whenever you feel bad.Remind yourself what will happen if you give up.How are you going to deal with it and how are you going to feel?Then refocus your goals,is giving up that easy?The relief that comes from self-harming...
    ghostdolly ghostdolly
    16-17, F
    Jan 24, 2016

    I cut myself for stupid reasons

    and then I stopped but then when my problems started growing I started cutting again and now I can't stop
    aylafutter aylafutter
    16-17, F
    1 Response Nov 10, 2014

    I haven't cut in 2 years.

    I had a break down the other night and couldn't resist the urge. I feel like I gave up. I feel guilty in a way. but sometimes it's the only thing that helps.
    jprice1994 jprice1994
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Feb 21, 2016

    When people call depressed

    and self harming people attention seekers... They may be an attention seeker but at the end of the day they're still sticking a blade into their skin and bleeding!!! So give them the God damm attention they deserve!
    polarbearlove polarbearlove
    18-21, F
    May 18, 2015

    I can't count how many times I've told myself I

    would stop. How many times I've thrown away the blades, Clipped my nails to stop myself from picking my skin, told myself to stop literally bashing myself leaving bruises. all the marks I need to hide. I then give up and pathetically tear my flesh open with my lanyard in a...
    rosy10010 rosy10010
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Apr 9, 2015

    I have been cutting since I was in 6th grade.

    It became deeper and with more than the last session. I was hospitalized for it nearly a year ago now. I got put on suicide watch, sent to therapy ( which I just got out of again), and put on meds. Recently all I've wanted is to go back to it. It's been a year but I still feel...
    JordanJessie JordanJessie
    22-25, F
    Dec 27, 2013

    I don't do it for attention

    and people who do do it for attention are stupid. I know it's not a good way to cope but now I'm addicted. I don't seek attention. I seek help. You don't know me or my real story but I have reasons why I do it. If only you knew the pain life has caused me. I may not have had it...
    faithy8888 faithy8888
    16-17, F
    1 Response Aug 13, 2014

    I use to be addicted to self harm

    if you would like to stop message me and I'll try to help.
    maddieloveslife17 maddieloveslife17
    18-21, F
    Jan 16, 2016

    So today, it was a carnival at our school.

    I wore a full-sleeved T-shirt, but I pulled up the sleeve of my left arm as there was a scar that was irritating me. I wore a hoodie over it and went to school. When it got too hot and odd to be in a hoodie, I went to the corner of the room where one of my friends was sitting...
    Poot0lovato Poot0lovato
    16-17, F
    Dec 1, 2015

    I have cut for 4 years now.

    I go to counseling, I have tried all the therapy methods. Nothing works. The only one thing I can say that stops me from cutting is sex. Cutting use to give me this satisfaction... Power that nothing else could give me. Now sex doesn't give me what cutting gave me. It only gives...
    heyycutie16 heyycutie16
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 13, 2014

    it's hard when I try to explain to people

    why I do it. i cannot feel and it the only way I can temporarily revive myself. I like the look of my cuts and my scars I like it and no one understands
    lexneedshelp lexneedshelp
    16-17, F
    Apr 26, 2015

    I'm addicted to cutting

    and I feel so alone so empty like I can't feel anything anymore and I feel like I'm the only one that cuts because I don't know other people that cuts besides me
    cristina44 cristina44
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jan 10, 2014

    I guess I'm never gonna stop.

    I can't go a day without thinking constantly about cutting. I don't wanna stop. I don't wanna get better. I have no idea why. I've spend so much time thinking about why I don't want to recover from depression but I can't find an answer. And I hate all of those advices about how...
    elena1998 elena1998
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 9, 2015

    I started self harming at 12,

    I am now 16 and struggling to stop. It has became an addiction, I always thought I could control it but in fact it is controlling me.
    pxle pxle
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Dec 13, 2014

    I was desperate for blood today

    as soon as I got home. I grabbed my blades and slashed my thigh open, and now I feel fantastic ^-^
    rarmeowz rarmeowz
    18-21, F
    Jan 8, 2014

    I'm disappointed by how broken of a person I am.

    I have so many scars. I hide them all by bracelets and no one has any idea. I want to stop and I know it would break my moms heart. I can't stop. And I'm so alone and I can't take it. Everyone hates me. If been to so many schools and I don't know why but whenever I go to a new...
    milesfromsaftey milesfromsaftey
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Sep 3, 2014
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