I Am Afraid I Will Always Be Alone

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    Hoping Without Hope....

    My fear and insecurities get the best of me, they tear me apart and leave me broken time and time again. For I know I need love (and to be loved), it is what I yearn for and crave.... But for the life of me, I will never look for it or try to get it. I push people away...
    TheWanderingSupertramp TheWanderingSupertramp
    26-30, M
    6 Responses Mar 1, 2010

    I feel the same way and it is a painful feeling.

    My heart aches from loneliness and the fact that girls never give me a chance or even look at me makes it that much worse. I really hope you find someone because I know the pain of being alone and it is not a good feeling.
    EternalLoneliness EternalLoneliness
    31-35, M
    Apr 1, 2015

    .......loneliness

     I'm only seventeen but i feel so alone......my dad was never physically abusive but he could cut me to my soul with just a glance or look. It was always the look that said how disappointed he was in me...i lived my first sixteen years doing everything in my power to...
    lonelyheart5757 lonelyheart5757
    16-17
    2 Responses Apr 29, 2010

    I'm sure many people feel this way,

    too many. However, I don't base this on an idea of self pity, or attention seeking. I never speak these feelings to other people, I never talk about it. I base the idea that I will be alone forever, on what has happened in my life thus far. I've gone through memories, analyzed...
    TheZEEMan TheZEEMan
    22-25, M
    4 Responses Dec 29, 2014

    I Know Why I'm Alone.

    I have male friends interested in me, but I pick them apart to such a degree that they can't stand looking at themselves anymore. I tear them down into little details until they don't feel like humans but rather a chart on virtues and vices. Then, if that doesn't work I push...
    EsotericalDaughter EsotericalDaughter
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 18, 2008

    I Often Feel That There Is Nothing That Will Ever Make Me Happy If I Can't Share It With Anyone Ery

     I'm so psychologically damaged and although I'm pretty, smart, fun, I just can't seem to ever want to see anyone more than once.. I can't seem to want to get close to anyone as I feel that I am not able to be normal and become very crazy or psycho with them eventually...
    fightclubgal fightclubgal
    22-25
    1 Response Feb 9, 2009
    lisali88 lisali88
    26-30, F
    1 Response May 26, 2014

    i know im young and i have

    so many opportunities to make friends but people hated me in gradeschool people hated me in middle school and people hate me in highschool.. i dont even have one real friend ... i am afraid i will always be seen the same and disliked by everyone..
    Gomii Gomii
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 2

    I keep getting played by every boy,

    I'm so worried I'll never find anyone who actually wants to be with me :(
    lexxtypeshere lexxtypeshere
    18-21, F
    Feb 14, 2014

    I am not afraid so much of death,

    it's dying alone that is my real fear.
    TheBoyFromSweden TheBoyFromSweden
    22-25, M
    1 Response Jul 8, 2014

    My Biggest Fear.

    My bigger fear is to die alone and no one to care about me. I am afraid that i will never find someone to love me and to care about me. I am not getting any younger anymore. I am already 27 years old and i fear i will be alone when i am 30 years old. :(
    TinaFeyforever TinaFeyforever
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Feb 23, 2013

    Never Connecting...

    I am convinced that I will not find a person that shares enough in common to really become connected with me. If it isn't one thing, it is another. I'm not good looking enough, I'm too smart, I'm not laidback, I don't pay enough attention, and so on. It's exhausting trying to get...
    nd3141 nd3141
    36-40, M
    4 Responses Jun 8, 2010

    I am gay and I am so shy it is unreal.

    I'm too scared to date anyone... Heh like I could get anyone. I'd love to meet a nice guy who I could share stuff with and be my complete self around but of course even if I did find someone, I couldn't date them cause I am scared of someone finding out I'm gay. I wish I could...
    holyflapjacks holyflapjacks
    16-17, M
    3 Responses Jul 28, 2014

    Seeking An Open Ear

    All I do since Graduating High School is worry about the people I Love. But they're so busy I can't seem to even get a "How's it going?" I'm so Depressed I just want an "Auntie" (Good Night Nurse) to tend to me whenever I cry.
    WhiteLegoNinja WhiteLegoNinja
    13-15, T
    Feb 23, 2013

    I Think I Might Be Meant To Be Alone

    I'll be 28 in about 2 weeks, and I feel like I'll always be alone. I go to the movies alone, I go rock climbing alone, I go scuba diving alone, I go out to eat alone, I go to the gym alone, basically I do everything alone. Maybe that's just how it's supposed to be.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Jul 17, 2013

    My Loneliness Led Me to Anger

    I spent the first tenty-three years of my life living with my mother. She was a single mom and because she had to work two jobs to support us I grew up alone. I had no siblings and for the four years my mom was with my stepfather, he took no interest in me. So I always felt like...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    5 Responses Jun 25, 2009

    I have always been this way

    now at age of 22 , I really fear that may be I will be this way forever. Not that anything is wrong with being alone but it hurts sometime when you see people in love, and that thing is not happening with you. Sometimes I am okay with being alone for rest of my life, and that...
    rockfordseagull rockfordseagull
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Jul 26, 2014

    I've Cursed Myself

    My father had a horrible temper.  He could make you feel lower than worm-slime with a simple tone of voice.  He also hit. To his credit, every time we got into it, he would leave me alone for a bit and then come and apologize to me.  I spent the majority of his...
    acoustickitty acoustickitty
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Dec 30, 2007

    yeah well.. that's the most common crisis these

    days..i really hope i find someone.. to the extent that i even am hoping to find someone from this EP platform
    Falaash Falaash
    22-25, M
    Jun 9, 2015

    I know I’m still young

    and have an entire life ahead of me, but I’m sick and tired of being reminded every day that I’ve always been single. It wouldn’t be so bad if it was just something I noticed, because I could just shrug it off and move on. The problem is that everyone, including girls...
    windyhairlover windyhairlover
    18-21, M
    1 Response May 29, 2015

    I don't want to self pity.

    I just feel like I won't ever meet someone who will like me as I am. Everyone around me can go through relationships to friendships as nothing and I can't feel but scared. And I know I'm just 16 and have a life set out for me but, I feel alone and I have depression, and...
    roxxann101 roxxann101
    16-17, F
    Jul 27, 2015

    I use to be afraid I'd be alone forever,

    because of how I am and my way of thinking. Now If I'm ever afraid of being alone forever it's because I do know if any woman would have sincere feeling for me.
    Maybeincubus Maybeincubus
    26-30, M
    Jun 14, 2015

    It was more than the sad heartache It was more

    than the sleepless nights It was burning for someone's love That was nowhere in sight It was more Than that lonely morning It was turning over to war It was breaking down on a sunny day A peace that couldn't be restored It was more It was taking over your every thought Would...
    obliviousK obliviousK
    22-25
    Nov 12, 2015

    Terrified That I Will End Up Like My Aunt...

    Who is 43, single, still living at home and has no friends. Everyone says how alike we are and it scares me stupid. I am afraid I will always be the single girl who goes to weddings and other social events alone. The girl who never has close friends who stick around and who has...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jul 3, 2011

    I have only had one boyfriend

    and we didn't even kiss. I haven't had a boyfriend since and I'm scared that I will always be alone.
    livelaughlove0810 livelaughlove0810
    18-21, F
    2 Responses May 26, 2014

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    meriii meriii
    22-25, F
    Apr 30, 2013

    Why is loneliness so difficult?

    I go in cycles- days when I'm handling it, and at other times I feel really in pain and quite powerless to do anything about it. I have good friends but they are all in relationships or starting to have children. So they are not always free to meet up, and I feel sometimes...
    abh6 abh6
    31-35, F
    Dec 2, 2015

    Sometimes I'm Afraid That I Will Always Be Alone

    I'm 61 and haven't found my soulmate.  so I'm afraid I might always be alone.
    aquarius3 aquarius3
    66-70
    3 Responses Jan 21, 2012

    It's A Shame

    I'm afraid I'll always be alone, I'm afraid that i'll never find my soul-mate, I'm afraid that i'll never have any real friends again, I'm afraid that all my hopes and aspirations will turn out to be nothing but pipe-dreams, I'm afraid that i'm going to die alone without friends...
    misternobrain misternobrain
    26-30, M
    3 Responses Dec 17, 2011

    Loneliness-my Best Friend

    Loneliness is really my best friend..It cares about me soo much that it never leaves me even if I am sitting with a group of people, my family or just simply doing anything... It has grown fond of me over years.... Sometimes I just sit back and think is this what I am born for...
    Adreamer14 Adreamer14
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jan 23, 2012

    Three years ago, I was engaged to a guy

    who later on turned abusive physically and emotionally. The relationship lasted over two years and it ended because my ex fiance cheated on me and got this other girl pregnant. After that, I declared a love lock down and kept myself busy with friends, community art projects...
    Qtrelle Qtrelle
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Jan 26, 2015

    No One Wants Me

    Ever since i was little, people have always found a way to push me away. I don't know what it is but people always tend to gravitate towards me and then leave me abruptly. Sometimes i feel like things have just ran their course but now i think that there's just something about me...
    misternobrain misternobrain
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Jun 29, 2011

    All Of The Time

    i feel lonely all of the time. every minute of every day and i honestley cant see that changing any time. I dont want to be alone forever but i just feel like things will never change and im going to be stuck by myself feeling lonely and pathetic for being alone forever. this...
    lolajonson lolajonson
    16-17, F
    1 Response Feb 21, 2011

    I've been a single mom

    for 12 years and even before that I've always felt like ill just be alone for the rest of my life ... Not saying that I don't try to have relationships and take advice from good friends and family about it , it's just that I will in the end be alone, I have already been alone my...
    shyartist1983 shyartist1983
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Aug 3, 2014

    Pretending to be happy daily is exhausting.

    Being alone is not that scary as compared to being with someone who makes you feel alone.
    smartoriously smartoriously
    22-25, F
    1 Response Mar 25, 2014

    I mean I know I'm young,

    I'm only 18 but I've never been on an actual date and have never had a boyfriend...I just hope my future will be different!
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Jul 29, 2014

    Pushing Myself Into A Corner

    I am still at the young age of 15. Yet at this point in time I have already manage to evaluate the world down to the very basics. I have looked at life so hard that hardly anything has any real meaning to me, life is honestly more of a hassle to me then an actual experience now...
    CaleighP CaleighP
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jan 14, 2010

    What Do I Do Now?

    I am now living on my own in a new large town. I don't know anyone, I moved here for my job. I feel so alone, I got a guinea pig to keep me some company but its not helping. I feel that I will be alone for ever, I'm extremely shy. I only have one true friend but she lives about 2...
    fire44613 fire44613
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Nov 22, 2010

    I'm Affraid of Ending Up Alone

    I am 23 years old and I've never been in a romantic relationship with a man. When I was younger I was never really interested in romance because I had other things going on in my life. Then when I started to become interested I had no self confidence. I go through life with the...
    NotThatIntoYou NotThatIntoYou
    22-25
    1 Response Feb 15, 2009

    Vicious Circle

    I sit in the back of the classroom. I never speak up. I always get that sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach whenever there's a possibility that I will get called on to ask a question. In one of my classes, I am one of two girls, and she's the only one I ever talk to in that...
    karepan karepan
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Nov 30, 2012

    I Will Never Have Anyone Again

    I feel isolated and alone even when there are people around me. When I've tried to express my feelings they look at me like I have two heads. They think I should be easily moving forward and starting a new life but they don't understand I feel as if my feet are stuck in cement...
    mystified340 mystified340
    51-55, F
    2 Responses Oct 16, 2013

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