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I Am Afraid I Will Fall Back Into My Depression Again

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 381 People

    What Makes You Cry...

    I am used to keeping so much to myself, because i didnt dare to tell anyone anymore, as i feel they were never interested in hearing me. I used to complain alot untill when i was in my young teens, 11-13 years of age, one of my friend told me to shut up. Till now it has...
    redleaves redleaves 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 27, 2009

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    Once And A While

    Ever since I was little I suffered from a chronic depression. I have more things now to keep my mind busy, I also love to help people who are also upset. I'm happier now but it back forth occasionally.
    TrevorNotSalander TrevorNotSalander 13-15, M Nov 8, 2013

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    Lost In Lust

    Sometimes i flinch when you try to touch me and you stop kissing me to ask me why i resist then you look into my eyes and see the tears naturally you ask whats wrong and naturally i make up excuses.. "oh the winds burning my eyes..." "...i'm just not in the mood today" i...
    lexi71912 lexi71912 13-15, F Nov 2, 2012

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    coming of my anti depressants im terrified i

    fall back into the pit of despair even tho i will still majorly depressed and suicidle whilst on my anti depressant :/ i know ill allways be depressed is there a way to embrace depression tho??
    maylane maylane 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 28, 2014

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    Hmmm

    I use to be confident and really couldn't care less of what people think but now I'm not so sure... I have and am recently being bullied by people on my soccer team. At first it really didn't get me but now it's just echo's in my head. I've been depressed before and it's not...
    HappyHuffy HappyHuffy 16-17, M Sep 14, 2013

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    I have a list of rules.

    These rule are, for the most part, a guide to life. The 40's are different. These are special rules. I sat tonight, on my phone, in a field, with a noose. Thinking. **** it. I give up. See you on the other side. I looked for a reason not to. I can't find one. The title is a...
    YitzchakWinternitz YitzchakWinternitz 16-17, M 1 Response 22 hrs ago

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    Depression Again

    Oh no, Not depression again, I feared, This might happen, I seem, To just get out, Here I am again, Falling into depression, When will it ever end? When will I be free?
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M 1 Response Feb 2, 2012

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    Nothing Is Impossible.....its Yours To Change..

    I have realised that... some will be able relate to me of how numbness and emotionless one can be. But If you are able to relate to me.. It means, You do still have emotions, You still feel. However.. only you can change it. It could be a bad day, bad year. An incident. A...
    redleaves redleaves 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 16, 2012

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    Who's that knock, knock,

    knocking at the door? - It's that old devious devil and his dark dog returning to stay a while. What fascinates me (and worries me deeply) about depression, or at least my experiences of it ,as I can't speak for others, is the total shift in perspective that can arise from...
    LowRise LowRise 36-40, M 1 Response Feb 18

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    If I Do

    I am not taking meds again.
    musared musared 16-17, F Aug 28, 2009

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    hello everyone. i'm back.

    who has suffered from depression? it it not sooo easy to fall back? it seems like it never left.
    Wewerethereinthattime Wewerethereinthattime 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 21

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    I was depressed in third grade.

    .. Then again in sixth grade... Now I feel like I'm depressed again... How was i depressed in the third grade? I don't even ******* know.
    Spookitty Spookitty 13-15 Feb 19

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    Don'T Really Feel Depressed Anymore

    If I had to describe how I feel, I'd say just bitter and the occasional pang of excruciatingly loneliness. I've grown comfortable enough in my own company for that to ever kill me now. I'm not okay, but I'm a different kind of unstable now. It's not depression, it's just...
    deadmoon deadmoon 18-21, F Jun 7, 2013

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    I fight everyday to keep myself from sinking

    back into depression. I block out a lot of things and I'm sure I'm only making things worse by doing that but I don't know what else to do. I hate taking pills, I don't drink, I don't do drugs, I have no friends. So what else is there for me to do?
    skipbaeless skipbaeless 26-30, F Feb 18

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    I Alreadhave...

    When I joined this group. I was High in my manic pharase. I have Bipolar, so I have a Lot of ups and downs, and its very hard to deal with it, when I am not on medication. Sadly, I have fallen back into the depression pit, due to it being the holiday, and hating the holiday, and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 4, 2009

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    This Describes Me Perfectly.

    I've been unmedicated for like 2 months. And right now, am slipping back into the anxiety and eating disordered thoughts, no purging, yet. It's scary though. It's a real fear. I don't want to go back there. I REALLY can do better than this. I am more than this. I am worthy of...
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 28, 2012

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    Ups & Downs Of Life

    Life is so funny friendz, If u have wish to learn always then u have tremendous things to do This all things came into anyones mind when they are in high touch of their creativity & potential But one thing always fear in corner of mind The Depression is only thing who give nice...
    ashu4569 ashu4569 18-21, M Mar 19, 2012

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    Overcoming My Issues

    I went through my first bout of depression when I was ten. My grandmother (mom's mom), whom I was very close to, passed away. Hers was my first real experience with death. I basically shut down. I wouldn't eat, or sleep, or talk for a while. The depression did not last very long...
    ADreamerWithAPen ADreamerWithAPen 16-17, F May 13, 2012

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    It really sucked. Last year of August,

    I fell into a depression for lots of reasons. It was hard to sustain a conversation with people without wanting to cry. I felt weightless(not literally) and I felt dead inside. I learned how to avoid it but it took some time. I hope no one feels like there's a low point in their...
    Amethyst09 Amethyst09 18-21, F Feb 19

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    Stuck In The Spell Of Inertia

    I am known for taking every assignment in this life as a goal and struggling hard  to achieve it. But however, since few months i am locked inside this spell of inertia which is not letting me to do anything. My life has changed drastically. I don't feel the interest of doing...
    haseebahsan haseebahsan 22-25, M Jul 20, 2011

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    Can I Trust Myself????

    I'm always afraid that I will never be good enough. How can I trust myself to make the right choice when I constantly seem to be making the wrong one?
    tigerlily1994 tigerlily1994 18-21, F Nov 23, 2013

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    I already have. I was slowly getting out

    if it but I just fell into a black hole and couldn't get out. I now know it's where I belong. Being surrounded by black.
    SavedByBands SavedByBands 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 26, 2014

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    I Fell.... =(

    I fell into 'hibernation' mode for a week recently. ignoring exams, school, work or any contact with humans and technology. Locked up in my room. Phone dead. I slept for 5 days straight, having a bite of my tub of gummi bears and a shot of liquor when I woke up, brushed my teeth...
    redleaves redleaves 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 28, 2012

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    I am sacrificing my love

    for my self Esteem. I love a guy madly but he don't holds the same feelings for me nor he understands my love and don't respects my feelings. It hurts me. I didn't want to accept it that he don't love me ,but he broke me. Facing the most painful phase of my life.
    sidu6 sidu6 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 26, 2014

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    I'm not even afraid of falling, really . Its that sudden stop when landing that gets me a little nervous.
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    when i said i love you it was more then words i meant you are everything all i ever wanted was just to be with you have a talk have a walk look at your laugh look at your eyes hold...
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    I am feeling bad so I will be back tomorrow everyone.
    traebramlett traebramlett 18-21, M a week ago

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    I can even handle the fall! It's the sudden stop at the bottom that causes all the aggro!!
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    Seen lots of people break and died for love. Gives me the impression of falling to someone unnecessary. That will ruined everything if being fooled by. Another headache, worries...
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    Everything's changed. Things have been way quiet and uneventful ever since I lost my maternal grandparents. I never saw my maternal grandmother, so I cherished and devoted time to...
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    I have to be honest, this pregnancy literally hinders my routine, so I find it hard not to do things I did all time long. When this baby pops out in end May I'll not just be back...
    ZADoubleMesser ZADoubleMesser 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 15

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    But it should be principal or viceprincipal who should cane kids. Or someone with just a discipline role. A feared figure. Not teachers. Teachers are for teaching.
    Danceofhours Danceofhours 41-45, M 1 Response 12 hrs ago

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    Especially on an airplane...
    AverageQuota AverageQuota 13-15, M Feb 18

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    As long as I'm secured, like on a roller coaster or something, I love the thrill...otherwise I'm terrified, have a hard time even being close to a railing if it's on the edge of...
    confusion37 confusion37 36-40, F Feb 19

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    Truth is nothing I write or read will change anything. I know what I have to do but I just won't do it, nothing inspires me to do anything. I do nothing, therefore I am nothing. I...
    OneHowlToTheMoon OneHowlToTheMoon 22-25, M 1 Response Feb 11

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    I seriously believe that abortion is a severe sin because one takes away another’s life and with that the chance to realize God which I feel is the very purpose of human life...
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    It has been so bad lately. All I do is work and study, and then I get stuck in traffic for two hours. I don't even have time to eat in the day or have time to think about myself. I...
    The2ndLaw The2ndLaw 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 17

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    I used to be sweet, kind, fun loving, Friendly, and believe in being a gentleman. I loved trying new things and I wished so much to sharing new experiences with someone special...
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