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I Am Afraid I Will Fall Back Into My Depression Again

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    Ups & Downs Of Life

    Life is so funny friendz, If u have wish to learn always then u have tremendous things to do This all things came into anyones mind when they are in high touch of their creativity & potential But one thing always fear in corner of mind The Depression is only thing who give nice...
    ashu4569 ashu4569 18-21, M Mar 19, 2012

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    Don'T Really Feel Depressed Anymore

    If I had to describe how I feel, I'd say just bitter and the occasional pang of excruciatingly loneliness. I've grown comfortable enough in my own company for that to ever kill me now. I'm not okay, but I'm a different kind of unstable now. It's not depression, it's just...
    deadmoon deadmoon 18-21, F Jun 7, 2013

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    Nothing Is Impossible.....its Yours To Change..

    I have realised that... some will be able relate to me of how numbness and emotionless one can be. But If you are able to relate to me.. It means, You do still have emotions, You still feel. However.. only you can change it. It could be a bad day, bad year. An incident. A...
    redleaves redleaves 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 16, 2012

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    Depression Again

    Oh no, Not depression again, I feared, This might happen, I seem, To just get out, Here I am again, Falling into depression, When will it ever end? When will I be free?
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M 1 Response Feb 2, 2012

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    This Describes Me Perfectly.

    I've been unmedicated for like 2 months. And right now, am slipping back into the anxiety and eating disordered thoughts, no purging, yet. It's scary though. It's a real fear. I don't want to go back there. I REALLY can do better than this. I am more than this. I am worthy of...
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 28, 2012

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    Once And A While

    Ever since I was little I suffered from a chronic depression. I have more things now to keep my mind busy, I also love to help people who are also upset. I'm happier now but it back forth occasionally.
    TrevorNotSalander TrevorNotSalander 13-15, M Nov 8, 2013

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    It is inevitable. I know

    that depression is something I will always deal with. Depression has been a part of my life for as long as I can remember. I can usually get through the difficult times quickly, but every now and then the sadness hangs on. That's the kind of depression I fear. Depression...
    couldbeheaven couldbeheaven 26-30, F Apr 1

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    I Fell.... =(

    I fell into 'hibernation' mode for a week recently. ignoring exams, school, work or any contact with humans and technology. Locked up in my room. Phone dead. I slept for 5 days straight, having a bite of my tub of gummi bears and a shot of liquor when I woke up, brushed my teeth...
    redleaves redleaves 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 28, 2012

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    Can I Trust Myself????

    I'm always afraid that I will never be good enough. How can I trust myself to make the right choice when I constantly seem to be making the wrong one?
    tigerlily1994 tigerlily1994 18-21, F Nov 23, 2013

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    Overcoming My Issues

    I went through my first bout of depression when I was ten. My grandmother (mom's mom), whom I was very close to, passed away. Hers was my first real experience with death. I basically shut down. I wouldn't eat, or sleep, or talk for a while. The depression did not last very long...
    ADreamerWithAPen ADreamerWithAPen 16-17, F May 13, 2012

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    coming of my anti depressants im terrified i

    fall back into the pit of despair even tho i will still majorly depressed and suicidle whilst on my anti depressant :/ i know ill allways be depressed is there a way to embrace depression tho??
    maylane maylane 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 28

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    I Alreadhave...

    When I joined this group. I was High in my manic pharase. I have Bipolar, so I have a Lot of ups and downs, and its very hard to deal with it, when I am not on medication. Sadly, I have fallen back into the depression pit, due to it being the holiday, and hating the holiday, and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 4, 2009

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    Stuck In The Spell Of Inertia

    I am known for taking every assignment in this life as a goal and struggling hard  to achieve it. But however, since few months i am locked inside this spell of inertia which is not letting me to do anything. My life has changed drastically. I don't feel the interest of doing...
    haseebahsan haseebahsan 22-25, M Jul 20, 2011

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    If I Do

    I am not taking meds again.
    musared musared 16-17, F Aug 28, 2009

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    Lost In Lust

    Sometimes i flinch when you try to touch me and you stop kissing me to ask me why i resist then you look into my eyes and see the tears naturally you ask whats wrong and naturally i make up excuses.. "oh the winds burning my eyes..." "...i'm just not in the mood today" i...
    lexi71912 lexi71912 13-15, F Nov 2, 2012

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    Back And Forth

    I try so hard to be a good mom, good wife, and nice little home maker, but it's killing me. Sometimes I am happy, most times I am going nuts. Started taking a natural supplement to balance my moods... Hope it helps.
    Feb 11, 2013

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    What Makes You Cry...

    I am used to keeping so much to myself, because i didnt dare to tell anyone anymore, as i feel they were never interested in hearing me. I used to complain alot untill when i was in my young teens, 11-13 years of age, one of my friend told me to shut up. Till now it has...
    redleaves redleaves 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 27, 2009

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    Hmmm

    I use to be confident and really couldn't care less of what people think but now I'm not so sure... I have and am recently being bullied by people on my soccer team. At first it really didn't get me but now it's just echo's in my head. I've been depressed before and it's not...
    HappyHuffy HappyHuffy 13-15, M Sep 14, 2013

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    Like a ticking time bomb. Trying hard not to have another meltdown. I'm taking extra precautions but I don't know if it'll work. Up and down. At least when I'm up I get stuff done...
    NotApplicable NotApplicable 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 10

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    I was told I have depression about 6 months so was put on tablets I choose not to speak to anyone friends family my girlfriend and it's only this past few days I have started to...
    tomishere84 tomishere84 26-30, M 1 Response Jul 10

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    The thought terrifies me. For too long I suffered through the emotions of hope, and helplessness, alternating for what seemed to be endlessly. When it was at its worse, I can only...
    HumanAsPossible HumanAsPossible 16-17, M 18 hrs ago

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    I am not very good at 'life' per se. Feels like my world is closing in on itself 99% of the time.
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 10

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    Hi Just went back into physical therapy today had my evaluation today my left shoulder that I got injured in a car accident in January 20,2012 needs more work and now right...
    sunnyday55 sunnyday55 46-50, F 1 day ago

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    I separated from my husband 3 years ago. It was a really messed up relationship and he cheated time after time. I became more and more insecure as time went on. Eventually I found...
    ThatsSuze ThatsSuze 22-25 Jul 7

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    I'm always like this, birthdays praise etc but most of all I am afraid because I let myself be happy I am going to lose the person I love. You will probably think I'm young so it's...
    FeelingAmazingRightNow FeelingAmazingRightNow 13-15, M 2 Responses Jun 26

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    Idk why everyone comes in my life when they have to leave in just few days. I made many online friends and slowly slowly they left me. I am just afraid of being in love, i am just...
    mahdiraza mahdiraza 16-17, M 4 Responses a week ago

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    The moment I saw you I feel in love & you smiled because you new . Thinking it's time to start looking again
    tom1851 tom1851 46-50, M Jun 26

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    Guys like me and ill flirt but im afraid too commit and keep losing friends for it I am terrified of giving my heart to someone again and losing more of me then I already have
    jketdancer jketdancer 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 30

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    I am completely addicted to my Anorexia Nervosa. It's official. I though having enough treatment, enough therapy, enough inpatients, residential facilities and various ways of...
    Lucile199 Lucile199 18-21, F Jul 15

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    I'm engaged to my boyfriend of 5 years and we get married next year. Recently I feel like the spark had been lost from our relationship, and may have been lost quite some time ago...
    Tyogani Tyogani 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 28

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    I am tired of being empty and dark inside. The aloneness is almost overwhelming. Alone and lonely are different. I want to be alone, but I am tired of being lonely. I do know that...
    Opti1956 Opti1956 56-60, M Jul 4

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    My ******* ******* brother punched me.I punched him back.In the ******* face.He has the balls to ******* steal my IPod and lock himself in his room.I will **** you up,
    ItsAllMyFaultxx ItsAllMyFaultxx 13-15, M 1 Response Jul 14

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    Finding the One person who has shown me who I truely am has been an AMAZING experience! I know, that no matter how O/our situation turns out, I will never be the same...and for...
    snwnglmkr snwnglmkr 41-45, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Love is a scary thing, it makes you wanna do anything for that person and I already have enough people that I love and care about. I'm honestly not sure how many more I can watch...
    Favoritejohnny16 Favoritejohnny16 13-15, M 1 Response a week ago

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    Every day seems to get a little darker. The emptiness inside my soul is the most lonely place I can be. Lonely and alone are two different things. I want to be alone but am tired...
    Opti1956 Opti1956 56-60, M 1 Response Jul 4

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    I'm slipping away again into my old habits. Ever since I'm back here, everybody is commenting on my weight, judging every single thing I'm putting in my mouth I've already started...
    Justme2107 Justme2107 22-25, F Jul 14

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    I sometimes debate whether it's that I want to start again or if it's like I feel I have no other choice and the urges are too strong. I am 3.5 months clean and the last few days...
    ashricard ashricard 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 2

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    I can't believe that just a week into recovery, I'm slipping back into my old patterns. Skipping meals, purging, battling suicidal thoughts, etc. But the urges never really went...
    punicorn1 punicorn1 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 15

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    Don't posh me into falling in love with you again cause I have grown to strong to fall back into your and the fact that I don't want to be in love with you any more
    killerinsident killerinsident 13-15, F 4 days ago

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    They say "True love never dies". I agree. When I met Michael 41 years ago, he had just been hired as my coworker. He was a pain in the ***. Brash and opinionated, full of...
    angsty angsty 61-65, F 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    Secret account. I am slowly slipping back into depression. My father cannot accept me for who I am and judges me all the time. He hates that i am nerdy, awkward, and that i am not...
    awkwardteenbro awkwardteenbro 16-17, M Jul 12

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    Does anyone else with depression or ADHD have that problem with their family? Like they think "OK well you're on meds now so you should suddenly be your old happy, productive self...
    CaptainXeno CaptainXeno 31-35, F Jun 25

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    Depression is like a pit. Inside of the pit is a ladder. The ladder is very broken, but still climbable. The farther down in the pit you are, the worse depression is. You can get...
    ToBeAnOtaku101 ToBeAnOtaku101 16-17, F 3 Responses Jul 2

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    On a scale of one to ten, ten being the highest, my anxiety will always remain a 3 or 4. I have chosen to not allow depression and anxiety to take one more day. So I let it come...
    sunny3875 sunny3875 36-40, F Jul 5

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    Onehappygirl is the username I chose. They say that you can speak into existence & maybe then I will be happy one day & not just happy for an hour or a day, but for life. I'm so...
    onehappygirl onehappygirl 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 7

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    I do wanna fall in love again, but the next time I do it I've thought of some things I want to be different, and they are things I think should be reciprocal. I wish I could say I...
    greeneyedlady72 greeneyedlady72 41-45, F 19 Responses Jun 29

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    It's been an emotional couple of days, and I've been trying to figure out why I've been spiraling back into the very depression I've worked so hard to beat. Well now that I'm...
    nottheaveragegirl nottheaveragegirl 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 13

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    Honestly I just don't know anymore every time I try to be positive on life things just go bad again. Every since 7th grade things haven't been all that but things didn't really get...
    XFallingAngelX XFallingAngelX 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 13

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    I have suffered from depression for 3 years now. I have a friend that has been depressed for close to the same amount of time, but that I have known for many, many years. I try to...
    xBeautifulTragedy xBeautifulTragedy 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 8