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I Am Afraid I Will Fall Back Into My Depression Again

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 313 People

    Once And A While

    Ever since I was little I suffered from a chronic depression. I have more things now to keep my mind busy, I also love to help people who are also upset. I'm happier now but it back forth occasionally.
    TrevorNotSalander TrevorNotSalander 13-15, M Nov 8, 2013

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    Don'T Really Feel Depressed Anymore

    If I had to describe how I feel, I'd say just bitter and the occasional pang of excruciatingly loneliness. I've grown comfortable enough in my own company for that to ever kill me now. I'm not okay, but I'm a different kind of unstable now. It's not depression, it's just...
    deadmoon deadmoon 18-21, F Jun 7, 2013

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    Depression Again

    Oh no, Not depression again, I feared, This might happen, I seem, To just get out, Here I am again, Falling into depression, When will it ever end? When will I be free?
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M 1 Response Feb 2, 2012

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    Ups & Downs Of Life

    Life is so funny friendz, If u have wish to learn always then u have tremendous things to do This all things came into anyones mind when they are in high touch of their creativity & potential But one thing always fear in corner of mind The Depression is only thing who give nice...
    ashu4569 ashu4569 18-21, M Mar 19, 2012

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    I already have. I was slowly getting out

    if it but I just fell into a black hole and couldn't get out. I now know it's where I belong. Being surrounded by black.
    SavedByBands SavedByBands 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 26, 2014

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    I Fell.... =(

    I fell into 'hibernation' mode for a week recently. ignoring exams, school, work or any contact with humans and technology. Locked up in my room. Phone dead. I slept for 5 days straight, having a bite of my tub of gummi bears and a shot of liquor when I woke up, brushed my teeth...
    redleaves redleaves 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 28, 2012

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    If I Do

    I am not taking meds again.
    musared musared 16-17, F Aug 28, 2009

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    Overcoming My Issues

    I went through my first bout of depression when I was ten. My grandmother (mom's mom), whom I was very close to, passed away. Hers was my first real experience with death. I basically shut down. I wouldn't eat, or sleep, or talk for a while. The depression did not last very long...
    ADreamerWithAPen ADreamerWithAPen 16-17, F May 13, 2012

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    Can I Trust Myself????

    I'm always afraid that I will never be good enough. How can I trust myself to make the right choice when I constantly seem to be making the wrong one?
    tigerlily1994 tigerlily1994 18-21, F Nov 23, 2013

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    Nothing Is Impossible.....its Yours To Change..

    I have realised that... some will be able relate to me of how numbness and emotionless one can be. But If you are able to relate to me.. It means, You do still have emotions, You still feel. However.. only you can change it. It could be a bad day, bad year. An incident. A...
    redleaves redleaves 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 16, 2012

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    This Describes Me Perfectly.

    I've been unmedicated for like 2 months. And right now, am slipping back into the anxiety and eating disordered thoughts, no purging, yet. It's scary though. It's a real fear. I don't want to go back there. I REALLY can do better than this. I am more than this. I am worthy of...
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 28, 2012

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    Hmmm

    I use to be confident and really couldn't care less of what people think but now I'm not so sure... I have and am recently being bullied by people on my soccer team. At first it really didn't get me but now it's just echo's in my head. I've been depressed before and it's not...
    HappyHuffy HappyHuffy 16-17, M Sep 14, 2013

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    What Makes You Cry...

    I am used to keeping so much to myself, because i didnt dare to tell anyone anymore, as i feel they were never interested in hearing me. I used to complain alot untill when i was in my young teens, 11-13 years of age, one of my friend told me to shut up. Till now it has...
    redleaves redleaves 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 27, 2009

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    I am sacrificing my love

    for my self Esteem. I love a guy madly but he don't holds the same feelings for me nor he understands my love and don't respects my feelings. It hurts me. I didn't want to accept it that he don't love me ,but he broke me. Facing the most painful phase of my life.
    sidu6 sidu6 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 26, 2014

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    Lost In Lust

    Sometimes i flinch when you try to touch me and you stop kissing me to ask me why i resist then you look into my eyes and see the tears naturally you ask whats wrong and naturally i make up excuses.. "oh the winds burning my eyes..." "...i'm just not in the mood today" i...
    lexi71912 lexi71912 13-15, F Nov 2, 2012

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    coming of my anti depressants im terrified i

    fall back into the pit of despair even tho i will still majorly depressed and suicidle whilst on my anti depressant :/ i know ill allways be depressed is there a way to embrace depression tho??
    maylane maylane 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 28, 2014

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    I Alreadhave...

    When I joined this group. I was High in my manic pharase. I have Bipolar, so I have a Lot of ups and downs, and its very hard to deal with it, when I am not on medication. Sadly, I have fallen back into the depression pit, due to it being the holiday, and hating the holiday, and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 4, 2009

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    Stuck In The Spell Of Inertia

    I am known for taking every assignment in this life as a goal and struggling hard  to achieve it. But however, since few months i am locked inside this spell of inertia which is not letting me to do anything. My life has changed drastically. I don't feel the interest of doing...
    haseebahsan haseebahsan 22-25, M Jul 20, 2011

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    sadly203 sadly203 18-21 4 Responses Jan 23

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    I am afraid of falling in love. Its like a skydive. The fall is exhilarating and exciting but once you crash rock bottom and you didn't pull the parachute , it hurts. Thats why...
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    A time before I was truly depressed, I was worried about depression. I thought I was happy, bubbly, I liked living. Those moments where I would stare in the bathroom mirror with an...
    BridieNM BridieNM 13-15, F Jan 1

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