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I Am Afraid I Will Fall Back Into My Depression Again

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    Lost In Lust

    Sometimes i flinch when you try to touch me and you stop kissing me to ask me why i resist then you look into my eyes and see the tears naturally you ask whats wrong and naturally i make up excuses.. "oh the winds burning my eyes..." "...i'm just not in the mood today" i...
    lexi71912 lexi71912 13-15, F Nov 2, 2012

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    This Describes Me Perfectly.

    I've been unmedicated for like 2 months. And right now, am slipping back into the anxiety and eating disordered thoughts, no purging, yet. It's scary though. It's a real fear. I don't want to go back there. I REALLY can do better than this. I am more than this. I am worthy of...
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 70+, F 3 Responses Jan 28, 2012

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    Hmmm

    I use to be confident and really couldn't care less of what people think but now I'm not so sure... I have and am recently being bullied by people on my soccer team. At first it really didn't get me but now it's just echo's in my head. I've been depressed before and it's not...
    HappyHuffy HappyHuffy 16-17, M Sep 14, 2013

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    I Fell.... =(

    I fell into 'hibernation' mode for a week recently. ignoring exams, school, work or any contact with humans and technology. Locked up in my room. Phone dead. I slept for 5 days straight, having a bite of my tub of gummi bears and a shot of liquor when I woke up, brushed my teeth...
    redleaves redleaves 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 28, 2012

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    Ok so it's growing. I know it's coming.

    The last few days I have been so insanely frustrated and irritable - like the energy that fuels a child's tantrums. Now I'm feeling that subside to the flatness of no real emotion except general sadness. I'm loosing interest in everything, even the sexual energy that drives the...
    LowRise LowRise 41-45, M 2 Responses Mar 9

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    It really sucked. Last year of August,

    I fell into a depression for lots of reasons. It was hard to sustain a conversation with people without wanting to cry. I felt weightless(not literally) and I felt dead inside. I learned how to avoid it but it took some time. I hope no one feels like there's a low point in their...
    Amethyst09 Amethyst09 18-21, F Feb 19

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    Overcoming My Issues

    I went through my first bout of depression when I was ten. My grandmother (mom's mom), whom I was very close to, passed away. Hers was my first real experience with death. I basically shut down. I wouldn't eat, or sleep, or talk for a while. The depression did not last very long...
    ADreamerWithAPen ADreamerWithAPen 16-17, F May 13, 2012

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    Don'T Really Feel Depressed Anymore

    If I had to describe how I feel, I'd say just bitter and the occasional pang of excruciatingly loneliness. I've grown comfortable enough in my own company for that to ever kill me now. I'm not okay, but I'm a different kind of unstable now. It's not depression, it's just...
    deadmoon deadmoon 18-21, F Jun 7, 2013

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    Once And A While

    Ever since I was little I suffered from a chronic depression. I have more things now to keep my mind busy, I also love to help people who are also upset. I'm happier now but it back forth occasionally.
    TrevorNotSalander TrevorNotSalander 13-15, M Nov 8, 2013

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    I already have. I was slowly getting out

    if it but I just fell into a black hole and couldn't get out. I now know it's where I belong. Being surrounded by black.
    SavedByBands SavedByBands 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 26, 2014

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    Nothing Is Impossible.....its Yours To Change..

    I have realised that... some will be able relate to me of how numbness and emotionless one can be. But If you are able to relate to me.. It means, You do still have emotions, You still feel. However.. only you can change it. It could be a bad day, bad year. An incident. A...
    redleaves redleaves 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 16, 2012

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    hello everyone. i'm back.

    who has suffered from depression? it it not sooo easy to fall back? it seems like it never left.
    Wewerethereinthattime Wewerethereinthattime 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 21

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    My super close bf just dumped me yesterday

    and he was my best friend. I have no clue what to do with life. I guess I shall remain depressed forever!😞😔
    Bassdrumlife12 Bassdrumlife12 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 10

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    darn, too late.......

    ...already cutting again
    Eragon232 Eragon232 13-15, M 1 Response Mar 9

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    I fight everyday to keep myself from sinking

    back into depression. I block out a lot of things and I'm sure I'm only making things worse by doing that but I don't know what else to do. I hate taking pills, I don't drink, I don't do drugs, I have no friends. So what else is there for me to do?
    skipbaeless skipbaeless 26-30, F 2 Responses Feb 18

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    Who's that knock, knock,

    knocking at the door? - It's that old devious devil and his dark dog returning to stay a while. What fascinates me (and worries me deeply) about depression, or at least my experiences of it ,as I can't speak for others, is the total shift in perspective that can arise from...
    LowRise LowRise 41-45, M 1 Response Feb 18

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    coming of my anti depressants im terrified i

    fall back into the pit of despair even tho i will still majorly depressed and suicidle whilst on my anti depressant :/ i know ill allways be depressed is there a way to embrace depression tho??
    maylane maylane 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 28, 2014

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    Stuck In The Spell Of Inertia

    I am known for taking every assignment in this life as a goal and struggling hard  to achieve it. But however, since few months i am locked inside this spell of inertia which is not letting me to do anything. My life has changed drastically. I don't feel the interest of doing...
    haseebahsan haseebahsan 22-25, M Jul 20, 2011

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    Ups & Downs Of Life

    Life is so funny friendz, If u have wish to learn always then u have tremendous things to do This all things came into anyones mind when they are in high touch of their creativity & potential But one thing always fear in corner of mind The Depression is only thing who give nice...
    ashu4569 ashu4569 18-21, M Mar 19, 2012

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    I am sacrificing my love

    for my self Esteem. I love a guy madly but he don't holds the same feelings for me nor he understands my love and don't respects my feelings. It hurts me. I didn't want to accept it that he don't love me ,but he broke me. Facing the most painful phase of my life.
    sidu6 sidu6 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 26, 2014

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    I was depressed in third grade.

    .. Then again in sixth grade... Now I feel like I'm depressed again... How was i depressed in the third grade? I don't even ******* know.
    Spookitty Spookitty 13-15 1 Response Feb 19

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    What Makes You Cry...

    I am used to keeping so much to myself, because i didnt dare to tell anyone anymore, as i feel they were never interested in hearing me. I used to complain alot untill when i was in my young teens, 11-13 years of age, one of my friend told me to shut up. Till now it has...
    redleaves redleaves 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 27, 2009

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    Depression Again

    Oh no, Not depression again, I feared, This might happen, I seem, To just get out, Here I am again, Falling into depression, When will it ever end? When will I be free?
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M 1 Response Feb 2, 2012

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    I Alreadhave...

    When I joined this group. I was High in my manic pharase. I have Bipolar, so I have a Lot of ups and downs, and its very hard to deal with it, when I am not on medication. Sadly, I have fallen back into the depression pit, due to it being the holiday, and hating the holiday, and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 4, 2009

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    If I Do

    I am not taking meds again.
    musared musared 16-17, F Aug 28, 2009

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    Can I Trust Myself????

    I'm always afraid that I will never be good enough. How can I trust myself to make the right choice when I constantly seem to be making the wrong one?
    tigerlily1994 tigerlily1994 18-21, F Nov 23, 2013

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    Ive been feeling super lonely,

    i dont understand cuz my life is good and i have a fiance
    kait1121 kait1121 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 9

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    yes I am I'm experiencing it again lately all these negative thoughts, suicidal thoughts, I don't want to experience it again I want to live a normal life I want to be happy I don...
    Semiramis94 Semiramis94 18-21, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    I guess it's a bit too late for that now. I'm such a disappointment to myself and everyone around me.
    Skuggington Skuggington 16-17, M 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I broke up with my boyfriend last year. He was like no one else. We got along really well and i thought we're gonna marry soon. but thing didn't work out. and finally he broke up...
    hiltonconrad hiltonconrad 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 17

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    I'm not afraid of heights, I'm afraid of falling for you! #plottwist
    saeedalu saeedalu 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 15

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    We are all seeking that special person who is right for us. But if you have been through enough relationships, you begin to suspect there’s no right person, just different...
    Changeling79 Changeling79 36-40, F 1 Response Mar 21

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    so when I do fall i hope you catch me.
    goodwitch011070 goodwitch011070 41-45, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    Please i beg you, don't pick me up and then throw me down. I am not made of glass but can still shatter into pieces.
    human103 human103 16-17, M 1 Response Mar 14

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    Why does EP keep trying to force my Experience? The title is a lie for me, but EP keeps pushing my story into this section. I would accept love but know it won't happen and my...
    Perspicares Perspicares 61-65, M 2 Responses Mar 20

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    I was anorexic, I told my parents, they ruined my life and now I am back to pro ana. Can anyone help me retrain my brain? :)
    Sunshinetoday Sunshinetoday 16-17 Mar 8

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    I hate him right now ugh yenduendhhs
    lilbiatch lilbiatch 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 9

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    But it should be principal or viceprincipal who should cane kids. Or someone with just a discipline role. A feared figure. Not teachers. Teachers are for teaching.
    Danceofhours Danceofhours 41-45, M 3 Responses Mar 4

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    I forgot to take my medicine this morning. It's always surprising how quickly I slip back into depression.
    dartfrogged dartfrogged 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 20

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    He's always there. I hate him. In his long black coat and hat pulled down over how brow, covering his face. The lapels of his coat up and covering what the hat doesn't. He black...
    Gwall1234 Gwall1234 36-40, F 3 Responses Mar 12

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    This is a deep story for any girls who are insecure and don't want to admit it. Listen you're not alone. I have a best friend, I'm not gonna say her name but I'll just call her...
    Bassdrumlife12 Bassdrumlife12 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 10

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    It was she that came to me…In a dream I wish so often to be a reality….I came home to find she had beaten me home from a long day’s work.Exiting my car...
    nocool nocool 41-45, M 2 Responses Mar 18

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    I lost my job a couple of months ago, I really struggled and didn't meet up to things that were important. Unintentionally, I was so broken I didnt know what I was doing that time...
    AnthonyorTony AnthonyorTony 26-30, M 1 Response Mar 7

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    You know that point where you slip back into that same mindset?You take your medication, you try the techniques they teach you. But then just one thing just resets it back to the...
    Alexz72 Alexz72 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 20

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