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I Am Afraid I Will Fall Back Into My Depression Again

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    I am sacrificing my love

    for my self Esteem. I love a guy madly but he don't holds the same feelings for me nor he understands my love and don't respects my feelings. It hurts me. I didn't want to accept it that he don't love me ,but he broke me. Facing the most painful phase of my life.
    sidu6 sidu6 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 26

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    Lost In Lust

    Sometimes i flinch when you try to touch me and you stop kissing me to ask me why i resist then you look into my eyes and see the tears naturally you ask whats wrong and naturally i make up excuses.. "oh the winds burning my eyes..." "...i'm just not in the mood today" i...
    lexi71912 lexi71912 13-15, F Nov 2, 2012

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    I suppose there's always a possibility I will,

    but I can't let the fear rule my life
    lamaninja lamaninja 16-17, M 3 Responses Sep 27

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    Don'T Really Feel Depressed Anymore

    If I had to describe how I feel, I'd say just bitter and the occasional pang of excruciatingly loneliness. I've grown comfortable enough in my own company for that to ever kill me now. I'm not okay, but I'm a different kind of unstable now. It's not depression, it's just...
    deadmoon deadmoon 18-21, F Jun 7, 2013

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    Stuck In The Spell Of Inertia

    I am known for taking every assignment in this life as a goal and struggling hard  to achieve it. But however, since few months i am locked inside this spell of inertia which is not letting me to do anything. My life has changed drastically. I don't feel the interest of doing...
    haseebahsan haseebahsan 22-25, M Jul 20, 2011

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    What Makes You Cry...

    I am used to keeping so much to myself, because i didnt dare to tell anyone anymore, as i feel they were never interested in hearing me. I used to complain alot untill when i was in my young teens, 11-13 years of age, one of my friend told me to shut up. Till now it has...
    redleaves redleaves 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 27, 2009

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    Once And A While

    Ever since I was little I suffered from a chronic depression. I have more things now to keep my mind busy, I also love to help people who are also upset. I'm happier now but it back forth occasionally.
    TrevorNotSalander TrevorNotSalander 13-15, M Nov 8, 2013

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    This Describes Me Perfectly.

    I've been unmedicated for like 2 months. And right now, am slipping back into the anxiety and eating disordered thoughts, no purging, yet. It's scary though. It's a real fear. I don't want to go back there. I REALLY can do better than this. I am more than this. I am worthy of...
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 28, 2012

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    Hmmm

    I use to be confident and really couldn't care less of what people think but now I'm not so sure... I have and am recently being bullied by people on my soccer team. At first it really didn't get me but now it's just echo's in my head. I've been depressed before and it's not...
    HappyHuffy HappyHuffy 16-17, M Sep 14, 2013

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    If I Do

    I am not taking meds again.
    musared musared 16-17, F Aug 28, 2009

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    Can I Trust Myself????

    I'm always afraid that I will never be good enough. How can I trust myself to make the right choice when I constantly seem to be making the wrong one?
    tigerlily1994 tigerlily1994 18-21, F Nov 23, 2013

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    I already have. I was slowly getting out

    if it but I just fell into a black hole and couldn't get out. I now know it's where I belong. Being surrounded by black.
    SavedByBands SavedByBands 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 26

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    I Fell.... =(

    I fell into 'hibernation' mode for a week recently. ignoring exams, school, work or any contact with humans and technology. Locked up in my room. Phone dead. I slept for 5 days straight, having a bite of my tub of gummi bears and a shot of liquor when I woke up, brushed my teeth...
    redleaves redleaves 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 28, 2012

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    I Alreadhave...

    When I joined this group. I was High in my manic pharase. I have Bipolar, so I have a Lot of ups and downs, and its very hard to deal with it, when I am not on medication. Sadly, I have fallen back into the depression pit, due to it being the holiday, and hating the holiday, and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 4, 2009

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    coming of my anti depressants im terrified i

    fall back into the pit of despair even tho i will still majorly depressed and suicidle whilst on my anti depressant :/ i know ill allways be depressed is there a way to embrace depression tho??
    maylane maylane 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 28

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    Depression Again

    Oh no, Not depression again, I feared, This might happen, I seem, To just get out, Here I am again, Falling into depression, When will it ever end? When will I be free?
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M 1 Response Feb 2, 2012

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    Ups & Downs Of Life

    Life is so funny friendz, If u have wish to learn always then u have tremendous things to do This all things came into anyones mind when they are in high touch of their creativity & potential But one thing always fear in corner of mind The Depression is only thing who give nice...
    ashu4569 ashu4569 18-21, M Mar 19, 2012

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    Nothing Is Impossible.....its Yours To Change..

    I have realised that... some will be able relate to me of how numbness and emotionless one can be. But If you are able to relate to me.. It means, You do still have emotions, You still feel. However.. only you can change it. It could be a bad day, bad year. An incident. A...
    redleaves redleaves 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 16, 2012

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    Overcoming My Issues

    I went through my first bout of depression when I was ten. My grandmother (mom's mom), whom I was very close to, passed away. Hers was my first real experience with death. I basically shut down. I wouldn't eat, or sleep, or talk for a while. The depression did not last very long...
    ADreamerWithAPen ADreamerWithAPen 16-17, F May 13, 2012

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    Lord, please don't let me fall to someone who's not willing to catch me... cause honestly right now i can't afford another heartbreak.
    Moonembracingthesun Moonembracingthesun 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    This is something I don't understand. Love is a positive emotion. Yes sometimes a relationship breaks apart but that's life. Now days all of these screwed up young people don't...
    ValhallaAwaits ValhallaAwaits 18-21, M Nov 23

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    What going to happen when it ends? I'll be utterly and completely destroyed. I just don't even want to anticipate that pain.
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    Tonight is probably one of the worst nights of depression in awhile. I'm falling back into my depressed stage. Given free time to write what came out was a suicide note :/ not my...
    leaguegirl97 leaguegirl97 16-17, F 3 Responses Nov 26

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    I have struggled with major depression, as a direct result of complex high betrayal trauma, ever since I was a little girl. From the time I was 7 years old until the time I was 9...
    Aimee17 Aimee17 41-45, F 23 Responses Nov 18

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    timesoftrouble timesoftrouble 56-60, M 1 Response Nov 23

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    Today I'll find out. If I lived up to their standard in the background check, and if I can start next week. I'm bracing myself for a fall into the abyss of dark depression. If this...
    squirrelbounce squirrelbounce 41-45, F 6 Responses Dec 4

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    I think my sister is starting to hate me. I don't know what I did wrong and now I want to escape. She has been pointing out things that hurt me and I can't tell if she's just...
    Cranksta Cranksta 18-21, F Dec 1

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    I hate this..Ive been in this bed all day.Well I picked up a little let the dogs out.My head hurts back aches..im sick of thinking. I want to do nothing.I hate everything and...
    Nat32 Nat32 31-35, F 3 Responses Dec 9

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    I was winning. My lovely and I fought it away, its been at bay for two years, minus the inevitable relapse. This isn't relapse. I fought my depression by personifying it into a...
    TwentyTwoReasons TwentyTwoReasons 18-21, M 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I was winning. My lovely and I fought it away, its been at bay for two years, minus the inevitable relapse. This isn't relapse. I fought my depression by personifying it into a...
    TwentyTwoReasons TwentyTwoReasons 18-21, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I was winning. My lovely and I fought it away, its been at bay for two years, minus the inevitable relapse. This isn't relapse. I fought my depression by personifying it into a...
    TwentyTwoReasons TwentyTwoReasons 18-21, M 4 days ago

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    I fell in love. He said he did too. He decided he didn't want to love me anymore. He decided he didn't want my love anymore. His loss. I can do better anyways. He was a great guy...
    MidnightLaughter MidnightLaughter 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Recently a man who attends the same group CBT sessions as I told everyone that if he could just stop being sick and tired of feeling sick and tired, all would be well in his life...
    morea morea 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 23

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    When I was 14 I exercised a lot and lost around 2 stone, I felt more confident and love the feeling I got from exercising. It didn't last for long as I suffered from deep...
    lovetodraw19 lovetodraw19 18-21, F Nov 18

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    How can you get rid of depression without anyone knowing you had it and without going back into it because the issues in life thats making me depressed are still there and have...
    ymasxatl ymasxatl 22-25, F 8 Responses Nov 24

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    Half of the time, I'm ok. I'm not sad, Im not happy, I just feel there, like I'm going through the motions. Some days are better than others, and some days have a moment or two of...
    bandfreak26 bandfreak26 13-15, F Dec 2

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    SHOUT OUT TO EVERYONE WHO STILL TRIES TO GET BACK INTO THE SWING OF THINGS AFTER DEPRESSION HIT THEM HARD. THERE ISNT ENOUGH RECOGNITION FOR THOSE PEOPLE WHO KNOW THAT THEYRE GOING...
    frabsicoxx frabsicoxx 22-25, M Dec 9

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    I am NOT ASHAMED! And I never will be. I was a Prophetess and He create them as bold. He gives them boldness. I WILL NEVER, EVER BE ASHAMED! I will not. Please talk to your family...
    TracyNovember62014 TracyNovember62014 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 18

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    My chest hurts beyond belief. I didn't think hearing your voice would hurt this much. I spent 2 months, and I barely shed a tear my emotion's were absolutely numb. But you come...
    ofthisgirl90 ofthisgirl90 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 5

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    Dear angel Okay so a lot has happened in the last week. Things I would not have imagined it in my wildest dreams. The things i have done was unacceptable. My fear of losing u was...
    justlikejessejames justlikejessejames 36-40, M 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    I broke down in front of my mum again this week and she said that if I keep sliding further into depression she'll pull me out of school....she already has no idea how bad it...
    paledaisy paledaisy 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 23

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    I just had a baby, who is now 8 weeks old. It started off with the first big fight when I was under confinement at my mother's house. He tried to take me away from my mother's...
    lilithgarcia lilithgarcia 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 27

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    nathans872 nathans872 18-21, M 3 Responses Dec 7

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