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I Am Afraid I Will Fall Back Into My Depression Again

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    Don'T Really Feel Depressed Anymore

    If I had to describe how I feel, I'd say just bitter and the occasional pang of excruciatingly loneliness. I've grown comfortable enough in my own company for that to ever kill me now. I'm not okay, but I'm a different kind of unstable now. It's not depression, it's just...
    deadmoon deadmoon 18-21, F Jun 7, 2013

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    I Fell.... =(

    I fell into 'hibernation' mode for a week recently. ignoring exams, school, work or any contact with humans and technology. Locked up in my room. Phone dead. I slept for 5 days straight, having a bite of my tub of gummi bears and a shot of liquor when I woke up, brushed my teeth...
    redleaves redleaves 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 28, 2012

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    I Alreadhave...

    When I joined this group. I was High in my manic pharase. I have Bipolar, so I have a Lot of ups and downs, and its very hard to deal with it, when I am not on medication. Sadly, I have fallen back into the depression pit, due to it being the holiday, and hating the holiday, and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 4, 2009

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    Can I Trust Myself????

    I'm always afraid that I will never be good enough. How can I trust myself to make the right choice when I constantly seem to be making the wrong one?
    tigerlily1994 tigerlily1994 18-21, F Nov 23, 2013

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    Nothing Is Impossible.....its Yours To Change..

    I have realised that... some will be able relate to me of how numbness and emotionless one can be. But If you are able to relate to me.. It means, You do still have emotions, You still feel. However.. only you can change it. It could be a bad day, bad year. An incident. A...
    redleaves redleaves 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 16, 2012

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    Hmmm

    I use to be confident and really couldn't care less of what people think but now I'm not so sure... I have and am recently being bullied by people on my soccer team. At first it really didn't get me but now it's just echo's in my head. I've been depressed before and it's not...
    HappyHuffy HappyHuffy 13-15, M Sep 14, 2013

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    If I Do

    I am not taking meds again.
    musared musared 16-17, F Aug 28, 2009

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    Depression Again

    Oh no, Not depression again, I feared, This might happen, I seem, To just get out, Here I am again, Falling into depression, When will it ever end? When will I be free?
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M 1 Response Feb 2, 2012

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    What Makes You Cry...

    I am used to keeping so much to myself, because i didnt dare to tell anyone anymore, as i feel they were never interested in hearing me. I used to complain alot untill when i was in my young teens, 11-13 years of age, one of my friend told me to shut up. Till now it has...
    redleaves redleaves 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 27, 2009

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    Back And Forth

    I try so hard to be a good mom, good wife, and nice little home maker, but it's killing me. Sometimes I am happy, most times I am going nuts. Started taking a natural supplement to balance my moods... Hope it helps.
    Feb 11, 2013

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    Lost In Lust

    Sometimes i flinch when you try to touch me and you stop kissing me to ask me why i resist then you look into my eyes and see the tears naturally you ask whats wrong and naturally i make up excuses.. "oh the winds burning my eyes..." "...i'm just not in the mood today" i...
    lexi71912 lexi71912 13-15, F Nov 2, 2012

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    Once And A While

    Ever since I was little I suffered from a chronic depression. I have more things now to keep my mind busy, I also love to help people who are also upset. I'm happier now but it back forth occasionally.
    TrevorNotSalander TrevorNotSalander 13-15, M Nov 8, 2013

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    This Describes Me Perfectly.

    I've been unmedicated for like 2 months. And right now, am slipping back into the anxiety and eating disordered thoughts, no purging, yet. It's scary though. It's a real fear. I don't want to go back there. I REALLY can do better than this. I am more than this. I am worthy of...
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 28, 2012

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    coming of my anti depressants im terrified i

    fall back into the pit of despair even tho i will still majorly depressed and suicidle whilst on my anti depressant :/ i know ill allways be depressed is there a way to embrace depression tho??
    maylane maylane 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 28

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    Overcoming My Issues

    I went through my first bout of depression when I was ten. My grandmother (mom's mom), whom I was very close to, passed away. Hers was my first real experience with death. I basically shut down. I wouldn't eat, or sleep, or talk for a while. The depression did not last very long...
    ADreamerWithAPen ADreamerWithAPen 16-17, F May 13, 2012

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    Ups & Downs Of Life

    Life is so funny friendz, If u have wish to learn always then u have tremendous things to do This all things came into anyones mind when they are in high touch of their creativity & potential But one thing always fear in corner of mind The Depression is only thing who give nice...
    ashu4569 ashu4569 18-21, M Mar 19, 2012

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    Stuck In The Spell Of Inertia

    I am known for taking every assignment in this life as a goal and struggling hard  to achieve it. But however, since few months i am locked inside this spell of inertia which is not letting me to do anything. My life has changed drastically. I don't feel the interest of doing...
    haseebahsan haseebahsan 22-25, M Jul 20, 2011

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    Related Experiences

    Usually people who are afraid of falling in love are those who were left down by their boy/girlfriend. I'm this kind of persons who broke up in a relationship. I had 4 relationship...
    otoumie otoumie 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    It's possible to be a hopeless romantic and be afraid of falling in love, trusting someone, giving them your all and receiving nothing in return. A relationship can't be 300/0.
    whyusteens whyusteens 13-15, F Sep 5

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    I'm afraid of falling in love or getting married cause of the way the relationships around me have ended
    Gian422 Gian422 18-21, M 6 days ago

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    A long time ago I went to the doctors complaing of depression and a lack of motivation to live my life, they put me on medical benefits and left me there to rot. After 15years of...
    AltLexington AltLexington 36-40, M 1 Response Sep 5

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    I am falling in love again.Slamming the hours one to one. Passing by.I wonder if our time will run out again? No!This time I'll be cautious.We'll be friends.I will watch you how...
    banquet banquet 18-21 Sep 5

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    I just can't risk getting rejected again and again
    rushman5 rushman5 13-15, M 4 days ago

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    I'm not afraid it's just I've loved people who don't return the affection "love is unrequited"(act 1 scene 1 of Romeo and Juliet)
    shaun987 shaun987 16-17, M 6 days ago

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    I don't want to because I already had a horribly break up to someone I actually loved for real for the first time since I was 8 I'm 14 now but there's one probly I'm attracted to...
    drew725 drew725 13-15, M 6 days ago

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    My "best friend" tried to rape me when I was 12, I don't want something like happen again, where someone I thought I could trust betrays me. But I'm not sure I could avoid it if a...
    KamiTheBear KamiTheBear 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 6

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    ok, pull a log up to the campfire.... it was a misty gray morning in Michigan, 11 years ago, when I went into work..... I walked in and saw a handsome man talking to one of my...
    DreamChristine DreamChristine 31-35, F 5 Responses Aug 24

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    I freely admit I enjoy administering corporal punishment, but that doesn't make it less of a punishment for the recipient. I think the cane should be brought back in to the school...
    lilgirls lilgirls 41-45, M 3 Responses Sep 8

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    I'll be back one day soon with the voice clip of you coming Vickieprince. Then what will you say to your man and your friends on here.
    itsonlyyouknowwhoagain itsonlyyouknowwhoagain 46-50, M 4 days ago

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    It's scary because I never wanted to be that girl that had millions and billions of boyfriends before she got married I didn't and still don't want to break others hearts or have...
    livelovehopefree livelovehopefree 13-15, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Actually 10 plus years ago my brother called & asked for a sizable loan. The agreement said, that we both signed, that I would charge him interest. Initially he paid a little. Put...
    orca4950 orca4950 61-65, M 2 Responses Aug 30

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    once my laptop situation is solved.
    TheVirginRapids TheVirginRapids 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    once my laptop situation is solved.
    TheVirginRapids TheVirginRapids 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    once my laptop situation is solved.
    TheVirginRapids TheVirginRapids 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    once my laptop situation is solved.
    TheVirginRapids TheVirginRapids 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    once my laptop situation is solved.
    TheVirginRapids TheVirginRapids 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    once my laptop situation is solved.
    TheVirginRapids TheVirginRapids 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    I'm falling into depression again. I can feel it. I feel like I wanna die rather then go through this again. Idk if I'll be able to take it. I just need some help !!
    kitkatally kitkatally 16-17, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    GO FOR IT, I'm bored and need to just get back into EP again.
    Nior18 Nior18 18-21, M Sep 11

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    I promised myself that when I felt that I had truly overcame my disorder, that I would share my story with those that are currently suffering Let me give a little background...
    dnicolee dnicolee 18-21, F Sep 2

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    When I met her, I was hurled suddenly into paradise; ineffable joy penetrated my life. She came into my world and lit it up, abruptly terminating the darkness that preceded her...
    PhiliaSophia PhiliaSophia 18-21, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I've had an okay day, woke up pretty late, Haven't had more that 2 up's today.. I was depressed the rest of the time.. But I prefer the constant depression, it hurts way to much to...
    Lily449 Lily449 18-21, F 4 Responses Sep 6

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    The bad thing about depression is that one is fine one day and then boom she has snuck back into one's life uninvited yet again. I am telling her she is not welcome. I am fighting...
    JoannaBe JoannaBe 41-45, F 5 Responses Sep 11

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    This is me at 2 years and a half - my parents separated at age 3 or so - and was sent to stay at my grand mum , it was the first time I had suffered depression , missing my parents...
    stephenrko stephenrko 31-35, M Aug 30

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    I will need to start doing the things that counteract depression again: exercise, light therapy, mindfulness. I am not depressed now. In the past I have always waited until it was...
    JoannaBe JoannaBe 41-45, F 2 Responses Aug 22

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    So it's been a while since I've been here, it's almost the end of summer, and that means it's time to look back and reminisce. I've again stumbled upon something that has been...
    Zoey09 Zoey09 16-17, F Aug 24

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    Do you remember a time where I was just a few feet and even years older than you? When I could wake up every day and play with you without the fear of judgment. You had accumulated...
    SylenaEverlasting SylenaEverlasting 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 27

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    Once i get my hopes togheter it falls apart , i'm afraid to love people i'm afraid to get my hopes togheter again , i'm afraid that i will expect to much
    ActuallyGrace ActuallyGrace 13-15, F Sep 7

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    The past couple of days seems like they have been extra hard to get through. I got into another verbal argument with my mom last night. No surprise there. I feel like we are always...
    lookingtovent lookingtovent 16-17, F Sep 9

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