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I Am Afraid Of Becoming An Alcoholic

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    Yes I Am.

    I am afraid of becoming an alcoholic. Alcoholism runs in my family. My father's Step-mom and dad are both recovering alcoholics. My mother's Mother, and Step-Dad are borderline alcoholics. My father is a recovering alcoholic, who still drinks here and there, and when he does, he...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Feb 28, 2013

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    It's a Depressant...

    Alcohol is a depressant... it may bring you up for a while, but overall it will bring you down. I've been through depressioin and each day is a struggle after depression.  Any thing could bring me right back to where I was two years ago.  Alcohol could possibly...
    debrarose debrarose 18-21, F 6 Responses Mar 23, 2009

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    I drink, often alone,

    mainly just to calm down my nerves. And I love that feeling. Drinking gets me calm, worrying about less. Can't seem to relax totally and properly without it. I'm worried about my future - of becoming an alcoholic, or even worse, a drug abuser.
    dysfori dysfori 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 26, 2014

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    Family..

    A lot of people on both sides of my family have problems with Alcohol. But I won't become an alcoholic.. And therefore I don't drink anything at all :)
    deleted deleted 26-30 Mar 1, 2008

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    I Truly Am Afraid.

    My name is Emily, I am 15 years old. I have severe ADHD. But I may also think that I have an alcohol problem. I don't drink with friends or whatever, but I do drink when I'm home alone. When I don't drink, I feel incomplete and empty, on edge and paranoid. I know it's wrong and I...
    EmilyNicoleC EmilyNicoleC 16-17, F Aug 30, 2013

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    Usually the Way

    It's usually the way that ends most of the lives in my family. My cousin's in gaol because of drugs and drink. My great grandad died of alcohol poisoning, so did my uncle and another cousin. My Dad's only recently beaten his alcohol addiction. My Grandad died of a heart attack...
    Luangi Luangi 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 9, 2007

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    I enjoy that warm feeling you get,

    and the fact that it helps numb your senses. I've got problems with depression, so alcohol helps me numb the pain. I suppose it's a good thing I can't buy it yet, otherwise I'm afraid I'd get In the habit of drowning my sorrows each and every night..
    JHomesick JHomesick 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 8, 2014

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    Alky

    I am a alcholic the only reason i am on here cause my freind pushd me and believe me u got nothing to worry about
    blackville blackville 22-25 3 Responses Jul 23, 2011

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    Ya

    It's all over my family. Grandfather was an alcoholic. Died at age 58. It was the reason I never got to meet him. Aunts, cousins. And thats just on my mom's side. More on my dad's. Maybe my brother is becoming one. Maybe I'll be next. It's scary. I don't want anything...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jan 5, 2008

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    Contagious

    My mother and father are and I am watching my brothers do it now... it makes me worried.
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality 36-40, F Nov 22, 2007

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    I Think I Might Be Sinking.

    I have easy access to alcohol here.  I have been drinking almost every night.  I don't do it because it tastes good, either.  I do it because I desire numbness.  Addiction is so bad in my family.  I don't know of a person who isn't hooked on...
    BellasHappyPlace BellasHappyPlace 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 3, 2010

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    Totally....

    i am totally scared of be coming an alcholic, my father was one, my grandfather was one, so it really does run int he family, and im not even 21 years old yet, and i like to drink, i like to drink heavily too, but it has never made my life worse, or interputed it or something...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Mar 22, 2010

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    Addictive Personality

    I have such an addictive personality that I think I could be addicted to just about anything. I do worry about becoming an alcoholic because when I am stressed or upset I tend to turn to alcohol. Recently though I have done sooo well! I haven’t been drunk in a while and I...
    AWUK AWUK 26-30, F 7 Responses Dec 9, 2007

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    Almost Everyone In My Family Is

    i'm scared of becoming an alcoholic because it seems to run in the family. My mom's dad was an alcoholic and so were most of his brothers and his dad. My grandma was an alcoholic. My dad's dad is an alcoholic. (i don't know my other grandma tho) my mom and dad are both alcoholics...
    yana1 yana1 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 22, 2007

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    I am afraid of becoming an alcoholic.

    Its a main reason why I try not to drink so much. When I lost my daughter, I did not handle it the best way. Instead of turning to my friends and family to help me get through the months, I turned to jack, Jack Daniels that is. We were best friends, really buddy buddy. It almost...
    NYSlilAngel NYSlilAngel 26-30, F Mar 21, 2014

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    I'm 15 and I drink way too much.

    I spend a lot of money on it every week. I also have depression and anxiety, and am taking anti-depressants. I always have the worst anxiety the day after I drink, but I still can't quit drinking. It's getting to the point where if someone is drinking around me, I always ask...
    shesthebosss shesthebosss 16-17, F Mar 18, 2014

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    My Father

    I am scared shitless of becoming like my Dad and his negative ways. Alcohol is one of them so in order to not become an alcoholic, I rarely drink anymore and luckily, I don't have the desire to do so. My dad is an alcoholic and wasn't so nice all the time so I'm trying to avoid...
    AuntTammy AuntTammy 26-30, F 3 Responses Jul 14, 2008

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    Runs In the Family?

    I dont want to be like my family when it comes to drinking. My mom, one of my uncles, one of my aunts, and my cousians drink all the time. I honestly think that my mom is the worse. I dont want to be like them. When i go out i will have a drink and the i get afraid and think can...
    Darkfarey Darkfarey 18-21, F 5 Responses Aug 15, 2009

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    Ya I Guess I Am....

    i am afraid of becoming an alcoholic, both my grandparents on my dad's side are recovering alcoholics, my dad is an alcoholic, he says he was a recovering alcoholic, but he still drinks...a lot! it runs in the family, my mother father is an alcholic, its just in the blood of...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jul 7, 2009

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    I Was Sure I Didn't Have An Addictive Personality

    Now I'm starting to worry. I was addicted to a drug at one point, then realized that I didn't NEED it and now only do it when I want to. When I had a job I drank almost everyday afterward and every weekend. I am broke right now, out of a job and am...
    cocaineoctopus cocaineoctopus 18-21 2 Responses Mar 22, 2009

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    Yes It Indeed Runs In the Family...

    mummy (recovering alcoholic.. i'm so proud of her ^_T) daddy aunts uncles i think my grandma was one too O.O and i dont drink... i think its a disgusting habit.. and plus i'm under aged for drinking... but it runs in the family.. and i dont want to become an alcoholic T-T...
    MorbidxMalice MorbidxMalice 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 11, 2008

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    It Runs In The Family

    Believe it or not, descendants of alcoholics can be more susceptible to alcohol abuse.  My family is proof. Every generation on my mom's side of the family has had an alcoholic in it (thankfully neither of my parents have been alcoholics.)  My great-great-grandfather...
    smoothiefueledrampage smoothiefueledrampage 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 5, 2007

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    Everyone Else Is

     in my family.....why not me. I should just drink myself to death like those before me.   somedays i just want to drink all 3 bottles of tequila at once....
    Tacit Tacit 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 29, 2008

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    lost for a long time

    i am an alcoholic its taken a long time to get well an that ther is a life after drink thank god people have been  good to me and have waited for my recovery a day at a time its been 5 years since i last had a drink for anyone thats struggling  hang in it gets better...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Mar 28, 2010

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    Learning About Drunk Me

    I have been hearing stories from people who party with me about what kind of person I am when I'm drunk.  Apparently I'm a lot of fun, silly, dancy, etc., which is fine, but I'm also seductive and massively flirtatious with both boys and girls.  This is okay now because...
    lokilux lokilux 26-30, F Mar 22, 2009

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