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I Am Afraid of Becoming Too Close to Others

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    There is always a line.  It is there and it changes all the time.  For some the line is very clear, for others it is harder to see, even by me.  It may even be almost invisible.  Sometimes I forget about the line altogether.  When I trust someone, I...
    moreandless moreandless 56-60, M Jun 1, 2010

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    It Never Lasts For Long.

    I feel like the moment I've started getting close to someone, they end up pushing me away.  It just always seems to happen that way. I think I know why...  I'm just too nosy for people and I guess I'm not trustworthy enough.  In addition, most people like...
    oliveoil2007 oliveoil2007 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 11, 2008

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    Call It What You Want

    Some say that my "spiritual ability" is a curse. I dont think they understand. Being tormented by demons, harassed by those of black magic, it is all tolerable if, there is someone there for you. someone who knows pretty much everything about you. someone you love. Now, lots of...
    Celea136 Celea136 13-15, F 1 Response May 3, 2012

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    I Always Put My Ugly Face On

    I will be mean, and push you away. Its like a defense mechanism, i don't want you to hurt me. So people that want to be apart of my life will have to work a lil harder for me to open up. I've meet ****** people and trusted ****** people and then you get **** on. I don't want it...
    UnderTheBridge UnderTheBridge 22-25, F May 10, 2011

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    Its Just Not Worth It

     letting people get close to you, in the end they hurt you or leave you or both.its happened so often Ive grown used to it.I expect you to disappoint me, abandon me. if i do, then i wont be so hurt when you leave right? right? it wont hurt so much right? after all i expected...
    kittycat101303 kittycat101303 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 17, 2009

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    My Fear

    I have never been close to anyone in my life. My parents hate me and I'm sure they hate me now more then they did before. I'm an only child, so I don't have that bond siblings sometimes have.Friends or at least real life friends are out of the question too. I've always been...
    InmemoryofLifelessStar InmemoryofLifelessStar 18-21, F 1 Response May 10, 2011

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    Stay Back

     I always distance myself from others. I fear getting too close to others because then they can really hurt me when they disappear. I find it hard to trust.  Sometimes it does get really sad living a life like this. I yearn for that closeness too but when I try, it...
    reset reset 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 16, 2009

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    Big Time...

    I am actually terrifeid about getting close to others. I am scared to let somoene in, and let them get close to me. Recently I have regretted big time letting almost everyone that I am close to, because I got hurt really bad. I am so scared of getting hurt, and so scared that...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 17, 2009

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    DWevolved DWevolved 16-17, M 2 Responses Mar 10

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    I'm Really Selective.

    Every time I trust someone, they give me so many reasons why I shouldn't. So I just don't trust anybody. And it's more difficult than people may realize, but it's the only way it's been getting me by. A lot of people say that they'll be together forever, but forever ends too soon...
    xxbangbangxx xxbangbangxx 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 17, 2013

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    Yes, Abandoment Issues.

    It's been my personal experience that whenever I get close to someone, they will disappear from my life.  My mother left me when i was 6, and I lived with my aunt and uncle for the next 9 years.  Then they decided to ship me halfway across the country to a different...
    chocchipkookie93 chocchipkookie93 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 25, 2008

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    Reasons..

    I am afraid of becoming too close to others for a few reasons that all tie into each other: I cannot trust people. I am afraid that if I trust people they'll let me down. Every act of kindness towards me I skew into "they don't care, they're doing it for their own good...
    DisasterSitcom DisasterSitcom 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 15, 2009

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    I'm Just Such a Private Person

    I'm a private person in many ways.  It takes me a while to get close to people and to trust them, but once I do, I open up and I'm fine.  The thing is, the closer I get to someone, the more I let them in and divulge private info about myself, the more vulnerable I feel...
    trixi trixi 41-45, F 4 Responses Feb 12, 2008

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    Betrayed

    my beat friend leaved me all alone . i used to trust her more than myself now i would not trust any one so easily
    mystyraine mystyraine 16-17, F Apr 24, 2013

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    No Clue

    MY FAMILY HAS NO CLUE TO HOW THIS MEDICAL AND MENTAL ISSUES HAS TAKEN OVER MY LIFE.I DON'T HAVE FRIENDS AND DONT ASSOCIATE WITH FAMILY OTHER THAN MY MOTHER AND MAYBE 2 OF MY SISTERS OUT THE 4.MY SON HAS AUSTISM AND ADHD AND HE TELLS ME HE LOVES ME ONE MINUTE AND HATES ME THE NEXT...
    ccstruggledaily ccstruggledaily 36-40, F 2 Responses Mar 25, 2012

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    A Loner?

    For as long as I can remember I've been afraid of getting to close to others, simply cause I always end up with a knife in my back, punch in the stomach or a broken heart..just now, a guy that I really like stopped talking to me..I really liked him and we were really close..oh...
    beautifulbaby069 beautifulbaby069 18-21, F 8 Responses Apr 8, 2012

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    I Dont Get Too Close Anymore

    Recently so many people have mistreated me in ways that hurts me. I don't know if they're aware of what they're doing to me or they just don't give a ****. Either way, I believe I know what they did to me. In so little time people have not treated me with honesty or the respect...
    noaht43 noaht43 41-45, T 1 Response Nov 11, 2013

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    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 22, 2013

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    The Broken Hearted

    i am afraid to get to get too close to a women because im tired of getting hurt
    mrleonford mrleonford 26-30 Apr 8, 2013

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    Raw Action.

    And here's my story...when I was younger..I was molested by my cousin. I really didn't think it effected me that much and really didn't change much when I was younger. I've always been a chubby kid and always got picked on. I never really got close to anyone because everyone...
    beautifulbaby069 beautifulbaby069 18-21, F 1 Response May 21, 2012

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    I don't feel like getting my feelings hurt

    or being judged for being different. I don't want to be taken advantage of because I don't want others to be see me as weak and vulnerable. I don't trust very much and I doubt most people's intentions. I say I'll reject them before they get a chance to reject me.
    ajrestless ajrestless 22-25, F Sep 1, 2014

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    Scared.

    ive been afraid to be close to people because my first bestfriend betrayed me, and pretty much every other friend ive had has. or they have walked out of my life. i have a very hard time expressing myself to my boyfriend because im afraid ill say something stupid and he will...
    atreyuxo atreyuxo 16-17 2 Responses Dec 16, 2009

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    Goodbyes....

    No-one wants them to last and they never want to say it to some people they love. I am one of them but I did say it but haven't survived saying it yet, people always in the end leave me, when I feel I have someone a friend/family member/boyfriend who I love with all my life and...
    LoveLife05 LoveLife05 18-21, F Jan 25, 2011

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    Can you blame me? Father walked out on us

    when I was 3, I was molested by a relative at 8, bullied from elementary school up until HS. String of intensely close friendships where they ended up disappearing or bullied by their gf's to end the friendship with me, many many many lovers who of course never stuck around...
    Lov3intheasylum Lov3intheasylum 31-35, F 1 Response Aug 28, 2014

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    This actually terrifies me. I'm not at all new to the pain game, and I've had my fair share of horrible relationships. They are supposed to make me grow and I'm supposed to learn...
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    I love to serve people and will usually do anything just to see a smile on someone's face, IF they are one of the select few I actually care for. Sometimes I wonder if I would...
    rosesandcharlie rosesandcharlie 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 1

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    Currently, I find myself with no friends. I have acquaintances, but no actual friends. I have drifted apart from most of the close friends I used to have. I made most of my friends...
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    I'm not completely closeted i have come out to my parents some years back. They are a mixture of confused and accepting. I think they believe its a phase so they don't have to deal...
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    There is a girl named Angelina at my school, she is spoiled rich and mean. My friends say that shes jealous of me or something but either way she treats others like trash. Not just...
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    I hate myself and know that one day, regardless of me wanting to live that I will have to call it Quits... In other stories, I ask that you pick up on facts...and if you come...
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    I am getting worried for myself because of the time i spend on my computer reading fanfiction and ****. I know i am a teenager and sometimes it may be perfectly normal for me to do...
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