I Am Afraid of Being Myself

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 216 People

    Someone who I considered my friend

    once called me an awful and mean person. It was after I had begun to come out my shell and act like myself around them. This was not the first time I've been called adjectives you would use to describe a monstrous person(?). When I think about it, people tend to lose interest...
    KittyxGummyBear KittyxGummyBear
    18-21, F
    May 10, 2014

    But I Be Myself Anyway!!

    sometimes i am afraid to be myself, cos i never seem to fit in anywhere, cos sometimes society makes me feel bad for wanting to be me. but then i think to myself..."hold on a minute" this is my life,i'll live it the way i want to live it,i'll be who i want to be,i'll make my...
    cowshed123 cowshed123
    36-40, M
    1 Response Jul 25, 2012

    Isn't It Funny?

    That the more you conform to what you think others want you to be, the less validation you feel/receive? The harder you try to please "them" the more they put you down? In giving everything to someone - especially when it's what you WANT to give - neither the gift nor the...
    BozoBuckets BozoBuckets
    51-55, M
    2 Responses Oct 22, 2012

    Scared First, Regret Later

    I am 21 and I am still struggling to find out who I actually am. I am afraid too reveal myself in front of others. Am afraid to reveal my Humourous and righteous side in front of the public, even to my colleagues which makes me alien to them. I dont know what stop me from...
    chanky18 chanky18
    18-21, M
    3 Responses Mar 20, 2010

    I know that I'm a good person

    but I'm afraid that people won't like me for me.
    ImJustANobody ImJustANobody
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Apr 20, 2015

    Feeling Crazy

    I lost my brother to suicide 2 years ago.  I am very sad about this.  Recently in therapy I have begun to discuss having been molested as a child.  I now see phallic symbols EVERYWHERE! (Including that last "!" , in letters, numbers, etc.) It's really...
    ifeelcrazi ifeelcrazi
    36-40, M
    1 Response Sep 4, 2007

    I can't even be myself lately I used to be a

    very open person now I just don't feel like talking anymore about anything
    bobbyespe2 bobbyespe2
    22-25, M
    Apr 10

    I am afraid of showing my true self to the

    world... I sincerely show my feeling to my friends but.. I am afraid of being me.. I don't hate me but I'm afraid other people would hate me...
    hooncaramello hooncaramello
    18-21, F
    Aug 27, 2014

    OK

    I have never done this before so please bear with me. I think I'm not only afraid of being myself I am afraid of myself. The thing is I don't think I really know who I am I think I have hidden my true self for so long that I have forgotten...
    boodrea85 boodrea85
    22-25
    1 Response Aug 1, 2009

    The Other Side

    Most of my classmates recognize me as being that shy nerdy kid who kind of just sits in the background and never wants to participate in group work. My friends all know me as that shy nerdy kid who can get to be very boisterous when surrounded by people she knows and loves...
    DemonVampire180 DemonVampire180
    18-21, F
    Dec 13, 2011

    Scattered

    I've always worked to be like everyone else so that they will like me, because frankly, opposites don't attract. Mimicking is my game, and I look at people and become a part of what I like from that person. Sadly, this has made me feel scattered and confused. I don't think that...
    bobalob4 bobalob4
    18-21, M
    Jul 20, 2012

    ...

    I don't know how it started or when it started, but sometime a long time ago it did. I invent myself to the approval of others and then i break myself down and invent someone else again- this cycle has been going on ever since i can remember. I can't trust myself to open up to...
    desieyez desieyez
    18-21, F
    7 Responses Aug 16, 2007

    I was always had a hard time making friends

    when I was young..maybe it was my race chinese/caucasion..or more so my personality..I don't know. All I know is that I only could get along with guys and a lot of people disliked me. I couldn't figure out why But I've come to a conclusion..I was a hella of a selfish person. and...
    XxSxarletxX XxSxarletxX
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 17, 2015

    But I Be Myself Anyway!!

    sometimes i am afraid to be myself, cos i never seem to fit in anywhere, cos sometimes society makes me feel bad for wanting to be me. but then i think to myself..."hold on a minute" this is my life,i'll live it the way i want to live it,i'll be who i want to be,i'll make my...
    cowshed123 cowshed123
    36-40, M
    1 Response Jul 25, 2012

    I am almost never being myself.

    I am constantly editing who I am to accommodate the people around me.
    JAnnaScan JAnnaScan
    31-35, F
    Apr 9

    Running With An Older Crowd

    I have an older brother who is 4 years older than me.  He has a lot of older friends who we hang out with, but for some reason I just can't be myself around them!  And I know I have so much to give but I can't seem to convince myself of that.  I read once that you...
    blondy13013 blondy13013
    22-25
    2 Responses Nov 10, 2008

    Afraid of Who I Am

    I go to a VERY judge mental high school. Every day i go to school i feel like someone is talking about me. when i go to talk i act like someone im not. Invinting new little things ive "done before", Im not a liar but i was scared of what they all may think. I dont even...
    Theloss Theloss
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Oct 30, 2007

    My "friends" from school made me self-conscious,

    by telling me that I don't have style, that I'm ugly, when I walk threw hallways, some of my enemies say I'm blind, cuz I wear glasses. That's not cool guys! And I think glasses are such a cute accessory! One of my pretend friends, told me ,,To be honest, Angela, I am hotter...
    Dramhunter Dramhunter
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jul 26, 2015

    Constant Battle Inside.

    I'm at a constant battle with myself. I'm naturally more quiet but honest when I'm with people, yet I always feel like that's not good enough. Like it's not the "right" way to be. I feel like I have to be more agressive and loud and quit-witted with the bantering because those...
    lostinwunderland lostinwunderland
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jul 13, 2010

    Trying To Get Out Of It

    I have always feared what others thought of me, coming down on myself if I thought something was wrong. I have read a couple of books by David Viscott and it has helped. There is still much that needs to be done for the fear to go away forever.
    asert12345678 asert12345678
    31-35, M
    Jan 9, 2013
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