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I Am Afraid of Cancer

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 363 People

    Hypochondriac But Iatrophobic Too

    When I was younger, I read books by Lurlene McDaniel.  I remember knowing that some symptoms of leukemia were tiredness, high white blood cell count, and unexplained bruising.  I could not check my blood cells obviously but I always checked for the other two. ...
    Sncats Sncats 26-30, F Jun 1, 2009

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    Always On My Mind

    Hi all-- Glad to find somewhere I can at least write these things and get them out of my head. My mother died of esophagul (sp?) cancer when I was 21. I am now 37. My father died from bladder cancer when I was 31. 2 years ago my husband was diagnosed with leukemia. My mother...
    Weeez Weeez 36-40 2 Responses Aug 26, 2008

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    The Dreaded C -word

    Hey gang, well first let me say Cancer who needs it Who wants it Nobody.. Unfortunately this is the real world and people do get cancer. I am proud to call myself a 10 year survivor. But that day in the Dr. Office when he hit me with the “you’ve got cancer, aggressive and I...
    skychef skychef 61-65, M 1 Response May 26, 2012

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    Sent Me Into a Tailspin

    My Aunt died of "it" last year, we never knew, even though she had been to doctors, who were all wrong. Hypertention, Bronchitis and the change of life were all to blame for her symptoms. They were all wrong. I miss her so much and I used fear everyday for my own health...
    sooblessed sooblessed 31-35 1 Response May 26, 2008

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    I Am Not Afraid, ...

    ... I am just saddened by it. I have lost many close people to this disease.  
    kowpoke61 kowpoke61 46-50, M 2 Responses Dec 22, 2009

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    One Of My Fears

    I am so afraid of getting cancer.... I just keep thinking about how many of my family members have died due to all the different types of cancer. I think about what an awful thing it must be to go through... But then I think about how it didn't kill you it would make you a...
    allaboutfriends allaboutfriends 18-21, F Dec 22, 2009

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    All In The Family

    My granmother on my moms side granfather on my fathers side my little brother many aunts and uncles..I am probley going to end up with it one day
    mulder mulder 26-30 1 Response May 17, 2012

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    Hey I need help. it's URGENT!

    My doctor was concerned in the past because my last blood test my thyroid was on the line. Not bad not good but she was worried it was getting worse since things were happening and the blood test was a year ago. I've been having symptoms my doctor said I need to get a blood test...
    shybutkindd shybutkindd 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 23

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    It Scares Me

    My Grandfather passed away about 30 years ago from what they said was old age. He smoked unfiltered cigarettes, 2-3 packs a day, for almost all his 70 years. All in my family think cancer was the cause of his death. My Grandmother died 40 years ago from heart problem. My Mom...
    Josie06 Josie06 56-60, F 3 Responses Jul 17, 2008

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    I Am Afraid Of Cancer

    I've had so many bad pap smears--- and that combined with losing my brother, father, aunt, and grandmother to cancer has me on the edge.  I manage my fear well by eating right (stopped eating meat), exercising regularly, keeping my stress levels down, having fun (woohoo...
    VoyagetoAtlantis VoyagetoAtlantis 36-40, F 2 Responses May 13, 2010

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    Deaths

    My aunt has been diagnosed with cancer. I am afraid; afraid that she will pass away, afraid that she will give up. She had been so strong in the beginning, but I think her willpower is dying out. She tells me, I am very tired. She tells me, my stomach hurts. She tells me...
    pleasestay pleasestay 13-15 Jan 9, 2013

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    I Think My Mom Has Cancer

    First post ever... not sure how this works... Earlier today, my mother mentioned some symptoms she has had for years. They are very concerning symptoms that should be checked out as soon as they occur... and now it is literally YEARS later. All of her other seemingly minor...
    missmollie123 missmollie123 26-30, F Oct 22, 2012

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    It Just Started With Strange Things...

    I started having severely heavy periods, and my uterus caused me pain almost all of the time, through the whole cycle. I sometimes bled for a day to 2 at a time between my periods. A couple of other symptoms popped up, but I won't go into detail. But I finally decided it was time...
    Proud2bher Proud2bher 18-21, F Dec 6, 2011

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    A Really Irrational Fear

    I used to have a reasonably mild case of OCD, but I managed to get myself out of it, I still have it slightly about some things but I'm not as bad as I was.  However my irrational fear of cancer borders on OCD, whenever I think about it I have to touch a certain object that...
    juniper juniper 21-25, F 9 Responses Feb 2, 2008

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    Scared

    i am afraid of it because i have had it, i have i breast removed, had chimotherapy. doctors say i am ok but i am still worried. now i want to have a child but i guess i am not able too, at least for awhile if not forever....have husband, 6 years old son from first marriage. i am...
    natia natia 36-40 Sep 10, 2008

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    Tomorrow

    Tomorrow I find out if my mother, a non smoker who is not yet even sixty years old, has lung cancer. If she does, it is probably advanced. I don't want to lose my mom, and I'm afraid. To be quite selfishly frank, I also am afraid because if she does have lung cancer, my...
    silvermoon silvermoon 31-35 2 Responses Mar 17, 2010

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    Will I Get Cancer Again??

    MY young brother died of lung cancer at the age of 18,It was a terrible time for us all and i had always thought i would fall apart if I was diagnosed with cancer.Two years ago my mother was diagnosed with cancer of the kidney.She has a partial nephrectomny.A year alter I was...
    LaVidaLoca LaVidaLoca 41-45, F 2 Responses Mar 6, 2008

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    Hello

    I'm 42 and have been through hell I've got 5 types of cancer brain, breast, cervacal, bone n lung cancer been fighting cancer forthe past 5 and a half years been through bone marrow transplants n blood transfusion n all kind of tests known to man also have bone cancer n ms in my...
    SweetCountry68 SweetCountry68 41-45 2 Responses Aug 10, 2010

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    My Mother, My Depression

    My mother had breast cancer.  They took both breasts out.  This happened 10 years ago and she's ok but it was pretty scary. About four years after that, I fell into a bad depression.  The first two years were pretty bad, I even heard voices in my head. After, the...
    stories4234 stories4234 31-35, F May 18, 2009

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    My Brother

     im afraid that my brother wil die he is only 15 hes 10 months older then me ! hes my best friend ! and i dont wana loose him. sometimes i wish ! i had cancer tooo so we could be sick together!
    jordongray96 jordongray96 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 20, 2011

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    Happy Story.

    I thought to brighten up everyone who is struggling because they know someone with cancer/have cancer and hoping to give you some hope. My friends 2 year old son was diagnosed with cancer in his kidney, July 2012. They started chemo therapy straight away and though it made him...
    bubblesbubbles bubblesbubbles 18-21 Sep 7, 2012

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    Noone In My Family Had Cancer..

    but I am scared anyway. I think it's good that I'm scared.. It keeps me from smoking and lets me see a sense behind eating healthy.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 29, 2007

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    But I Don't Dwell On It

    My goodness I would hate to imagine wasting a whole bunch of years worrying that I was going to get cancer and then never do. I fear it, but I don't let that fear consume me.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jan 29, 2011

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    It's a Secret Enemy.

    And I think I'll die out of Cancer. My mother's family had NEVER had any cancer problem, and now she has one. It's the worst thing on earth. And now I'm paranoid and have remembered that my father's mother actually died from cancer. One of her sisters did too. I'm so afraid...
    xkcdgirl xkcdgirl 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 22, 2008

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    Im afraid i would get cancer i eat a lot of

    junk food im addicted to it but i dont want to get cancer :( any ideas?
    Nari99 Nari99 13-15, F Apr 1

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    A Really Irrational Fear

    I used to have a reasonably mild case of OCD, but I managed to get myself out of it, I still have it slightly about some things but I'm not as bad as I was.  However my irrational fear of cancer borders on OCD, whenever I think about it I have to touch a certain object that...
    juniper juniper 21-25, F Feb 2, 2008

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    This Is Not Happening

    DEALIING WITH STRES IS VERY HARD FOR ME TO DO... ON TOP OF EVERYTHING GOING ON I'M LIVING UNDER PROVERTY AND SO STRESSED OUT THAT I'M IN JEPORDY OF LOOSING MY APARTMENT MY TWO BOYS AND I. THEN JUST ONE DAY OUT OF THE BLUE I WAS STRATCHING MY BREAST , I NOTICED MY LEFT BREAST...
    AsyleighJ AsyleighJ 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 12, 2013

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    There Is Hope

      I have beat cancer ...this is a great group..I'm a 15 year survivor of bone cancer..The doctors gave me a 25% chance of living...boy were the doctors dead wrong..Since then I have devoted my life to motivate and inspire others..I have helped thousands with...
    traviscurrier traviscurrier 26-30, M 1 Response May 31, 2009

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    Scared To Death..

    i am a single mother 21 yrs old and i just discovered a very large painful lump on my breast....the dr. says she hopes its only an infection.. if it doesnt go away with antiobiotics in a few days i have get a diagnostic mammogram done...i am so scared i already have alot of...
    Honesty89 Honesty89 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 26, 2011

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    Awaiting Results

    It seems like forever and I only just had my uterine biospy earlier this afternoon. I know what the results will be but I'm trying to be optomistic. All the tale tell signs point to uterine cancer. In reading all the symptoms and talking with friends who previously had it i...
    Jewels310 Jewels310 31-35, F 2 Responses Jun 1, 2013

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    I Can't Help It

    I know it's irrational but cancer scares the poo out of me. The one that is the scariest for me is skin cancer. I have very fair skin & light eyes so I'm at a higher risk for it. I'm as pale as I can possibly be, but my friends go to tanning salons & it makes me nervous...
    gardenbeauty gardenbeauty 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 13, 2009

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    I Have No Reason to Be

    I don't know why I'm so scared of it. Maybe it's because three of my mum's friends have suffered from it. So far, two are now in remission and we're waiting to hear about the third. My mum was adopted when she was little so we don't really know if my family on her side have any...
    TheatreGirl TheatreGirl 26-30, F Nov 29, 2007

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    The Big C.

    My paternal grandmother had it.  My maternal grandmother had it.  My maternal grandfather had it.  My father had it.  My mother-precancerous colon polyps.  Yes, it is safe to say I am afraid of cancer.  I can be a little calm knowing I will die in...
    patchworkofmistakes patchworkofmistakes 26-30, F 4 Responses Nov 19, 2007

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    When It Rains It Pours

    Well my story was moving along just fine for the past four years until November of 07. Thats when my wife left me and I am still in shock. About a month later I was diagnosed with testicular cancer in my left side. I had to sign my divorce papers on Christmas eve and have...
    pablo1977 pablo1977 26-30, M Feb 15, 2008

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    Absolutely Terrified

    If there was one disease I would wipe from the world, it would be cancer. There are so many types and so many ways that it can obliterate your system that it is like a true life horror story. I have lost several relatives to it, so I know that it is in the family. Considering...
    TheEvilLeaper TheEvilLeaper 26-30, M Mar 2, 2012

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    A Haunting Ghost

    It goes, but it always comes back. I lost my mother, and my father-in-law to cancer. I don't want to tell more but it's their pain, and how their bodies changed to sort of alive-dead entities. Like not humans.   I was so phobic  I could wake up in the middle of the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 22, 2008

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    I Can Barely Say the Word

    my mums older sister died of it at home- across my house -I saw her 5 minutes after she passed away. 3 months later I watched my mums twin sister die of it(at the age of 43) at her house-across the road- believe it or not -aand I saw her 5 minutes after she died. I lost my gran...
    blondiesindy blondiesindy 36-40, F 3 Responses Apr 11, 2008

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    Deathly Afraid...pun Entirely Intended.

    It seems I start every story these days with: My mum died from cancer earlier this year. Well, it was horrific. Things are slowly moving forward. I'm afraid of cancer because I saw what it did to my Mum and because I know that I most likely have a breast cancer gene. The...
    BettyValentine BettyValentine 22-25, F 4 Responses Dec 4, 2012

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    Facing the Darkness of Cancer to Reach Fierce Love

    It is easy to give in to the challenges and difficulties of Cancer. With humility, I wish for you to have the courage to look deeply beyond the fear to the other side and see the possibilities. It is in the face of death that we start to live. When my mother told me she was...
    CosiCeleste CosiCeleste 36-40, F 1 Response Dec 28, 2007

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    Hypochondriac

    I'm constantly wondering whether I have cancer or not when I get a consistent pain or bump/lump showing up.  I think I'm constantly worried about it because of all the numerous stories, books, shows, articles and charity/government awareness schemes. Plus, quite a few of my...
    Reeny Reeny 26-30 Mar 23, 2008

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    Always..

    Before last year, I never thought much about it.  Now there is always a fear.  I had a cancer scare and went through many tests. Fortunately it turned out not to be cancer, but it made me feel very vunerable.  Ever since that time, I carry the fear with me.
    Thradia Thradia 26-30, F Mar 20, 2008

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    I'm Very Scared of It...

    Cancer has taken over my body... It's almost killed me... But I fought it.. I'm scared that it might come back... Cancer has taken away so many of my family members... I'm so afraid of it... 
    XLunaXLovegoodX XLunaXLovegoodX 22-25, F 4 Responses Sep 4, 2008

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    I Just Don't Know What To Do Anymore.

    I lie awake, and I shed tears many nights, picturing myself having to leave my young children, my love of my life, my family and friends. I am so frightened.... and it's eating my life away as I spend a lot of my free time worrying about it. I know I should go see a...
    sublimesfine sublimesfine 26-30, F Nov 11, 2010

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    Actually I know two for certain, my grandfather has rectal cancer and my dad has cancer too although I don't know what kind of cancer he has and I don't want to ask. I.. I don't...
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