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I Am Afraid of Closeness

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    I Push Away

    I always push the one person I want away. I never understood that. When we start getting close I pull away so fast. I start to lie to make myself more wanted. But all I want is that one person that would care. I want someone would want me and don't let me pull and push them away...
    lenabear lenabear 18-21, F Oct 15, 2012

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    I'm Not Afraid Of Anything, But This.

    After what the freak I was married to for 36 years did to me, I will never let another man get close to me. I will take everything the next one says and not believe it. What happens after one does that will inevitably turn bad. I'm not dissing men, but I don't ever want to feel...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 17, 2011

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    Fear Of The Unknown

    I think most people are afraid of closeness because they've been hurt. I'm afraid because I've never felt really close to anyone. I actually lacked the capacity for it until my late teens I used to be terribly embarrassed as a child that I didn't feel close to my parents. I used...
    pushingforward93 pushingforward93 22-25, M Jun 12, 2013

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    Afraid to Let People Know Me

      i am afraid to let anyone close to me.  I've never been close to my parents or family so find it hard to talk about things.  My best friend is great but because she is having problems of her own,  i feel i can't open up to her.  Im always there for my...
    bettieboo bettieboo 26-30 3 Responses Sep 29, 2008

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    My Own Island.

    I am not real close to anyone anymore. Yes, i have some that i can talk to freely and they know my weaknesses and strengths and i sorta know them. I much prefer it this way. I do miss feeling close to a person, having a person that i can go to at anytime and who makes me laugh...
    Lilcuppa Lilcuppa 66-70 4 Responses Jun 27, 2012

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    Afraid of Closeness

    I have had a very bad time with relationships, One failure after another. Always the pain was almost unbearable. I found a real true love and cancer took her from me. Now although I want to be close and in love again, For some reason I always push myself out and away from who...
    BlueGeorgia BlueGeorgia 41-45, M 15 Responses Sep 19, 2007

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    Pushed Away

    everytime i get some one i can be close to i push them away and by the time i realize what i have done its always too late they  have moved on and i am alone once again
    gothrosk816 gothrosk816 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 25, 2007

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    From Afar

    I am afraid of closeness, because every single time I have let someone in I've been really hurt.People can be evil, so damn cold.Sometimes it's better to love people from afar.
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 70+ Dec 22, 2010

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    I Am Afraid

    One of my biggest fears, is to be close to a girl, I want to be close, I want to be interment with her, so what is stopping me? Just a silly fear? wondering what she thinks of me? Maybe I am not good enough for her. What my heart says,  is give her everything I have, love...
    Tkevin Tkevin 46-50, M 3 Responses Aug 21, 2010

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    Why should you be afraid? That darkness is a part of you. You should just accept it. To be afraid of it is the same as being afraid of one of your own limbs. we all have darkness...
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    I'm not afraid of dying. I'm afraid of living.
    cuttergirl16 cuttergirl16 13-15, F 5 Responses May 12

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    and so I push people away.. I have lots of things I want to say, at the same time, I don't know what to say.. I am not good with poeple and so I NEVER had any friends, like 0...
    FallingWind FallingWind 18-21, F 1 Response May 12

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    right now it's not so much "I'm afraid he'll say 'no'" it's more like "I'm afraid he will never talk to me again or things will be awkward between us after he says 'no' (if he does...
    shamrok11 shamrok11 13-15, F May 19

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    I don't want to sound racist or anything because I know that there are a lot of really nice black boys out there. But something happened to me when I was 10 years old and my...
    beatendownbylife47 beatendownbylife47 13-15, F 2 Responses May 22

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    Im afraid pf failure because Im afraid to be judged by people. I think all people would look at me and laugh. Like no one is my friend in this world all of them are my enemies all...
    Macymax Macymax 13-15, F 6 Responses May 24

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    I am afraid of dogs. I never had a dog , I'm more of a cat's person but I think dogs are great companions and I'd like to get over my fear. I can control it but I don't really pet...
    ai12ci45lef000 ai12ci45lef000 22-25, F 2 days ago

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    ...i'm afraid of that girl coming back again... i never try to be mean....this is painful...but something told me to go here... i don't know why... i wanted to give up on this...
    hopelesslyalone7654321 hopelesslyalone7654321 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    Nobody should be afraid to be themselves. Think about it. EVERYBODY is different. Even identical twins. There are billions of people on this Earth and we are all different. Why...
    Sniper3kitty Sniper3kitty 18-21, F 2 Responses May 2

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    I'm afraid to let it out of its cage There where reason why it was lock up I had to, you see. The pain was to great. I need to hide it and forget it. I wasn't ready for you. I didn...
    Masterskitten503 Masterskitten503 46-50, F 3 Responses May 2

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    Got charged at with a knife today. Nothing atypical. Cussed at and humiliated. Hungry, afraid and manipulated by a greedy b!tch...
    ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT 26-30, F 1 Response May 2

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    I don't want to admit that I'm actually afraid that I will be single forever. my past relationships were built on the fact that I hate meeting new people and ignoring other people...
    honestlyanonymouslyme honestlyanonymouslyme 22-25, F 1 Response May 2

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    There's going to be a chance where you might meet someone who's going to change the sight of everything. After everything has come through, the change won't be the same. Having a...
    MoshItUpPOTATOES MoshItUpPOTATOES 16-17, M May 3

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    I have been reading people's posts every now and then today, and even written what I wanted to comment, but couldn't make myself click the post button. I made excuses like this was...
    LFSomething LFSomething 22-25, M 1 Response May 3

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    I'm afraid that one day, the love of my life will look at me reading books or putting my feet on the dashboard and instead of thinking it's cute and quirky, after a certain time he...
    Pejch Pejch 18-21, F 3 Responses May 6

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    I am afraid of getting married. I know how great of a person I am but sometimes I wonder if anyone else will see that greatness in me. Or will they be captured for a moment and not...
    Ayers010 Ayers010 22-25, F May 6

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    I am afraid of the dark. I am 23. It makes sense from an evolutionary stand point. It's not about being childish it's about not being able to perceive stimuli in darkness.
    honestlyanonymouslyme honestlyanonymouslyme 22-25, F 2 Responses May 7

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    >Ive kissed 3 guys and Ive never felt the spark. now im dating a really great guy who turns me on in every way and i haven't even kissed him yet. The reason being is that im afraid...
    marvelchick10117 marvelchick10117 16-17, F 1 Response May 7

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    Its sometimes scary. My mother can be judgmental, I'm afraid that she will not approve of what I love or who I love. At school I hear girls gossiping behind backs. They can be so...
    alligatorbatpig alligatorbatpig 16-17, F 5 Responses May 7

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    Many people are afraid of not fitting in; they live one stereotype after another And are always looking over their shoulder to make sure that if the world is changing, they are...
    achingneed achingneed 70+, F 3 Responses May 8

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    It has happened to me several times. Each time I was afraid to voice my unhappiness until it got to a state of no return. Then it would implode and end on a very bad note.
    ButterCly ButterCly 26-30, F 1 Response May 8

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    I don't know if I'm still bitter or just totally disgusted by the thought of falling in love again... I'm a little afraid I'll never let myself try it again.
    AutumnAki AutumnAki 16-17, F May 9

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    My parents have a really bad relationship. I feel worthless. They had an arranged marriage. Mom is depressed. My dad treats her like crap. And she wants me to go through the same...
    cord3lia cord3lia 16-17, F 4 Responses May 9

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    I'm so afraid of rejection that I just push people away when I feel like things are going bad. I try to fix it but nothing ever works. Instead of them leaving me I end up excluding...
    JustWantItToWork JustWantItToWork 26-30, F 8 Responses May 9

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    i dont know who the hell came up with these awful fantasy stories! they make us believe **** and now, as grown ups, get depressed because those stories didn't come true for us. we...
    Zagirllxx Zagirllxx 16-17, F 3 Responses May 9

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    I know that sounds like, REALLY crazy, but that's how I am. I am afraid that I will not look confident or pretty or sophisticated in my picture. I have tried taking a few selfies...
    nickyra55 nickyra55 13-15 May 9

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    when I was younger l was afraid to tell girls how I feel. so I still think about the ones that I liked and never said a word to l remember all of their names. I especially think...
    weadkeys weadkeys 46-50, M 2 Responses May 11

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    I embrace death as a part of life, death alone is not a frightening thought, however the thought of leaving those behind that you loved in life is a heart aching thought. But what...
    TheRebel28 TheRebel28 13-15, M 1 Response May 11

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    I'm afraid if I do my whole world will fall apart. I need someone to be there for me as I shed my tears. Preferably that special someone. And embrace me as it brings us closer...
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 11

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