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I Am Afraid of Closeness

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 112 People

    Pushed Away

    everytime i get some one i can be close to i push them away and by the time i realize what i have done its always too late they  have moved on and i am alone once again
    gothrosk816 gothrosk816 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 25, 2007

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    I'm Not Afraid Of Anything, But This.

    After what the freak I was married to for 36 years did to me, I will never let another man get close to me. I will take everything the next one says and not believe it. What happens after one does that will inevitably turn bad. I'm not dissing men, but I don't ever want to feel...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 17, 2011

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    Afraid of Closeness

    I have had a very bad time with relationships, One failure after another. Always the pain was almost unbearable. I found a real true love and cancer took her from me. Now although I want to be close and in love again, For some reason I always push myself out and away from who...
    BlueGeorgia BlueGeorgia 41-45, M 15 Responses Sep 19, 2007

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    My Own Island.

    I am not real close to anyone anymore. Yes, i have some that i can talk to freely and they know my weaknesses and strengths and i sorta know them. I much prefer it this way. I do miss feeling close to a person, having a person that i can go to at anytime and who makes me laugh...
    Lilcuppa Lilcuppa 70+, F 4 Responses Jun 27, 2012

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    From Afar

    I am afraid of closeness, because every single time I have let someone in I've been really hurt.People can be evil, so damn cold.Sometimes it's better to love people from afar.
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 22-25 Dec 22, 2010

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    I Push Away

    I always push the one person I want away. I never understood that. When we start getting close I pull away so fast. I start to lie to make myself more wanted. But all I want is that one person that would care. I want someone would want me and don't let me pull and push them away...
    lenabear lenabear 18-21, F Oct 15, 2012

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    Fear Of The Unknown

    I think most people are afraid of closeness because they've been hurt. I'm afraid because I've never felt really close to anyone. I actually lacked the capacity for it until my late teens I used to be terribly embarrassed as a child that I didn't feel close to my parents. I used...
    pushingforward93 pushingforward93 22-25, M Jun 12, 2013

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    I Am Afraid

    One of my biggest fears, is to be close to a girl, I want to be close, I want to be interment with her, so what is stopping me? Just a silly fear? wondering what she thinks of me? Maybe I am not good enough for her. What my heart says,  is give her everything I have, love...
    Tkevin Tkevin 46-50, M 3 Responses Aug 21, 2010

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    Afraid to Let People Know Me

      i am afraid to let anyone close to me.  I've never been close to my parents or family so find it hard to talk about things.  My best friend is great but because she is having problems of her own,  i feel i can't open up to her.  Im always there for my...
    bettieboo bettieboo 26-30 3 Responses Sep 29, 2008

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    this really is a perfectly natural thing to worry about. I have trust issues beleiving anybody 100% even my husband the only person I know 100% won't cheat is me. I don't know my...
    loreto789 loreto789 31-35, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    redrose09 redrose09 13-15, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    I'm not at all afraid to die, I'm afraid of tomorrow
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    I'm not afraid of it, but I'm also not interested in it just because it's mature. I really don't get people who come here for physical gratification. Doesnt all text, stories...
    mickitg mickitg 41-45, T Aug 21

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    I love Jason voorhies!!!! I am not afraid of Friday the 13th! but, I might be scared of camp crystal lake
    StreetgirlnamedDesire504 StreetgirlnamedDesire504 36-40 Aug 20

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    I am not afraid of it and honestly thats mainly what I am here for. My friend told me about this site because it helped her explore her sexuality and talk to a lot of cool people...
    emmastewart emmastewart 18-21, F 9 Responses Aug 19

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    Not at all...I know posting mature stories occasionally will draw some of the crowd that is only here for that...I understand that, and I am a big girl and can handle my own lol...
    BeachBumMom BeachBumMom 31-35, F 16 Responses Aug 19

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    So very afraid. I want to gain someone special to me but I don't want to lose a friend. I want to share my feelings to him but I don't want to push him away.
    BriarRose96 BriarRose96 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 19

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    It really does depend, but I generally feel very very uncomfortable if I am in a room with men only or if a guy is near me. I am gay and am attracted to men but I am afraid of them...
    chemistry6 chemistry6 18-21, M Aug 19

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    yea..I want it very bad. I need love..affection ..intimacy. haven't been loved since I was born. I guess being honest is a sin.
    divich001 divich001 18-21, M 4 Responses Aug 18

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    Afraid of it? I actually enjoy it. Pushes my arousal button and gets me going. It's one of the reasons I'm here.
    SultryAmy SultryAmy 31-35, F 11 Responses Aug 17

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    for me getting rejected had been a big part of my life growing up. I was tall really slim , athletic and wrestled on the team for 5 years, when I was born I had a problem with my...
    teknon0513 teknon0513 46-50, M 1 Response Aug 16

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    Very, very afraid. Rejection and abuse have probably played a big part. From both family and everyone else. An unwanted sexual encounter at 14 with an older woman also kind of made...
    zeframcochrane zeframcochrane 18-21 Aug 16

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    I was never afraid of them, but definitely for them.
    PendulEmPlum PendulEmPlum 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 16

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    I'm afraid I will end up alone. since I did the mess up thing to the girl I love nothing feels the same. I feel she is going apart and away from me. why on earth did I think I...
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