I Am Afraid of Closeness

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 109 People

    From Afar

    I am afraid of closeness, because every single time I have let someone in I've been really hurt.People can be evil, so damn cold.Sometimes it's better to love people from afar.
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick
    22-25
    Dec 22, 2010

    I'm Not Afraid Of Anything, But This.

    After what the freak I was married to for 36 years did to me, I will never let another man get close to me. I will take everything the next one says and not believe it. What happens after one does that will inevitably turn bad. I'm not dissing men, but I don't ever want to feel...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Nov 17, 2011

    My Own Island.

    I am not real close to anyone anymore. Yes, i have some that i can talk to freely and they know my weaknesses and strengths and i sorta know them. I much prefer it this way. I do miss feeling close to a person, having a person that i can go to at anytime and who makes me laugh...
    Lilcuppa Lilcuppa
    70+, F
    4 Responses Jun 27, 2012

    I Push Away

    I always push the one person I want away. I never understood that. When we start getting close I pull away so fast. I start to lie to make myself more wanted. But all I want is that one person that would care. I want someone would want me and don't let me pull and push them away...
    lenabear lenabear
    18-21, F
    Oct 15, 2012

    I Am Afraid

    One of my biggest fears, is to be close to a girl, I want to be close, I want to be interment with her, so what is stopping me? Just a silly fear? wondering what she thinks of me? Maybe I am not good enough for her. What my heart says,  is give her everything I have, love...
    Tkevin Tkevin
    46-50, M
    3 Responses Aug 21, 2010

    Fear Of The Unknown

    I think most people are afraid of closeness because they've been hurt. I'm afraid because I've never felt really close to anyone. I actually lacked the capacity for it until my late teens I used to be terribly embarrassed as a child that I didn't feel close to my parents. I used...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jun 12, 2013

    Pushed Away

    everytime i get some one i can be close to i push them away and by the time i realize what i have done its always too late they  have moved on and i am alone once again
    gothrosk816 gothrosk816
    16-17, F
    1 Response Sep 25, 2007

    Afraid of Closeness

    I have had a very bad time with relationships, One failure after another. Always the pain was almost unbearable. I found a real true love and cancer took her from me. Now although I want to be close and in love again, For some reason I always push myself out and away from who...
    BlueGeorgia BlueGeorgia
    41-45, M
    15 Responses Sep 19, 2007

    I would like to some day experience absolute

    surrender. Everyone does not want to hurt us, some people actually want to love us, and are vulnerable too.
    wingedjaguar wingedjaguar
    22-25, F
    Oct 18, 2015

    Afraid to Let People Know Me

      i am afraid to let anyone close to me.  I've never been close to my parents or family so find it hard to talk about things.  My best friend is great but because she is having problems of her own,  i feel i can't open up to her.  Im always there for my...
    bettieboo bettieboo
    26-30
    3 Responses Sep 29, 2008

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