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I Am Afraid of Death

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    I am. I really am. That's part of the reason

    I'm suicidal.. Because when I was about 6 or so, I planned to kill myself when I was in my late 20's, because I was afraid of growing up and losing people in my life. I don't know why I'm so afraid of death to be completely honest. And part of the reason of my suicidal nature is...
    worthlesssuicidal worthlesssuicidal 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 11

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    I'm scared to die, only

    because I wanna know how it happens... What happens when you die? Do you see a light? Do you follow it? Is it sad for you? Does it hurt? Is it scary? Will you be in your actual body? Will you know what's actually going on? Will you be able to think? Can you linger around on...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 29

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    I Don't Know What I Believe

    I am afraid of death because I don't know what happens to us when we die. I am uncertain if I believe that we have souls and that our souls go elsewhere. That notion really seems kind of fairytale-ish. But it scares me to think that we just cease to exist. Because if that is true...
    infinitedreamer infinitedreamer 26-30, F 5 Responses Oct 18, 2008

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    I am only afraid of that life will end,

    earlier or later. And actually 70-80 years isn't even that much.. Including that when you are very old you can't really do stuff and you are so weak, so that's almost waste of time.
    dropdeadwilma dropdeadwilma 16-17, F 5 Responses Sep 29

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    I use to be afraid of death,

    maybe still... When I was 7-10 years old, i thought to myself what would happen when I died, would my family remember me? Whenever i would here even the word 'death', Id cry when nobody is looking, imagining my grave and where would I be, maybe nothing, a world of nothing I've...
    Crossfire14 Crossfire14 13-15, M 1 Response Feb 9

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    I think death should be embraced.

    I don't think it's death people are afraid of, I think it's the circumstances; humans hate pain. I'm actually hungry for the knowledge to know what happens after death, even if that knowledge is temporary.
    KeithPrice94 KeithPrice94 18-21, M Mar 21

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    Obsessive Thoughts Of Dying Everyday

    since the 25th of august i have been thinking about death alot... it went from acceptance to welcoming to complete fear.. it what i think about all day everyday..and i feel like at every moment i'm going to die..when i hear planes i think they are going to crash into my house...
    blackmagic88 blackmagic88 22-25, F 2 Responses Oct 9, 2011

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    It's most certainly a scary thought.

    The thought of non-existence. But I like to think of it as being asleep, for eternity. An eternity of dreams and nightmares.
    KellySweetzz KellySweetzz 13-15, F 2 Responses Sep 29

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    Q Continuum

    I admit I have a healthy avoidance of death.  I believe there is nothing once the heart stops pumping and the brain ceases to function.  Now, I know that since there will be nothing there will also be no sadness or fear of the nothing.  We get to experience...
    Krypton Krypton 31-35, F 19 Responses Jan 29, 2009

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    I use to be. But now I know that

    once my work Is done here I will be up with the lord Jesus and start my next journey.
    mlcockrell mlcockrell 36-40, M 1 Response Sep 29

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    Death Is Unavoidable

    I'm scared of dying for the fact that I don't like pain, I hate to think that I will die in a very painful way. If it were up to me I would chose to die in my sleep or so suddenly I wouldn't have to suffer, but no one gets to chose how they die. Another thing that scares me about...
    ItsEnough ItsEnough 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 3, 2011

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    At the end of it all - how much information -

    how many deeds - how many acts, how many people were benefitted in your life is what matters. Some end up in the hospital - because God/Creator wants that hospital support staff to live as well. So that's why they go there - think of it as helping the doctors/nurses/ cleaning...
    woodland27 woodland27 41-45, M Mar 22

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    It's funny actually I'm afraid of death

    but yet I've tried to commit suicide. Find it odd how I was ready to give my life up bit it scares me so much to be dead
    Babygirl12296 Babygirl12296 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 13

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    It is actually the opposite.

    I do not fear death. I have no care or desire to know what happens after you die. Whether I go to Valhalla or just rot or reincarnate. What ever happens happens. I am too busy trying to live gloriously and have an eventful life.
    ValhallaAwaits ValhallaAwaits 18-21, M Sep 29

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    Not Death Itself

    It's not dying that scaresme. We all die, that is the inevitable fact of the Universe. Us, planets, stars; it's even said that the Universe itself wil die one day. What scares me is that I'll die alone; I'll have no one in my life to be there with me when I go. That I'll have...
    JollyDevittaRoger JollyDevittaRoger 22-25, M 5 Responses Sep 30, 2008

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    I'm scared of the unknown,

    I'm scared of losing the people I love forever, no body really knows what happens till it happens, What if this is really all there is. This life right here right now, I'm scared of there being nothing for me after I die.
    Taylorgangbby Taylorgangbby 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 24, 2013

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    Every Morning I Wake Up

    For the last two years I have been terrified of dying in my sleep. I would have panic attacks every night and didn't want to go to bed because I knew the terrible thoughts would be there waiting for me. How is it possible that my consciousness - the only thing I have ever known...
    thetortoise thetortoise 31-35, M 3 Responses Apr 1, 2011

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    Fin.

    On June 18, 2006, my life changed drastically, not for the better or worse but changed. As I go on to tell you my story you’re going to wonder how I can’t say for the worse, but I hope by the end you will understand. The day started out like any other day, got ready to go to...
    evasanchez610 evasanchez610 22-25, F Nov 11, 2012

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    I Fear Death

    ...more than anything in the world. When I am laying in bed I start thinking about it and it drives me mad.
    UrbanxXSugar UrbanxXSugar 22-25, F 6 Responses Sep 26, 2009

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    Death And Clowns

    There isn't much that makes me completely afraid and scared then when I am thinking about death. The thought of nolonger exisiting really starts to get to me. There are times when I will hold my breath and start to freak out. Not sure why that is, but I am very afraid of dying...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Sep 24, 2013

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    I Maybe Am!

    I always praying to God about sacrificing myself for the good of others, or may be I am looking for one way ticket of escaping from this so called "responsibility" in life. Just funny, but recently I asked myself, are you really that ready if the death reaper catches you? Given 1...
    Eureka85 Eureka85 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 15, 2011

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    woodland27 woodland27 41-45, M Dec 28, 2013

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    Just found out my cousin is dying in the

    hospital... I couldn't imagine life if she doesn't wake up from her coma
    bluegirlie98 bluegirlie98 13-15, F 4 Responses May 16

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    The scariest thing is knowing that

    once I die, I’ll simply be forgotten. Lost in the timeline of humanity, along with the millions of others who’s time had come, and they simply passed. Of course, the few close family and loved ones will miss you, but to a certain point, they will forget. I don’t believe in...
    brenanarookle brenanarookle 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 10

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    I Try Not To Think About It

    When I do, it seems incomprehensible that there will be a time I won't be here in this familiar realm. I shouldn't be afraid because I am a Christian who loves God and should think "now I am being called to Heaven'. But I guess there is doubt in me. I am frightened of when I am...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Jun 10, 2011

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    I have an unhealthy obsession with death.

    When I was about four or five, I remember laying in bed one night. I was having a difficult time sleeping so I let my mind entertain me. I stared into the black nothingness shrouding my room and pulled from it one startling thought. I am going to die. One day, I will no longer...
    VoraciousTurtles VoraciousTurtles 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 2

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    Too Young

    My mother died at only age 53. I am so afraid of the death part in general.  I know where I will be going when I died I am just afraid that is will hurt. I am afraid of leavin people behind. I dont wanna see my husband suffer nor do I want to look down and see him with...
    firestarterfairy firestarterfairy 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 23, 2008

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    I am deathly afraid of death.

    Even if it's a death of someone I barely knew, I burst into tears. I cannot accept the concept of death. I am 19 and everytime someone around me dies, I began to think about it. I think the person disappearing from the earth. I think of them never coming back. I think of them...
    blackbirdie blackbirdie 18-21, F Dec 28, 2013

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    Okay this is probably literally the weirdest

    thing out there. Yeah I do believe in god and life after death. But it just scares me. Like what if your life isn't the way you want it? What if nothing goes right? And then I also have a feeling when you die it's all pitch black, you have no feeling, sight, you can't do...
    mxgconboyss mxgconboyss 13-15, F May 3

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    Thesaddude13 Thesaddude13 13-15, M 2 Responses Aug 3

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    NOT ! There is Birth

    and there is Death. Think of your grandfather/ father/ and now and your son and his son and so on.... It's a legacy they live behind. Your job is to leave the same behind when you die. You were given a time slot to live, and your time to perform on the stage was offered - DO...
    woodland27 woodland27 41-45, M Mar 22

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    I'm so scared that when I die I won't be ready

    to and I'm even more scared I will be
    itsjareduh itsjareduh 18-21, M Apr 19

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    It really scares me. I don't know why.

    It's natural and happens to everyone. I just think about it so much and I've sort of experienced what it's like and I never want to experience that again but I know someday I will have to and all my loves ones will too. It scares me.
    sunflowerpet sunflowerpet 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 28

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    Not Exactly Afraid of Death...

    It's not that I am afraid of death. It's not that I am afraid of dying I completely understand that death is apart of the circle of life. It's something else for me. I have talked to the closest people in my life about my feeling towards death and no one seems to have a very good...
    alishaa92 alishaa92 16-17, F 4 Responses Sep 25, 2008

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    I Am Terrified Of Nonexistence

    For the last four years, I've been experiencing this feeling of dread and utter hopelessness when faced with the fact that when I die, there's a good chance that I--my consciousness--will possibly not exist anymore. Every personal victory, thought and memory I have will...
    Tea85 Tea85 26-30, M 2 Responses May 18, 2013

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    I am scared of death

    but mostly it scares me to think where my soul will go. I mean I believe in God and pray to him but I don't go to Church because I work on the weekends so I'm afraid where my soul would go after death....And my husband doesn't believe in God; I love him so much, he's the only...
    Moonstripe1993 Moonstripe1993 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 29

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    In the past I have tried to kill myself

    because of the tremendous pain that life was giving me. In those moments I never thought about the reality of death. In my calmer moments the thought of death scares me to the point of tears. I wonder why that happens most of the time.
    ran20 ran20 26-30, M Jul 30

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    Hearing about Paul Walker shocked me.

    Even though he was a celebrity, I couldn't believe it but I thought that stuff like that always happens. About a year ago, My cousin's best friend committed suicide. It shocked me too because someone I've actually met and knew died, but I also barely knew him. It still got...
    Alva35 Alva35 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 4, 2013

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    My Dad Is Getting Old, And I'm Sooo Afraid Of Him Dying.

    Ever since I was little, I would have a sudden random thought of losing one of my parents. I guess i'm mostly terrified of losing my dad. I'm 18 and my dad is 78! i know its crazy, i always have been a bit embarrassed by it though I shouldn't be. My mom is in her fifties  so...
    ronniecakes ronniecakes 18-21, F 25 Responses Jul 17, 2010

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    I guess I'm so afraid of the process instead of

    what happens after. I know everyone does but that doesn't make me feel any better. I just hope when it's my time I'll return to The Infinite with clean hands and straight eyes.
    LikeAPrayer LikeAPrayer 18-21, F Jul 12

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    I still see myself dying.

    . Everyday the same visual in my head, different ways, torturous circumstances. It happens every day. First a scream in my head, then the lights flicker, I'm somewhere, doing something, and as soon as I think I'm safe... WHAM!.... The lights go dark... Silence... The sound of...
    EzraUlv EzraUlv 16-17, M Dec 5, 2013

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    My dad is 69 and I am 24.

    He is everything to me and I love him more than anything in the world. I am obsessed and totally consumed with the fear he might die. I am so insecure and sensitive I literally couldn't live without him! Anyone else have this problem?
    Annajuliett Annajuliett 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 27

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    I am 17 years old and afraid of death.

    I am fully conscious of the fact that my life is slowly ticking away. I am most fearful because, as an atheist, I do not believe in the existence of an afterlife of any sort (and do not support scientific views RE: NDEs) and therefore I believe I will merely cease to exist. This...
    DamianCray DamianCray 16-17, M 1 Response Jun 2

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    Death haunts me everyday.

    I don't want to lose everyone, my memories, experience, and everything the world has to offer..... I can't sleep thinking how death will one day come, and even though i am living my life, ik all this fun will eventually end ;( it scares and haunts me more then anything.....
    InfiniteMusic InfiniteMusic 13-15, M 1 Response Jan 6

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    Not death itself. That's a natural part of

    living. But certainly the manner of it. We'd all like to think we'd just pass away in our sleep. But there are just so many ways in which it could happen! Personally I just hope the manner of it is fairly painless and doesn't cause problems for anyone else!
    picklebobble picklebobble 46-50, M 1 Response Jul 3

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    Fear of a Thing I Can Not Control

    Possibly the reason it scares me so much is because there is nothing i can do about it. Sometimes i get so deep into thought about it that i just want to break down and hide. It is almost a phobia, but i refuse to ruin my life by thinking about my death too much. Just to...
    jesskuhismynamo jesskuhismynamo 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 28, 2009

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