I Am Afraid of Death

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    There's not a single leaf moving in our front

    yard no one would expect there to be a category 4 cyclone about to be 5 to hit the coast and at any given stage it could come north and wipe our house of the map
    sullie34 sullie34
    16-17, F
    Feb 19, 2015

    I use to be. But now I know that

    once my work Is done here I will be up with the lord Jesus and start my next journey.
    mlcockrell mlcockrell
    41-45, M
    1 Response Sep 29, 2014

    I hadn't given much thought to death

    until someone recently told me to die after a misunderstanding on social media. I am particularly sensitive to everything that goes on around me, so I took those words rather hard and started wondering what happens during and after death. Being harshly reminded of my own...
    naqisvafi naqisvafi
    31-35, F
    Aug 26, 2015

    I am terrified of death of dying of loved ones

    dying. I become so anxious and scared and depressed. I have nightmares. I can't sleep. I'm afraid to go to sleep. Recently I was told that my great uncle has leukemia and refused chemo. They are giving him 2-3 weeks. With all the family over for dinner my grandmother started...
    JKenagy JKenagy
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 28, 2015

    In the past I have tried to kill myself

    because of the tremendous pain that life was giving me. In those moments I never thought about the reality of death. In my calmer moments the thought of death scares me to the point of tears. I wonder why that happens most of the time.
    ran20 ran20
    26-30, M
    Jul 30, 2014

    NOT ! There is Birth

    and there is Death. Think of your grandfather/ father/ and now and your son and his son and so on.... It's a legacy they live behind. Your job is to leave the same behind when you die. You were given a time slot to live, and your time to perform on the stage was offered - DO...
    woodland27 woodland27
    41-45, M
    Mar 22, 2014

    Death haunts me everyday.

    I don't want to lose everyone, my memories, experience, and everything the world has to offer..... I can't sleep thinking how death will one day come, and even though i am living my life, ik all this fun will eventually end ;( it scares and haunts me more then anything.....
    InfiniteMusic InfiniteMusic
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Jan 6, 2014

    Just found out my cousin is dying in the

    hospital... I couldn't imagine life if she doesn't wake up from her coma
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses May 16, 2014

    I have an unhealthy obsession with death.

    When I was about four or five, I remember laying in bed one night. I was having a difficult time sleeping so I let my mind entertain me. I stared into the black nothingness shrouding my room and pulled from it one startling thought. I am going to die. One day, I will no longer...
    VoraciousTurtles VoraciousTurtles
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 2, 2014

    My mum is in a coma, she had a stroke

    and improved so well for four months with a few issues now a week ago she goes into a coma. I might have to take her of ventilation is she doesn't improve by about Wednesday I don't know what to do or how to feel my hearts been destroyed. She made a slight improvement two days...
    shi2511 shi2511
    18-21, F
    Oct 31, 2014

    At the end of it all - how much information -

    how many deeds - how many acts, how many people were benefitted in your life is what matters. Some end up in the hospital - because God/Creator wants that hospital support staff to live as well. So that's why they go there - think of it as helping the doctors/nurses/ cleaning...
    woodland27 woodland27
    41-45, M
    Mar 22, 2014

    It is actually the opposite.

    I do not fear death. I have no care or desire to know what happens after you die. Whether I go to Valhalla or just rot or reincarnate. What ever happens happens. I am too busy trying to live gloriously and have an eventful life.
    ValhallaAwaits ValhallaAwaits
    22-25, M
    Sep 29, 2014

    I am afraid of my mom dying.

    I just don't know what I would do without her. I feel like I'd get so depressed.. I just wouldn't make it through all the feelings.
    stupidcat2y stupidcat2y
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jun 4, 2015

    I am. I really am. That's part of the reason

    I'm suicidal.. Because when I was about 6 or so, I planned to kill myself when I was in my late 20's, because I was afraid of growing up and losing people in my life. I don't know why I'm so afraid of death to be completely honest. And part of the reason of my suicidal nature is...
    worthlesssuicidal worthlesssuicidal
    18-21, F
    Mar 11, 2014

    I am so afraid of dying

    and of my friends and soulmate dying...I don't know what will happen...in so scared that there will be nothing at all, no more...existing...I want there to be heaven or reincarnation or even hell, anything but nothing
    angelcutie angelcutie
    16-17, F
    Oct 5, 2015

    It's most certainly a scary thought.

    The thought of non-existence. But I like to think of it as being asleep, for eternity. An eternity of dreams and nightmares.
    KellySweetzz KellySweetzz
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Sep 29, 2014

    I'm scared to die, only

    because I wanna know how it happens... What happens when you die? Do you see a light? Do you follow it? Is it sad for you? Does it hurt? Is it scary? Will you be in your actual body? Will you know what's actually going on? Will you be able to think? Can you linger around on...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Jul 29, 2014

    So I was sitting in class today.

    ... And I realized that someday is just be gone. Maybe even no legacy left behind. Eventually, no one will even know me anymore. It's harrowing.
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Nov 10, 2015

    My dad is 69 and I am 24.

    He is everything to me and I love him more than anything in the world. I am obsessed and totally consumed with the fear he might die. I am so insecure and sensitive I literally couldn't live without him! Anyone else have this problem?
    Annajuliett Annajuliett
    26-30, F
    1 Response Sep 27, 2014

    I am extremely terrified of mine

    or others' demise(s). Jus the thought of it makes me freak out. The death of good pets makes me extremely depressed
    Kingofgames20 Kingofgames20
    22-25, M
    Jun 23, 2015

    My dad's turning 50 tomorrow,

    and it's just now getting to me. I know that him and everybody else in the family is happy about his birthday, but I can only think about how he is aging too fast. It feels like time's running out for all of us. It's just going by too fast sometimes. I am scared of the thought...
    guyinthesky guyinthesky
    31-35, M
    Apr 3, 2016

    I Try Not To Think About It

    When I do, it seems incomprehensible that there will be a time I won't be here in this familiar realm. I shouldn't be afraid because I am a Christian who loves God and should think "now I am being called to Heaven'. But I guess there is doubt in me. I am frightened of when I am...
    deleted deleted
    5 Responses Jun 10, 2011

    Not Death Itself

    It's not dying that scaresme. We all die, that is the inevitable fact of the Universe. Us, planets, stars; it's even said that the Universe itself wil die one day. What scares me is that I'll die alone; I'll have no one in my life to be there with me when I go. That I'll have...
    JollyDevittaRoger JollyDevittaRoger
    22-25, M
    5 Responses Sep 30, 2008

    Obsessive Thoughts Of Dying Everyday

    since the 25th of august i have been thinking about death alot... it went from acceptance to welcoming to complete fear.. it what i think about all day everyday..and i feel like at every moment i'm going to die..when i hear planes i think they are going to crash into my house...
    blackmagic88 blackmagic88
    22-25, F
    5 Responses Oct 9, 2011
    Thesaddude13 Thesaddude13
    16-17, M
    2 Responses Aug 3, 2014

    It's funny actually I'm afraid of death

    but yet I've tried to commit suicide. Find it odd how I was ready to give my life up bit it scares me so much to be dead
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Mar 13, 2014

    Every Morning I Wake Up

    For the last two years I have been terrified of dying in my sleep. I would have panic attacks every night and didn't want to go to bed because I knew the terrible thoughts would be there waiting for me. How is it possible that my consciousness - the only thing I have ever known...
    thetortoise thetortoise
    31-35, M
    3 Responses Apr 1, 2011

    Death And Clowns

    There isn't much that makes me completely afraid and scared then when I am thinking about death. The thought of nolonger exisiting really starts to get to me. There are times when I will hold my breath and start to freak out. Not sure why that is, but I am very afraid of dying...
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Sep 24, 2013

    I'm Demi age 20 UK trans female I drink a lot

    and have pains outgoing in my stomach I went to the hospital and they are making me wait a till this Saturday for tests of the pain hasn't gone. I now fear I've taken my body to far and could die or having a super bad illness I'd have to live with for most if not all my life
    demiLee94 demiLee94
    22-25, T
    3 Responses Jan 4, 2015

    It really scares me. I don't know why.

    It's natural and happens to everyone. I just think about it so much and I've sort of experienced what it's like and I never want to experience that again but I know someday I will have to and all my loves ones will too. It scares me.
    sunflowerpet sunflowerpet
    22-25, F
    1 Response Sep 28, 2014

    I'm so scared of dying.

    I have this strange gut feeling it's going to happen sooner than of old age.
    vivienne4 vivienne4
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 18, 2014

    These few days I start to feel insecure

    and afraid of death. I imagine what if I got a deadly decease and I couldn't survive on it. The thoughts are wrong but they are killing me inside. Why am I being so vunerable because of the thoughts that wasn't even true.
    meandmythought meandmythought
    26-30, F
    Nov 19, 2014


    On June 18, 2006, my life changed drastically, not for the better or worse but changed. As I go on to tell you my story you’re going to wonder how I can’t say for the worse, but I hope by the end you will understand. The day started out like any other day, got ready to go to...
    evasanchez610 evasanchez610
    22-25, F
    Nov 11, 2012

    My Dad Is Getting Old, And I'm Sooo Afraid Of Him Dying.

    Ever since I was little, I would have a sudden random thought of losing one of my parents. I guess i'm mostly terrified of losing my dad. I'm 18 and my dad is 78! i know its crazy, i always have been a bit embarrassed by it though I shouldn't be. My mom is in her fifties  so...
    ronniecakes ronniecakes
    18-21, F
    39 Responses Jul 17, 2010
    jamisonSOSO jamisonSOSO
    18-21, M
    Jul 11, 2015

    I have developed this crazy phobia of death

    for some reason and it is driving me nuts! I know it sounds dumb but for the past few weeks I have been thinking about it almost every night. I used to have the same fear when I was really little but then it just kind of stopped bothering me. I have no idea what started it up...
    cjmart01 cjmart01
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Jul 12, 2015

    Not death itself. That's a natural part of

    living. But certainly the manner of it. We'd all like to think we'd just pass away in our sleep. But there are just so many ways in which it could happen! Personally I just hope the manner of it is fairly painless and doesn't cause problems for anyone else!
    picklebobble picklebobble
    51-55, M
    1 Response Jul 3, 2014

    It scares me because the thought of not not

    being able to see your family again or the future.
    Hsgdbg Hsgdbg
    22-25, M
    Nov 18, 2014

    I guess I'm so afraid of the process instead of

    what happens after. I know everyone does but that doesn't make me feel any better. I just hope when it's my time I'll return to The Infinite with clean hands and straight eyes.
    LikeAPrayer LikeAPrayer
    18-21, F
    Jul 12, 2014

    The scariest thing is knowing that

    once I die, I’ll simply be forgotten. Lost in the timeline of humanity, along with the millions of others who’s time had come, and they simply passed. Of course, the few close family and loved ones will miss you, but to a certain point, they will forget. I don’t believe in...
    brenanarookle brenanarookle
    18-21, F
    Jan 10, 2014

    I'm so scared that when I die I won't be ready

    to and I'm even more scared I will be
    itsjareduh itsjareduh
    18-21, M
    Apr 19, 2014
    dayanna4445sexy dayanna4445sexy
    16-17, F
    Feb 14, 2015

    A lot of youngsters nowadays are depressed

    and saying that they aren't afraid of death. But none of them know how excruciating the pain is when death approaches. And that includes me, I don't know how it feels like but I've heard from people who have witnessed those who were on their death beds ; struggling and bearing...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Aug 15, 2015

    Okay this is probably literally the weirdest

    thing out there. Yeah I do believe in god and life after death. But it just scares me. Like what if your life isn't the way you want it? What if nothing goes right? And then I also have a feeling when you die it's all pitch black, you have no feeling, sight, you can't do...
    mxgconboyss mxgconboyss
    18-21, F
    May 3, 2014

    Years ago, I happily welcomed death with open

    arms but now that my pubescent years are behind me I am more afraid to die. The thought of not knowing what happens after scares me. Will I just dissolve into just a corpse? No spirit or resuscitation or anything? Once I'm gone, I'm gone for good? Maybe once I've done all I...
    Gemz2411 Gemz2411
    22-25, F
    1 Response Nov 14, 2014

    I dont nessarley fear death,

    I just fear of what happens after you die. Where do you go? I would like to think that you go to heaven/hell, but so many things are floating around these days, I dont really know what to believe.
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Sep 9, 2015

    I Am Terrified Of Nonexistence

    For the last four years, I've been experiencing this feeling of dread and utter hopelessness when faced with the fact that when I die, there's a good chance that I--my consciousness--will possibly not exist anymore. Every personal victory, thought and memory I have will...
    Tea85 Tea85
    31-35, M
    3 Responses May 18, 2013

    I am only afraid of that life will end,

    earlier or later. And actually 70-80 years isn't even that much.. Including that when you are very old you can't really do stuff and you are so weak, so that's almost waste of time.
    dropdeadwilma dropdeadwilma
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Sep 29, 2014
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