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I Am Afraid Of Dying Alone

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    Words can't explain how confused,

    or scared I am of dying, once we die, we are gone. Forever. Will we even remember anything? Probably not. Because we won't be anything. A piece of dust. I'm just scared. Not of actually dying.. But what comes after, will I sit and watch my family grieve? Will I go to heaven, he...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 2 Responses Oct 9

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    Not Got Much Longer.......................

    Its been a hard struggle since I was first diagnosed with the AIDS virus. Friends desert you and even a simple body rash can make life even lonlier. I realise I probably haven't got much time left but would at least like a dignified ending to life. This is why I have come on here...
    squealer squealer 26-30, M 3 Responses Jul 17, 2007

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    2tuff

    I prefer to die alone in peace. People are a disappointment to me. Why do you think people buy big houses far away in the country and build big fences around thier homes? They do this to keep people away, they know people are a dissapointment at best. I prefer to fall into...
    2tuff 2tuff 51-55 6 Responses Jul 31, 2010

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    What a Morbid Topic, Huh?

    Let's face it.  For a percentage of the human population this will happen, whether it be by accident or circumstance. I know I will die alone.  I've gotten used to it and I don't fear it like I used to.  My fear now is not being found afterward for weeks.
    Roaring20s Roaring20s 41-45, M 2 Responses Nov 19, 2008

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    Death

    I so scared that when i die i will be all alone. no one seems 2 undersand or get me. i dont want to die alone. i want some one to love me.
    ilovejosh ilovejosh 16-17, F 8 Responses Jan 13, 2009

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    Diagnosed With Emphysema

    I'm writing this from my hospital room, my husband bought my lap top up here so I wouldn't miss out on my friends, he's soo sweet! Last night (Thurs night) I was having pains in my chest and I couldn't breathe, my lungs burned as I tried to breathe, I just got done smoking then...
    deleted deleted 26-30 16 Responses Aug 4, 2012

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    Just Months Left to Live

    I am a young women 40-50 I was diagnosed with brain cancer 5 months ago. I have no family, and my husband whom i have been separated from for a year came back to help me, well he only made it with me for 2 months before he left again, this time i can't take him back ,not even so...
    sharyn11 sharyn11 46-50 13 Responses Aug 13, 2009

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    I M 25 And I Never Had A Relationship

    I am one of those guys whom girls would see and would think "what a loser " so that's like the very first thing about me . I have had crushes on girls like a normal guy but just knw that nothing would ever happen . Now that i m reaching the age of 25 i know that i am gonna end up...
    budsy budsy 22-25 Oct 24, 2011

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    My Crippling Fear

    I've always feared dying. Ever since i was small, I knew what death was and tried to steer clear of it. I'm afraid now that when I die, nobody will be there to hold my hand and tell me it will be ok. Im afraid about what is on the other side. So due to this fear I try too hard...
    Dragongirl4040 Dragongirl4040 18-21 1 Response Jun 18, 2009

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    I'm So Very Sorry I Did This

    Not as afraid of dying alone as I am of leaving you alone.  I am afraid this may be the end of my life.  If I see tomorrow, I will change.  If I have another chance, I will take it and make the most of the days that remain.  I want to live.  I want to...
    onmyown2009 onmyown2009 36-40, F 1 Response Feb 18, 2010

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    My Greatest Fear

    This is my deepest fear, yes I am afraid to fly, I am afraid of heights but the deepest fear is dying alone. I have discussed this at length with my beloved rosemary, who also is childless. When you do not have children there is a bond missing. I am afraid I will get sick and...
    Amala82962 Amala82962 46-50, F 3 Responses May 11, 2012

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    No Control

    I live alone and enjoying doing so. There is no reason for this other than my choice.However, what does worry me constantly is dying in an 'unplanned' manner! I want to be able to control my death.  In other words, if I don't want to be 'found' days later by people.
    lynnemc lynnemc 56-60 Dec 19, 2010

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    But I Also Fear

    dieing in a nurseing home thnk i want to do it like the indians and just some day walk off to die
    rickibrat2 rickibrat2 61-65, M Dec 27, 2011

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    I Have A Dangerous Job...

    its not that i am afraid of not having any family or loved ones to mourn my passing. i got that. its taht i am afraid that i will die far from home, away from those that would look after me and sit by my beside in a hospital. i am a professsional long haul trucker. eve as i write...
    Devilonyashoulda Devilonyashoulda 46-50, M Mar 3, 2012

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    As Long As You Have Me Your Not Alone

    Hello, and you are not being dramatic that just how you feel and alot of others probally feel the same way to.Im definately afraid of dying alone, and I have family all around me, but I fear dying in my home while everyone is at work. Ive been seeing a cardialogist for about 4...
    identity identity 41-45, F 1 Response Jun 3, 2008

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    If I Keep It Up I Will

    I need to find a starting point to start trusting people again. I am not referring to my internet friendships as they are all seemingly intact and have no rough spots as usual. It's my real life that worries me, I have tried to move on and find love but I get scared and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Nov 22, 2010

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    Alone

    Nothing scares me more than the idea of living my life all alone.  I really want someone with me.  I don't care if It's a romantic relationship or not, I just want a friend to always be there for me. A friend, a real friend, someone I knew I could trust with anything...
    Andrius Andrius 19-21, M 2 Responses May 11, 2007

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    Not Enough

    I'm 23 and have never had a real relationship. My job takes me around the world and I'm constantly moving to different states and countries and I never actually have the time to settle down and feel someone out. When I do, I find it hard to put myself out there due to a lack of...
    stillborndog86 stillborndog86 22-25 May 8, 2011

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    She

    I'm afraid she wont take me back, i'm so ******* scared. :(
    Kurana4390e Kurana4390e 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 21, 2010

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    I can appreciate all of the feelings

    surrounding the fear of dying alone. However, I am not at all afraid of dying alone. I am afraid of living alone. I have been divorced for over 25 years. I have known some wonderful men--many of whom still stay in touch. But the relationship just never worked out--sometimes...
    M1SD1VA M1SD1VA 56-60, F 1 Response Dec 5, 2013

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    I Don't Think I'll Ever Find Someone...

    I am 20 years old. I have never had a relationship. I have only went on two dates. I am a virgin. I am an average looking person, not beautiful, not ugly. I am thin and tall. I like to think I am interesting, or at least pleasant to be around. Somehow, I can't seem to find...
    womaninchains womaninchains 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 6, 2011

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    The Thought Never Really Bo...

    The thought never really bothered me until I read a sci-fi/fantasy book by Anne McCaffery called 'Dragons Dawn'. Seems silly, but in the book one of the characters dies alone on a space station, and then thousands of years later in another book, her decendants return to the...
    livinincanada livinincanada 41-45, F 1 Response Jan 13, 2009

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    I'm a closeted romantic.

    I don't believe in soul mates or love at first site, but I do believe love exists somewhere out there in a land far far away. Granted I'm not a widow or a 30-some spinster but being in my second year of high school I came to realize that every social group I interacted with...
    Voraciousbookreader Voraciousbookreader 16-17, F Jan 23

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    But I do know that is how it will end.

    I am working on accepting it. I would say I am more than half way there!
    Myzery Myzery 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 20

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    Death

    Its sad to say but we will eventually die alone. Even if we do have someone by us, we will have to face the after life by ourselves. I'm kind of having doubts about this whole idea because if you have your loved one by you, you will be able to see despair in them. However, you...
    reset reset 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 13, 2009

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    zillaron zillaron 51-55, M 8 Responses Dec 6, 2009

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    Been A Loner All My Life!!

    this is my problem, i dont seem to enjoy letting people get too close to me, i never have!! im now 31 and i have never even been in a proper relationship with a girl because of it!! i seem to just prefer my alone time too much, but in saying that, on the flip side of the coin, i...
    cowshed123 cowshed123 31-35, M 2 Responses Jan 26, 2012

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    A Friend Once Said

    I'm turning 18 in less than two weeks, that means i am officially going to be an adult!(yay?) But one of my best friends had the nerve to tell me the following: she said that if you dont have a relationship by the end of high school, that you will have relationship problems for...
    cndngirl cndngirl 18-21 2 Responses Nov 19, 2008

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    It Is Just An Illusion:

    We're born alone, we live alone, we die alone. Only through our love and friendship can we create the illusion for the moment that we're not alone. Orson Welles
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 5, 2013

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    Worried Of Dying Alone.

    ok let me start of by saying that after reading some of these peoples stories I don't feel as bad but here is my situation I'm 16 and enlisting in the US.Army soon and I'm joining with a few of my friends but recently I've been very depressed and sad recently because recently I...
    Tmdaxc Tmdaxc 16-17 4 Responses Jan 7, 2011

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    I'm So Scared!

    I'm 25 and I've never been so alone. I have no friends nor family. I had to quit my job in order to go to school so I'm a loser without  money. I feel the need to be with people but their's no one. I have no boyfriend, I don't usually get to the second date and I'm not a picky...
    Ladylorelay Ladylorelay 22-25 5 Responses Apr 20, 2011

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    Death Before My Time

    I found out I am going to die and I was told I only have a couple of months I don't want to die alone but I have no choice I wish I had more time because when I die my kids will get nothing from me but I guess it's fine they have a lovin mother and a living rich stepfather I just...
    Annomous44 Annomous44 22-25, M 1 Response Nov 1, 2013

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    Seize the day or die regretting the time you

    lost It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over Trials in life, questions of us existing here, don't wanna die alone without you here Please tell me what we have is real
    Yourguardianangel9613 Yourguardianangel9613 16-17, F Feb 1

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    I've always been distant from my family.

    I don't really have any siblings. I worry that if I don't get married soon, any hopes of it being genuine will be for naught. What if I don't have children? Who will stand vigil as I lay dying?
    snwyvern snwyvern 31-35, M 1 Response Aug 26

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    Dying Alone

    Are you a sad person. Too wimpy or shy to ask a girl/boy out. Then come on down and be lonely together.
    lonelyboat lonelyboat 18-21, M 1 Response May 7, 2007

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    My Hiv Voice

    I have been living on Palliative Care for nearly 2 years. Talk about a life in limbo. No, I'm not an intavenous drug user, not a prostitute, not any body but a widowed mother of 3 children, linving a middle-class life-style. I am bilingual and have taught junior and high...
    bernadette5000 bernadette5000 51-55 3 Responses Sep 14, 2010

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    Everybody Hurts

    I have been alone all my life. I suffer and carry on! Yes it hurts! I try to discover new things in life like a new book, a new hobby, something to keep me busy. I am currently reading Catch 22! It is a hilarious book! Finding something in this world to keep you busy will...
    Drknght600212 Drknght600212 51-55, M Apr 21, 2012

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    I Have Lived Alone...

    I have Cerebral Palsy and use a wheelchair for mobility. I don't want to die alone with only my cat to mourn my passing moment. You might think I'm being dramatic, but I spend 18-21 hours physically void of human contact each day unless some "friend" remembers that they...
    TheRealWoman TheRealWoman 31-35, F 9 Responses May 15, 2008

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    Need That Special Someone

    Sometimes I feel that maybe I'm just doomed from romance. Maybe I'm not supposed to have anybody cause it all seems to end badly for me. What if I end up old and alone. What if I'm in my sixties and have nodoby, I'd probably just die. I think that is probably my biggest fear in...
    SoMuchToSay SoMuchToSay 31-35, M 1 Response May 14, 2008

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    Comfort

    I'd hate to end my life without anyone around me, without anyone to hold my hand and tell me they'll miss me. The last few moments of your life are very precious and it's better to experience them with people who love and care for you around, with them holding your hand, you feel...
    Luangi Luangi 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 22, 2007

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    jazzsinger1991 jazzsinger1991 22-25, F Oct 1

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    Going alone! Thats a horrible thought for me... I wont move out unless im going to live with someone else but never on my own no way! I would feel so lonely living on my own plus...
    MilweePetite MilweePetite 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 21

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    You find different people all over the place , you see everyone's face but you don't know them , you are quick to judge even with personality , the first impression is key to what...
    turntechbiology turntechbiology 16-17, F 3 Responses Oct 12

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    jon200547 jon200547 26-30, M Oct 4