I Am Afraid Of Dying Alone

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 523 People

    Diagnosed With Emphysema

    I'm writing this from my hospital room, my husband bought my lap top up here so I wouldn't miss out on my friends, he's soo sweet! Last night (Thurs night) I was having pains in my chest and I couldn't breathe, my lungs burned as I tried to breathe, I just got done smoking then...
    deleted deleted
    15 Responses Aug 4, 2012


    I'm afraid she wont take me back, i'm so ******* scared. :(
    Kurana4390e Kurana4390e
    18-21, M
    1 Response Mar 21, 2010

    I Have Lived Alone...

    I have Cerebral Palsy and use a wheelchair for mobility. I don't want to die alone with only my cat to mourn my passing moment. You might think I'm being dramatic, but I spend 18-21 hours physically void of human contact each day unless some "friend" remembers that they...
    TheRealWoman TheRealWoman
    31-35, F
    8 Responses May 15, 2008


    I prefer to die alone in peace. People are a disappointment to me. Why do you think people buy big houses far away in the country and build big fences around thier homes? They do this to keep people away, they know people are a dissapointment at best. I prefer to fall into...
    2tuff 2tuff
    6 Responses Jul 31, 2010

    i feel really weird. it could be from quitting

    one of two antidepressants. my fibromyalgia pain is back but my head is just screaming right now. i cant keep still. my hands and arma are numb. questions and memories are shreiking in my mind and i want them to stop.....i wont like the answers. the memories make me cry...
    ArnoldJRimmer ArnoldJRimmer
    46-50, M
    Jun 16, 2015

    Dying Alone

    Are you a sad person. Too wimpy or shy to ask a girl/boy out. Then come on down and be lonely together.
    lonelyboat lonelyboat
    18-21, M
    1 Response May 7, 2007

    Whenever someone asks

    if I fear dying alone, I always ask them, 'Would you rather I die with someone?'
    DonnaDomm DonnaDomm
    31-35, F
    Feb 24, 2015


    I so scared that when i die i will be all alone. no one seems 2 undersand or get me. i dont want to die alone. i want some one to love me.
    ilovejosh ilovejosh
    18-21, F
    7 Responses Jan 13, 2009

    I can appreciate all of the feelings

    surrounding the fear of dying alone. However, I am not at all afraid of dying alone. I am afraid of living alone. I have been divorced for over 25 years. I have known some wonderful men--many of whom still stay in touch. But the relationship just never worked out--sometimes...
    61-65, F
    1 Response Dec 5, 2013

    I Have A Dangerous Job...

    its not that i am afraid of not having any family or loved ones to mourn my passing. i got that. its taht i am afraid that i will die far from home, away from those that would look after me and sit by my beside in a hospital. i am a professsional long haul trucker. eve as i write...
    Devilonyashoulda Devilonyashoulda
    46-50, M
    Mar 3, 2012

    But I'm always alone.

    .. Even in death will I be forever sad
    XxscarsxX XxscarsxX
    18-21, F
    Dec 3, 2014

    Not Enough

    I'm 23 and have never had a real relationship. My job takes me around the world and I'm constantly moving to different states and countries and I never actually have the time to settle down and feel someone out. When I do, I find it hard to put myself out there due to a lack of...
    stillborndog86 stillborndog86
    May 8, 2011

    As Long As You Have Me Your Not Alone

    Hello, and you are not being dramatic that just how you feel and alot of others probally feel the same way to.Im definately afraid of dying alone, and I have family all around me, but I fear dying in my home while everyone is at work. Ive been seeing a cardialogist for about 4...
    identity identity
    41-45, F
    1 Response Jun 3, 2008

    Words can't explain how confused,

    or scared I am of dying, once we die, we are gone. Forever. Will we even remember anything? Probably not. Because we won't be anything. A piece of dust. I'm just scared. Not of actually dying.. But what comes after, will I sit and watch my family grieve? Will I go to heaven, he...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Oct 9, 2014

    My Greatest Fear

    This is my deepest fear, yes I am afraid to fly, I am afraid of heights but the deepest fear is dying alone. I have discussed this at length with my beloved rosemary, who also is childless. When you do not have children there is a bond missing. I am afraid I will get sick and...
    Amala82962 Amala82962
    46-50, F
    3 Responses May 11, 2012


    Nothing scares me more than the idea of living my life all alone.  I really want someone with me.  I don't care if It's a romantic relationship or not, I just want a friend to always be there for me. A friend, a real friend, someone I knew I could trust with anything...
    Andrius Andrius
    18-21, M
    2 Responses May 11, 2007

    Just Months Left to Live

    I am a young women 40-50 I was diagnosed with brain cancer 5 months ago. I have no family, and my husband whom i have been separated from for a year came back to help me, well he only made it with me for 2 months before he left again, this time i can't take him back ,not even so...
    sharyn11 sharyn11
    14 Responses Aug 13, 2009

    Not Got Much Longer.......................

    Its been a hard struggle since I was first diagnosed with the AIDS virus. Friends desert you and even a simple body rash can make life even lonlier. I realise I probably haven't got much time left but would at least like a dignified ending to life. This is why I have come on here...
    squealer squealer
    26-30, M
    3 Responses Jul 17, 2007

    Seize the day or die regretting the time you

    lost It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over Trials in life, questions of us existing here, don't wanna die alone without you here Please tell me what we have is real
    Yourguardianangel9613 Yourguardianangel9613
    18-21, F
    Feb 1, 2014

    I M 25 And I Never Had A Relationship

    I am one of those guys whom girls would see and would think "what a loser " so that's like the very first thing about me . I have had crushes on girls like a normal guy but just knw that nothing would ever happen . Now that i m reaching the age of 25 i know that i am gonna end up...
    budsy budsy
    Oct 24, 2011

    A Friend Once Said

    I'm turning 18 in less than two weeks, that means i am officially going to be an adult!(yay?) But one of my best friends had the nerve to tell me the following: she said that if you dont have a relationship by the end of high school, that you will have relationship problems for...
    cndngirl cndngirl
    2 Responses Nov 19, 2008

    My Hiv Voice

    I have been living on Palliative Care for nearly 2 years. Talk about a life in limbo. No, I'm not an intavenous drug user, not a prostitute, not any body but a widowed mother of 3 children, linving a middle-class life-style. I am bilingual and have taught junior and high...
    bernadette5000 bernadette5000
    3 Responses Sep 14, 2010

    I'm So Scared!

    I'm 25 and I've never been so alone. I have no friends nor family. I had to quit my job in order to go to school so I'm a loser without  money. I feel the need to be with people but their's no one. I have no boyfriend, I don't usually get to the second date and I'm not a picky...
    Ladylorelay Ladylorelay
    5 Responses Apr 20, 2011

    I'm So Very Sorry I Did This

    Not as afraid of dying alone as I am of leaving you alone.  I am afraid this may be the end of my life.  If I see tomorrow, I will change.  If I have another chance, I will take it and make the most of the days that remain.  I want to live.  I want to...
    onmyown2009 onmyown2009
    36-40, F
    1 Response Feb 18, 2010
    XxscarsxX XxscarsxX
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 23, 2014

    Been A Loner All My Life!!

    this is my problem, i dont seem to enjoy letting people get too close to me, i never have!! im now 31 and i have never even been in a proper relationship with a girl because of it!! i seem to just prefer my alone time too much, but in saying that, on the flip side of the coin, i...
    cowshed123 cowshed123
    36-40, M
    1 Response Jan 26, 2012

    i am very malnourished

    and i found out by a xray that my ribcage is pressing in on my internal organs most likely.. which i would also assume would produce a toxic metal overload.. my family just watched me suffer and starve.. hoping someone is out there that will save me.. cause now i know how to...
    lion320 lion320
    31-35, M
    1 Response Sep 18, 2015

    But I do know that is how it will end.

    I am working on accepting it. I would say I am more than half way there!
    Myzery Myzery
    36-40, F
    Jul 20, 2014

    My Crippling Fear

    I've always feared dying. Ever since i was small, I knew what death was and tried to steer clear of it. I'm afraid now that when I die, nobody will be there to hold my hand and tell me it will be ok. Im afraid about what is on the other side. So due to this fear I try too hard...
    Dragongirl4040 Dragongirl4040
    1 Response Jun 18, 2009

    What a Morbid Topic, Huh?

    Let's face it.  For a percentage of the human population this will happen, whether it be by accident or circumstance. I know I will die alone.  I've gotten used to it and I don't fear it like I used to.  My fear now is not being found afterward for weeks.
    Roaring20s Roaring20s
    41-45, M
    2 Responses Nov 19, 2008

    Worried Of Dying Alone.

    ok let me start of by saying that after reading some of these peoples stories I don't feel as bad but here is my situation I'm 16 and enlisting in the US.Army soon and I'm joining with a few of my friends but recently I've been very depressed and sad recently because recently I...
    Tmdaxc Tmdaxc
    4 Responses Jan 7, 2011

    If I Keep It Up I Will

    I need to find a starting point to start trusting people again. I am not referring to my internet friendships as they are all seemingly intact and have no rough spots as usual. It's my real life that worries me, I have tried to move on and find love but I get scared and...
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    2 Responses Nov 22, 2010

    It Is Just An Illusion:

    We're born alone, we live alone, we die alone. Only through our love and friendship can we create the illusion for the moment that we're not alone. Orson Welles
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    1 Response Nov 5, 2013

    No Control

    I live alone and enjoying doing so. There is no reason for this other than my choice.However, what does worry me constantly is dying in an 'unplanned' manner! I want to be able to control my death.  In other words, if I don't want to be 'found' days later by people.
    lynnemc lynnemc
    Dec 19, 2010

    I'm a closeted romantic.

    I don't believe in soul mates or love at first site, but I do believe love exists somewhere out there in a land far far away. Granted I'm not a widow or a 30-some spinster but being in my second year of high school I came to realize that every social group I interacted with...
    Voraciousbookreader Voraciousbookreader
    18-21, F
    Jan 23, 2014

    Need That Special Someone

    Sometimes I feel that maybe I'm just doomed from romance. Maybe I'm not supposed to have anybody cause it all seems to end badly for me. What if I end up old and alone. What if I'm in my sixties and have nodoby, I'd probably just die. I think that is probably my biggest fear in...
    SoMuchToSay SoMuchToSay
    36-40, M
    1 Response May 14, 2008

    I've always been distant from my family.

    I don't really have any siblings. I worry that if I don't get married soon, any hopes of it being genuine will be for naught. What if I don't have children? Who will stand vigil as I lay dying?
    snwyvern snwyvern
    36-40, M
    2 Responses Aug 26, 2014

    I Don't Think I'll Ever Find Someone...

    I am 20 years old. I have never had a relationship. I have only went on two dates. I am a virgin. I am an average looking person, not beautiful, not ugly. I am thin and tall. I like to think I am interesting, or at least pleasant to be around. Somehow, I can't seem to find...
    womaninchains womaninchains
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Nov 6, 2011

    But I Also Fear

    dieing in a nurseing home thnk i want to do it like the indians and just some day walk off to die
    rickibrat2 rickibrat2
    61-65, M
    Dec 27, 2011

    Death Before My Time

    I found out I am going to die and I was told I only have a couple of months I don't want to die alone but I have no choice I wish I had more time because when I die my kids will get nothing from me but I guess it's fine they have a lovin mother and a living rich stepfather I just...
    Annomous44 Annomous44
    26-30, M
    1 Response Nov 1, 2013

    Everybody Hurts

    I have been alone all my life. I suffer and carry on! Yes it hurts! I try to discover new things in life like a new book, a new hobby, something to keep me busy. I am currently reading Catch 22! It is a hilarious book! Finding something in this world to keep you busy will...
    Drknght600212 Drknght600212
    51-55, M
    Apr 21, 2012


    I'd hate to end my life without anyone around me, without anyone to hold my hand and tell me they'll miss me. The last few moments of your life are very precious and it's better to experience them with people who love and care for you around, with them holding your hand, you feel...
    Luangi Luangi
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 22, 2007
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