I Am Afraid of Dying

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 109 People

    Today I woke up but I didn't feel awake

    so I went back to sleep seeing as it is a saturday..... but I had a dream.. one of my worse fears is dying. Dying and not knowing what comes after, dying and not being able to see anyone, dying too young. Well my dream started off quite weird it started off at a cooking school...
    anger101 anger101
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 10, 2014

    Woke Up From A Bad Dream...

    It's strange that a mental phenomena can cause your physical body so much fatigue. I shouldn't be so tired right now because I've gotten much less sleep before, but I haven't felt this tired in a long time. It's probably the bad dream I had last night. Dreams of dying are the...
    DatSwag DatSwag
    22-25, F
    Sep 29, 2013

    Im atheist now but when i believed in God I was

    extremely afraid of dying because the concept of hell and heaven equally frightened me because neither seemed to much better than the other because you're stuck there either way. In theory heaven is supposed to be better but lack of certainty about what heaven was bothered me...
    newasexy newasexy
    26-30, F
    Sep 18, 2015

    I'm Petrified.

    I first started fearing death when I was 9 or 10.My mom told me all kids went through that phase and I believed her.I eventually got over it and went back to living my normal life. But,in April,someone sent me a picture of a girl after the car accident that decapitated her.I had...
    ObscureAcrasia ObscureAcrasia
    13-15, F
    Jul 7, 2009

    When I was 20, I had it in my head

    that 37 was going to be it for me. I didn't, for some reason, think I'd see a day past that monumental birthday. Don't ask me why....I guess the number just appealed to me. Being the invincible youth that I was, it didn't frighten me in the least to think my life was...
    JLBetts JLBetts
    46-50, M
    2 Responses Apr 11, 2014

    I Am A Little Bit

    The main thing I worry about is that the physical process of dying sounds EXTREMELY painful. Organ failure, lack of oxygen, and the brain shutting down sound like they will cause quite a bit of discomfort to say the least.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Oct 31, 2012

    Death.

    I'm afraid of dying before everything I've been through pays off. I have always believed that all I've seen and experienced has molded me into who I am, and all my hard work will pay off. But I'm scared of not making it to a point in life where things are okay. My whole life has...
    dejaentendu90 dejaentendu90
    22-25, F
    10 Responses Aug 13, 2012

    i'm only a twenty something.

    i'm barely old enough for anything. but i have always been afraid of dying. it makes no sense to me why honestly but it's this all the time, back of my mind fear and i don't know how to let it go.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Mar 10

    Everyday I Am Plagued With Terrible Thoughts.

    I'm not a religious person... I don't believe in afterlife, I don't believe in heaven or hell... I simply believe that when you die, that's it. That has always been my belief... but for some reason unknown, I've become very afraid of that thought. I've been trying to imagine what...
    fiercetwilight fiercetwilight
    22-25, F
    6 Responses Jan 23, 2009

    The only thing in life

    that truly scares me is death. I just don't believe that there is anything after that, and I don't want to think of myself just disappearing. I try to make the most of this life.
    WalkingMyOwnPath WalkingMyOwnPath
    41-45, M
    1 Response Jun 11, 2015

    Terrified of Dying

    I have always been afraid of dying.  Not sure all the reasons why.  I know one of the reason is I have a fear that I will see my children suffering and I will not be able to hold them and tell them it will all be OK. The fear became stronger after I saw the movie "...
    Livinginpeace Livinginpeace
    41-45, F
    4 Responses Jun 13, 2008

    Coward Or Careful?

    My country is now crime ridden and no one seems safe.  I take ordinary precautions against crime and so I am not as yet paranoid. Last year my Brother In Law died suddenly and I again became concerned about my mortality.  The same thing happened when my Dad died. ...
    mortal mortal
    41-45, M
    4 Responses Feb 4, 2008

    They Want Me Dead

    I was in a Futurama type world, and my best friend and I were touring our newest home. We went to go find my family, but were stopped by 2 vampires. (Imagine the look of that ,oldy guy from Ghost Rider 2 wearing a black robe) It was like for a second I could see in a 3rd person...
    amorinaAAF amorinaAAF
    13-15, F
    Jun 30, 2012

    Afraid Of Dying, But Not Of Death.

    That's right. I'm afraid of the process of dying, but I am not afraid of what comes after that. I am afraid to leave my body and go off to where I believe I will go, but I am not afraid to settle in there, and greet the arms of death. I am afraid that I will suffocate, I'm...
    NostalgiaAndStars NostalgiaAndStars
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jul 25, 2013

    Coughing up blood & I'm in

    so much pain. All I can do is take these painkillers to stop the pain… I think I'm gone… rolling on the floor… messing up the carpet…
    AllLoveXOXO AllLoveXOXO
    18-21, M
    Mar 13, 2014

    I get intense feelings

    that turn into anxiety/panic attacks every time I think about dying. And it's over the silliest of things, I could be looking down at my hands and just randomly think "When I die, I won't be able to see anymore.." These overwhelming feelings of panic usually come at night, when...
    boyda12 boyda12
    22-25, F
    Apr 3, 2014

    Scared

    Im scared shitless of dying. Im not sure if im affraid of death as such - i think i might be more afraid of not living, not feeling, not thinking - that i will be no more. I lie awake at night and wonder, what it is going to be like not to exist. F***ed up right? If im dead...
    RafalS RafalS
    36-40, M
    2 Responses Jul 15, 2012

    I Am

    at one point of time i wasnt i was accauly excited by the fact of dying (i know that sounds sick but i mean it in a different way) i like to say i believe in god because i do but everyone around me dont and is alway trying to tell that there is no afterlife and it scares me like...
    ppwlover ppwlover
    18-21, F
    Oct 24, 2011

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