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I Am Afraid of Dying

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    Coughing up blood & I'm in

    so much pain. All I can do is take these painkillers to stop the pain… I think I'm gone… rolling on the floor… messing up the carpet…
    AllLoveXOXO AllLoveXOXO 18-21, M Mar 13

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    When I was 20, I had it in my head

    that 37 was going to be it for me. I didn't, for some reason, think I'd see a day past that monumental birthday. Don't ask me why....I guess the number just appealed to me. Being the invincible youth that I was, it didn't frighten me in the least to think my life was...
    JLBetts JLBetts 46-50, M 1 Response Apr 11

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    Woke Up From A Bad Dream...

    It's strange that a mental phenomena can cause your physical body so much fatigue. I shouldn't be so tired right now because I've gotten much less sleep before, but I haven't felt this tired in a long time. It's probably the bad dream I had last night. Dreams of dying are the...
    DatSwag DatSwag 22-25, F Sep 29, 2013

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    Everyday I Am Plagued With Terrible Thoughts.

    I'm not a religious person... I don't believe in afterlife, I don't believe in heaven or hell... I simply believe that when you die, that's it. That has always been my belief... but for some reason unknown, I've become very afraid of that thought. I've been trying to imagine what...
    fiercetwilight fiercetwilight 22-25, F 7 Responses Jan 23, 2009

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    Coward Or Careful?

    My country is now crime ridden and no one seems safe.  I take ordinary precautions against crime and so I am not as yet paranoid. Last year my Brother In Law died suddenly and I again became concerned about my mortality.  The same thing happened when my Dad died. ...
    mortal mortal 41-45, M 4 Responses Feb 4, 2008

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    I get intense feelings

    that turn into anxiety/panic attacks every time I think about dying. And it's over the silliest of things, I could be looking down at my hands and just randomly think "When I die, I won't be able to see anymore.." These overwhelming feelings of panic usually come at night, when...
    boyda12 boyda12 18-21, F Apr 3

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    I'm Petrified.

    I first started fearing death when I was 9 or 10.My mom told me all kids went through that phase and I believed her.I eventually got over it and went back to living my normal life. But,in April,someone sent me a picture of a girl after the car accident that decapitated her.I had...
    ObscureAcrasia ObscureAcrasia 13-15, F Jul 7, 2009

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    They Want Me Dead

    I was in a Futurama type world, and my best friend and I were touring our newest home. We went to go find my family, but were stopped by 2 vampires. (Imagine the look of that ,oldy guy from Ghost Rider 2 wearing a black robe) It was like for a second I could see in a 3rd person...
    amorinaAAF amorinaAAF 13-15, F Jun 30, 2012

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    Today I woke up but I didn't feel awake

    so I went back to sleep seeing as it is a saturday..... but I had a dream.. one of my worse fears is dying. Dying and not knowing what comes after, dying and not being able to see anyone, dying too young. Well my dream started off quite weird it started off at a cooking school...
    anger101 anger101 16-17, F 1 Response May 10

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    Scared

    Im scared shitless of dying. Im not sure if im affraid of death as such - i think i might be more afraid of not living, not feeling, not thinking - that i will be no more. I lie awake at night and wonder, what it is going to be like not to exist. F***ed up right? If im dead...
    RafalS RafalS 36-40, M 2 Responses Jul 15, 2012

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    I Am A Little Bit

    The main thing I worry about is that the physical process of dying sounds EXTREMELY painful. Organ failure, lack of oxygen, and the brain shutting down sound like they will cause quite a bit of discomfort to say the least.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Oct 31, 2012

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    Death.

    I'm afraid of dying before everything I've been through pays off. I have always believed that all I've seen and experienced has molded me into who I am, and all my hard work will pay off. But I'm scared of not making it to a point in life where things are okay. My whole life has...
    dejaentendu90 dejaentendu90 22-25, F 11 Responses Aug 13, 2012

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    Terrified of Dying

    I have always been afraid of dying.  Not sure all the reasons why.  I know one of the reason is I have a fear that I will see my children suffering and I will not be able to hold them and tell them it will all be OK. The fear became stronger after I saw the movie "...
    Livinginpeace Livinginpeace 41-45, F 4 Responses Jun 13, 2008

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    Afraid Of Dying, But Not Of Death.

    That's right. I'm afraid of the process of dying, but I am not afraid of what comes after that. I am afraid to leave my body and go off to where I believe I will go, but I am not afraid to settle in there, and greet the arms of death. I am afraid that I will suffocate, I'm...
    NostalgiaAndStars NostalgiaAndStars 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 25, 2013

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    I Am

    at one point of time i wasnt i was accauly excited by the fact of dying (i know that sounds sick but i mean it in a different way) i like to say i believe in god because i do but everyone around me dont and is alway trying to tell that there is no afterlife and it scares me like...
    ppwlover ppwlover 18-21, F Oct 24, 2011

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    cherryjar cherryjar 26-30, F 3 Responses Oct 4

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    Manuala Manuala 18-21, F Sep 23

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    Not afraid but i don't love anyone. I just love myself, i spend my all time with myself cause i don't like to have any friends, i solve my problems by myself, talk to myself, i do...
    mahdiraza mahdiraza 16-17, M Sep 23

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    I'm afraid that if I ever got together with my crush, people would try to split us up. I'm afraid of ill-willed people spreading rumors and lies about us. I'm afraid of losing the...
    WinterIncandescence WinterIncandescence 16-17, F Sep 29

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    As much as I truly want to experience someone mentally physically emotionally & spiritually. I am so afraid. Afraid of not being enough, if not getting the love right back. I...
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