I Am Afraid Of Getting Close To People

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    I don't have any close friends

    or family. Whenever I do get close to someone I always find some way of f*cking it up. I'm so tired of being lonely but at the same time afraid that if I get close to someone I will end up hurting them.
    gochickinparty gochickinparty
    18-21, F
    Aug 7, 2014

    and this is why. good god I'm going to medicate

    until I either don't feel anything or am so gone there is no coming back.
    kk1874 kk1874
    31-35, F
    Apr 6

    I Want To Let You In

    I want to relax and believe the nice things you say to me... I want to lie back and just enjoy you and your presence. I want to feel you touch me and not grimace because I am imagining how disgusting you're thinking my body is. I want to trust every word you say and feel safe and...
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit
    36-40, F
    Jan 4, 2012

    I keep my heart closed off to people usually.

    They can always have a part of me, but rarely do they get all of me. I've been shown too many times that it's easy for people just to walk away. You let them in one day and the next you don't matter enough to even be around. Right now I'm struggling with getting my partner back...
    kk1874 kk1874
    31-35, F
    1 Response Feb 2

    I'm afraid. I don't know.

    I feel like I'm broken. I'd always doubt my capabilities when it comes to letting people in. I'm afraid of the disappointment. Afraid of getting hurt. Already thinking about how the end will hurt even more.
    freestyler605 freestyler605
    22-25, M
    Jan 22

    It's Always Hard

    I wish I had more initial trust in people, but the truth is I don't trust anyone. When the people that are the absolute closest to you turn on you, then it's hard to ever start over with anyone. I never said it was impossible though :)
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Feb 11, 2011
    Jaycee04 Jaycee04
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jan 28

    Not that I am afraid

    but rather I know someone who is afraid of getting close to me. We met online and right from the start we connected. We had a great time chatting online and talked on the phone once, but in an instant she "disappeared". I couldn't get in touch with her for about a month and it...
    freestyler605 freestyler605
    22-25, M
    Jan 3, 2015

    Whenever I think I have a friend someone I can

    talk to someone I think cares about me I'm always wrong no one ever does care so I'm done getting close to people..........
    tyler12341212 tyler12341212
    16-17, M
    2 Responses Jun 5, 2014

    Close To People

    I like patterns, seeing what works and what doesn't, being able to predict - maybe not totally accurately but at least being aware of what's most likely coming around the bend. Most fears I guess, stem from the unknown. Hence this fear. When it comes to trusting people, I...
    Fallflower Fallflower
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Feb 18, 2011

    That happens when people just betray you

    and leave you. It's fine though. I'm more accustomed to being isolated now. It's easier on me than having to worry about friendships. There's just a lot less stress on me. Sure, it hurts from time to time, but it's the usual.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Jan 27

    I'm scared of getting close,

    because I have lost many friends in my life. Not because of arguments, but just life, they mostly moved somewhere far and we just lost contact after a while. Our roads diverged and we just got on separate paths. In relationships I'm scared of getting close because sure it could...
    blooop123 blooop123
    22-25, F
    Jun 15, 2014

    Yay A New Fear!

    All stemming from the same thing. Being abandoned. That's where it all started. That's what I've learned and what I try to work through. I tell myself not everyone will leave me but it's a lie. I'll die alone and no one will ever stay with me. Who wants to stay with me (besides...
    WiltingBlossom WiltingBlossom
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Jul 27, 2011

    People change just like the seasons change.

    Im afraid of losing people whom used to be with me everyday. I hate that feeling of losing someone you cherish the most. I wish people never changed. But that how it works. :((
    thousandroses thousandroses
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jun 15, 2014

    I'm afraid of being carried,

    then dropped hard to the point of no recovery... I've been through so many thing I can't handle too much more
    violetangel violetangel
    13-15, F
    1 Response Jun 15, 2014

    Every single time i let my guard down

    and start to trust and have a little hope with a person they let me down.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jun 15, 2014
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