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I Am Afraid Of Losing Control

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    I Want To Scream

    I'm afraid of losing control because I suffer from depression and I have been having spells of basically being catatonic for hours at a time and all I can think of when I'm in these catatonic states is getting up, screaming at the top of my lungs and starting to destroy...
    kerrab1983 kerrab1983 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 5, 2010

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    Fear

    there are alot of things i am afraid of losing control of. when you let down the walls and let people in they see your fears. fear of losing controle of my self is scary. there are sometimes when i do things and i dont even realize its me doing them. when it comes to surpressed...
    DarkAmber DarkAmber 18-21, F Mar 1, 2010

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    I've BEEN losing control. It was fun in the beginning... but now I'm at a point I'm beginning to feel very afraid
    sadvibes sadvibes 18-21, F 11 mins ago

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    They say that fear is what stands between you and your dreams. Around the age of 16, I decided to do things I was afraid of. Not anything too dangerous, just awkward, embarassing...
    sparkydream sparkydream 18-21, F 22 hrs ago

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    Any girls that want to control a guy's bladder? Tonight I'll be going to bed without peeing and tomorrow I have the day off so I'm hoping to find someone to control my bladder.
    ThereBackAgain87 ThereBackAgain87 26-30, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I feel like I'm losing myself to past experiences. I try to over come all the obstacles in life and still pull myself together but I've realized that through every obstacle I left...
    ladycherie97 ladycherie97 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I feel , dark , alone and angry , I feel empty, I feel like iam losing my strength, I don't know what to do. I don't want to do anything, I don't want to go out , I feel...
    PedroMiguel583 PedroMiguel583 22-25, M 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    I had a cruel past. Everytime I take a nap, series of fear will awaken me. 2 years ago, I was bullied. It started when I was 6 until I turned 17. I was bullied for 11 years. They...
    lavendermist07 lavendermist07 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Just Once Just once in my Life. It would be nice If someone Was afraid Of Losing me I am always Afraid That I am going To lose someone I Love that someone will decide they no...
    BroknGirl89 BroknGirl89 26-30, F 3 days ago

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    I had a close call with losing my salvation . 4 months of horror. I was restored . I hope others facing this kind of ordeal will read my account . It contains elements of what...
    playedthefool1 playedthefool1 51-55, M 3 days ago

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    I'm not eating. I just need someone at my side. Not telling me to eat and gain weight like a pig. But someone that's going through what I'm going through. Trying to lose weight by...
    Regi0215 Regi0215 16-17, F 3 days ago

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    he is flawless to me, how simply, smoothly he takes control. he knows he has me, my everything. Sirs control is. is beautiful. his strength in everything he does. I will fallow him...
    mrsskayl mrsskayl 26-30, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    Since class 5 I've kept losing friends either they've left town or I have and this time the girl who is not only my best friend but was my best friend andore is leaving I thought...
    milind3012 milind3012 18-21, M 5 days ago

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    I'm more than just scared of losing you... I'm terrified, wrecked, and even dead if I ever lose you... Please, don't leave me... You're the only reason why I get up each morning...
    DarkAngel483 DarkAngel483 13-15, F 6 days ago

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    I regret losing my virginity. Let's just say it was too young too dumb. I knew the guy for three years before we started dating. We ended up rushing things and I immediately...
    ashs998 ashs998 16-17, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Whoo wants to control me?? I really wanna be controlled
    GAMER108 GAMER108 13-15, M a week ago

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    I used to have quite a few friends, i even had a best friend but everything changed... I transferred schools and my best friend was left in the previous school. That's not what...
    fallenindarkness fallenindarkness 13-15, F Jun 27

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    I am afraid. I am afraid of spiders, heights, death, all of it, all of the petty and more complex creatures, things, and instances, but that is of the least importance as of right...
    ASMRLegion ASMRLegion 18-21, T Jun 27

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    It's no longer depression, heck it isn't even a random thought anymore. No reason for it to be there, I have a good life and nothing to be sad about. Su is back to a constant...
    Masteris Masteris 70+, M Jun 26

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    the closer they r to u...the closer for them to hurt u.with that,I started losing my trust to people around me...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jun 26

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    Yes I am feeling better with my weight loss, actually happy! The fasting and eating my meals in a small amount is helping quite well, especially that whenever I go to the city from...
    VisionOfLove VisionOfLove 26-30, F Jun 25

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    Lately my brain is meticulously chaotic. Maybe I'm spiraling out of control
    Notadickjusthonest Notadickjusthonest 26-30, F 3 Responses Jun 23

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    Whoever controls the media controls the mind. People are so blissfully ignorant to what the media doesn't share with the public and are so easily manipulated to think whatever...
    Mandatorysuicide Mandatorysuicide 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 22

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    I went to a clinic not too long ago to get tested for STIs. They tests came back negative, thankfully. But the workers gave me free condoms, Plan B, and birth control (even though...
    Dezaria Dezaria 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 22

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    For everyone who is afraid- You can't spend the rest of your life being afraid of people rejecting you, and you have to start by not rejecting yourself, you don't deserve it. From...
    AnyaW AnyaW 13-15 3 Responses Jun 22

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    I had a dream which helped me realize I am afraid of scrutiny. I can't post things and leave them up because I heavily scrutinize everything I write. I don't just express what's...
    ReadyFreddieDarling ReadyFreddieDarling 26-30 Jun 22

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    plateaus #567: it's kind of disheartening when you notice that your cat is losing weight faster than you and all he does is eat and sleep all day
    jbm1984 jbm1984 31-35, F 2 Responses Jun 20

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    If u take away guns from the citzens u just leave them helpless when the criminals who receive guns illegally come along. Even if u were to wipe out all guns, ur just gonna make...
    jmarquart jmarquart 13-15, F Jun 20

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    What gun control is... To take the way of defending yourselves away from the citizens. It does absolutely nothing except taking away the guns from the good people. The criminals...
    jmarquart jmarquart 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 20

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    I'm going through a hard time as my husband and I are taking space. I'm so confused about his feelings for me that it's a constant back and forth between divorcing or not. I have...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jun 19

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    I'm pretty sure I bombed an interview this morning. I tried to be prepared but my anxiety was out of control. I feel like I'm totally failing my family.
    ta2s4me2 ta2s4me2 31-35, F 1 Response Jun 19

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    I am only 20 but I feel like I will never find love. I see so many people my age that have long relationships and I feel like a total loser. I just had a break up... the...
    JustDevy JustDevy 18-21, F 5 Responses Jun 18

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    I'm afraid I'll be alone for the rest of my life. That I'll never find someone I can connect with someone. That scares me a lot.
    ChainedHeart ChainedHeart 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 18

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    Okay, so this whole experience seems silly, but I have two words for you my bunny-fearing friends: Donnie. Darko. Once I saw that movie, bunnies were out. Easter is the worst...
    karabbit9 karabbit9 26-30, F Jun 17

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    doesnt matter who i talk to if its girls i know or if its girls i meet on EP I always end up alone i cant be in any freaking relationship and i am afraid i will be like that...
    ThePsychoMantis ThePsychoMantis 13-15, M 3 Responses Jun 17

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    Every time I get comfortable with someone, they always leave. Even when they save they're not going to leave, they do. I'm afraid to get close with anyone because they always end...
    thatlonelygirl69 thatlonelygirl69 13-15, F 4 Responses Jun 17

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    On 1st August, ZJ40DB Arctic Solids Control System would be put into operation in Lukoil oilfield of Russia and was being debugged for the last time in the workshop of KOSUN Yongle...
    zmzmllll zmzmllll 26-30, F Jun 17

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    My mind I've grown so attached to it's negativity, if I don't try to focus on work I'll probably be so afraid of everyone at work. Today I just got so awkward towards others...
    Nual Nual 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 16

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    It is always at the back of my mind. I am always wondering. Especially when my cousins and friends announce their engagements. I always wonder...when? How? I know a few older...
    Espiallidocious Espiallidocious 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 15

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    I do love possessive and controlling men to the point where is it not crazy abuse to my mental and physical state. I love feeling protected and I love men who shows masculinity and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jun 15

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    I used to be afraid to die even though it really far off. I'm not afraid anymore because I think there a several things that could happen in tandem with my body decaying. 1 I will...
    Maybeincubus Maybeincubus 22-25, M Jun 15

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