I Am Afraid Of Losing Control

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    I Want To Scream

    I'm afraid of losing control because I suffer from depression and I have been having spells of basically being catatonic for hours at a time and all I can think of when I'm in these catatonic states is getting up, screaming at the top of my lungs and starting to destroy...
    kerrab1983 kerrab1983
    26-30, F
    1 Response Mar 5, 2010

    Fear

    there are alot of things i am afraid of losing control of. when you let down the walls and let people in they see your fears. fear of losing controle of my self is scary. there are sometimes when i do things and i dont even realize its me doing them. when it comes to surpressed...
    DarkAmber DarkAmber
    18-21, F
    Mar 1, 2010

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