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I Am Afraid Of Losing Control

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    Fear

    there are alot of things i am afraid of losing control of. when you let down the walls and let people in they see your fears. fear of losing controle of my self is scary. there are sometimes when i do things and i dont even realize its me doing them. when it comes to surpressed...
    DarkAmber DarkAmber 18-21, F Mar 1, 2010

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    I Want To Scream

    I'm afraid of losing control because I suffer from depression and I have been having spells of basically being catatonic for hours at a time and all I can think of when I'm in these catatonic states is getting up, screaming at the top of my lungs and starting to destroy...
    kerrab1983 kerrab1983 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 5, 2010

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    Sometimes I just feel like disappearing. Just running away. No note, no trace of a presence left behind. Just getting my ****, and leaving.
    BloodofAmara BloodofAmara 16-17, F Apr 6

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    I have a little bit of a different experience that use to happen to me, thank god i finally got out of the house and got my own life and i have never been so happy and so "free...
    link9us link9us 26-30, M 7 hrs ago

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    In todays world, Maybe in the past it was this way as there was more repression from law, society etc. So same goes for then in some areas of the world and sadly the same applies...
    Traveller96 Traveller96 18-21, F 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    I'm afraid to let it out of its cage There where reason why it was lock up I had to, you see. The pain was to great. I need to hide it and forget it. I wasn't ready for you. I didn...
    mrspixley99 mrspixley99 46-50, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I can't hold on anymore it hurts too much but I'm afraid if I let go I'll hurt myself and others
    ashleysokolik ashleysokolik 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 6

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    I'm afraid I'm gonna lose everything and everyone I care about :( I don't want to be alone :( I don't want to lose my love or anyone :(
    EmbraceTheEVIL EmbraceTheEVIL 18-21, M 5 Responses Apr 8

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    I'm that kind of person who never gets in any kind of fight, at least outside my house... in public I tend to be quiet and polite. But that's it. I feel like I live in this bubble...
    chosette chosette 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 12

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    I'm trapped in the friend zone. I am always told that I will meet the perfect girl one day. I am called handsome, sweet, and funny. Even with all that under my belt, they friend...
    Chewblasta Chewblasta 22-25, M 1 Response Apr 14

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    I turn 20 in about 4 months. I go to college and live on campus (but the school is close enough to home that I can go back on the weekends). I do just fine on my own and I am...
    Jesxica Jesxica 18-21, F Apr 17

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    I have been married for 16 years and have daughters of 11 and 13, whom I adore. My marriage is a struggle because my wife, for all her good points, dislikes intimacy of any kind...
    bach62 bach62 51-55, M 2 Responses Apr 19

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    I'm also afraid that I'll never be able to fully rid myself of the people I hate.
    TheBadgeringWitness TheBadgeringWitness 26-30 1 Response Apr 24

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    I no longer believe in love, and I realize now that that has been foundational for me for my entire life- and now I feel like a false-storefront, everything looks quite alright...
    nighthouse66 nighthouse66 36-40, F 1 Response Apr 21

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    I truly love my mother and I know she wants what is best for me, but I am very scared of her too, I once read a gossip magazine so I could explore my feminine side a little...
    AnAngelsKiss AnAngelsKiss 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 12

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    I have lost 20 lbs in the last month. You might think that's unhealthy, but I'm actually doing it in the healthiest way possible!(: I'm doing the paleo/ketogenic lifestyle. I am...
    DemitriaGoddess3 DemitriaGoddess3 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 15

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    Not scared.. terrified. I stay up all night worrying. I worry if someone gets in a car. I worry when it rains. When I was in elementary school I would purposely make myself sick...
    DeIuxedEdition DeIuxedEdition 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 24

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    Control...Letting the Curves Take You...The answer to control is practicing surrender.Trying to maintain control in this life is a bit like trying to maintain control on a roller...
    anghel77 anghel77 36-40, F 6 days ago

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    I am very afraid. I live in turmoil every single day. I depend upon a theory that I substituted my own definition for and this theory is “Mind Over Matter”. The substitution...
    ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT 26-30, F 2 days ago

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    My bf is thinking about at least 3 years studding in an other country and it won't be easy for me to move to that land and he knows it. He and a friend of his wish to go that...
    kristhy kristhy 22-25, F Apr 5

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    I'm seriously losing it over here. I really really really want to leave this life, but I'm terrified of breaking my parents' hearts. I just can't do this. Life hurts so much. I don...
    Emilyyyyy Emilyyyyy 18-21 Apr 5

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    I think we have to be careful here there's a difference between controlling with permission and directing the family and real hard control of every aspect of your life. Now my...
    louisetiger1 louisetiger1 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 11

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    I'm not sure what's causing it, but I am losing touch with all my close friends and family, can't seem to make time for anyone, and I can't find time for art, literature, music all...
    ianbrewman ianbrewman 26-30, T 2 Responses Apr 18

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    Has anyone ever been in a rough relationship and it feels like you're losing who you are as a person?
    xSweetnessx xSweetnessx 16-17, F 3 Responses Apr 19

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    "Maybe there's something you're afraid to say, or someone you're afraid to love, or somewhere you're afraid to go. Its going to hurt. Its going to hurt because it matters." - John...
    NewBeginnings77 NewBeginnings77 31-35, F Apr 21

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    So about ten minutes ago, I went around the neighborhood asking neighbors I knew if there was any housework I could do for them for a little pay. A little pay being like two...
    DementedKarkat DementedKarkat 13-15, T 1 Response Apr 23

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    There are things in life that I wish for - a better life, more time with my close ones, getting fit etc. Yet my laid back attitude is working against me, with me doing nothing and...
    HappieStinger HappieStinger 41-45, M 3 Responses a week ago

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    All my life I had family backstab me and lie to me. I get friends who turn out to not be my friends. When I finally get a friend I end up moving. Same thing when I meet a girl I...
    HERO132 HERO132 22-25, M 5 days ago

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    With all the work I have this week and next week I am losing myself >.<
    RequitAX RequitAX 18-21, M 4 days ago

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    I baby shop for my cousins shower and always say to myself I will never be at the point where I will have a family. I want a family and am afraid it will never happen to me. I am...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Both my parents (my mom especially) are extremely controlling. Most people will say that its for my protection, but this is going way beyond that. They have settings on my...
    kaylabear252 kaylabear252 13-15, F 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    who the hell would be against birth control? Seriously, people never cease to amaze me. "Sure, let's go against birth control! This way if the condemn breaks, the girl will get...
    PsychGirl94 PsychGirl94 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 5

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    Not in every aspect of my life. I think is more of I allow him to be in control in a few things. Either because he's better at it or he's just sexy while I'm control. But at the...
    Likmesilly Likmesilly 26-30, F Apr 11

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    afraid of what will happen, if I speak up, speak out, let them know I'm hurting. but how do you tell someone who thinks you're perfectly fine, that you dread everyday before it...
    irishlassy98 irishlassy98 16-17, F Apr 13

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    I think my biggest fear is the fear of myself getting sick to my stomach or someone else getting sick. Since I was a little girl I have been terrified of it. Everything about it...
    gardengirl17 gardengirl17 22-25, F Apr 14

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    I have two fantasies about control and food. In the first, someone keeps gifting me weight loss supplements while I work out and lose weight. In the second, someone insists on...
    need2Bcontrolled83 need2Bcontrolled83 31-35, F 4 Responses Apr 21

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    At first I feel just sorry for him because of his condition, he is suffering from Asperger's disorder, a sort of autistic kind of thing. And he told me that since 4 he was in a lot...
    nbsbgal nbsbgal 22-25, F Apr 22

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    Whenever I finish with school, I'm always afraid to find out what my grades are because I'm afraid I'm going to fail.
    AppleGirl22 AppleGirl22 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 23

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    My dad wants me to be a doctor and I wanted to be a doctor too, but i'm starting to doubt myself. I'm not good with socializing, i'm kind of a introvert. My memory is pretty bland...
    Garcinia Garcinia 16-17, F 7 Responses Apr 26

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    I have a few dreams which are seemingly very difficult to accomplish.Already having failed in accomplishing many things due to my mistakes.I am afraid but still have hope for...
    GenuineAngel GenuineAngel 18-21, F 5 Responses 5 days ago

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    Honestly a few months ago I may have been afraid of death now I can't wait to die im not afraid of it because death is happiness it takes u off of this horrible world where...
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15 2 Responses 4 days ago

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