I Am Afraid Of Love

I used to want to find someone, get married, have children, and live happily ever after. I still ADORE love stories, both movies and books, but I can't fathom it in real life. I have never dated or anything as of 21 years in May. I am...

I never thought I could be this selfish. Or even this foolish, for that matter.
Maybe I should cover a bit of background here first. I'm a bisexual teenager with a pretty decent life with lots of friends and a good family. I really have...

Yep this is good song expainin it
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BpiqgIn6I9o

lyrics
I Keep on tellin myself that I'm alright
but I know that this wasn't other times
when i let em go and i was fine ooo I can't lie

B-section:
cuz I...

yeah i was afraid
till i said baby i will hurt for u , i want to feel every pain for u, and i did
i do
i will
you cant break me in that i become a rock
ill take all your pain you can have my my love and eternal amazement
and thats all...

I dont know how people do it.
They date for a short period of time and then its instant love. I am skeptical. I dont trust people, and I have a hard time letting people in. I have had a traumatic past, and that skewed my thinking and I...

wow I really thought I was the only one who was afraid of love. I am almost 21years old and every single one of my friends is married. They got married at 17, 19, & 20 years old. I have about 13 friends who all got married this...

So there's this girl that I've been talking to for almost a month now. I met her on a dating website, we went out for dinner the other night, and she's just as awesome as she's been since we started talking. Thing is, she says she's not...

When my very 1st GF left me for another guy 2 years ago... I emotionally broke down. I got high off caugh syrup, I cut myself, I even tried to kill myself a few times. Met a new girl, that relationship didnt even last 6 months because...

Today I just a significant realization. I do not know exactly when it hit me just how much I fear it. I have even come to conclude that romantic love has the smallest of possibilty if any to exsist or at least the type of love...

At last, every time I get it I refuse it.
Try to get them to love me more and hurt for me.
So I pull away, pull away from the pain, the fear and the hidden left over resentments.

I've been hurt so much...
But they say love like you've...

I have never loved anyone. Not because I didn't want to, or because people didn't try to love me, but simply because I never made that connection. I respect my parents and siblings, but I don't think I love them. Same goes for my...

I still have feelings of unworthiness that follow me around like a shadow. I`ve had both sides of my family, and his family, and him, go back on their words. Turn around and two face me. Say they will then they wont. Denied me any real...

I don't want to idolize anyone and put them at a god-like status. I don't want to lose sleep and lose eating over anyone anymore. I don't want to feed anyone's ego like that. I don't want to give myself to one person because my friends...

I'm afraid of falling in love and being completely vulnerable with someone. I'm really scared that someone could hurt me and break my heart.
I have never been in love with anyone my entire life and I think it's so weird.

i suppose its because ive never really had that meaningful relationship. im afraid that ill never get it, but im afraid that if i did get it i'd be out of my depth..
i dont know i confuse myself sometimes.. i want someone but im afraid...

And I'm sorry...
All my work to keep it going, to flow passionately, I waste. All his work to keep me feeling comfortable and well... To harness me to his heart.. I waste. Because if I haven't seen the fire that will ruin this, I...

I am young, I may not understand what love is. But I don't give it the chance, I don't let people know me. If I see that they are beginning to I run away close myself off try to make them understand why I am unworthy of their...

I am afraid because if there is such a thing as love, it sure can cause a whole lotta pain.