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I Am Afraid of My Ex

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    Mostly I'm Afraid of Myself With Him

      I'm afraid that if he comes back here, apologizes & says he's changed.... I'll take him back. I'm afraid that he's planning this & waiting until I am so lonely, so scared, so utterly alone, that I'll take him back no questions asked. That I'll assume he's the best...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 13, 2009

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    I took a stand and finally reported him.

    it took 4 years but I finally did it.
    jess7892 jess7892 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 14

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    My Ex

    It was about six years ago. Really, I got off pretty easy compared to what a lot of women go through. I know he hit me some, but I was never injured. I don't even really remember it. There was a friend who saw it, and was always trying to get me away, but I wouldn't listen. She's...
    emilytx92 emilytx92 18-21, F Mar 14, 2013

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    Because my ex husband was physically

    and emotionally abusive I am terrified of him. I saw him driving through town yesterday and it the first thought than ran though my mind was "please god I don't want to die". I try not to hate him but at times like this I do
    krazykay20 krazykay20 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 16

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    I had a relationship with a man

    that lasted 9 months. He was dark and moody and smoked pot 24/7. I'm not against pot, but he smoked ALOT. He finally got a job. He has been physically and emotionally abusive and always talks about wanting to "kill someone." When I broke up with him, he took me to court for...
    SorrowofHeart SorrowofHeart 51-55, F a week ago

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    Debate Club

    All my friends are his friends and I can never have anything. He's so popular and in a lot of clubs but one he wasn't in was the one I really wanted. I joined it. My friend tyler joined it too and then convinced him to join it.....I cried so hard and I'm dropping out of debate...
    whispywind whispywind 16-17, F 3 Responses Oct 27, 2013

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    Lovers to Strangers

    There was a point in my life where i'd do anything for a woman i had completely fallen in love with. But then things got sour;feelings of doubt and worry came over me. But i still wanted to believe in her though my friends thought otherwise, which, turned out to be true. I'm...
    jackofspades jackofspades 22-25, M Jul 13, 2009

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    I used to have nightmares about him fulfilling

    the promise he made before he went to prison all the time. he told me he would come back to find me, and hurt everyone I know. that he would make me watch. he hasn't found me yet. I haven't had one the nightmares for almost 6 months. **last night, I dreamed I was back in...
    jess7892 jess7892 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 19

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    Just Left And Scared...

    Two days ago I left the apartment that I shared with my partner without telling him my plans, I had told him a few months previously that I no longer wanted to live with him (we had been living together for a year) but he couldn't accept that I wanted to go. We get on well but...
    Homeworker Homeworker 22-25 2 Responses May 3, 2012

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    Because He Might Kill Me

    That is why I am afraid of MY ex. I met this guy during my first year in community college and fell hard for him, even though he was 12 years older than me. I ended up moving in with him and spent four years of my life being his girlfriend. It was great for a while but he...
    Voodoolou Voodoolou 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 13, 2009

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    He Scares The Hell Out Of Me

    When I was 14 I dated a guy who seemed to be really nice. After a few weeks he became obsessive. He would call me 15-20 times a day wanting to know where I was and who I was with and constantly telling me he loved me. It was creepy so I broke it off. He wrote me love letters...
    k12291987h k12291987h 22-25, F Oct 26, 2011

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    What Do I Do??

    I can never seem to find a good man ever since I lost my first husband.  To start my story I got married young, and had two children. I was so happy for so long and then got bored taking my husband for granted and ended up cheating. After my divorce I got involved with mean men...
    lostgirl1978 lostgirl1978 31-35 1 Response Jun 4, 2012

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    Crazy Meets Psychotic

    The relationship was my own fault -- I moved to a small town without a strong support network, let down any good judgement and allowed my vulnerabilities and mental illness to direct my poor choices, and succumbed to the flattery of a man who presented a very charming, smart side...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Aug 25, 2010

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    I Just Wanna Go On W/ My Life!

    Okay so, I left this guy a year ago now, it took me five YEARS to leave but I finally was able to do it. Ive run and lived on the street,, gone to three womens shelters, gone to the police and the only thing that gave me enough strength and distance to stay away from him was the...
    Jesuswalkswitme Jesuswalkswitme 22-25, F 2 Responses Oct 7, 2009

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    3 Years Later, And I Still Have Nightmares

    He never raised a hand to me. Never physically hurt me. If anything he was as honest as a psychopath can get I guess. I still remember when I met him. He was charming, charismatic, and I just felt drawn to him. I didn't know anything about him. I asked one of my friends who...
    Zaxzia Zaxzia 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 18, 2012

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    I'm sorry for the lengthy post... I just watched Geography Club and it got me regretting how long it took me to come out, and then explore as to why that was.... One of the things...
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    I'm afraid of the truth so live my life in the dark. I don't find answers to questions. I just dwell on them and think of the what ifs. I'm afraid that if I find out what's real...
    bhabhablacksheep bhabhablacksheep 22-25, F Nov 23

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    I've always felt afraid to let people get close to me both physically and emotionally. I think this is why I have never dated someone or I get choked up when someone asks me on a...
    LilFA LilFA 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 22

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    I bottle everything up. I'm not very talkative. I'm not how I used to be. I don't tell secrets to many people. I don't like but I do like getting close to people. I like to read...
    ForeverANomad ForeverANomad 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 2

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    By love I don't mean guys or anything...and I don't mean losing people to death. But I am afraid of losing my friends and family, that they will stop caring about me or I will do...
    prznaroosak prznaroosak 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 6

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    I am afraid of relationships. I think I always have been. I can't remember a time when I was able to give myself to someone without second thought or with uninhibited trust. I'm...
    shanequea shanequea 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 10

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    I'm afraid to fall in love because of my trust issues. When I love. I love hard. I make you the center of my world. I am known to be the type of girl that isn't clingy, but I do...
    Solrentia Solrentia 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 19

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    We know deep down that life is short, and that death will happen to all of us eventually, and yet we are infinitely surprised when it happens to someone we know. LIVE your life...
    raquel80 raquel80 31-35, F 7 Responses Dec 10

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    I'm very much afraid of guys/men and I want to overcome this fear and avoidance. I can never remember not having this anxiety. From even before being enrolled in my first year of...
    2openmind 2openmind 18-21, F Nov 23

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    I am afraid of looking in to the mirror also. but for 2 reasons. 1) I don't like the way I look. 2) I have this irrational fear that the person looking back will try to grab me...
    Gr3mL1N Gr3mL1N 31-35, M 2 Responses Nov 25

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    OK, "afraid" is probably the wrong word choice. I'm not afraid I'll be single for the rest of my life, I'm quite certain of it. As much as I'd love to find that perfect woman to...
    FordPrefect42 FordPrefect42 41-45, M 8 Responses Dec 2

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    I'm not afraid of dying at all, but I'm always afraid of losing loved ones or pets.
    Annaelaine Annaelaine 13-15, F Dec 7

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    I'm afraid I'll get pressured to live a life I don't desire when I can be doing something else. I'm also afraid I'll regret not being forced into a lifestyle. It's complicated.
    T055 T055 16-17, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    My old best friend just left me, I thought we were okay but apparently not. I just recently met someone that is so very a like me but still different. I'm afraid to lose him, I...
    LoneFox29 LoneFox29 16-17, F 2 days ago

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    Hello people I am very afraid of people hating me I hope everyone can be nice too me some people really do hate people for what they are worth they don't even give u a reason for...
    Nbosworth47 Nbosworth47 46-50, M 1 Response Nov 18

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    These few days I start to feel insecure and afraid of death. I imagine what if I got a deadly decease and I couldn't survive on it. The thoughts are wrong but they are killing me...
    meandmythought meandmythought 26-30, F Nov 19

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    So I've lived here for two years now but I have barely any friends. I want to make new ones but I'm afraid if talking to new people.
    Snowboy6421 Snowboy6421 13-15, M Nov 21

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    I always worry about losing the people I love. Everyday I wonder, is anyone afraid to lose me.
    wolfsaysrawr wolfsaysrawr 18-21, M Nov 22

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    I'm afraid of what might be looking back at me. I really don't want to see anything but myself looking back.
    DaddysGirl1995 DaddysGirl1995 18-21, F Nov 24

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    Here's why I give up on people: I walk away because I cannot stand the thought of believing whatever he says and letting myself feel vulnerable around him, only to later feel like...
    SuperWomanFly SuperWomanFly 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 26

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    My power is out cuz of the major snow storm in the east coast. And I'm afraid of the dark.
    Phandom1234 Phandom1234 16-17, F Nov 26

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    I'm definitely not afraid if being unloved. I just know that the being actually truly loved will never ever happen. I'd rather be alone than not really loved.
    RememberingSunday22 RememberingSunday22 36-40, F 1 Response Nov 27

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    As time goes by and I remain single, I definitely become afraid some days that I will be single forever. Ugh!
    mattywheels25 mattywheels25 26-30, M Nov 30

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    Darling, you understand me in a way no one ever had or probably will again. I've never met anyone like you. We live in a hole, but because you're there it's not so bad. But I'm...
    Brimmless Brimmless 16-17, F Nov 30

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    I am only afraid of angry older men. My mom's ex-boyfriend was verbally abusive and would hit things around him as he yelled. He only got physically abusive once with my mother...
    snowolf13 snowolf13 13-15, F 4 Responses Dec 1

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    Failure is hard. I am so afraid that i will fail because of some of the people of my family and my real mom that put me down and was so hash to me and her mom as well. However I...
    jessconn81 jessconn81 31-35, M 1 Response Dec 1

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    Every time I find someone I like I push them away because I'm afraid of getting hurt. I don't want to be hurt again so I'm hurting others. I just want to get better and be able to...
    meganleslie meganleslie 13-15, F Dec 1

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    I have been overweight my entire life! I have tried diet after diet with no success. I have been put down by a lot of people for my size and I would let it bother me. It has...
    unluckyme86 unluckyme86 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 3

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    Lol I'm not afraid but I know I am gonna die alone haha
    Youareallbeautiful Youareallbeautiful 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 3

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    Well, not so much "afraid that I'll end up alone," just that I think the odds of finding that ONE person are pretty slim. I can't even imagine what it would be like to really love...
    IntoTheWyld IntoTheWyld 22-25, F 6 Responses Dec 3

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    I am not afraid of dying as its not the end but the beginning.... all I wish is to die a peaceful and content person with no regrets
    shaurya26 shaurya26 36-40, F 1 Response Dec 4

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