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I Am Afraid of My Loved Ones Dying

The dreaded nightmare...that sometimes lasts...and lasts 2,161 People

    My Mother.

    I am afraid of losing you forever. I am afraid of never seeing you happy again. I know, it's funny that someone like me can feel that way, seeing how I have mistreated you my whole life. I wish I could muster up the courage to say the things on my mind, to let you know I am...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 5, 2013

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    pokwang1111 pokwang1111 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 1

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    My Family Members...

    I am so afraid of my family members dying. My mother has a lot of health problems. Heart disease runs in our family, and I worry that she will have a heart attack and that she will die when I am not ready to lose her. That is one of the scariest thoughts I've ever had. I've been...
    animallover110293 animallover110293 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 1, 2013

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    I used to think this way.

    From the first funeral I can remember until my father died about 6 years ago. After his death from colon cancer I realized what a false statement this was. What I really fear is living without them in my world! But again - "death has no mercy". Those left behind must go on until...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Mar 14

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    Loved Ones Dying

    Death is a part of life but is the part of life that we do not know much about and is so difficult to deal with. It will affect life as you know it for the rest of YOUR life with that person being absent. Whether it is a parent, friend, child, spouse etc. it is hard. I had a...
    juniper2 juniper2 46-50, F 2 Responses Apr 15, 2012

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    My Cousin

    I found this site on accident. But my cousin just recently attempted suicide she is now in the ER in a sort of coma If It wasn't for me and her sister surprising her at her apartment we never would have found her car running with a hose leading from her muffler to her mouth while...
    AshleysExperience AshleysExperience 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 11, 2013

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    Absolutely Terrified.

    I have always dealt with this fear, more like a phobia. There are about 15 people in my life that I honestly do not think I could cope if they were to pass away. When I was little I would always reassure myself before getting on the school bus that I would see my mom when I got...
    krrynnlzbth krrynnlzbth 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 12, 2013

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    You know how kids have nightmares about ghosts

    or monsters? My nightmares, even as a kid, was that someone a monster or real person killed my twin sister or mother (or other family member) and I saw their grave and I would bawl so much...terrible
    WhyDoesLifeSuck WhyDoesLifeSuck 18-21, M 3 Responses Jan 14

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    It Gets Scary Every Night

    I just can't help but imagine the day when I will lose a parent, a friend, a loved one.. It makes me want to cry, I just feel like I can't get enough of them but they'll leave sooner or later.. It's killing me !
    thegirlbehindhemask thegirlbehindhemask 18-21, F Jun 2, 2013

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    It's been almost an hour

    since I received the news of my grandma about her health. My family and I have known few months ago her health has gotten worst and the doctor said she has maximum 6 months left to live because parts of her body has stopped functioning due to sickness and old age. Now, when...
    raldy raldy 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 7

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    Lock And Key

    Someone told me something today.  They told me that what I was doing was wrong.  They told me that work and books is not everything. They told me that one day I will sit back and wonder why did I not realize what was really important when I had it.  I never said they...
    MilkMoon MilkMoon 18-21, F Oct 16, 2011

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    Idkkk.!

    so last night i had a dream that i was walking down this unfamiliar dark road when i found myself looking at the ground only to find my fiances phones. i picked them up and continued walking as an all black impala with extra dark tinted windows sped past me. the car stopped thru...
    proudmommy101311 proudmommy101311 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 30, 2013

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    It's .....scary

    If I get to bored and alone sometimes I'll think about how one day my mom will die. Just the thought makes me feel empty. What happens after that. How could you ever move on from your mother dying. The woman who carried you for nine months is gone forever. Never to give you...
    Elaine19 Elaine19 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 22, 2012

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    I'm Scared Because Of Multiple Reasons

    I am firm believer that we are not given anything that we can't handle. I have never really lost a loved one. When I was younger, my great grandmother died but at the time, I didn't understand what death was. Now that I'm older, I don't think I could handle it. I don't like the...
    jessicaann32 jessicaann32 13-15, F Jul 11, 2013

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    How Come

    How is that I cry all night,Yet all you do is smileAnd think everything is all rightHow is it that when I look up at youYou can't look me in my eyesAnd when ever I want to talkAll you want to do is make me cryIs it that you take pleasure in playing games with my heartEver since I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 9, 2012

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    My Dad Is Dying

    Hi. I'm not actually sure what to write here but i'll give it a try. My name is Viktor and i'm from Sweden. About 4 years ago my father got ALS, which is a condition that makes your muscles retract. The process is different from each individual but for my father it went pretty...
    Crapster Crapster 18-21 2 Responses Jan 17, 2011

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    My cousin has cancer

    and shes supposed to be having a opperation shes only got a couple of months to live she wont go to her appointments she has a family and a happy life I dont want her to die but she wont go she keeps skipping her hospital appointments I need her im sick of people I love dying
    marshmel marshmel 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 29

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    I lost my chicken first,

    I loved him so much and took care of him. One night he started chocking and died. I was so sad. After that it was my axolotls and my dog, I loved my dog so much he loved me too I know. Then it was worse, my grandad died painfully and slowly... it all happened so fast. I got a...
    Neon765 Neon765 16-17, M 4 Responses Aug 4

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    Please, Don't Take My Mother Away

    My mother was very very ill recently and I was so scared. I could not imagine what I do without her. She has been there for me so much through everything. Shes's the best mum one could ask for and she always trys her hardest and when i had to see her in the hospital, it was so...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Aug 25, 2007

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    Tired Of Saying 'goodbye'

    From as early as I could remember, I've known death. I never thought it was odd until a friend of mine told me she was 18 years old when she attended her first funeral. It seems as though the ones that I allowed to get the closest were the first to depart. I've experienced far...
    PhybieRaslen PhybieRaslen 31-35, F Mar 15, 2011

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    A big reason why I went into the nursing field

    is because my mom is suffering from stage 4 ovarian cancer. The doctors gave her a prognosis of only months to live, and now its been 4 years. She is the strongest person I know... That is why I want to take care of children with cancer. If I can save babies lives with cancer...
    beyourself22 beyourself22 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 27

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    Is It Terrible If

    Sometimes I feel I wish all my grandparents died before I was born so I don't have to go through loosing them.., its hard to understand maybe but I haven't lost anyone and I am very afraid too. 3 grandparents . Parents. My dog. My good friends. It's just so scary. And the fact...
    Chimp0munk Chimp0munk 18-21, F Apr 25, 2013

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    I'm really scared of my family members dying.

    I'm a senior in high school and my dad died three years ago. His death was really unexpected so after that I was like "Wow, it's true that ANYONE can go at anytime"... Since then I've been super worried about my grandparents and it makes me sick thinking about it. My grandmother...
    youthberry youthberry 18-21, F Jul 10

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    My Dad Just Had Heart Bypass Surgery

    He's my best friend. Whenever anything good happens to me, I always want to call him and tell him about it so we can share in the victory together. Whenever I'm confused or down, I call him to discuss it as well. Even if I don't agree with his advice, it's a comfort to know he...
    harveyspecter harveyspecter 41-45, M 4 Responses Feb 15, 2013

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    I Thought I Had Passed This

    Losing my brother in-law was kind of a shocking awakening for me. This was my first major loss and I was hurt, my sister was a wreck. For the first time in about four years I've been left with the realization that death will come swift and coldly. I'm also left with a epiphany, I...
    Tripjointswithdope Tripjointswithdope 22-25, M Nov 30, 2011

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    This might sound weird

    if you know my other stories: I'm always worried that my dad will fall asleep on the couch, and I'll try to wake him up only to realize that he's dead.. And every time I get called to the office or get a note from it, I worry that they're going to say he's dead. He's had cancer...
    KylieWylie KylieWylie 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 28, 2013

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    Don't Want To Lose Them Now

    I dreaded the moments every time I see my love ones dying. I mean, if that happen, I wouldn't be able to see and tell them how much I love them anymore. But then, someone told me that I should be grateful instead every time someone passed away. It was because they'll have the...
    silinglabuyo silinglabuyo 18-21, F Sep 30, 2013

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    Looking after a loved one

    who has been seriously injured and the rest of his life totally altered. And also possibly mine. People say I am lucky because he survived. But my son is not the same. He is in my sons body but he is a different person now and I have to learn who is and how to now look after him...
    Stillyoung2 Stillyoung2 36-40, F 1 Response Jan 17

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    It Can't Happen...

    You could say that in most regards life has been pretty tough on me. Not only have I been to hell and back a few times now, I've had the un-pleasant distinction of being around for the death of quite a few family members. My Uncle who helped raise me, 3of4 grandparents. Those I...
    EricS EricS 26-30, M 1 Response Oct 10, 2008

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    My Sister Died

    i have hard time to cope with the loss of my sister i miss her so much !!
    california92 california92 46-50, F 2 Responses Oct 22, 2013

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    When my great grandma died 2 yrs ago I thought

    she was coming back but she never did. Believe it or not I was 14 years old. And I didn't know anything about death. I still cry when I think about her.
    VictoriaHall VictoriaHall 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 26

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    My Dad And My Best Friend.

    The only people I've got...and my best friend tried to commi suicide when he was a lot younger...he seems fine now but he could still die at anytime...anyone can...and it just makes me think, what would I do? I'm worried my dads gonna commit suicide...he seems more depressed than...
    Alysh7 Alysh7 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 9, 2013

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    Dont Wanna Go Thru It Again

    I am scared of my loved ones dying especially my grandma.  She's the one that keeps the family together.  And out of all of the people close to me including my father and my mother, I think she is the only one to love me unconditionally and SHOW IT.  My mother...
    snobunny826 snobunny826 21-25, F 1 Response Jun 26, 2007

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    I Know It Can Happen Now.

    My best friend died at the age of 19, for no real reason, the reason cited was "complications with his diabetes" however, it wasn't due to negligence he was very sensible about his diabetes, he didnt let it control him at all, but he always took it seriously.So through no...
    MrWinstonSmith MrWinstonSmith 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 4, 2013

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    Broken

    My best friend's Mum has just died, unexpectedly. It's not even my own family but I hate even seeing her go through such pain and it hurts me.Still really dread the day my one of my parents dies...just that thought of never being able to ring them anymore.
    FallenAngelWOOT FallenAngelWOOT 31-35, F Nov 15, 2013

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    Mixed Feelings

    Did you enjoy my pain?Was it fun to watch me fall?You where the reason why I became this wayEveryday, my life is tormented by nightmares,Nightmares that are my realityDo you feel nothing for what you have done?Have you ever thought how your actions might affect others?While I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 9, 2012

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    My grandmothers having liver faliure she

    recently turned 71 and is starting to lose her memory sometimes she doesn't know what year it is and it kills me that I can't do anything she was offered the option to have a transplant but she said she was tired of fighting (this isn't the first time something like this has...
    Caitie784 Caitie784 13-15, F 3 Responses Dec 7, 2013

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    Selfish Me...

    I don't know how i could ever deal with them GONE. just out of my life. i've had two very disturbing dreams about my mum, and then my dad, dying, dead, then gone. i woke up crying, and had to run to the bathroom to wash up before everyone else woke up. it gives me shivers to...
    BowsAndBones BowsAndBones 16-18, F 3 Responses Jun 23, 2007

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    I think everyone is afraid of losing someone

    their loved ones especially the people they are very close with. I just had this bad and weird dream and I know that words are not enough to describe it. It was like a reunion with my family, high school friends and college friends. We sort of went to a huge adventure park...
    Jelliii Jelliii 22-25, F Apr 22

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    I Want My Grammy Back

    My grammy was a wonderful person and she still is. Its just she't different now then she used to be. About a year ago my gram became depressed and it wont go away and its awful. I work with her and I see her every day. Since she got depressed she doesn't go anywhere anymore and...
    somethingneverseen somethingneverseen 18-21 Feb 6, 2013

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    Memory Alone

    where did you go old, so alone and so bold. you should have stayed young, nibbling on your toes. fed you with a spoon, sat you on a footstool. you gummy pretty smile, funny all the while. why did you go cold, standing there all alone. should have dressed warm, tightly in a...
    VaguelyOutThere VaguelyOutThere 26-30, M 1 Response Jun 10, 2013

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    Is It Worth It Anymore?

    I'm not suicidal or anything, but sometimes I wonder if life is even worth living because of this reason. It's like everything I have to look forward to will eventually end. After my lifelong partner dies, how will I cope, and what will be the point to carrying on anymore anyway...
    mjme26 mjme26 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 21, 2012

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    I used to have this anxiety.

    Pictures of people I care about getting murdered, stabbed to death, shot in the head, burned alive, chopped into peices. If it wasn't for God and meditation I'd still be haunted by these visions.
    ADeepPerspective ADeepPerspective 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 26, 2013

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    Dying

    I'm not afraid of my loved one's dying, it doesn't mean I like it though.  Dying is a natural thing on this earth, we will all go through it, all in the same direction.  Rich & poor, we can't escape death.  We were put on this earth to be born and die. 
    Whateverrrrr Whateverrrrr 36-40, F Aug 29, 2011

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    Honestly I Think Of It Every Day

    If anything happened to my husband I know I could never survive. I depend on him so much. I can almost cry just thinking about it. Of course he is healthy but accidents happen. and it always drives it home when someone I care about has a loved one die suddenly. Recently a friend...
    lauren71 lauren71 41-45, F 1 Response Sep 27, 2013

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    Yes, I Am

    It isn't that I am afraid of it necessarily.  It's more like I dread it.  It's an inevitability.  I recognize that.  I don't have to like it, but I have to recognize it.  I keep my fingers crossed that I go first, being selfish in the ultimate way...not...
    debmichelle debmichelle 36-40 2 Responses May 24, 2008

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    Death Freaks Me Out

    i think most people are afraid of their loved ones dying. but for me it is deeper then that. i can not handle death. it freaks me out. when someone close to me dies i get depressed and obsessive about it. the finality of death is hard for me to comprehend. i have a hard time with...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Apr 15, 2011

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    Related Experiences

    Firstly I am trying to cope with losing my beloved mother to dementia. Every time I see her she is more confused and less herself. It is very painful that although she is still...
    Romani52 Romani52 51-55, F 1 Response Aug 1

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    😊😊😊 yep supernatural if you hurt me or my loves one you will be hunted😉😉😉 if u don't we can be friends😄😄😄
    RainbowPower RainbowPower 13-15, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Everything around me is falling apart...we all live in fear...When you live In a war zone everything else looks insignificant ...I live in iraq...I have watched so many people die...
    ffdp84 ffdp84 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 24

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    I'm extremely successful in my profession but I've allowed caring for my loved ones to bring me to the brink of financial disaster.
    RamGossip RamGossip 36-40, F 5 Responses Jul 27

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    All the "friends" I have are locked up in a mind set that was set before them by their parents, religion, television, and sex appeal. They wouldn't dare hit their parents if they...
    LeonardFinch LeonardFinch 16-17, M 6 hrs ago

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    Isn't everybody, somehow, afraid of dying alone? Nobody remembering you or your life story? I'm not really afraid of how I die.. it's just dying with out anyone there..