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I Am Afraid of My Loved Ones Dying

The dreaded nightmare...that sometimes lasts...and lasts 2,775 People

    My boyfriend is going to basic training

    for the army in a month and also officer school. He is in the reserves, but idk lately for the past few months I've had a feeling that he's going to get deployed and die. Or that something is going to happen to him. I know I am overreacting a bit, but I can't help myself. He's...
    blooop123 blooop123 18-21, F May 26

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    I lost my chicken first,

    I loved him so much and took care of him. One night he started chocking and died. I was so sad. After that it was my axolotls and my dog, I loved my dog so much he loved me too I know. Then it was worse, my grandad died painfully and slowly... it all happened so fast. I got a...
    Neon765 Neon765 16-17, M 3 Responses Aug 4, 2014

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    I would be in a horrible state

    if my mom or dad died ( I'd be dead ) ( not literally)
    theamittyaffloction theamittyaffloction 13-15, F Sep 25, 2014

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    My Wife , My Dear Love of a lifetime had a

    stroke 7 years ago and made it thru it . But it changed her in ways that she will never get back. I cannot even imagine what my life would be without her.
    James5335 James5335 61-65, M 1 Response Jul 10

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    Yea i know it's a part of life

    but that doesn't mean I have to accept it. I start crying just at the thought of the ones I love passing away. It's not a good thing. So why should i act like it is?
    Raptax231 Raptax231 18-21, M Sep 16, 2014

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    Loved Ones Dying

    Death is a part of life but is the part of life that we do not know much about and is so difficult to deal with. It will affect life as you know it for the rest of YOUR life with that person being absent. Whether it is a parent, friend, child, spouse etc. it is hard. I had a...
    juniper2 juniper2 46-50, F 2 Responses Apr 15, 2012

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    pokwang1111 pokwang1111 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 1, 2014

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    Selfish Me...

    I don't know how i could ever deal with them GONE. just out of my life. i've had two very disturbing dreams about my mum, and then my dad, dying, dead, then gone. i woke up crying, and had to run to the bathroom to wash up before everyone else woke up. it gives me shivers to...
    BowsAndBones BowsAndBones 16-17, F 3 Responses Jun 23, 2007

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    I used to have this anxiety.

    Pictures of people I care about getting murdered, stabbed to death, shot in the head, burned alive, chopped into peices. If it wasn't for God and meditation I'd still be haunted by these visions.
    ADeepPerspective ADeepPerspective 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 26, 2013

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    My mom got into an accident today

    and all I could think of was why wasn't I there to help her?!?
    rushman5 rushman5 13-15, M 1 Response Jan 4

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    Mixed Feelings

    Did you enjoy my pain?Was it fun to watch me fall?You where the reason why I became this wayEveryday, my life is tormented by nightmares,Nightmares that are my realityDo you feel nothing for what you have done?Have you ever thought how your actions might affect others?While I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 9, 2012

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    aohana aohana 13-15, M 2 Responses Jun 13

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    whitesunshine87 whitesunshine87 51-55, F 1 Response Oct 18, 2014

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    I lost 5 relatives in the last 5 years

    so I'm really scared I'm going to lose more
    sammylynn333 sammylynn333 16-17, F Oct 19, 2014

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    It's been almost an hour

    since I received the news of my grandma about her health. My family and I have known few months ago her health has gotten worst and the doctor said she has maximum 6 months left to live because parts of her body has stopped functioning due to sickness and old age. Now, when...
    raldy raldy 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 7, 2014

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    Im such a daddy's boy

    and comes to show that every time I think about my dad in any a hostage situation or pain...I cry...I do.
    neffi neffi 13-15, M 1 Response Oct 18, 2014

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    I think my dad is sick.

    He smokes a lot and I hate it. He doesn't like to admit when something is wrong. Tries to make sure we don't worry. I overheard him talking on the phone about a biopsy report. Not sure if I should ask about it.
    PlutoBox PlutoBox 22-25, M 2 Responses Oct 17, 2014

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    Last night, or rather just now,

    I had a nightmare with my dad's death. I can't go back to sleep now. I'm too scared.
    ChiaXUno ChiaXUno 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 24

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    How Come

    How is that I cry all night,Yet all you do is smileAnd think everything is all rightHow is it that when I look up at youYou can't look me in my eyesAnd when ever I want to talkAll you want to do is make me cryIs it that you take pleasure in playing games with my heartEver since I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 9, 2012

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    Sometimes when I'm talking to my elderly family

    members that I'm very close to, I just think to myself that the day that they die, I'm going to be inconsolable. It's so hard to think about them not being in my life anymore. So as they talk, I remember the moment exactly as it was. The clothes they wear, the wrinkles on their...
    gglz18 gglz18 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 3

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    Who doesn't fear it? I mean just thinking of

    someone you love going somewhere for a whole year saddens me, what more if it's for eternity. Death is just so fearful. But what's more fearful is how to live now that they're gone. You can't live the way things are before after it. It's like part of you died as well. That just...
    PiperMcLean PiperMcLean 18-21, F Jul 11

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    I'm really scared of my family members dying.

    I'm a senior in high school and my dad died three years ago. His death was really unexpected so after that I was like "Wow, it's true that ANYONE can go at anytime"... Since then I've been super worried about my grandparents and it makes me sick thinking about it. My grandmother...
    youthberry youthberry 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 10, 2014

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    It's just happened so many times.

    Today's events takes the totals up to three in the past three months... Just why??
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 22, 2014

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    im so sad i need someone to talk to my aunt is

    dying she has only one day to live... i really need someone please help im so sad k cnt stop crying i miss her already and i love her so much
    Zaquoya Zaquoya 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 8, 2014

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    Death Freaks Me Out

    i think most people are afraid of their loved ones dying. but for me it is deeper then that. i can not handle death. it freaks me out. when someone close to me dies i get depressed and obsessive about it. the finality of death is hard for me to comprehend. i have a hard time with...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Apr 15, 2011

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    My Dad Just Had Heart Bypass Surgery

    He's my best friend. Whenever anything good happens to me, I always want to call him and tell him about it so we can share in the victory together. Whenever I'm confused or down, I call him to discuss it as well. Even if I don't agree with his advice, it's a comfort to know he...
    harveyspecter harveyspecter 41-45, M 3 Responses Feb 15, 2013

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    My cousin has cancer

    and shes supposed to be having a opperation shes only got a couple of months to live she wont go to her appointments she has a family and a happy life I dont want her to die but she wont go she keeps skipping her hospital appointments I need her im sick of people I love dying
    KillaSparks KillaSparks 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 29, 2014

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    Last year i found out my cousin has cancer,

    i hate knowing i cant do anything about it, my granddad died of cancer, I'm sick of losing people, in 2011 alone i lost 5 people, and i haven't even recovered to that, this year my koro died and that hurt and i just don't want to get a call saying my cousin died because i will...
    KillaSparks KillaSparks 16-17, F 5 days ago

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    It Can't Happen...

    You could say that in most regards life has been pretty tough on me. Not only have I been to hell and back a few times now, I've had the un-pleasant distinction of being around for the death of quite a few family members. My Uncle who helped raise me, 3of4 grandparents. Those I...
    EricS EricS 31-35, M 1 Response Oct 10, 2008

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    Dont Wanna Go Thru It Again

    I am scared of my loved ones dying especially my grandma.  She's the one that keeps the family together.  And out of all of the people close to me including my father and my mother, I think she is the only one to love me unconditionally and SHOW IT.  My mother...
    snobunny826 snobunny826 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 26, 2007

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    My Cousin

    I found this site on accident. But my cousin just recently attempted suicide she is now in the ER in a sort of coma If It wasn't for me and her sister surprising her at her apartment we never would have found her car running with a hose leading from her muffler to her mouth while...
    AshleysExperience AshleysExperience 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 11, 2013

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    I think everyone is afraid of losing someone

    their loved ones especially the people they are very close with. I just had this bad and weird dream and I know that words are not enough to describe it. It was like a reunion with my family, high school friends and college friends. We sort of went to a huge adventure park...
    dimples004 dimples004 22-25, F Apr 22, 2014

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    My farce for a Mother,

    (she isn't my real Mother), told me that she's got her lawyer involved in a serious matter between she and I. What I'd like her lawyer to know is that she is not my real Mother. She has been molesting me alongside her men of the many since she murdered my real Mother, I was only...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Feb 14

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    We have plans to visit the local carnival this

    week-end. Kids have have been on best behavior, helping around with chores, completing homework without supervision even offering me a shoulder and leg massages. I am aware that I made a promise which I should keep but as the days are nearing I seem to be having endless...
    AngelicHalo AngelicHalo 36-40, F Jun 2

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    I am afraid that it's becoming my grandmothers

    time to go. I'm so far away from her and when my grandpa was dying I couldn't be there. I honestly can't imaging a life without my grandma it's already been hard coping with the lost of my grandfather. I never really had a close relationship than anyone else besides my...
    chanel0408 chanel0408 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 18, 2014

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    My Dad Is Dying

    Hi. I'm not actually sure what to write here but i'll give it a try. My name is Viktor and i'm from Sweden. About 4 years ago my father got ALS, which is a condition that makes your muscles retract. The process is different from each individual but for my father it went pretty...
    Crapster Crapster 18-21 2 Responses Jan 17, 2011

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    A big reason why I went into the nursing field

    is because my mom is suffering from stage 4 ovarian cancer. The doctors gave her a prognosis of only months to live, and now its been 4 years. She is the strongest person I know... That is why I want to take care of children with cancer. If I can save babies lives with cancer...
    beyourself22 beyourself22 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 27, 2014

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    Tbh idk what I'll do

    when my parents pass away. It scares me even just thinking about , and I don't think I'll ever be mentally/ emotionally ready for the day it happens.
    BotchyFawn BotchyFawn 18-21, M 1 Response May 25

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    I have always been terrified of my loved ones

    dying...it's so damn final. Yes I'm hoping & crossing my fingers that I get to see them again someday...but til then...it's hard to go on sometimes. I lost both of my grandpas when I was pretty young...7 & 8. You don't really realize what's going on at that age. I missed...
    RubyLane RubyLane 41-45, F Sep 15, 2014

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    I used to think this way.

    From the first funeral I can remember until my father died about 6 years ago. After his death from colon cancer I realized what a false statement this was. What I really fear is living without them in my world! But again - "death has no mercy". Those left behind must go on until...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Mar 14, 2014

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    Yes, I Am

    It isn't that I am afraid of it necessarily.  It's more like I dread it.  It's an inevitability.  I recognize that.  I don't have to like it, but I have to recognize it.  I keep my fingers crossed that I go first, being selfish in the ultimate way...not...
    debmichelle debmichelle 36-40 2 Responses May 24, 2008

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    I get rlly paranoid about this,

    like is I don't hear from a person in awhile I automatically assume the worst. It's terrible :(
    chasetheweirdo8 chasetheweirdo8 13-15, M 2 Responses Jan 3

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