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I Am Afraid of My Loved Ones Dying

The dreaded nightmare...that sometimes lasts...and lasts 2,545 People

    It's been almost an hour

    since I received the news of my grandma about her health. My family and I have known few months ago her health has gotten worst and the doctor said she has maximum 6 months left to live because parts of her body has stopped functioning due to sickness and old age. Now, when...
    raldy raldy 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 7, 2014

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    It's just happened so many times.

    Today's events takes the totals up to three in the past three months... Just why??
    sfairy27 sfairy27 13-15, F Dec 22, 2014

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    I lost my chicken first,

    I loved him so much and took care of him. One night he started chocking and died. I was so sad. After that it was my axolotls and my dog, I loved my dog so much he loved me too I know. Then it was worse, my grandad died painfully and slowly... it all happened so fast. I got a...
    Neon765 Neon765 16-17, M 3 Responses Aug 4, 2014

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    I used to have this anxiety.

    Pictures of people I care about getting murdered, stabbed to death, shot in the head, burned alive, chopped into peices. If it wasn't for God and meditation I'd still be haunted by these visions.
    ADeepPerspective ADeepPerspective 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 26, 2013

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    I get rlly paranoid about this,

    like is I don't hear from a person in awhile I automatically assume the worst. It's terrible :(
    chasetheweirdo8 chasetheweirdo8 13-15, M 2 Responses Jan 3

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    I think everyone is afraid of losing someone

    their loved ones especially the people they are very close with. I just had this bad and weird dream and I know that words are not enough to describe it. It was like a reunion with my family, high school friends and college friends. We sort of went to a huge adventure park...
    Trishhh Trishhh 22-25, F Apr 22, 2014

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    restored87 restored87 46-50, F 1 Response Oct 18, 2014

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    I have always been terrified of my loved ones

    dying...it's so damn final. Yes I'm hoping & crossing my fingers that I get to see them again someday...but til then...it's hard to go on sometimes. I lost both of my grandpas when I was pretty young...7 & 8. You don't really realize what's going on at that age. I missed...
    RubyLane RubyLane 41-45, F Sep 15, 2014

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    Yea i know it's a part of life

    but that doesn't mean I have to accept it. I start crying just at the thought of the ones I love passing away. It's not a good thing. So why should i act like it is?
    Raptax231 Raptax231 18-21, M Sep 16, 2014

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    When my great grandma died 2 yrs ago I thought

    she was coming back but she never did. Believe it or not I was 14 years old. And I didn't know anything about death. I still cry when I think about her.
    VictoriaHall VictoriaHall 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 26, 2014

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    im so sad i need someone to talk to my aunt is

    dying she has only one day to live... i really need someone please help im so sad k cnt stop crying i miss her already and i love her so much
    Zaquoya Zaquoya 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 8, 2014

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    Mixed Feelings

    Did you enjoy my pain?Was it fun to watch me fall?You where the reason why I became this wayEveryday, my life is tormented by nightmares,Nightmares that are my realityDo you feel nothing for what you have done?Have you ever thought how your actions might affect others?While I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 9, 2012

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    Sometimes when I'm talking to my elderly family

    members that I'm very close to, I just think to myself that the day that they die, I'm going to be inconsolable. It's so hard to think about them not being in my life anymore. So as they talk, I remember the moment exactly as it was. The clothes they wear, the wrinkles on their...
    gglz18 gglz18 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 3

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    I would be in a horrible state

    if my mom or dad died ( I'd be dead ) ( not literally)
    theamittyaffloction theamittyaffloction 13-15, F Sep 25, 2014

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    My Cousin

    I found this site on accident. But my cousin just recently attempted suicide she is now in the ER in a sort of coma If It wasn't for me and her sister surprising her at her apartment we never would have found her car running with a hose leading from her muffler to her mouth while...
    AshleysExperience AshleysExperience 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 11, 2013

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    I lost 5 relatives in the last 5 years

    so I'm really scared I'm going to lose more
    sammylynn333 sammylynn333 16-17, F Oct 19, 2014

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    My cousin has cancer

    and shes supposed to be having a opperation shes only got a couple of months to live she wont go to her appointments she has a family and a happy life I dont want her to die but she wont go she keeps skipping her hospital appointments I need her im sick of people I love dying
    marshmel marshmel 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 29, 2014

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    I used to think this way.

    From the first funeral I can remember until my father died about 6 years ago. After his death from colon cancer I realized what a false statement this was. What I really fear is living without them in my world! But again - "death has no mercy". Those left behind must go on until...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Mar 14, 2014

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    Lock And Key

    Someone told me something today.  They told me that what I was doing was wrong.  They told me that work and books is not everything. They told me that one day I will sit back and wonder why did I not realize what was really important when I had it.  I never said they...
    MilkMoon MilkMoon 18-21, F Oct 16, 2011

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    Please, Don't Take My Mother Away

    My mother was very very ill recently and I was so scared. I could not imagine what I do without her. She has been there for me so much through everything. Shes's the best mum one could ask for and she always trys her hardest and when i had to see her in the hospital, it was so...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Aug 25, 2007

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    A big reason why I went into the nursing field

    is because my mom is suffering from stage 4 ovarian cancer. The doctors gave her a prognosis of only months to live, and now its been 4 years. She is the strongest person I know... That is why I want to take care of children with cancer. If I can save babies lives with cancer...
    beyourself22 beyourself22 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 27, 2014

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    My mom got into an accident today

    and all I could think of was why wasn't I there to help her?!?
    rushman5 rushman5 13-15, M 1 Response Jan 4

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    I'm really scared of my family members dying.

    I'm a senior in high school and my dad died three years ago. His death was really unexpected so after that I was like "Wow, it's true that ANYONE can go at anytime"... Since then I've been super worried about my grandparents and it makes me sick thinking about it. My grandmother...
    youthberry youthberry 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 10, 2014

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    Yes, I Am

    It isn't that I am afraid of it necessarily.  It's more like I dread it.  It's an inevitability.  I recognize that.  I don't have to like it, but I have to recognize it.  I keep my fingers crossed that I go first, being selfish in the ultimate way...not...
    debmichelle debmichelle 36-40 2 Responses May 24, 2008

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    Honestly I Think Of It Every Day

    If anything happened to my husband I know I could never survive. I depend on him so much. I can almost cry just thinking about it. Of course he is healthy but accidents happen. and it always drives it home when someone I care about has a loved one die suddenly. Recently a friend...
    lauren71 lauren71 41-45, F 1 Response Sep 27, 2013

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    You know how kids have nightmares about ghosts

    or monsters? My nightmares, even as a kid, was that someone a monster or real person killed my twin sister or mother (or other family member) and I saw their grave and I would bawl so much...terrible
    WhyDoesLifeSuck WhyDoesLifeSuck 18-21, M 2 Responses Jan 14, 2014

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    Death Freaks Me Out

    i think most people are afraid of their loved ones dying. but for me it is deeper then that. i can not handle death. it freaks me out. when someone close to me dies i get depressed and obsessive about it. the finality of death is hard for me to comprehend. i have a hard time with...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Apr 15, 2011

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    Looking after a loved one

    who has been seriously injured and the rest of his life totally altered. And also possibly mine. People say I am lucky because he survived. But my son is not the same. He is in my sons body but he is a different person now and I have to learn who is and how to now look after him...
    Stillyoung2 Stillyoung2 36-40, F 1 Response Jan 17, 2014

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    My Dad Is Dying

    Hi. I'm not actually sure what to write here but i'll give it a try. My name is Viktor and i'm from Sweden. About 4 years ago my father got ALS, which is a condition that makes your muscles retract. The process is different from each individual but for my father it went pretty...
    Crapster Crapster 18-21 2 Responses Jan 17, 2011

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    Broken

    My best friend's Mum has just died, unexpectedly. It's not even my own family but I hate even seeing her go through such pain and it hurts me.Still really dread the day my one of my parents dies...just that thought of never being able to ring them anymore.
    FallenAngelWOOT FallenAngelWOOT 31-35, F Nov 15, 2013

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    Loved Ones Dying

    Death is a part of life but is the part of life that we do not know much about and is so difficult to deal with. It will affect life as you know it for the rest of YOUR life with that person being absent. Whether it is a parent, friend, child, spouse etc. it is hard. I had a...
    juniper2 juniper2 46-50, F 2 Responses Apr 15, 2012

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    pokwang1111 pokwang1111 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 1, 2014

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    Selfish Me...

    I don't know how i could ever deal with them GONE. just out of my life. i've had two very disturbing dreams about my mum, and then my dad, dying, dead, then gone. i woke up crying, and had to run to the bathroom to wash up before everyone else woke up. it gives me shivers to...
    BowsAndBones BowsAndBones 16-18, F 3 Responses Jun 23, 2007

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    My Sister Died

    i have hard time to cope with the loss of my sister i miss her so much !!
    california92 california92 46-50, F 2 Responses Oct 22, 2013

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    How Come

    How is that I cry all night,Yet all you do is smileAnd think everything is all rightHow is it that when I look up at youYou can't look me in my eyesAnd when ever I want to talkAll you want to do is make me cryIs it that you take pleasure in playing games with my heartEver since I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 9, 2012

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    I'm Scared Because Of Multiple Reasons

    I am firm believer that we are not given anything that we can't handle. I have never really lost a loved one. When I was younger, my great grandmother died but at the time, I didn't understand what death was. Now that I'm older, I don't think I could handle it. I don't like the...
    jessicaann32 jessicaann32 13-15, F Jul 11, 2013

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    Im such a daddy's boy

    and comes to show that every time I think about my dad in any a hostage situation or pain...I cry...I do.
    neffi neffi 13-15, M 1 Response Oct 18, 2014

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    Dont Wanna Go Thru It Again

    I am scared of my loved ones dying especially my grandma.  She's the one that keeps the family together.  And out of all of the people close to me including my father and my mother, I think she is the only one to love me unconditionally and SHOW IT.  My mother...
    snobunny826 snobunny826 21-25, F 1 Response Jun 26, 2007

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    My Dad Just Had Heart Bypass Surgery

    He's my best friend. Whenever anything good happens to me, I always want to call him and tell him about it so we can share in the victory together. Whenever I'm confused or down, I call him to discuss it as well. Even if I don't agree with his advice, it's a comfort to know he...
    harveyspecter harveyspecter 41-45, M 3 Responses Feb 15, 2013

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    I think my dad is sick.

    He smokes a lot and I hate it. He doesn't like to admit when something is wrong. Tries to make sure we don't worry. I overheard him talking on the phone about a biopsy report. Not sure if I should ask about it.
    PlutoBox PlutoBox 22-25, M 1 Response Oct 17, 2014

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    Tired Of Saying 'goodbye'

    From as early as I could remember, I've known death. I never thought it was odd until a friend of mine told me she was 18 years old when she attended her first funeral. It seems as though the ones that I allowed to get the closest were the first to depart. I've experienced far...
    PhybieRaslen PhybieRaslen 31-35, F Mar 15, 2011

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    Don't Want To Lose Them Now

    I dreaded the moments every time I see my love ones dying. I mean, if that happen, I wouldn't be able to see and tell them how much I love them anymore. But then, someone told me that I should be grateful instead every time someone passed away. It was because they'll have the...
    silinglabuyo silinglabuyo 18-21, F Sep 30, 2013

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    I am afraid that it's becoming my grandmothers

    time to go. I'm so far away from her and when my grandpa was dying I couldn't be there. I honestly can't imaging a life without my grandma it's already been hard coping with the lost of my grandfather. I never really had a close relationship than anyone else besides my...
    chanel0408 chanel0408 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 18, 2014

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    It Can't Happen...

    You could say that in most regards life has been pretty tough on me. Not only have I been to hell and back a few times now, I've had the un-pleasant distinction of being around for the death of quite a few family members. My Uncle who helped raise me, 3of4 grandparents. Those I...
    EricS EricS 31-35, M 1 Response Oct 10, 2008

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    psycruler psycruler 31-35, M Jan 13

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    I need to crawl back on to the wagon I fell of of a few months ago ... I stopped watching what I eat and going to the gym ...there seem to be no time and I was tired all the time...
    Chernobylplayground Chernobylplayground 36-40 1 Response Jan 2

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    Ok this has been my first official day without sugar O.O There are so many temptations around me and trying not to just give in is soooo hard,but I need to do this . I want to be...
    Chernobylplayground Chernobylplayground 36-40 1 Response Jan 11

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    I lost my mother last January. I think that was the hardest thing that I have had to deal with. She was my best friend. There isn't a day that goes by that I think of her.
    Camo74 Camo74 36-40, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Story Time: (Warning: This is kinda long) I will not be saying anyone's names in case anyone on here goes to my school. These are wonderful people, inspiring people, and I respect...
    xCrowSong xCrowSong 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 11

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    I pray that when I die it's a peaceful death. I pray that I'll be reunited with my loved ones who have already gone to glory like my husband... may he rip.
    niesa0732 niesa0732 22-25, F Jan 16

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    I feel sad when people not able to hold their emotions and bursting out in tears to their loved ones or their trusted companions when they have that need But at the same time I am...
    psycruler psycruler 31-35, M 4 Responses