I Am Afraid of My Loved Ones Dying

The dreaded nightmare...that sometimes lasts...and lasts 2,817 People

    It Can't Happen...

    You could say that in most regards life has been pretty tough on me. Not only have I been to hell and back a few times now, I've had the un-pleasant distinction of being around for the death of quite a few family members. My Uncle who helped raise me, 3of4 grandparents. Those I...
    EricS EricS
    31-35, M
    1 Response Oct 10, 2008

    My Cousin

    I found this site on accident. But my cousin just recently attempted suicide she is now in the ER in a sort of coma If It wasn't for me and her sister surprising her at her apartment we never would have found her car running with a hose leading from her muffler to her mouth while...
    AshleysExperience AshleysExperience
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Oct 11, 2013

    Everyday it seems my friends are

    either dying, get arrested, or just disappear from my life. And I can't talk to my family about anything but I know they love me. The struggles.
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jan 24

    My boyfriend is going to basic training

    for the army in a month and also officer school. He is in the reserves, but idk lately for the past few months I've had a feeling that he's going to get deployed and die. Or that something is going to happen to him. I know I am overreacting a bit, but I can't help myself. He's...
    blooop123 blooop123
    22-25, F
    May 26, 2015

    I am afraid that it's becoming my grandmothers

    time to go. I'm so far away from her and when my grandpa was dying I couldn't be there. I honestly can't imaging a life without my grandma it's already been hard coping with the lost of my grandfather. I never really had a close relationship than anyone else besides my...
    chanel0408 chanel0408
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Oct 18, 2014

    My deceased father's last remaining brother has

    taken a drastic turn for the worst, and even though I visited him last week, I feel bad that I cannot be there now.
    Myzery Myzery
    31-35, F
    Jan 22

    Who doesn't fear it? I mean just thinking of

    someone you love going somewhere for a whole year saddens me, what more if it's for eternity. Death is just so fearful. But what's more fearful is how to live now that they're gone. You can't live the way things are before after it. It's like part of you died as well. That just...
    PiperMcLean PiperMcLean
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 11, 2015

    Sometimes when I'm talking to my elderly family

    members that I'm very close to, I just think to myself that the day that they die, I'm going to be inconsolable. It's so hard to think about them not being in my life anymore. So as they talk, I remember the moment exactly as it was. The clothes they wear, the wrinkles on their...
    gglz18 gglz18
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Jan 3, 2015

    My mom got into an accident today

    and all I could think of was why wasn't I there to help her?!?
    rushman5 rushman5
    16-17, M
    1 Response Jan 4, 2015

    My Dad Is Dying

    Hi. I'm not actually sure what to write here but i'll give it a try. My name is Viktor and i'm from Sweden. About 4 years ago my father got ALS, which is a condition that makes your muscles retract. The process is different from each individual but for my father it went pretty...
    Crapster Crapster
    2 Responses Jan 17, 2011
    pokwang1111 pokwang1111
    26-30, M
    1 Response Jul 1, 2014

    How Come

    How is that I cry all night,Yet all you do is smileAnd think everything is all rightHow is it that when I look up at youYou can't look me in my eyesAnd when ever I want to talkAll you want to do is make me cryIs it that you take pleasure in playing games with my heartEver since I...
    deleted deleted
    Apr 9, 2012

    I lost my chicken first,

    I loved him so much and took care of him. One night he started chocking and died. I was so sad. After that it was my axolotls and my dog, I loved my dog so much he loved me too I know. Then it was worse, my grandad died painfully and slowly... it all happened so fast. I got a...
    Neon765 Neon765
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Aug 4, 2014

    My dad is sick withh Cancer.

    .. Everyone expects me to be strong for my mother....but I'm terrified and I have to bear it alone in secret.
    Tann910 Tann910
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Jan 22

    Death Freaks Me Out

    i think most people are afraid of their loved ones dying. but for me it is deeper then that. i can not handle death. it freaks me out. when someone close to me dies i get depressed and obsessive about it. the finality of death is hard for me to comprehend. i have a hard time with...
    deleted deleted
    4 Responses Apr 15, 2011

    I have always been terrified of my loved ones

    dying...it's so damn final. Yes I'm hoping & crossing my fingers that I get to see them again someday...but til then...it's hard to go on sometimes. I lost both of my grandpas when I was pretty young...7 & 8. You don't really realize what's going on at that age. I missed...
    RubyLane RubyLane
    46-50, F
    Sep 15, 2014

    Selfish Me...

    I don't know how i could ever deal with them GONE. just out of my life. i've had two very disturbing dreams about my mum, and then my dad, dying, dead, then gone. i woke up crying, and had to run to the bathroom to wash up before everyone else woke up. it gives me shivers to...
    BowsAndBones BowsAndBones
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Jun 23, 2007

    It's just happened so many times.

    Today's events takes the totals up to three in the past three months... Just why??
    deleted deleted
    Dec 22, 2014

    My farce for a Mother,

    (she isn't my real Mother), told me that she's got her lawyer involved in a serious matter between she and I. What I'd like her lawyer to know is that she is not my real Mother. She has been molesting me alongside her men of the many since she murdered my real Mother, I was only...
    deleted deleted
    Feb 14, 2015

    I am not sure why but i had a nightmare about a

    week ago and in it my older brother was murdered and my family did not tell me till 2 days later and i cried my eyes out and i woke up and i think i was physically crying when i was crying in my sleep i woke up to my pillow wet and i was not slobbering and my face felt like it...
    ReallyConfusedTeen ReallyConfusedTeen
    18-21, M
    1 Response Mar 17

    I used to think this way.

    From the first funeral I can remember until my father died about 6 years ago. After his death from colon cancer I realized what a false statement this was. What I really fear is living without them in my world! But again - "death has no mercy". Those left behind must go on until...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Mar 14, 2014

    I'm really scared of my family members dying.

    I'm a senior in high school and my dad died three years ago. His death was really unexpected so after that I was like "Wow, it's true that ANYONE can go at anytime"... Since then I've been super worried about my grandparents and it makes me sick thinking about it. My grandmother...
    youthberry youthberry
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 10, 2014

    Tired Of Saying 'goodbye'

    From as early as I could remember, I've known death. I never thought it was odd until a friend of mine told me she was 18 years old when she attended her first funeral. It seems as though the ones that I allowed to get the closest were the first to depart. I've experienced far...
    PhybieRaslen PhybieRaslen
    36-40, F
    Mar 15, 2011

    Mixed Feelings

    Did you enjoy my pain?Was it fun to watch me fall?You where the reason why I became this wayEveryday, my life is tormented by nightmares,Nightmares that are my realityDo you feel nothing for what you have done?Have you ever thought how your actions might affect others?While I...
    deleted deleted
    Apr 9, 2012

    Im such a daddy's boy

    and comes to show that every time I think about my dad in any a hostage situation or pain...I cry...I do.
    neffi neffi
    16-17, M
    Oct 18, 2014

    It's been almost an hour

    since I received the news of my grandma about her health. My family and I have known few months ago her health has gotten worst and the doctor said she has maximum 6 months left to live because parts of her body has stopped functioning due to sickness and old age. Now, when...
    TheSoaringHighBird TheSoaringHighBird
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 7, 2014

    Last year i found out my cousin has cancer,

    i hate knowing i cant do anything about it, my granddad died of cancer, I'm sick of losing people, in 2011 alone i lost 5 people, and i haven't even recovered to that, this year my koro died and that hurt and i just don't want to get a call saying my cousin died because i will...
    ColdHeartedDungeonBat ColdHeartedDungeonBat
    16-17, F
    Jul 23, 2015

    My Wife , My Dear Love of a lifetime had a

    stroke 7 years ago and made it thru it . But it changed her in ways that she will never get back. I cannot even imagine what my life would be without her.
    James5335 James5335
    61-65, M
    1 Response Jul 10, 2015

    I would be in a horrible state

    if my mom or dad died ( I'd be dead ) ( not literally)
    theamittyaffloction theamittyaffloction
    16-17, F
    Sep 25, 2014

    Loved Ones Dying

    Death is a part of life but is the part of life that we do not know much about and is so difficult to deal with. It will affect life as you know it for the rest of YOUR life with that person being absent. Whether it is a parent, friend, child, spouse etc. it is hard. I had a...
    juniper2 juniper2
    46-50, F
    2 Responses Apr 15, 2012

    I used to have this anxiety.

    Pictures of people I care about getting murdered, stabbed to death, shot in the head, burned alive, chopped into peices. If it wasn't for God and meditation I'd still be haunted by these visions.
    ADeepPerspective ADeepPerspective
    22-25, F
    1 Response Dec 26, 2013

    I know that is the worst thing

    that can ever happen to me or to anyone. I cannot even imagine losing my loved ones. I cant really even imagine or bear the though of losing my loved ones like that. Life surely is unpredictable and it's notl like my loved ones are gonna live forever but i just wish and hope it...
    Athenastyx Athenastyx
    22-25, F
    5 Responses Nov 15, 2015

    I get rlly paranoid about this,

    like is I don't hear from a person in awhile I automatically assume the worst. It's terrible :(
    chasetheweirdo8 chasetheweirdo8
    16-17, M
    1 Response Jan 3, 2015

    I think everyone is afraid of losing someone

    their loved ones especially the people they are very close with. I just had this bad and weird dream and I know that words are not enough to describe it. It was like a reunion with my family, high school friends and college friends. We sort of went to a huge adventure park...
    Trishhh Trishhh
    26-30, F
    Apr 22, 2014

    My Dad Just Had Heart Bypass Surgery

    He's my best friend. Whenever anything good happens to me, I always want to call him and tell him about it so we can share in the victory together. Whenever I'm confused or down, I call him to discuss it as well. Even if I don't agree with his advice, it's a comfort to know he...
    harveyspecter harveyspecter
    46-50, M
    2 Responses Feb 15, 2013

    Does anyone else feel

    so angry or sad or stressed or any feeling you get thinking about someone you love that could die soon, it's a terrible feeling, you start looking at life and how it would be without that person, and you start to remember things you never did that you wanted to do with them, it...
    Dylanthesissy Dylanthesissy
    18-21, M
    4 Responses Sep 15, 2015

    I lost 5 relatives in the last 5 years

    so I'm really scared I'm going to lose more
    sammylynn333 sammylynn333
    18-21, F
    Oct 19, 2014

    im so sad i need someone to talk to my aunt is

    dying she has only one day to live... i really need someone please help im so sad k cnt stop crying i miss her already and i love her so much
    Zaquoya Zaquoya
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 8, 2014

    I think my dad is sick.

    He smokes a lot and I hate it. He doesn't like to admit when something is wrong. Tries to make sure we don't worry. I overheard him talking on the phone about a biopsy report. Not sure if I should ask about it.
    PlutoBox PlutoBox
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Oct 17, 2014

    Yea i know it's a part of life

    but that doesn't mean I have to accept it. I start crying just at the thought of the ones I love passing away. It's not a good thing. So why should i act like it is?
    Raptax231 Raptax231
    22-25, M
    Sep 16, 2014

    Dont Wanna Go Thru It Again

    I am scared of my loved ones dying especially my grandma.  She's the one that keeps the family together.  And out of all of the people close to me including my father and my mother, I think she is the only one to love me unconditionally and SHOW IT.  My mother...
    snobunny826 snobunny826
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jun 26, 2007

    My cousin has cancer

    and shes supposed to be having a opperation shes only got a couple of months to live she wont go to her appointments she has a family and a happy life I dont want her to die but she wont go she keeps skipping her hospital appointments I need her im sick of people I love dying
    ColdHeartedDungeonBat ColdHeartedDungeonBat
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jul 29, 2014

    Last night, or rather just now,

    I had a nightmare with my dad's death. I can't go back to sleep now. I'm too scared.
    ChiaXUno ChiaXUno
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 24, 2015
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