I Am Afraid Of My Own Darkness

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    There is much to the human psyche we can't

    explain nor understand. I am spiritual, and enjoy the ritualisation of preparing for and going to synagogue for Shabbat. However, my friend Etienne has invited me to go to London for the weekend and I readily accepted! I will miss synagogue but have a weekend of sex, dark dark...
    Astrucbmt Astrucbmt
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 27, 2015

    I fall under my own fears

    and dreads. They say before you reach redemption you must fall under darkness. I feel if I were to reach redemption the thing I'd be having an absolution from would be myself. I do not like the person I've become or am growing to be. It's hard to resent someone when that person...
    DexterPyro DexterPyro
    16-17, M
    Nov 21, 2014

    I Can Fight It, But I Can't Beat It...

    I gave my all to be optimistic with myself and others but I can never fully win. It's like every good thing I say is in vain. I can fight my nature but nature reminds me where I am and who the winner is.
    LovelessDeluxe LovelessDeluxe
    22-25
    Nov 25, 2011

    I am a duality of peoples; cold

    and passionate; smart and stupid; light and dark. I have failed so completely to climb aboard a unified picture of myself that I simply present a persona to the world. Warm, friendly and goofy, none of which is true, except perhaps the last part, my inner child stubbornly...
    MrWinstonSmith MrWinstonSmith
    26-30, M
    Apr 29, 2015

    My Darkness

    It swallows me. I just learned to live with it, alone.
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Sep 19, 2010

    Why should you be afraid?

    That darkness is a part of you. You should just accept it. To be afraid of it is the same as being afraid of one of your own limbs. we all have darkness.
    alienatedvirus alienatedvirus
    18-21, M
    May 8, 2015

    I naturally gravitate towards darker things.

    I will choose the horror film over the comedy, and I'll choose the black shirt over the yellow one, and I find dark humor more amusing than the innocent kind. But I fear this will be the death of me. I will gravitate to something too dark one day and be hurt because of it. I...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Oct 21, 2014

    This photo I took during a not

    so fun time in life. I am afraid of my own darkness. I have a temper that I can't control and a sadness so great. I lose all control. And that is what I'm truly afraid of.... Losing control. When your smile is stolen from you. Do you hide behind a lie. One so wide it reaches...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Oct 10, 2014
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