I Am Afraid of Myself

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    My Anger Scares Me

    Honestly, I'm afraid of what i would do to someone if I lose my temper. It scares me more considering I'm actually a pretty big guy (6 foot 3 inches and over 300 lbs.). i try my best to control it, but it feels like something within is forcing me to be violent. i just don't know...
    sexybiguy5 sexybiguy5
    22-25, M
    4 Responses Feb 17, 2011

    I Am Fearful For My Life Some Nights.

    I just have to get this out. I am living a constant battle in my head. I have 3 distinct 'spirits', moods, characters, or whatever you feel fits best.There is the calm, gentle, caring side of me. This is me. The one who is shy when it comes to talking to people, the one who is...
    packersfan423 packersfan423
    22-25
    3 Responses May 26, 2012

    Keep Me Safe From Myself

    I'm terrified of myself.my life hasn't been all sunshine and daisies, with my parents both passing away from cancer at the end of last year, my gran passing away two weeks ago and my sister who has down syndrome is barley hanging on by a thread.id do anything to see them again...
    boeboeQ boeboeQ
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jun 29, 2011

    Everyday Is A Lifetime

    I dont know how ill feel when I wake up in the morning. Somedays I wake up ready to kick ***, live life and be happy .I look at myself in the mirrors somedays and I silently cry and resist the urge to break down. Sometimes I run away and I dont remember why. Somedays I feel...
    Alexes219 Alexes219
    13-15
    Aug 29, 2012

    Someone Has to Be Afraid of Me...

    I've tried countless times to explain myself to people. they just see cute eyes and an "innocent" smile and laugh off my attempts at making them understand.  i've been born and cursed with the ability to escape almost anything bad.  and i realize the...
    cluelessandlost cluelessandlost
    18-21, M
    1 Response Jun 29, 2009

    Who's to Blame?

    I'm new here. So I'm not sure where exactly to post what. All I know is that this is the exact type of site I enjoy. Where you don't necessarily have to know the person but can understand him or her based on similarities and/or differences. At this point, I feel really lonely...
    chelskaa chelskaa
    16-17
    5 Responses Jun 29, 2009

    The World Comes Crashing And! What?

    Soo what do you do when you feel like the world is crashing and you don’t even have the energy to care? That is how I feel right now. I hate this- because its not me, it is other people, things outside of my control, that have put me in this state. I am to blame, ultimately...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Mar 13, 2012

    I am afraid to do the things I sincerely want

    to do. I want to paint, to draw, make movies; I want to make them with the unknown beauty that lays somewhere in my mind. But to reach that unknown beauty I have to open up my mind. But that's also the place where my demons lay. I am scared that I will wake them again. They'll...
    MiniMelancholy MiniMelancholy
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Mar 10, 2014

    I Am So Afraid.

    I've always had an irrational fear of things most children are afraid of: monsters, the dark, being alone. But as I've grown up, the fear has only gotten worse. I'm so afraid that sometimes I can't sleep at night, and I have to stay up with the lights on, trying to distract...
    anonymousworthless anonymousworthless
    13-15
    2 Responses Jan 4, 2012

    More So Then I Care To Admit...

    Have you ever been scared, I mean really scared of something? Do you wonder what you'd have to do if that was placed in front of you and you had to do something about it? Do you ever wonder why you are scared of it? How often do you think of it?I have been scared of something...
    purplebutterfly14 purplebutterfly14
    18-21, F
    Nov 3, 2011

    I Hate Myself And Fear Myself

    It seems that no matter what I do, no matter how good my intentions are, I can do nothing but hurt people. I can't seem to be around a group of people for more than a few months before I start to become unable to be around them anymore and I have to move on. I have no friends and...
    silvertongue16 silvertongue16
    16-17
    1 Response May 7, 2011

    I ALWAYS ASKED MYSELF THIS QUESTION.

    WHY DO I BORN?WHY DO PEOPLE LIVE TO THE FULLEST?WHY PEOPLE DIE?
    AKB48 AKB48
    13-15, F
    Sep 30, 2015

    I am afraid of my own thoughts.

    They eat me alive. Whats worse is that i cant stop. How do you run from whats inside your own head?
    chipconyurson chipconyurson
    13-15, F
    1 Response Jan 2

    Willly Wonka's Schizophrenia

    Gene Wilder sings in Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory that says, "If you want to view paradise, simply look around and view it". "There is no life I know to compare with pure imagination. Living there, you'll be free, if yo truly wish to be." Why not...
    maniachick maniachick
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 7, 2009

    My heart is racing. My head is hurting.

    I keep thinking about how there's no one. There's nothing. Maybe I've been alone for too long. I've forgotten how to connect. Every part of me is killing right now. Every day I'm giving up just a little more. There going to be a break. I need help but I don't want it. I'm afraid...
    bunnyXbunny bunnyXbunny
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Mar 22, 2015

    I'm Disappearing

    Not to say I ever even really existed in the first place. I constantly can not tell when my dreams stop and reality begins. The only time I feel like I am actually there is when I'm in pain or high. This sense of nothingness is leading me down a road of despair and I can't...
    KeepThoseEyesOpen KeepThoseEyesOpen
    18-21
    3 Responses Feb 25, 2010

    The Other Me

    When I was younger, mostly 1st through 5th grade, I lived in a fantasy that didn't exsist. I spent very little time being social and the time I did spend being social I was shy and reserved. I had friends but they were few. And my parents were often busy working, I felt like I...
    Callua Callua
    13-15
    1 Response Feb 5, 2013

    My Thoughts...my Dreams...

       I am afraid of what I could do. I am afraid of what I WILL do. I am afraid of who I am.    I've started having dreams that scare the **** out of me. Could I really do any of that? I am worried that I could..without batting an eye. I dream of...
    luckypickle luckypickle
    26-30
    9 Responses Sep 27, 2009

    I was born with a gift.

    Sounds like a blessing, right? But in some ways it is a curse. I've called myself a monster for so many times. I feel like Elsa from Frozen, and its no wonder why her character really stuck to my heart. Its because we are both scared of ourselves, with what we can do, with our...
    Seaspiritaria Seaspiritaria
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Jan 30, 2015

    I'm Not Sure

    I have started to enjoy mentally and slightly physically harming others. and get headaches and cramps if I'm not hurting someone for a couple of days. One time, one of my classmates sat in my chair, and I flipped him out, and nearly slammed his head into a marble table corner...
    BPLP123 BPLP123
    13-15
    1 Response Jun 29, 2011

    I’m afraid of hurting people.

    I always hurt someone when people get too close. The only times I can talk to people is by doing street magic or by trying to help them with their problems. Either way, those are the only times I feel I’m doing something good for someone, the only times I feel people like me...
    l0kar l0kar
    18-21, M
    1 Response Jul 12, 2014

    Im Scared

    I'm really scared of heights and I live on the third floor and every evening I wanna jump because Im scared just wanna see if any one else have this and maybe you know how to deal with it:) thank you so much this is driving me crazy!
    linute linute
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 16, 2010

    Don't Push My Buttons

    I felt this story. I grew up with a step-dad that was very easy to get mad. Mum would warn me that he would ‘hit the roof’ and so often he did. To make matters slightly more complicated my younger sister had a brain hemorrhage at birth (and also has ADHD) and so has...
    smebro smebro
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Aug 18, 2007

    I Am Afraid of What I Could...

    I am afraid of what I could do to someone if I get really mad, so yes at times I am afraid of myself.
    Tanya10578 Tanya10578
    31-35
    1 Response Jun 28, 2009

    I Dont Want To Be Crazy

    My biggest fear, that is deepest to my core and always there, is of going crazy. Im so afraid of literally losing my mind or manifesting a disorder. Im so afraid that if I do, I will be alone. I frequently have nightmares of this. The latest one I had slit my wrists, blood...
    ineffable76 ineffable76
    18-21, F
    8 Responses Sep 11, 2012

    I am scared of what will happen.

    . The urges are taking over and I don't want to cut.. But it's like I need to... I need the physical pain... I don't even know what to do..
    Muppo23 Muppo23
    16-17, F
    1 Response Oct 9, 2014

    I am horribly, pathetically,

    afraid of this little being inside of me. Ever since I was young I loved being alone, everybody knew it and they didn't mind. Nowadays, it's like a phobia.. I am afraid thislittle being is gonna lead to things I regret, which happened before.. I have tried occupying myself, but...
    AoNoSora AoNoSora
    18-21
    1 Response Jan 11, 2015

    Afraid

    I am afraid of myself because ever since I was little I've always been to do what Im told like alot of people, but now Im almost old enough to make my own decisions in life, and so now I have a boyfriend and he thinks that Im afraid to live little and enjoy life, because I grew...
    Saiya Saiya
    16-17, F
    1 Response May 30, 2009

    It´s All On Me!

    I´m afraid of myself because I´m very unstable and can´t seem to deal with my emotions properly. It´s very common for me to spend a whole day feeling alright, until night comes. And like some kind of werewolf, something (I don´t know what or why...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Oct 24, 2008

    I suffer of at least one of these.

    . https://caitlindurkin.wordpress.com/2013/01/20/are-you-afraid-of-yourself-6-signs-you-might-be/
    ItsDanny ItsDanny
    18-21, M
    Mar 2

    If They Only Knew...

    I am outwardly a very happy person. Nobody would ever know what goes on in my head. No one would ever expect it.   Sometimes the people around me are SO IGNORANT. I hate it, I can't stand how stupid everyone is. I hate people! People are morons. Whiny, little, self...
    LilahDearest LilahDearest
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Nov 4, 2008

    My Anger Scares Me

    Ok so I'm not very big and not very old but I'm pretty messed up in the head and my anger issues are out of control. When I'm mad all hell breaks loose, I get in peoples faces screaming, shoving, I hit people, I throw things, I have even choked my twin sister. This year I have...
    AnonymousBatman AnonymousBatman
    16-17
    Jun 26, 2013

    Losing Me

    I am afraid. I am afriad of myself. I am afraid of the world. I don't know whats happened to me. I used to have emotions and I used to be happy with life. Every once in a while I become a monster. My mom and I get into a fight. In the moment its scary. And then I find myself...
    beachcutie806 beachcutie806
    13-15
    Jan 9, 2011

    I am afraid of my angry self.

    Normally I am calm and like everyone else. But when people make me angry, I have a tendency to yell at people and swear at them so that I don't physically hurt them. It generally happens when someone hits something that is very close and dear to me, and it doesn't help that I am...
    leoninja leoninja
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Dec 28, 2013

    I'm afraid of the darkness inside me.

    It is overwhelming. It doesn't let any light shine through. I am scared of it but not scared of all the darkness in the outside world. I fear that I will do something irrational because of my fear.
    StormianaGraymane14 StormianaGraymane14
    18-21, F
    Nov 1, 2014

    If There Is Anything..

    If there is anything I am truly afraid of it is myself because I know that my mind can destroy everything else that I fear. The fear of losing the two people I value more than my own life. I am the only one capable of making them be truly dead to me. It is by my power and will...
    HanaNoMizu HanaNoMizu
    26-30, F
    8 Responses Jun 29, 2009

    I try to control myself,

    I have trained myself to be polite but otherwise I am a aggressive ******* sometimes.
    persononinternet persononinternet
    18-21, M
    Jan 12, 2014

    I Am Afraid of Myself

    I'm afraid of who I am, what I'm capable of and what I'll end up doing. Whether it's thinking I'll finally lose my mind and sink into a psychosis that no one can pull me back out of, or freaking out and physically hurting those around me. I'm afraid that just telling my friends...
    thiswhisper thiswhisper
    22-25, M
    Jul 1, 2009

    I'm not sure if writing this is going to help

    or not . . . but I'll give it a shot. Is it possible to be haunted by one's own personality? No matter how much time passes or what solutions I try to implement, I am continually haunted by the fact that I'm not social enough. I'm haunted by the fact that I'm slow, dense, and...
    epdostoevsky epdostoevsky
    16-17
    Feb 3, 2014
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