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I Am Afraid of Myself

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    I Am Afraid of What I Could...

    I am afraid of what I could do to someone if I get really mad, so yes at times I am afraid of myself.
    Tanya10578 Tanya10578 31-35 1 Response Jun 28, 2009

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    Don't Push My Buttons

    I felt this story. I grew up with a step-dad that was very easy to get mad. Mum would warn me that he would ‘hit the roof’ and so often he did. To make matters slightly more complicated my younger sister had a brain hemorrhage at birth (and also has ADHD) and so has...
    smebro smebro 22-25, M 2 Responses Aug 18, 2007

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    I Hate Myself And Fear Myself

    It seems that no matter what I do, no matter how good my intentions are, I can do nothing but hurt people. I can't seem to be around a group of people for more than a few months before I start to become unable to be around them anymore and I have to move on. I have no friends and...
    silvertongue16 silvertongue16 16-17 1 Response May 7, 2011

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    I Am So Afraid.

    I've always had an irrational fear of things most children are afraid of: monsters, the dark, being alone. But as I've grown up, the fear has only gotten worse. I'm so afraid that sometimes I can't sleep at night, and I have to stay up with the lights on, trying to distract...
    anonymousworthless anonymousworthless 13-15 2 Responses Jan 4, 2012

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    Someone Has to Be Afraid of Me...

    I've tried countless times to explain myself to people. they just see cute eyes and an "innocent" smile and laugh off my attempts at making them understand.  i've been born and cursed with the ability to escape almost anything bad.  and i realize the...
    cluelessandlost cluelessandlost 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 29, 2009

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    If There Is Anything..

    If there is anything I am truly afraid of it is myself because I know that my mind can destroy everything else that I fear. The fear of losing the two people I value more than my own life. I am the only one capable of making them be truly dead to me. It is by my power and will...
    HanaNoMizu HanaNoMizu 22-25, F 8 Responses Jun 29, 2009

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    My Anger Scares Me

    Ok so I'm not very big and not very old but I'm pretty messed up in the head and my anger issues are out of control. When I'm mad all hell breaks loose, I get in peoples faces screaming, shoving, I hit people, I throw things, I have even choked my twin sister. This year I have...
    AnonymousBatman AnonymousBatman 13-15 Jun 26, 2013

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    Keep Me Safe From Myself

    I'm terrified of myself.my life hasn't been all sunshine and daisies, with my parents both passing away from cancer at the end of last year, my gran passing away two weeks ago and my sister who has down syndrome is barley hanging on by a thread.id do anything to see them again...
    boeboeQ boeboeQ 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 29, 2011

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    Everyday Is A Lifetime

    I dont know how ill feel when I wake up in the morning. Somedays I wake up ready to kick ***, live life and be happy .I look at myself in the mirrors somedays and I silently cry and resist the urge to break down. Sometimes I run away and I dont remember why. Somedays I feel...
    Alexes219 Alexes219 13-15 Aug 29, 2012

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    I'm not sure if writing this is going to help

    or not . . . but I'll give it a shot. Is it possible to be haunted by one's own personality? No matter how much time passes or what solutions I try to implement, I am continually haunted by the fact that I'm not social enough. I'm haunted by the fact that I'm slow, dense, and...
    epdostoevsky epdostoevsky 13-15 1 Response Feb 3

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    I try to control myself,

    I have trained myself to be polite but otherwise I am a aggressive ******* sometimes.
    persononinternet persononinternet 16-17, M Jan 12

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    I'm Disappearing

    Not to say I ever even really existed in the first place. I constantly can not tell when my dreams stop and reality begins. The only time I feel like I am actually there is when I'm in pain or high. This sense of nothingness is leading me down a road of despair and I can't...
    KeepThoseEyesOpen KeepThoseEyesOpen 18-21 2 Responses Feb 25, 2010

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    I am afraid of my angry self.

    Normally I am calm and like everyone else. But when people make me angry, I have a tendency to yell at people and swear at them so that I don't physically hurt them. It generally happens when someone hits something that is very close and dear to me, and it doesn't help that I am...
    leoninja leoninja 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 28, 2013

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    The World Comes Crashing And! What?

    Soo what do you do when you feel like the world is crashing and you don’t even have the energy to care? That is how I feel right now. I hate this- because its not me, it is other people, things outside of my control, that have put me in this state. I am to blame, ultimately...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Mar 13, 2012

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    More So Then I Care To Admit...

    Have you ever been scared, I mean really scared of something? Do you wonder what you'd have to do if that was placed in front of you and you had to do something about it? Do you ever wonder why you are scared of it? How often do you think of it?I have been scared of something...
    purplebutterfly14 purplebutterfly14 18-21, F Nov 3, 2011

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    Afraid

    I am afraid of myself because ever since I was little I've always been to do what Im told like alot of people, but now Im almost old enough to make my own decisions in life, and so now I have a boyfriend and he thinks that Im afraid to live little and enjoy life, because I grew...
    Saiya Saiya 16-17, F 1 Response May 30, 2009

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    It´s All On Me!

    I´m afraid of myself because I´m very unstable and can´t seem to deal with my emotions properly. It´s very common for me to spend a whole day feeling alright, until night comes. And like some kind of werewolf, something (I don´t know what or why...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Oct 24, 2008

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    I Am Fearful For My Life Some Nights.

    I just have to get this out. I am living a constant battle in my head. I have 3 distinct 'spirits', moods, characters, or whatever you feel fits best.There is the calm, gentle, caring side of me. This is me. The one who is shy when it comes to talking to people, the one who is...
    packersfan423 packersfan423 22-25 3 Responses May 26, 2012

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    I am afraid to do the things I sincerely want

    to do. I want to paint, to draw, make movies; I want to make them with the unknown beauty that lays somewhere in my mind. But to reach that unknown beauty I have to open up my mind. But that's also the place where my demons lay. I am scared that I will wake them again. They'll...
    MiniMelancholy MiniMelancholy 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 10

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    If They Only Knew...

    I am outwardly a very happy person. Nobody would ever know what goes on in my head. No one would ever expect it.   Sometimes the people around me are SO IGNORANT. I hate it, I can't stand how stupid everyone is. I hate people! People are morons. Whiny, little, self...
    LilahDearest LilahDearest 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 4, 2008

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    Who's to Blame?

    I'm new here. So I'm not sure where exactly to post what. All I know is that this is the exact type of site I enjoy. Where you don't necessarily have to know the person but can understand him or her based on similarities and/or differences. At this point, I feel really lonely...
    chelskaa chelskaa 16-17 5 Responses Jun 29, 2009

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    The Other Me

    When I was younger, mostly 1st through 5th grade, I lived in a fantasy that didn't exsist. I spent very little time being social and the time I did spend being social I was shy and reserved. I had friends but they were few. And my parents were often busy working, I felt like I...
    Callua Callua 13-15 1 Response Feb 5, 2013

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    My Thoughts...my Dreams...

       I am afraid of what I could do. I am afraid of what I WILL do. I am afraid of who I am.    I've started having dreams that scare the **** out of me. Could I really do any of that? I am worried that I could..without batting an eye. I dream of...
    luckypickle luckypickle 26-30 9 Responses Sep 27, 2009

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    Im Scared

    I'm really scared of heights and I live on the third floor and every evening I wanna jump because Im scared just wanna see if any one else have this and maybe you know how to deal with it:) thank you so much this is driving me crazy!
    linute linute 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 16, 2010

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    I'm Not Sure

    I have started to enjoy mentally and slightly physically harming others. and get headaches and cramps if I'm not hurting someone for a couple of days. One time, one of my classmates sat in my chair, and I flipped him out, and nearly slammed his head into a marble table corner...
    BPLP123 BPLP123 13-15 1 Response Jun 29, 2011

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    My Anger Scares Me

    Honestly, I'm afraid of what i would do to someone if I lose my temper. It scares me more considering I'm actually a pretty big guy (6 foot 3 inches and over 300 lbs.). i try my best to control it, but it feels like something within is forcing me to be violent. i just don't know...
    sexybiguy5 sexybiguy5 22-25, M 3 Responses Feb 17, 2011

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    Willly Wonka's Schizophrenia

    Gene Wilder sings in Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory that says, "If you want to view paradise, simply look around and view it". "There is no life I know to compare with pure imagination. Living there, you'll be free, if yo truly wish to be." Why not...
    maniachick maniachick 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 7, 2009

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    Ever since this girl first walked into our school for the first time, I couldn't take my eyes off her, and I know I probably wasn't the only one gazing at her beauty. Through my...
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    It sucks when you're ignored by the person whose attention is the only thing you want in the world. Ever since this girl first walked into our school, I couldn’t take my eyes...
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    I am afraid that I'll end up alone. I have loved and been loved. But sometimes love just isn't enough. Not when you push that person away... When you push them away so much that...
    maraselene maraselene 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 6

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    Which I shouldn't be. I've been told I am fairly attractive. With that said, I don't look like a model. I live in a very shallow city. If you aren't supermodel in shape, and...
    ozwyn ozwyn 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 7

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    Fear of the unknown. It’s a vexing quality that nearly every person seems to possess. It’s a fear that has stifled the lives of all that have known it. I’m certainly no...
    GiantKaiju GiantKaiju 22-25, M 3 Responses Apr 11

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    I've been so afraid of messing up my life, I've forgotten that it is okay to do exactly that in life. I've been putting unnecessary pressure on myself. Judging myself too harshly...
    anom33 anom33 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 28

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    BRAVO! Nothing worst than someone conforming to peer pressure and being like "sisters" by copying and being exactly like their friends - imitating the same behavior and do what...
    MilweePisces MilweePisces 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 9

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    I am always afraid of hurting those who I care about, and those who care about me. I am always afraid that I am going to do, or say something that will hurt them, that is why I...
    NYSlilAngel NYSlilAngel 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 27

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    They say you have to love yourself and being alone with yourself before you can truly appreciate life and love other people. I have been stuck in an unhappy relationship for two...
    narwhal92 narwhal92 22-25, F 3 Responses Apr 2

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    I am somewhat afraid I will end up alone because I know that when I get bored in relationships I get bored and there is usually no going back...until I've alone for a few months...
    windynight54321 windynight54321 31-35, M Apr 4

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    I don't fit in anywhere, but here I felt accepted. In real life I'm the type that judges myself a lot and all because I can't accept the person I am. So as a result I crave for...
    GrumpyGrouchy GrumpyGrouchy 22-25, F 3 Responses Apr 4

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    I am very much afraid of ending up like my parents. Now don't get me wrong, I had the most amazing mother in the world, and I'd give my last drop of blood to have her back, but she...
    NYSlilAngel NYSlilAngel 26-30, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    90% of the time, I am afraid of people. I do not allow myself to get close to a lot of people, because I am always worried about getting hurt by people. I have learned over the...
    NYSlilAngel NYSlilAngel 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 27

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    Im a disappointment to everyone. I can't talk to anyone. I hurt. I'm soo afraid to just speak out and talk to someone. I'm afraid of what anyone will think of me. I hate myself for...
    Itsmeiguess Itsmeiguess 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 7

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    I told you guys that I hated myself. Now I am in a messy circumstance and I felt everything was falling apart. I might not finish my degree on time when the financial stance is not...
    InFiDeL0020 InFiDeL0020 26-30, M Mar 24

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    It took me a while to realize that somewhere along my path of life I actually managed to lose myself in reality. I lost old friends and gained new ones and realized I had changed...
    ariel2891 ariel2891 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 26

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    I had so much faith that everyone was going to work out. I was determined to commit myself to my relationship with my Saviour and trust that whichever path He takes me is the right...
    puberro puberro 70+, F 4 Responses Mar 25

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    Not really afraid of it any longer....I don't put myself in situations to be rejected. It has happened so many times in the past year that I can't take it any more. My soul has...
    sassyg1rl sassyg1rl 36-40, F 2 Responses Mar 22

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    I find it incredibly difficult to open up to people, especially lately because everyone I've ever been close to has left. Now I just keep the majority of my thoughts and feelings...
    hollylynn91 hollylynn91 22-25, F Mar 26

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    For most of my life, at least as far as I can remember, I've suffered from horrifying night-terrors. I have PTSD resulting from childhood trauma and nightmares are a side-effect of...
    thisangelslife thisangelslife 31-35, M Mar 28

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    Sometimes I have the feeling that my entire life has already been planned for me, as though I woke up from some dream and I'm living a life that someone had already created. I ask...
    Kyle200 Kyle200 22-25, M Mar 29

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    In third grade they laughed at me because I wore all black. I couldn't afford new clothes, these were given to me. In fourth grade they laughed at me because I never had anything...
    HeyItsKaylaMay HeyItsKaylaMay 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 30

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    I don't know if this is normal but I'm kind of afraid of men. Not that I have a bad experience with them, but, still, they scare me. No man has treated me badly in my entire life...
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