I Am Afraid Of Never Being Truly Loved

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    I'm afraid of dying a virgin.

    I'm afraid of dying without anyone to cry and miss me. I don't open to females. I'm not good enough. I haven't kissed a girl, seen a girl nude, been close to a girl in over two years when "she" took my heart and ran away with it. I still don't have it.
    CJCA CJCA
    18-21, M
    1 Response Aug 26, 2014

    Every day i must find a strong reason to go in

    town, at school, meet friends... i'm too scared to step up in society, but i can't guide myself by my feelings, but by decisions.
    bishinbi bishinbi
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Oct 9, 2014

    I have yet to meet anybody in this world like

    me. I go threw and have beer threw so much words cannot explain. The trauma and impact that people have had on my lives is so unbearable. I have always been the weak and vulnerable person that the pact picks up on and attacks. Why wouldn't people ever befriend me in school.. I...
    FireAndDesire FireAndDesire
    18-21, F
    Jun 26, 2014

    I'm definitely not afraid

    if being unloved. I just know that the being actually truly loved will never ever happen. I'd rather be alone than not really loved.
    CallmeHopelessNotRomantic CallmeHopelessNotRomantic
    36-40, F
    Nov 27, 2014

    Uncharacteristic

    It's hard for me to admit. I like to see myself as an independent type who needs no one else, but the truth is that I year for somebody to love me, even if it's just one person. And I'm terrified that it will never happen. I don't want to be on my own, living my own life, in my...
    AttackedByMonsters AttackedByMonsters
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Dec 17, 2012

    Last Time

    On the first day of English class she drew my attention. A little later in the quarter we were in some groups together and we started talking. Eventually we started hanging out. I am usually a very doubtful person when it comes to wondering if someone likes me. But this was...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    7 Responses Dec 21, 2007

    Loveless In California

    I have never really felt loved by anyone. i have been married 3 times and never really felt loved in any of the marriages.   I havent ever really been able to love anyone either. The closest I have been, was my last wife. I dont really know if it was love or neediness on...
    hard1 hard1
    66-70, M
    7 Responses Dec 23, 2008

    I Don't Love Myself Enough

    I don't, and this has to stop. I am not going to live my life like a victim any longer.  This is why I won't ever be truly loved, because I don't love myself enough.  Other people have bad things happen to them in life...but they decide to be happy anyways....or at least they...
    someday2012 someday2012
    41-45, F
    1 Response Oct 17, 2013

    26 yrs old have had 4 serious relationships

    that I never felt satisfied about. I was too nice & taken advantage of. ... But when I'm mean No One Hurts Me. ... I want to Love & Be Loved. Why must love = PAIN? When I'm in love it later turns to sacrifice which turns to HATE ! When I only love myself I'm a Narcissus ;(WTF
    Kashmajordan Kashmajordan
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Dec 3, 2014

    Hmmm maybe that is why I find it

    so hard to open up and truly share who I am. Maybe I am not as brave as I like to think I am.
    JackisMe JackisMe
    41-45, M
    Dec 16, 2014

    I won't lie. I do have this fear.

    Fear of abandonment and never being loved. My mom was an alcoholic and drug addict. She was always leaving me for drugs. She was never worried about me My husband because she said I had a good head of my shoulders. Doesn't mean I wasn't harmed. My husband I feel like the...
    darktippedrose darktippedrose
    31-35, F
    11 Responses Mar 8

    .................................

    Its a true and honset fear i have like im scared to death to trust guys in general i have some good male friends that are slowly reminding me that not guys are jerkfaces but its still scary ya know ? but the way i look at hey this is me take it or leave it i meam if its meant to...
    Tawny26 Tawny26
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Apr 10, 2011

    I found these lines so apt

    for the time being.......... “He’s not perfect. You aren’t either, and the two of you will never be perfect. But if he can make you laugh at least once, causes you to think twice, and if he admits to being human and making mistakes, hold onto him and give him the most you...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Aug 27, 2014

    I Was Truley Loved Once

    yes ,,,,,,,, I was truly loved yet I let that joy slip away , my dumb mistake , yet I try every day to find the love I lost , that made me feel complete .This a journey we all travel at some point in our life . the need to feel...
    bigperv bigperv
    46-50, M
    4 Responses Aug 25, 2013

    I am afraid of never being loved I have never

    even had a girlfriend I am still single and a virgin but I guess that's my fault
    jon200547 jon200547
    31-35, M
    1 Response Oct 4, 2014

    LOVE is a hormone in your brain

    that sends messages to the body and creates attraction...... I have not had anyone have those feelings for me yet, and after years of being single. It's doesn't seen like it's going to happen :-( nobody like feeling alone
    LOVEBRE LOVEBRE
    22-25
    Jan 9, 2015

    I had love, nearly 3 years of it with a girl I

    called my soulmate, but she broke up with me this Christmas, and I'm dreading that ill never have that feeling again
    Chris220292 Chris220292
    22-25, M
    1 Response Feb 12, 2014
    kaylaoelkau kaylaoelkau
    18-21, F
    Jun 3, 2014

    How to be truly loved.

    Fall asleep, dream. Wake up. That's the best chance of someone truly loving me.
    YeahthatsMylife YeahthatsMylife
    26-30, M
    3 Responses Jan 1, 2015

    I don't know why, but I've always had this

    problem. I mean, whenever there's someone I really like, and they say they love me back, there's always a voice in the back of my head saying: 'He doesn't really love you, he'll leave eventually' and it goes like this every single time. Don't get me wrong, I really want to...
    BeautifulNightmarex BeautifulNightmarex
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Feb 2, 2014

    And now I think I've found it.

    .. A new fear eclipses this. The fear of hurting him. I feel as though my worth is questionable, that I hurt all that I touch. It's not just a feeling, it's a history. A long list of examples. With so much love comes so much to lose. To ever see the sunset of happiness in his...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Jul 20, 2015

    I feel like people may like me

    or want to be with me for a little, but no one will want to longterm. I'm afraid that I'll end up with "good enough" and never experience true love
    turbur turbur
    18-21, F
    Jun 4, 2014

    Is It Irrational?

    I know everyone finds their one true love, but what if I never find mine? What if I never find the man who can love me and want to spend his life with me? :( What if?
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    7 Responses Jan 17, 2008

    I catch feelings way too fast

    and it never goes well it's been 6 year since I've had a relationship.
    Adamsworld Adamsworld
    18-21, M
    Aug 24, 2014

    Emotional Shut Down

    i feel creeped when a guy shows interest on me! love equal pain!!! now i reject any man who likes me as a way to protect my heart from being hurt again I can't trust any man anymore, several failed relationship and I don't know how much could I take before i break!!!! it could...
    Germine Germine
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Oct 18, 2012
    dualnature dualnature
    26-30, F
    Jan 1, 2015

    I wish the first thing people see in me is

    who i am and not the facade of my anatomy. I had a relationship with a person who was only attracted to my facade. We were both honest with each other so when he broke-up he was blunt with me. He thought I was something I was not, but even when he came to know me he still...
    blueamber blueamber
    22-25, F
    1 Response Sep 11, 2014

    *Apologize in advance

    for being mopey during the holidays* Happened again. Met someone. Went out a few times. It's going great. Up until she fills me in on her "situation." That's the WTF moment. The dumb thing is she's the one who pulled me in. When it started, I was just going with it. I...
    NewShoes12 NewShoes12
    26-30, M
    Dec 22, 2014

    24 years old. Never been in a relationship.

    Never been loved. I've had what I call "flings." Guys that will sleep with me, put up with me for a while, then leave when the next girl comes along. I don't think I will ever be loved, let alone liked. I'm at the point where I just want to die.
    KelseyRo KelseyRo
    22-25, F
    Dec 31, 2014

    Do I Not Feel Anything Anymore?

    I had my heart broken once.. And when I think about it, I don't know how to feel about it. The story is long and it keeps playing in my head like a movie. But the more time goes by, the more it feels like I'm an spectator, like the story is not mine anymore. It feels like I...
    scarletoak scarletoak
    22-25
    Oct 29, 2012

    im in love with him,

    but he doesn't feel the same way and i don't know why
    erikaaaaaaaaa erikaaaaaaaaa
    16-17, F
    Aug 24, 2014

    Never Gonna Happen

    I´m at work, I look out the window and see a couple, walking across the street. They just got married, they look so happy.. Will I ever have that? I dont see it happening. I think I´m not meant to have that in my life. Some people where born to be alone and I think I´m one of...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Oct 31, 2012

    I'm afraid that one day,

    the love of my life will look at me reading books or putting my feet on the dashboard and instead of thinking it's cute and quirky, after a certain time he'll get annoyed from it.
    Pejch Pejch
    18-21, F
    2 Responses May 6, 2015

    I wish I were loved crazily

    and passionately.... I don't just want to feel like we are playing "grown ups" .... I want things to be spontaneous and wild and strong .... But I don't want to ask for it, I want it to come that way ... I feel lonely and yet in love ....kind of the worst feeling ever...
    maybelle001 maybelle001
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jul 18, 2015

    Never being loved for just me,

    raw, ordinary, not 'presh' not 'awesome'. Just me and my passions. Another dream catches the winds. And drifts... Its hard to keep up the front. It really is.
    SpontaneousRecoveryLovely SpontaneousRecoveryLovely
    18-21, M
    1 Response May 31, 2014

    My ultimate fear... I'm still trying to figure

    out if this is something I am missing in my life or is it something people have convinced me I am missing in my life.... I guess I'll eventually figure it out one day.
    XwonderlustX XwonderlustX
    26-30, F
    1 Response Mar 8

    All We Need Is Love

    When I was younger, I didn't believe in love at all. I feel the world we live in is too selfish. The last couple of years I realized love does exist. There are very few people in the world that truly know how to love someone completely. I know that I am capable of giving someone...
    TexasGirl512 TexasGirl512
    22-25, F
    5 Responses Oct 15, 2012

    I am not afraid to let go.

    I am not afraid to cut negative people out of my life. I am not afraid to love myself because you failed to do so. But I am afraid of never feeling the same type of love we had. The kind of love that made me lose myself in fearlessness. The kind of love that made all my self...
    brokenhearted7108 brokenhearted7108
    31-35, F
    Aug 26, 2014

    As I enter the world of showbiz,

    I am just a little coward to be in a life where in I am not. Who truly loves me or not, I do not know. I don't know anything. All I know is that I am being helped by a lot of people. It makes sense for being in there gives a life of royalties. It doesn't matter if you are a star...
    lovelymade lovelymade
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Jan 27, 2015

    My younger days were happy days.

    . I did not care about the world and was just your avverage kid. It had friends and a girlfriend now and then. When i was little i always said i cant wait to grow up and be an adult now i wish i could just go back. In my youth i started smoking drinking and usin pot this isolated...
    Adeadmanwalking Adeadmanwalking
    18-21, M
    1 Response Nov 27, 2014

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