I Am Afraid Of Sharing Myself With Others

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 248 People

    Past Rules Present

    In the past, I have had a lot of trouble making friends.  Because of this, I tried to share secrets and my inner self with others, hoping that they would want to be closer, but I was always pushed away.  My fear of being again rejected and betrayed has made me afraid...
    hopesfearsandtears hopesfearsandtears
    1 Response Feb 9, 2010

    One of the reasons I joined EP was

    that I would share my experiences in life and people would respond and maybe help. I've been here for months and I just can't get myself to share something (except this one), I've never shared anything about my thoughts or feelings to anyone and I'm not even sure why and it's...
    CrispyCan CrispyCan
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Jun 14, 2015

    Totally !!!!!!!!!

    When I do share myself with others who are around me I always end up the hurt one. I just wish I could share myslef with someone and not know that it is either going to be used against me or thrown in my face. Im so sick and tired of trying to be myself when all i get is your...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Feb 20, 2011

    I Am Afraid Of Sharing Myself

    I am afraid of sharing myself with other people.  I'm not exactly sure why, my guess is I fear ridiculement or those awkward silences.  This tends to get in the way of relationships in general.  But now that I've shared this, I have the awareness to change it. :)
    soulwhisperer soulwhisperer
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Nov 12, 2009

    Lack Of Trust.

    I have great difficulty sharing any feelings, even online. I don't/can't trust anyone. If you divulge too much information, somebody might realise that they know you, then the anonimity is gone.  I suppose it would be easier(safer) to speak to someone from a different...
    ManOfSorrows ManOfSorrows
    41-45, M
    6 Responses Dec 6, 2009

    Its Hard When Life Has Pushed Us To Hide

    I also had a ton of abuse and things that happened that make it very hard to trust anyone. I don't date because i cant be sure there isn't a monster hidden in there somewhere. I don't trust any men around my kids because my step-dad was great at hiding his monster. I've known...
    jensenlver jensenlver
    36-40, F
    5 Responses Feb 3, 2010

    It's Just So Darn Difficult

    Gah. In my childhood and my teenage years, I thought it was a wonderful thing that I could keep everything to myself. While my friends all came to me with their problems and I helped them out, I never talked to them about it. I was proud; my problems and thoughts are my own...
    Anchiara Anchiara
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Oct 23, 2010

    I Am Scared Of Sharing Myself

    mgmluvscats mgmluvscats
    46-50, M
    1 Response Jan 29, 2010

    Don't judge, its really hard,

    but just think about it before you do. I got judged so much, I am afraid of being myself, everyone thinks I am a lonely introvert, but the truth is, i can't trust anybody anymore and I am afraid of showing the real me. I am quiet and don't share a single thought with anyone...
    mariahluh mariahluh
    22-25, F
    1 Response Oct 21, 2014

    I Try.

    Maybe one day I'll be able to trust someone fully again. I see myself starting to and immediately pull back. It's so scary, the prospect of letting anyone in. Then I start to loathe myself more. Mad at the fear, but not wanting to let go. I've known the hurt. Emotions scar far...
    MissSunfire MissSunfire
    26-30, F
    1 Response Oct 25, 2010

    Im Afraid Of Sharing Myself With Others

    I don't know why but every time i open myself up and share anything personal or even just small talk with people i seem to get rejected or made to feel like a idiot.when i was younger i had few good friends i made friends really easy but i some how can't keep them, i feel the...
    unloved85 unloved85
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Jan 31, 2010

    Always Pretending

    In my life I have moved 11 times and am now in my 7th school. Despite actually being able to live in the same place for four years for once, I am not used to being social because I continuously feel as if there is no point since I won't be around those specific people for long...
    CantWaitToEscape CantWaitToEscape
    2 Responses Jun 8, 2011

    I'm 30 different people in a day.

    I'm a different person to everyone I meet. I know how to control everyone I encounter, how to make them like me, how to be what they need. I don't know who I even am, I've been doing this for so long. It feels like Im just a host for these alter egos. It scares me, it scares...
    calledMiles calledMiles
    26-30, F
    1 Response Sep 11, 2014

    You Might Realize

     that im a monster.
    kittycat101303 kittycat101303
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Jan 31, 2010

    Trust Is A Fickle Thing

    People expect trust to come with friendship, but this does not always happen. Sometimes trust can never come. This is how I am, I will never share myself with my friends. But I will share my life with people I have never met, over the internet. This is a funny thing to think...
    suffocating suffocating
    18-21, F
    May 4, 2010
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