I Am Afraid of the Future

when i was a kid i had so much hopes so much dreams, but i grew up now and i see the real world nothing but a miserable deep mud hole where Survival for the richest.
i had a rough childhood and my life right now is much worse than you...

As I prepare to step into the future, I admit I am procrastinating and creating more problems for myself...ultimately. Yup I have that avoidant coping mechanism but its getting old... time to bit the bullet open old wounds and answer...

I had the worst childhood imaginable. I was so happy to leave home at 17yrs old and leave the state to move to CA. Every time I try something new, it turns to crap. I have the worst luck ever. I'm hoping what I'm working on now will be...

Sometimes I worry about it more than I would care to, but deep down I feel that everything is going to be okay.

I am afraid of the future because I don't know what I'm gonna do with my life. I know I'm still young, but I have no idea what I'm gonna do. I'm not good at anything. I wish I could be a writer or a poet but I'm not good at stuff like...

when i was a kid i had so much hopes so much dreams, but i grew up now and i see the real world nothing but a miserable deep mud hole where Survival for the richest.
i had a rough childhood and my life right now is much worse than you...

I know what I want to do with my life. I want to be a doctor, I want to join doctors without borders, I want to help people, I know what I want...or do I? What if I spend years learning a profession only to wake one day in a small humid...

Of course I'm frightened of the future, what intelligent semi well adjusted high school kid isn't? My problem is that I have little idea of what I want to do, what my lifestyle should be, where I even want to go to college and what...

Perhaps it is because I am turning twenty soon, that I start to feel anxious about my future. Events at my old college led me to postpone school for a year. However even during this time off, I cannot relax. I am constantly thinking...

Hopefully I finally graduate from uni next year... but then what? I stay here or I go back to my home country?
I'm afraid I'll be stuck in a job that I don't like. Or perhaps I should study some more but where and what...

Lately I've been going nuts. I think it is out of fear. I've always been fearful of one thing or another so i'm just going to list it and get it over with.
I'm afraid of hating the job i may get soon
I'm afraid of myself
I'm afraid of...

fear of the unknown is a waste of energy.  live in the present, plan for your future and be prepared to change course, as necessary.

I've always wanted to be the best at something - but instead have been decidedly average at almost everything I put my hand to. I was one of those students in high school who studied a little - but not too much - and consistently scored...

Have no fear, for I'll be here
Here or there, but surely near
We'll wipe the slate clean
you and I
We'll aim only hearts
Up into the sky
And when we come to that pivotal day
take my hand and wash the scars away
And we'll go on.
I swear...

I'm a senior this year. I'll be going to college in the fall. I'm excited about it, but it terrifies me. What if I don't know how to operate in the real world? What if I choose the wrong major? What if I'm miserable? What if I screw up...

when i was a kid i had so much hopes so much dreams, but i grew up now and i see the real world nothing but a miserable deep mud hole where Survival for the richest.
i had a rough childhood and my life right now is much worse than you...

I am afraid that future has nothing in store for me. I am already married, have a baby, have a decent education and job. I have a small apartment and make enough to pay the bills.
A common life, but what scares me is that I am already...