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I Am Afraid to Be Happy

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    Being Happy Scares Me

    I SIT HERE TONIGHT FEELING ALL ALONE,BUT THERE'S NO ONE ELSE TO BLAME BUT MY SELF.I'M THE ONE WHO BUILT WALLS ALL AROUND ME LETTING NO ONE ELSE TO ENTER.SCARED OF BEING HURT.LIKE SO MANY TIMES IN THE PAST.TO MANY TEARS,TO MANY HEARTBREAKS,THERE'S JUST NO WAY I CAN TAKE THAT...
    grace1965 grace1965 41-45, F Oct 25, 2009

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    Because

     everything comes to an end :)
    deleted deleted 26-30 Oct 24, 2009

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    Love And Death

    I was never a very happy person growing up. I fell in love at seventeen and that changed my life completely. i never knew i could be that happy. but soon after i fell in love my mom passed away. ive always blamed myself for it for multiple reasons. since then ive been scared to...
    blownaway20 blownaway20 18-21, F Jul 26, 2013

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    It Is Too Good To Be True

    I assume everyone had highs and lows in their lives. At least I do. And sometimes during a high, when I feel like everything is the way it should be, I getting this nagging feeling that something bad will happen. I fear someone close to me will die or I will find out I have a...
    myowncreation74 myowncreation74 36-40, F 1 Response Nov 4, 2013

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    It'S TOO Good

    They said "Happy endings are stories that haven't ended yet". I'm afraid of happiness, I feel like there is something bad waiting for me around the corner, good things don't happen to me so I don't want to build hope for nothing..
    thegirlbehindhemask thegirlbehindhemask 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 2, 2013

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    Holding Back On Happiness Because It May Feel Correct To Others

      So interesting that I should find this group tonight. I am in a really long, GOOD marriage where I have not been able to devote the time and attention I would like to,to my family of origin due to location. I think that it's one reason why I "can't" seem to lose...
    chataround chataround 46-50, F 1 Response Oct 24, 2009

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    ~ Sounds Right ~

       I want to be happy. No, really I DO!! It just seems that everytime I've almost caught the "happy balloon", a nasty ole depressing wind comes along & takes my happy balloon away. I have gotten to point where I'm afraid to get my hopes up, to plan...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jun 14, 2009

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    Wats Going On

    Why or wats goin on with me one day I'm sad then the next I have tbis feeling of revenge on all of those people who hurt me bullied me wen I was younger then the next I want to pack up my bags and leave everyone and everything. Behind I don't kno wats going on. With mw plz help...
    low209 low209 22-25 May 23, 2012

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    I Am Afraid To Be Happy

    This may sound crazy, but I am afraid to be happy.  For most of my adult life, I have taken care of others and neglected my own needs.  My marriage ended more than 25 years ago, and my children are grown and on their own.  There are so many things I want to do, but...
    Silvermane1516 Silvermane1516 56-60 3 Responses Jun 8, 2010

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    Dont Desurve It

    i fell like i need to earn it if not then im just not happy like i need approvel sad in xx
    natasha18 natasha18 22-25, F 1 Response May 11, 2010

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    I'm Crazy I Know.........

    I don't understand it.....I'm terrified to be happy........It's like if I do l;et myself be happy something bads gonna happen.......Also it been so long since I've been happy.....It's just scary.......Is this normal??? I can't belive if it is.....it can't be though I mean are...
    LauraStorm LauraStorm 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 14, 2011

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    Every time I've ever experienced pure happiness,

    something has happened to destroy it. Every damn time!
    taylor0430 taylor0430 18-21, F 2 Responses May 26, 2014

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    Related Experiences

    I believe it is one of the best feelings in the world that you know someone is happy because you made him happy.
    Julia1600 Julia1600 16-17, F 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    this is what i want to share to other people, the moment when we talk some conversation even he/she a serious type, but they are so thankful to know me to make them happy for...
    lantis0523 lantis0523 22-25, M 12 hrs ago

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    Am happy that's what matters
    sofiannedeer sofiannedeer 18-21, F 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    happy Easter everybody. I hope you have a fun and safe holiday.
    peppit peppit 36-40, M 3 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    Happy early Easter everyone
    lorrena19 lorrena19 18-21, F 5 hrs ago

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    Happy easter everyone! I'm stuck in the hospital for few days :-(
    Gwapamama8 Gwapamama8 26-30, F 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    I want to be happy. I want a little place of my own filled with the things that make me happy. I want a life overflowing with love, laughter, honesty and communication. I want...
    abrokenlittlegirl abrokenlittlegirl 46-50, F 6 Responses Mar 10

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    My guy is amazing! I have never met a man like him. He texts me all the time. He shares his feelings. He tells me how beautiful I am. He might be a little afraid of getting hurt...
    ifoundhim ifoundhim 36-40, F 8 Responses Mar 2

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    I been going through a lot these days .I don't know why but when I feel this way I push everyone that I love away to me its easy that way not dealing with anyone. I just sit and...
    monica0215 monica0215 51-55, F 1 Response Mar 14

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    yes I am I'm experiencing it again lately all these negative thoughts, suicidal thoughts, I don't want to experience it again I want to live a normal life I want to be happy I don...
    Semiramis94 Semiramis94 18-21, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    i had so much friends but i lost them all. i'm afraid of meeting new people because they will leave to just like everyone else. i'm afraid that i'm gonna lose all the people i...
    catsrule5678 catsrule5678 18-21, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    Sometimes I look at my sister and I can't believe how different we are. When everyone says we are very similar I can't help to agree and disagree. She's so comfortable with herself...
    Amairany Amairany 16-17, F 4 Responses a week ago

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    I sometimes feel so afraid of what to come. Anything, when I drove to gym in the heavy rain, I talked to myself, that was the only way, it's a silly fear no one else could...
    Mangostrawberrybanana Mangostrawberrybanana 31-35, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I'm a very insecure person. I've been this way for as long as I can remember. I'm a sensitive person and get my feelings hurt very easily. When I was young, I would get picked...
    JennieThorne JennieThorne 41-45, F 1 Response Mar 1

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    I feel I'm bit different compared to others I don't know why I have this feeling. I always texts first to friends I like taking care of someone to be more frank I want to be cared...
    97vicky 97vicky 16-17, M Mar 14

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    I'm not afraid of heights, I'm afraid of falling for you! #plottwist
    saeedalu saeedalu 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 15

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    She looks in the mirror, and she's pretty enough. If you look at appearances alone, she's more than his equal. He's quiet, shy--but not a coward. He listens to her, laughs more...
    Fuzzies Fuzzies 56-60, M 3 Responses Mar 16

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    to love. In fact, the fear of it paralyzes me and makes me sabotage any real chances of ever being truly happy with somebody. So, I walk away…or even run when things get real...
    4getmenow 4getmenow 56-60, F 1 Response Mar 17

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    Hugging makes me feel so much better. Sometimes it's all I need so I can be happy through out the day...
    yukalovesm0806 yukalovesm0806 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 23

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    I finally got my closure, after 7 long months of being afraid of a bad outcome I finally built up the courage to talk to him and everything work out fine and now I can go on with...
    prettyfun002 prettyfun002 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 24

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    I loved once in the way i would never do again, i can fall in love but never like the first time, i just wonder if i should Wait to feel more happy Then the first time Or If i...
    keroo keroo 26-30, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    I don't think anyone actually likes me I'm also afraid to take the next step im also afraid to have sex and so I get irrationally anxious bc I think that's all guys want so why...
    tourdeforce tourdeforce 18-21, F 8 Responses Mar 2

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    My dad just yelled an f-bomb, stormed down the hall and slammed his door... Now he's yelling at my mom, I want to go upstairs to bed... But I don't want to be anywhere near that...
    Destinyyy Destinyyy 16-17, F Mar 12

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    I broke up with my boyfriend last year. He was like no one else. We got along really well and i thought we're gonna marry soon. but thing didn't work out. and finally he broke up...
    hiltonconrad hiltonconrad 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 17

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    I'm just afraid I will never find someone who truly loves me. I am afraid I will never find someone who doesn't just care about sex and looks. I want someone who I can have deep...
    holdonpainends143 holdonpainends143 18-21, F Mar 19

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    I was always the one that eats the slowest and my mom never had the patience for me. We were supposed to be going to the beach. Because I ate too slow, I was left behind. The rest...
    YesIAmAsian YesIAmAsian 18-21 Mar 23

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    Yeah, aren't we all? We are afraid of rejection. It's like it's better to not ask questions if we are afraid of the answers we will get. Envy those who can easily express their...
    RedThatDescribesMe RedThatDescribesMe 18-21, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I am just scared. I am afraid I won't be like for who I am. And I'll grow in interest in the other person but soon as I get close I start ignoring them and talking less and then I...
    Butterflies83 Butterflies83 22-25, F Mar 3

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    hi everyone I'm Jasmine I'm 18 years old, and I get too attached to people who I find a connection with, I've always been this way since I was young and I couldn't understand it...
    jnyell jnyell 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 5

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    I'm afraid to lose my aunt.... Is that bad? She is an amazing sweet lady and I love her with all my heart and soul! She is my everything!!!! My prayers are with you Tia...
    ijb2012 ijb2012 16-17, M Mar 5

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    I left him 3 months ago and I'm honestly afraid of the effect he had on me. I feel like he was emotionally manipulative, and being with him lead me down a really bad path. I would...
    knightruby knightruby 18-21, F Mar 5