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I Am Afraid to Be Happy

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       I want to be happy. No, really I DO!! It just seems that everytime I've almost caught the "happy balloon", a nasty ole depressing wind comes along & takes my happy balloon away. I have gotten to point where I'm afraid to get my hopes up, to plan...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jun 14, 2009

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    Being Happy Scares Me

    I SIT HERE TONIGHT FEELING ALL ALONE,BUT THERE'S NO ONE ELSE TO BLAME BUT MY SELF.I'M THE ONE WHO BUILT WALLS ALL AROUND ME LETTING NO ONE ELSE TO ENTER.SCARED OF BEING HURT.LIKE SO MANY TIMES IN THE PAST.TO MANY TEARS,TO MANY HEARTBREAKS,THERE'S JUST NO WAY I CAN TAKE THAT...
    grace1965 grace1965 41-45, F Oct 25, 2009

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    I Am Afraid To Be Happy

    This may sound crazy, but I am afraid to be happy.  For most of my adult life, I have taken care of others and neglected my own needs.  My marriage ended more than 25 years ago, and my children are grown and on their own.  There are so many things I want to do, but...
    Silvermane1516 Silvermane1516 56-60 3 Responses Jun 8, 2010

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    Dont Desurve It

    i fell like i need to earn it if not then im just not happy like i need approvel sad in xx
    natasha18 natasha18 22-25, F 1 Response May 11, 2010

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    Love And Death

    I was never a very happy person growing up. I fell in love at seventeen and that changed my life completely. i never knew i could be that happy. but soon after i fell in love my mom passed away. ive always blamed myself for it for multiple reasons. since then ive been scared to...
    blownaway20 blownaway20 18-21, F Jul 26, 2013

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    It Is Too Good To Be True

    I assume everyone had highs and lows in their lives. At least I do. And sometimes during a high, when I feel like everything is the way it should be, I getting this nagging feeling that something bad will happen. I fear someone close to me will die or I will find out I have a...
    myowncreation74 myowncreation74 36-40, F 1 Response Nov 4, 2013

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    Wats Going On

    Why or wats goin on with me one day I'm sad then the next I have tbis feeling of revenge on all of those people who hurt me bullied me wen I was younger then the next I want to pack up my bags and leave everyone and everything. Behind I don't kno wats going on. With mw plz help...
    low209 low209 22-25 May 23, 2012

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    It'S TOO Good

    They said "Happy endings are stories that haven't ended yet". I'm afraid of happiness, I feel like there is something bad waiting for me around the corner, good things don't happen to me so I don't want to build hope for nothing..
    thegirlbehindhemask thegirlbehindhemask 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 2, 2013

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    Holding Back On Happiness Because It May Feel Correct To Others

      So interesting that I should find this group tonight. I am in a really long, GOOD marriage where I have not been able to devote the time and attention I would like to,to my family of origin due to location. I think that it's one reason why I "can't" seem to lose...
    chataround chataround 46-50, F 1 Response Oct 24, 2009

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    Every time I've ever experienced pure happiness,

    something has happened to destroy it. Every damn time!
    taylor0430 taylor0430 18-21, F 2 Responses May 26

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    I'm Crazy I Know.........

    I don't understand it.....I'm terrified to be happy........It's like if I do l;et myself be happy something bads gonna happen.......Also it been so long since I've been happy.....It's just scary.......Is this normal??? I can't belive if it is.....it can't be though I mean are...
    LauraStorm LauraStorm 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 14, 2011

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    Because

     everything comes to an end :)
    deleted deleted 26-30 Oct 24, 2009

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    Related Experiences

    What is "happy" anyway? I think of "happy" being when you're a kid and you have no worries, no fears, you feel that your parents will always be there to protect you, that...
    RubyLane RubyLane 41-45, F 5 hrs ago

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    Soooooo happyyy... I just cant describe it. I want to share this happy feeling to everybody. I cant help but smile all the time. I hope this bubble im in right now wont burst.
    Elleshore81 Elleshore81 31-35, F 3 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    I used to worry about things that I didn't need to worry about. Almost anything could of made me feel sad. Looking back at it now, it's kinda pathetic how sensitive I used to be...
    Hypnotise Hypnotise 16-17, M 2 hrs ago

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    I came to a conclusion, and it is this- We only complain... Rarely ever taking time to actualy think of the great times we had, a great year we had,how many laughs we filled our...
    Emilia94 Emilia94 18-21, F 1 hr ago

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    So it's been a while since I've been here, it's almost the end of summer, and that means it's time to look back and reminisce. I've again stumbled upon something that has been...
    Zoey09 Zoey09 16-17, F Aug 24

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    im having end of summer depression/sadness okay so for me summer is pretty much over and ive been feeling really down lately. Summer is always the high point in my life because I...
    Nick3600 Nick3600 16-17, M 1 Response Aug 28

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    Those who do not believe will never have happy endings in their life because they only believe that when they die, they just die. To those who believe, they will have happy ending...
    LoverBoyMike LoverBoyMike 18-21, M Sep 11

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    I heard about EP and I thought it might help me, because nothing else has. I'm currently 16 years old living in Matthews, North Carolina. I've always been the kind of kid that put...
    Justjonathan Justjonathan 16-17, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Sometimes it is so much easier just to be happy by myself. And sometimes I'm so afraid to try I'd rather find love in only me. My friends even joke about me becoming the "crazy cat...
    sevenforasecret sevenforasecret 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 25

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    Ever since I was a little girl I have not been afraid of darkness, monsters, or burglars, but social rejection. It started in the sixth grade. My family made a big move and I faced...
    RubyAnaBelle RubyAnaBelle 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 27

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    Over three years without a drink .Been a long three years. Learned a lot. I've learned life isn't all about waiting. Sometimes you gotta take the leap even when you're afraid to...
    justderek justderek 22-25, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I am the only person in the world who can be anorexic and happy. This is because I am a loner at the highest possible level. If you're a people person, then anorexia will make you...
    atpeacewithme atpeacewithme 31-35 Aug 24

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    I found these lines so apt for the time being.......... “He’s not perfect. You aren’t either, and the two of you will never be perfect. But if he can make you laugh at least...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 27

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    To me, death is a torture, in a way in which you first are happy, you think you are going to spend eternity with your loved ones. Your mind wonders, how did they get here before...
    savakora savakora 16-17 Sep 2

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    I am a nudist and enjoying every minute of being nude when and where I can. Being nude is a very calming and freeing sensation and therefore it makes me happy. If you are ever...
    EastTNNudist EastTNNudist 18-21, M 2 Responses Sep 9

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    " my whole life I've been telling myself don't be afraid and it is only now that I am realizing how stupid that is. Don't be afraid is like saying don't move out of the way when...
    rachnixon rachnixon 26-30, F 4 days ago

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    I am not afraid to let go. I am not afraid to cut negative people out of my life. I am not afraid to love myself because you failed to do so. But I am afraid of never feeling the...
    brokenhearted7108 brokenhearted7108 31-35, F Aug 26

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    I am afraid of dieing without someone. I am afraid to be tortured. I am afraid of my only family member left dieing. I am afraid I will be stupid. Last but notleast I am afraid of...
    ginny1q1q ginny1q1q 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 29

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    Usually people who are afraid of falling in love are those who were left down by their boy/girlfriend. I'm this kind of persons who broke up in a relationship. I had 4 relationship...
    otoumie otoumie 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Having finally gotten the courage to meet new people and have now made new friends and not afraid to speak to people quite so much as I used to be. Also, slowly gaining the courage...
    asert12345678 asert12345678 31-35, M 1 Response Aug 19

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    All the "friends" I have are locked up in a mind set that was set before them by their parents, religion, television, and sex appeal. They wouldn't dare hit their parents if they...
    LeonardFinch LeonardFinch 16-17, M Aug 20

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    All of our tradesmen are thoroughly experienced to fulfill our essential specifications to guarantee consumer gratification and reassurance. We offer a absolutely free no...
    Madonnadz Madonnadz 31-35, M 1 Response Aug 23

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    What the hell is Happiness? I'm afraid of never find it.
    IsabelMath IsabelMath 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 23

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    Yeah, not anymore. I used to always want to keep from blocking people, but I honestly just do not give a crap anymore. I'm definitely not block happy, but I feel that if somebody...
    JadedDivinity JadedDivinity 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 23

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    I am afraid of showing my true self to the world... I sincerely show my feeling to my friends but.. I am afraid of being me.. I don't hate me but I'm afraid other people would hate...
    hooncaramello hooncaramello 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 27

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    for you (as i have to write it to down what i feel for you) No I am not Byron or Wordsworth, Who sings ryhm on your beauty or nature; But I dedicate you my humble words which...
    Sankhya Sankhya 31-35, M Sep 3

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    Anyone in my family is married. My sisters both are married and have children and my parents married 44 years ago and are still happy with each other. Somehow it wont work for me...
    ChipmunkTV ChipmunkTV 22-25, M 1 Response Sep 6

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    Once i get my hopes togheter it falls apart , i'm afraid to love people i'm afraid to get my hopes togheter again , i'm afraid that i will expect to much
    ActuallyGrace ActuallyGrace 13-15, F Sep 7

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    My life and future is field with darkness, bad luck, horrible stuff accruing. My future and destiny is clear I will be by myself. I've been betrayed, I've been left behind. You can...
    Blackwolf666 Blackwolf666 22-25, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I have always been terrified of my loved ones dying...it's so damn final. Yes I'm hoping & crossing my fingers that I get to see them again someday...but til then...it's hard to...
    RubyLane RubyLane 41-45, F 4 days ago

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    I want to get close to people, but whenever I try to, they show their true colours and end up being selfish and the cynic in me is right as opposed to the hopeful, curious, happy...
    FD2014 FD2014 18-21, M 3 days ago

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    i am afraid of rejection thats why i put up with everything you say ... just so i wouldn't end up alone ... no matter how unfair and stupid your demands are i put up with them...
    curiousmoi curiousmoi 18-21, F 5 Responses 3 days ago

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    I have this thought in my head that I keep fighting with and want to get rid of... But is getting stronger everyday and is haunting me everywhere I go messing me up ...... I don't...
    chanty001 chanty001 31-35, F 9 Responses 2 days ago

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    My name is mohaaa, am in high school, I like having girl friend but am afraid talking to girls and having fun with them COZ am afraid to be rejected. So can anybody help me out of...
    mabdulle1996 mabdulle1996 18-21, M 4 Responses Aug 21

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    I have seen how it is when you start to grow up. You get more responsibilities and some of them can be good but there are others like paying for insurance, paying for bills and all...
    Culinaryman23 Culinaryman23 22-25, M Aug 22

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    I am afraid, there will be no one ever to love me. All I find around me are people who abuse my kindness. People who use me. It was like that ever since I remember and that's why...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Aug 25

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