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I Am Afraid to Be Happy

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    Being Happy Scares Me

    I SIT HERE TONIGHT FEELING ALL ALONE,BUT THERE'S NO ONE ELSE TO BLAME BUT MY SELF.I'M THE ONE WHO BUILT WALLS ALL AROUND ME LETTING NO ONE ELSE TO ENTER.SCARED OF BEING HURT.LIKE SO MANY TIMES IN THE PAST.TO MANY TEARS,TO MANY HEARTBREAKS,THERE'S JUST NO WAY I CAN TAKE THAT...
    grace1965 grace1965 41-45, F Oct 25, 2009

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    Every time I've ever experienced pure happiness,

    something has happened to destroy it. Every damn time!
    taylor0430 taylor0430 18-21, F 2 Responses May 26

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    It'S TOO Good

    They said "Happy endings are stories that haven't ended yet". I'm afraid of happiness, I feel like there is something bad waiting for me around the corner, good things don't happen to me so I don't want to build hope for nothing..
    thegirlbehindhemask thegirlbehindhemask 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 2, 2013

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    It Is Too Good To Be True

    I assume everyone had highs and lows in their lives. At least I do. And sometimes during a high, when I feel like everything is the way it should be, I getting this nagging feeling that something bad will happen. I fear someone close to me will die or I will find out I have a...
    myowncreation74 myowncreation74 36-40, F 1 Response Nov 4, 2013

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    I Am Afraid To Be Happy

    This may sound crazy, but I am afraid to be happy.  For most of my adult life, I have taken care of others and neglected my own needs.  My marriage ended more than 25 years ago, and my children are grown and on their own.  There are so many things I want to do, but...
    Silvermane1516 Silvermane1516 56-60 3 Responses Jun 8, 2010

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    I'm Crazy I Know.........

    I don't understand it.....I'm terrified to be happy........It's like if I do l;et myself be happy something bads gonna happen.......Also it been so long since I've been happy.....It's just scary.......Is this normal??? I can't belive if it is.....it can't be though I mean are...
    LauraStorm LauraStorm 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 14, 2011

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    Wats Going On

    Why or wats goin on with me one day I'm sad then the next I have tbis feeling of revenge on all of those people who hurt me bullied me wen I was younger then the next I want to pack up my bags and leave everyone and everything. Behind I don't kno wats going on. With mw plz help...
    low209 low209 22-25 May 23, 2012

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    Holding Back On Happiness Because It May Feel Correct To Others

      So interesting that I should find this group tonight. I am in a really long, GOOD marriage where I have not been able to devote the time and attention I would like to,to my family of origin due to location. I think that it's one reason why I "can't" seem to lose...
    chataround chataround 46-50, F 1 Response Oct 24, 2009

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    Dont Desurve It

    i fell like i need to earn it if not then im just not happy like i need approvel sad in xx
    natasha18 natasha18 22-25, F 1 Response May 11, 2010

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    I KNOW THAT IF EVEN I MOVE INTO A SHELTER,

    I WILL BE KILLED, SHOWED UP, OR EVEN FORCED TO MOVE OUT... MY THERAPIST HAS BEEN TRYING TO GET ME TO MOVE OUT, BUT I KNOW THAT IF I DO, THE MAN WHO MOLESTED ME ALL MY LIFE OVER MY FAKE MOTHER AND HER LIES WILL SET SOMETHING UP... HE'S LIKE SANTA CLAUSE, HE KNOWS MY EVERY MOVE...
    ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT 26-30, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Because

     everything comes to an end :)
    deleted deleted 26-30 Oct 24, 2009

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    Love And Death

    I was never a very happy person growing up. I fell in love at seventeen and that changed my life completely. i never knew i could be that happy. but soon after i fell in love my mom passed away. ive always blamed myself for it for multiple reasons. since then ive been scared to...
    blownaway20 blownaway20 18-21, F Jul 26, 2013

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    ~ Sounds Right ~

       I want to be happy. No, really I DO!! It just seems that everytime I've almost caught the "happy balloon", a nasty ole depressing wind comes along & takes my happy balloon away. I have gotten to point where I'm afraid to get my hopes up, to plan...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jun 14, 2009

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    I'm not ashamed to say that I have this problem. Ever since I was raped, I've been afraid. I'm almost 16 now, and it still lingers. I was never afraid of being alone, or being...
    Anonymousgirl152 Anonymousgirl152 13-15, F 1 Response 14 hrs ago

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    By love I don't mean guys or anything...and I don't mean losing people to death. But I am afraid of losing my friends and family, that they will stop caring about me or I will do...
    prznaroosak prznaroosak 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 6

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    So I've been an only child for my whole life, and I've been happy. Change is the only thing I have ever really feared. But. . .today my mother told told me she's pregnant, and...
    PadfootPandora PadfootPandora 16-17, F 4 days ago

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    My old best friend just left me, I thought we were okay but apparently not. I just recently met someone that is so very a like me but still different. I'm afraid to lose him, I...
    LoneFox29 LoneFox29 16-17, F Dec 16

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    Nothing makes me feel better than making someone happy. i prefer other people's happiness over my own because i am truly happy when everyone around me is happy
    TheWickedJester TheWickedJester 26-30, M 6 hrs ago

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    Hai. this is the story of a 19 year old coward guy. From the child hood, i was never liked by my parents. I never had any friends. depression and fustration were my best friends...
    manoj80195 manoj80195 18-21, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Every time I find someone I like I push them away because I'm afraid of getting hurt. I don't want to be hurt again so I'm hurting others. I just want to get better and be able to...
    meganleslie meganleslie 13-15, F Dec 1

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    I have been overweight my entire life! I have tried diet after diet with no success. I have been put down by a lot of people for my size and I would let it bother me. It has...
    unluckyme86 unluckyme86 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 3

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    So recently I've realized how miserable I am. With realizing this I've been pondering all night and day about why I'm this way and I realized its my fault. I am so afraid of...
    LittleFebruary LittleFebruary 18-21, F 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    I dont understand why I'd be afraid... I was raised to be very open and happy with my sexuality. and I am, I find it can be intimidating to girls my age, but also a turn on for...
    Anicia47 Anicia47 16-17, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    There is no fear, only a very special, very painful loneliness. I am alone, I am sad, lonely, and hurt, yet there is not a person anywhere who cares. My being alone has been some...
    Browncoat4077 Browncoat4077 26-30, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    My younger days were happy days.. I did not care about the world and was just your avverage kid. It had friends and a girlfriend now and then. When i was little i always said i...
    lifeaintshit lifeaintshit 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 27

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    The hardest thing is letting go of someone you used to love. In February, I went out with someone who made me feel extra special and happy which is what any girl wants. He went to...
    blueworldsapart blueworldsapart 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 30

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    I'm sorry for the lengthy post... I just watched Geography Club and it got me regretting how long it took me to come out, and then explore as to why that was.... One of the things...
    jbar291 jbar291 18-21, M Dec 12

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    I've been reflecting on a lot of things today. My anxiety level felt like it was through the roof. It probably didn't help that I was pretty hungover. If I could describe what...
    pnw21 pnw21 22-25, M 2 days ago

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    it's pre christams day here :) happy christmas to all c*nt , di*ks , ******** , ******* , nice ( who think them self they are ;) ) .. have a great chritsmas and have a great life...
    r110 r110 22-25, M 16 hrs ago

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    Merry Fitness & Happy New Rear ;))
    Anngeleyes Anngeleyes 26-30, F 4 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    I bottle everything up. I'm not very talkative. I'm not how I used to be. I don't tell secrets to many people. I don't like but I do like getting close to people. I like to read...
    ForeverANomad ForeverANomad 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 2

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    I am afraid of relationships. I think I always have been. I can't remember a time when I was able to give myself to someone without second thought or with uninhibited trust. I'm...
    shanequea shanequea 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 10

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    It's just natural :"( Every girl I fall in love with just breaks my heart :"( I'm either used by everyone like an item or toy, or I'm just looked down upon as this wretched...
    SgtRecker97 SgtRecker97 16-17, M 4 Responses Nov 29

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    We live in a world where we are constantly being told how we need to live our lives, what is "normal", etc etc. Many times I have completely forgotten about my authentic self! No...
    Femininewiles Femininewiles 26-30, F 11 Responses Nov 30

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    I'm afraid of being hurt by someone I care about so I block everyone out. I want to change so badly.
    meganleslie meganleslie 13-15, F Dec 1

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    I'm just wondering to myself if I'll even be happy when I eventually meet Mr Right because maybe this waiting has drained me so much that I won't appreciate it when I do eventually...
    Juiceyangel333 Juiceyangel333 22-25, F 6 Responses Dec 2

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    I hate that so many people are never happy with just one person, always need something more. If you can't love one and be committed it's probably because you don't love yourself...
    jennamarie123 jennamarie123 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 2

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    We know deep down that life is short, and that death will happen to all of us eventually, and yet we are infinitely surprised when it happens to someone we know. LIVE your life...
    raquel80 raquel80 31-35, F 8 Responses Dec 10

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    I'm not a very caring person. every time my mom is crying and going mad because her life isn't perfect, I just want to walk away. I hate comforting people, especially my mom. I...
    taylormorgan2113 taylormorgan2113 18-21, F Dec 10

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    I don't know where to start this off, but I'll just first say that I can't do anything remarkable. I'm not special. I'm not good at anything. I'm just ordinary. I try so hard to...
    torr62 torr62 13-15, F 4 Responses Dec 14

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    I don't know where to start this off, but I'll just first say that I can't do anything remarkable. I'm not special. I'm not good at anything. I'm just ordinary. I try so hard to...
    torr62 torr62 13-15, F 6 Responses Dec 14

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    I don't know where to start this off, but I'll just first say that I can't do anything remarkable. I'm not special. I'm not good at anything. I'm just ordinary. I try so hard to...
    torr62 torr62 13-15, F Dec 14

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    I've grown up being as heavy as I am now (obviously I didn't pop out the womb at 280 but you get my point lol) and it used to bother the marbles out of me. it started when I was...
    lmcrepsley lmcrepsley 18-21, T 2 Responses Dec 14

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    I know I've posted this before but I'll post it again anyways cuz I need to vent. So lately I've been thinking, which is almost never good in my case, and I've come to one...
    brimc7 brimc7 16-17, F 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    Recently every one I have been interested in has found someone else better than me, no matter how compatible we are. I recently started seeing a girl (my first) who also happens to...
    pjfm pjfm 18-21, F 5 Responses 3 days ago

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    not sure if I'm afraid anymore...I'm just used to it right now, I've been rejected by every girl I ever liked or cared about (possibly loved), people says "have confidence"...well...
    Muramasa Muramasa 18-21, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I live in St. Louis Missouri and we have the gate way arch which u can go up in. I went with my friends because they wanted to go and when we where up at the top I was fine as long...
    mwiltshire mwiltshire 22-25, F 3 days ago