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I Am Afraid to Be Happy

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    Holding Back On Happiness Because It May Feel Correct To Others

      So interesting that I should find this group tonight. I am in a really long, GOOD marriage where I have not been able to devote the time and attention I would like to,to my family of origin due to location. I think that it's one reason why I "can't" seem to lose...
    chataround chataround 46-50, F 1 Response Oct 24, 2009

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    Love And Death

    I was never a very happy person growing up. I fell in love at seventeen and that changed my life completely. i never knew i could be that happy. but soon after i fell in love my mom passed away. ive always blamed myself for it for multiple reasons. since then ive been scared to...
    blownaway20 blownaway20 18-21, F Jul 26, 2013

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    It'S TOO Good

    They said "Happy endings are stories that haven't ended yet". I'm afraid of happiness, I feel like there is something bad waiting for me around the corner, good things don't happen to me so I don't want to build hope for nothing..
    thegirlbehindhemask thegirlbehindhemask 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 2, 2013

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    I Am Afraid To Be Happy

    This may sound crazy, but I am afraid to be happy.  For most of my adult life, I have taken care of others and neglected my own needs.  My marriage ended more than 25 years ago, and my children are grown and on their own.  There are so many things I want to do, but...
    Silvermane1516 Silvermane1516 56-60 3 Responses Jun 8, 2010

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    Being Happy Scares Me

    I SIT HERE TONIGHT FEELING ALL ALONE,BUT THERE'S NO ONE ELSE TO BLAME BUT MY SELF.I'M THE ONE WHO BUILT WALLS ALL AROUND ME LETTING NO ONE ELSE TO ENTER.SCARED OF BEING HURT.LIKE SO MANY TIMES IN THE PAST.TO MANY TEARS,TO MANY HEARTBREAKS,THERE'S JUST NO WAY I CAN TAKE THAT...
    grace1965 grace1965 41-45, F Oct 25, 2009

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    It Is Too Good To Be True

    I assume everyone had highs and lows in their lives. At least I do. And sometimes during a high, when I feel like everything is the way it should be, I getting this nagging feeling that something bad will happen. I fear someone close to me will die or I will find out I have a...
    myowncreation74 myowncreation74 36-40, F 1 Response Nov 4, 2013

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    Because

     everything comes to an end :)
    deleted deleted 26-30 Oct 24, 2009

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    I'm Crazy I Know.........

    I don't understand it.....I'm terrified to be happy........It's like if I do l;et myself be happy something bads gonna happen.......Also it been so long since I've been happy.....It's just scary.......Is this normal??? I can't belive if it is.....it can't be though I mean are...
    LauraStorm LauraStorm 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 14, 2011

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    Dont Desurve It

    i fell like i need to earn it if not then im just not happy like i need approvel sad in xx
    natasha18 natasha18 22-25, F 1 Response May 11, 2010

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    ~ Sounds Right ~

       I want to be happy. No, really I DO!! It just seems that everytime I've almost caught the "happy balloon", a nasty ole depressing wind comes along & takes my happy balloon away. I have gotten to point where I'm afraid to get my hopes up, to plan...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jun 14, 2009

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    Wats Going On

    Why or wats goin on with me one day I'm sad then the next I have tbis feeling of revenge on all of those people who hurt me bullied me wen I was younger then the next I want to pack up my bags and leave everyone and everything. Behind I don't kno wats going on. With mw plz help...
    low209 low209 22-25 May 23, 2012

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    Related Experiences

    I'm afraid of losing my father , not least because he is family, but also because I did not want to lose it all , I love my dad , but I love my mom too, both are the best we have...
    ferrer95 ferrer95 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    For one of the first times in my life I feel really happy... For once I am not just a toy to a man (an object of desire) for once I feel completely loved. He treats me with such...
    Rosesanddiamonds Rosesanddiamonds 22-25, F 2 Responses 1 hr ago

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    Ever since this girl first walked into our school for the first time, I couldn't take my eyes off her, and I know I probably wasn't the only one gazing at her beauty. Through my...
    elugo123456789 elugo123456789 18-21, M Apr 6

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    Ever since this girl first walked into our school for the first time, I couldn't take my eyes off her, and I know I probably wasn't the only one gazing at her beauty. Through my...
    elugo123456789 elugo123456789 18-21, M Apr 8

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    BRAVO! Nothing worst than someone conforming to peer pressure and being like "sisters" by copying and being exactly like their friends - imitating the same behavior and do what...
    MilweePisces MilweePisces 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 9

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    I used to be so afraid of having an opinion or speaking my mind; just so so afraid of being wrong and then being made fun of/rejected. it was one of my greatest fears considering...
    aftersomeday aftersomeday 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 8

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    This is going to be a long post! When I ever I feel down - which Is fairly often, I try to write something down which reflects my general feeling at that time and now it's built...
    5tr1k1ng13 5tr1k1ng13 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 6

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    Whether you have a faith or not... Happy Easter ... and I always think it significant that Easter is in the Spring, as its a time to think of new beginnings
    sweetlady002 sweetlady002 41-45, F 5 hrs ago

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    How blessed am I - 3 princesses to love and nurture and a Queen by my side to help me do it. Nothing short of the gates of Hell will stop us doing what we have to do to keep them...
    mrsecurity mrsecurity 51-55, M 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    Happy Easter !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    Daisyellenrose Daisyellenrose 13-15, F 3 hrs ago

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    Happy Easter to all. John 3:16
    TeKKeeVee TeKKeeVee 61-65, F 2 hrs ago

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    happy easter everyone, hope you all have a lovely day :)
    vikiii vikiii 22-25, F 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    Happy Easter dudes and dudettes 🐥🐰🎉 Now get your ugly arses to church! 👏😇🙏
    majesticmaddy majesticmaddy 16-17, F 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    Happy Easter you guys!! I love EP and everyone on it! Have a great day !!!
    7Bird 7Bird 16-17, F 1 Response 22 mins ago

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    Everyday I feel alone, empty.. Hollow Inside, no emotions what so ever, but when I see her I get this smile on my face and I'm just happy to see her. Because she made me feel like...
    CannibalizeTheMerciful CannibalizeTheMerciful 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 20

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    I am DEATHLY afraid of Roller Coasters! I can't even look at one without panicking. I have only ridden one, once in my life that I can remember, I was young, and was at Hershey...
    NYSlilAngel NYSlilAngel 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 27

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    I always think love happens more often when you least expect it…Love is a powerful emotion…and it is great to be in love! But so many of us spend our lives with walls built...
    19Mariya77 19Mariya77 36-40, F 1 Response Mar 31

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    I 'll Tell You My Opinion You call me goody two shoes? You say that I have people fooled by my being nice? I believe you implied sweet in your ranting and raving story. I am soooo...
    transiting transiting 70+, F 3 Responses Apr 7

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    Hi My name is Stacey, and I’m going through a lot in my life lately, I feel like I will never be happy again , I lost hope and I feel so desperate. My love life is a mess. At a...
    Stacey111 Stacey111 26-30, F 6 days ago

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    I have been in a relationship where I felt that I wasn't appreciated and unloved. I stood by it and let myself drain out of all my self worth in the process. It is my fault I know...
    makemebelieve11 makemebelieve11 22-25 10 hrs ago

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    I'm not just afraid of a guy rejecting me, although I am. I am also afraid of my friends and family rejecting me and I feel like they already are. I am always afraid to arrange...
    unfaiir unfaiir 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 11

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    Ever since this girl first walked into our school for the first time, I couldn't take my eyes off her, and I know I probably wasn't the only one gazing at her beauty. Through my...
    elugo123456789 elugo123456789 18-21, M Apr 4

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    And I'm tired of those who claim to be happy all the time just to never have to dig deep into anything ever.
    Akurou Akurou 31-35, F 1 Response Mar 22

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    I feel alone most of the time because i dont have friends ive been rejected Many times that now i am afraid of Being myself
    TeraVenus TeraVenus 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 23

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    I've been pushing away. I do like some guys, but when they actually take on the urge to ask me out. I get scared, afraid. So i reject them on the spot regardless if i hurt them or...
    Dapperness Dapperness 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 24

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    I had so much faith that everyone was going to work out. I was determined to commit myself to my relationship with my Saviour and trust that whichever path He takes me is the right...
    puberro puberro 70+, F 4 Responses Mar 25

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    Pretending to be happy daily is exhausting. Being alone is not that scary as compared to being with someone who makes you feel alone.
    smartoriously smartoriously 22-25, F Mar 25

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    I do adore people who are not afraid to share their true feelings and emotions about things. I have always been someone who has always had a hard time sharing my thoughts and...
    NYSlilAngel NYSlilAngel 26-30, F 3 Responses Mar 26

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    I am going to a basketball tryout this weekend for team Ontario and I constantly feel like I'm not good enough. I am so happy and nervous that I am going to try out but I'm really...
    wynonav wynonav 16-17, F Mar 26

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    I am afraid to talk to people. I am afraid that this is the wrong place to talk about the real me. Most of all, I am afraid to sleep. I spend all of my time in the room...
    mm60907 mm60907 31-35, M 2 Responses Mar 28

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    I had to go upstairs to get a flashlight and my torso was bare. my sisters new bf looked at me and said 'Woah you need to put on a shirt' making fun of my weight... I already have...
    scottazard scottazard 18-21, M Mar 28

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    This is beautiful. To my sweet daughter, If you ever begin to wonder if he is the one, ask yourself: Does his laughter warm your body from the inside out? He knows that when you...
    MissMisunderstood1 MissMisunderstood1 16-17, F Mar 28

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    Something is going to happen tonight. I don't know exactly what... But it will happen please forgive me. I'm kinda scared... I'm very scared but I have tried to be nice today...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Mar 29

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    I don't feel happy or normal. I don't feel I should be here. I'm very uncomfortable with society. Especially women but why
    yourdreamsoulmate yourdreamsoulmate 31-35, M Mar 31

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    Know Thyself.me was just scrolling through the experiences here and accidentally joined in. Did try to leave the group with the hope to read the message - "We are sorry for You...
    mejj mejj 36-40, F 6 Responses Apr 1

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    My best friend wants to move across the country to be with her boyfriend who moved there recently for graduate school. If they weren't profoundly in love with each other, I wouldn...
    RelianceOnScience RelianceOnScience 22-25, F Apr 2

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    I am afraid that I'll end up alone. I have loved and been loved. But sometimes love just isn't enough. Not when you push that person away... When you push them away so much that...
    maraselene maraselene 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 6

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    Which I shouldn't be. I've been told I am fairly attractive. With that said, I don't look like a model. I live in a very shallow city. If you aren't supermodel in shape, and...
    ozwyn ozwyn 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 7

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    I was so happy. I had a great job with great co-workers and I was doing great things in the clubs I'm in and I was doing well in my classes and I was so close to finishing my...
    BuzzFanatic BuzzFanatic 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 7

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    Well for the last 10 years I have been married and over the last 3 years I now fear my wife emotionally. Since we had our first child life has slowly gone to ****. After our first...
    cyborg333 cyborg333 36-40, M 2 Responses Apr 9

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    My wife and I met on this site (www.blackwhitepeople.com) 2 years ago. It took me a whole year before she would even go out with me on a date .We met at Fridays it was just for...
    Allenm13 Allenm13 41-45, M Apr 10