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I Am Afraid to Be Happy

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 129 People

    Holding Back On Happiness Because It May Feel Correct To Others

      So interesting that I should find this group tonight. I am in a really long, GOOD marriage where I have not been able to devote the time and attention I would like to,to my family of origin due to location. I think that it's one reason why I "can't" seem to lose...
    chataround chataround 46-50, F 1 Response Oct 24, 2009

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    ~ Sounds Right ~

       I want to be happy. No, really I DO!! It just seems that everytime I've almost caught the "happy balloon", a nasty ole depressing wind comes along & takes my happy balloon away. I have gotten to point where I'm afraid to get my hopes up, to plan...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jun 14, 2009

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    Every time I've ever experienced pure happiness,

    something has happened to destroy it. Every damn time!
    taylor0430 taylor0430 22-25, F 2 Responses May 26, 2014

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    It'S TOO Good

    They said "Happy endings are stories that haven't ended yet". I'm afraid of happiness, I feel like there is something bad waiting for me around the corner, good things don't happen to me so I don't want to build hope for nothing..
    thegirlbehindhemask thegirlbehindhemask 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 2, 2013

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    Dont Desurve It

    i fell like i need to earn it if not then im just not happy like i need approvel sad in xx
    natasha18 natasha18 22-25, F 1 Response May 11, 2010

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    Being Happy Scares Me

    I SIT HERE TONIGHT FEELING ALL ALONE,BUT THERE'S NO ONE ELSE TO BLAME BUT MY SELF.I'M THE ONE WHO BUILT WALLS ALL AROUND ME LETTING NO ONE ELSE TO ENTER.SCARED OF BEING HURT.LIKE SO MANY TIMES IN THE PAST.TO MANY TEARS,TO MANY HEARTBREAKS,THERE'S JUST NO WAY I CAN TAKE THAT...
    grace1965 grace1965 41-45, F Oct 25, 2009

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    Because

     everything comes to an end :)
    deleted deleted 26-30 Oct 24, 2009

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    It Is Too Good To Be True

    I assume everyone had highs and lows in their lives. At least I do. And sometimes during a high, when I feel like everything is the way it should be, I getting this nagging feeling that something bad will happen. I fear someone close to me will die or I will find out I have a...
    myowncreation74 myowncreation74 36-40, F 1 Response Nov 4, 2013

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    Wats Going On

    Why or wats goin on with me one day I'm sad then the next I have tbis feeling of revenge on all of those people who hurt me bullied me wen I was younger then the next I want to pack up my bags and leave everyone and everything. Behind I don't kno wats going on. With mw plz help...
    low209 low209 22-25 May 23, 2012

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    I'm Crazy I Know.........

    I don't understand it.....I'm terrified to be happy........It's like if I do l;et myself be happy something bads gonna happen.......Also it been so long since I've been happy.....It's just scary.......Is this normal??? I can't belive if it is.....it can't be though I mean are...
    LauraStorm LauraStorm 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 14, 2011

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    I Am Afraid To Be Happy

    This may sound crazy, but I am afraid to be happy.  For most of my adult life, I have taken care of others and neglected my own needs.  My marriage ended more than 25 years ago, and my children are grown and on their own.  There are so many things I want to do, but...
    Silvermane1516 Silvermane1516 56-60 3 Responses Jun 8, 2010

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    Love And Death

    I was never a very happy person growing up. I fell in love at seventeen and that changed my life completely. i never knew i could be that happy. but soon after i fell in love my mom passed away. ive always blamed myself for it for multiple reasons. since then ive been scared to...
    blownaway20 blownaway20 18-21, F Jul 26, 2013

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    Tales from the Darkside (6/10) Movie CLIP - Cat's?: http://youtu.be/KhfsAokR-D4 I'm afraid this is how I'll die. i even have a kitten that looks just like him!
    CallmeHopelessNotRomantic CallmeHopelessNotRomantic 36-40, F 1 Response Aug 26

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    I need attention I'm afraid of rejection text me
    redrose09 redrose09 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 25

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    To be honest, I'm afraid of being happy. Maybe it's because everything that makes me happy disappears.
    ImJustANobody ImJustANobody 26-30, M 1 Response Aug 24

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    Pretty sure this either causes or is caused by my social anxiety. I can't talk to people properly because I'm so afraid they'll just give me a 'wtf why would you even approach me...
    conflictinglives conflictinglives 13-15, M 6 Responses Aug 24

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    I'm 24 and I wasn't like other kids in my family growing up. For one thing I have Mild Cerebral Palsy and growing up has been slow for me. I didn't get my id until I was 20, my...
    taurusboi23 taurusboi23 22-25, M 2 Responses Aug 24

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    I'm not at all afraid to die, I'm afraid of tomorrow
    LoV3KiLlSsLoWLy LoV3KiLlSsLoWLy 56-60, F Aug 24

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    It's not like I really want to die or something. But there are things that are much worse than death. Many people are forced to undergo unbearable suffering because euthanasia is...
    UchuuStranger UchuuStranger 18-21, M Aug 24

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    I'm not afraid of it, but I'm also not interested in it just because it's mature. I really don't get people who come here for physical gratification. Doesnt all text, stories...
    mickitg mickitg 41-45, T Aug 21

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    I love Jason voorhies!!!! I am not afraid of Friday the 13th! but, I might be scared of camp crystal lake
    StreetgirlnamedDesire504 StreetgirlnamedDesire504 36-40 Aug 20

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    My divorce will be finalized soon. I'm trying to cope wort the fact that I failed. Maybe I left too soon. Maybe he could've changed. Maybe one day I would've been happy. Just don't...
    sugarcoat01 sugarcoat01 26-30, F 8 Responses Aug 19

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    I am not afraid of it and honestly thats mainly what I am here for. My friend told me about this site because it helped her explore her sexuality and talk to a lot of cool people...
    emmastewart emmastewart 18-21, F 9 Responses Aug 19

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    Not at all...I know posting mature stories occasionally will draw some of the crowd that is only here for that...I understand that, and I am a big girl and can handle my own lol...
    BeachBumMom BeachBumMom 31-35, F 16 Responses Aug 19

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    So very afraid. I want to gain someone special to me but I don't want to lose a friend. I want to share my feelings to him but I don't want to push him away.
    BriarRose96 BriarRose96 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 19

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    It really does depend, but I generally feel very very uncomfortable if I am in a room with men only or if a guy is near me. I am gay and am attracted to men but I am afraid of them...
    chemistry6 chemistry6 18-21, M Aug 19

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    When you love someone more than yourself, you'll turn yourself inside out trying to fit them and make them happy. You can find that you stopped doing the major things that make...
    BreakingBored BreakingBored 41-45, F 3 Responses Aug 18

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    Sometimes she's calm and happy and funny, but sometimes she controls me with fear. She'll yell at me for even the tiniest problem, and I'm not even trying to make her angry. She...
    hiddenkitty hiddenkitty 18-21, F Aug 18

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    Experiences makes us what we are….. very true, provided we learn lessons from it to become a better person. Experiences enrich our lives and in due course of life ultimately...
    Jonaki1 Jonaki1 56-60, F 1 Response Aug 18

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    I am a sensitive person. I remember I was, for a time in my life, receiving experiences open-heartedly and felt protected within the simplicity and consequentiality of random and...
    mihaelav mihaelav 26-30, F Aug 18

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    Afraid of it? I actually enjoy it. Pushes my arousal button and gets me going. It's one of the reasons I'm here.
    SultryAmy SultryAmy 31-35, F 11 Responses Aug 17

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    for me getting rejected had been a big part of my life growing up. I was tall really slim , athletic and wrestled on the team for 5 years, when I was born I had a problem with my...
    teknon0513 teknon0513 46-50, M 1 Response Aug 16

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    Very, very afraid. Rejection and abuse have probably played a big part. From both family and everyone else. An unwanted sexual encounter at 14 with an older woman also kind of made...
    zeframcochrane zeframcochrane 18-21 Aug 16

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    I was never afraid of them, but definitely for them.
    PendulEmPlum PendulEmPlum 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 16

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