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I Am Afraid to Be Happy

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       I want to be happy. No, really I DO!! It just seems that everytime I've almost caught the "happy balloon", a nasty ole depressing wind comes along & takes my happy balloon away. I have gotten to point where I'm afraid to get my hopes up, to plan...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jun 14, 2009

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    Because

     everything comes to an end :)
    deleted deleted 26-30 Oct 24, 2009

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    I'm Crazy I Know.........

    I don't understand it.....I'm terrified to be happy........It's like if I do l;et myself be happy something bads gonna happen.......Also it been so long since I've been happy.....It's just scary.......Is this normal??? I can't belive if it is.....it can't be though I mean are...
    LauraStorm LauraStorm 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 14, 2011

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    It Is Too Good To Be True

    I assume everyone had highs and lows in their lives. At least I do. And sometimes during a high, when I feel like everything is the way it should be, I getting this nagging feeling that something bad will happen. I fear someone close to me will die or I will find out I have a...
    myowncreation74 myowncreation74 36-40, F 1 Response Nov 4, 2013

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    Every time I've ever experienced pure happiness,

    something has happened to destroy it. Every damn time!
    taylor0430 taylor0430 22-25, F 2 Responses May 26, 2014

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    Being Happy Scares Me

    I SIT HERE TONIGHT FEELING ALL ALONE,BUT THERE'S NO ONE ELSE TO BLAME BUT MY SELF.I'M THE ONE WHO BUILT WALLS ALL AROUND ME LETTING NO ONE ELSE TO ENTER.SCARED OF BEING HURT.LIKE SO MANY TIMES IN THE PAST.TO MANY TEARS,TO MANY HEARTBREAKS,THERE'S JUST NO WAY I CAN TAKE THAT...
    grace1965 grace1965 41-45, F Oct 25, 2009

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    Wats Going On

    Why or wats goin on with me one day I'm sad then the next I have tbis feeling of revenge on all of those people who hurt me bullied me wen I was younger then the next I want to pack up my bags and leave everyone and everything. Behind I don't kno wats going on. With mw plz help...
    low209 low209 22-25 May 23, 2012

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    It'S TOO Good

    They said "Happy endings are stories that haven't ended yet". I'm afraid of happiness, I feel like there is something bad waiting for me around the corner, good things don't happen to me so I don't want to build hope for nothing..
    thegirlbehindhemask thegirlbehindhemask 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 2, 2013

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    Love And Death

    I was never a very happy person growing up. I fell in love at seventeen and that changed my life completely. i never knew i could be that happy. but soon after i fell in love my mom passed away. ive always blamed myself for it for multiple reasons. since then ive been scared to...
    blownaway20 blownaway20 18-21, F Jul 26, 2013

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    I Am Afraid To Be Happy

    This may sound crazy, but I am afraid to be happy.  For most of my adult life, I have taken care of others and neglected my own needs.  My marriage ended more than 25 years ago, and my children are grown and on their own.  There are so many things I want to do, but...
    Silvermane1516 Silvermane1516 56-60 3 Responses Jun 8, 2010

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    Holding Back On Happiness Because It May Feel Correct To Others

      So interesting that I should find this group tonight. I am in a really long, GOOD marriage where I have not been able to devote the time and attention I would like to,to my family of origin due to location. I think that it's one reason why I "can't" seem to lose...
    chataround chataround 46-50, F 1 Response Oct 24, 2009

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    Dont Desurve It

    i fell like i need to earn it if not then im just not happy like i need approvel sad in xx
    natasha18 natasha18 22-25, F 1 Response May 11, 2010

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    In todays world, Maybe in the past it was this way as there was more repression from law, society etc. So same goes for then in some areas of the world and sadly the same applies...
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    Surprisingly, despite my current miserable state. I've been through the worst, lifeless year in my life so far. But I still think "I'm happy to be alive in such a rich, vast world...
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    But I get scared when I feel happiness in me. When I'm happy, there's always something that's going to crush it. So when I smile as I'm feeling happy, I slowly force myself to stop...
    Yoyoko Yoyoko 16-17, F 5 Responses a week ago

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    MeAndMySelf98 MeAndMySelf98 16-17, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    People in movies just seem to know when someone likes them (because of the director + producer, obv), but we really don’t have that help in real life. I never can tell if someone...
    kearaa kearaa 13-15, F Apr 24

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    I baby shop for my cousins shower and always say to myself I will never be at the point where I will have a family. I want a family and am afraid it will never happen to me. I am...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 29

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    Because I'm too toxic at times and is very dependable on others and I'm not good at anything but making smoothies. I'm terrified of those I find attractive and don't like those...
    Nual Nual 22-25, F 1 Response May 6

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    Why should you be afraid? That darkness is a part of you. You should just accept it. To be afraid of it is the same as being afraid of one of your own limbs. we all have darkness...
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    lol my fear of entering in a relationship made me stop a potentiel love story cause i dont want to jump in it .I'm happy alone , so yeah now i'm getting control of my life again...
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    devilgirl123zombie devilgirl123zombie 16-17, F May 16

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    You want to know the truth? I am terrified of what the future holds for me. I won't keep that a secret, I am terrified. Terrified that one day I will grow old wondering where did...
    LaceyMarie114 LaceyMarie114 13-15, F 1 Response a week ago

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    My dad wants me to be a doctor and I wanted to be a doctor too, but i'm starting to doubt myself. I'm not good with socializing, i'm kind of a introvert. My memory is pretty bland...
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