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I Am Afraid to Be Happy

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    Because

     everything comes to an end :)
    deleted deleted 26-30 Oct 24, 2009

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    Holding Back On Happiness Because It May Feel Correct To Others

      So interesting that I should find this group tonight. I am in a really long, GOOD marriage where I have not been able to devote the time and attention I would like to,to my family of origin due to location. I think that it's one reason why I "can't" seem to lose...
    chataround chataround 46-50, F 1 Response Oct 24, 2009

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    It'S TOO Good

    They said "Happy endings are stories that haven't ended yet". I'm afraid of happiness, I feel like there is something bad waiting for me around the corner, good things don't happen to me so I don't want to build hope for nothing..
    thegirlbehindhemask thegirlbehindhemask 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 2, 2013

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    Wats Going On

    Why or wats goin on with me one day I'm sad then the next I have tbis feeling of revenge on all of those people who hurt me bullied me wen I was younger then the next I want to pack up my bags and leave everyone and everything. Behind I don't kno wats going on. With mw plz help...
    low209 low209 22-25 May 23, 2012

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    It Is Too Good To Be True

    I assume everyone had highs and lows in their lives. At least I do. And sometimes during a high, when I feel like everything is the way it should be, I getting this nagging feeling that something bad will happen. I fear someone close to me will die or I will find out I have a...
    myowncreation74 myowncreation74 36-40, F 1 Response Nov 4, 2013

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    I Am Afraid To Be Happy

    This may sound crazy, but I am afraid to be happy.  For most of my adult life, I have taken care of others and neglected my own needs.  My marriage ended more than 25 years ago, and my children are grown and on their own.  There are so many things I want to do, but...
    Silvermane1516 Silvermane1516 56-60 3 Responses Jun 8, 2010

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    Every time I've ever experienced pure happiness,

    something has happened to destroy it. Every damn time!
    taylor0430 taylor0430 18-21, F 2 Responses May 26, 2014

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    ~ Sounds Right ~

       I want to be happy. No, really I DO!! It just seems that everytime I've almost caught the "happy balloon", a nasty ole depressing wind comes along & takes my happy balloon away. I have gotten to point where I'm afraid to get my hopes up, to plan...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jun 14, 2009

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    Love And Death

    I was never a very happy person growing up. I fell in love at seventeen and that changed my life completely. i never knew i could be that happy. but soon after i fell in love my mom passed away. ive always blamed myself for it for multiple reasons. since then ive been scared to...
    blownaway20 blownaway20 18-21, F Jul 26, 2013

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    I'm Crazy I Know.........

    I don't understand it.....I'm terrified to be happy........It's like if I do l;et myself be happy something bads gonna happen.......Also it been so long since I've been happy.....It's just scary.......Is this normal??? I can't belive if it is.....it can't be though I mean are...
    LauraStorm LauraStorm 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 14, 2011

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    Dont Desurve It

    i fell like i need to earn it if not then im just not happy like i need approvel sad in xx
    natasha18 natasha18 22-25, F 1 Response May 11, 2010

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    Being Happy Scares Me

    I SIT HERE TONIGHT FEELING ALL ALONE,BUT THERE'S NO ONE ELSE TO BLAME BUT MY SELF.I'M THE ONE WHO BUILT WALLS ALL AROUND ME LETTING NO ONE ELSE TO ENTER.SCARED OF BEING HURT.LIKE SO MANY TIMES IN THE PAST.TO MANY TEARS,TO MANY HEARTBREAKS,THERE'S JUST NO WAY I CAN TAKE THAT...
    grace1965 grace1965 41-45, F Oct 25, 2009

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    Everyday your there for me. Everyday you have made me laugh, you have made me laugh when ive been at my lowest! Everyday you call me beautiful and everyday you tell me you love me...
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    My boyfriend told me today that he wants to live in my city...halfway across the globe from where he lives. It made me so happy, as it was what I was hoping for because it means...
    Cranksta Cranksta 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 27

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    ... And I am trying not to be afraid of that! Tonight my kids are with their mom. my GFs child is with her ex. We could spend the evening together, but today I have felt that...
    OldNRusty OldNRusty 41-45, M 1 Response Jan 28

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    I’m afraid to remain single forever… I am NGSB (no boyfriend since birth) which means I haven’t had any boyfriend in my entire life. I always fall in love with the wrong...
    diane1996 diane1996 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 28

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    It isn't that I am afraid of failing, it is that I am afraid of disappointing others with my failures. I have a desire to make everyone happy and sometimes that just isn't possible...
    1Fortnight 1Fortnight 16-17, T 3 Responses Feb 6

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    I am afraid of dying I am afraid of losing my family I am afraid of guns I am afraid of people who have guns I am afraid of spiders I am afraid of anything that has more than 4...
    ThatOneSomaliGirl ThatOneSomaliGirl 13-15, F Jan 29

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    I'm not afraid to say how I feel... I've written many stories explaining how I feel. I've used quotes and my own words. You will know if my heart is happy or hurting...or just...
    submissivelittlewoman submissivelittlewoman 41-45, F 2 Responses Feb 3

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    It's getting to be really tiresome when I see or hear other guys talk smack about 'nice guys,' as if we're unreliable and crybabies. At least we have something they don't... a...
    Yonshimmy Yonshimmy 22-25, M 4 Responses Feb 7

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    Seem like all of us in this part are afraid of rejection if we show who we really are, myself included. I'm 28. I have had 3 close friends all my life but none of them actually...
    Techtonic Techtonic 26-30, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    It's a day for happy things. I have a boxer. He expresses a lot with his feet, a good deal of which is hilarious. Maddy isn't afraid of the dark, but she still likes it if you...
    justNIK justNIK 41-45, F 1 Response Feb 3

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    Im really holding back. My boyfriend is the nicest boy I've ever met, he makes me so so happy but I'm terrified of getting my heart broken. I don't like ending relationships, or...
    GnarlyShittt GnarlyShittt 16-17, F a week ago

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    I haven't been afraid all of my life, because I can remember some bits of happiness in my childhood, but even as far back as elementary, I was afraid of failing, middle school...
    LoquaciouslyLucid LoquaciouslyLucid 16-17, M Feb 3

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    I'm not afraid of heights, I'm afraid of falling. I'm not afraid of the dark, I afraid of what's in it. I'm not afraid to love, I'm afraid of not being loved back.
    MysteriousGirl15 MysteriousGirl15 13-15, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    Im so afraid. Its the one thing that scares me the most. i have a hard time holding on to people. I just, drift away. Growing up i was isolated and i went through a lot. And it...
    TheWickedJester TheWickedJester 26-30, M 2 Responses Jan 30

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    Why would I be ashamed of my sexuality? I'm pretty happy with it. I don't think anyone should be scared of being open about what they like. Whether you're a guy who likes guys, or...
    TheRogueWolf TheRogueWolf 18-21, F 6 Responses Jan 28

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    It's something that makes feel alive and vital. I'm happy to talk about it.
    padraig412 padraig412 51-55, M Jan 29

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    Pretty much I think about it every day how my life is going to go.. I always think how I'm going to live alone with maybe a dog Ya I know I have all my life but when I think...
    Alonzoisgay Alonzoisgay 13-15, M 3 Responses Jan 30

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    I mean I know I won't be, or at least it's highly unlikely. I'm only 19, I have plenty of time left. But every time I start liking someone, I give up before anything starts. I'm...
    StrangelyWrinkledMammal StrangelyWrinkledMammal 18-21, F 27 Responses Jan 31

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    I married my husband when I was 19 that was twenty five years ago next month. In the long years that we've been married I have raised two beautiful daughters and we bought a house...
    Blurple70 Blurple70 41-45, F 1 Response Feb 6

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    i know this sounds kinda stupid for those older than me maybe even those younger than me but i really feel like a failure. got wait listed to my dream college and i feel like...
    youngandinexperienced youngandinexperienced 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 6

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    I feel like all of my friends are drifting away from me. I try to make plans with them but they say they're too busy. They act like they still want to hangout, sort of... But if...
    batjokes batjokes 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 8

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    Yay! Day 2 and time 2 happened!! It was fantastic and I am happy. :)
    RjMommy245 RjMommy245 22-25, F 6 Responses Feb 10

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    haha as I was searching for this title, I found another experience called "i am afraid of my mom dying"... well, honestly, i thought i was the only one! that calms me down a little...
    Tomboygirl98 Tomboygirl98 16-17, F Feb 12

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    My farce for a Mother, (she isn't my real Mother), told me that she's got her lawyer involved in a serious matter between she and I. What I'd like her lawyer to know is that she is...
    ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT 26-30, F Feb 14

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    It's really starting to be too much for me to watch my friends happy in their relationships meanwhile it's a constant struggle to get my /friends/ to care about me much less have...
    rowanoaks rowanoaks 16-17, T 1 Response a week ago

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    I'm still afraid of driving and even people who sits in my car was afraid too , I hope the driving coach won't freak out teaching me to drive (if Only the coach is available) . Oh...
    minniekoala minniekoala 22-25, F 6 days ago

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    This has all become too much for me. All I want to do is act. That's all. I hate that I live in a world that is against my wish. That will not do anything to make my dream come...
    JewStar4Life JewStar4Life 22-25, F 5 days ago

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    It's been a crap month, there was this one guy who came by for "fun". You know, "fun"... and it was consecutive, day after day for a week straight. We got into a heavy conversation...
    Lov3intheasylum Lov3intheasylum 31-35, F 3 days ago

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    My FAKE Mother... Obviously, you can conclude that she is not my biological Mother. My Mother was killed and had her identity stolen by an INDIAN genocide. This morning, this...
    ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT 26-30, F Feb 1

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    I'm not afraid to die. If I should die, then I guess I'll die, but I'm just not concerned about an afterlife or anything such as that. I'm just gunna try my hardest and live my...
    Varjo Varjo 16-17, F Feb 1

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    It comes and goes, but yesterday I went through some flashbacks, and last night had night terrors, so today I'm really feeling afraid. I want to go to sleep, but I'm afraid to...
    brokenat5 brokenat5 61-65, M Feb 1

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    So I know it's early, but I have to say it. DON'T be afraid to show the world who you really are. DON'T be afraid to be different because you think people will judge. Let them...
    BrokenCorpse BrokenCorpse 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 3

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    I was always afraid of rejection. I rarely show people the 'real' me though I'm not so sure who's the 'real' me. I'm afraid that once they found out the other side of me, they'll...
    crumblingcookies crumblingcookies 18-21, F 8 Responses Feb 4

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    I was in a relationship for 6 years. I thought he was the one. I gave him everything. I asked for nothing in return but to be loved by him and only him. He left me for a kid half...
    GayDad1975 GayDad1975 36-40, M 1 Response Feb 5

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