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I Am Afraid to Be Happy

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 129 People

    I'm Crazy I Know.........

    I don't understand it.....I'm terrified to be happy........It's like if I do l;et myself be happy something bads gonna happen.......Also it been so long since I've been happy.....It's just scary.......Is this normal??? I can't belive if it is.....it can't be though I mean are...
    LauraStorm LauraStorm 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 14, 2011

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    Because

     everything comes to an end :)
    deleted deleted 26-30 Oct 24, 2009

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    Holding Back On Happiness Because It May Feel Correct To Others

      So interesting that I should find this group tonight. I am in a really long, GOOD marriage where I have not been able to devote the time and attention I would like to,to my family of origin due to location. I think that it's one reason why I "can't" seem to lose...
    chataround chataround 46-50, F 1 Response Oct 24, 2009

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    Dont Desurve It

    i fell like i need to earn it if not then im just not happy like i need approvel sad in xx
    natasha18 natasha18 22-25, F 1 Response May 11, 2010

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    Being Happy Scares Me

    I SIT HERE TONIGHT FEELING ALL ALONE,BUT THERE'S NO ONE ELSE TO BLAME BUT MY SELF.I'M THE ONE WHO BUILT WALLS ALL AROUND ME LETTING NO ONE ELSE TO ENTER.SCARED OF BEING HURT.LIKE SO MANY TIMES IN THE PAST.TO MANY TEARS,TO MANY HEARTBREAKS,THERE'S JUST NO WAY I CAN TAKE THAT...
    grace1965 grace1965 41-45, F Oct 25, 2009

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    It Is Too Good To Be True

    I assume everyone had highs and lows in their lives. At least I do. And sometimes during a high, when I feel like everything is the way it should be, I getting this nagging feeling that something bad will happen. I fear someone close to me will die or I will find out I have a...
    myowncreation74 myowncreation74 36-40, F 1 Response Nov 4, 2013

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    I Am Afraid To Be Happy

    This may sound crazy, but I am afraid to be happy.  For most of my adult life, I have taken care of others and neglected my own needs.  My marriage ended more than 25 years ago, and my children are grown and on their own.  There are so many things I want to do, but...
    Silvermane1516 Silvermane1516 56-60 3 Responses Jun 8, 2010

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    It'S TOO Good

    They said "Happy endings are stories that haven't ended yet". I'm afraid of happiness, I feel like there is something bad waiting for me around the corner, good things don't happen to me so I don't want to build hope for nothing..
    thegirlbehindhemask thegirlbehindhemask 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 2, 2013

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    ~ Sounds Right ~

       I want to be happy. No, really I DO!! It just seems that everytime I've almost caught the "happy balloon", a nasty ole depressing wind comes along & takes my happy balloon away. I have gotten to point where I'm afraid to get my hopes up, to plan...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jun 14, 2009

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    Love And Death

    I was never a very happy person growing up. I fell in love at seventeen and that changed my life completely. i never knew i could be that happy. but soon after i fell in love my mom passed away. ive always blamed myself for it for multiple reasons. since then ive been scared to...
    blownaway20 blownaway20 18-21, F Jul 26, 2013

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    Every time I've ever experienced pure happiness,

    something has happened to destroy it. Every damn time!
    taylor0430 taylor0430 22-25, F 2 Responses May 26, 2014

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    Wats Going On

    Why or wats goin on with me one day I'm sad then the next I have tbis feeling of revenge on all of those people who hurt me bullied me wen I was younger then the next I want to pack up my bags and leave everyone and everything. Behind I don't kno wats going on. With mw plz help...
    low209 low209 22-25 May 23, 2012

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    I have been talking a lot lately about how I want someone to talk to who relates to me and what not, but I've realized that I don't really try to reach out. I think on some level I...
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    There was never a point in my life where I was afraid to die. There were times in my life where I wanted to die and times in my life when I didn't want to die, but I was never...
    SparkleSwirl SparkleSwirl 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    I used to be so afraid to die. But I'm not anymore, all I want to is die at this moment, just painful and slowly. I feel either depressed or angry and I don't think I can take it...
    ssweetdisspositionn ssweetdisspositionn 18-21, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    Resisting him is ready. I'm a very important guy because I know how to resist him. If he's in your mind insult him and fight back. Don't be a proxy and just forget it. If your...
    VolenoieFoote VolenoieFoote 31-35, M 4 days ago

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    i think i admire people who aren't afraid to be themselves because i am afraid. I think it takes a lot of courage not to be afraid of the backlash that comes with it. I want to be...
    chrisscott515 chrisscott515 22-25, F 7 Responses 5 days ago

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    It is an irrational fear of mine, just like how I am afraid to swallow pills even for medical reasons. The fear of rejection is a big part of it. Being told I'm not good enough...
    Kriptess Kriptess 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    About five years ago I lived downtown in a major city in the US. I’ve always been a night person, so I would often find myself bored after my roommate, who was decidedly not a...
    InvinsibleViper InvinsibleViper 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 25

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    Don't run, but the idea of death has always fascinated me, just the idea that there is nothing, like you can't even think or anything (as you can tell I have no religious views on...
    poppytippy poppytippy 13-15, F Jul 23

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    I'm afraid to grow old due to more people dying and the physical effects of it, but I'm also afraid to die because at the same time I also want to live a long, healthy life and...
    Emsickles Emsickles 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 20

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    So I passed my test last month and a week after, I got my first car from my Dad. When I look back at my driving test, I did really well but I feel like it was a spot of luck as it...
    loubylou93 loubylou93 18-21, F Jul 20

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    But how can I be if I have a child? I'm afraid she'll never forgive me
    slapnuts2k5 slapnuts2k5 41-45, M 2 Responses Jul 20

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    Not many things scare me, but I'm honestly terrified of dying unloved. Terrified of never being someone's late night thoughts, of no one looking at me like I'm their whole world. I...
    Madison18 Madison18 18-21, F 7 Responses Jul 19

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    its to the point I just want to give up on life but then when I really really think about it I'm like do I want to give up on life do I really want to die no I'm afraid to die I'm...
    LuvLostSoul LuvLostSoul 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 19

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    I am not afraid that I have lost my salvation, I know that I have and yes I am afraid because of that. I gave my life to the Lord in 2008 I had a major encounter with God, I had...
    Coloursearching Coloursearching 22-25 6 Responses Jul 18

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    I am Afraid of Rejection. That is a viscous cycle. If you have trust issues, you never allow yourself,to get to the point of rejection. If you never let someone in, they will not...
    Susiedisney Susiedisney 56-60, F 1 Response Jul 17

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    Recently, I was feeling as if my fears were taking control of me. I had no choice but to be unhappy, lonely, afraid. I was worried that every move I was making was affecting...
    souldigger7 souldigger7 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 17

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    I am scared and nervous around dogs I'm not familiar with. My neighbours dogs were really viscous, if the soccer ball went into their yard it stayed there for a long time. The...
    avey10 avey10 18-21, F Jul 16

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    "I am not afraid of ghosts" if you please...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 16

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    This was the worst trauma of my childhood. In my church they preached vivid sermons about the horrors of hell and the infinite intensity and duration of the suffering. I was...
    AlanOliver AlanOliver 46-50, M 2 Responses Jul 15

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    I kinda need advice.. I basically am a girl who likes girls.. I use to dress like a guy throughout high school because that's how I started out.. and then when I would dress like a...
    kyeee kyeee 18-21, F 24 Responses Jul 15

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    lol, everyones talking about relationships but im afraid to be rejected as a friend lol
    sendy23 sendy23 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 14

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    About five years ago I lived downtown in a major city in the US. I’ve always been a night person, so I would often find myself bored after my roommate, who was decidedly not a...
    TheBionicViper TheBionicViper 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 14

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    I wish more people would be themselves. Society is messed up these days everyone is so PC and fake. Say one thing and live another way. People who are true and sincere with...
    Averageguy41011 Averageguy41011 41-45, M 13 Responses Jul 14

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    I'm afraid to let someone in. What if the dark side of me is just to ugly? What if someone doesn't love