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I Am Afraid to Be Happy

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 131 People

    Being Happy Scares Me

    I SIT HERE TONIGHT FEELING ALL ALONE,BUT THERE'S NO ONE ELSE TO BLAME BUT MY SELF.I'M THE ONE WHO BUILT WALLS ALL AROUND ME LETTING NO ONE ELSE TO ENTER.SCARED OF BEING HURT.LIKE SO MANY TIMES IN THE PAST.TO MANY TEARS,TO MANY HEARTBREAKS,THERE'S JUST NO WAY I CAN TAKE THAT...
    grace1965 grace1965 41-45, F Oct 25, 2009

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    I Am Afraid To Be Happy

    This may sound crazy, but I am afraid to be happy.  For most of my adult life, I have taken care of others and neglected my own needs.  My marriage ended more than 25 years ago, and my children are grown and on their own.  There are so many things I want to do, but...
    Silvermane1516 Silvermane1516 56-60 3 Responses Jun 8, 2010

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    Love And Death

    I was never a very happy person growing up. I fell in love at seventeen and that changed my life completely. i never knew i could be that happy. but soon after i fell in love my mom passed away. ive always blamed myself for it for multiple reasons. since then ive been scared to...
    blownaway20 blownaway20 18-21, F Jul 26, 2013

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    I'm Crazy I Know.........

    I don't understand it.....I'm terrified to be happy........It's like if I do l;et myself be happy something bads gonna happen.......Also it been so long since I've been happy.....It's just scary.......Is this normal??? I can't belive if it is.....it can't be though I mean are...
    LauraStorm LauraStorm 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 14, 2011

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    Holding Back On Happiness Because It May Feel Correct To Others

      So interesting that I should find this group tonight. I am in a really long, GOOD marriage where I have not been able to devote the time and attention I would like to,to my family of origin due to location. I think that it's one reason why I "can't" seem to lose...
    chataround chataround 46-50, F 1 Response Oct 24, 2009

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    It'S TOO Good

    They said "Happy endings are stories that haven't ended yet". I'm afraid of happiness, I feel like there is something bad waiting for me around the corner, good things don't happen to me so I don't want to build hope for nothing..
    thegirlbehindhemask thegirlbehindhemask 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 2, 2013

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    Because

     everything comes to an end :)
    deleted deleted 26-30 Oct 24, 2009

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    ~ Sounds Right ~

       I want to be happy. No, really I DO!! It just seems that everytime I've almost caught the "happy balloon", a nasty ole depressing wind comes along & takes my happy balloon away. I have gotten to point where I'm afraid to get my hopes up, to plan...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jun 14, 2009

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    Wats Going On

    Why or wats goin on with me one day I'm sad then the next I have tbis feeling of revenge on all of those people who hurt me bullied me wen I was younger then the next I want to pack up my bags and leave everyone and everything. Behind I don't kno wats going on. With mw plz help...
    low209 low209 22-25 May 23, 2012

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    Every time I've ever experienced pure happiness,

    something has happened to destroy it. Every damn time!
    taylor0430 taylor0430 22-25, F 2 Responses May 26, 2014

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    Dont Desurve It

    i fell like i need to earn it if not then im just not happy like i need approvel sad in xx
    natasha18 natasha18 22-25, F 1 Response May 11, 2010

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    It Is Too Good To Be True

    I assume everyone had highs and lows in their lives. At least I do. And sometimes during a high, when I feel like everything is the way it should be, I getting this nagging feeling that something bad will happen. I fear someone close to me will die or I will find out I have a...
    myowncreation74 myowncreation74 36-40, F 1 Response Nov 4, 2013

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    I was born that way. Happy and naked. No thought of any. :)
    PrettyOldSoul PrettyOldSoul 41-45, F 9 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    At first I feel just sorry for him because of his condition, he is suffering from Asperger's disorder, a sort of autistic kind of thing. And he told me that since 4 he was in a lot...
    nbsbgal nbsbgal 22-25, F Apr 22

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    Afraid that someday if we talk again you're gonna tell me how happy you are with someone else. That someone already took my place in that heart of yours. Im there reading your...
    shrid shrid 22-25, F Apr 20

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    In todays world, Maybe in the past it was this way as there was more repression from law, society etc. So same goes for then in some areas of the world and sadly the same applies...
    Traveller96 Traveller96 18-21, F 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    I am very afraid. I live in turmoil every single day. I depend upon a theory that I substituted my own definition for and this theory is “Mind Over Matter”. The substitution...
    ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT 26-30, F 3 days ago

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    I'm afraid to let it out of its cage There where reason why it was lock up I had to, you see. The pain was to great. I need to hide it and forget it. I wasn't ready for you. I didn...
    Masterskitten503 Masterskitten503 46-50, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    I know they're not. It's just a façade. Sooo many people pretend to have perfect lives. Why do they settle for pretend? Don't rush into a relationship because you feel you're...
    hmmhmmhmm hmmhmmhmm 26-30 2 Responses Apr 6

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    So drawing was my firsSo drawing was my first love.. I flunked in kindergarten yes you heard it right. Never been the class learner. I discovered a fashion magazine in junior...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 20

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    My bf is thinking about at least 3 years studding in an other country and it won't be easy for me to move to that land and he knows it. He and a friend of his wish to go that...
    kristhy kristhy 22-25, F Apr 5

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    Ok I don't know if I'm over thinking this. Last week this guy I'll call him Will, ended our affair just as it started. We were really good friends but he's married. We've been...
    OneStonedGirl OneStonedGirl 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 6

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    So this is my birthday story and it has been the worse birthday of my life. So it started wonderfully enough with her sending me a morning message singing in words happy birthday...
    Sirwithherkey Sirwithherkey 36-40, M Apr 11

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    i dont want to life is a ton of pressure im probably gonna live till im like 105 years old its always the people who are happy that die and the people who are miserable that live
    Beutifulman1970 Beutifulman1970 41-45, M 4 Responses Apr 17

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    I'm 40 yrs of age and I've been in love and out of love. It hurts just the same. it would make me happy if I did find the right person but to be blunt, I don't think I ever will. I...
    Mindaqueen Mindaqueen 36-40, F 6 Responses Apr 18

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    "Maybe there's something you're afraid to say, or someone you're afraid to love, or somewhere you're afraid to go. Its going to hurt. Its going to hurt because it matters." - John...
    NewBeginnings77 NewBeginnings77 31-35, F Apr 21

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    People in movies just seem to know when someone likes them (because of the director + producer, obv), but we really don’t have that help in real life. I never can tell if someone...
    kearaa kearaa 13-15, F Apr 24

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    I baby shop for my cousins shower and always say to myself I will never be at the point where I will have a family. I want a family and am afraid it will never happen to me. I am...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response 5 days ago

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    afraid of what will happen, if I speak up, speak out, let them know I'm hurting. but how do you tell someone who thinks you're perfectly fine, that you dread everyday before it...
    irishlassy98 irishlassy98 16-17, F Apr 13

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    I think my biggest fear is the fear of myself getting sick to my stomach or someone else getting sick. Since I was a little girl I have been terrified of it. Everything about it...
    gardengirl17 gardengirl17 22-25, F Apr 14

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    Whenever I finish with school, I'm always afraid to find out what my grades are because I'm afraid I'm going to fail.
    AppleGirl22 AppleGirl22 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 23

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    My dad wants me to be a doctor and I wanted to be a doctor too, but i'm starting to doubt myself. I'm not good with socializing, i'm kind of a introvert. My memory is pretty bland...
    Garcinia Garcinia 16-17, F 7 Responses Apr 26

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    I have a few dreams which are seemingly very difficult to accomplish.Already having failed in accomplishing many things due to my mistakes.I am afraid but still have hope for...
    GenuineAngel GenuineAngel 18-21, F 5 Responses 6 days ago

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    Honestly a few months ago I may have been afraid of death now I can't wait to die im not afraid of it because death is happiness it takes u off of this horrible world where...
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    "now I'm not afraid to die. cause birds and bees and bugs, they all die after they ****."
    forkinyoureye forkinyoureye 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 7

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    5 years ago when i was younger I wondered what my boyfriend would be like. i still don't have a boyfriend, simply because i don't project myself out to be looking for a...
    vinnyvinyal vinnyvinyal 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 7

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    I am not afraid of death itself but of the pain I may feel when I die. What scares me even more than the pain is I don't know what comes after death. Heaven? Hell? Paradise...
    LoveIsInTheBlood LoveIsInTheBlood 16-17, F Apr 8

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    For a super shy guy like me i really respect people who aren't afraid to share their feeling with the world
    Cubeball Cubeball 18-21, M 3 Responses Apr 9

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    This Saturday I'm supposed to go to a big sex positive party with a few friends. The goal is to get these friends to have a good time and jump start their love lives a bit. The...
    bunnyXbunny bunnyXbunny 26-30, M Apr 10

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    Yes! I am way too scared of failure. Have already wasted a whole month in fear. But I felt tired of it!!! I noticed that during this month, I was trying to escape from myself so as...
    Abeer2015 Abeer2015 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 11

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    I went to the beach once as a child and almost drowned. I've been afraid of the beach ever since. I know it sounds silly and childish but I was never able to bring myself to step...
    Kay06 Kay06 18-21, T 1 Response Apr 12

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    Im deathly afraid of snails, slugs and balloons.
    Kaiririri Kaiririri 22-25, F Apr 14

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