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I Am Afraid to Be Happy

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    Love And Death

    I was never a very happy person growing up. I fell in love at seventeen and that changed my life completely. i never knew i could be that happy. but soon after i fell in love my mom passed away. ive always blamed myself for it for multiple reasons. since then ive been scared to...
    blownaway20 blownaway20 18-21, F Jul 26, 2013

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    Dont Desurve It

    i fell like i need to earn it if not then im just not happy like i need approvel sad in xx
    natasha18 natasha18 22-25, F 1 Response May 11, 2010

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    ~ Sounds Right ~

       I want to be happy. No, really I DO!! It just seems that everytime I've almost caught the "happy balloon", a nasty ole depressing wind comes along & takes my happy balloon away. I have gotten to point where I'm afraid to get my hopes up, to plan...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jun 14, 2009

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    Holding Back On Happiness Because It May Feel Correct To Others

      So interesting that I should find this group tonight. I am in a really long, GOOD marriage where I have not been able to devote the time and attention I would like to,to my family of origin due to location. I think that it's one reason why I "can't" seem to lose...
    chataround chataround 46-50, F 1 Response Oct 24, 2009

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    Because

     everything comes to an end :)
    deleted deleted 26-30 Oct 24, 2009

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    It Is Too Good To Be True

    I assume everyone had highs and lows in their lives. At least I do. And sometimes during a high, when I feel like everything is the way it should be, I getting this nagging feeling that something bad will happen. I fear someone close to me will die or I will find out I have a...
    myowncreation74 myowncreation74 36-40, F 1 Response Nov 4, 2013

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    Wats Going On

    Why or wats goin on with me one day I'm sad then the next I have tbis feeling of revenge on all of those people who hurt me bullied me wen I was younger then the next I want to pack up my bags and leave everyone and everything. Behind I don't kno wats going on. With mw plz help...
    low209 low209 22-25 May 23, 2012

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    I'm Crazy I Know.........

    I don't understand it.....I'm terrified to be happy........It's like if I do l;et myself be happy something bads gonna happen.......Also it been so long since I've been happy.....It's just scary.......Is this normal??? I can't belive if it is.....it can't be though I mean are...
    LauraStorm LauraStorm 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 14, 2011

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    I Am Afraid To Be Happy

    This may sound crazy, but I am afraid to be happy.  For most of my adult life, I have taken care of others and neglected my own needs.  My marriage ended more than 25 years ago, and my children are grown and on their own.  There are so many things I want to do, but...
    Silvermane1516 Silvermane1516 56-60 3 Responses Jun 8, 2010

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    It'S TOO Good

    They said "Happy endings are stories that haven't ended yet". I'm afraid of happiness, I feel like there is something bad waiting for me around the corner, good things don't happen to me so I don't want to build hope for nothing..
    thegirlbehindhemask thegirlbehindhemask 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 2, 2013

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    Being Happy Scares Me

    I SIT HERE TONIGHT FEELING ALL ALONE,BUT THERE'S NO ONE ELSE TO BLAME BUT MY SELF.I'M THE ONE WHO BUILT WALLS ALL AROUND ME LETTING NO ONE ELSE TO ENTER.SCARED OF BEING HURT.LIKE SO MANY TIMES IN THE PAST.TO MANY TEARS,TO MANY HEARTBREAKS,THERE'S JUST NO WAY I CAN TAKE THAT...
    grace1965 grace1965 41-45, F Oct 25, 2009

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    Every time I've ever experienced pure happiness,

    something has happened to destroy it. Every damn time!
    taylor0430 taylor0430 22-25, F 2 Responses May 26, 2014

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    Left alone to figure out life at 13. Used and abused up until now. Lonely. Sad. Frustrated. Hopeless. I just want to be in a happy relationship. I have BPD and other social...
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    They say that fear is what stands between you and your dreams. Around the age of 16, I decided to do things I was afraid of. Not anything too dangerous, just awkward, embarassing...
    sparkydream sparkydream 18-21, F 13 hrs ago

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    So i don't live at all and i feel like its killing me. I worry that i'll make a mistake or get myself hurt which i know that's life, it's a gamble but it's like im paralyzed with...
    MushroomFaerie148 MushroomFaerie148 26-30, F 21 hrs ago

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    MY HEART, SOUL AND EYESBy Message GuyHappy birthday!Adored is the heart touched by you,Redeemed is the soul by your side,Blessed are the eyes that behold you,For my...
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    I believe its hard to be yourself around people who are easily influenced. Growing up I was being pulled apart from myself and friends. One to be myself and one to be my friends...
    theEmmettshow theEmmettshow 18-21, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I had a cruel past. Everytime I take a nap, series of fear will awaken me. 2 years ago, I was bullied. It started when I was 6 until I turned 17. I was bullied for 11 years. They...
    lavendermist07 lavendermist07 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Just Once Just once in my Life. It would be nice If someone Was afraid Of Losing me I am always Afraid That I am going To lose someone I Love that someone will decide they no...
    BroknGirl89 BroknGirl89 26-30, F 3 days ago

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    ***Somewhat Graphic Images*** This image may be unclear. I woke up with burn marks underneath my breasts. My Fake Mother's boyfriend's brother burnt my breasts, I believe with...
    ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT 26-30, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I cant be myself with my family. Truly, when I'm happy and the days depression isnt weighing me down. I like being weird and dancing and laughing loud. I cant with my family. If I...
    KiraRawr KiraRawr 16-17, F 11 Responses Jun 28

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    I'm Looking for advice on how to not be worried. my wife wants to get pregnant but I'm very afraid of all the thing I have been reading about that could go wrong and maybe even...
    acountryboy19 acountryboy19 26-30, M 1 Response Jun 28

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    No so much afraid of it as I don't like it just because someone is different don't mean you shouldn't talk to them or be there friend who knows they might bring something new to...
    paulsmith345 paulsmith345 16-17, M 4 Responses Jun 28

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    I'm afraid of being rejected by the ones I love and care about.Sometimes I try to hard to make them happy.I wish the trust issues faded.
    punkglampire punkglampire 22-25, F 4 Responses Jun 28

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    I am afraid. I am afraid of spiders, heights, death, all of it, all of the petty and more complex creatures, things, and instances, but that is of the least importance as of right...
    ASMRLegion ASMRLegion 18-21, T Jun 27

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    I have been always ready for dying. I even do take as much of pain that goes in this body without complaining. I never think like dying is a bad thing. After all as when you die no...
    Egyptianguy34 Egyptianguy34 36-40, M 3 Responses Jun 27

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    I admire people,that are not afraid to be themselves! I strongly believe,you will be discovered eventually,playing charades with other's lives. So why put yourself,and others...
    Susiedisney Susiedisney 56-60, F Jun 26

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    The last time I was really depressed, I didn't eat for days, I stayed in bed all the time, I didn't go anywhere nor wanted to be around anyone. It was bad and it got worse after I...
    Deeplyflawed89 Deeplyflawed89 22-25, F Jun 26

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    I think it's too late for me now. I think it's too late for me to learn how to let someone in. Not that anyone ever shows the slightest bit of interest in me anyway. But I think...
    TrixieBeeBelle TrixieBeeBelle 26-30, F 8 Responses Jun 26

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    Oh how I would love so much to just be happy again I remember how happy I was when I first met him everything was so great he was the nicest most sweetest complimenting awesome guy...
    LuvLostSoul LuvLostSoul 26-30, F Jun 26

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    I love people saying not afraid to die while i lay on a hospital bed with my brother who just turned 17 and the last person he felt anything for won't even say goodbye so i can...
    Human4 Human4 16-17, M 3 Responses Jun 26

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    I am so afraid of the future. Will I even make it out sane let alone alive?
    renlambert renlambert 13-15 Jun 26

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    I never was really. I guess since I wanted to be a clown since I was a child I was not really afraid.
    IndecisiveDoeEyes IndecisiveDoeEyes 31-35, F Jun 26

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    Well, I guess I already let myself go a bit... I'm 65 lbs heavier than my college weight and about 50 lbs overweight. But I want to really let go and eat whatever I want and be...
    person12670 person12670 31-35, M 6 Responses Jun 25

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    I had a traumatic experienced. After being lonely, bullied and alone for 6 years, I met a bestfriend. At first we are three, then we become five and named our group. Our group...
    lavendermist07 lavendermist07 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 25

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    it's not that I'm affraid to fall in love it's just that I am afraid to fall in love with the wrong person again.
    ForgetableMe ForgetableMe 31-35, M 1 Response Jun 24

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    I can't believe that I'm not the only one who has this; I've always been afraid of them, but now that I'm older, I'm not so much scared as I am weary of being near them. For me, I...
    zydeko zydeko 18-21 Jun 23

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    I try to surround myself by people who aren't afraid to be themselves because a.) I could use the inspiration because I have a hard time being myself in front of others, and b...
    nerdfighter314 nerdfighter314 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 22

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    I recently got a request from my sister in-law to draw her a logo. I've been drawing for quite some time but I can't pull this together no matter how hard I try. What if I fail...
    kiraikou kiraikou 16-17, F Jun 22

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    For everyone who is afraid- You can't spend the rest of your life being afraid of people rejecting you, and you have to start by not rejecting yourself, you don't deserve it. From...
    AnyaW AnyaW 13-15 3 Responses Jun 22

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    I had a dream which helped me realize I am afraid of scrutiny. I can't post things and leave them up because I heavily scrutinize everything I write. I don't just express what's...