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I Am Afraid to Be Happy

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    Love And Death

    I was never a very happy person growing up. I fell in love at seventeen and that changed my life completely. i never knew i could be that happy. but soon after i fell in love my mom passed away. ive always blamed myself for it for multiple reasons. since then ive been scared to...
    blownaway20 blownaway20 18-21, F Jul 26, 2013

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    I Am Afraid To Be Happy

    This may sound crazy, but I am afraid to be happy.  For most of my adult life, I have taken care of others and neglected my own needs.  My marriage ended more than 25 years ago, and my children are grown and on their own.  There are so many things I want to do, but...
    Silvermane1516 Silvermane1516 56-60 3 Responses Jun 8, 2010

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    Dont Desurve It

    i fell like i need to earn it if not then im just not happy like i need approvel sad in xx
    natasha18 natasha18 22-25, F 1 Response May 11, 2010

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    It'S TOO Good

    They said "Happy endings are stories that haven't ended yet". I'm afraid of happiness, I feel like there is something bad waiting for me around the corner, good things don't happen to me so I don't want to build hope for nothing..
    thegirlbehindhemask thegirlbehindhemask 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 2, 2013

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    It Is Too Good To Be True

    I assume everyone had highs and lows in their lives. At least I do. And sometimes during a high, when I feel like everything is the way it should be, I getting this nagging feeling that something bad will happen. I fear someone close to me will die or I will find out I have a...
    myowncreation74 myowncreation74 36-40, F 1 Response Nov 4, 2013

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    Wats Going On

    Why or wats goin on with me one day I'm sad then the next I have tbis feeling of revenge on all of those people who hurt me bullied me wen I was younger then the next I want to pack up my bags and leave everyone and everything. Behind I don't kno wats going on. With mw plz help...
    low209 low209 22-25 May 23, 2012

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    I'm Crazy I Know.........

    I don't understand it.....I'm terrified to be happy........It's like if I do l;et myself be happy something bads gonna happen.......Also it been so long since I've been happy.....It's just scary.......Is this normal??? I can't belive if it is.....it can't be though I mean are...
    LauraStorm LauraStorm 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 14, 2011

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    Every time I've ever experienced pure happiness,

    something has happened to destroy it. Every damn time!
    taylor0430 taylor0430 18-21, F 2 Responses May 26

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    Holding Back On Happiness Because It May Feel Correct To Others

      So interesting that I should find this group tonight. I am in a really long, GOOD marriage where I have not been able to devote the time and attention I would like to,to my family of origin due to location. I think that it's one reason why I "can't" seem to lose...
    chataround chataround 46-50, F 1 Response Oct 24, 2009

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    Being Happy Scares Me

    I SIT HERE TONIGHT FEELING ALL ALONE,BUT THERE'S NO ONE ELSE TO BLAME BUT MY SELF.I'M THE ONE WHO BUILT WALLS ALL AROUND ME LETTING NO ONE ELSE TO ENTER.SCARED OF BEING HURT.LIKE SO MANY TIMES IN THE PAST.TO MANY TEARS,TO MANY HEARTBREAKS,THERE'S JUST NO WAY I CAN TAKE THAT...
    grace1965 grace1965 41-45, F Oct 25, 2009

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    Because

     everything comes to an end :)
    deleted deleted 26-30 Oct 24, 2009

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    ~ Sounds Right ~

       I want to be happy. No, really I DO!! It just seems that everytime I've almost caught the "happy balloon", a nasty ole depressing wind comes along & takes my happy balloon away. I have gotten to point where I'm afraid to get my hopes up, to plan...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jun 14, 2009

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    I am scared of death but mostly it scares me to think where my soul will go. I mean I believe in God and pray to him but I don't go to Church because I work on the weekends so I'm...
    Moonstripe1993 Moonstripe1993 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 29

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    I'm not really afraid of singledom nor am I afraid to be a single parent but with my lack of experience I'm sure it'd drive any guy away. I try to think of the positives about...
    heyitsabike heyitsabike 31-35, F 1 Response Oct 8

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    “Death is not the greatest loss in life. The greatest loss is what dies inside us while we live.” ~Norman CousinsSo, why am I afraid of losing? Am I ready to trust in...
    prettyfate prettyfate 31-35, M Oct 12

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    In my past in relationships I wasn't very loyal. But now that I'm older(35) I want love n be loved.I don't know if it will happen. I'm a single mother... I work hard .. I lose jobs...
    loyal4him loyal4him 31-35, F 2 Responses Oct 14

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    Finally found my Zachary here *blushes* I stopped starving myself now but still have a difficult time eating, feels like throwing up so full I can't eat the same amount of food I...
    Concerto Concerto 22-25, F 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    I'm afraid that I'll end up alone. I'm afraid of being sad for the rest of my life. I'm afraid of bugs. I'm afraid my mother will get tired of me- that EVERYONE will get tired of...
    queercutie queercutie 16-17, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    I feel like I have been disconnected from my emotions for so long now I don't even know what makes me happy or what I want.
    jukuren jukuren 26-30, M 3 Responses Sep 25

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    I have needs, I have rights to choose what kind of job that I want to do. If its too little money, I can refuse to take that task because I am no one’s cheap labor. When I said...
    ChicaAudaz ChicaAudaz 18-21, F Sep 29

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    I'm afraid that if I ever got together with my crush, people would try to split us up. I'm afraid of ill-willed people spreading rumors and lies about us. I'm afraid of losing the...
    WinterIncandescence WinterIncandescence 16-17, F Sep 29

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    All my friends say that I'm pretty but I feel like of I was "pretty" guys would come on to me but they never ever do. They talk to my friends but not to me, I am good at hiding my...
    katstho katstho 18-21, F 8 Responses Oct 1

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    Especially adults. I feel they're judging me because of my shyness and talking very little. My friends parents constantly give me looks and stares when they meet and talk to me...
    leolove4 leolove4 16-17, F 6 Responses Oct 3

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    Well this isn't just to make people feel sorry for me , I really have to say this to someone( I don't have any) . Generally people , even if I haven't met them before hates me. It...
    prophet558 prophet558 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 12

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    Because like what happens I don't like it Everytime I see couples I'm like good for them I'm a relationship type of person I've always been single and I feel like it's better for...
    andreaespe andreaespe 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 12

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    As much as I truly want to experience someone mentally physically emotionally & spiritually. I am so afraid. Afraid of not being enough, if not getting the love right back. I...
    beautifullywrittenambition beautifullywrittenambition 18-21, F Oct 12

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    Hell... They are no abundance, but i have atleast many of these people around which im happy for. Still you need respect that noone is perfect.
    vickepicke vickepicke 16-17, M 2 Responses Oct 13

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    I hate having dream about people I loved before...I'm not sure if it's because I'm miss something about the past relationship or I don't feel happy with myself or where I am at now...
    elissamay33 elissamay33 22-25, F 3 Responses Oct 13

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    I naturally gravitate towards darker things. I will choose the horror film over the comedy, and I'll choose the black shirt over the yellow one, and I find dark humor more amusing...
    HellBoundButterfly HellBoundButterfly 13-15, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    Don't judge, its really hard, but just think about it before you do. I got judged so much, I am afraid of being myself, everyone thinks I am a lonely introvert, but the truth is, i...
    mariahluh mariahluh 51-55, T 3 days ago

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    I am afraid of being turned down, but I think I am more afraid of being hurt. The few times I've asked a girl out, I felt like I was standing way out on a swaying branch. I mean...
    Hellcat43 Hellcat43 22-25, M 3 Responses Sep 28

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    This photo I took during a not so fun time in life. I am afraid of my own darkness. I have a temper that I can't control and a sadness so great. I lose all control. And that is...
    kaixin97 kaixin97 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 10

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    I'm not afraid of commitment, but I'm afraid of being hurt, mistreated and replaced.
    toobreezzee toobreezzee 16-17, F Oct 12

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    I'm afraid to fall in love because when I think about love now...all I think of is cheating,lying,being used..I easily fall in love.. I'm afraid to fall in love.
    quackboo quackboo 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 12

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    My anxiety could be the cause of all my worrying over this, but I am afraid of being nonexistent after I die, and I don't understand how most people are fine with it. I do believe...
    DeniseD17 DeniseD17 16-17, F 2 Responses Oct 13

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    Every time I find someone I really like it always ends up bad. Either I get my heart broken, I get cheated on, or they lie to me about some dumb ****. I'm afraid that I'm going to...
    tay143 tay143 16-17, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Lately I have been thinking about telling this girl how I really feel about her but I'm afraid what she will say when I do. If she says yes OK and if no OK but its what happens...
    Chaco1 Chaco1 13-15, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I have always been afraid of people. Afraid they would judge because I'm quiet and don't express many emotions. Every time someone touches me or brushes past me I tense up and hold...
    Catina25 Catina25 16-17, F 5 hrs ago

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    I'm afraid no one will ever fall in love with me
    Algorhythms Algorhythms 18-21, F Sep 26

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    This is what happens when I like someone here...actually vented all my anger on him and then he happens to be attractive IMO and he doesn't find me attractive totally killed my...
    Concerto Concerto 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 28

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    I am only afraid of that life will end, earlier or later. And actually 70-80 years isn't even that much.. Including that when you are very old you can't really do stuff and you are...
    dropdeadwilma dropdeadwilma 16-17, F 5 Responses Sep 29

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    I am who I am.....Interestingly enough while I am a very outgoing person and a very self-confident person, I am very shy when it comes to initiating a relationship. I know that I...
    Cpaz33 Cpaz33 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 29

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    Being cautious comes into it,but when all is said and done,I occasionally meet someone I sincerely think is an OK kind of person,and I AM afraid to let them get close.Half the...
    KurMujun KurMujun 18-21, M Sep 30

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    The rain is coming down heavily. The neighborhood is quiet. It's October and it marks a full 2 years and 2 months of being single. It's been 2 months since I've made any physical...
    SuperGinger41 SuperGinger41 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 1

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    It's the only thing I'm afraid of
    joelle10 joelle10 13-15, F 3 Responses Oct 4

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    I myself am not afraid of dying. I would hate to be widowed, though. I fear I would go crazy.. Like go off the deep end. I am very close to my husband. Spending one night away from...
    ShimmerSquirrels13 ShimmerSquirrels13 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 4

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