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I Am Afraid to Be Happy

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    Being Happy Scares Me

    I SIT HERE TONIGHT FEELING ALL ALONE,BUT THERE'S NO ONE ELSE TO BLAME BUT MY SELF.I'M THE ONE WHO BUILT WALLS ALL AROUND ME LETTING NO ONE ELSE TO ENTER.SCARED OF BEING HURT.LIKE SO MANY TIMES IN THE PAST.TO MANY TEARS,TO MANY HEARTBREAKS,THERE'S JUST NO WAY I CAN TAKE THAT...
    grace1965 grace1965 41-45, F Oct 25, 2009

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    It Is Too Good To Be True

    I assume everyone had highs and lows in their lives. At least I do. And sometimes during a high, when I feel like everything is the way it should be, I getting this nagging feeling that something bad will happen. I fear someone close to me will die or I will find out I have a...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 4, 2013

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    Because

     everything comes to an end :)
    deleted deleted 26-30 Oct 24, 2009

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    Holding Back On Happiness Because It May Feel Correct To Others

      So interesting that I should find this group tonight. I am in a really long, GOOD marriage where I have not been able to devote the time and attention I would like to,to my family of origin due to location. I think that it's one reason why I "can't" seem to lose...
    chataround chataround 46-50, F 1 Response Oct 24, 2009

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    Dont Desurve It

    i fell like i need to earn it if not then im just not happy like i need approvel sad in xx
    natasha18 natasha18 22-25, F 1 Response May 11, 2010

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    I'm Crazy I Know.........

    I don't understand it.....I'm terrified to be happy........It's like if I do l;et myself be happy something bads gonna happen.......Also it been so long since I've been happy.....It's just scary.......Is this normal??? I can't belive if it is.....it can't be though I mean are...
    LauraStorm LauraStorm 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 14, 2011

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    Love And Death

    I was never a very happy person growing up. I fell in love at seventeen and that changed my life completely. i never knew i could be that happy. but soon after i fell in love my mom passed away. ive always blamed myself for it for multiple reasons. since then ive been scared to...
    blownaway20 blownaway20 18-21, F Jul 26, 2013

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    ~ Sounds Right ~

       I want to be happy. No, really I DO!! It just seems that everytime I've almost caught the "happy balloon", a nasty ole depressing wind comes along & takes my happy balloon away. I have gotten to point where I'm afraid to get my hopes up, to plan...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jun 14, 2009

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    Every time I've ever experienced pure happiness,

    something has happened to destroy it. Every damn time!
    taylor0430 taylor0430 22-25, F 2 Responses May 26, 2014

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    It'S TOO Good

    They said "Happy endings are stories that haven't ended yet". I'm afraid of happiness, I feel like there is something bad waiting for me around the corner, good things don't happen to me so I don't want to build hope for nothing..
    thegirlbehindhemask thegirlbehindhemask 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 2, 2013

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    Wats Going On

    Why or wats goin on with me one day I'm sad then the next I have tbis feeling of revenge on all of those people who hurt me bullied me wen I was younger then the next I want to pack up my bags and leave everyone and everything. Behind I don't kno wats going on. With mw plz help...
    low209 low209 22-25 May 23, 2012

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    I Am Afraid To Be Happy

    This may sound crazy, but I am afraid to be happy.  For most of my adult life, I have taken care of others and neglected my own needs.  My marriage ended more than 25 years ago, and my children are grown and on their own.  There are so many things I want to do, but...
    Silvermane1516 Silvermane1516 56-60 3 Responses Jun 8, 2010

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    I adore people who are not afraid of the groups they follow/support on EP. Everyone's got something they don't reveal to everyone but they should be comfortable being who they are...
    eharber97 eharber97 18-21, M 1 Response 20 hrs ago

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    I'm afraid of too much attaching to people. its not like I'm hating them or something.it just I hate ended up getting heart broken.I broke up so many times and each time it felt...
    felicia123angel felicia123angel 18-21, F 2 Responses 20 hrs ago

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    telling a white lie is still a lie. don't be afraid to tell the truth, it will be better in the long run.
    NightshadesSnowflake NightshadesSnowflake 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    Noow I'm not afraid every one who want to se my pictures just message me I'll show everything no matter what
    alexxxa123 alexxxa123 18-21, M 2 days ago

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    Sexuality is natural, so no reason to be afraid or ashamed. I love everything sexual and talking about it and exchanging experiences is just fun. So dont be shy! ;)
    sxylaura sxylaura 16-17, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    Its kind of funny, all my life. Every girl I was ever the least bit interested in...was always taken or unavailable. I tend to get stuck on one girl for a while and not really feel...
    Jason947 Jason947 18-21, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    YES! They certainly are! Hahaha it's so awesome too! I wanted to post this because I speak my mind on ep in a lot of debates about men, animals women's rights and so on. I...
    Kornisone Kornisone 26-30, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    I'm afraid, ok? I admit it, I'm afraid, Afraid of what you may ask? I don't know, Afraid of knowing, Afraid of having the chance to get hurt, That's why I never let people come...
    nivanvc nivanvc 36-40, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    "Happiness is the meaning and the purpose of life, the whole aim and end of human existence." Aristotle said this more than 2,000 years ago. And it still holds true today. What is...
    nivanvc nivanvc 36-40, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I used to be afraid of being alone but I realise you have to be happy with your lot and being alone because being in a relationship will not bring long lasting love and the...
    hurtwontheal hurtwontheal 41-45, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    I'm not afraid to say Jesus Christ is Lord.
    cobalt997 cobalt997 18-21, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    No one should be afraid of this. Everyone is different and i have met so many people who couldn't be more different to one another..
    SubmissiveKitty09 SubmissiveKitty09 18-21, F 5 Responses 3 days ago

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    I used to be afraid to talk about what I feel and how I feel about my sexuality. Not so much anymore. It isnt healthy to not discuss your sexuality.
    kbrasswell kbrasswell 13-15, F 8 Responses 5 days ago

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    I hate that I fall for someone so quickly... I've never been in love but this man that I'm dating now I think it's real && I think that I'm falling for him... Of course I'm afraid...
    NaturallyRomantic NaturallyRomantic 22-25, F 5 days ago

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    well you shouldn't be afraid of what people think cause what people think doesn't matter ??
    donnylevi511 donnylevi511 18-21, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    The fact that I am afraid of commitment because of being walked away from once I put my all into it... I constantly drive people away!!! Sad but it's true
    NaturallyRomantic NaturallyRomantic 22-25, F 5 Responses 5 days ago

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    im a mom and a wife. im good at it. my family, is by most standards, very happy, and im proud of that. only i know how much work goes into their maintenance. Im perpetually bored...
    degeneratemerfolk degeneratemerfolk 26-30, F 6 days ago

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    Time calls us by a name we know none of, and brands us with it for life. Time is but a fraction of the sun dancing to discover and rediscover distant shadows carved to perfection...
    ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT 26-30, F 6 days ago

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    I am not afraid to walk this world alone.
    LexiMory LexiMory 13-15, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I volunteer I'm a shelter for battered women and children. last Wednesday evening a mother came in very badly beaten and with what turned out to be a broken arm. She had a 9 year...
    g4it g4it 22-25, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    I am afraid of sharing my feelings around me. Maybe thats why i am ignored all the time. Maybe i am secretive or that my smile is a lie. Is just a mask. I don't wanna be a burden...
    Potchii Potchii 22-25, M Feb 1

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    I'm not really afraid I just know when it's gona be my time to go I'm going to have to face death alone.
    RobertXavier19 RobertXavier19 18-21, M 6 Responses Feb 1

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    I want to see rainbows and butterflies Every time I close my eyes And reserve the right to be mesmerised, By the pure delight that awaits me every night; Waking up in the morning...
    nivanvc nivanvc 36-40, M Feb 1

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    So, for the longest time I was very self conscious and hated my body. I hated the way I looked, and constantly believed that anything past 140lbs was fat. I used to starve myself...
    PrincessAlora97 PrincessAlora97 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 1

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    well I got blocked by happygirl because according to her my answer was too blunt for her to handle...
    foReverYOURS3211 foReverYOURS3211 26-30, F 2 Responses Feb 1

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    i cant i just cant i had so much advice but i am afraid of rejection and then they would laugh at me an tell everyone else and they will say ew ur ugly and i want to change my...
    genericusername23 genericusername23 13-15, M 2 Responses Jan 31

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    Except I already have. The best friends I managed to keep throughout high school and some college...they are all gone. Of course, I blame no one but myself. I had a best friend in...
    DremeJolie DremeJolie 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 31

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    I am a licensed educator who was never able to find a teaching job. I tried different things in my life but I have always wanted to teach kindergarten. I am afraid that because of...
    ahughes27 ahughes27 26-30, F Jan 30

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    I lost my best friend and my grandma in the same year. Ever since then I've been afraid of losing everyone who's close to me
    Thornton2 Thornton2 16-17, F Jan 30

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