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I Am Afraid to Feel

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 60 People

    I Don't Let Myself Feel

    because i'm afraid of not being in control. i'm afraid of what i might feel if i let myself.
    aloneandintimidating aloneandintimidating 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 15, 2007

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    Self Containment

    It started in grade 5 when i had a crush on a girl. Her name was Lindsay and I think this became a negative experience(I felt like i wanted to run away from the girl, now that i think about it i would call it ashamed) because at the time i had no...
    jonnyvautour jonnyvautour 18-21 1 Response Nov 5, 2008

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    Tension

    There is a tightness around my chest and shoulders and hips. I can act, but I can't be, because being, feeling, is feeling this tension, and it scares the crap out of me. it's my fault, I'm mental, I'm doing something wrong, and the main preoccupation -FIX IT. FIX IT FIX IT FIX...
    fiddlyfoodlebird fiddlyfoodlebird 22-25 Nov 12, 2011

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    Hello Is Just the Beginning of Goodbye

    My mom married 7 times, I moved 32 times in 36years, all in the same small county.  Widowed twice by age 33. What is the point of being in love, of having wishes, making plans, feeling happy? It all gets ripped away one day. Usually right in the middle of feeling content.If...
    sigh36 sigh36 36-40 1 Response Oct 3, 2008

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    How Can I Deal With This?

    For having this silly fear, I lost the chance of having an extremely nice guy by my side... I don't want this to happen anymore. I don't wanna push people away because I'm afraid of getting hurt or disapointed. Or because I don't know what they think about me. I wanna let these...
    moonphasesgirl moonphasesgirl 16-17 1 Response Aug 3, 2012

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    It Hurts

    "When i care all i feel is pain."-Stefan Salvatore, Vampire Diaries This is actually really true for me. Sometimes i care to much for people and get hurt badly in the process. Sometimes i don't care enough and i lose them. Or i care but never got the chance to make it right...
    irishlassy98 irishlassy98 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 28, 2013

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    Pain

    I seem to have a wall up around my heart.  I don't let anyone in.  I seem on the outside like a cheerful and easygoing person.  But I'm afraid to feel.  I'm too weak to deal with the hurt that is inside.  Sometimes it wells up in me. ...
    srf4413 srf4413 26-30 Jun 25, 2008

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    Life Story

    I`ve been searching for a group like this one for a while. I often thought I was some sort of special, weird kind, because of the emptiness I felt and continue to feel. I`m 18 years old, an age that should be glorious and wild, at least, that`s what I hear most about it...an...
    gia99 gia99 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 27, 2010

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    Related Experiences

    I'm a senior in highschool and I won't be graduating on time. I'm so ashamed. Last year I failed every single class and missed over 30 days of school. Sometimes I just can't get...
    disposibleteen disposibleteen 16-17, F 4 hrs ago

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    I don't like admitting the fact that I feel lonely. Even when I'm with family I feel this way. I act like all is okay and try to go with the flow but deep inside me I know I'm...
    dontknowww dontknowww 18-21, F 2 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    this really is a perfectly natural thing to worry about. I have trust issues beleiving anybody 100% even my husband the only person I know 100% won't cheat is me. I don't know my...
    loreto789 loreto789 31-35, F 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    In a literal sense, sometimes I don't feel real. I feel like I'm without substance and my entire life is really just a dream I'm having in another person's sleep. I sometimes...
    justarandom justarandom 22-25, F 6 hrs ago

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    I feel like this should be a public service announcement. I am not afraid to talk not only about se x, but my se xuality (I am no prude!). There are adult ways to talk about se x...
    CurvyLibrarian CurvyLibrarian 22-25, F 10 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    My grandma passed away Sunday and my family is trying to kill my mom because she got all of her possessions and the full inheritance, meanwhile up here my stepdad and me are...
    Manuel1Martinez Manuel1Martinez 16-17, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Pretty sure this either causes or is caused by my social anxiety. I can't talk to people properly because I'm so afraid they'll just give me a 'wtf why would you even approach me...
    conflictinglives conflictinglives 13-15, M 6 Responses 5 days ago

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    I'm 24 and I wasn't like other kids in my family growing up. For one thing I have Mild Cerebral Palsy and growing up has been slow for me. I didn't get my id until I was 20, my...
    taurusboi23 taurusboi23 22-25, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I'm not at all afraid to die, I'm afraid of tomorrow
    LoV3KiLlSsLoWLy LoV3KiLlSsLoWLy 56-60, F 5 days ago

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    It's not like I really want to die or something. But there are things that are much worse than death. Many people are forced to undergo unbearable suffering because euthanasia is...
    UchuuStranger UchuuStranger 18-21, M 6 days ago

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    I guess I got a case of Sunday depression. It's not so much the day itself, but more the feelings I get. Usually I'm not the type to really need anyone to talk to all the time...
    CactusHugger CactusHugger 22-25 6 days ago

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    No one ive ever known understands how it feels like to have your country at war. To constantly lose people you love. To always be afraid of what might happen tomorrow. Whenever i...
    hgaood hgaood 13-15, M 2 Responses Aug 21

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    ever had a such a strong feeling of disbelieve in everything you do? mostly about your self? that's what I am feeling. I don't feel like a good person, I feel like I should be...
    Zineq Zineq 16-17, F Aug 21

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    "Invincible" - Kelly Clarkson - You know I was broke down, I had hit the ground I was crying out, couldn't make no sound No one hears silent tears collecting You know I had lost...
    BeachGypsy BeachGypsy 46-50, F Aug 20

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    I'm so in love, and I found it in the most unlikely place. I have two wonderful young teenagers and life is truly amazing lately. however I keep getting overwhelming feelings of...
    agypsieschild agypsieschild 31-35, F Aug 20

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    I feel broken inside, like I am being torn apart inside, my heart aches so bad, it is full of love but it is the love that is hurting me because I am afraid to tell them how I...
    nathchalk97 nathchalk97 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 20

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    I am afraid of living. I sometimes think it would be easier to not exist . I can't talk to my family because I don't want to stress them out. I have no friends and I'm afraid no...
    dollcollector dollcollector 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 19

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    I am not afraid of it and honestly thats mainly what I am here for. My friend told me about this site because it helped her explore her sexuality and talk to a lot of cool people...
    emmastewart emmastewart 18-21, F 9 Responses Aug 19

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    So very afraid. I want to gain someone special to me but I don't want to lose a friend. I want to share my feelings to him but I don't want to push him away.
    BriarRose96 BriarRose96 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 19

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    It really does depend, but I generally feel very very uncomfortable if I am in a room with men only or if a guy is near me. I am gay and am attracted to men but I am afraid of them...
    chemistry6 chemistry6 18-21, M Aug 19

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    for me getting rejected had been a big part of my life growing up. I was tall really slim , athletic and wrestled on the team for 5 years, when I was born I had a problem with my...
    teknon0513 teknon0513 46-50, M 1 Response Aug 16

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    Very, very afraid. Rejection and abuse have probably played a big part. From both family and everyone else. An unwanted sexual encounter at 14 with an older woman also kind of made...
    zeframcochrane zeframcochrane 18-21 Aug 16

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    I'm afraid I will end up alone. since I did the mess up thing to the girl I love nothing feels the same. I feel she is going apart and away from me. why on earth did I think I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Aug 15

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    Why is that people are afraid of dying?? I mean is going to happen right it could happen today right now or maybe even in a hundred years, the truth is that you are dying since the...
    maeve106 maeve106 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 15

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    I need to rant. First of all, I feel horrible for feeling this way because I am SO privileged. Currently, I have no job and my only responsibility is towards myself and a little...
    Chrossy Chrossy 22-25, F Aug 15

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    A lot of youngsters nowadays are depressed and saying that they aren't afraid of death. But none of them know how excruciating the pain is when death approaches. And that includes...
    sarasakun sarasakun 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 15

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    I want to end the music completely, instead of just standing here in one spot, with the player's pin lifted up, for the rest of my life, I want to just unplug the player altogether...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Aug 14

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    im so afraid I keep failing my girlfriend shadow. even though she says I dont I feel like I do
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 14

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    I don't want to blame my parents, because I don't like not taking responsibility, but I feel like my parents are part of the reason why I am afraid of failure. My older brother is...
    Annelina Annelina 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 14

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    I never want to be in a relationship, im afraid ill end up hurt And that it will affect me so much. Id rather be alone, travelling the world and have a lot of dogs tbh... I feel...
    valkoala valkoala 16-17, F 3 Responses Aug 14

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    I'm crumbling inside. I am living an otherwise exciting life, traveling and having experiences that I always dreamed up. Yet, I feel like I've lost my ambition and desire in...
    Woosah Woosah 26-30, F Aug 12

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    Recently we celebrated our 10 month anniversary, it was great. He got back late from work that morning apologizing for the fact that he couldn't get up on time to come pick me up...
    skitty25 skitty25 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 11

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    I have anxiety and depression Im too nervous to go to college school So nervous that I want to cry every time and can hear my heart beats fast In the morning I feel sad to go to...
    Tdddg Tdddg 18-21, F Aug 9

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