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I Am Afraid to Feel

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 55 People

    I Don't Let Myself Feel

    because i'm afraid of not being in control. i'm afraid of what i might feel if i let myself.
    aloneandintimidating aloneandintimidating 16-18, F 1 Response Aug 15, 2007

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    Pain

    I seem to have a wall up around my heart.  I don't let anyone in.  I seem on the outside like a cheerful and easygoing person.  But I'm afraid to feel.  I'm too weak to deal with the hurt that is inside.  Sometimes it wells up in me. ...
    srf4413 srf4413 26-30 Jun 25, 2008

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    Tension

    There is a tightness around my chest and shoulders and hips. I can act, but I can't be, because being, feeling, is feeling this tension, and it scares the crap out of me. it's my fault, I'm mental, I'm doing something wrong, and the main preoccupation -FIX IT. FIX IT FIX IT FIX...
    fiddlyfoodlebird fiddlyfoodlebird 22-25 Nov 12, 2011

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    Hello Is Just the Beginning of Goodbye

    My mom married 7 times, I moved 32 times in 36years, all in the same small county.  Widowed twice by age 33. What is the point of being in love, of having wishes, making plans, feeling happy? It all gets ripped away one day. Usually right in the middle of feeling content.If...
    sigh36 sigh36 36-40 1 Response Oct 3, 2008

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    Self Containment

    It started in grade 5 when i had a crush on a girl. Her name was Lindsay and I think this became a negative experience(I felt like i wanted to run away from the girl, now that i think about it i would call it ashamed) because at the time i had no...
    jonnyvautour jonnyvautour 18-21 1 Response Nov 5, 2008

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    Life Story

    I`ve been searching for a group like this one for a while. I often thought I was some sort of special, weird kind, because of the emptiness I felt and continue to feel. I`m 18 years old, an age that should be glorious and wild, at least, that`s what I hear most about it...an...
    gia99 gia99 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 27, 2010

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    How Can I Deal With This?

    For having this silly fear, I lost the chance of having an extremely nice guy by my side... I don't want this to happen anymore. I don't wanna push people away because I'm afraid of getting hurt or disapointed. Or because I don't know what they think about me. I wanna let these...
    moonphasesgirl moonphasesgirl 16-17 1 Response Aug 3, 2012

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    It Hurts

    "When i care all i feel is pain."-Stefan Salvatore, Vampire Diaries This is actually really true for me. Sometimes i care to much for people and get hurt badly in the process. Sometimes i don't care enough and i lose them. Or i care but never got the chance to make it right...
    irishlady98 irishlady98 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 28, 2013

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    Related Experiences

    I don't think people are afraid of falling in love, i think that people are afraid to meet someone who they already have met last year or the last time they broke up with. And the...
    Manuala Manuala 18-21, F Sep 23

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    Two weeks ago I went to that scanning I mentioned, and I was diagnosed with depression and some anxiety. I almost didn't go in to get scanned because I was nervous and afraid, but...
    ofnoimportance ofnoimportance 18-21, F 12 mins ago

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    Most certainly me. I feel it's better to b honest even if it hurts then to lie. I can not stand liars or lieing, it is so unnecessary. My friends often take it the wrong way and...
    lostwithin25 lostwithin25 22-25, F 2 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    I feel so much pressure on me and I tnink I dont try enough but I really mean to be successful
    Parmyss Parmyss 16-17, T 2 hrs ago

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    I want to find a man who will give me calm, love, happiness, who will never give me up.I am afraid to spend the rest of my life alone and unhappy.
    ScarlettMelanie84 ScarlettMelanie84 31-35, F 4 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    I'm going to tell you guys my perspective on how my depression came to what it is now. This is going to take a while. five years back, I was then 10/11 years old. I had a group...
    RianneK RianneK 16-17, F 6 days ago

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    You ever get the feeling like you are on borrowed time? I do, I have been depressed all my life with the exception of the last two years. These last two years have been amazing...
    Shellback1992 Shellback1992 41-45, M 1 Response Sep 25

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    This is the story of my life, from my earliest childhood memories to the age of majority (18). Today is October 2. 2014. I am a Norwegian male, so my English is not perfect. I'm...
    Dakris Dakris 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 1

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    I'm afraid that I'll end up alone. I'm afraid of being sad for the rest of my life. I'm afraid of bugs. I'm afraid my mother will get tired of me- that EVERYONE will get tired of...
    queercutie queercutie 16-17, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I am very much afraid of this girl I really like saying no, I like her A LOT, I really want to be with her but I am afraid, I have told her how i feel about her, help?
    JeremyRamm JeremyRamm 26-30, M 3 Responses Sep 22

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    So i fall and rejected and loves to reject people .. I still don't know whats wrong with me .. Am i not attractive .. Why do those guys i liked never like me back .. How come you...
    Christinamayday Christinamayday 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 22

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    I am afraid of being turned down, but I think I am more afraid of being hurt. The few times I've asked a girl out, I felt like I was standing way out on a swaying branch. I mean...
    Hellcat43 Hellcat43 22-25, M 3 Responses Sep 28

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    I'm not really afraid of singledom nor am I afraid to be a single parent but with my lack of experience I'm sure it'd drive any guy away. I try to think of the positives about...
    heyitsabike heyitsabike 31-35, F 1 Response Oct 8

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    I'm afraid of what I'm feeling.. My parents aren breaking up and i'm feeling lost.. No home.. And then i made a friend, a man friend, and i want to talk to him all time, but i'm...
    beatrizc beatrizc 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 13

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    My anxiety could be the cause of all my worrying over this, but I am afraid of being nonexistent after I die, and I don't understand how most people are fine with it. I do believe...
    DeniseD17 DeniseD17 16-17, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    I reach out, then pull back. I'm like a rubber band that bounce, never going forward. I don't know why I am like this. I want to be strong, so I tell myself that I will do things...
    GetYourFreakOn GetYourFreakOn 16-17, F Sep 22

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    I have married with someone that i'm not so sure to marry with. I met him after i broken heart with ex boyfriend. I liked him and felt happy with him, and was very happy when he...
    Paisley1515 Paisley1515 31-35, F Oct 4

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    Lately I have been feeling really fed up and depressed. I feel that both family and friends hate me being happy or having a life of my own. My parents are both really ill and have...
    galaxy3 galaxy3 36-40, F 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    I can't remember a point in my life I ever felt like I was understood. From a very young age, I had always felt very misunderstood and exceptionally curious to understand. And now...
    Imlostintime Imlostintime 18-21, F 10 hrs ago

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    This is what happens when I like someone here...actually vented all my anger on him and then he happens to be attractive IMO and he doesn't find me attractive totally killed my...
    Concerto Concerto 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 28

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    I am afraid of being judged for even being sad. I feel like people judge me for not having many friends, its not like i dont like people i just push people away, not on purpose. A...
    kezzie10 kezzie10 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 6

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    I'm afraid of getting attached because I always get that saying in my mind that says "people are in your life either temporary or permanently" & at that point it's scary for me to...
    SincerelyLorissa SincerelyLorissa 16-17, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Not afraid but i don't love anyone. I just love myself, i spend my all time with myself cause i don't like to have any friends, i solve my problems by myself, talk to myself, i do...
    mahdiraza mahdiraza 16-17, M Sep 23

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    I'm afraid that if I ever got together with my crush, people would try to split us up. I'm afraid of ill-willed people spreading rumors and lies about us. I'm afraid of losing the...
    WinterIncandescence WinterIncandescence 16-17, F Sep 29

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    As much as I truly want to experience someone mentally physically emotionally & spiritually. I am so afraid. Afraid of not being enough, if not getting the love right back. I...
    beautifullywrittenambition beautifullywrittenambition 18-21, F Oct 12

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    I'm not that old, but I always seem to be battling with...something. It's not quite depression, but just a feeling of constant sadness. I think I'm boring my friends, as they've...
    asplashofcolour asplashofcolour 13-15, F 4 Responses 1 hr ago

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    Going alone! Thats a horrible thought for me... I wont move out unless im going to live with someone else but never on my own no way! I would feel so lonely living on my own plus...
    MilweePetite MilweePetite 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 21

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    I am who I am.....Interestingly enough while I am a very outgoing person and a very self-confident person, I am very shy when it comes to initiating a relationship. I know that I...
    Cpaz33 Cpaz33 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 29

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    Being cautious comes into it,but when all is said and done,I occasionally meet someone I sincerely think is an OK kind of person,and I AM afraid to let them get close.Half the...
    KurMujun KurMujun 18-21, M Sep 30

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    The rain is coming down heavily. The neighborhood is quiet. It's October and it marks a full 2 years and 2 months of being single. It's been 2 months since I've made any physical...
    SuperGinger41 SuperGinger41 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 1

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    My sister kept telling me she wanted our parents to breakup so she could have some freedom. Such is a sheltered life I'm afraid of living whereas she is afraid of not being able to...
    Concerto Concerto 22-25, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    To often these days people feel as if they must conform to get people to like them when in reality, a person that is open and honest will be exponentially more respected in this...
    MedicGuy14 MedicGuy14 22-25, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    This! This is my biggest fear of all when it comes to my social anxiety. I can't take being rejected. It kills me inside. It makes me feel like I'm not good enough. :( It makes...
    rdawes rdawes 26-30, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    nothing has changed since all of this begun...every effort i make to return to god only makes things worse...i have prayed, tried to stand on faith, cried[still do] begged and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Sep 21

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    I so want to admire myself for being brave and not hiding myself so I don't get hurt but I can't because I'm afraid. I don't try to be someone I'm not...I'm not a phony. That would...
    ADF37 ADF37 56-60 Sep 21

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    I had the biggest crush on my friend since 8th-11th grade and I told him how I felt but he said he wasn't ready for a relationship, I was fine with that but then I started asking...
    LostCause LostCause 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 22

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    I don't think I'm afraid of it, I think I'm afraid of what will happen whilst I'm there. I think it's just the initial fear of trying something new and not knowing exactly what it...
    ChloeMiller ChloeMiller 18-21, F Sep 23

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    Facing a clock on how much time I have left, I'm not afraid to go...I am afraid of not having someone to hold my hand while I pass, but as it grows nearer, I've even started to...
    Dantescircle Dantescircle 36-40, M 1 Response Sep 24

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    I am scared of death but mostly it scares me to think where my soul will go. I mean I believe in God and pray to him but I don't go to Church because I work on the weekends so I'm...
    Moonstripe1993 Moonstripe1993 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 29

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    This photo I took during a not so fun time in life. I am afraid of my own darkness. I have a temper that I can't control and a sadness so great. I lose all control. And that is...
    kaixin97 kaixin97 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 10