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I Am Afraid to Feel

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    Life Story

    I`ve been searching for a group like this one for a while. I often thought I was some sort of special, weird kind, because of the emptiness I felt and continue to feel. I`m 18 years old, an age that should be glorious and wild, at least, that`s what I hear most about it...an...
    gia99 gia99 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 27, 2010

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    I Don't Let Myself Feel

    because i'm afraid of not being in control. i'm afraid of what i might feel if i let myself.
    aloneandintimidating aloneandintimidating 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 15, 2007

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    How Can I Deal With This?

    For having this silly fear, I lost the chance of having an extremely nice guy by my side... I don't want this to happen anymore. I don't wanna push people away because I'm afraid of getting hurt or disapointed. Or because I don't know what they think about me. I wanna let these...
    moonphasesgirl moonphasesgirl 16-17 1 Response Aug 3, 2012

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    Self Containment

    It started in grade 5 when i had a crush on a girl. Her name was Lindsay and I think this became a negative experience(I felt like i wanted to run away from the girl, now that i think about it i would call it ashamed) because at the time i had no...
    jonnyvautour jonnyvautour 18-21 1 Response Nov 5, 2008

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    Tension

    There is a tightness around my chest and shoulders and hips. I can act, but I can't be, because being, feeling, is feeling this tension, and it scares the crap out of me. it's my fault, I'm mental, I'm doing something wrong, and the main preoccupation -FIX IT. FIX IT FIX IT FIX...
    fiddlyfoodlebird fiddlyfoodlebird 22-25 Nov 12, 2011

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    Hello Is Just the Beginning of Goodbye

    My mom married 7 times, I moved 32 times in 36years, all in the same small county.  Widowed twice by age 33. What is the point of being in love, of having wishes, making plans, feeling happy? It all gets ripped away one day. Usually right in the middle of feeling content.If...
    sigh36 sigh36 36-40 1 Response Oct 3, 2008

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    It Hurts

    "When i care all i feel is pain."-Stefan Salvatore, Vampire Diaries This is actually really true for me. Sometimes i care to much for people and get hurt badly in the process. Sometimes i don't care enough and i lose them. Or i care but never got the chance to make it right...
    irishlassy98 irishlassy98 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 28, 2013

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    Pain

    I seem to have a wall up around my heart.  I don't let anyone in.  I seem on the outside like a cheerful and easygoing person.  But I'm afraid to feel.  I'm too weak to deal with the hurt that is inside.  Sometimes it wells up in me. ...
    srf4413 srf4413 26-30 Jun 25, 2008

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    I like this girl that I hang out with it's cool she's really pretty nice and smart and she helps me with my wheelchair and bring me to the store I'm always afraid to tell her how I...
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    nickels513 nickels513 26-30, F 1 Response 21 hrs ago

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    I feel like none of my friends are genuine. Would love to make some friends who are willing to be friends online and on FB. I know this sounds weird but I feel lonely on FB. I am...
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    *This is kind of a continuation of my last experience so to better understand this one you might want to read the other really quick* But this guy I work with and I have been...
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    I grew up with a dark past, most of it I have locked away but glimpses here & there when something causes a flashback. I can't remember most of my childhood though...all I know is...
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    Penalope33 Penalope33 31-35, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Zbeara Zbeara 22-25, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    There was never a point in my life where I was afraid to die. There were times in my life where I wanted to die and times in my life when I didn't want to die, but I was never...
    SparkleSwirl SparkleSwirl 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    I used to be so afraid to die. But I'm not anymore, all I want to is die at this moment, just painful and slowly. I feel either depressed or angry and I don't think I can take it...
    ssweetdisspositionn ssweetdisspositionn 18-21, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    I wouldn't exactly say "afraid", more like hesitant. I moved to Florida almost 2 & a half years ago & I left behind 3 people that I was very close with. I have made some friends...
    loloisaninja loloisaninja 13-15, F 4 days ago

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    i think i admire people who aren't afraid to be themselves because i am afraid. I think it takes a lot of courage not to be afraid of the backlash that comes with it. I want to be...
    chrisscott515 chrisscott515 22-25, F 7 Responses 6 days ago

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    It is an irrational fear of mine, just like how I am afraid to swallow pills even for medical reasons. The fear of rejection is a big part of it. Being told I'm not good enough...
    Kriptess Kriptess 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    About five years ago I lived downtown in a major city in the US. I’ve always been a night person, so I would often find myself bored after my roommate, who was decidedly not a...
    InvinsibleViper InvinsibleViper 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 25

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    I'm 26 years old I have been dealing with depression and anxiety for longer than I care to remember. I feel ashamed because I have let my depression and anxiety take over my life...
    robbi123 robbi123 26-30, M 2 Responses Jul 25

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    I'm with a guy who I do love, though I'm not sure I love him the way I should after 3 years. We never have sex, he shows me next to no affection and I resent him for it. I've tried...
    BeautifulBorderlineJunkie BeautifulBorderlineJunkie 22-25, F Jul 24

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    I am not though. I have my 3 kids all day everyday. I have my soul mate when he gets off work and the weekends but i feel lonely and scared. Afraid and on edge. I feel like im...
    Ghostflower9485 Ghostflower9485 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 24

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    Don't run, but the idea of death has always fascinated me, just the idea that there is nothing, like you can't even think or anything (as you can tell I have no religious views on...
    poppytippy poppytippy 13-15, F Jul 23

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    xoxobee xoxobee 22-25, F Jul 22

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    I want to share a verse to all of the strugglers in sin and in their relationship with God. But first i want to send a powerful message, and that is God sent his son to die for us...
    TemptaionWontShakeMe TemptaionWontShakeMe 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 20

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    I am not afraid that I have lost my salvation, I know that I have and yes I am afraid because of that. I gave my life to the Lord in 2008 I had a major encounter with God, I had...
    Coloursearching Coloursearching 22-25 6 Responses Jul 18

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    Everything is crumbling.Found out one of my friends on ep lied and now everyone knows.I'm confused about my relationship.My home life is a mess.I just feel most and broken.Previous...
    MusicLover4Eternity MusicLover4Eternity 13-15, F 19 Responses Jul 18

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    I am Afraid of Rejection. That is a viscous cycle. If you have trust issues, you never allow yourself,to get to the point of rejection. If you never let someone in, they will not...
    Susiedisney Susiedisney 56-60, F 1 Response Jul 17

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    I am going to take the opportunity right now to vent. I am aware that there are many other people going through more stressful things in their lives. And because of that I have a...
    dreamingquietly04 dreamingquietly04 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 17

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    Gabbysam Gabbysam 16-17, F Jul 16

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