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I Am Afraid to Feel

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    How Can I Deal With This?

    For having this silly fear, I lost the chance of having an extremely nice guy by my side... I don't want this to happen anymore. I don't wanna push people away because I'm afraid of getting hurt or disapointed. Or because I don't know what they think about me. I wanna let these...
    moonphasesgirl moonphasesgirl 16-17 1 Response Aug 3, 2012

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    It Hurts

    "When i care all i feel is pain."-Stefan Salvatore, Vampire Diaries This is actually really true for me. Sometimes i care to much for people and get hurt badly in the process. Sometimes i don't care enough and i lose them. Or i care but never got the chance to make it right...
    irishlady98 irishlady98 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 28, 2013

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    Life Story

    I`ve been searching for a group like this one for a while. I often thought I was some sort of special, weird kind, because of the emptiness I felt and continue to feel. I`m 18 years old, an age that should be glorious and wild, at least, that`s what I hear most about it...an...
    gia99 gia99 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 27, 2010

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    I Don't Let Myself Feel

    because i'm afraid of not being in control. i'm afraid of what i might feel if i let myself.
    aloneandintimidating aloneandintimidating 16-18, F 1 Response Aug 15, 2007

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    Self Containment

    It started in grade 5 when i had a crush on a girl. Her name was Lindsay and I think this became a negative experience(I felt like i wanted to run away from the girl, now that i think about it i would call it ashamed) because at the time i had no...
    jonnyvautour jonnyvautour 18-21 1 Response Nov 5, 2008

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    Hello Is Just the Beginning of Goodbye

    My mom married 7 times, I moved 32 times in 36years, all in the same small county.  Widowed twice by age 33. What is the point of being in love, of having wishes, making plans, feeling happy? It all gets ripped away one day. Usually right in the middle of feeling content.If...
    sigh36 sigh36 36-40 1 Response Oct 3, 2008

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    Pain

    I seem to have a wall up around my heart.  I don't let anyone in.  I seem on the outside like a cheerful and easygoing person.  But I'm afraid to feel.  I'm too weak to deal with the hurt that is inside.  Sometimes it wells up in me. ...
    srf4413 srf4413 26-30 Jun 25, 2008

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    Tension

    There is a tightness around my chest and shoulders and hips. I can act, but I can't be, because being, feeling, is feeling this tension, and it scares the crap out of me. it's my fault, I'm mental, I'm doing something wrong, and the main preoccupation -FIX IT. FIX IT FIX IT FIX...
    fiddlyfoodlebird fiddlyfoodlebird 22-25 Nov 12, 2011

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    Related Experiences

    I am afraid of being rejected like I'm afraid of being open about my fetish. It's a terrifying experience when I think I'm gonna be rejected to the point that I won't do certain...
    ILF777 ILF777 18-21, M 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    I am a teenager. A very unknown one, to say the least. My confidence is ten feet under and my self esteem is non existent. Everyday is a struggle and a new opportunity to hate...
    viviandarling viviandarling 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 9

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    Im afraid to talk about how i feel because i feel like its going to come out wrong or if its going to get me into trouble . I do express my feelings at times but im always so...
    savannah0115 savannah0115 13-15, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I feel like I have so much to lose. I keep so many memories locked away and would consider myself a pack rat of good times. I write down things that make me laugh and things that...
    Anticloud Anticloud 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 4

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    I have an intense fear of rejection. I've reached the point where I don't even try to make new friends because I'm afraid if they don't like me then they'll judge me or make fun of...
    CJHall1234 CJHall1234 16-17, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I don't know what's wrong with me lately. I'm having this huge fear of death and nothing seems to bring me joy, the sound of thunder and lightning seems to be sending chills down...
    YoungHeartOldSoul YoungHeartOldSoul 18-21, F Jul 17

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    Ok so about 6 months ago I was living with my mother and I started talking to a guy that I really liked fast forward 2 months and we were friends but I was afraid to make it more...
    loveandotherdrugs8 loveandotherdrugs8 18-21, F 5 Responses 3 days ago

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    I'm scared of my emotions, and I don't know what to do. I try to fight them, to lock them away, or eliminate them, but no matter what I do, no matter how logical I try to be, I can...
    Nix0 Nix0 16-17, M 1 Response Jul 12

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    I crave the deepest connections with others, yet I'm too afraid to let anyone in. I love to socialize, I love to make friends, and I have a boyfriend. But that true connection has...
    laurennhem laurennhem 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 1

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    I just never ever been afraid from dying as it is life as no one stay alive forever, right!. I just saw a lot of funerals in my life and lost a lot in my 35 years as my life been...
    Egyptianguy34 Egyptianguy34 31-35, M 2 Responses Jul 3

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    I have some male friends and honestly I can't be comfortable with them. I feel like they don't like me at all because of my looks and afraid to be paired up with me for fun. I have...
    nbsbgal nbsbgal 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 16

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    I have never truly been able to get close to someone without trying to find any fault i could within them. I found that if i could find those imperfections, it would make it 10...
    shesonlyhappyinthesun shesonlyhappyinthesun 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 16

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    I never get in a real relationship, when was young I was rejected so many times.. And now every time some guy is interested in me I got afraid and stop talk with him, is like when...
    maggiie maggiie 18-21, F 3 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    Yeah I do,I have lots of fears,which I guess relationships tend to magnify more.One of those fears is losing people I'm close to,feeling they'll leave me and I'll be alone again a...
    seeminglypossible seeminglypossible 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 26

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    i'm not depressed. i can laugh, joke, smile. i am happy. so happy with my life. but i feel sad. i have bad dreams sometimes. i often have a dream that my mom dies but in that dream...
    dasosleefi dasosleefi 16-17, F Jul 2

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    It's already happened so many times before. And it feels like it's getting continually worse. Now that my dad's 3 years has been served, so many things have changed... I just don't...
    MyNameMeansLight MyNameMeansLight 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 3

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    My current bout with depression has lasted for ten years. Today is July 25, 2014. On June 25, after feeling pretty bad after work, I sat down and wrote this. If there's one...
    UnderEli UnderEli 41-45, M 3 hrs ago

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    cuz i don't have feelings!! i can't feel love and i can't even cry but i cry when i'm extremely hurt by someone!! i'm just afraid that i'll always be single... even if i would...
    mahdiraza mahdiraza 16-17, M 5 Responses Jun 28

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    I'm afraid it won't work. I'm in love with this one girl. I truly love her. She's everything. But, she wants to be a vet. I'd be okay with it except how she wants to become one. I...
    white701 white701 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 10

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    Everything around me is falling apart...we all live in fear...When you live In a war zone everything else looks insignificant ...I live in iraq...I have watched so many people die...
    ffdp84 ffdp84 26-30, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I don't hate my life, don't have much to complain about, and always have something to smile about, but from stories I have heard and from my own experiences Life seems to make us...
    Steffi627 Steffi627 18-21, F 16 hrs ago

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    I separated from my husband 3 years ago. It was a really messed up relationship and he cheated time after time. I became more and more insecure as time went on. Eventually I found...
    ThatsSuze ThatsSuze 22-25 Jul 7

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    I'm in my mid-30s. I know that isn't old in the grand scheme of things, but I'm getting somewhat nervous that I haven't had any children yet. I'm not married, but dating. The...
    Sdg9791 Sdg9791 31-35, M 1 Response Jul 10

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    I’m afraid of hurting people. I always hurt someone when people get too close. The only times I can talk to people is by doing street magic or by trying to help them with their...
    l0kar l0kar 16-17, M 1 Response Jul 12

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    I am afraid that my ailing Father maybe dying. I received a shocking phone call from my brother almost 2 months ago. He told me how my Dad was doing since I live so far away from...
    Sara600 Sara600 56-60, F Jul 17

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    I get so worried about this. The few times I've been left alone in my life, I felt so freaked out and unprepared, it's not even okay. How am I going to be an adult if I can't even...
    StokesQuirky StokesQuirky 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    I'm afraid of getting close to others or having a new best friend because my best friend died over a year ago. Not only that, I have had lots of friends who have died. Others, I...
    ninathecat ninathecat 31-35 Jul 18

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    For various reasons: I'm afraid of child birth, I'm afraid of raising them wrong and not being able to care for them properly, and when I'm being honest with myself, sometimes I'm...
    NoYourComstock NoYourComstock 22-25, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I get depressed a lot, and I've learned to just accept the fact that I'm going to be depressed. It still takes it's toll on me, though, and it can get quite painful. It started as...
    BloodMoonWolfbane BloodMoonWolfbane 18-21, F 1 hr ago

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    I am finishing up taking out my first student loan. I am taking out $6,500 through the government and $11,000 through a private loan. This is only for one year. I will not be able...
    nofutureanon nofutureanon 18-21 1 Response Jun 27

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    I'm sorry and I can't help my feelings, but I'm afraid of older men who want to be sexual. I'm scared of anyone over 40 who has previous sexual experience. I've always had issues...
    DarkwingGoslyn DarkwingGoslyn 31-35 Jun 27

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    I think the people on EP who write about the secret things that actually cross their minds are courageous. They aren't afraid to share their truths no matter how unacceptable their...
    truthandbeauty truthandbeauty 36-40, F 3 Responses Jun 28

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    i don't know why. i just feel so scared of annoying people. whenever there is time to think about anything, i start thinking about those people i am currently talking to ( most...
    iamnoor iamnoor 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 28

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    I am afraid of men. It's because my dad used to abuse me, I guess. I want a woman in her 20s to talk to. I feel safest around them. It's about depression.
    marisald marisald 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 30

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    I really like this guy whom I recently met online and I think I really like him but I am so afraid to tell him because I know he doesn't feel the same and there's a small age gap.
    Kaylaana Kaylaana 13-15, F Jul 3

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    Sooner or later we all die. Regardless of whether or not you believe in life after death or the end of your conscious' existence, it's hard to deny that time goes on. Others will...
    bluearcher96 bluearcher96 16-17, M Jul 5

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    I truly admire those people who can just stand in front of a crowd and be themselves withouth doubts or fear or being afraid if he/she is going to be accepted. Not hiding behind a...
    Blueberrybliss Blueberrybliss 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 8

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    I guess I'm so afraid of the process instead of what happens after. I know everyone does but that doesn't make me feel any better. I just hope when it's my time I'll return to The...
    LikeAPrayer LikeAPrayer 18-21, F Jul 12

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    I have been invited to become an officer in a special honors group at my college, I'm afraid that I might not do well or they might not like me but everyone was so friendly. It's...
    Kaptinkrunch Kaptinkrunch 18-21, M 3 Responses Jul 17

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    So when I'm home alone or taking a walk in the dark outside, I'm always afraid of being kidnapped or raped for some reason, and people who are aware of it happening to men too, don...
    thedaydreamer1020 thedaydreamer1020 26-30, F 4 days ago