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I Am Afraid to Feel

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 55 People

    How Can I Deal With This?

    For having this silly fear, I lost the chance of having an extremely nice guy by my side... I don't want this to happen anymore. I don't wanna push people away because I'm afraid of getting hurt or disapointed. Or because I don't know what they think about me. I wanna let these...
    moonphasesgirl moonphasesgirl 16-17 1 Response Aug 3, 2012

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    It Hurts

    "When i care all i feel is pain."-Stefan Salvatore, Vampire Diaries This is actually really true for me. Sometimes i care to much for people and get hurt badly in the process. Sometimes i don't care enough and i lose them. Or i care but never got the chance to make it right...
    irishlady98 irishlady98 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 28, 2013

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    Self Containment

    It started in grade 5 when i had a crush on a girl. Her name was Lindsay and I think this became a negative experience(I felt like i wanted to run away from the girl, now that i think about it i would call it ashamed) because at the time i had no...
    jonnyvautour jonnyvautour 18-21 1 Response Nov 5, 2008

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    Pain

    I seem to have a wall up around my heart.  I don't let anyone in.  I seem on the outside like a cheerful and easygoing person.  But I'm afraid to feel.  I'm too weak to deal with the hurt that is inside.  Sometimes it wells up in me. ...
    srf4413 srf4413 26-30 Jun 25, 2008

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    Life Story

    I`ve been searching for a group like this one for a while. I often thought I was some sort of special, weird kind, because of the emptiness I felt and continue to feel. I`m 18 years old, an age that should be glorious and wild, at least, that`s what I hear most about it...an...
    gia99 gia99 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 27, 2010

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    Tension

    There is a tightness around my chest and shoulders and hips. I can act, but I can't be, because being, feeling, is feeling this tension, and it scares the crap out of me. it's my fault, I'm mental, I'm doing something wrong, and the main preoccupation -FIX IT. FIX IT FIX IT FIX...
    fiddlyfoodlebird fiddlyfoodlebird 22-25 Nov 12, 2011

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    Hello Is Just the Beginning of Goodbye

    My mom married 7 times, I moved 32 times in 36years, all in the same small county.  Widowed twice by age 33. What is the point of being in love, of having wishes, making plans, feeling happy? It all gets ripped away one day. Usually right in the middle of feeling content.If...
    sigh36 sigh36 36-40 1 Response Oct 3, 2008

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    I Don't Let Myself Feel

    because i'm afraid of not being in control. i'm afraid of what i might feel if i let myself.
    aloneandintimidating aloneandintimidating 16-18, F 1 Response Aug 15, 2007

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    Afraid I'm afraid to write the words that i feel because of the grip that they have on my soul. Afraid to know that what and who I love is the wrong thing. Afraid of losing my...
    taurusboi23 taurusboi23 22-25, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I've always felt afraid to let people get close to me both physically and emotionally. I think this is why I have never dated someone or I get choked up when someone asks me on a...
    LilFA LilFA 18-21, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I'm very much afraid of guys/men and I want to overcome this fear and avoidance. I can never remember not having this anxiety. From even before being enrolled in my first year of...
    2openmind 2openmind 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    I used to think i was afraid of love completely, i thought i was afraid because i didn't think i would be loved back but i'm afraid of love, because i'm afraid of getting hurt. I'm...
    SheAlwaysBelieved SheAlwaysBelieved 18-21, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I haven't had a girlfriend since I was in the 7th grade and I only went out with her for 2 weeks and we never talked anyway. I feel like im almost afraid of women that im attracted...
    green555f green555f 22-25, M 12 Responses Oct 27

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    I wish i could be able to explain what i feel... i wish i could show that i feel so much...those little simple things ..which others doesn't found worth noticing.. but they hit...
    happyhuman1 happyhuman1 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 2

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    I'm scared to have sex. Sure I've done some stuff, but I've never had sex. Never have let it go all the way through. I'm freaked out about it. I'm 21 and I'm scared. I'm scared to...
    LionPrincess03 LionPrincess03 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 9

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    I am. I am often afraid to really speak about how things make me feel. Or just to speak my mind. I don't know. Even now. It's something I developed in or rather after high school...
    UselessNobody UselessNobody 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 16

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    I am an immigrant. I'd like to say it doesn't define me but in reality it does. I've always been very ashamed of myself. I always tried to be invisible to the world. I felt like...
    yayami yayami 22-25, F Oct 29

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    A short snippet of how I feel inside. This is in no way me expressing suicide, or anything dark. Just a few feelings - "attempted" creative writing helps me to release negative...
    snowbean snowbean 22-25, F Nov 2

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    I joined Experience Project because - well for a whole swirling storm of reasons, but the common thread is - I have never really felt able to SHARE what's going on inside me. 1...
    elevating elevating 36-40, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I feel so isolated, like I have people around me, but I don't feel like I can talk to any of them. In the past I haven't been very open with people; I have been trying to be open...
    Shi723 Shi723 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 11

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    I'm afraid of the truth so live my life in the dark. I don't find answers to questions. I just dwell on them and think of the what ifs. I'm afraid that if I find out what's real...
    bhabhablacksheep bhabhablacksheep 22-25, F 3 days ago

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    I'm afraid of love cuz i don't wanna get hurt... i don't wanna lose the one i love... it hurts when you love someone so much and they just don't feel the same, they fall out of...
    lovebug19980 lovebug19980 18-21, F Oct 27

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    I have a decent job...a decent family...a couple of close friends. I do not have to worry about having enough to eat, or a roof over my head or clothes to wear, but somehow...
    Zyberlinker Zyberlinker 22-25, M 2 Responses Nov 13

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    I have almost everything I have ever wanted. I have awsom hobbies, finomanal friends.but what I won't most of all is to share my life with someone. I have been let down, in an...
    blindlove91 blindlove91 22-25, M 1 Response a week ago

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    Here's why I give up on people: I walk away because I cannot stand the thought of believing whatever he says and letting myself feel vulnerable around him, only to later feel like...
    SuperWomanFly SuperWomanFly 22-25, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I'm going though a separation with my wife right now. We're still in contact with one another, but she's been telling me about how much she enjoys being alone. I, on the other hand...
    aimless1too aimless1too 31-35, M Nov 1

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    I feel like a burden on everyone I know. I'm depressed and alone and sad and no one understands because everyday at school I'm this bubbly happy smiling girl that's hiding behind a...
    Depressedgirl29 Depressedgirl29 13-15, F 3 Responses Nov 1

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    There is nothing so beautiful to me as a soul that isn't afraid to truly express what they're feeling. Be it ecstatic, nerve-lighting joy or the deep and tragic sorrow of being a...
    lastleafoffall lastleafoffall 26-30, F 3 Responses Nov 8

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    There's a lot more to be afraid of, in this world filled with evil.I don't fear much,Cancer took a shot at me last year and I'm now Cancer free.If I die,I die and when I do...
    bigbustluver bigbustluver 41-45, M Nov 19

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    I'm afraid to fall in love because of my trust issues. When I love. I love hard. I make you the center of my world. I am known to be the type of girl that isn't clingy, but I do...
    Solrentia Solrentia 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Not really. I'm more afraid of being the one giving the rejection. Happens often. And I don't like hurting people's feelings...but can't help it.
    sugarcakes143 sugarcakes143 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 30

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    Why do we let fear control so much of our lives? What is it that makes us hold back or pull back, specially when it comes to something we desire deeply? Are we afraid of being...
    diablesse34 diablesse34 46-50, F 13 Responses Nov 8

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    There's a saying that reads"all I want is a hand to hold and a heart to understand". I never really understood what that meant. But now that I do. Its true. That's all what WE all...
    RaindropsOnRoses22 RaindropsOnRoses22 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 9

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    Im not afraid but the concept is there. Im 16 and ive never had a gf. Im starting to feel the jealousy. Lol
    CooperJames01 CooperJames01 16-17, M 3 Responses Nov 9

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    "No one can ever love the person you are all they truly want is your money." Thank you mom...once you said that it made me realize what a worthless person I am. But then again no...
    SwanNual SwanNual 22-25, F 4 Responses Nov 10

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    I am not afraid of snakes, in fact I love them. I love the feel of their cool bodies against my skin, I love their strength. I once went out with someone that had the same passion...
    holgado holgado 31-35, F 3 Responses Nov 16

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    It's always there in the back of my mind..It's a pretty big fear of mine.Once I get close to someone I'm always afraid they're going to leave,sometimes in the beginning of me...
    seeminglypossible seeminglypossible 22-25, F 5 Responses Nov 16

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    There's something odd about being 22. It's a year where you've reached a social maturity, having passed the legal age of 21. By now, you and your friends reach a mutual...
    RoxannaM RoxannaM 22-25, F Nov 17

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    These few days I start to feel insecure and afraid of death. I imagine what if I got a deadly decease and I couldn't survive on it. The thoughts are wrong but they are killing me...
    meandmythought meandmythought 26-30, F Nov 19

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    im always afraid to lose someone I love , I wonder if anyones afraid to lose me ? :(
    belllla belllla 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 27

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    I've always been afraid of losing people i love. Sometimes i wonder, is there anyone out there afraid to lose me?
    LoveHadassah LoveHadassah 18-21, F Oct 28

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    A little set up for you: I'm a 19 year old girl. Portuguese. Lived in England most of my life. Born in SA. Confident in my appearance. I write. I draw (at university, so it's legit...
    exulansis exulansis 18-21, F Nov 3

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    im not afraid of rejection rather i expect it. it doesn't surprise me when the doors slam in my face weather i need it or want it to stay open. i am afraid more of acceptance...
    TheAnonymous99 TheAnonymous99 18-21, F Nov 12

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    I was raped about 2 months ago I am very scared i am pregnant with his child. he does not have contact with. I would get an abortion but am afraid of the outlook from people, now I...
    taylordevorce taylordevorce 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 12

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    I'm afraid of rejection. I'm afraid that if I tell the one person I want to tell things too, that it will all just completely back fire on me and they won't even want to know me...
    ExPButterfly ExPButterfly 16-17, F 3 Responses Nov 12

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