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I Am Afraid to Feel

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    Tension

    There is a tightness around my chest and shoulders and hips. I can act, but I can't be, because being, feeling, is feeling this tension, and it scares the crap out of me. it's my fault, I'm mental, I'm doing something wrong, and the main preoccupation -FIX IT. FIX IT FIX IT FIX...
    fiddlyfoodlebird fiddlyfoodlebird 22-25 Nov 12, 2011

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    It Hurts

    "When i care all i feel is pain."-Stefan Salvatore, Vampire Diaries This is actually really true for me. Sometimes i care to much for people and get hurt badly in the process. Sometimes i don't care enough and i lose them. Or i care but never got the chance to make it right...
    irishlassy98 irishlassy98 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 28, 2013

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    Life Story

    I`ve been searching for a group like this one for a while. I often thought I was some sort of special, weird kind, because of the emptiness I felt and continue to feel. I`m 18 years old, an age that should be glorious and wild, at least, that`s what I hear most about it...an...
    gia99 gia99 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 27, 2010

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    Pain

    I seem to have a wall up around my heart.  I don't let anyone in.  I seem on the outside like a cheerful and easygoing person.  But I'm afraid to feel.  I'm too weak to deal with the hurt that is inside.  Sometimes it wells up in me. ...
    srf4413 srf4413 26-30 Jun 25, 2008

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    I Don't Let Myself Feel

    because i'm afraid of not being in control. i'm afraid of what i might feel if i let myself.
    aloneandintimidating aloneandintimidating 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 15, 2007

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    Self Containment

    It started in grade 5 when i had a crush on a girl. Her name was Lindsay and I think this became a negative experience(I felt like i wanted to run away from the girl, now that i think about it i would call it ashamed) because at the time i had no...
    jonnyvautour jonnyvautour 18-21 1 Response Nov 5, 2008

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    Hello Is Just the Beginning of Goodbye

    My mom married 7 times, I moved 32 times in 36years, all in the same small county.  Widowed twice by age 33. What is the point of being in love, of having wishes, making plans, feeling happy? It all gets ripped away one day. Usually right in the middle of feeling content.If...
    sigh36 sigh36 36-40 1 Response Oct 3, 2008

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    How Can I Deal With This?

    For having this silly fear, I lost the chance of having an extremely nice guy by my side... I don't want this to happen anymore. I don't wanna push people away because I'm afraid of getting hurt or disapointed. Or because I don't know what they think about me. I wanna let these...
    moonphasesgirl moonphasesgirl 16-17 1 Response Aug 3, 2012

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    No one should be afraid of this. Everyone is different and i have met so many people who couldn't be more different to one another..
    SubmissiveKitty09 SubmissiveKitty09 18-21, F 5 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    "I could never be that good." We hear this phrase sometimes... probably have even said it about ourselves in certain situations. Emotions get us in trouble sometimes, don't they...
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    I just snapped at my cat. He doesn't deserve that, and I feel like **** for doing so. It hurts his feelings. Since I can't walk I don't have enough food for both of them. And...
    YokoOnosVision YokoOnosVision 36-40, M 11 hrs ago

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    Other than sometimes wearing lace and satin panties, I don't CD. But, I DO enjoy feeling very feminine at times. I'll smile bc it's hidden inside me, while I do the whole straight...
    CallMeSal CallMeSal 51-55, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I just today stopped talking to him definitely, I'm so sorry things didnt work out for us 😔😔 it was meant to be , supposed to me. It still breaks my heart a little now to...
    sweeter944 sweeter944 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    assuming they are not narrow-minded. in fact i admire all sorts of people, i envy their beautiful qualities. what i don't like though, is fear, and i say this because i experience...
    surfaceme surfaceme 70+ 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I used to be afraid to talk about what I feel and how I feel about my sexuality. Not so much anymore. It isnt healthy to not discuss your sexuality.
    kbrasswell kbrasswell 13-15, F 8 Responses 1 day ago

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    I hate sitting alone at lunch everyday and I can't just go sit somewhere randomly or ask someone because I'm afraid to and I have social anxiety anyways. I'm so tired of people...
    FrozenBlueberries FrozenBlueberries 16-17, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Ever since I was young, school had always been extremely hard for me. I've lived all over Arizona, and changed school districts at least 8 times up until 8th grade. Middle school...
    NinaPants97 NinaPants97 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I hate that I fall for someone so quickly... I've never been in love but this man that I'm dating now I think it's real && I think that I'm falling for him... Of course I'm afraid...
    NaturallyRomantic NaturallyRomantic 22-25, F 1 day ago

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    I don't know why I do this, but I do. Maybe I'm afraid of coming across as weak and either being seen as disgusting or a target for people who like taking advantage of others. What...
    SqueezeTheLemon SqueezeTheLemon 22-25, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    When my husband abandon me I felt so alone..when my son come to my world..it changes..but he is growing now..again I feel afraid I'll alone
    chapa2016 chapa2016 26-30, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    I volunteer I'm a shelter for battered women and children. last Wednesday evening a mother came in very badly beaten and with what turned out to be a broken arm. She had a 9 year...
    g4it g4it 22-25, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I keep my heart closed off to people usually. They can always have a part of me, but rarely do they get all of me. I've been shown too many times that it's easy for people just to...
    kk1874 kk1874 31-35, F 4 days ago

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    I am afraid of sharing my feelings around me. Maybe thats why i am ignored all the time. Maybe i am secretive or that my smile is a lie. Is just a mask. I don't wanna be a burden...
    Potchii Potchii 22-25, M 5 days ago

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    I find it difficult to be close to anybody.. To make or keep friends, "loving" my family, sometimes I even feel my intimacy issues with my dog, who I am trying to form emotions for...
    LilVixen17 LilVixen17 16-17, F 5 Responses 5 days ago

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    I'm afraid to like. I'm afraid to love. I'm a complicated person and I can get attached. I don't like the feeling that you'll be here one minute but may be gone the next. Let's...
    kllyklls kllyklls 16-17, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Except I already have. The best friends I managed to keep throughout high school and some college...they are all gone. Of course, I blame no one but myself. I had a best friend in...
    DremeJolie DremeJolie 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I am a licensed educator who was never able to find a teaching job. I tried different things in my life but I have always wanted to teach kindergarten. I am afraid that because of...
    ahughes27 ahughes27 26-30, F 6 days ago

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    My 18th birthday is coming up in a couple of weeks and I'm starting to dread it. Why do people make such a big deal out of it, other than the fact that it's the majority age? I've...
    Imbolcumbra Imbolcumbra 16-17, M 6 days ago

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    I'm 26 yrs and 5'8 most people think that's tall for a woman but I'm a woman who's been overweight her whole life. I grew up tomboyish I had no female role model to look up to so...
    Freakydreams89 Freakydreams89 26-30, F Jan 28

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    My wife's brother died yesterday. A tragic life. High school football star, "A" student, hansome. bright future. Drafted in 1969 and after basic training sent to Vietnam, given a...
    hancockian hancockian 66-70, M 5 Responses Jan 28

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    I seem to always be preoccupied with her and all these feelings I have for her. Yes I am married, for almost fifty years now but this goes beyond that. Yes I am alot older but age...
    boldtimer boldtimer 66-70, M Jan 28

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    Jesus is the reason i live and don't break everyday, yet i am afraid and have trouble trusting him that everything will be alright. i have NF. it sucks and it is genetic. I'm the...
    carapisciotta carapisciotta 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 28

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    I am 34, never had a boyfriend, and I am afraid I'm going to be single forever. If by 34 I have never had a boyfriend, there must be something wrong with me. Guys just don't like...
    AMIAROM AMIAROM 31-35, F 20 Responses Jan 27

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    Look, I'm not some sugar that just makes you feel better and make things soft. I'm as hard as a rock when I told the truth. If somebody wants the truth, I rather be as hard as a...
    ChubbyChick411 ChubbyChick411 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 26

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    i cant tell why and the anxiety is driving me to distraction. something is coming. something i cant stop. something i cant fight. something i cant run from. something that will...
    ArnoldJRimmer ArnoldJRimmer 46-50, M Jan 24

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    That's the story of my life. Just when i feel i am getting attached to someone. There they go far, far away. I keep searching for them, until i get tired of the tears and the pains...
    uniqueguy91 uniqueguy91 22-25, M 2 Responses Jan 24

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    Feels like I'm starting a new painting the canvass is all clear but it's too big the size of wall. I have no idea what should I paint, I have no paint brush, nor paint, I only have...
    myleslus myleslus 22-25, F Jan 22

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    I think I am alone.. I don't have friends, I'm too shy to make any. I try to and even then I can never get words to come out of my mouth. When I do manage to talk to people I can...
    bubblesandcakes bubblesandcakes 18-21, T 3 Responses Jan 22

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    I was sexually assaulted by my roommate. He still lives here. I try to pretend that nothing has happened. But I get these episodes of uncontrollable sobbing. Just little things set...
    honeygirl432 honeygirl432 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 22

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