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I Am Afraid to Feel

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    Life Story

    I`ve been searching for a group like this one for a while. I often thought I was some sort of special, weird kind, because of the emptiness I felt and continue to feel. I`m 18 years old, an age that should be glorious and wild, at least, that`s what I hear most about it...an...
    gia99 gia99 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 27, 2010

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    It Hurts

    "When i care all i feel is pain."-Stefan Salvatore, Vampire Diaries This is actually really true for me. Sometimes i care to much for people and get hurt badly in the process. Sometimes i don't care enough and i lose them. Or i care but never got the chance to make it right...
    irishlassy98 irishlassy98 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 28, 2013

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    How Can I Deal With This?

    For having this silly fear, I lost the chance of having an extremely nice guy by my side... I don't want this to happen anymore. I don't wanna push people away because I'm afraid of getting hurt or disapointed. Or because I don't know what they think about me. I wanna let these...
    moonphasesgirl moonphasesgirl 16-17 1 Response Aug 3, 2012

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    I Don't Let Myself Feel

    because i'm afraid of not being in control. i'm afraid of what i might feel if i let myself.
    aloneandintimidating aloneandintimidating 16-18, F 1 Response Aug 15, 2007

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    Pain

    I seem to have a wall up around my heart.  I don't let anyone in.  I seem on the outside like a cheerful and easygoing person.  But I'm afraid to feel.  I'm too weak to deal with the hurt that is inside.  Sometimes it wells up in me. ...
    srf4413 srf4413 26-30 Jun 25, 2008

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    Hello Is Just the Beginning of Goodbye

    My mom married 7 times, I moved 32 times in 36years, all in the same small county.  Widowed twice by age 33. What is the point of being in love, of having wishes, making plans, feeling happy? It all gets ripped away one day. Usually right in the middle of feeling content.If...
    sigh36 sigh36 36-40 1 Response Oct 3, 2008

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    Tension

    There is a tightness around my chest and shoulders and hips. I can act, but I can't be, because being, feeling, is feeling this tension, and it scares the crap out of me. it's my fault, I'm mental, I'm doing something wrong, and the main preoccupation -FIX IT. FIX IT FIX IT FIX...
    fiddlyfoodlebird fiddlyfoodlebird 22-25 Nov 12, 2011

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    Self Containment

    It started in grade 5 when i had a crush on a girl. Her name was Lindsay and I think this became a negative experience(I felt like i wanted to run away from the girl, now that i think about it i would call it ashamed) because at the time i had no...
    jonnyvautour jonnyvautour 18-21 1 Response Nov 5, 2008

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    My ex beat my on multiple occasions over nothing. He has his issues but I really don't care to explain away his behaviors anymore. All I know is that he brutalized me, over and...
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    They made me deem that I should not have feelings such as annoyance, resentment, depression, or anxiety. They suppose I should always be rational and in control of my emotions. I...
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    In July of 2014 I moved to Georgia from San Diego California. In San Diego I also battled depression issues but at least I was surrounded by my Aunts, Uncles, Grandparents,cousins...
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    At times I experience an episode of depression, and I always overthink, especially after I had to meet people and socialize and stuff. I am afraid of people and what they think...
    24moonlight 24moonlight 16-17, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    Not that I am afraid but rather I know someone who is afraid of getting close to me. We met online and right from the start we connected. We had a great time chatting online and...
    freestyler605 freestyler605 22-25, M Jan 3

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    I am only a teenager so this might sound crazy, but this is one of my biggest fears. im afraid that when im old i wont be loved and ill regret my life. i wanna live a happy and fun...
    Lostinthoughtandimissu Lostinthoughtandimissu 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    My fiance wants to marry me but i am afraid it'll be a mistake we have to beautiful children together but he's a struggling addict that falls back more than he steps forward. I...
    tolongalone tolongalone 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 8

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    For a little over a year now I have had feelings for my friend, but now what I was afraid would happen is happening-I'm falling in love with her. I had a strong crush on her so I...
    gardengirl17 gardengirl17 22-25, F Jan 8

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    My wife said she wasn't my wife, but just the mother to my children to me eight years ago. I tried everything to deal with it. I tried everything to fix our marriage and was...
    Wind4Walker Wind4Walker 41-45, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I'm not afraid to tell my family I'm bisexual. I'm only afraid to tell my mom and her side of the family. My dad and his side of the family will be okay with it and will always...
    BrittanySue96 BrittanySue96 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 27, 2014

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    Afraid and afraid, I don't know about that. I guess I sort of feel inadequate for a relationship at the moment. Honestly don't have a lot to offer as far as security goes. I'm low...
    Vumsy Vumsy 22-25, M 1 Response Dec 29, 2014

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    it's coming to the end of 2014.... in fact the last day is today. it kind of made me realize how little close friends I have... and the sad part is that these close friends don't...
    kellyadele kellyadele 13-15, F Dec 31, 2014

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    This is me unfortunately "Weak" No more love to purchase, I've invested in myself You know nothing about me, keep opinions to yourself No more complications, everything's just...
    idleheart idleheart 31-35, M Jan 2

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    For two years I've been nothing but hurt by people. I've lost the last person in my life because I couldn't let him in. It's not that I'm afraid, I'm not afraid of anything. I just...
    StrandedandAlonr StrandedandAlonr 16-17, M 1 Response Jan 4

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    Couldnt find a suitable headline for this, so this will do i think. My problem is that i am a bit shy, not because im afraid of people, but im afraid of people rejecting me...
    mannenspeci mannenspeci 22-25, M Jan 5

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    I should clarify. I'm a hypochondriac, but I'm not a coward. I might be afraid of the fictitious diseases in my own brain, but I'm not scared of pushing you out of the way of an...
    bluemountains36 bluemountains36 36-40, M 1 Response Jan 17

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    In my past relationships I was always cheated on. And it took me a while to recover and gain strength back. Eventually I fell in love with a close friend of mine. I bottled up my...
    mihochancullen mihochancullen 18-21, F 8 Responses Jan 2

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    Sometimes these feelings are so beautiful - even when they're seemingly not. I try to search for beautiful things and beautiful people all the time - to me they express love, and...
    Nakedness8 Nakedness8 41-45, M 2 Responses Jan 7

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    Have you ever had someone or something fill you up so much that everything inside you expands? your heart, your hopes, your dreams, your ability to breathe...everything expands to...
    searchingfar searchingfar 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 7

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    As a child and now as an adult, I openly share my feelings about myself. I am not afraid of what I say. If those who do not like what I have to say, they can just move on. I am...
    mominlingerie mominlingerie 36-40, F 1 day ago

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    I am 20 years old and I feel so caged. Tonight I was approached by both my cousins and friends to go out party and have a good time. But my mother just gave both offers a flat NO...
    WhoAmI77 WhoAmI77 18-21, F Dec 27, 2014

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    It's those who seem wonderful that are the ones who will screw you over. I might have some pretty terrible, rude, and obnoxious friends, but at least I know their worsts. Pretenses...
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 30, 2014

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    There's a few things I hate, and one thing I hate is when someone tries to hide things from me especially when it's my husband. We were taking a nap, and I felt my husband wake...
    Mystery08 Mystery08 22-25, F Jan 2

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    I hate school so much... And when you have Emetophobia, it gets worse for you. I have never puked at school before, but I did have some close calls in the past. Once in...
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    I am afraid of failure at whatever I do. I guess I feel like I have something to prove to all the people who doubt my abilities and because of that I want to succeed at everything...
    mattywheels25 mattywheels25 26-30, M 2 Responses Jan 11

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    So there is this guy I like, we have started dating. I think he likes me too, but i always think what he's getting out of it. Im afraid that I will start to like him to much. The...
    heybro1 heybro1 18-21, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I am not afraid of dying, due to being suicidal in the past. I am not afraid of sadness because of depression. I am not afraid of being alone because I'm a loner. I'm not afraid to...
    tormentedinternally tormentedinternally 26-30, M 15 hrs ago

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    This may be a slight tangent to the norm, but I am afraid of rejection, just not what one might normally consider when they think of this topic. I am deathly afraid of being...
    anna0593 anna0593 18-21, F Dec 26, 2014

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    I'm so afraid of people getting close to me. I mean I want it but I'm kind of afraid, because once I have that bonding with someone or even relationship and it's gone or they leave...
    t3rriv t3rriv 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 29, 2014

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    I am afraid of many things in life. I am afraid of failure/success. I am afraid of being loved. I am getting better at learning to be loved. I am not sure what I am doing to make...
    socialskillstraining socialskillstraining 31-35, M Dec 30, 2014

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    I'm afraid to grow up. I'm scared everything will fall. I'm terrified that I'll end up poor and become a failure. I'm afraid I'll be in debt my whole life. I barely even know what...
    HannahMarieX HannahMarieX 18-21 Jan 10

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    people tell me I'm afraid of love but honestly I don't really think I am I just think it's a really big word with a hell lot of meaning and it comes with risks and it's just not my...
    sadmistak3 sadmistak3 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 4

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    I've never been okay with the dark. I run from light source to light source. I always feel watched from closets and doorways. I don't trust that I'm alone. No matter what happens...
    TheHalfMadWriter TheHalfMadWriter 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 4

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