I Am Afraid to Feel

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 60 People

    Life Story

    I`ve been searching for a group like this one for a while. I often thought I was some sort of special, weird kind, because of the emptiness I felt and continue to feel. I`m 18 years old, an age that should be glorious and wild, at least, that`s what I hear most about it...an...
    gia99 gia99
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Feb 27, 2010

    Tension

    There is a tightness around my chest and shoulders and hips. I can act, but I can't be, because being, feeling, is feeling this tension, and it scares the crap out of me. it's my fault, I'm mental, I'm doing something wrong, and the main preoccupation -FIX IT. FIX IT FIX IT FIX...
    fiddlyfoodlebird fiddlyfoodlebird
    22-25
    Nov 12, 2011

    It Hurts

    "When i care all i feel is pain."-Stefan Salvatore, Vampire Diaries This is actually really true for me. Sometimes i care to much for people and get hurt badly in the process. Sometimes i don't care enough and i lose them. Or i care but never got the chance to make it right...
    irishlassy98 irishlassy98
    16-17, F
    1 Response Oct 28, 2013

    How Can I Deal With This?

    For having this silly fear, I lost the chance of having an extremely nice guy by my side... I don't want this to happen anymore. I don't wanna push people away because I'm afraid of getting hurt or disapointed. Or because I don't know what they think about me. I wanna let these...
    moonphasesgirl moonphasesgirl
    16-17
    1 Response Aug 3, 2012

    I Don't Let Myself Feel

    because i'm afraid of not being in control. i'm afraid of what i might feel if i let myself.
    aloneandintimidating aloneandintimidating
    16-17, F
    1 Response Aug 15, 2007

    Pain

    I seem to have a wall up around my heart.  I don't let anyone in.  I seem on the outside like a cheerful and easygoing person.  But I'm afraid to feel.  I'm too weak to deal with the hurt that is inside.  Sometimes it wells up in me. ...
    srf4413 srf4413
    26-30
    Jun 25, 2008

    Hello Is Just the Beginning of Goodbye

    My mom married 7 times, I moved 32 times in 36years, all in the same small county.  Widowed twice by age 33. What is the point of being in love, of having wishes, making plans, feeling happy? It all gets ripped away one day. Usually right in the middle of feeling content.If...
    sigh36 sigh36
    36-40
    1 Response Oct 3, 2008

    Self Containment

    It started in grade 5 when i had a crush on a girl. Her name was Lindsay and I think this became a negative experience(I felt like i wanted to run away from the girl, now that i think about it i would call it ashamed) because at the time i had no...
    jonnyvautour jonnyvautour
    18-21
    1 Response Nov 5, 2008

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