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I Am Afraid to Feel

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 55 People

    Self Containment

    It started in grade 5 when i had a crush on a girl. Her name was Lindsay and I think this became a negative experience(I felt like i wanted to run away from the girl, now that i think about it i would call it ashamed) because at the time i had no...
    jonnyvautour jonnyvautour 18-21 1 Response Nov 5, 2008

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    Tension

    There is a tightness around my chest and shoulders and hips. I can act, but I can't be, because being, feeling, is feeling this tension, and it scares the crap out of me. it's my fault, I'm mental, I'm doing something wrong, and the main preoccupation -FIX IT. FIX IT FIX IT FIX...
    fiddlyfoodlebird fiddlyfoodlebird 22-25 Nov 12, 2011

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    I Don't Let Myself Feel

    because i'm afraid of not being in control. i'm afraid of what i might feel if i let myself.
    aloneandintimidating aloneandintimidating 16-18, F 1 Response Aug 15, 2007

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    Hello Is Just the Beginning of Goodbye

    My mom married 7 times, I moved 32 times in 36years, all in the same small county.  Widowed twice by age 33. What is the point of being in love, of having wishes, making plans, feeling happy? It all gets ripped away one day. Usually right in the middle of feeling content.If...
    sigh36 sigh36 36-40 1 Response Oct 3, 2008

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    How Can I Deal With This?

    For having this silly fear, I lost the chance of having an extremely nice guy by my side... I don't want this to happen anymore. I don't wanna push people away because I'm afraid of getting hurt or disapointed. Or because I don't know what they think about me. I wanna let these...
    moonphasesgirl moonphasesgirl 16-17 1 Response Aug 3, 2012

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    It Hurts

    "When i care all i feel is pain."-Stefan Salvatore, Vampire Diaries This is actually really true for me. Sometimes i care to much for people and get hurt badly in the process. Sometimes i don't care enough and i lose them. Or i care but never got the chance to make it right...
    irishlady98 irishlady98 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 28, 2013

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    Pain

    I seem to have a wall up around my heart.  I don't let anyone in.  I seem on the outside like a cheerful and easygoing person.  But I'm afraid to feel.  I'm too weak to deal with the hurt that is inside.  Sometimes it wells up in me. ...
    srf4413 srf4413 26-30 Jun 25, 2008

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    Life Story

    I`ve been searching for a group like this one for a while. I often thought I was some sort of special, weird kind, because of the emptiness I felt and continue to feel. I`m 18 years old, an age that should be glorious and wild, at least, that`s what I hear most about it...an...
    gia99 gia99 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 27, 2010

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    Related Experiences

    Ahead: Stupid rant My freshman year of high school, I met one girl and pretty much stuck to her side until I made my own friends, which were basically everyone she was friends...
    graveyardghosty graveyardghosty 18-21, F 5 hrs ago

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    i am afraid of rejection thats why i put up with everything you say ... just so i wouldn't end up alone ... no matter how unfair and stupid your demands are i put up with them...
    curiousmoi curiousmoi 18-21, F 5 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    You ever have that feeling when I really like someone but you don't know if they feel the same and u start thinking they don't
    Beatf3 Beatf3 13-15, F 5 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    People who I let get close to me either hurt me, or I hurt them. It's all I've known. Any good, I'm afraid of because it's abnormal for me.
    Philli8807 Philli8807 22-25, F 17 hrs ago

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    I am Very afraid of being rejected. You would think as often as I have been rejected though that it would be an easy thing to get over now. It is not. When I want to be with...
    Raptax231 Raptax231 18-21, M 1 Response 10 hrs ago

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    I break up with ppl b4 they do cuz am afraid of rejection .. I can't handle it
    farnoush farnoush 26-30, F 2 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    I don't like snakes but I'm not afraid of them. I'm terrified of spiders. I'll go up against a snake any day over a spider.
    gotzdem gotzdem 22-25, F 6 hrs ago

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    It's pretty sad when you're not afraid of rejection because you're so used to it...
    cwebb1221 cwebb1221 13-15, F 5 Responses 15 mins ago

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    I am not afraid to let go. I am not afraid to cut negative people out of my life. I am not afraid to love myself because you failed to do so. But I am afraid of never feeling the...
    brokenhearted7108 brokenhearted7108 31-35, F Aug 26

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    Usually people who are afraid of falling in love are those who were left down by their boy/girlfriend. I'm this kind of persons who broke up in a relationship. I had 4 relationship...
    otoumie otoumie 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    All the "friends" I have are locked up in a mind set that was set before them by their parents, religion, television, and sex appeal. They wouldn't dare hit their parents if they...
    LeonardFinch LeonardFinch 16-17, M Aug 20

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    I have a date on Saturday. The guy's cute and nice and whatever I guess, but I am so afraid. He's pretty muscular because of basic training and I don't know why but when guys are...
    sarcasm4427 sarcasm4427 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 3

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    So it's been a while since I've been here, it's almost the end of summer, and that means it's time to look back and reminisce. I've again stumbled upon something that has been...
    Zoey09 Zoey09 16-17, F Aug 24

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    I'm not afraid of mirrors I'm afraid of looking into mirrors becuz I know.for fact I'm ugly so when I look in the mirror I feel sad and depressed and ugly and be like...
    ticklon ticklon 16-17, M 1 Response Aug 17

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    My Foster Mother hates me... I work at a bank... She demands $550 of rent money from me, yet uses it to pay her boyfriend to drug me... One night, I have her $200 in rent money...
    HUMAN2BME HUMAN2BME 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 25

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    I am afraid of showing my true self to the world... I sincerely show my feeling to my friends but.. I am afraid of being me.. I don't hate me but I'm afraid other people would hate...
    hooncaramello hooncaramello 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 27

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    (I named my journal Sam. and this is one from one of his pages written January 18, 2014 at 4:20 in the afternoon) Title: Flirting Thoughts in the Coldness of the Day Hello. How...
    nenen357 nenen357 31-35, F Aug 31

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    I'm feeling sad, guilty, lonely, bored, alone, don't know what to do with myself. About a month ago, my now ex boyfriend choked me. He choked me to the point where I couldn't...
    AlissaMaeAnn AlissaMaeAnn 26-30, F 4 Responses Aug 18

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    I'm going to explain this as best as I can: So lately, I've been feeling sad and alone. I can't just make it go away. I have tried everything I can think of (like eating really...
    Impuritiii Impuritiii 13-15, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    " my whole life I've been telling myself don't be afraid and it is only now that I am realizing how stupid that is. Don't be afraid is like saying don't move out of the way when...
    rachnixon rachnixon 26-30, F 1 day ago

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    I want to practice self-love, but I am a fig tree - I look tough on the outside, but I am easily overtaken by insects and harsh weather. I have read many different versions of...
    ThQnOfHrts16 ThQnOfHrts16 22-25, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I don't want to say I hate it, and it might just be my interpretation, the world looks strange in my eyes, I try to believe everyone loves me, cus I received lots of bday wishes...
    Mangostrawberrybanana Mangostrawberrybanana 31-35, F 1 Response Aug 16

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    Because of something bad happening to me. There was a time when I trusted everyone, but now I don't trust anyone. It might be, because I have been taken advantage of by women and...
    Sara600 Sara600 56-60, F 2 Responses Aug 22

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    Can you blame me? Father walked out on us when I was 3, I was molested by a relative at 8, bullied from elementary school up until HS. String of intensely close friendships where...
    Lov3intheasylum Lov3intheasylum 31-35, F Aug 28

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    I am afraid of dieing without someone. I am afraid to be tortured. I am afraid of my only family member left dieing. I am afraid I will be stupid. Last but notleast I am afraid of...
    ginny1q1q ginny1q1q 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 29

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    I know why I've been afraid to say it.. I'm afraid to lose him.. Even though I feel like I will never truly have his heart..
    bribri590 bribri590 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 30

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    But really, how much would you charge if you'd been drawing artwork, with at least 18+ years of experience? If you had the skill to draw portraits, cartoon characters, book and...
    ArtofSunrise ArtofSunrise 22-25 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I hate myself. If something goes wrong, I always feel guilty because I feel I didn't do enough. I have so much work that needs to be done and I am struggling to balance everything...
    amyshort amyshort 18-21, F 6 Responses 3 days ago

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    Growing up, many strange things used to happen around me. I'm not sure when I began to notice this.. thing that was following me around. At first it was sounds, shadows, and...
    SubmissiveSecrets SubmissiveSecrets 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I wouldn't say that I'm beautiful or anything but I get compliments very frequently about how pretty some people think I am . but about a year or two ago I went through a very...
    AkuYamine AkuYamine 13-15, F Aug 22

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    I am very afraid of this actually. I feel like I have found love, but it's one sided. If this isn't love I don't know what is? Please don't give me the you're to young speech, I am...
    LoverOfAllSouls LoverOfAllSouls 13-15, F Aug 27

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    It's not that I'm "afraid of rejection" [anymore]. It's more like I dread the thought of the idea. When I do feel rejected, that's when I get stuck in my head with my thoughts. A...
    seakissedjem seakissedjem 26-30, F 7 Responses Aug 28

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    I was in a relationship for four months. A few weeks ago, it all ended. My ex-boyfriend just gave-up on me, lied about being happy with me the last two months, and bitched about a...
    Samaccino Samaccino 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 29

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    My entire life in a seed. Waiting on a day that my little sprouts would begin to pop out but I'm getting older now and nothing is happening. I am so disappointed in life it's hard...
    Kaydeecane Kaydeecane 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 29

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    I am 21 years old while he's 28. I am single, he has a girlfriend. I think they were together for a long time and they already have a plan to marry this 2016. I know this because...
    august01 august01 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 30

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    Christmas day 2013 4:00 am I arrived at the hospital due to an inability to sleep, anxiety, and a side pain. I was told I had an infection and that is was severe. They were going...
    LastofmyKind LastofmyKind 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 31

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    Since I started college I started feeling afraid for my future. Somethimes I think I'll never have a satisfying job, or a family of my own, that I'll be a failure. This thoughts...
    Cutterkarma Cutterkarma 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 19

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    Yep. I'm afraid of rejection. I've been rejected once before and hated the feeling. Most men who've experienced being with someone can easily brush rejection off their shoulder but...
    OdeSlinger OdeSlinger 26-30, M 4 Responses Sep 6

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    I don't really know if I would say afraid...I just feel like it is becoming an inevitability. I am only nineteen years old and I have been steadily gaining around 20-25 a year...
    bellyswell bellyswell 18-21 2 days ago

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    Once i get my hopes togheter it falls apart , i'm afraid to love people i'm afraid to get my hopes togheter again , i'm afraid that i will expect to much
    ActuallyGrace ActuallyGrace 13-15, F Sep 7