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I Am Afraid to Feel

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 63 People

    Self Containment

    It started in grade 5 when i had a crush on a girl. Her name was Lindsay and I think this became a negative experience(I felt like i wanted to run away from the girl, now that i think about it i would call it ashamed) because at the time i had no...
    jonnyvautour jonnyvautour 18-21 1 Response Nov 5, 2008

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    I Don't Let Myself Feel

    because i'm afraid of not being in control. i'm afraid of what i might feel if i let myself.
    aloneandintimidating aloneandintimidating 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 15, 2007

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    Hello Is Just the Beginning of Goodbye

    My mom married 7 times, I moved 32 times in 36years, all in the same small county.  Widowed twice by age 33. What is the point of being in love, of having wishes, making plans, feeling happy? It all gets ripped away one day. Usually right in the middle of feeling content.If...
    sigh36 sigh36 36-40 1 Response Oct 3, 2008

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    How Can I Deal With This?

    For having this silly fear, I lost the chance of having an extremely nice guy by my side... I don't want this to happen anymore. I don't wanna push people away because I'm afraid of getting hurt or disapointed. Or because I don't know what they think about me. I wanna let these...
    moonphasesgirl moonphasesgirl 16-17 1 Response Aug 3, 2012

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    It Hurts

    "When i care all i feel is pain."-Stefan Salvatore, Vampire Diaries This is actually really true for me. Sometimes i care to much for people and get hurt badly in the process. Sometimes i don't care enough and i lose them. Or i care but never got the chance to make it right...
    irishlassy98 irishlassy98 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 28, 2013

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    Pain

    I seem to have a wall up around my heart.  I don't let anyone in.  I seem on the outside like a cheerful and easygoing person.  But I'm afraid to feel.  I'm too weak to deal with the hurt that is inside.  Sometimes it wells up in me. ...
    srf4413 srf4413 26-30 Jun 25, 2008

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    Tension

    There is a tightness around my chest and shoulders and hips. I can act, but I can't be, because being, feeling, is feeling this tension, and it scares the crap out of me. it's my fault, I'm mental, I'm doing something wrong, and the main preoccupation -FIX IT. FIX IT FIX IT FIX...
    fiddlyfoodlebird fiddlyfoodlebird 22-25 Nov 12, 2011

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    Life Story

    I`ve been searching for a group like this one for a while. I often thought I was some sort of special, weird kind, because of the emptiness I felt and continue to feel. I`m 18 years old, an age that should be glorious and wild, at least, that`s what I hear most about it...an...
    gia99 gia99 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 27, 2010

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    Related Experiences

    Hi everyone it's my first time posting something like this up but I've reached the end of the road with how I'm feeling and if it wasn't for my family I probably wouldn't be here...
    PaulGSXR PaulGSXR 26-30, M 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    I sometimes feel so afraid of what to come. Anything, when I drove to gym in the heavy rain, I talked to myself, that was the only way, it's a silly fear no one else could...
    Mangostrawberrybanana Mangostrawberrybanana 31-35, F 4 Responses Mar 30

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    My bf is thinking about at least 3 years studding in an other country and it won't be easy for me to move to that land and he knows it. He and a friend of his wish to go that...
    kristhy kristhy 22-25, F Apr 5

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    Sometimes I look at my sister and I can't believe how different we are. When everyone says we are very similar I can't help to agree and disagree. She's so comfortable with herself...
    Amairany Amairany 16-17, F 4 Responses Mar 25

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    I wish i could be able to explain what i feel... i wish i could show that i feel so much...those little simple things ..which others doesn't found worth noticing.. but they hit...
    tweetysweety1 tweetysweety1 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 8

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    I think my biggest fear is the fear of myself getting sick to my stomach or someone else getting sick. Since I was a little girl I have been terrified of it. Everything about it...
    gardengirl17 gardengirl17 22-25, F 5 days ago

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    Yeah, aren't we all? We are afraid of rejection. It's like it's better to not ask questions if we are afraid of the answers we will get. Envy those who can easily express their...
    RedThatDescribesMe RedThatDescribesMe 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 28

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    I have tons of friends there for me, but I just can't bring myself to talk about anything to them. I wish I wasn't afraid, but every time I try to let something out, every time I...
    narcoed narcoed 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    I honestly don't know what else I can do and say to get the same attention that everybody else gets when they text or call or anything at all. I try to do what I can and I try to...
    jdavid1979 jdavid1979 31-35, M Mar 29

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    I hold back my words and how I feel because I'm afraid. Afraid after all these years together how much have I really told my honest opinion? I always try to tell him what I think I...
    Slackergirl Slackergirl 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 1

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    I was always the one that eats the slowest and my mom never had the patience for me. We were supposed to be going to the beach. Because I ate too slow, I was left behind. The rest...
    YesIAmAsian YesIAmAsian 18-21 1 Response Mar 23

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    The truth is I can't get it out. Mostly I'm afraid you'll take it the wrong way. I know you're fragile too but will never admit to it. Why can't we just talk about it? At what...
    oddnelly oddnelly 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 5

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    i had so much friends but i lost them all. i'm afraid of meeting new people because they will leave to just like everyone else. i'm afraid that i'm gonna lose all the people i...
    catsrule5678 catsrule5678 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 25

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    I am almost 25 years old. I am married and I have a beautiful 5 yr old daughter. My husband is handsome and perfect in almost every way possible. I have a beautiful 4 bedroom house...
    MrsRoker MrsRoker 22-25, F Mar 30

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    I LOVE that you are never afraid to share your feelings. Open communication is what will keep our love blossoming.
    ifoundhim ifoundhim 36-40, F 11 Responses Apr 4

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    Don't get me wrong, I love my dad with all of my heart but he doesn't ever know how I feel and I'm afraid he's gonna yell at me if I do. He always comes in my room and opens my...
    maddie91101 maddie91101 13-15, F 4 Responses Apr 6

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    For a super shy guy like me i really respect people who aren't afraid to share their feeling with the world
    Cubeball Cubeball 18-21, M 3 Responses Apr 9

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    This Saturday I'm supposed to go to a big sex positive party with a few friends. The goal is to get these friends to have a good time and jump start their love lives a bit. The...
    bunnyXbunny bunnyXbunny 26-30, M Apr 10

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    I'm not afraid of being cause I love the way it feels to jiggle wen I walk and feel my body get softer. But I don't want to get super fat to were I can't walk or enjoy being...
    Chubbyhubby230 Chubbyhubby230 31-35, M 2 days ago

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    omg this is so right for me. I hope.you guys will understand. I feel bad because of my.past, my flaws. I don't want to show that I can be self concious. But actually.I want to...
    energymustmove energymustmove 18-21, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    Why should you be afraid? That darkness is a part of you. You should just accept it. To be afraid of it is the same as being afraid of one of your own limbs. we all have darkness...
    KittyBlue3 KittyBlue3 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 2

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    There are so many different things I want to do with life. Want to really be in the fashion field also bar tending but I have this weird way of thinking . I even get job offers but...
    Lolabeautyy Lolabeautyy 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 24

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    I am not afraid to go out and meet new people, on the contrary i am rather confident but because i have been rejected as a child all my life by my family i have that fear that the...
    confusednormalness confusednormalness 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 27

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    I dreamed last night was at a height, open, one wrong move I'd fall..looking down, afraid of heights, thinking.. again as if I had been here before. I looked it up: "Dreaming that...
    justme5079 justme5079 36-40, F 1 Response Mar 31

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    So my names jay, 15 and i have a little issue with someone i like in school. His names darien,16 and i see him everyday during school and i can't stop looking at him for the...
    jayforever jayforever 16-17, M 1 Response Apr 1

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    I stay in relationships that I'm not happy in because I'm afraid I'll end up alone. I cared about him but we didn't click. After 3 months we finally discover that we were both...
    kaco00389 kaco00389 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 2

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    I'm afraid to show a picture of myself because I hate the way I look and I feel like people will judge me
    KidNova45 KidNova45 18-21, M 3 Responses Apr 3

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    I really do love this, however I am terribly afraid to truly express myself.
    pilgzy pilgzy 16-17, F 3 Responses Apr 4

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    I am not afraid of death itself but of the pain I may feel when I die. What scares me even more than the pain is I don't know what comes after death. Heaven? Hell? Paradise...
    LoveIsInTheBlood LoveIsInTheBlood 16-17, F Apr 8

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    Yes! I am way too scared of failure. Have already wasted a whole month in fear. But I felt tired of it!!! I noticed that during this month, I was trying to escape from myself so as...
    Abeer2015 Abeer2015 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 11

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    I am afraid of being rejected, especially when I try to befriend or engage with someone honestly and without ill intent. It's disturbing when people shoot you down before you can...
    1ANGRYtitan 1ANGRYtitan 16-17, M 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    Exspecially in school. I guess I am quite a perfectionist when it comes to homework, tests or just the attitude and reputation. NO!!!! I am not kissing my teachers butt or so. I...
    Julia1600 Julia1600 18-21, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I'm just afraid I will never find someone who truly loves me. I am afraid I will never find someone who doesn't just care about sex and looks. I want someone who I can have deep...
    holdonpainends143 holdonpainends143 18-21, F Mar 19

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    I just did something that I never really thought of doing. This pertains to my very first story on Experience Project, please do use that story for reference. I signed into my...
    ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT 26-30, F Apr 3

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