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I Am Afraid to Feel

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    How Can I Deal With This?

    For having this silly fear, I lost the chance of having an extremely nice guy by my side... I don't want this to happen anymore. I don't wanna push people away because I'm afraid of getting hurt or disapointed. Or because I don't know what they think about me. I wanna let these...
    moonphasesgirl moonphasesgirl 16-17 1 Response Aug 3, 2012

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    Hello Is Just the Beginning of Goodbye

    My mom married 7 times, I moved 32 times in 36years, all in the same small county.  Widowed twice by age 33. What is the point of being in love, of having wishes, making plans, feeling happy? It all gets ripped away one day. Usually right in the middle of feeling content.If...
    sigh36 sigh36 36-40 1 Response Oct 3, 2008

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    Life Story

    I`ve been searching for a group like this one for a while. I often thought I was some sort of special, weird kind, because of the emptiness I felt and continue to feel. I`m 18 years old, an age that should be glorious and wild, at least, that`s what I hear most about it...an...
    gia99 gia99 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 27, 2010

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    It Hurts

    "When i care all i feel is pain."-Stefan Salvatore, Vampire Diaries This is actually really true for me. Sometimes i care to much for people and get hurt badly in the process. Sometimes i don't care enough and i lose them. Or i care but never got the chance to make it right...
    irishlady98 irishlady98 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 28, 2013

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    Tension

    There is a tightness around my chest and shoulders and hips. I can act, but I can't be, because being, feeling, is feeling this tension, and it scares the crap out of me. it's my fault, I'm mental, I'm doing something wrong, and the main preoccupation -FIX IT. FIX IT FIX IT FIX...
    fiddlyfoodlebird fiddlyfoodlebird 22-25 Nov 12, 2011

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    Pain

    I seem to have a wall up around my heart.  I don't let anyone in.  I seem on the outside like a cheerful and easygoing person.  But I'm afraid to feel.  I'm too weak to deal with the hurt that is inside.  Sometimes it wells up in me. ...
    srf4413 srf4413 26-30 Jun 25, 2008

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    Self Containment

    It started in grade 5 when i had a crush on a girl. Her name was Lindsay and I think this became a negative experience(I felt like i wanted to run away from the girl, now that i think about it i would call it ashamed) because at the time i had no...
    jonnyvautour jonnyvautour 18-21 1 Response Nov 5, 2008

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    I Don't Let Myself Feel

    because i'm afraid of not being in control. i'm afraid of what i might feel if i let myself.
    aloneandintimidating aloneandintimidating 16-18, F 1 Response Aug 15, 2007

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    ...but I am. I have not just fallen. It's more like the whole damn cliff just gave way beneath me. Emotional walls that no one else has come close to breaching have absolutely...
    EmeraldDreams12 EmeraldDreams12 18-21 1 hr ago

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    My lover, be my lover, yeah... Don't be afraid I didn't mean to scare you So help me, Jesus I can promise you You'll stay as beautiful With dark hair And soft skin...forever...
    heysmellthis heysmellthis 26-30, M 2 hrs ago

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    why would someone be afraid of coming across mature content? I mean, it's not like it's going to shoot you in the face if you look at it. :p
    MeowOnMe MeowOnMe 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 hr ago

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    Afraid I'm afraid to write the words that i feel because of the grip that they have on my soul. Afraid to know that what and who I love is the wrong thing. Afraid of losing my...
    taurusboi23 taurusboi23 22-25, M Nov 23

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    I've always felt afraid to let people get close to me both physically and emotionally. I think this is why I have never dated someone or I get choked up when someone asks me on a...
    LilFA LilFA 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 22

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    By love I don't mean guys or anything...and I don't mean losing people to death. But I am afraid of losing my friends and family, that they will stop caring about me or I will do...
    prznaroosak prznaroosak 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 6

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    I used to think i was afraid of love completely, i thought i was afraid because i didn't think i would be loved back but i'm afraid of love, because i'm afraid of getting hurt. I'm...
    aurorabutterfly aurorabutterfly 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 25

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    So I've been an only child for my whole life, and I've been happy. Change is the only thing I have ever really feared. But. . .today my mother told told me she's pregnant, and...
    PadfootPandora PadfootPandora 16-17, F 1 day ago

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    I'm very much afraid of guys/men and I want to overcome this fear and avoidance. I can never remember not having this anxiety. From even before being enrolled in my first year of...
    2openmind 2openmind 18-21, F Nov 23

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    not sure if I'm afraid anymore...I'm just used to it right now, I've been rejected by every girl I ever liked or cared about (possibly loved), people says "have confidence"...well...
    Muramasa Muramasa 18-21, M 1 Response 18 hrs ago

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    I'm sorry for the lengthy post... I just watched Geography Club and it got me regretting how long it took me to come out, and then explore as to why that was.... One of the things...
    jbar291 jbar291 18-21, M Dec 12

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    I joined Experience Project because - well for a whole swirling storm of reasons, but the common thread is - I have never really felt able to SHARE what's going on inside me. 1...
    elevating elevating 36-40, F 1 Response Nov 23

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    I'm trying to decide if I should come out officially as bisexual and it's terrifying. I didn't realize I was bisexual until recently and it's been a rocky road ever since. I've...
    Cranksta Cranksta 18-21, F Dec 11

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    How can I say and express what I feel? If I could it would be best described as a Hurricane of Emotions, building up, waves crashing, destroying what stands in the way. Not...
    Xenasdreams Xenasdreams 22-25, F Dec 10

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    I'm having one of those days again. Just finished my finals. Studied as hard as I could. I know I should at least be glad that the finals are done with but it seems that the dust...
    freestyler605 freestyler605 22-25, M 1 Response a week ago

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    You may mess up, but you are not a mess up. You may make a mistake, but you are not a mistake. You may screw up, but you are not a screw up. You may fail, but you...
    torr62 torr62 13-15, F 5 days ago

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    I'm afraid of the truth so live my life in the dark. I don't find answers to questions. I just dwell on them and think of the what ifs. I'm afraid that if I find out what's real...
    bhabhablacksheep bhabhablacksheep 22-25, F Nov 23

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    i feel like the more i am growing up and becoming self aware, i am losing myself bit by bit. i have always been really weird, i have never really fit in, i have always been shy and...
    msr1122 msr1122 18-21, F 12 hrs ago

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    Here's why I give up on people: I walk away because I cannot stand the thought of believing whatever he says and letting myself feel vulnerable around him, only to later feel like...
    SuperWomanFly SuperWomanFly 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 26

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    So people falling in love online isnt new and Im one of the freaking victims. Tho Im not sure if this is love yet.. I mean I cant love multiple person? That's just so watdapak...
    gotawishy gotawishy 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 9

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    i not only like but i also give much respect to real people who are themselves and are not masked by anything who are not afraid of who they are or of their weakness. in short i...
    sly15 sly15 22-25, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Hey peeps, after feeling crap for last few days I finally feel a little bit better. stopped being physically sick yay. still feel bit weak and achey but bored as stuck indoors. I...
    CheatingTracy CheatingTracy 22-25, F 7 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    We were both cast forth from the same pale hand. And we both moved freely in the shadow lands. And we both were sculpted by the same cold wind. And we both had armor that was made...
    BloodofAmara BloodofAmara 16-17, F 6 hrs ago

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    Basically, when I am alone I just watch anime, draw, stuff like that, I talk to myself and SMILE. But when I'm in public or with other people, I almost feel like dying. I actually...
    MinCraftgirl13 MinCraftgirl13 13-15, F 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    I bottle everything up. I'm not very talkative. I'm not how I used to be. I don't tell secrets to many people. I don't like but I do like getting close to people. I like to read...
    ForeverANomad ForeverANomad 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 2

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    Today my thoughts just consisted of the idea of my family dying. My parents. I can't imagine a world without them. I can't help but think that one day they will be gone and it...
    holograms holograms 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 8

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    I am afraid of relationships. I think I always have been. I can't remember a time when I was able to give myself to someone without second thought or with uninhibited trust. I'm...
    shanequea shanequea 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 10

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    One thing that terrifies me most in this world is the idea of hurting others through something I feel I have no control of. Nothing pains me more than to feel responsible for the...
    Kattastrophe Kattastrophe 18-21, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I don't know if you guys read something else I posted but I went to a concert 2 months ago with a friend that I use to have in middle school. It was a concert that I've been...
    mypawshaveprints mypawshaveprints 18-21, F 3 hrs ago

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    We know deep down that life is short, and that death will happen to all of us eventually, and yet we are infinitely surprised when it happens to someone we know. LIVE your life...
    raquel80 raquel80 31-35, F 8 Responses Dec 10

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    I live in St. Louis Missouri and we have the gate way arch which u can go up in. I went with my friends because they wanted to go and when we where up at the top I was fine as long...
    mwiltshire mwiltshire 22-25, F 15 hrs ago

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    After struggling with and escaping my mother's abuse for three months, I've finally grown comfortable with letting my siblings know what goes on in my life. But today I was...
    Cranksta Cranksta 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 28

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    My best friend ignored me for 2 years because she was afraid of falling in love with me. Then on our 4 year of being friends she stopped ignoring me and I asked her out. We have...
    Deuz Deuz 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 8

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    I actually don't have this feeling anymore. I used to have it all the time though. I used to cling to any girl that would talk to me for more than a day and if she talked to me...
    Raptax231 Raptax231 18-21, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    Do not be afraid to message me. I try my best to make the Internet a more friendly and tolerant place. If you've got something you need to get off your chest..but is too afraid to...
    Fierrrrce Fierrrrce 18-21, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    i never had the courage to speak up for myself..because i have this feeling i'am ugly..and i cant even look in to someones eyes when i talk because that kind of makes me feel more...
    spunkywiz spunkywiz 18-21, F 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    There's sex with partner Then there's romantic feelings Trying to get those two together Romance longing My heart felt tears when I hear a song and sing to you who is never...
    Aqula Aqula 31-35, F 1 Response 9 hrs ago

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    I am afraid of looking in to the mirror also. but for 2 reasons. 1) I don't like the way I look. 2) I have this irrational fear that the person looking back will try to grab me...
    Gr3mL1N Gr3mL1N 31-35, M 2 Responses Nov 25

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