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I Am Afraid to Feel

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    I Don't Let Myself Feel

    because i'm afraid of not being in control. i'm afraid of what i might feel if i let myself.
    aloneandintimidating aloneandintimidating 16-18, F 1 Response Aug 15, 2007

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    Life Story

    I`ve been searching for a group like this one for a while. I often thought I was some sort of special, weird kind, because of the emptiness I felt and continue to feel. I`m 18 years old, an age that should be glorious and wild, at least, that`s what I hear most about it...an...
    gia99 gia99 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 27, 2010

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    It Hurts

    "When i care all i feel is pain."-Stefan Salvatore, Vampire Diaries This is actually really true for me. Sometimes i care to much for people and get hurt badly in the process. Sometimes i don't care enough and i lose them. Or i care but never got the chance to make it right...
    irishlady98 irishlady98 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 28, 2013

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    Tension

    There is a tightness around my chest and shoulders and hips. I can act, but I can't be, because being, feeling, is feeling this tension, and it scares the crap out of me. it's my fault, I'm mental, I'm doing something wrong, and the main preoccupation -FIX IT. FIX IT FIX IT FIX...
    fiddlyfoodlebird fiddlyfoodlebird 22-25 Nov 12, 2011

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    Self Containment

    It started in grade 5 when i had a crush on a girl. Her name was Lindsay and I think this became a negative experience(I felt like i wanted to run away from the girl, now that i think about it i would call it ashamed) because at the time i had no...
    jonnyvautour jonnyvautour 18-21 1 Response Nov 5, 2008

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    How Can I Deal With This?

    For having this silly fear, I lost the chance of having an extremely nice guy by my side... I don't want this to happen anymore. I don't wanna push people away because I'm afraid of getting hurt or disapointed. Or because I don't know what they think about me. I wanna let these...
    moonphasesgirl moonphasesgirl 16-17 1 Response Aug 3, 2012

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    Hello Is Just the Beginning of Goodbye

    My mom married 7 times, I moved 32 times in 36years, all in the same small county.  Widowed twice by age 33. What is the point of being in love, of having wishes, making plans, feeling happy? It all gets ripped away one day. Usually right in the middle of feeling content.If...
    sigh36 sigh36 36-40 1 Response Oct 3, 2008

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    Pain

    I seem to have a wall up around my heart.  I don't let anyone in.  I seem on the outside like a cheerful and easygoing person.  But I'm afraid to feel.  I'm too weak to deal with the hurt that is inside.  Sometimes it wells up in me. ...
    srf4413 srf4413 26-30 Jun 25, 2008

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    Related Experiences

    Since I started college I started feeling afraid for my future. Somethimes I think I'll never have a satisfying job, or a family of my own, that I'll be a failure. This thoughts...
    Cutterkarma Cutterkarma 18-21, F 4 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    Couple of months ago i heard from my ex boyfriend that some friends i was occasionally hanging out were calling me a loser. I was not very close with those people, we were just...
    kajusu kajusu 18-21, F 2 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    I met him online, we shared our first Skype call and decided to date... Everything was great until July, when he left to go to a camp. I found out he was dating another girl at the...
    Lonelyaf Lonelyaf 18-21, F 1 Response 23 hrs ago

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    This guy. We are sort of in a relationship. But I never take it seriously cause I met him online and we live in different country so its very unlikely for us to be together. I know...
    definiteintegral definiteintegral 16-17, F 18 hrs ago

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    I always feel unwanted..& like no one wants me
    alyssab11 alyssab11 16-17, F 12 hrs ago

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    I am afraid of being rejected like I'm afraid of being open about my fetish. It's a terrifying experience when I think I'm gonna be rejected to the point that I won't do certain...
    ILF777 ILF777 18-21, M 3 Responses Jul 23

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    For some reason, I have become afraid of almost everything. I'm afraid of eye contact, and I am afraid to speak up in public. Wherever I go, I can't help but feel afraid. Whenever...
    PastaPyro567 PastaPyro567 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 30

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    When I was young, I believe that doing or saying how you feel without thinking is a strict no no. That’s why even at a very young age. I don’t do or really say what I feel. And...
    VoiceLessMe VoiceLessMe 26-30, F Aug 11

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    Im afraid to talk about how i feel because i feel like its going to come out wrong or if its going to get me into trouble . I do express my feelings at times but im always so...
    savannah0115 savannah0115 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 20

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    I'm not afraid of this fate as I have encountered it many times in my life. I recently lost 3 co workers in a brutal accident and watching the people at work the past 24 hours has...
    Jerseygirl72 Jerseygirl72 41-45, F 1 Response Jul 30

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    I'm not afraid of mirrors I'm afraid of looking into mirrors becuz I know.for fact I'm ugly so when I look in the mirror I feel sad and depressed and ugly and be like...
    ticklon ticklon 16-17, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I have an intense fear of rejection. I've reached the point where I don't even try to make new friends because I'm afraid if they don't like me then they'll judge me or make fun of...
    CJHall1234 CJHall1234 16-17, M 1 Response Jul 23

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    Hi. I know this is really stupid and complicated, and I'm sorry for being so upset for seemingly no reason, but I sort of have a problem. It's barely a problem at all, I know--I'm...
    MysteryMe110 MysteryMe110 13-15, F 6 Responses Aug 5

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    I have never been in a romantic relationship in my whole life. For a while it didn't bother me that much (it bothered me a little, but I occupied my time and my mind with other...
    rarariri rarariri 22-25, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I'm feeling sad, guilty, lonely, bored, alone, don't know what to do with myself. About a month ago, my now ex boyfriend choked me. He choked me to the point where I couldn't...
    AlissaMaeAnn AlissaMaeAnn 26-30, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Sometimes I get this urge to strangle someone. I don't know why, but this urge keeps getting stronger and stronger and sometimes I find my hands clasping and reflecting like I'm...
    HiIAmHana HiIAmHana 18-21, F Jul 29

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    Rejection is one of my biggest fears. It's even made me so anxious, that I've slowly backed out of the real world and onto the internet world. I know that all you need to do is to...
    Tazzu Tazzu 22-25, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I don't want to say I hate it, and it might just be my interpretation, the world looks strange in my eyes, I try to believe everyone loves me, cus I received lots of bday wishes...
    Mangostrawberrybanana Mangostrawberrybanana 31-35, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I don't hate my life, don't have much to complain about, and always have something to smile about, but from stories I have heard and from my own experiences Life seems to make us...
    Steffi627 Steffi627 18-21, F Jul 25

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    In society, i try to fit in and pretend to like the same things everybody does. But it kills me inside not to express my own feelings and enjoy the things i like. But if i do...
    ninjadentistinspace ninjadentistinspace 16-17, F 5 Responses Jul 28

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    Everything around me is falling apart...we all live in fear...When you live In a war zone everything else looks insignificant ...I live in iraq...I have watched so many people die...
    ffdp84 ffdp84 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 24

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    I get so worried about this. The few times I've been left alone in my life, I felt so freaked out and unprepared, it's not even okay. How am I going to be an adult if I can't even...
    StokesQuirky StokesQuirky 18-21, F Jul 22

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    I've been hurt several times, once in particular that actually hurt me badly, and now I had a dream about my boyfriend being on a app talking to other girls, I don't know if this...
    naydinexx3 naydinexx3 13-15, F 4 Responses Aug 3

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    I know how it is especially growing up and maybe some people can relate. I had a trampoline and a pool when I was younger. Most kids liked to hang out because I invited them over...
    RedScythe RedScythe 22-25, M Aug 5

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    I'm deeply afraid of getting attached, I feel that once I get attached. They'll leave me right after, and I won't know what to do with myself. I feel that I should keep a guard up...
    dominiquekillz dominiquekillz 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 7

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    i almost never try anything new because i am afraid of rejection. in certain social situations, i actually shut down to avoid it. like i become unresponsive and i make myself feel...
    nikicat nikicat 22-25, F 5 Responses Aug 7

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    Truthfully, I reflected my feelings of falling in love a lot this past week. And I'm not afraid. I should be, I've had my heart;played with, scarred, broken, shattered, even...
    heartdeflowerboys1 heartdeflowerboys1 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 8

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    I can see why in Don Jon, there's this underlying theme of vulnerability. I can see why Jon turns to his addiction. He's afraid and unsatisfied with intimacy. He hides behind a...
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 18-21, F a week ago

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    My insecurities increase at times where they should not be, I feel like you hate me even more though you would claim differently. I remember being drunk, something rare for me in...
    Lucienn Lucienn 18-21, T 5 days ago

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    I'm afraid of falling in love. Nothing can ever end well when two people are in love. I'm afraid my heart will be broken,shattered. I want to live life because it's so short.sh...
    itsgemma01 itsgemma01 13-15, F Aug 8

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    So when I'm home alone or taking a walk in the dark outside, I'm always afraid of being kidnapped or raped for some reason, and people who are aware of it happening to men too, don...
    thedaydreamer1020 thedaydreamer1020 18-21, F Jul 22

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    One of my biggest problems in life is being so afraid of what people think of me that I don't talk to anyone at all. Sometimes I do, but I feel like anything I say is stupid or I...
    AnomalousEarthling AnomalousEarthling 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 22

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    Ever since i was little i wud see spirits & smell them. But For the past 9 years, every single nyt without fail i suffer nightmares. I dream of all sorts but mostly i see "things...
    omlette123 omlette123 26-30, F Jul 23

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    Why can’t I just be me? Do I have to always measure myself against what others will think of me? Sometimes I just think on things too much, I guess we all do. But why do I worry...
    MatildaEve MatildaEve 41-45, F 3 Responses Jul 24

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    Yeah you heard it right, I am not afraid of rejection. If i ask a girl and then she rejects me, i would'nt cry or feel bad.
    mahdiraza mahdiraza 16-17, M 1 Response Jul 28

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    I'm a bi and I've confessed to a girl. She gave me no response. She has been close with her guy friend recently and she will definitely be in a relationship with him soon. It...
    greenflapper greenflapper 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 29

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    I'm alone again, single. Bad communication. I didn't think he appreciated me and he didn't think I appreciated him. So sad. Wish I told him how I cared. I'm just so bad with words...
    NotApplicable NotApplicable 22-25, F Aug 5

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    I'm just so afraid that I'll get hurt all over again, that pain is just too much bear and I don't think I could handle all the pain and heartache. I can't ask out anyone that I...
    TheGuy147 TheGuy147 16-17, M Aug 8

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    Well i just found out Im prego but Im afraid I will be a bad mom. How can i make this feeling go away .
    aliceloves123 aliceloves123 22-25, F Aug 11

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    I remember a time not so long ago, when I danced while bathed in sunlight and made every day an adventure; without fear or reservation, I lived my life the way life is supposed to...
    thisangelslife thisangelslife 31-35, M a week ago