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I Am Afraid to Feel

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    It Hurts

    "When i care all i feel is pain."-Stefan Salvatore, Vampire Diaries This is actually really true for me. Sometimes i care to much for people and get hurt badly in the process. Sometimes i don't care enough and i lose them. Or i care but never got the chance to make it right...
    irishlassy98 irishlassy98 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 28, 2013

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    Tension

    There is a tightness around my chest and shoulders and hips. I can act, but I can't be, because being, feeling, is feeling this tension, and it scares the crap out of me. it's my fault, I'm mental, I'm doing something wrong, and the main preoccupation -FIX IT. FIX IT FIX IT FIX...
    fiddlyfoodlebird fiddlyfoodlebird 22-25 Nov 12, 2011

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    Pain

    I seem to have a wall up around my heart.  I don't let anyone in.  I seem on the outside like a cheerful and easygoing person.  But I'm afraid to feel.  I'm too weak to deal with the hurt that is inside.  Sometimes it wells up in me. ...
    srf4413 srf4413 26-30 Jun 25, 2008

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    Hello Is Just the Beginning of Goodbye

    My mom married 7 times, I moved 32 times in 36years, all in the same small county.  Widowed twice by age 33. What is the point of being in love, of having wishes, making plans, feeling happy? It all gets ripped away one day. Usually right in the middle of feeling content.If...
    sigh36 sigh36 36-40 1 Response Oct 3, 2008

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    Life Story

    I`ve been searching for a group like this one for a while. I often thought I was some sort of special, weird kind, because of the emptiness I felt and continue to feel. I`m 18 years old, an age that should be glorious and wild, at least, that`s what I hear most about it...an...
    gia99 gia99 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 27, 2010

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    I Don't Let Myself Feel

    because i'm afraid of not being in control. i'm afraid of what i might feel if i let myself.
    aloneandintimidating aloneandintimidating 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 15, 2007

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    Self Containment

    It started in grade 5 when i had a crush on a girl. Her name was Lindsay and I think this became a negative experience(I felt like i wanted to run away from the girl, now that i think about it i would call it ashamed) because at the time i had no...
    jonnyvautour jonnyvautour 18-21 1 Response Nov 5, 2008

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    How Can I Deal With This?

    For having this silly fear, I lost the chance of having an extremely nice guy by my side... I don't want this to happen anymore. I don't wanna push people away because I'm afraid of getting hurt or disapointed. Or because I don't know what they think about me. I wanna let these...
    moonphasesgirl moonphasesgirl 16-17 1 Response Aug 3, 2012

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    At least you know where you stand with them, people shouldn't be afraid of sharing their feelings, good and bad.
    RealLifePerson RealLifePerson 26-30, M 35 mins ago

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    I am always attracted to women who are so attractive to me that they wouldn't give me the time of day. I hate the feeling of being beneath someone despite feeling like such a good...
    Brownzerg Brownzerg 26-30, M 1 Response 14 hrs ago

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    I finally realize that fear was what was holding me back from living my life. It's preventing me from doing everything I want to do. I think it would be advantageous for me to just...
    honestlyanonymouslyme honestlyanonymouslyme 22-25, F 5 days ago

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    My entire life I was forced to sit aside as men my mother brought into her life to support her bad habits abused her and/or my siblings and I. I finally had enough when I was 14...
    YoungConfusion YoungConfusion 18-21, F 1 Response May 8

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    I am very afraid. I live in turmoil every single day. I depend upon a theory that I substituted my own definition for and this theory is “Mind Over Matter”. The substitution...
    ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT 26-30, F May 1

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    MY LAST BREATH...... ( few of the words have been changed a little to fit) As she thought she was in the presence of an Angel of light she was in company of an Angel of the...
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F May 6

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    and so I push people away.. I have lots of things I want to say, at the same time, I don't know what to say.. I am not good with poeple and so I NEVER had any friends, like 0...
    FallingWind FallingWind 18-21, F 1 Response May 12

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    Hi there, I feel like I've relapsed or something because I am on here again. I only come here when I am feeling really bad and I have no one to really talk too but on here. My last...
    bluebarker bluebarker 18-21, M a week ago

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    Hi there, I feel like I've relapsed or something because I am on here again. I only come here when I am feeling really bad and I have no one to really talk too but on here. My last...
    bluebarker bluebarker 18-21, M a week ago

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    If my past self from just a couple years ago met me now, she wouldn't recognize me. I'm agnostic, (although I know the supernatural exists), and I don't feel constant shame about...
    Mythriel Mythriel 22-25, F 4 days ago

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    I have been reading people's posts every now and then today, and even written what I wanted to comment, but couldn't make myself click the post button. I made excuses like this was...
    LFSomething LFSomething 22-25, M May 3

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    I'm so afraid of rejection that I just push people away when I feel like things are going bad. I try to fix it but nothing ever works. Instead of them leaving me I end up excluding...
    JustWantItToWork JustWantItToWork 26-30, F 8 Responses May 9

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    I don't want to sound racist or anything because I know that there are a lot of really nice black boys out there. But something happened to me when I was 10 years old and my...
    beatendownbylife47 beatendownbylife47 13-15, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I don't know what's going on with me for the last 3 nights something waked me up like he is calling me his voice, breath and smell it's like he is beside me and then I started...
    HMMB HMMB 22-25, F May 12

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    I'm afraid of life. I mean who isn't ? Life is so mysterious that it's impossible not to be afraid. The difference between winners and losers lies simply in the reason that creates...
    MeAndMySelf98 MeAndMySelf98 16-17, M 1 Response a week ago

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    I baby shop for my cousins shower and always say to myself I will never be at the point where I will have a family. I want a family and am afraid it will never happen to me. I am...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 29

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    Why should you be afraid? That darkness is a part of you. You should just accept it. To be afraid of it is the same as being afraid of one of your own limbs. we all have darkness...
    alienatedvirus alienatedvirus 18-21, M May 8

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    I'm afraid to let it out of its cage There where reason why it was lock up I had to, you see. The pain was to great. I need to hide it and forget it. I wasn't ready for you. I didn...
    Masterskitten503 Masterskitten503 46-50, F 3 Responses May 2

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    >Ive kissed 3 guys and Ive never felt the spark. now im dating a really great guy who turns me on in every way and i haven't even kissed him yet. The reason being is that im afraid...
    marvelchick10117 marvelchick10117 16-17, F 1 Response May 7

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    My parents have a really bad relationship. I feel worthless. They had an arranged marriage. Mom is depressed. My dad treats her like crap. And she wants me to go through the same...
    cord3lia cord3lia 16-17, F 4 Responses May 9

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    when I was younger l was afraid to tell girls how I feel. so I still think about the ones that I liked and never said a word to l remember all of their names. I especially think...
    weadkeys weadkeys 46-50, M 2 Responses May 11

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    No matter what I do to try and improve things, it ends in waiting. I'm afraid that I'll spend my whole life waiting... but I'm also afraid that if I'm not patient, I could miss out...
    PendulEmPlum PendulEmPlum 18-21, F 1 Response May 12

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    I have been very heartbroken and down since me and my ex boyfriend broke up. I am now sleeping with his friend. But my ex doesn't know about it. Please don't judge me. I feel awful...
    Staziaa Staziaa 16-17, F 8 Responses May 13

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    I've always been afraid of rejection.My last friend ship wth this girl made it worse she always took the guys I liked called me names said I was ugly just wasn't nice.She would...
    kassidyforreal kassidyforreal 16-17, F 12 Responses May 17

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    Honestly a few months ago I may have been afraid of death now I can't wait to die im not afraid of it because death is happiness it takes u off of this horrible world where...
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15 2 Responses Apr 29

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    This last year has been all over the spectrum, from really really good, to just brutal. I think I am starting to understand why I am struggling so much with being confident in...
    loneranger91 loneranger91 22-25, F 1 Response May 6

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    I'm not afraid of dying. I'm afraid of living.
    cuttergirl16 cuttergirl16 13-15, F 5 Responses May 12

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    right now it's not so much "I'm afraid he'll say 'no'" it's more like "I'm afraid he will never talk to me again or things will be awkward between us after he says 'no' (if he does...
    shamrok11 shamrok11 13-15, F May 19

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    Im afraid pf failure because Im afraid to be judged by people. I think all people would look at me and laugh. Like no one is my friend in this world all of them are my enemies all...
    Macymax Macymax 13-15, F 6 Responses 5 days ago

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    I am a duality of peoples; cold and passionate; smart and stupid; light and dark. I have failed so completely to climb aboard a unified picture of myself that I simply present a...
    MrWinstonSmith MrWinstonSmith 22-25, M Apr 29

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    I have loved the same person for I don't even know how long. To be fair, she doesn't actually know, so I guess there will always be that big "what if" that is killing me. The issue...
    BowtiesRcool BowtiesRcool 22-25, M 3 Responses May 2

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    I met someone from online. We are from different place. We chat all day and never stop. Except when sleep or he play games. Im in love with him. Bcs he is really nice and funny...
    ochamr ochamr 16-17, F 2 Responses May 3

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    About a year ago , I got really drunk after receiving some bad news , I then got it into my head to sleep with a man I did not know without using protection During our encounter...
    babina8 babina8 31-35, F 1 Response May 6

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    I've been struggling to move on from a guy for months and its upsetting me on a daily basis. Im rarely attracted to people but myself and this guy had lots in common and I've felt...
    TwinFoxes TwinFoxes 16-17, F 8 Responses May 9

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