I Am Afraid to Let Anyone Get Close to Me

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 596 People

    And once again I remember

    why it gets thrown in my face everytime hate this feeling of being sick, hurt, and everything else ugh I quit I give up
    SassyNclassy04 SassyNclassy04
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jul 7, 2015

    Stopped Talking To Someone

    I met a guy a couple months ago, and some fun stuff happened between us, but I won't go into detail.. bottom line, we clicked really well. It wasn't just a one time fling. We talked about our pasts, made each other laugh, and it seemed like we were going to be good friends. For...
    Keepsunshiny Keepsunshiny
    18-21, F
    Jul 1, 2012

    Because People Do Horrible Things

    My experiences have shown me that people do unimaginably horrible things as soon as you turn your back. Of course, I know not everyone is like that, but the ones who are can completely destroy your life, and even you, if they can catch you off guard. I did recently try to let...
    waterbaby waterbaby
    26-30, F
    Dec 24, 2009

    A family that projected its sick world view

    onto me, a borderline-********* who partially raised me to be destructive and careless with people's emotions, and a series of drug addictions -- all these things will teach you not to trust people, to lie, that if anyone got too close, they'd run away in fear, that you are...
    trianglelamp trianglelamp
    26-30, M
    Jun 13, 2014

    So Want This To Go Away

    I want to feel love so much in my life, but lack the confidence to try and tell anyone how I feel. My counselor tells me to do so and I am just scared.
    asert12345678 asert12345678
    31-35, M
    Mar 12, 2013

    I am afraid to let someone close to me

    because with my 1st bf he was close to me and then he ended up cheating on me with another girl then ended up cheating on her with another girl. What do I do get close with another guy or not
    RaspberryTommyCat RaspberryTommyCat
    16-17, F
    1 Response May 2, 2014

    In Every Way

    Wether it be romantic, friends or even family. It's hard for me to become emotionally attached to someone. Don't get me wrong, I can chat it up with someone and be the most friendly and outgoing person with them, but ill always be cautious and keep my guard up. I let myself trust...
    Aquamarine221 Aquamarine221
    18-21, F
    1 Response Aug 17, 2013

    I Just Don't Know What To Think Anymore

    This is going to be a short story but people continuously surprise me by their cruelty. I'm an honest person. I am giving. And yet, "jerk me around" is seemingly tattooed on my forehead. I'm just weary of it.
    lisa36 lisa36
    36-40, F
    1 Response Oct 16, 2010

    I Always Ruin Things Up Whether Intentionally Or Unintentionally

    i dunno why every time i felt like getting close to someone i always mess it up , either i find some flaws from them and pick a fight or put them unto such expectations that i know they wouldn't have met ever... i always end up loosing them just coz when i feel like they are...
    donnybon22 donnybon22
    18-21, F
    Aug 22, 2011

    I Have Been Tricked And Defamed

    Long time back, during my teens, I was miss popular Diva. My uncle sabotaged my social life completely. He forcefully made a girl [ fat hairy and brown ] friends with me. She seriously needed 100% makeover and had all the bad manners a girl can have. She wasnt even sweet to me...
    HelenParis HelenParis
    22-25
    1 Response Feb 28, 2012

    How can I let someone in

    when I don't even want to be close to myself? I'm just so broken inside I feel it's selfish to let someone try to put me back together because I can't do it. =/
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jul 6, 2015

    Because...

    In my "case" - you wouldn't like me! I am rarely aware of what you might feel , while I talk without thinking. I hurt people not intentionally. That's why, basically. It is a good enough reason, isn't it. ? yeah.. 
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses May 9, 2009

    Betrayed

    im afraid to let anyone get close to me because i hate myself. i dont see anything good in being me so im afraid they will reject me or make fun of me because of who iam/ what i look like. many people have betrayed me the first time was in grade 6/7 with my first best friend...
    atreyuxo atreyuxo
    16-17
    1 Response Dec 23, 2009

    I'm afraid of putting effort in to meeting new

    people. I'm afraid I will just end up hurting them, or end up being disappointed, myself. I have trust issues and based on previous experiences, I live my life accordingly. People don't like the comparisons but most times, the comparisons are accurate. I also don't trust my own...
    ThisIsNormal ThisIsNormal
    31-35, M
    1 Response May 11, 2014

    Reason Why I Don't Have Many Friends?

    I've been told before that luck of trust and ablity to open up to people is what keeps me from not having that many friends and its why I'm never in a relationship. I hate so much how this is not even really my fault, besides naively looking for the best in others... But I have...
    renbrooks521 renbrooks521
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 14, 2012

    I Fear Being Hurt By Those I Open Up To

    I can talk on ep and that really is my only outlet for social contact most days.but in my real day to day life its hard for me to talk to people and risk abuse like the past.I seem to get burnt when I reach out to people and ask for helpI am trying my best now to be selective to...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals
    36-40, F
    May 19, 2012

    I have had a hysterectomy 12 days

    after the procedure-looking to share my experience with someone who had the same procedure.
    ChrisatEP ChrisatEP
    41-45, F
    Jul 6, 2015

    There are so many things

    that I just feel uncomfortable about, and things that are constant and the same are things I get weird about. Whenever someone tries to get to know me, i put up a hard front. im not one for letting people get it througj to me.
    lovemeforever9787 lovemeforever9787
    18-21, F
    Jul 6, 2015

    I hate being touched.

    No it isn't ptsd, i think its a phobia. It just feels awkward and uncomfortable.
    Mi5h Mi5h
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jul 17, 2014

    I Think

    I think I know why I don't share too much of myself, at least the deep, really hurt stuff.  I'm afraid because when I was younger, I would get groups of friends, and on two different occassions, I was told, "I NO LONGER want to be your friend."  That was 2 seperate...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    4 Responses Feb 11, 2010

    Experiencing Growth: Becoming A Mature Woman

    Recently, I was suffering from depression caused by a resistance to truth.  Starting to live the life I desire and had to make mandatory changes.  Such as loving myself, putting first things first and being real with myself.  The truth was very painful to face, yet once it...
    makeithapen10 makeithapen10
    26-30
    May 29, 2011

    Relationships Lead To Pain

     My friendships always seem to end up in splitsville.  I guess it's a product of my raising, but it seems like I can keep a friend indefinitely until I get close to the person; then, it just goes to hell.  I have already lost a close friend this year, and I'm...
    zavalon zavalon
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Dec 23, 2009

    I just lost all off my friends in one day due

    to the fact I am afraid to get too close to people. My best friend for three years I made cry cause I told him that I was done with this friendship. I'm afraid to get close to people cause every time I get close to someone we have a falling out and I get hurt for a very long...
    hinhead hinhead
    16-17, M
    Jan 18, 2014

    It's The Truth

    In real life, if emotions started getting involved I would start doubting. After what I've been through, I think there's a wolf under the wool.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Dec 22, 2009

    Too Close For Comfort.

    All of history and litature is full of stories of how people betray each other. Brutus and Ceaser, Judas and Jesus. It does not inspire confedence in others. Throughout my life I have found this to be true. Everytime I try to tell some one about myself, they either betray me, or...
    suffocating suffocating
    16-17, F
    Oct 13, 2010

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