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I Am Afraid to Let Anyone Get Close to Me

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    I just lost all off my friends in one day due

    to the fact I am afraid to get too close to people. My best friend for three years I made cry cause I told him that I was done with this friendship. I'm afraid to get close to people cause every time I get close to someone we have a falling out and I get hurt for a very long...
    hinhead hinhead 16-17, M Jan 18, 2014

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    Relationships Lead To Pain

     My friendships always seem to end up in splitsville.  I guess it's a product of my raising, but it seems like I can keep a friend indefinitely until I get close to the person; then, it just goes to hell.  I have already lost a close friend this year, and I'm...
    zavalon zavalon 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 23, 2009

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    I Just Don't Know What To Think Anymore

    This is going to be a short story but people continuously surprise me by their cruelty. I'm an honest person. I am giving. And yet, "jerk me around" is seemingly tattooed on my forehead. I'm just weary of it.
    lisa36 lisa36 36-40, F 2 Responses Oct 16, 2010

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    I Always Ruin Things Up Whether Intentionally Or Unintentionally

    i dunno why every time i felt like getting close to someone i always mess it up , either i find some flaws from them and pick a fight or put them unto such expectations that i know they wouldn't have met ever... i always end up loosing them just coz when i feel like they are...
    donnybon22 donnybon22 18-21, F Aug 22, 2011

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    Because...

    In my "case" - you wouldn't like me! I am rarely aware of what you might feel , while I talk without thinking. I hurt people not intentionally. That's why, basically. It is a good enough reason, isn't it. ? yeah.. 
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 9, 2009

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    Excerpts

    The other day I was going through my cupboards and found an old notepad. After flicking through a few pages, I found a full page I had written a while back. I do this thing every so often where I let my mind take charge and just write what's in my head. Here are one or two...
    Emptysoul30 Emptysoul30 22-25, M 1 Response Aug 22, 2011

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    Because People Do Horrible Things

    My experiences have shown me that people do unimaginably horrible things as soon as you turn your back. Of course, I know not everyone is like that, but the ones who are can completely destroy your life, and even you, if they can catch you off guard. I did recently try to let...
    waterbaby waterbaby 26-30, F Dec 24, 2009

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    So Want This To Go Away

    I want to feel love so much in my life, but lack the confidence to try and tell anyone how I feel. My counselor tells me to do so and I am just scared.
    asert12345678 asert12345678 31-35, M Mar 12, 2013

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    Experiencing Growth: Becoming A Mature Woman

    Recently, I was suffering from depression caused by a resistance to truth.  Starting to live the life I desire and had to make mandatory changes.  Such as loving myself, putting first things first and being real with myself.  The truth was very painful to face, yet once it...
    makeithapen10 makeithapen10 26-30 May 29, 2011

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    A family that projected its sick world view

    onto me, a borderline-********* who partially raised me to be destructive and careless with people's emotions, and a series of drug addictions -- all these things will teach you not to trust people, to lie, that if anyone got too close, they'd run away in fear, that you are...
    trianglelamp trianglelamp 26-30, M Jun 13, 2014

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    I Fear Being Hurt By Those I Open Up To

    I can talk on ep and that really is my only outlet for social contact most days.but in my real day to day life its hard for me to talk to people and risk abuse like the past.I seem to get burnt when I reach out to people and ask for helpI am trying my best now to be selective to...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F May 19, 2012

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    It's The Truth

    In real life, if emotions started getting involved I would start doubting. After what I've been through, I think there's a wolf under the wool.
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Dec 22, 2009

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    I hate being touched.

    No it isn't ptsd, i think its a phobia. It just feels awkward and uncomfortable.
    Mi5h Mi5h 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    I am afraid to let someone close to me

    because with my 1st bf he was close to me and then he ended up cheating on me with another girl then ended up cheating on her with another girl. What do I do get close with another guy or not
    RaspberryTommyCat RaspberryTommyCat 13-15, F 1 Response May 2, 2014

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    I'm afraid of putting effort in to meeting new

    people. I'm afraid I will just end up hurting them, or end up being disappointed, myself. I have trust issues and based on previous experiences, I live my life accordingly. People don't like the comparisons but most times, the comparisons are accurate. I also don't trust my own...
    ThisIsNormal ThisIsNormal 26-30, M 1 Response May 11, 2014

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    In Every Way

    Wether it be romantic, friends or even family. It's hard for me to become emotionally attached to someone. Don't get me wrong, I can chat it up with someone and be the most friendly and outgoing person with them, but ill always be cautious and keep my guard up. I let myself trust...
    Aquamarine221 Aquamarine221 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 17, 2013

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    Betrayed

    im afraid to let anyone get close to me because i hate myself. i dont see anything good in being me so im afraid they will reject me or make fun of me because of who iam/ what i look like. many people have betrayed me the first time was in grade 6/7 with my first best friend...
    atreyuxo atreyuxo 16-17 1 Response Dec 23, 2009

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    I Have Been Tricked And Defamed

    Long time back, during my teens, I was miss popular Diva. My uncle sabotaged my social life completely. He forcefully made a girl [ fat hairy and brown ] friends with me. She seriously needed 100% makeover and had all the bad manners a girl can have. She wasnt even sweet to me...
    HelenParis HelenParis 22-25 1 Response Feb 28, 2012

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    Reason Why I Don't Have Many Friends?

    I've been told before that luck of trust and ablity to open up to people is what keeps me from not having that many friends and its why I'm never in a relationship. I hate so much how this is not even really my fault, besides naively looking for the best in others... But I have...
    renbrooks521 renbrooks521 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 14, 2012

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    Stopped Talking To Someone

    I met a guy a couple months ago, and some fun stuff happened between us, but I won't go into detail.. bottom line, we clicked really well. It wasn't just a one time fling. We talked about our pasts, made each other laugh, and it seemed like we were going to be good friends. For...
    Keepsunshiny Keepsunshiny 18-21, F Jul 1, 2012

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    I Think

    I think I know why I don't share too much of myself, at least the deep, really hurt stuff.  I'm afraid because when I was younger, I would get groups of friends, and on two different occassions, I was told, "I NO LONGER want to be your friend."  That was 2 seperate...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Feb 11, 2010

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    Vulnerable

     I fear anyone getting close to me because I will be so vulnerable. I will get attached to them and when they disappear, I will be so hurt. Also, they will see all my flaws and could easily use them against me. Most of all, I fear judgment. That they will stop liking me. I...
    reset reset 18-21, F 6 Responses Dec 22, 2009

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    Putting My Heart To Rest </3

    Why am I so afraid to get close? Why do I flee? I shut my friends, potential boyfriends out...It isn't them, it's just what I do.I'm afraid to allow anyone get close me to me...I've hurt people before, and I feel guilty as hell because of it.I let down the ones I love, and I just...
    XxxFallenAngelxxX XxxFallenAngelxxX 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 1, 2011

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    Too Close For Comfort.

    All of history and litature is full of stories of how people betray each other. Brutus and Ceaser, Judas and Jesus. It does not inspire confedence in others. Throughout my life I have found this to be true. Everytime I try to tell some one about myself, they either betray me, or...
    suffocating suffocating 16-17, F Oct 13, 2010

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    Don'T Get Too Close

    Here's the thing; be nice to me, i'll be nice to you, be friend to me, i'll be friend with you. That's all! I mean like a casual friend, whenever we see each other we say "Hi, Hello, small talks and that's it! But thinking that we'll get too close as friend makes me sick...
    DarkSoul07 DarkSoul07 22-25, F 12 Responses Mar 7, 2013

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    You asked me why I love you. And for me it is really hard to put into words why I love you. You say I under estimate my vocabulary but to me it’s not so much my vocabulary as it...
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    I have a few close friends. i don't trust people, I've been hurt badly.
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    I am 16 yrs old girl and in my life happened something strange that I cant understand but I love and I cant let go altough it is hurting me and I just can't decide what is right so...
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    We were best friends. For five years I have gotten to know her. I grew up with her. Now, she's a stranger. When we got into the same college it seemed the only choice was to room...
    redefiningjane redefiningjane 18-21, F 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    There's so many things I want to tell you. I wish I had the courage to just say it and not make this note that only I will see. I'm not OK. I never will be OK. I've been damaged...
    drowninginsaltwater drowninginsaltwater 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 6

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    Hi, I'm Abby. I'm currently 17 going 18. I'm from Malaysia. I have a mother and a father. I have two older half-sisters and a half-brother. My father is my mother's second husband...
    abskingggk abskingggk 16-17, F 3 Responses Apr 17

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    you are the one for me i don’t need anyone when you are with me you are the fallen angel who visited earth you are the princess of my dreams when there is darkness in my life...
    universitylife universitylife 22-25, M 22 hrs ago

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    Hi everyone it's my first time posting something like this up but I've reached the end of the road with how I'm feeling and if it wasn't for my family I probably wouldn't be here...
    PaulGSXR PaulGSXR 26-30, M 2 Responses Apr 19

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    we become friends and get kinda close, then I trust them... but once I trust them and open up... I think I either annoy them or scare them because they start to act different...
    Bigcat1697 Bigcat1697 16-17, F 3 days ago

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    As I've mentioned before, I don't have a lot of friends. So I've never experienced having close friends before. That scares me a little bit. But I also hope to find it soon
    CallMeAmy CallMeAmy 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 4

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    So selective in-fact, that I've got no one close and everyone far away. It gets tiring being alone. Oh woe is me. :p Maybe I should try harder to change my status of "alone and...
    ambivalentFriability ambivalentFriability 18-21 Apr 7

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    just want to share lil' bit to ease the hurt in my chest...it's been long time that I ever remember that I more preferred girls than the opposite...but I grew up in homophobic...
    shadowspuppet shadowspuppet 26-30, F Apr 14

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    At first I feel just sorry for him because of his condition, he is suffering from Asperger's disorder, a sort of autistic kind of thing. And he told me that since 4 he was in a lot...
    nbsbgal nbsbgal 22-25, F Apr 22

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    just Think of my inbox as your personal diary where you could freely write anything into... it will always be there to listen and to help... the only difference of this diary to an...
    YourSpecialFriendlyDiary YourSpecialFriendlyDiary 13-15, F 4 Responses Apr 18

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    Hi..I am 25 f from India. I haven't posted any personal experience/thought anywhere online yet. I almost despise the idea of letting people who know I am. Here I am doing exactly...
    puntermuniya puntermuniya 22-25, F 6 Responses Apr 19

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    I have come to the conclusion that you cannot fix stupid. The people with the loudest voices seem to be the most ignorant. This morning I was scrolling Facebook and came across a...
    SuumCuique SuumCuique 31-35, F Apr 24

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    I will never try to change anyone unless as I am listening to them, I can help them somehow see what they are doing in a situation to make it better. Hopefully that makes sense...
    favestril favestril 41-45, F 2 Responses Apr 25

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    afraid of what will happen, if I speak up, speak out, let them know I'm hurting. but how do you tell someone who thinks you're perfectly fine, that you dread everyday before it...
    irishlassy98 irishlassy98 16-17, F Apr 13