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I Am Afraid to Let Anyone Get Close to Me

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    Experiencing Growth: Becoming A Mature Woman

    Recently, I was suffering from depression caused by a resistance to truth.  Starting to live the life I desire and had to make mandatory changes.  Such as loving myself, putting first things first and being real with myself.  The truth was very painful to face, yet once it...
    makeithapen10 makeithapen10 26-30 May 29, 2011

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    Too Close For Comfort.

    All of history and litature is full of stories of how people betray each other. Brutus and Ceaser, Judas and Jesus. It does not inspire confedence in others. Throughout my life I have found this to be true. Everytime I try to tell some one about myself, they either betray me, or...
    suffocating suffocating 16-17, F Oct 13, 2010

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    I Always Ruin Things Up Whether Intentionally Or Unintentionally

    i dunno why every time i felt like getting close to someone i always mess it up , either i find some flaws from them and pick a fight or put them unto such expectations that i know they wouldn't have met ever... i always end up loosing them just coz when i feel like they are...
    donnybon22 donnybon22 18-21, F Aug 22, 2011

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    Don'T Get Too Close

    Here's the thing; be nice to me, i'll be nice to you, be friend to me, i'll be friend with you. That's all! I mean like a casual friend, whenever we see each other we say "Hi, Hello, small talks and that's it! But thinking that we'll get too close as friend makes me sick...
    DarkSoul07 DarkSoul07 22-25, F 15 Responses Mar 7, 2013

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    Stopped Talking To Someone

    I met a guy a couple months ago, and some fun stuff happened between us, but I won't go into detail.. bottom line, we clicked really well. It wasn't just a one time fling. We talked about our pasts, made each other laugh, and it seemed like we were going to be good friends. For...
    Keepsunshiny Keepsunshiny 18-21, F Jul 1, 2012

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    Putting My Heart To Rest </3

    Why am I so afraid to get close? Why do I flee? I shut my friends, potential boyfriends out...It isn't them, it's just what I do.I'm afraid to allow anyone get close me to me...I've hurt people before, and I feel guilty as hell because of it.I let down the ones I love, and I just...
    XxxFallenAngelxxX XxxFallenAngelxxX 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 1, 2011

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    In Every Way

    Wether it be romantic, friends or even family. It's hard for me to become emotionally attached to someone. Don't get me wrong, I can chat it up with someone and be the most friendly and outgoing person with them, but ill always be cautious and keep my guard up. I let myself trust...
    Aquamarine221 Aquamarine221 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 17, 2013

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    I Have Been Tricked And Defamed

    Long time back, during my teens, I was miss popular Diva. My uncle sabotaged my social life completely. He forcefully made a girl [ fat hairy and brown ] friends with me. She seriously needed 100% makeover and had all the bad manners a girl can have. She wasnt even sweet to me...
    HelenParis HelenParis 22-25 1 Response Feb 28, 2012

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    Betrayed

    im afraid to let anyone get close to me because i hate myself. i dont see anything good in being me so im afraid they will reject me or make fun of me because of who iam/ what i look like. many people have betrayed me the first time was in grade 6/7 with my first best friend...
    atreyuxo atreyuxo 16-17 1 Response Dec 23, 2009

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    Because People Do Horrible Things

    My experiences have shown me that people do unimaginably horrible things as soon as you turn your back. Of course, I know not everyone is like that, but the ones who are can completely destroy your life, and even you, if they can catch you off guard. I did recently try to let...
    waterbaby waterbaby 26-30, F Dec 24, 2009

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    I am afraid to let someone close to me

    because with my 1st bf he was close to me and then he ended up cheating on me with another girl then ended up cheating on her with another girl. What do I do get close with another guy or not
    RaspberryTommyCat RaspberryTommyCat 13-15, F 1 Response May 2

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    Because...

    In my "case" - you wouldn't like me! I am rarely aware of what you might feel , while I talk without thinking. I hurt people not intentionally. That's why, basically. It is a good enough reason, isn't it. ? yeah.. 
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 9, 2009

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    I Fear Being Hurt By Those I Open Up To

    I can talk on ep and that really is my only outlet for social contact most days.but in my real day to day life its hard for me to talk to people and risk abuse like the past.I seem to get burnt when I reach out to people and ask for helpI am trying my best now to be selective to...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F May 19, 2012

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    Excerpts

    The other day I was going through my cupboards and found an old notepad. After flicking through a few pages, I found a full page I had written a while back. I do this thing every so often where I let my mind take charge and just write what's in my head. Here are one or two...
    Emptysoul30 Emptysoul30 22-25, M 1 Response Aug 22, 2011

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    A family that projected its sick world view

    onto me, a borderline-********* who partially raised me to be destructive and careless with people's emotions, and a series of drug addictions -- all these things will teach you not to trust people, to lie, that if anyone got too close, they'd run away in fear, that you are...
    trianglelamp trianglelamp 26-30, M Jun 13

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    Relationships Lead To Pain

     My friendships always seem to end up in splitsville.  I guess it's a product of my raising, but it seems like I can keep a friend indefinitely until I get close to the person; then, it just goes to hell.  I have already lost a close friend this year, and I'm...
    zavalon zavalon 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 23, 2009

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    I'm afraid of putting effort in to meeting new

    people. I'm afraid I will just end up hurting them, or end up being disappointed, myself. I have trust issues and based on previous experiences, I live my life accordingly. People don't like the comparisons but most times, the comparisons are accurate. I also don't trust my own...
    ThisIsNormal ThisIsNormal 26-30, M 2 Responses May 11

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    Vulnerable

     I fear anyone getting close to me because I will be so vulnerable. I will get attached to them and when they disappear, I will be so hurt. Also, they will see all my flaws and could easily use them against me. Most of all, I fear judgment. That they will stop liking me. I...
    reset reset 18-21, F 6 Responses Dec 22, 2009

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    It's The Truth

    In real life, if emotions started getting involved I would start doubting. After what I've been through, I think there's a wolf under the wool.
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Dec 22, 2009

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    I hate being touched.

    No it isn't ptsd, i think its a phobia. It just feels awkward and uncomfortable.
    Mi5h Mi5h 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 17

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    I Just Don't Know What To Think Anymore

    This is going to be a short story but people continuously surprise me by their cruelty. I'm an honest person. I am giving. And yet, "jerk me around" is seemingly tattooed on my forehead. I'm just weary of it.
    lisa36 lisa36 36-40, F 2 Responses Oct 16, 2010

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    Reason Why I Don't Have Many Friends?

    I've been told before that luck of trust and ablity to open up to people is what keeps me from not having that many friends and its why I'm never in a relationship. I hate so much how this is not even really my fault, besides naively looking for the best in others... But I have...
    renbrooks521 renbrooks521 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 14, 2012

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    So Want This To Go Away

    I want to feel love so much in my life, but lack the confidence to try and tell anyone how I feel. My counselor tells me to do so and I am just scared.
    asert12345678 asert12345678 31-35, M Mar 12, 2013

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    I just lost all off my friends in one day due

    to the fact I am afraid to get too close to people. My best friend for three years I made cry cause I told him that I was done with this friendship. I'm afraid to get close to people cause every time I get close to someone we have a falling out and I get hurt for a very long...
    hinhead hinhead 16-17, M Jan 18

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    I Think

    I think I know why I don't share too much of myself, at least the deep, really hurt stuff.  I'm afraid because when I was younger, I would get groups of friends, and on two different occassions, I was told, "I NO LONGER want to be your friend."  That was 2 seperate...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Feb 11, 2010

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    Related Experiences

    I so want to admire myself for being brave and not hiding myself so I don't get hurt but I can't because I'm afraid. I don't try to be someone I'm not...I'm not a phony. That would...
    ADF37 ADF37 56-60 Sep 21

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    I didn't used to be...but life has taught me to be more cautious. I have let too many people get close to me when I was younger & I ended up getting hurt. So I have been more...
    RubyLane RubyLane 41-45, F 2 Responses Oct 10

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    I'm very blunt when I have to be if I see that their is an injustice going on I tend to speak out. I also don't put up wit anyone's BS if you do something I don't agree with you...
    Morenita79 Morenita79 31-35, F 1 day ago

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    What would you do if you knew what I really thought would you not like me would we not be friends are the thoughts that keep me from letting anyone know every thing about me other...
    herealways2017 herealways2017 13-15, F 2 Responses Oct 5

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    I meet friend and after say a week they bully me and use what I said about my life and past against me to upset me :( happened so many times I can't let anyone in e.g a boyfriend...
    Unknown1456 Unknown1456 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I've somehow become so good at shutting people out, never letting anyone see the real me, that I don't even know who she is anymore.
    Calsi704 Calsi704 18-21, F Oct 8

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    I won't let you close enough to hurt me No, I won't rescue you to just desert me I can't give you the heart you think you gave me It's time to say goodbye to turning tables To...
    ItsGracie ItsGracie 31-35, F Oct 7

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    Hey! It's been a while. I have came out of the closet. Well, to myself, and a few select people. The ones that are important. It all started New Year's Eve of last year, 2013. I...
    Becks8806 Becks8806 26-30, M 2 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    I'm really afraid of coming out since I'm afraid of what everyone will think and what everyone will say to me or if they will start to ignore me or hate me. Also I have no idea...
    bvbandmcr bvbandmcr 13-15, F 7 hrs ago

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    I've let several people close, it has always wound up bad or hurtful. I swore I wouldn't get real close to anyone here on EP but I have a soft heart and am easily bamboozled by...
    onebrightday onebrightday 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 30

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    I'm not sure if my best friend is still my best friend. 3 years ago I started to become really good friends with her at school because we had common interest and were basically the...
    rachel0817 rachel0817 16-17 18 hrs ago

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    If they don't like it they can fill out a comment card..then shove it up their ***! (Redeye reference, anyone remember that movie? With Rachel McAdams and Cillian Murphy?)
    FierrrrceNadia FierrrrceNadia 18-21, F 2 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    yeah!!! I can speak whatever I like, but now I kind of hold my tongue in some situations and with some people. but overall it is easy for me to just let it all out.
    LittleCreates LittleCreates 22-25, M 1 Response 9 hrs ago

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    Letting people get close to me hurts either me or them... I don't want to hurt anyone. Just go away...
    Lilwillbe Lilwillbe 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 2

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    I wanted him to stay in my life. Even though I’ve cried, felt like I was going to die, and drank alcohol a few times before over someone I was in love with not loving me, I’ve...
    Roshunn Roshunn 26-30, F a week ago

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    Being cautious comes into it,but when all is said and done,I occasionally meet someone I sincerely think is an OK kind of person,and I AM afraid to let them get close.Half the...
    KurMujun KurMujun 18-21, M Sep 30

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    learned this lesson the hard way! it's amazing how people have no problem being your "friend" when they need something from you. but as soon as you no longer let them walk all over...
    calgarysc calgarysc 22-25, F 6 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    This! This is my biggest fear of all when it comes to my social anxiety. I can't take being rejected. It kills me inside. It makes me feel like I'm not good enough. :( It makes...
    rdawes rdawes 26-30, F 5 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    Not afraid but i think i won't have any problem if i never have a gf cause i have my best friend and i could enjoy my life with him too :)
    mahdiraza mahdiraza 16-17, M 40 mins ago

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    well yes i am a closet lesbian my mum know knows as of last week along with my aunts and my cousin and one of my friends they were all completely fine with it by the way i'm 17 my...
    Charb2345 Charb2345 16-17, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    Sometimes when i feel worthless I'll let ppl say **** to me and i wont even retaliate
    miz0217 miz0217 18-21, M 21 hrs ago

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    Beloved, I miss you! I don't even know you but I know I miss you so much it hurts. I can't wait till we meet or maybe we have already met somewhere, but I can't wait until I can...
    SkyThunderstorms SkyThunderstorms 22-25, F 4 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    I have a straight guy friend who is always vain and so noisy in our class, we became so close because we are always together in our hobbies ,that we even share our stories every...
    Andrai55 Andrai55 18-21 6 days ago

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    I am afraid that it's becoming my grandmothers time to go. I'm so far away from her and when my grandpa was dying I couldn't be there. I honestly can't imaging a life without my...
    chanel0408 chanel0408 18-21, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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