Post

I Am Afraid to Let Anyone Get Close to Me

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 413 People

    I Just Don't Know What To Think Anymore

    This is going to be a short story but people continuously surprise me by their cruelty. I'm an honest person. I am giving. And yet, "jerk me around" is seemingly tattooed on my forehead. I'm just weary of it.
    lisa36 lisa36 36-40, F 2 Responses Oct 16, 2010

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I hate being touched.

    No it isn't ptsd, i think its a phobia. It just feels awkward and uncomfortable.
    Mi5h Mi5h 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 17

    Your Response

    Cancel

    It's The Truth

    In real life, if emotions started getting involved I would start doubting. After what I've been through, I think there's a wolf under the wool.
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Dec 22, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Putting My Heart To Rest </3

    Why am I so afraid to get close? Why do I flee? I shut my friends, potential boyfriends out...It isn't them, it's just what I do.I'm afraid to allow anyone get close me to me...I've hurt people before, and I feel guilty as hell because of it.I let down the ones I love, and I just...
    takethispain takethispain 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 1, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Have Been Tricked And Defamed

    Long time back, during my teens, I was miss popular Diva. My uncle sabotaged my social life completely. He forcefully made a girl [ fat hairy and brown ] friends with me. She seriously needed 100% makeover and had all the bad manners a girl can have. She wasnt even sweet to me...
    HelenParis HelenParis 22-25 1 Response Feb 28, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Don'T Get Too Close

    Here's the thing; be nice to me, i'll be nice to you, be friend to me, i'll be friend with you. That's all! I mean like a casual friend, whenever we see each other we say "Hi, Hello, small talks and that's it! But thinking that we'll get too close as friend makes me sick...
    DarkSoul07 DarkSoul07 22-25, F 15 Responses Mar 7, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Fear Being Hurt By Those I Open Up To

    I can talk on ep and that really is my only outlet for social contact most days.but in my real day to day life its hard for me to talk to people and risk abuse like the past.I seem to get burnt when I reach out to people and ask for helpI am trying my best now to be selective to...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F May 19, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Because People Do Horrible Things

    My experiences have shown me that people do unimaginably horrible things as soon as you turn your back. Of course, I know not everyone is like that, but the ones who are can completely destroy your life, and even you, if they can catch you off guard. I did recently try to let...
    waterbaby waterbaby 26-30, F Dec 24, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Reason Why I Don't Have Many Friends?

    I've been told before that luck of trust and ablity to open up to people is what keeps me from not having that many friends and its why I'm never in a relationship. I hate so much how this is not even really my fault, besides naively looking for the best in others... But I have...
    renbrooks521 renbrooks521 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 14, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Stopped Talking To Someone

    I met a guy a couple months ago, and some fun stuff happened between us, but I won't go into detail.. bottom line, we clicked really well. It wasn't just a one time fling. We talked about our pasts, made each other laugh, and it seemed like we were going to be good friends. For...
    Keepsunshiny Keepsunshiny 18-21, F Jul 1, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    A family that projected its sick world view

    onto me, a borderline-********* who partially raised me to be destructive and careless with people's emotions, and a series of drug addictions -- all these things will teach you not to trust people, to lie, that if anyone got too close, they'd run away in fear, that you are...
    trianglelamp trianglelamp 26-30, M Jun 13

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Excerpts

    The other day I was going through my cupboards and found an old notepad. After flicking through a few pages, I found a full page I had written a while back. I do this thing every so often where I let my mind take charge and just write what's in my head. Here are one or two...
    Emptysoul30 Emptysoul30 22-25, M 1 Response Aug 22, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    So Want This To Go Away

    I want to feel love so much in my life, but lack the confidence to try and tell anyone how I feel. My counselor tells me to do so and I am just scared.
    asert12345678 asert12345678 31-35, M Mar 12, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Relationships Lead To Pain

     My friendships always seem to end up in splitsville.  I guess it's a product of my raising, but it seems like I can keep a friend indefinitely until I get close to the person; then, it just goes to hell.  I have already lost a close friend this year, and I'm...
    zavalon zavalon 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 23, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Betrayed

    im afraid to let anyone get close to me because i hate myself. i dont see anything good in being me so im afraid they will reject me or make fun of me because of who iam/ what i look like. many people have betrayed me the first time was in grade 6/7 with my first best friend...
    atreyuxo atreyuxo 16-17 1 Response Dec 23, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Think

    I think I know why I don't share too much of myself, at least the deep, really hurt stuff.  I'm afraid because when I was younger, I would get groups of friends, and on two different occassions, I was told, "I NO LONGER want to be your friend."  That was 2 seperate...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Feb 11, 2010

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Too Close For Comfort.

    All of history and litature is full of stories of how people betray each other. Brutus and Ceaser, Judas and Jesus. It does not inspire confedence in others. Throughout my life I have found this to be true. Everytime I try to tell some one about myself, they either betray me, or...
    suffocating suffocating 16-17, F Oct 13, 2010

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Always Ruin Things Up Whether Intentionally Or Unintentionally

    i dunno why every time i felt like getting close to someone i always mess it up , either i find some flaws from them and pick a fight or put them unto such expectations that i know they wouldn't have met ever... i always end up loosing them just coz when i feel like they are...
    donnybon22 donnybon22 18-21, F Aug 22, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    In Every Way

    Wether it be romantic, friends or even family. It's hard for me to become emotionally attached to someone. Don't get me wrong, I can chat it up with someone and be the most friendly and outgoing person with them, but ill always be cautious and keep my guard up. I let myself trust...
    Aquamarine221 Aquamarine221 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 17, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I just lost all off my friends in one day due

    to the fact I am afraid to get too close to people. My best friend for three years I made cry cause I told him that I was done with this friendship. I'm afraid to get close to people cause every time I get close to someone we have a falling out and I get hurt for a very long...
    hinhead hinhead 16-17, M Jan 18

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Experiencing Growth: Becoming A Mature Woman

    Recently, I was suffering from depression caused by a resistance to truth.  Starting to live the life I desire and had to make mandatory changes.  Such as loving myself, putting first things first and being real with myself.  The truth was very painful to face, yet once it...
    makeithapen10 makeithapen10 26-30 May 29, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I'm afraid of putting effort in to meeting new

    people. I'm afraid I will just end up hurting them, or end up being disappointed, myself. I have trust issues and based on previous experiences, I live my life accordingly. People don't like the comparisons but most times, the comparisons are accurate. I also don't trust my own...
    ThisIsNormal ThisIsNormal 26-30, M 2 Responses May 11

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Because...

    In my "case" - you wouldn't like me! I am rarely aware of what you might feel , while I talk without thinking. I hurt people not intentionally. That's why, basically. It is a good enough reason, isn't it. ? yeah.. 
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 9, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Vulnerable

     I fear anyone getting close to me because I will be so vulnerable. I will get attached to them and when they disappear, I will be so hurt. Also, they will see all my flaws and could easily use them against me. Most of all, I fear judgment. That they will stop liking me. I...
    reset reset 18-21, F 6 Responses Dec 22, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I am afraid to let someone close to me

    because with my 1st bf he was close to me and then he ended up cheating on me with another girl then ended up cheating on her with another girl. What do I do get close with another guy or not
    RaspberryTommyCat RaspberryTommyCat 13-15, F 1 Response May 2

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Related Experiences

    I know how it is especially growing up and maybe some people can relate. I had a trampoline and a pool when I was younger. Most kids liked to hang out because I invited them over...
    RedScythe RedScythe 22-25, M Aug 5

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I don't have any close friends or family. Whenever I do get close to someone I always find some way of f*cking it up. I'm so tired of being lonely but at the same time afraid that...
    gochickinparty gochickinparty 16-17, F Aug 7

    Your Response

    Cancel
    When you have social anxiety and Tourette's, you are used to being labeled as a weirdo. I'm not the type that show my emotions. For instance I hardly cry. So if you hurt my...
    Skywalker1979 Skywalker1979 31-35, M 2 Responses Aug 9

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I will no longer tolerate abuse from anyone, online or in real life. I've been a member of the Experience Project for many months now and during that time I've been insulted...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Aug 12

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Online at least I can be a bit chatty, but even online I don't let people close easily. I'm trying to keep previous damage in the past, but I'm still quite cautious. Hopefully in...
    sometimeslonelytoo sometimeslonelytoo 41-45, M 1 Response Aug 16

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I dont let many get close to me... Not because im snobbish or antisocial... Im just very guarded... Ive been hurt much in my life and i put up walls to protect that from happening...
    sunpea sunpea 36-40, F 1 Response 1 day ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    They've liked me but not loved me. I don't really let anyone if that makes sense. I usually push guys away if I know they have some kind of feelings because I get really nervous...
    sashakimi4 sashakimi4 13-15, F Aug 10

    Your Response

    Cancel
    In addition thereR17;s a cargo deck just previously mentioned the waterline that adapts properly for use like a transforming location and loading ramp for your Antarctica shipR17;s...
    Augustina97sy Augustina97sy 31-35, M 1 Response 3 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    It seems most of my family come in pairs like Noah's Ark. I don't think I was born for this family ark because I am the only one who doesn't have a family buddy. I am the only...
    InfiniteSunshine InfiniteSunshine 26-30, F 1 Response 1 hr ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Once you’ve collected the many responses from your mates, Review and consolidate the girls’ weekend activities and getaways into one record. Share the overall listing...
    Stephanzt506 Stephanzt506 31-35, M 1 Response 10 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Solar-bathe in utter privacy. Heat natural light caressing the skin. Slipping into your shade for a nap. Take pleasure in a protracted, calming bath during the free-standing tub at...
    Jeffrybup Jeffrybup 31-35, M 1 Response 8 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I'm afraid of dying a virgin. I'm afraid of dying without anyone to cry and miss me. I don't open to females. I'm not good enough. I haven't kissed a girl, seen a girl nude, been...
    CJCA CJCA 18-21, M 1 Response 4 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Physically or emotionally. First, im a man so I try to not even admit that I have feelings. Most of my life experiences until I was about 18 were terrible. I was physically and...
    Handyman25 Handyman25 22-25, M 6 Responses Aug 7

    Your Response

    Cancel
    In addition to fines, all convicted ingesting motorists who receive several driving prohibitions are needed to go to an alcohol rehabilitation plan and may have an Liquor interlock...
    Michael592w2ui6 Michael592w2ui6 31-35, M 1 Response Aug 12

    Your Response

    Cancel
    This is a silly thing to fear. I'm 39 years old, a veteran of two wars, and all sorts of other things that ought to make me fearless. Still, I'm afraid of rejection. It isn't...
    PhresnoPhoenix PhresnoPhoenix 36-40, M 5 Responses 3 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Can you blame me? Father walked out on us when I was 3, I was molested by a relative at 8, bullied from elementary school up until HS. String of intensely close friendships where...
    Lov3intheasylum Lov3intheasylum 31-35, F 1 day ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I remember how terrified I was about coming out as Bi. I was 13 and I thought for sure I'd lose my best friend. I didn't though, she's been by my side for years and I love her for...
    Twichl Twichl 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 3

    Your Response

    Cancel
    So 10,000 people are afraid. I'm not sure I should really enlighten my thought process, but what the heck, I've been doing it enough lately. Last week (or was it week before, can't...
    Faust76 Faust76 36-40, M Aug 12

    Your Response

    Cancel
    It's the first time that I talk about it 'out loud'. I only talk about this by message but well I need to do it some day so...here I am! :D I'm 17 and I know it since I had around...
    Bral05 Bral05 16-17, M 2 Responses Aug 21

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I am not afraid to let go. I am not afraid to cut negative people out of my life. I am not afraid to love myself because you failed to do so. But I am afraid of never feeling the...
    brokenhearted7108 brokenhearted7108 31-35, F 4 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Seems to me that alot of men I am around want it all A wife , a mistress , a freak , a mommy , a nurse I can only be ten things at one time I'm afraid I will never find a man...
    applesnbananas applesnbananas 51-55, F 1 Response 19 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I have known I liked girls since about 3rd grade. I am now a 23 year old college grad who had never even kissed a girl. In fact I have been in a heterosexual relationship for 6...
    lowfatyogurt lowfatyogurt 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 14

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Because of something bad happening to me. There was a time when I trusted everyone, but now I don't trust anyone. It might be, because I have been taken advantage of by women and...
    Sara600 Sara600 56-60, F 1 Response a week ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I know we are all complicated beings and I'm no different. However I complicate my life further by not being honest about my sexual orientation. I can admit to close friends that I...
    licwineoffurbody licwineoffurbody 41-45, M 2 Responses 4 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel