I Am Afraid To Let Myself Be Happy For Fear Of Being Hurt

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    i don't know what it is guilt the fact I punish

    myself for all mistakes I have made or keep making or my failures maybe I feel like I don't deserve to be happy i don't know every time I start to feel happy it gets taken away normally i have a lot of issues
    fanofpll fanofpll
    31-35, F
    Nov 29, 2015

    Every time I find someone I like I push them

    away because I'm afraid of getting hurt. I don't want to be hurt again so I'm hurting others. I just want to get better and be able to trust others again.
    meganleslie meganleslie
    16-17, F
    Dec 1, 2014

    Fear

    I have been thinking of this exact feeling all day long, and so it is agrapo that this is one of the topics that came up. I have been alone for a while, and about two months ago met a nice guy. He acts nice. Compliments me a lot. Shows none of the classic signs of being an...
    LolaL LolaL
    41-45, F
    Sep 13, 2010

    Building A Wall

    It's rare that I find a good relationship and when for the first time I finally found a good guy but I'm in such fear of getting hurt I don't express my feelings. When a good guy comes along I feel it's too good to be true so I get so defensive sometimes. He has never given me a...
    EleanorIsRunning EleanorIsRunning
    18-21, F
    Nov 1, 2012

    No matter how many times I seem to trust in

    people the ones close test to me are the ones that can hurt me the most. I've been lied and stabbed in the back by those I thought I could trust. And even if I say the next time I'll be careful I still can't trust in others like I used too. I'm just tired of rebuilding my walls...
    Yubikiri Yubikiri
    18-21, F
    Mar 25, 2015

    I always end my relationships with men

    if I become too attached to them, cause I'm afraid they'll hurt me.
    pingviniuks pingviniuks
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 24, 2014

    No matter how close I get to anybody I always

    have my guard up. I only let people get as close to me as I want them because everyone leaves me at some point. Nobody's really been able to break down the wall I've built around myself.
    Playlist98 Playlist98
    18-21, F
    Mar 24, 2015
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