I Am Afraid

Oh, these old feelings are all seeping back in like dampness around the window sills of my soul. I often imagined that they were gone, but I always knew they would be back again. Like the past, we forget some time who we used to be and...

I have been beaten.
Mentally, emotionally, and yes, physically.
I am so afraid he will do it too.
But worse than not believing in mr right, is finding him and later realizing what you had.
He is so amazing to me. I will trust him...

My boyfriend is threatening to send me back to the hospital. I hate it there. it smells too clean and I hate schedules and being forced to eat. The medicine is horrible. Seeing others suffering. I hate it. I won't go back.

I swear bi-polar has nothing on my emotions at the minute..i was really hoping today would pass in a blur but nope, last night the kids asked me to make a birthday cake for daddy, and where do we take his presents? ...he would have been...

I am scared, but I have to go on. It is too easy to give up and I don't want that. I made a step foward and although it didn't turn out the way I wanted, it shows that I can do something and something will happen. I have to take a...

I am 25years old and all my friends have abandoned me. I used to go out every weekend partying with my friends but when i met my Girlfriend 4 years ago i stopped going out, not completely, but was the very rare occasion. The more time i...

My mind, my emotions, my body ........................
I am a whirl wind of moods. I woke up crying today.   No reason. Nothing outside the normal stuff.
 I am afraid.   I want to shelter Jim so I try  to...

I'm too scared to Live but I'm scared to Die
I'm scared of the Idea of living , Moving on and change
on the Other Hand I'm scared Of Death and The Idea of Dying
it leaves me depressed
Fear Kills me every night

Swans...

They're just so big and scary looking! Yes, they're beautiful and majestic but they are also vicious. They look at you with their big, beady eyes and long swan necks and you can almost see them thinking.

"I'm gon' hiss at...

I am afraid of men. I am afraid of thunderstorms, tornados, spiders, people who get to close to my personal space, and drowning. I am afraid of the night outside my window, and all it holds.
But I don't want to be afraid. I am...

I rarely fear anything, its always been just the loss of a loved one or something of the sort, but anymore, i deeply fear the christian religion. I myself am pagan, and have been for many years, i am a therianthrope, and fully believe...

http://video.server.dhamma.org/video/intro/vintro.htm

watch the videos on that page with an open mind.

Peace.

I just found out a few weeks ago that I have a tumor. On the size scale the neurosurgeon said he would classify it as Large or Giant. He said it's slow growing. Comforting... Not. It's an acoustic neuroma. I will most likely lose all...

Im afraid to sleep. It doesn't bother me every night but it has for the past 3 weeks. Sometimes I wake up and am literally paralyzed. I can't move my hands my legs or even my fingers. I try to yell for help but i cant talk. ITS...

I found this - I wrote it a long time ago. I found it the other day and I was amused, then horrified - so of course I decided to type it up and post it here.

I am afraid of dolls. My grandmother has this faded parchment yellow room...

My list of fears:

Alcohol/Drugs.  As the child of two alcoholics (one more so in the past), I've seen and heard many things I never wanted to see and hear.  Alcoholics and drug addicts are in abundance in my family. ...

I'm scared to write her nameit's so real, so tangibleI want to see her facetouch her facesay her namebut I'm scaredtoo scared to even tryscared I'm in too deep alreadyand scared I'll never escapenever dig my way out if I give inif I let...

Im about to go to college. I just got accepted and it's only the beginning of my senior year. But I know better than to ask for sympathy and that's not what I want. I'd like a clue. Just a hint or a glimpse into the future ten years...

I have a father, he is a terrible person... Words can]t describe it. One thing- that once he wanted to kill my mom tells a lot. He is a hard drinker. When he is in a rage my mother and I shut the door in one of the room, and sit there...