I Am Afraid

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    Another Long List.

    My list of fears: Alcohol/Drugs.  As the child of two alcoholics (one more so in the past), I've seen and heard many things I never wanted to see and hear.  Alcoholics and drug addicts are in abundance in my family.  Just letting all control go and becoming...
    ChevyGirl ChevyGirl
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Dec 12, 2009

    Afraid I'm afraid to write the words

    that i feel because of the grip that they have on my soul. Afraid to know that what and who I love is the wrong thing. Afraid of losing my place with God because of my feelings inside. I'm afraid because of the words that were drilled into my head as a child. I'm afraid that...
    taurusboi23 taurusboi23
    26-30, M
    Nov 23, 2014

    It's going to be 70 tomorrow.

    I usually like the summer except for one thing. I have to wear shorts. I don't usually mind this but because of my past, im worried that I'll be "asking for it". It's hard to just ignore it. In order to be comfortable, I wear jeans and a sweatshirt, but I can't for this. It's...
    Blurryface5936 Blurryface5936
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Apr 18, 2016

    Doll Room

    I found this - I wrote it a long time ago. I found it the other day and I was amused, then horrified - so of course I decided to type it up and post it here. I am afraid of dolls. My grandmother has this faded parchment yellow room with built in book shelves. Dolls - dozens of...
    eyes eyes
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Nov 21, 2011

    "Maybe there's something you're afraid to say,

    or someone you're afraid to love, or somewhere you're afraid to go. Its going to hurt. Its going to hurt because it matters." - John Green
    NewBeginnings77 NewBeginnings77
    31-35, F
    Apr 21, 2015

    My roommate had this great idea

    that we should watch horror movies earlier, which I shouldn't have agreed to. Before we found anything on Netflix he asked me if there was anything I was afraid of and didn't want to watch and without thinking I told him I was fine with anything. The first one he picked was the...
    Becky555 Becky555
    22-25, F
    Aug 6, 2015

    I am afraid to talk to people.

     I am afraid that this is the wrong place to talk about the real me. Most of all, I am afraid to sleep. I spend all of my time in the room i rent, which I was just told to leave. So not only is my depression spinning out of control, im now homeless to boot. When is...
    mm60907 mm60907
    31-35, M
    2 Responses Mar 28, 2014

    Yes I am. I am afraid

    that this country I love so much isn't going to be the same country when my child grows up. I see so many people that are blind to what is going to our rights as citizens. I'm watching a totalitarian government unfold right before us. We don't want to see or hear what is going...
    Hikingguy Hikingguy
    46-50, M
    3 Responses Jan 27, 2014

    I will guard myself from your razor sharp

    doubts about me. I will mask the pain from your empathetic eye and presumptuous lies. I will darken the eyes from blackened skies with birds twirling above like crows. Three times you hated me. Once was because of you, twice we aren't through to finish we are so cruel. You will...
    deleted deleted
    Feb 16, 2016

    Yes I have phobias:clowns

    and fireworks... But the one thing I truly fear, that I could not bare, is for people to view me the way I view myself:ugly, worthless, stupid, spaz I just want to know how people view me, how i look to them? Ugly? Annoying? Over dramatic? Stupid?...
    Itscaitlin Itscaitlin
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Dec 15, 2014

    Yesterday I had an EKG

    and was told I have a severe arrhythmia. Today I'm going to my physician to find out if it's serious, and I am terrified.
    discman15 discman15
    31-35, M
    May 29, 2015
    glittxrdiva glittxrdiva
    22-25, F
    Mar 27, 2016

    My grandma passed away Sunday

    and my family is trying to kill my mom because she got all of her possessions and the full inheritance, meanwhile up here my stepdad and me are clashing heads and we're fighting and stuff and I need a phone to take care of stuff and I have the money to buy it but I wouldn't be...
    Manuel1Martinez Manuel1Martinez
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Aug 27, 2015

    I sometimes feel so afraid of what to come.

    Anything, when I drove to gym in the heavy rain, I talked to myself, that was the only way, it's a silly fear no one else could understand, Afraid not being liked , not enough for those who I love. I was rude when talking to my mom, just to end the conversation ASAP, cus I was...
    Mangostrawberrybanana Mangostrawberrybanana
    36-40, F
    1 Response Mar 30, 2015

    In the dark, so alone,

    nothing but darkness and my light is gone. Light come back and lead me out of this hole i am in. In the dark, so alone, no light for me to be whole.
    msvanish0 msvanish0
    46-50, F
    1 Response Jul 16, 2015

    They say that fear is what stands between you

    and your dreams. Around the age of 16, I decided to do things I was afraid of. Not anything too dangerous, just awkward, embarassing things or things that I knew I couldn't go back to my initial situation from there. Of course, I failed a couple of times , but I learnt some...
    sparkydream sparkydream
    22-25, F
    Jul 6, 2015

    ... Im afraid that i might not reach what i am

    expected to "be" ...it scares me how much time had pass already ...it scares me to be me ...
    xenna2 xenna2
    26-30, F
    1 Response Feb 28, 2014

    I really hope this is just an acid reflux,

    not pregnancy. Please. :(
    wreckedserenity wreckedserenity
    18-21, F
    Nov 16, 2015

    Everyone fears, everyone has fears,

    anxieties which fuel so many of their actions, Irrational or not. They exist within all of us. They’re a significant part of our lives, and so I feel it best to mention some of mine. I fear rejection. I fear it because I have been rejected before, mostly by people...
    MeadowLark4 MeadowLark4
    3 Responses Dec 4, 2014

    I am afraid i'm too bad looking,

    or ugly. I've been told by many that i'm good looking, and handsome. But what if I meet a girl that could be someone I could spend years on end with and learn so much from, but she doesn't accept me from what she see's on the surface? I care about what others percieve me alot. I...
    DearlyDie DearlyDie
    18-21, M
    1 Response Jan 8, 2014

    I just found out that I am pregnant.

    I shouldn't even be ABLE to have kids with my body issues, But whatever higher power is there deemed that I have a child. Right now. With that person. Even though I started dating someone else about 1.5 weeks ago. I've been having queasy feelings about the new boyfriend so its...
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Jan 20, 2015

    I just hit 60kg, I try to be more active like I

    used to be and eat healthy (most of the time) but I'm still getting softer and can't pull my pants up... If this keeps going I'll be officially overweight by the end of summer. I think I'm addicted to sugar too :(
    darter99 darter99
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 13, 2016

    I Am Afraid For My Life.

    I am afraid of men. I am afraid of thunderstorms, tornados, spiders, people who get to close to my personal space, and drowning. I am afraid of the night outside my window, and all it holds. But I don't want to be afraid. I am only afraid because of my ex, although I have...
    bluehaiku bluehaiku
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Apr 23, 2009

    ...To fall asleep. My mind has a way of

    turning against me when I fall asleep. I'm not sure what causes it. I could have a perfectly wonderful day, go to sleep with beautiful thoughts flitting through my head like summer butterflies, but when I fall asleep... The world turns cold, I lose control of my happiness, and...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Aug 30, 2015

    To have an o.r.g.a.s.

    m. Its not that I can't reach ****** it's that I am afraid of what will happen. I've heard so many horror stories of women that lose control of my bladder, or bile or some who black out. So, I never let myself have an ******, not even when I pleasure myself. It hasn't been a...
    deleted deleted
    4 Responses Jan 28, 2016


    What the hell am I supposed to do? (sorry for the swear word.) I am afraid because most people who are my age are already parents and many of them are grandparents. My parents are both deceased and so are my wife's parents. I've read books and watched movies (some on childbirth...
    KingofSwords KingofSwords
    56-60, M
    12 Responses Sep 14, 2012

    Too afraid, but know

    that I am only hurting myself by being so. I have to go out and do something rather than just sit inside this comfort zone I have built for myself. I only end up regretting the times I could have done something only not doing it because I was scared.
    asert12345678 asert12345678
    31-35, M
    May 12, 2015

    i am afraid that i am going to be hurt more

    and more in my life, and it's going to change how i treat people in my life. i'm afraid that i'll lose sight of how i really want to live. i'm terrified because one person barely doing anything wrong to me has made me act so different...
    icoulddowithsome icoulddowithsome
    18-21, F
    Nov 3, 2015

    I want to leave my country here is

    so bad to smarts or some one who have any skills in life
    wshyar wshyar
    18-21, M
    1 Response Jul 8, 2015

    I will backslide and

    that the progress I have made in healing will be lost.
    BernadetteAshley BernadetteAshley
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Mar 23, 2016

    Im Afraid To Sleep

     Im afraid to sleep. It doesn't bother me every night but it has for the past 3 weeks. Sometimes I wake up and am literally paralyzed. I can't move my hands my legs or even my fingers. I try to yell for help but i cant talk. ITS NOT A DREAM. I feel the weight of the world on...
    WalterMighty WalterMighty
    5 Responses Jan 15, 2010

    41 - :(

    I swear bi-polar has nothing on my emotions at the minute..i was really hoping today would pass in a blur but nope, last night the kids asked me to make a birthday cake for daddy, and where do we take his presents? ...he would have been 41 today, my poor babies, i really cannot...
    soulsearchingforever soulsearchingforever
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Mar 15, 2013

    Ik it sounds stupid but I'm terrified I'll be

    stuck in an abusive relationship and not even know it. A lot of people say my last relationship was borderline abusive and I honestly didn't realize it or see the signs! Of course I'll leave if I'm being physically abused, but verbally? How will I ever know if I can't even...
    Dreamscape98x Dreamscape98x
    18-21, F
    Feb 15, 2015

    Afraid that someday if we talk again you're

    gonna tell me how happy you are with someone else. That someone already took my place in that heart of yours. Im there reading your messages, your stories about your new love while me, still trap in the past, in our past and getting lonelier each day. I hope when that day comes...
    deleted deleted
    Apr 20, 2015

    I sit in my room all day

    and watch the world pass me by I don't have friends that I can hang out with. Am stuck in limbo
    00Broken00 00Broken00
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 13, 2015

    Of liking someone in an infatuation manner of

    caring about them because the moment I do, that person becomes the center of my universe. It doesn't matter if it's someone I've met online or in real life. I get so reliant on them this also happens in friendship and platonic relationships. It drains other people's energy...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response May 29, 2015

    I Am Afraid of My Father

    I have a father, he is a terrible person... Words can]t describe it. One thing- that once he wanted to kill my mom tells a lot. He is a hard drinker. When he is in a rage my mother and I shut the door in one of the room, and sit there... It lasts for all my life...The problem is...
    Elsie23 Elsie23
    22-25, F
    9 Responses Sep 16, 2009

    Time. oh...she flew by

    so fast people are preparing for a new future whilst I stay shackled in the past. As a kid growing up seemed whimsical and freeing now that I have, its I who need reprieving. why must I stay, no where to go while other people my age are free to flow is it because I'm poor or...
    deleted deleted
    Jul 2, 2015

    Of committing to a college.

    . If im gonna be a D1 athlete attending on a major scholarship, i gotta pick one this week. The coaches are getting antsy. How do i know which is the right one? What if i choose wrong and im miserable? No coach is gonna trust a transfer's student's loyalty...
    peaceinmiles peaceinmiles
    18-21, F
    1 Response Oct 15, 2014

    NO!!!!! 0_0 I am actually haunted!

    !!!! to seeeeee.... my room @_@ -_- looks like I need a Submarine in my room? or I need a Ship to float on water in moe room! :( there is everywhere water, water & water, even some falling on my head when i woke up at 6 AM. I really grew fearsome, seeing water reaching the place...
    Moniker4 Moniker4
    22-25, M
    Jul 30, 2015
    salty2013 salty2013
    31-35, F
    1 Response Jul 9, 2015

    This Saturday I'm supposed to go to a big sex

    positive party with a few friends. The goal is to get these friends to have a good time and jump start their love lives a bit. The thing is, I'm terrified of going. I'm pretending like I'm okay and that I want to go but in reality I just want to sit at home and be a hermit in my...
    bunnyXbunny bunnyXbunny
    31-35, M
    Apr 10, 2015

    I am so afraid of the future.

    Will I even make it out sane let alone alive?
    renlambert renlambert
    Jun 26, 2015

    every man i have know well has wanted to fu_ck

    me, some tryed to rape me and some raped me please heeeeeeelp
    viqui viqui
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Apr 9, 2016

    Edge Of This Life

    Oh, these old feelings are all seeping back in like dampness around the window sills of my soul. I often imagined that they were gone, but I always knew they would be back again. Like the past, we forget some time who we used to be and the things we have done, but it is never...
    CopperCoil CopperCoil
    36-40, M
    2 Responses May 7, 2011

    I'm afraid to let it out of its cage There

    where reason why it was lock up I had to, you see. The pain was to great. I need to hide it and forget it. I wasn't ready for you. I didn't have what you needed. I couldn't be as pretty as they were I wasn't as meek or shy or well spoken I didn't have the experience I wasn't in...
    msvanish0 msvanish0
    46-50, F
    1 Response May 2, 2015

    Same As Everyone Else

    I have been beaten. Mentally, emotionally, and yes, physically. I am so afraid he will do it too. But worse than not believing in mr right, is finding him and later realizing what you had. He is so amazing to me. I will trust him. Because he has shown me no reason to not yet...
    divineright216 divineright216
    Jan 10, 2009

    Yes I am terrified, but not of you,

    or who you are, I am terrified of not knowing you, of not knowing more of who you are. Afraid of not hearing, and feeling your heartbeat once again as I lay in your arms. I am afraid of what life will be without you, without knowing, without feeling, without breathing, for...
    NewBeginnings77 NewBeginnings77
    31-35, F
    5 Responses Feb 28, 2015

    Where To Start ........................

    My mind, my emotions, my body ........................ I am a whirl wind of moods. I woke up crying today.   No reason. Nothing outside the normal stuff.  I am afraid.   I want to shelter Jim so I try  to act okay, but he is me, he knows me inside...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Dec 22, 2009
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