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I Am Alone Iin a Room Full of People

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    The Monster With-in

    I feel as though im in a fog. Floating above the scene as it unfolds. I see me as a scared little girl hiding from the monster. The monster I call mother. She is drunk and mad. Wanting a whipping horse. I'm shaking watching all this unfold. Wanting to reach out and save myself. I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 9, 2012

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    Confusion And Loneliness

    *** Fade to Black playing in the back ground *** "Things not what they used to be Missing one inside of me Deathly lost, this can't be real Cannot stand this hell I feel" Funny how a song can hit so so very close to home....... Feeling really alone and no one to turn to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 21, 2012

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    Now And Then

    I can feel so unique and different from family and others that I will single myself out by being silent or reclusive. I know my self-esteem is low and it is going to take a long time for it to become high enough again to fully put myself out. I feel I am making progress through...
    asert12345678 asert12345678 31-35, M Aug 7, 2013

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    Help

    I am 13 years old whenever i tell people the following story they tell me it's just part of being a teenager. So I stopped telling people I don't trust anyone. I would tell someone and they would tell everyone else, I want help with this, please.  I would be...
    Vampz Vampz 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 7, 2010

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    Sometimes I Wonder If It'S Me Reinforcing This

    I feel disconnected with everyone I know: friends, family, classmates The people I would like to call my close friends are best friends with each other.. and I am not included. I haven't had a best friend since elementary school, excluding my dog. At parties I feel like I am the...
    theseafarer theseafarer 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 28, 2013

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    Crowded..

    I joined this group not because Im saddened in a group, or that I feel depressed or anxious when Im surrounded by people. Its more of a feeling of not being able to connect, or not wanting to. When I meet someone I either feel instantly connected, or they become a gurgled noise...
    pandapuzzle pandapuzzle 18-21 Mar 27, 2012

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    Idgf

    Just came back from a restaurant bar named Comicx. Pretty good place whit amazing statues of Marvel characters nd that stuff. Its amazing how even when i was with not my best friends, but the ones i spend most time i was lonely. Peoples laugh, music, beers, chicken wings but it...
    whatislike whatislike 22-25 Apr 6, 2013

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    I Am Lost

    I always feel alone,except when i am alone.When i am at work,or at a mall,or the beach,i look around and realize my life is empty.I ***** about it,but i don't know what to do. I am 52 years old and am so lost,i can't cry any more.When i am alone there isn't any thing to remind me...
    riverside riverside 51-55, M 1 Response May 2, 2009

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    Why Do I Do It to Myself?

    I think I have reached the decision to just not go to parties or out with groups of people anymore. Whenever I do I constantly think "why did I say I would come, I could have been having a nice evening alone doing my own thing". Part of me tries to be outgoing and...
    ASortaFairytale ASortaFairytale 26-30, F 3 Responses Oct 24, 2007

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    *sigh*

    Is there anyone out there?? This site is making me feel even more alone.............*SIGH*
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response May 10, 2012

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    Life Changing Moments

    I remember being 15 when my whole world turned upside down. I was a very angry and confused child. Hating the fact that I was in foster care but yet knowing that being there meant I didn't have to suffer daily abuse at my mothers will. It was Oct 86, I had run away from the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 16, 2012

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    Trapped

    Some days I get so frustrated.... I'm trapped inside my head, having these irrational thoughts, maybe black thoughts, maybe a little pschotic thoughts and I feel like i'm about to explode with frustration. I walk into a room full of people and i scream at the top of my voice...
    Angeleyes777 Angeleyes777 31-35, F 6 Responses Jul 6, 2009

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    Abnormal??

    My house is filled with family and friends, the smell of dinner coming from the kitchen. Everyone laughing and telling stories of yesterdays. Everyone excited to pile in the truck soon and go to the drive in. Sounds like a good family night.........YET.......I am sitting here...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 29, 2012

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    Prison

    life is my prison, the voices within my guards. I climb these walls of insanity, despair comes in waves, no where to run no where to hide. i scream but no one hears, life is my sentence, death my sweet reward. i continue threw life making all those around me believe i am ok, even...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Apr 14, 2012

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    Wow.. Where Did You Get The Name For This Rooom?

    A couple of years ago, I had posted this line from a poem I wrote back in high school, and I think I had posted it under a different user name. I was sitting in the auditorium in High School and wrote down precisely how I felt. My poem started with I am alone in a room full of...
    DominantLeader DominantLeader 36-40, M Aug 23, 2012

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    Nothing

    No feeling, No love, No One, Just a shell of nothing........I have people around me but yet they seem so far from me. Nothing seems to ease this pain. Nothing I do makes a difference. Nothing, just the four walls staring back at me. NOTHING is what describe me..... All alone and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 18, 2012

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    I Feel Like That Almost All The Time.

    I have never, not even once, in my life felt like I was "included." I can get along fairly well with people when it's one-on-one, I can be engaging in conversation with someone, I can be a pretty charming date. When it's just one other person, I can bring my walls down. But...
    walt1981 walt1981 31-35, M Aug 7, 2013

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    ....no One

    i have friends who talk to me and yet i feel hollow and alone like i'd been alone forever my family says they don't know me any more..that just makes me feel more alone no one understands me no one cares..but i'm still just a teen i've got a long lonely path anyways..i think...
    blaze96 blaze96 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 4, 2010

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    Lost

    I am completly alone although I live with 5 other people.  I can't find a way to not feel awful. I have two daughters and I live with other family members so really I am never alone, but I feel like I am.  My oldest daughter is twelve and needs me to be a mom...
    kyanna12 kyanna12 26-30 8 Responses Jul 5, 2009

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    Well This Is a First...

    ... I generally don't join any group that has a spelling or grammar error, out of principle. But I read the title of this group quickly, identified with it, and joined. It was only after I joined that I noticed the misspelled word. Shame on me. But I do associate with this...
    SheistheLorax SheistheLorax 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 17, 2008

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    Related Experiences

    Every time I become interested in someone & I tell them, they lose interest right away & bail. Things can be going cool, we talk, laugh but then, overnight it seems like they...
    amantium amantium 31-35, M 1 hr ago

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    I Don't Like It Even A Little I hate hate hate hate hate hate being alone. Did I mention I don't like always being alone?
    abrokenlittlegirl abrokenlittlegirl 46-50, F 4 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    I like straight to the point..I want real and honest..if you can't be straight up with me then don't waste my time..Id rather be alone..
    brandinichole85 brandinichole85 26-30, F 5 hrs ago

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    Hello everyone and i hope everyone out there is doing well .I would like to give people out there excellent encouragement about coming out as transgender .I am a proud mom of a 15...
    Proudmom2000 Proudmom2000 26-30, F 4 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    Ok so i dont really know what happened, but it happened on the 2nd of April 2015 (one if my younger sister's birthday, she was turning 11). It was about 7:00pm and i was just...
    tragician tragician 13-15, F 14 hrs ago

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    Just that really. Even in a house full of people. Need to talk to someone who gets me. Is it my age, this stage of life? I don't know. I just know I have so little in common with...
    cherryangel cherryangel 46-50, F 5 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    The busy streets full of people, the bustling mall crowded with consumers, even the college campus teeming with life both plant and animal. So much life around me. Yet I feel as if...
    EmeraldBrony EmeraldBrony 18-21, M 1 Response 23 hrs ago

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    Creating energy as an introvert while drinking beer. And I feel a need to release. When people "hide" in their mind, they "put up walls". What they fail to realize most of the...
    musikid48 musikid48 22-25, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I have no friends left since I started high school. I only got one, but I don't keep in touch with her and now I think I'm losing her too. I feel so alone, even if it's in a room...
    Anny27 Anny27 16-17, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    if I told people that I am bipolar and have PTSD from childhood traumas, and military traumas would they want to know me... Or would they politely exit stage left once they found...
    harleyblu73 harleyblu73 41-45, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    It makes me wonder.. For as long as I can remember, I’ve always been an outsider. Almost all the girls and most of the guys everywhere I’ve been, have always hated me for some...
    Anon8615 Anon8615 26-30, M 5 days ago

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    I don't trust anyone. I've been told by people to not trust even my best friend. I only have two friends. But deep down there's something I feel that's out of place. I feel like no...
    JaineDoh JaineDoh 18-21, F 6 days ago

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    I feel so alone and lost inside right now more than ever I'm so alone in this hotel room I can just hear my own thoughts crying.. It's so empty here without my brothers and dad...
    sunshineh13 sunshineh13 22-25, F 8 Responses a week ago

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    I came on this forum as I thought It was full of people who actually care, how wrong I was.
    alan19662015 alan19662015 36-40, M Aug 26

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    I have two kids now and I would never change that for anything. I love them more than anything. Con- I have NO alone time anymore. I AM a loner. I'm pretty antisocial and I stick...
    Lee86d Lee86d 31-35, M 1 Response Aug 26

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    i wish i could go into a room where all you can see is white and scream out everything that is on my mind, alone
    hollaeveryone hollaeveryone 13-15, F Aug 25

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    sometimes i wish i could go into a room where all you could see is white and scream everything on the top of my head, alone
    hollapeople hollapeople 31-35, F 4 Responses Aug 25

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    I've unintentionally confused people by being cheerful around friends and being gloomy when I am alone or with other people. I wonder what my classmates think of me ?-?
    R3Animated R3Animated 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 24

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    I can't help the emotions that come over me sometimes. I just break down and cry when I'm alone in my room or when no one is home in general. I cry about the past a lot, I cry...
    OldSoulRedux OldSoulRedux 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 24

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    Why do I want to be with M so bad? Is it because I really love her? Or is it just because I want something back that's been lost? Is this sadness even about her, or is about being...
    aaron8686 aaron8686 36-40, M 2 Responses Aug 23

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    I've caught my husband on SO many websites and emailing people from Craigslist about sex. I even just found out he has an Ashley Madison account! He says he never met up with...
    deleted deleted 26-30 11 Responses Aug 23

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    Reasons not to like me: (1) I break at least one thing per week, plates or glasses etc (2) when I eat popcorn I stuff my face with it (3) I can't stand it when people make noises...
    Aminderaser Aminderaser 22-25, F 6 Responses Aug 23

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