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I Am Alone Iin a Room Full of People

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    Abnormal??

    My house is filled with family and friends, the smell of dinner coming from the kitchen. Everyone laughing and telling stories of yesterdays. Everyone excited to pile in the truck soon and go to the drive in. Sounds like a good family night.........YET.......I am sitting here...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 29, 2012

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    The Monster With-in

    I feel as though im in a fog. Floating above the scene as it unfolds. I see me as a scared little girl hiding from the monster. The monster I call mother. She is drunk and mad. Wanting a whipping horse. I'm shaking watching all this unfold. Wanting to reach out and save myself. I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 9, 2012

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    Crowded..

    I joined this group not because Im saddened in a group, or that I feel depressed or anxious when Im surrounded by people. Its more of a feeling of not being able to connect, or not wanting to. When I meet someone I either feel instantly connected, or they become a gurgled noise...
    pandapuzzle pandapuzzle 18-21 Mar 27, 2012

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    Well This Is a First...

    ... I generally don't join any group that has a spelling or grammar error, out of principle. But I read the title of this group quickly, identified with it, and joined. It was only after I joined that I noticed the misspelled word. Shame on me. But I do associate with this...
    SheistheLorax SheistheLorax 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 17, 2008

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    Why Do I Do It to Myself?

    I think I have reached the decision to just not go to parties or out with groups of people anymore. Whenever I do I constantly think "why did I say I would come, I could have been having a nice evening alone doing my own thing". Part of me tries to be outgoing and...
    ASortaFairytale ASortaFairytale 26-30, F 3 Responses Oct 24, 2007

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    *sigh*

    Is there anyone out there?? This site is making me feel even more alone.............*SIGH*
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response May 10, 2012

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    Life Changing Moments

    I remember being 15 when my whole world turned upside down. I was a very angry and confused child. Hating the fact that I was in foster care but yet knowing that being there meant I didn't have to suffer daily abuse at my mothers will. It was Oct 86, I had run away from the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 16, 2012

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    Sometimes I Wonder If It'S Me Reinforcing This

    I feel disconnected with everyone I know: friends, family, classmates The people I would like to call my close friends are best friends with each other.. and I am not included. I haven't had a best friend since elementary school, excluding my dog. At parties I feel like I am the...
    theseafarer theseafarer 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 28, 2013

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    Confusion And Loneliness

    *** Fade to Black playing in the back ground *** "Things not what they used to be Missing one inside of me Deathly lost, this can't be real Cannot stand this hell I feel" Funny how a song can hit so so very close to home....... Feeling really alone and no one to turn to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 21, 2012

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    Prison

    life is my prison, the voices within my guards. I climb these walls of insanity, despair comes in waves, no where to run no where to hide. i scream but no one hears, life is my sentence, death my sweet reward. i continue threw life making all those around me believe i am ok, even...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Apr 14, 2012

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    Now And Then

    I can feel so unique and different from family and others that I will single myself out by being silent or reclusive. I know my self-esteem is low and it is going to take a long time for it to become high enough again to fully put myself out. I feel I am making progress through...
    asert12345678 asert12345678 31-35, M Aug 7, 2013

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    Trapped

    Some days I get so frustrated.... I'm trapped inside my head, having these irrational thoughts, maybe black thoughts, maybe a little pschotic thoughts and I feel like i'm about to explode with frustration. I walk into a room full of people and i scream at the top of my voice...
    Angeleyes777 Angeleyes777 31-35, F 6 Responses Jul 6, 2009

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    I Feel Like That Almost All The Time.

    I have never, not even once, in my life felt like I was "included." I can get along fairly well with people when it's one-on-one, I can be engaging in conversation with someone, I can be a pretty charming date. When it's just one other person, I can bring my walls down. But...
    walt1981 walt1981 31-35, M Aug 7, 2013

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    Lost

    I am completly alone although I live with 5 other people.  I can't find a way to not feel awful. I have two daughters and I live with other family members so really I am never alone, but I feel like I am.  My oldest daughter is twelve and needs me to be a mom...
    kyanna12 kyanna12 26-30 8 Responses Jul 5, 2009

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    Wow.. Where Did You Get The Name For This Rooom?

    A couple of years ago, I had posted this line from a poem I wrote back in high school, and I think I had posted it under a different user name. I was sitting in the auditorium in High School and wrote down precisely how I felt. My poem started with I am alone in a room full of...
    DominantLeader DominantLeader 36-40, M Aug 23, 2012

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    ....no One

    i have friends who talk to me and yet i feel hollow and alone like i'd been alone forever my family says they don't know me any more..that just makes me feel more alone no one understands me no one cares..but i'm still just a teen i've got a long lonely path anyways..i think...
    blaze96 blaze96 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 4, 2010

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    Help

    I am 13 years old whenever i tell people the following story they tell me it's just part of being a teenager. So I stopped telling people I don't trust anyone. I would tell someone and they would tell everyone else, I want help with this, please.  I would be...
    Vampz Vampz 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 7, 2010

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    Idgf

    Just came back from a restaurant bar named Comicx. Pretty good place whit amazing statues of Marvel characters nd that stuff. Its amazing how even when i was with not my best friends, but the ones i spend most time i was lonely. Peoples laugh, music, beers, chicken wings but it...
    whatislike whatislike 18-21 Apr 6, 2013

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    Nothing

    No feeling, No love, No One, Just a shell of nothing........I have people around me but yet they seem so far from me. Nothing seems to ease this pain. Nothing I do makes a difference. Nothing, just the four walls staring back at me. NOTHING is what describe me..... All alone and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 18, 2012

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    I Am Lost

    I always feel alone,except when i am alone.When i am at work,or at a mall,or the beach,i look around and realize my life is empty.I ***** about it,but i don't know what to do. I am 52 years old and am so lost,i can't cry any more.When i am alone there isn't any thing to remind me...
    riverside riverside 51-55, M 1 Response May 2, 2009

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    I don't like being alone, But it's the only thing I'm familiar with, The only thing that hasn't left. I can't seem to quiet my mind, Nor ignore this uneven hollow. In this...
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    People are faking to be thinking of money. You can't even laugh at it unless you're able to help them. I think people gossip so they don't have to be left alone. No one wants to be...
    kiddishguy kiddishguy 26-30, M 8 hrs ago

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    its like every where i go and no matter what i do the outcome is the same. me left behind in an empty house haunted by these 4 naked walls. ive never known security and i doubt...
    livingpositively livingpositively 22-25, M 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    As I sit in my room, repeating the same song over and over, i mentally scream for anyone to notice me. But mentally is as far as i'll ever take it, even if i were to go out, hang...
    memberz memberz 31-35, M 1 Response Nov 8

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    I'm so F()$@ing Alone I know plenty of people in my life. I used to think I was alone when I was surrounded by people. Now I realize, I'm so alone because, I am alone. It's a...
    Atlas0Scar Atlas0Scar 18-21, M Nov 8

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    NOTE: Please do not let the length of this post deter you from reading. It is worth every moment. :) I did something very recently that was mindbogglingly idiotic, imbecilic, and...
    andrewphysics andrewphysics 18-21, M Nov 7

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    I often feel like I have no one. I am trying to make it on my own which is a good feeling to have and something to be proud of. I don't really lean on anyone and that can be...
    cowboyspikespeigal cowboyspikespeigal 26-30, M 1 Response Nov 16

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    I lost my mom this January. actually she is my step mother but she raised me since I was 8 so she is my mom to me. her death was slow and painful and a very long time coming. I...
    omgeezus omgeezus 26-30, F 4 Responses Nov 19

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    Co-worker problem...not a significant one but I'm still trying to figure how I can handle it effectively. I have to say I have been blessed to have amazing coworkers (yes...
    syltutu syltutu 18-21, F Nov 19

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    InvaderGashloog InvaderGashloog 70+, F Nov 2

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    Beccabux Beccabux 31-35, F 5 Responses Oct 28

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    I these last few years ,I have learnt every single hardship,one could everexperience. I have failed,cried,been abandoned,unloved since my birth, faced poverty,humiliation,taunting...
    divich01 divich01 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 1

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    Alone. It doesn’t matter what you did last night or whom you did it with. At the end of the day you come home to a cold bed and an empty home. No lover, no friends, no roommates...
    TubsOFUN TubsOFUN 22-25, M Nov 1

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    I like being alone..."Less people, less drama" My books, music, movies, and school work keep me busy and locked away in my room all day every day. Only leaving in search of food...
    mstv1112 mstv1112 13-15, F Nov 3

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    I'm constantly flipping between thinking everyone is sick of me and not wanting to be alone, so I guess I come across weird when I'm around people. Maybe it's because I grew up...
    princessloki princessloki 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 5

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    I am the only one that ever cleans the house, which is fine because I'm picky about it. But I got screamed at last night for not finishing her laundry and doing mine instead of...
    hightoforgot hightoforgot 18-21, F a week ago

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    lol. i used to do this daily n i still do it but just not as much. the bar gets expensive and the people can get on my ******* nerves. buying beer n drinking all alone in my room...
    LightSparks LightSparks 26-30, M 6 days ago

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    Every day  I wake up is a present. I don't need the holidays to remind me...what  gift it is to just breathe. All the warm feelings you feel during the holidays, I feel...
    bemyvalentine bemyvalentine 56-60, F 8 Responses Nov 20

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    The best part of hosting dinner is getting the leftover desserts. I had friends over and we enjoyed a very delicious but very heavy dinner. By the time we got to the cake and ice...
    stephjo2505 stephjo2505 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 28

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    i have friends, i really do. some of them i can relate to so well and others i just wanna punch half the time. but i can never be truthful with them. they only know half my story...
    LoveLessOne97 LoveLessOne97 18-21, F 2 Responses