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I Am Alone Iin a Room Full of People

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    Why Do I Do It to Myself?

    I think I have reached the decision to just not go to parties or out with groups of people anymore. Whenever I do I constantly think "why did I say I would come, I could have been having a nice evening alone doing my own thing". Part of me tries to be outgoing and...
    ASortaFairytale ASortaFairytale 26-30, F 3 Responses Oct 24, 2007

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    Trapped

    Some days I get so frustrated.... I'm trapped inside my head, having these irrational thoughts, maybe black thoughts, maybe a little pschotic thoughts and I feel like i'm about to explode with frustration. I walk into a room full of people and i scream at the top of my voice...
    Angeleyes777 Angeleyes777 31-35, F 6 Responses Jul 6, 2009

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    Wow.. Where Did You Get The Name For This Rooom?

    A couple of years ago, I had posted this line from a poem I wrote back in high school, and I think I had posted it under a different user name. I was sitting in the auditorium in High School and wrote down precisely how I felt. My poem started with I am alone in a room full of...
    DominantLeader DominantLeader 36-40, M Aug 23, 2012

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    Abnormal??

    My house is filled with family and friends, the smell of dinner coming from the kitchen. Everyone laughing and telling stories of yesterdays. Everyone excited to pile in the truck soon and go to the drive in. Sounds like a good family night.........YET.......I am sitting here...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 29, 2012

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    Idgf

    Just came back from a restaurant bar named Comicx. Pretty good place whit amazing statues of Marvel characters nd that stuff. Its amazing how even when i was with not my best friends, but the ones i spend most time i was lonely. Peoples laugh, music, beers, chicken wings but it...
    whatislike whatislike 18-21 Apr 6, 2013

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    I Feel Like That Almost All The Time.

    I have never, not even once, in my life felt like I was "included." I can get along fairly well with people when it's one-on-one, I can be engaging in conversation with someone, I can be a pretty charming date. When it's just one other person, I can bring my walls down. But...
    walt1981 walt1981 31-35, M Aug 7, 2013

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    Now And Then

    I can feel so unique and different from family and others that I will single myself out by being silent or reclusive. I know my self-esteem is low and it is going to take a long time for it to become high enough again to fully put myself out. I feel I am making progress through...
    asert12345678 asert12345678 31-35, M Aug 7, 2013

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    Lost

    I am completly alone although I live with 5 other people.  I can't find a way to not feel awful. I have two daughters and I live with other family members so really I am never alone, but I feel like I am.  My oldest daughter is twelve and needs me to be a mom...
    kyanna12 kyanna12 26-30 8 Responses Jul 5, 2009

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    Help

    I am 13 years old whenever i tell people the following story they tell me it's just part of being a teenager. So I stopped telling people I don't trust anyone. I would tell someone and they would tell everyone else, I want help with this, please.  I would be...
    Vampz Vampz 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 7, 2010

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    *sigh*

    Is there anyone out there?? This site is making me feel even more alone.............*SIGH*
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response May 10, 2012

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    Crowded..

    I joined this group not because Im saddened in a group, or that I feel depressed or anxious when Im surrounded by people. Its more of a feeling of not being able to connect, or not wanting to. When I meet someone I either feel instantly connected, or they become a gurgled noise...
    pandapuzzle pandapuzzle 18-21 Mar 27, 2012

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    Well This Is a First...

    ... I generally don't join any group that has a spelling or grammar error, out of principle. But I read the title of this group quickly, identified with it, and joined. It was only after I joined that I noticed the misspelled word. Shame on me. But I do associate with this...
    SheistheLorax SheistheLorax 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 17, 2008

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    Life Changing Moments

    I remember being 15 when my whole world turned upside down. I was a very angry and confused child. Hating the fact that I was in foster care but yet knowing that being there meant I didn't have to suffer daily abuse at my mothers will. It was Oct 86, I had run away from the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 16, 2012

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    ....no One

    i have friends who talk to me and yet i feel hollow and alone like i'd been alone forever my family says they don't know me any more..that just makes me feel more alone no one understands me no one cares..but i'm still just a teen i've got a long lonely path anyways..i think...
    blaze96 blaze96 16-17, F Sep 4, 2010

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    I Am Lost

    I always feel alone,except when i am alone.When i am at work,or at a mall,or the beach,i look around and realize my life is empty.I ***** about it,but i don't know what to do. I am 52 years old and am so lost,i can't cry any more.When i am alone there isn't any thing to remind me...
    riverside riverside 51-55, M 1 Response May 2, 2009

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    The Monster With-in

    I feel as though im in a fog. Floating above the scene as it unfolds. I see me as a scared little girl hiding from the monster. The monster I call mother. She is drunk and mad. Wanting a whipping horse. I'm shaking watching all this unfold. Wanting to reach out and save myself. I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 9, 2012

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    Sometimes I Wonder If It'S Me Reinforcing This

    I feel disconnected with everyone I know: friends, family, classmates The people I would like to call my close friends are best friends with each other.. and I am not included. I haven't had a best friend since elementary school, excluding my dog. At parties I feel like I am the...
    theseafarer theseafarer 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 28, 2013

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    Nothing

    No feeling, No love, No One, Just a shell of nothing........I have people around me but yet they seem so far from me. Nothing seems to ease this pain. Nothing I do makes a difference. Nothing, just the four walls staring back at me. NOTHING is what describe me..... All alone and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 18, 2012

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    Confusion And Loneliness

    *** Fade to Black playing in the back ground *** "Things not what they used to be Missing one inside of me Deathly lost, this can't be real Cannot stand this hell I feel" Funny how a song can hit so so very close to home....... Feeling really alone and no one to turn to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 21, 2012

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    Prison

    life is my prison, the voices within my guards. I climb these walls of insanity, despair comes in waves, no where to run no where to hide. i scream but no one hears, life is my sentence, death my sweet reward. i continue threw life making all those around me believe i am ok, even...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Apr 14, 2012

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    Related Experiences

    I think it's more "I feel anxious in a room full of people." I don't know why, but I just do. Whenever there's a gathering, or even that I have to be in a crowd, I feel all...
    lonelydinosaur lonelydinosaur 26-30, F 3 Responses Sep 27

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    I've always had trouble connecting with people and I have lost touch with so many friends because of it. I just get so lost that I can't talk. I don't know how to describe it but...
    Nineismyname Nineismyname 18-21, F Oct 2

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    This week was a spirit week and everyone dressed up for themes. We had a blast taking pictures with each other. The thing is... I would take pictures FOR them, not WITH them. I...
    LonelyUsagi LonelyUsagi 13-15, F Sep 26

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    Everyday, that's how it always is because everyone wants to talk to each other but doesn't include me unless they need something or want to make fun of me
    Fred363 Fred363 16-17, M 1 Response Sep 27

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    I have had many roommates over the past few years and this year by far is the weirdest experience I have ever had with a roommate. To start of my experience, I am going to tell you...
    PlainGirl PlainGirl 22-25, F a week ago

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    I am someone who likes to go deep into things that matter to me. It was education (it never ends) first, then it was sports, then there was philosophy, then there was work, then...
    Unlearn Unlearn 31-35, M 1 Response Oct 11

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    I Hate It- I attract the weirdest people and its not even funny. The worst thing too is that they have no clue how take a hint that I do NOT want to be around them, but I don't...
    TriforceTapioca TriforceTapioca 16-17, F Sep 28

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    I'm not posting this one for attention, none of them are it's just simply how I am but has shown up several times why I'm thankful I don't get close. People up and leave whenever...
    13Selene13 13Selene13 22-25, F 2 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    So at my lunch table, I sit with all guys, and apparently we're known a weirdos and druggies, which makes sense. My school is a catholic school, and everybody acts so fake, even...
    francake16 francake16 16-17, F 2 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    Through out my whole entire life I always put others before my own needs; The reason behind why I do so is because I never had any one to fully support me or stand behind me. So...
    Lstill1976 Lstill1976 36-40, F 1 hr ago

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    I don't know what to say. I just typed a lot of stuff on my iPad, but I decided to start afresh. The only way to keep from worsening a situation is to spend personal time thinking...
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F Oct 2

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    Can you here me now nope am alone
    Dad4young Dad4young 41-45, M 2 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    I want to start off by saying I'm a laid back person most of the time, I don't create drama, and I take after my mother by trying to keep the peace. Although my roommate isn't the...
    HistoryMajor HistoryMajor 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 3

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    So over the past month I have been talking intensely with someone... We clicked like bread and butter. Every moment I spent with her was a moment full of laughter and smiling and...
    sancarn sancarn 18-21, M Oct 5

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    This story is for all who are alone this world. You may not have started out alone when you were a young man or a young lady - maybe you were married and there was a death, a...
    Bandiroux Bandiroux 56-60, M 12 hrs ago

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    I feel soooo alone..nobody knows what I am going through.. My mom, my sisters, my bf..they all think i'm that happy, loving girl..but they don't know what i'm going through..the...
    quackboo quackboo 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 11

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    First of everything, there it is nothing interesting to do in my town, so why bother. And second, I like having "alone time", because truly, what a place full of annoying people I...
    DildoSlut DildoSlut 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 24

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    She's so terrible. She sets all these rules for me and my boyfriend and acts like we're the only one's who have to follow them. The only reason we have this apartment is because we...
    BrittannyLynn BrittannyLynn 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 9

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    Steps 1 Step one: Decide if you want to capture someone by audio (audio recorder), by camera (hidden camera), or both. Either way, you'd want to pick a device that only records...
    policeExperiment policeExperiment 22-25 Oct 2

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    I'm really annoyed and mad at this man I wish one day I could get the answer to why this man persecuted me He is french from Brittany in France but moved to the uk at the age of...
    lostsouluk lostsouluk 31-35, F Oct 9

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    I try not to think about it but it bothers me alot.I don't have alot worth remembering in my life and this is probably why. I spent alot of my youth trying to entertain and fix...
    WorldTrigger WorldTrigger 18-21, M 1 day ago

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    The more time I am alone, the more I realize some things. You'd think I'd tell myself this relationship was no good for me, but I'm not. The reason why we are struggling is obvious...
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 2

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    Another day passed and I slept, tired from yet another late night. As it is night here now I lay on the sofa with only the flickering light of the many candles placed about the...
    BeautyDebased BeautyDebased 31-35, F Oct 9

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    I love my job but it tests my limits. I used to be very out of shape, I have lost forty pounds between my job and trying to build up my strength to give better care to my patients...
    mom4ce mom4ce 51-55, F Oct 12

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    ...for as long as I can remember. I guess I was always this way to an extent, but the depression and anxiety became much more manifest during college and are showing no signs of...
    Scribbler17 Scribbler17 16-17, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Life isn’t fair, but it’s still good. When in doubt, just take the next small step. Life is too short – enjoy it. Your job won’t take care of you when you are sick. Your...
    fiestychica fiestychica 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 25

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    Being alone is just to lonely and scary for me. I think being with someone is a lot better then being alone because I'm easily scared sometimes even if my moms in the other room...
    MichaelEgitto MichaelEgitto 13-15, M Oct 7

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    I'm an Army wife and I'm 18 years old. Sadly I can't be with my husband like I wish I could. The only time I don't feel alone is when I have my husband. My family isn't currently...
    xwewereinfinite xwewereinfinite 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 10

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    I don't know, It's not that im bothered or anything it's just that, why do some people think that being alone e.g shopping, eating, going to malls alone is such a bad thing? I'm...
    ifeelyoukodomotachi ifeelyoukodomotachi 18-21, F Oct 10