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I Am Alone Iin a Room Full of People

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    Life Changing Moments

    I remember being 15 when my whole world turned upside down. I was a very angry and confused child. Hating the fact that I was in foster care but yet knowing that being there meant I didn't have to suffer daily abuse at my mothers will. It was Oct 86, I had run away from the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 16, 2012

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    ....no One

    i have friends who talk to me and yet i feel hollow and alone like i'd been alone forever my family says they don't know me any more..that just makes me feel more alone no one understands me no one cares..but i'm still just a teen i've got a long lonely path anyways..i think...
    blaze96 blaze96 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 4, 2010

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    Now And Then

    I can feel so unique and different from family and others that I will single myself out by being silent or reclusive. I know my self-esteem is low and it is going to take a long time for it to become high enough again to fully put myself out. I feel I am making progress through...
    asert12345678 asert12345678 31-35, M Aug 7, 2013

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    I Feel Like That Almost All The Time.

    I have never, not even once, in my life felt like I was "included." I can get along fairly well with people when it's one-on-one, I can be engaging in conversation with someone, I can be a pretty charming date. When it's just one other person, I can bring my walls down. But...
    walt1981 walt1981 31-35, M Aug 7, 2013

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    Prison

    life is my prison, the voices within my guards. I climb these walls of insanity, despair comes in waves, no where to run no where to hide. i scream but no one hears, life is my sentence, death my sweet reward. i continue threw life making all those around me believe i am ok, even...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Apr 14, 2012

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    *sigh*

    Is there anyone out there?? This site is making me feel even more alone.............*SIGH*
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response May 10, 2012

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    Well This Is a First...

    ... I generally don't join any group that has a spelling or grammar error, out of principle. But I read the title of this group quickly, identified with it, and joined. It was only after I joined that I noticed the misspelled word. Shame on me. But I do associate with this...
    SheistheLorax SheistheLorax 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 17, 2008

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    Sometimes I Wonder If It'S Me Reinforcing This

    I feel disconnected with everyone I know: friends, family, classmates The people I would like to call my close friends are best friends with each other.. and I am not included. I haven't had a best friend since elementary school, excluding my dog. At parties I feel like I am the...
    theseafarer theseafarer 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 28, 2013

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    Confusion And Loneliness

    *** Fade to Black playing in the back ground *** "Things not what they used to be Missing one inside of me Deathly lost, this can't be real Cannot stand this hell I feel" Funny how a song can hit so so very close to home....... Feeling really alone and no one to turn to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 21, 2012

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    Nothing

    No feeling, No love, No One, Just a shell of nothing........I have people around me but yet they seem so far from me. Nothing seems to ease this pain. Nothing I do makes a difference. Nothing, just the four walls staring back at me. NOTHING is what describe me..... All alone and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 18, 2012

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    Trapped

    Some days I get so frustrated.... I'm trapped inside my head, having these irrational thoughts, maybe black thoughts, maybe a little pschotic thoughts and I feel like i'm about to explode with frustration. I walk into a room full of people and i scream at the top of my voice...
    Angeleyes777 Angeleyes777 31-35, F 6 Responses Jul 6, 2009

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    Why Do I Do It to Myself?

    I think I have reached the decision to just not go to parties or out with groups of people anymore. Whenever I do I constantly think "why did I say I would come, I could have been having a nice evening alone doing my own thing". Part of me tries to be outgoing and...
    ASortaFairytale ASortaFairytale 26-30, F 3 Responses Oct 24, 2007

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    Crowded..

    I joined this group not because Im saddened in a group, or that I feel depressed or anxious when Im surrounded by people. Its more of a feeling of not being able to connect, or not wanting to. When I meet someone I either feel instantly connected, or they become a gurgled noise...
    pandapuzzle pandapuzzle 18-21 Mar 27, 2012

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    Wow.. Where Did You Get The Name For This Rooom?

    A couple of years ago, I had posted this line from a poem I wrote back in high school, and I think I had posted it under a different user name. I was sitting in the auditorium in High School and wrote down precisely how I felt. My poem started with I am alone in a room full of...
    DominantLeader DominantLeader 36-40, M Aug 23, 2012

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    Idgf

    Just came back from a restaurant bar named Comicx. Pretty good place whit amazing statues of Marvel characters nd that stuff. Its amazing how even when i was with not my best friends, but the ones i spend most time i was lonely. Peoples laugh, music, beers, chicken wings but it...
    whatislike whatislike 22-25 Apr 6, 2013

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    Abnormal??

    My house is filled with family and friends, the smell of dinner coming from the kitchen. Everyone laughing and telling stories of yesterdays. Everyone excited to pile in the truck soon and go to the drive in. Sounds like a good family night.........YET.......I am sitting here...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 29, 2012

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    I Am Lost

    I always feel alone,except when i am alone.When i am at work,or at a mall,or the beach,i look around and realize my life is empty.I ***** about it,but i don't know what to do. I am 52 years old and am so lost,i can't cry any more.When i am alone there isn't any thing to remind me...
    riverside riverside 51-55, M 1 Response May 2, 2009

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    Help

    I am 13 years old whenever i tell people the following story they tell me it's just part of being a teenager. So I stopped telling people I don't trust anyone. I would tell someone and they would tell everyone else, I want help with this, please.  I would be...
    Vampz Vampz 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 7, 2010

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    Lost

    I am completly alone although I live with 5 other people.  I can't find a way to not feel awful. I have two daughters and I live with other family members so really I am never alone, but I feel like I am.  My oldest daughter is twelve and needs me to be a mom...
    kyanna12 kyanna12 26-30 8 Responses Jul 5, 2009

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    The Monster With-in

    I feel as though im in a fog. Floating above the scene as it unfolds. I see me as a scared little girl hiding from the monster. The monster I call mother. She is drunk and mad. Wanting a whipping horse. I'm shaking watching all this unfold. Wanting to reach out and save myself. I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 9, 2012

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    ExperienceisMyProject ExperienceisMyProject 26-30, F 44 mins ago

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    I was desperate for a night out so I made my own. A band plays in a parking lot close to my house. From my front porch I can hear the music, sometimes it's OK, sometimes it isn't...
    Rae1983 Rae1983 31-35, F 1 hr ago

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    I usually listen to music and work on my stories when I'm alone because when I'm around people they always interrupt me, so I try to get as much alone time as I can.
    MrMenShow MrMenShow 18-21, F 1 hr ago

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    im 37. and dont have the model figure. i feel so alone. im sad and think i will get older and older by myself
    empire28 empire28 36-40, F 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    I was shopping with friends when i was like 14. I needed toupee but my friends were trying on more clothes. I got an outfit to pretend to try on and went into my own dressing room...
    purplebutterfly42 purplebutterfly42 26-30, F 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    then I can shout at the tv and stuff my face full of pizza
    AmyPond11th AmyPond11th 13-15, F 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    How to get by this unmanned world and still be able to work on my planned tasks? I am thinking about going to a conference to have the chance of meeting some related people. But...
    ExileMyself ExileMyself 26-30, F 9 hrs ago

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    Around 5am this morning I woke up out of a shallow sleep, I was having a terrible dream. Someone was chasing me and I was scared. I opened my eyes in panic. I see I left a candle...
    2dprsd2live 2dprsd2live 26-30, F 11 hrs ago

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    I think I may be pretty unique. I wear head to toe black leather whenever I can. It started with black leather trousers and then I added a black leather suit blazer but quickly...
    leathersuitguy leathersuitguy 36-40, M 1 Response 14 hrs ago

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    People in general scare the crap out of me. Their views, ideals, theories, lifestyle choices etc. and so on. It is not that I don't respect people or their views and choices, it is...
    JaneD22 JaneD22 26-30, F 1 Response 14 hrs ago

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    Born into a large family, being the second youngest. Of course I'm the quiet one. The rest of my family is so outgoing. When I was abandoned by my mom when I was 6, I knew I will...
    yumemi yumemi 26-30, F 15 hrs ago

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    who isn't ? I remember when I first discovered self pleasure and I would get left home alone I would do my teddy bear that I won it was a huge bear and I loved it
    LipsOfAnAngel89 LipsOfAnAngel89 26-30, F 4 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    I have been talking a lot lately about how I want someone to talk to who relates to me and what not, but I've realized that I don't really try to reach out. I think on some level I...
    Zbeara Zbeara 22-25, M 1 Response 15 hrs ago

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    My best friend is out of the country and every few days I go over her house to check on her brothers to make sure they are doing fine . Today was no different I went talked to her...
    smarchy17 smarchy17 16-17, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    There's been something on my mind for awhile... Ok, more then awhile, it happened last summer. But before I get into anything else I just want to say that this is probably going to...
    xxJaydaxx xxJaydaxx 13-15, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I have a large family and a lot of friends but I'm basically alone. I'm just kind of lost I guess. I have my kids but it's different cause they need me, one day they too will be...
    reynanv reynanv 26-30, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I've been in my room for three days. not meeting anyone my dad saying I might be crazy if go on doing this. but please, give me some time. Its a hard life phase for me now. I just...
    jalanyanglurus jalanyanglurus 22-25, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I enjoy cooking just for me and watching a good movie alone. I hate when I'm in the same room with someone and feel completely alone, this only seems to happen when I'm in some...
    berntoblack berntoblack 46-50, F 3 days ago

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    I'm in a fraternity and I'm pretty nerdy, I decided to move out and live with 2 of my fraternity brothers and a Sorority girl that was friends with them After living with them for...
    Brickwall96 Brickwall96 18-21, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I feel alone... All the time. I can be distracted by people and I can put on a face and be happy, but at the end of the day, when I'm in bed and looking around my room in the dark...
    cupcakes1995 cupcakes1995 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    It'd be simpler. I wouldn't have to worry. I wouldn't have to be concerned about how I'm acting or how they're taking things. I wouldn't have to act happy to avoid questions and...
    Elliearellano Elliearellano 13-15, F 5 days ago

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    Im laying in my bed alone when i dont have to. I hate that my bf gets drunk so friggin often amd when he does sometimes he does this dumb crap. Like ditching me and leaving me...
    Ghostflower9485 Ghostflower9485 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    My dad died of cancer the day I turned 16 after about two weeks in a coma. It was really fast – less than two months between diagnosis and death. He died in the house. (we had a...
    InvinsibleViper InvinsibleViper 22-25, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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