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I Am An Alcoholic

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    I know people won't stop commenting on me,

    they still think i will be drinking and saying same shyt that i don't drink anymore. Should i care about them? I don't think so, i would rather stop listening or meeting up those or these people who criticize me and discourage me in my sobriety. But my mom has got an idea and my...
    UsmanIshaq1980 UsmanIshaq1980 31-35, M 1 Response Oct 10

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    spark69 spark69 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 15

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    I am 18+ months sober,

    and last night I went to my first meeting. Words can not describe the relief I feel this morning. I was welcomed with open arms. Listened to the speaker who made me cry, laugh & smile. Everything anyone said I UNDERSTOOD or felt in some way. I was surrounded by people JUST LIKE...
    SoberJessica SoberJessica 31-35, F 5 Responses Aug 2

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    Does Anxiety Cause Alcoholism?

    Very common phrases you hear from Alcoholics are: "I can't get comfortable inside my own skin." "I just have a few drinks to relax." "After a couple of drinks, I feel more like myself." "I enjoy myself around people more with a few drinks." The common theme here is that their...
    Michaeloff55 Michaeloff55 61-65, M 4 Responses Jan 8, 2011

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    Trouble Ahead

    I take antabuse to stop me from drinking. It's worked for me for the last 17 months, it was my last resort and it worked. Snag is now my blood test has come back wonky, I have to have the test repeated on Monday in the hopes it's just a blip, if it's not I have to stop taking the...
    Illiteratetroll Illiteratetroll 46-50 15 Responses Oct 26, 2013

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    How Did It Get To This Point?

    Back when i was 16 or so getting a 12 pack and splitting it with a friend was great, but as the years passed the drinking got heavier i got dumber and the consequinces became greater.... Its hard to set here and reflect back on my many years of drunken mistakes, but maybe just...
    sizzahands86 sizzahands86 26-30, M 10 Responses Apr 29, 2013

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    9 weeks and 2 days. Had a major breakdown today

    emotionally. But, I'm still sober and who really gives a ****. No body gives you an award... In fact most people want to run away. Those friends you've gone above and beyond to help... Gone.. Don't matter what you've done for them. I've never been sober this long. Just like my...
    mysticdragonlady mysticdragonlady 36-40, F 5 Responses Aug 30

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    ......and I hate the man

    that I am when I am sober. Everyone else hates the man I am when I am drunk.
    spectre6 spectre6 31-35, M 4 Responses Sep 21

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    I went to my first AA meeting tonight.

    I did it!!! I feel positive and happy. I'll keep you updated. I loved meeting people just like me. I don't know what I expected lol .... Nice people there :)
    daisybell7 daisybell7 36-40, F 4 Responses Jul 27

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    Been a few months now at least.

    I don't count days, I don't care for that. I'm sober. Not much to share about it. Just wanted to share.
    Airmech Airmech 46-50, M 3 Responses Sep 8

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    I found out about A.A.

    as the result of the court system, a big "no no" in the fellowship and it wasn't about some traffic offense. I ended up in rehab and as a result of the group therapy I started to experience a total cessation of emotion and almost all thought with no identification of "me" at all...
    StarWanderer StarWanderer 56-60, M 1 Response May 4

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    I am looking for support.

    I've lost my connection with friends and family due to my drinking. I'm trying to restore some relationships, but that may take time, if at all possible. I am sober today and grateful. Thanks.
    BuddyBo BuddyBo 56-60, F 3 Responses Oct 7

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    I'm Questioning My Decision To Stop Drinking

    I haven't had a drink for over three months, I take antabuse to keep me from drinking but I'm seriously questioning my decision to stop. It feels like my brain no longer functions as it should, everything is confused, simple decisions are too hard to make and the depression is...
    Illiteratetroll Illiteratetroll 46-50 12 Responses Oct 2, 2012

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    7:50 PM Drank. 9:30 PM Drunk.

    You know you are an alcoholic when: Under the influence of alcohol you ride your motorcycle through the dead of night.....to the tiny town of Morrison. And steal their only road sign. And wake up the next morning to discover it has been nailed to your bedroom wall....next to a...
    Vetrov Vetrov 51-55, M 8 Responses Nov 30, 2013

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    I'll Probably Delete This Tomorrow. So Message Me Soon If You Want To Help.

    I'm 24. Been drinking heavy almost every night since I was 18. I'm in a bad place mentally. Talk to me if you have advice or experience. Thanks in advance. edit update 12/9/2012 : Major breakthrough people. I've taken a week off completely. I've been doing 5-7 day stretches of...
    Trillmatic Trillmatic 22-25, M 17 Responses Oct 20, 2012

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    i think im an alcoholic - i drink

    as early as 8 in the morning, not all the time. Usually i will start after lunch. I drink between 8-12+ units a day. Every day i wake u and say yesterday was the last - but - im not sure how to stop.
    blondeandblue blondeandblue 31-35, F 2 Responses Aug 12

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    I am twenty five years old

    and struggling with a drinking problem. I don't drink everyday or even every week, but when I do drink, I binge drink. This Saturday I jumped out of a moving cab because I couldn't stop drunkenly fighting with a cab driver. This kind if behavior is dangerous and it scares me. I...
    bringmefire26 bringmefire26 22-25, F 5 Responses Sep 8

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    i'm a liar and drinking

    currently, i am a liar. i have two best friends who i live for, who i've never lied to, until recently. i lie to them and others, and tell them that i've gone 'straight-edge' and i haven't gotten drunk while i'm out in several months now. but it's only because i've...
    MyRedYourWall MyRedYourWall 21-25, M 45 Responses Sep 19, 2007

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    My Journey To Sobriety

    I turned to alcohol after a sudden, unwanted divorce. I used it to kill the pain, and then to loosen up and have fun. Later I used it for other reasons. Seems I could always find a reason to drink. That's what we alcoholics do, we make excuses to drink. I was drinking heavily...
    Siberia1000 Siberia1000 46-50, F 1 Response Jul 17, 2013

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    Been a very long time.

    I suppose I should keep track, but I don't. Feeling a bit empty inside. All part of the process I suppose. Breathing
    Airmech Airmech 46-50, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I don't recall what day I quit

    but it's been more than 2 weeks of sober life. What goes in my head now? The way I was screwing up everything. And I ask myself..why did I do what I did. No answer. Recovery is a long process here.
    molde molde 31-35, M 5 Responses Jul 29

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    It's 22nd day of my sobriety

    and in these days i have felt some kind of serenity in myself. It's self awakening i think. I don't recall my past painful days when i used to get paid pain and regrets in morning that what the hell i have been doing last night. I can taste the food now. I can differentiate the...
    UsmanIshaq1980 UsmanIshaq1980 31-35, M 6 hrs ago

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    One Step At A Time

    I know what its like to break the denial and admit your are an alcoholic after suffering this horrible disease for many years.  I suggest  you remind your self that you are not a bad  person trying to be good, you are a sick person trying to get well. Also remember if you dont...
    LUKEIT LUKEIT 41-45, M 5 Responses May 19, 2012

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    Ever Heard the Exspression "Drunk As Cooter Brown"? Well I'm His Great-grandson.

        My alcoholism is not the product of an alcoholic home as a child, or a single tragic event or anything; I just ended up one.  How do I  know I'm an alcoholic? Why years of exstensive research "tieing one on" ofcourse.    ...
    LIttleRockLeo LIttleRockLeo 26-30, M 12 Responses Jul 3, 2007

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    When You Know You Can't Go Back Home

    I turned 15 years old the month before the Thanksgiving Day of that year and had been living on the streets since the previous April when my father, drunk, drove a knife into my leg and tossed me out of the house where I lived with him, my mother and nine brothers and sisters. I...
    cmmacneil cmmacneil 51-55, M 7 Responses Feb 3, 2013

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    Today, i met a bunch of alcoholic old friends.

    We used to drink together but today i was standing apart of them and they all were suffering hangover cos of last night excessive drinking. I felt something within myself and that was a difference between me and them. I was looking at them as people around me used to look at my...
    UsmanIshaq1980 UsmanIshaq1980 31-35, M 1 Response Oct 12

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    Alcoholism Through The Years

    I grew up drinking beers and with my family since about 10. I did not start drinking around -the -clock 1/2 gallons of liquor until I was about 18. As im typing this right now, I sweat and can't even think clear. I've been to 2 rehabs and must have tried detox atleast 20 times. I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 16 Responses Jun 5, 2011

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    Let's make this as short

    as possible.. I started drinking in High School, every other weekend, you know. Then I went off to college where I begin staying in the dorms. Of course drinking was a huge part of the dorm life, so I was drinking every night. I then moved back to my parents house. That's when...
    TopherWhite22 TopherWhite22 22-25, M 9 Responses Dec 21, 2013

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    I just signed in for a rehab in England,

    to start in 3 weeks. I will be there for a minimum of 12 to 18 months. It's completely free as it is a christian sponsored one. This is good as normal rehabs are so expensive I could hardly afford a week. Now I am just waiting and killing time before I return to the UK and check...
    Searching1n Searching1n 22-25, M 28 Responses Jan 6

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    464 Days

    Sobriety, its getting a little boring now. I look around at others who enjoy a drink now and then, and think they are lucky. They can have their cake and eat it too. All I can do is remind myself of the pain my drinking caused. The havoc it reeked on my life. So I close my...
    BrownEyedGirl09 BrownEyedGirl09 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 23, 2013

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    I'm back here unfortunately.

    I can't stop drinking. I'm scared too at this point. The withdrawals make me feel like I'm going to die. When I wake up I take a shot just to stop the shakes and panic attacks. I've been to the hospital 3 times this month for withdrawals and I don't want to end up going back...
    TopherWhite22 TopherWhite22 22-25, M 5 Responses Aug 24

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    110 days sober today.

    It's amazing how much things change in your life when you have a drinking problem and decide to stop. I have accomplished a lot and gone through a lot of up and downs. When you quit drinking it is physical withdraws that really suck. Makes you feel like the world is ending...
    mysticdragonlady mysticdragonlady 36-40, F 6 Responses a week ago

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    Connections

    I need to know something and I am wondering if anyone who reads this could help me. Even before you became an alcoholic, were you a messy or unorganized person? Or both? Thank you in advance :)
    thegodchick thegodchick 36-40, F 16 Responses Oct 22, 2013

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    I never really considered myself an alcoholic

    but after sitting down and really thinking about it I might need to consider it. I can't say no to a drink, when I feel the pain of my depression coming back my first thought is to go get a drink, once I start drinking one night it's becomes a habit of doing it multiple nights...
    Marie240 Marie240 18-21, F 5 Responses 2 days ago

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    I'm an alcoholic. I just.

    ..felt the need to say that and don't know how to feel now that I've said that. Oh boy.
    Lucile199 Lucile199 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 17

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    Hi my name is sara and im an alcoholic.

    "I got my first taste of alcohol when I was a tot – my mum used to give me whisky or scotch in warm milk to help me sleep when i was in ireland. She was a big drinker, a binge drinker. At the age of 7 I had my first proper drink. At this stage i was in a total new country and...
    stormykiwi stormykiwi 22-25, F 5 Responses Apr 16

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    If you sit in a room full of people telling you

    that you're "sick" "insane" and suffering from a "disease" reading a book written by a religious nut, eventually you'll start believing it. That doesn't make it true. Think about it. Is sitting in a room full of people obsessed with their drinking behaviour healthy? I think...
    SwampyStables SwampyStables 46-50, M 6 Responses Oct 3

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    I fell off the wagon last night.

    I guess I need a strategy for the weekends that is hard for me to wriggle out of.
    wpb211 wpb211 41-45, M 2 Responses Aug 16

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    I Know that I am an alcoholic.

    I know that. I want to give up but I can't. I'm very tired of keeping this secret. But I'm afraid of stopping. I'm 22 and don't want to miss out. But I don't know what to do.
    nautistar10 nautistar10 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 18

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    I miss alcohol. I miss the delicate resolution

    I felt during the morning afters. I miss feeling my head fill with dizzy warmth. I miss important and well spoken words dripping out of my mouth. I miss knowing the answers and being okay with my current situation because I could understand, I understood the world and its loss...
    catatonically catatonically 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 13

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    My Story (Warning this a very long post – not

    for the faint of heart) I have decided to put my AA story on this site; sharing my experience, strength and hope, so that I may help others who are still sick and suffering from the ravages of alcoholism. What it was like, what happened and what it is like today. I grew up in a...
    ProgressNotPerfection ProgressNotPerfection 41-45, M 5 Responses Dec 18, 2013

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    Self Medicating?

    It all started with blackberry brandy. I had barely learned to speak, but I had already learned that a lot of fussing and crying would result in a shot or two of black berry brandy. My grandmother had custody of me at the time, and black berry brandy was the cure for everything...
    puck61 puck61 51-55, M 15 Responses Jun 11, 2013

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    The Legal Age For Drinking Is 18 Where I Live.

    I could sit here and write about 'oh what a terrible childhood I had' and I would be telling the truth, but no I am going to say... - I started drinking when I was 12 to escape my head (wasn't really that hard to get access to grog given that I had an older brother and...
    randomdriftwood randomdriftwood 21-25, F 24 Responses Apr 11, 2007

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    If I don't stop drinking I am going to lose the

    best person I have ever had in my life, day 2! I have made it 3 months before but something always happens that makes me drink again, I have to get this under control!
    gina2440 gina2440 31-35, F 3 Responses Aug 12

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    I am. I cant stop myself from drinking.

    Every time, I stare at my first beer and think " I shouldn't", but I do. It doesn't help that people around me encourage drinking. I wake up each night not knowing what exactly happened. Its a horrible feeling. I try to remember what I did, who I said something bad too, where I...
    IrMe IrMe 26-30, M 2 Responses Sep 27

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    I'm glad I found this site.

    I am currently a closet (actually, a garage) drinker. I fall off my wagon about once a week. I've gone as long as three weeks. I am currently on day three of sober. Sigh. I'm hoping to use this site to help me gain some momentum.
    wpb211 wpb211 41-45, M 5 Responses Aug 12

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    75 days sober. I had an emotional break down

    and thanks to a friend... Two amazing people on here. (They know who they are love love you guys) I finally realized I needed more help than just talking about it. I am practicing the first step “We admitted we were powerless over alcohol and that our lives had become...
    mysticdragonlady mysticdragonlady 36-40, F 3 Responses Sep 9

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    Still Battling It....

    I'm an alcoholic. That's a fact. I'd like to say a 'reformed' alcoholic, but are we ever ? I don't think so. I think once an alcoholic, always an alcoholic, even if you don't drink anymore. That's just a part of what we are, a shadow that'll follow us forever. I've been...
    cleozabu19 cleozabu19 26-30, F 83 Responses Apr 7, 2008

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    15 Days sober. But, I had the numb the pain

    again. I guess starting from the beginning again is better than giving up completely.
    Enveleyna Enveleyna 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I always wonder if people really believe me

    when they ask and I tell them, "It happens when I drink too much coffe." I'm always nervous to hold paper around anyone who's noticed and asked. Have they noticed that I never drink coffee?
    lovelyss lovelyss 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 11

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    Revelation

    It just hit me like a ton of bricks. I figured out why I hate AA so much. I don't want to belong to a club, that would have me for a member.
    Lilt Lilt 46-50 28 Responses Jun 4, 2013

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    I Will Never Drink Again!!

    Now that I have been diagnosed with Stage 3 Inflammatory Breast Cancer, the very thought of picking up a drink is repulsive. Why would I pick up poison?  What did I see in it in the first place?  Oh sure, it gave me temporary relief from my constant barrage of negative...
    lagatta lagatta 41-45, F 64 Responses Jan 3, 2013

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    Story of my own hit bottom !

    I dont recall my past Eid day and night ! i was so drunk during all past 14 years Eid days and nights ! This Eid may be like something missing inside myself, i am feeling a bit sad inside some where deep inside of my thoughts but i have to hold myself. I lost and only lost in...
    UsmanIshaq1980 UsmanIshaq1980 31-35, M 2 Responses Oct 7

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