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I Am An Incest, and 'kiddie Porn" Ind Survivor

This is a support group for adult survivors of childhood sexual trauma, and the child sex industry. *Please leave your religious and political views "at the door" - they are not welcome in here. 325 People

    The Worst Time Ever

     my mother payed a uncle to molast me beacuse she was made at me for going out to a friends house then i told someone and he went to jail for life.
    Baby69 Baby69 18-21, F 12 Responses Feb 1, 2009

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    My Story....

    I want to share my story on this account, but I don't want to go through the pain of re-writing it all over again...I hope in sharing my story it will help someone else, so this is simply a re-post. Don't like it, Move the **** on.... Growing up, my childhood was never "normal...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Nov 10, 2010

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    I Did It!

    I stuck to my word, and I finally told my mom about what has happened. I didnt think i could do it, but i did. I didnt say this before, but my mom was actually sexually abused by her father when she was younger, along with her three sisters, and her brother. So, she was very...
    sk8tergrl21222 sk8tergrl21222 18-21, T 2 Responses Feb 19, 2008

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    Me Too, Just Im Still Putting Up With Idiot Family..

     What can I say.. I am so pissed off with the people who call themselves family.. with the world and everything.. Why does nothing ever get thru?  I came from probably one of the worst dysfunctional families ever.. but im guessing there will be worse.. if nothing else...
    jancro34 jancro34 36-40, F 10 Responses Mar 11, 2010

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    Phyillis

    my mothers name is phyills mom i want to tell you ive forgiven you and i love you the abuse you suffered from your father phillip , mom i give you hugs and i do really love you becalse you were abused women sexually and you had a mother in denial that couldnt see the...
    lunnas lunnas 41-45, F 2 Responses Jul 8, 2008

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    Nightmare Memories

    I'm 17. I don't remember when it started exactly, but I had to have been somewhere around the age of four. From what I’ve deduced, my mom got pregnant with me at the age of 17, married my father, and had me at 18, but then they separated and divorced before I turned two... As I...
    teardrop95 teardrop95 18-21, F 13 Responses Mar 25, 2013

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    Gregplank1

    I AM A SURVIVOR OF ******.... I HAD 2 BROTHERS ABUSE ME FROM THE TIME I WAS 7 YRS OLD TILL I WAS 13 OR 14 YRS OLD. IT WAS INCESSANT ABUSE AND WHAT REALLY ****** UP MY WHOLE LIFE IS I NEVER REALIZED THAT WHAT THEY DID TO ME WAS THE CAUSE OF MOST OF MY PROBLEMS GROWING UP, FROM...
    GREGBLANK1 GREGBLANK1 31-35 3 Responses Jul 30, 2011

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    I Am An ******, And 'kiddie ****" Ind Survivor - Have You Ever Considered Confronting Your Abuser

    the answer to this question is no some one killed him first about 5 years after the rapes i did have a runin with one of the other so called preacher at one of the camp outs we were forced to attend it is a long story but we had a controntation the day before between another...
    rickibrat2 rickibrat2 61-65, M 1 Response Apr 12, 2011

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    My "Mother"

      It began when I was 6 and continued until I was 9. My mother made me shower with her, she'd fondle me, and touch my privates, sometimes she'd make me touch hers. Several encounters into it she penetrated me with a bar of soap, it burned something fierce; then towards the...
    shaun0h shaun0h 26-30, T 7 Responses Feb 21, 2008

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    Kinda Creepy..

    my earleist memories were before I started school even. Several times with members on my dad's side of the family. My uncle would sometimes pull my pants down and have me sit on his lap. I vaguely remember his penis sticking up between my legs. I remember this happening in his...
    caescman caescman 41-45, M 5 Responses Nov 7, 2009

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    Something That Really Drives Me Crazy

    This really makes me mad as h ell and drives me nuts  i was talking about my abuse as a child the things i suffred. i asked when a young person has a older sister or brother and like the one sister was 12 and the younger sister the older sister starts to moll est the younger...
    lunnas lunnas 41-45, F 9 Responses May 29, 2011

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    Taken Advantage Of

    I was an awkward child mostly due to my having a high functioning Autistic-spectrum disorder, because of this subtle unspoken social cues and things other people take for granted I didn't always pick up on. At 9-10 years old, I had failed to make friends, was completely socially...
    intriguedboy intriguedboy 22-25, M 5 Responses Apr 3, 2011

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    My Story....

    This is one of the hardest stories that I have ever had to share. its so hard for me to get it out, and talk about it, but since I have already been triggered today, I figure, I write this story, and get it out there and open. Growing up, my childhood was never "normal...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Nov 15, 2009

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    Working It Out..

    Hey everyone .. Im Not sure how to feel posting something like this online .  but i recently in my life found someone,  i was comfortable enough and serious enough with to share some things from my past with .. and she actually encouraged me to find a support group...
    jarpii jarpii 22-25 3 Responses Jan 6, 2010

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    Intro To Sex Pictures

    This a more about my neighbor that started playing with me when i was 7 or 8. After we advanced to oral sex on a regular basis,,,,i would be there when he was performing oral sex with a couple of girls that were my age or a little younger than me. I took part in these activities...
    takenchildhood takenchildhood 41-45, M 4 Responses Nov 6, 2012

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    More Story From Me to You

    Sorry for writing so many stories in here, but I feel the need to do it. Well, my mom told my stepdad about what happened, he was very upset. But today, he took my stepbrother out to eat so he could confront him. My mom just told me what my stepbrother said. He said that he was...
    sk8tergrl21222 sk8tergrl21222 18-21, T 1 Response Feb 21, 2008

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    Abused By the Principal

    when i was a teenager i attended an all boys school on the island of Trinidad in a town called chaguans, the principal at the time  had the habit of picking on me, and he called me in his office on several occasions and always played with my leg and on several...
    hotwendy hotwendy 41-45 2 Responses Dec 25, 2008

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    Used And Abused

    Im from an arab family and im the only girl i have 4 brothers and im the youngest, it was when i was 4 i remember when ever my mom would go out late for a wedding my dad would come in my room and put his hand on my forehead and tell me i had a fever and he has to give me shower...
    miguided miguided 26-30 14 Responses Jan 24, 2012

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    For Male Survivors Only...

    I have been talking with a few people in here, and we all agree, that there needs to be a "safe place" here on EP where male survivors can get together.  As I started this group, and everybody seems to agree, it needs to be done, but no one seems willing to take...
    JusDifferent JusDifferent 41-45, F 7 Responses Feb 18, 2008

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    My 1st Time Being Photographed.

    I started having sex when I was 5 [see my other stories for how that began], and sex was always a part of my life after that. As I've always maintained, I never felt traumatized or upset by it. And it was only as an adult that I've come to understand that I couldn't have really...
    Mitchx Mitchx 46-50, M 6 Responses Mar 25, 2013

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    I was raped by my dad

    and his mates and anyone who would pay. It started at 5 and stopped when I turned 12 because I ran away. I was filmed whipped bound by my hands and feat left on a bed and guy after guy coming and going in and out all day and all night I would be given drugs to keep me up and...
    Ripjr Ripjr 18-21, M 7 Responses Jan 6

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    Used For 4 To 5 Years

    I was one of five kids who were cared for by a baby sitter they did different type of care the supposedly took care of kids who had potty training issues. The sponsoed by a church board so you expected it to be safe When we tried to tellothers what was going on we were told...
    rickibrat2 rickibrat2 61-65, M 5 Responses Mar 30, 2011

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    I Suffered Abuse When I Was Younger Both From My Mum And Step-dad....... :(

    I was abused Both by my mum and step-dad............I'm Now 57. I havn't seen them in Approx 15 years, because once I realised what was happening I thought I'd take that particular 'avenue of pleasure' away from Them.................... I wrote 'silly cow' on the...
    tiredchris tiredchris 56-60, M 4 Responses Mar 4, 2011

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    Just Wondering....

    so i am a 27 year old mom. I get to a point in my healing/ recovery where i am ok-not angry, able to function normally, and then i am triggered by something or someone and its a wrap! all that hard work, positive self talk out the window! its so frustrating! i am just wondering...
    eminentspontaneouscombustion11 eminentspontaneouscombustion11 26-30 10 Responses Jul 11, 2011

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    Memories That Have Reappeared

    it wasn't until just recently that some memories have resurfaced. I'm not saying that it was all bad but for some reason I must of kept them hidden. when I was about 7 or 8 a neighbor of my introduced me to the world of sex. he was older than me by a couple of years and I wasn't...
    takenchildhood takenchildhood 41-45, M 1 Response Nov 5, 2012

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    The Memories Just Came In Like a Tornado

    My husband forced me to have sex with him on several occasions throughout our marriage. When I finally left him a few weeks ago, it dawned on me that I had finally left someone who abused me. With that realization, a whole flood of memories about my child sexual abuse came back...
    SundayInJune SundayInJune 31-35 11 Responses Apr 9, 2008

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    Why Gay/Bi Guys Who Have Been Sexually Active As Kids Are HOT!

    This may be slightly off topic, but maybe not. I have a lot of opinions on whether ****** is a consensual act and at what age it should be considered "******". I also think that guys I've known who were active sexually at a young age, i.e. 12+ seem to be incredibly sexually aware...
    Letmeworshipit Letmeworshipit 51-55, M 1 Response Sep 8, 2013

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    Still Makes Me Sick

     I have only ever talked about this with my husband and my sister.  Even now I am sort of afraid to post what actually happened .. for fear of judgement., even though its annonymous I am afraid to hear someons critcism or hear how disgusting and sick I am. I...
    kindahatemyhusband kindahatemyhusband 22-25 8 Responses Mar 24, 2009

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    Have You Been Groomed?

    I AM TALKING ABOUT GROOMING, NOT FOR YOUR DOG ,IAM TALKING ABOUT SEXUAL GROOMING. DID YOU KNOW THERE ARE 2 KINDS OF GROOMING? THE MOLESTER ONE KIND OF GROOMING HE WILL DO IS GROOMING OF A CHILD FIRST HE WILL SEE HOW FAR HE CAN GO SLOWLY WITH A CHILD LIKE PUTTING HIS HAND ON...
    lunnas lunnas 41-45, F 13 Responses Jan 4, 2008

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    Mother Seduced Me At 15

    I am an ****** survivor.  I was seduced by my drunk mother when I was 15.  We had sex many, many times over the years until she died.  I have felt guilty because I totally enjoyed it even though I knew it was wrong at the time.
    bonanza96s bonanza96s 70+, M 34 Responses Dec 12, 2007

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    Well, If You Really Want to Know...

    I started this group/forum several months ago, as a safe place where adult survivors of childhood sexual abuse could meet, to talk about what happened to them as children, how it has affected them, and how they are dealing with it, now as adults.  During this time, I have...
    JusDifferent JusDifferent 41-45, F 40 Responses Dec 18, 2007

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    My Teenage Cousin Made Me

    give oral sex to him when I was 6 years old. I havent told anyone in the family because everyone thinks he is such a great guy and I'm embarrassed to tell them.
    threeinches4u threeinches4u 51-55, M 3 Responses Oct 17, 2009

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    I Am Ashamed To Say That I Am Actually Also A Sufferer And Survivor Of Childhood Insest Traumas And Abuse And Molestation, As A Result Of Parental Negligence And Isolation From Society

    Well, looking at a blank spot now, seeing so much space to fill online with my childhood traumas, not wishing to bore you, its just that so much abuse happened its difficult to know where or how to start. All I know is that I am a survivor and I wish the trauma would end, not...
    Alarmstrong Alarmstrong 26-30, M 6 Responses Sep 9, 2010

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    Help?

    I'm male.  Do you mind if I join?  ( I don't want to make anybody uncomfortable. )  I just need someone to talk to.  I was sexually abused by a priest from the age of 9, until I was 16.  Do you consider this to be ******?  It has really screwed me up...
    mynameissam mynameissam 26-30, M 13 Responses Nov 16, 2007

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    My Story...

    I want to share my story on this account, but I don't want to go through the pain of re-writing it all over again...I hope in sharing my story it will help someone else, so this is simply a re-post. Don't like it, Move the **** on.... Growing up, my childhood was never "normal...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    Looking For Other ******, and "Kiddie **** Survivors"...

    Hi -       I am looking for other survivors that might want to share their stories, or just talk about what they went through, and how it has impacted their lives today.  As many of us now realize, this is not something that you just simply "...
    JusDifferent JusDifferent 41-45, F 18 Responses Oct 24, 2007

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    Still Alive

    Molestation began ... I'm not sure when. Before elementary school. Directly molested by my father, fraternal and maternal uncles, and brothers. Indirectly molested by mother, who molested my brothers and thus put them up to molesting me. Kiddie **** was one of my uncles, from...
    juicylucybelle juicylucybelle 36-40, F 7 Responses Jul 7, 2008

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    Daddy The *********

    When I was 8 years old my father started touching me and making me touch him, and a year later he started making me suck him and threatening to rape me if ever I said no.
    gardengirl17 gardengirl17 22-25, F 4 Responses Jul 13, 2012

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    Survivor Here

    I am a survivor of ****** and kiddie ****. My memories are far from being complete, but I do have memories of being sold many times, for money, s*x, photos, videos, and not to mention the exchange program, if you know what I mean. This makes me so sick to my stomach I could well...
    Rachel4now Rachel4now 31-35, F 11 Responses Feb 18, 2008

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    Just Getting It Off My Chest

    I've heard worse stories from other ****** survivors, so i don't give my trauma much credit. It was essentially just molestation from my grandmother a few times. I knew I didn't like it. And later found out it was wrong. I think it did shape some of my fetishes concerning sex...
    ElementsofGuts ElementsofGuts 26-30, M 4 Responses May 17, 2011

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    Day To Day

    So, I've had people constantly telling me that "it gets better", hell, I've even told myself that lie a few times. But does it really? Every day is a more difficult challenge than the last- balancing reality and everything else in my mind and sometimes just living with my own...
    teardrop95 teardrop95 18-21, F 9 Responses Mar 26, 2013

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    3 Different Guys...

    It all started when i was 3. My half-brother would sexually harass me. I dont remember any of this, except for one time when he started undressing me and i yelled, "dad! hes doing it again!" And my dad came running in and yelling at him. No one believed me at first, i...
    sk8tergrl21222 sk8tergrl21222 18-21, T 12 Responses Feb 15, 2008

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