I Am Angry At Myself

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    And No One Else

    I'm angry at myself because I'm turning into something I told myself I would never be. I'm turning into my parents. I wish I could just stop and tell myself no but it's just hard sometimes..
    XLunaXLovegoodX XLunaXLovegoodX
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Nov 29, 2009

    Nothin But An Angry Kid

    i get anry at myself for being the problem child. i get frusturated that im the only one who was admitted into a m.h or the only one whos beein in therapy ever since the second grade or the only one whos cut or attepted suicide. i get so angry with myself and i ask myself why...
    apml apml
    18-21, F
    Sep 5, 2012

    I need to stop doing things wrong.

    That's my problem. I wish that at certain times in my life just before i'm about to do something there would be a pause..and some spirit would say "Stop! Are you sure you want to say/do this? If yes, then this this and this could happen" But of course this is real life. I'm...
    Fierrrrce Fierrrrce
    18-21, F
    Feb 1, 2015

    So I am so angry at myself I went to the bar

    yesterday I smashed my finger Friday and so when I went to the bar they saw my finger and said that they needed to drain it well 2 guys there anyway so in order for them do that they had to get me wasted I got wasted it hurt like crazy then went with my cousin to a friend of...
    SpiritWolfe741 SpiritWolfe741
    41-45, F
    2 Responses May 13, 2015

    Right now, I am very angry at myself.

    I should learn better than to write about my dad, and think about my past, because now im dealing with high anxiety, and trying to keep from losing it completely and worrying the people I love :(
    NYSlilAngel NYSlilAngel
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Mar 27, 2014

    Just because all the hallucinations are back.

    ..hearing people's judgments. "SHE'S A PSYCHO...PSYCHO...." Then those people I find attractive thinking they ridiculed me again. And I feel so bad about myself and I can't tell my mom about it and she's mad at me for telling her the truth about her constant monitoring makes...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Sep 8, 2014

    I honestly hate myself.

    Actually though, I try to get along with people. Can't do it. Tried to make a relationship. Can't do that. I hate being me. With things that stress me and **** me off, I think "It'll get better soon." With this it won't, I'm forced to live this life as me and I hate it...
    FireSprouts FireSprouts
    18-21, M
    1 Response Jun 26, 2014

    I'm angry at myself for falling

    for a guy who wasn't worth it at all.
    sammylynn333 sammylynn333
    18-21, F
    Mar 27, 2014

    i'm angry at myself for choosing not to talk

    (just because of my fear of i dont know, of social interaction?) for always having excuses to feel better about my failures and disappointments for being so negative in life for shutting my door to the world outside for keeping everything to myself for not seeking help from...
    shredkyl shredkyl
    18-21, F
    Dec 12, 2015

    Here goes the story,

    why am I angry at myself? Well, I let people use me, they need work done, well sure, they come to me, and without charging them, here I am slaving away on another free project which consumes countless hours of my time! The worst part of it is, it is friends and family, I feel...
    su05 su05
    26-30, F
    Apr 15, 2015

    Because I hate people I don't

    even have to get to know just because I find them attractive. Physically I can feel chest pain and discomfort all the time now it's like, let me have a heart attack and die already. For god's sake this anger is killing me alive, I wish I could just not see people or hear them...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Sep 12, 2014

    Last Night

    So... yes i am really angry. and i have no one to blame but myself... i have an issue with drinking and last night i went out to the bar with my friend, and her friends, thinking honestly that i would be all set. that i could just have a couple beers and be completely fine. and...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Dec 27, 2008

    Isn't it lovely how I spent 600+ dollars to

    come home so that my family could tell me to my face what a whiny, bitchy, OCD, lazy, worthless, disappointing, stupid, fat, ugly, waste of space I am? Honestly excited to get back to the uniform.
    Pinkyschwear23 Pinkyschwear23
    18-21, F
    Dec 25, 2014

    Why Do I Do This To Myself?

    Today, I worked a full eight hour day like usual. I work for a small company. I work in the office, for very little money. I have responsibilities and do exactly what the others do, for so much less. I am being taken advantage of, not being recognised for any work I do and being...
    codysinead codysinead
    18-21
    2 Responses Jun 24, 2010

    I'm Not Good Enough

    I hate myself because I can never be what is expected of me, I'm a really big failure. I'm 31, still living with my mom, I don't have a job and had a nervous breakdown a year ago from the one I cannot recover. Everybody tells me that it's OK, and that I'm doing great but I don't...
    Nate1247 Nate1247
    31-35
    1 Response Jul 12, 2012

    I Am Angry At Myself

    I live with borderline personality post traumatic stress disorder depression and anxiety. You wouldn't know to look at me or talk to me they are hidden illnesses. People just think I'm lazy. I'm not I want to have a job. I want to care for my children. And I want to live a full...
    Charli22 Charli22
    31-35, F
    Apr 6, 2011

    BLIND

    FOR THINKING THAT EVERYBODY HAS A GOOD HEART.WHEN I GIVE A FRIENDSHIP TO ANYONE I DO THE BEST .I TRY TO HELP .BUT I HAVE MET PEOPLE THAT THEY FELL LIKE THERE S--T DON'T SMELL.
    DORITA DORITA
    46-50, F
    Dec 6, 2007

    One of those days where I will sock my fist

    into someone's face if they try to pull off any unnecessary ****.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Apr 9, 2015

    I'm angry at myself for falling in love

    so easily and getting my heart break so easily I'm angry at myself for not trusting my brain for not listening to myself I am so angry that I let love get between me and my family she is gone now and I still cry over it I finely learnt that my heart is a valuable part in my body...
    Porangiataahua Porangiataahua
    31-35, F
    Feb 17, 2014

    I hate my body. it cant keep up!

    I need to lose weight to get weightloss surgery. im so tired I cant push. ugh! I hate it! ive gotta do something! today I start my diet over again. today ill check into seeing about why with my dr. God im so angry with my body that seriously if my body were a separate person...
    WickedlilAngel WickedlilAngel
    31-35, F
    Nov 19, 2014

    I want to break a hole in my walls !

    Then smash all the glass cups on the floor.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Aug 3, 2015

    Anger That Wont Go Away.

    I've been angry at myself for years. I've always been the type of person to lose my temper at the smallest of things and even though I knew it was because I was angry at myself, I blamed all which happened on anyone closest to me in the room. I guess this is the reason that...
    UltimateStorm UltimateStorm
    16-17, F
    1 Response Nov 15, 2008

    I am angry at myself

    for still continuing to talk to my ex boyfriend!
    yeahitsmeso yeahitsmeso
    18-21, F
    Apr 27, 2014

    I'm 20 but still irresponsible,

    unorganised, undependable. I hate myself....
    Nampie Nampie
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Apr 2, 2015

    I can't believe what I did.

    I knew a wonderful girl, got really anxious about screwing the relationship 'till I screwed it 'cause of the anxiety itself. She tried to stay with me but I was so anxious I withdrawn from everything and had a few dark days at home where I was so anxious and depressed that I...
    MySelfIsAfterMe MySelfIsAfterMe
    26-30, M
    1 Response May 12, 2015
    RealProject RealProject
    16-17, M
    1 Response Oct 31, 2014

    Sadness is a form of safety guard

    for me alike to hatred...I used to think everything in this world hate my company, I still do now. Especially ones I find attractive will find me to be too weird, disturbed from my facial expressions and could read my mind. Does this make any sense? In reality no one can read...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Sep 14, 2014

    I'm Angry At Myself Too

    I too am angry with myself.... I fell in love with a man who took advantage of me. I too saw the red flags, but chose to ignore them, and I kept giving him the benefit of the doubt. After 2 months of dating, he said he loved me, wanted to be with me forever, and I...
    selfhealing23 selfhealing23
    26-30
    3 Responses Mar 18, 2009

    For feeling weak!! I'm currently on day 17 of

    quitting drinking & rather than feel better for it I'm getting worse as the days go on. I feel anxious & depressed to the point I can't move from my bed. I have an amazing girlfriend, close friends, family & my gorgeous nieces & have so much to look forward to once I get past...
    TrustxxIssues TrustxxIssues
    31-35, F
    1 Response Apr 15, 2015

    i made one of my classmates i always hated mad

    at me. we hated each other ever since, but in the last few month we became not friends but something normal. and now, he thinks im gossiping about him bad things, and he is acting like im nonexistent. i hate it more than anything. if he would act like he hates me and say bad...
    spiritophile spiritophile
    22-25
    1 Response May 13, 2015

    Angry at myself. Why do I let people in to my

    life for them to then up and leave as they want, annoys me when they walk all over me. They come to me when they want something or want a "shoulder to cry on" but when everything's ok, I'm just a nobody. It would be nice if someone can ask me how I ******* am for a change...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jun 3, 2015

    I lost a lot of money just

    for my stupidity. Makes me wanna throw stuff here and there, and keep myself locked in a room. I deserve it.
    Namkeen Namkeen
    18-21, F
    May 6, 2014

    I hate it when my friend is trying to help me

    to improve my art but his criticism makes me so damn angry with myself. Yeah, I'm blocking it out with a reasonable success on the outside but inside I want to burn my artworks and to do better next time. I am a logical person, I know I should take criticism well and my brain is...
    hlaar hlaar
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 11, 2015

    I promised you my forever,

    but don't you see? My forever was taken from me and I've nothing left to give you. But I'm afraid, afraid to tell you that my forever isn't there.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response May 11, 2015

    I'm mad at my self because I pushed the most

    amazing woman I've ever been with away...because of my own emotional problems and a ****** up mind we have to love from a distance I can't even bring myself to sleep in our bed because without her here it feels so empty now I'm trying everything I can to get her back here with...
    ToniDevon ToniDevon
    26-30, M
    2 Responses May 12, 2015

    Arrrrrgghhh.... I hate

    when i lose a game.... always tryhard.... i am never good enough... i always lose a game and i either yell at my teammates or smash my mouse...i am always tryhard mode all the time. i get frustrated all the time. i yell that my team is a bunch of retards and i just cant stop...
    Potchii Potchii
    22-25, M
    Jul 23, 2015

    Angry

    I'm so angry at myself. Everytime I try to do something I really care for I screw it up or fail in someway and I don't even know what the hell I did wrong or why I couldn't. I've been depressed on and off for 2 months now because of this. I suffer from OCD and social anxietywhich...
    DarthFelidyol DarthFelidyol
    18-21
    Sep 22, 2012

    Noooo this is NOT happening.

    jealousy is the first sign of feelings and there CANNOT be feelings! Feelings always get everyone hurt xc
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response May 11, 2015

    Some people want to punch other people in the

    face. I want to punch myself in the face.
    Littlegirlblue22 Littlegirlblue22
    18-21, F
    Apr 9, 2015

    Don't Be Kind

    I am angry at myself constantly. I get so frustrated by my behaviour. I reach out to people and they think I am kind and genuine but underneath I am two-faced and ugly. I try not to be but I have been screwed over so many times that I can't tell who to trust and who not to...I...
    HypoCriticaLie HypoCriticaLie
    22-25, F
    5 Responses Jan 5, 2008

    Well, tomorrow is my first session with the

    councilor that CPS is forcing me to see. I really don't want to talk to some stranger about my feelings when I don't even talk to anyone about them. My family now has to scrape up every penny in order to pay this councilor. And I just hate myself so much for it.
    crystal234 crystal234
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 25, 2015

    Tired of This

    I am sick of so much right now and it all revolves around being the "nice guy".  I am weary of the small-town mentality (sp?).  I could be what most seem to want: a jerk, a badass, someone who expects more of the other.  But I am not.  I...
    TheHypnotist TheHypnotist
    31-35
    2 Responses Aug 2, 2008

    Because I have no control.

    Over any aspect of my life. I'm dependant on so many things, people. Its repulsive and crawls my blood. Spending time with myself is not quite painful as before, I kinda like me however human connection always mattered to me. Even battling manic depression and a healthy dose of...
    Omusic11 Omusic11
    36-40, F
    Sep 11, 2015

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