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I Am Anorexic

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    Regrettably, Our friend Ana

         Allow me to introduce myself. My name, or as I am called by so called "doctors", is Anorexia. Anorexia Nervosa is my full name, but you may call me Ana. Hopefully we can become great partners. In the coming time, I will invest a lot of time in...
    takethesebrokenwings takethesebrokenwings 22-25, F 20 Responses Oct 20, 2009

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    I'm done trying to fight it.

    I feel like if i was meant to get over this illness then i would have by now. Do now I'm just gonna embrace it. I need an Ana buddy. Message me if you're interested.
    LostGirl1029 LostGirl1029 18-21, F Oct 14

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    You're Probably Anorexic If...

      Please take the time to read this entire story before commenting. Comments that do not follow the Community Standards will be promptly reported and removed.  You're probably anorexic if... You've memorized the calorie content of virtually everything...
    takethesebrokenwings takethesebrokenwings 22-25, F 21 Responses Sep 17, 2010

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    I'm a bad person! For the past two days I've

    been counting calories, exercising to burn off the food, and ate little. I need help, I'm home alone until 9:30 pm. Help!
    BooBear99 BooBear99 13-15, F Aug 14

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    I Was

    i wanted to be a modle so bad and i kept getting turend away so i stopped eating but im better now and im a plus size modle and i love my body but i know what its like and its horribal to feel so ugly even when your not :(
    iliketosuckcock iliketosuckcock 18-21, F 8 Responses May 18, 2012

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    It Isn'T Fair

    Look at me, I'm so damn skinny. I only weigh 260lbs. Someone help me gain weight. I hate being anorexic
    gainergirljiggles gainergirljiggles 22-25, F 12 Responses Sep 22, 2013

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    I can't deal with it anymore!

    !!! I see calories everywhere. I've been trying not to count them but just like that I'm counting in my head. I didn't even have a dinner i just snacked, but as soon as I took a sip from my yoohoo I deal like I gained a lot of weight. I feel fat folds forming down my neck, my...
    BooBear99 BooBear99 13-15, F 3 Responses Sep 4

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    Fasting Buddy

    I am starting a fast tomorrow. If you would like to join we can email or text. With support I think we will get through it easier.
    karebear03 karebear03 22-25, F 6 Responses Feb 3, 2013

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    IM SORRY!!! Im starting to do my behaviors

    again. School starts in two weeks and if I keep it up ill end up dead or back in treatment. Why do I keep doing this to myself! I HATE MYSELF FOR PUTTING MY BODY AND HEALTH IN DANGER!!!!! I'm so stupid!
    BooBear99 BooBear99 13-15, F 4 Responses Aug 4

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    Skinny.

    There's no such thing as "too skinny". I want people to notice my weight loss. It's an achievement, and I won't stop till I get it.
    izzymeg7 izzymeg7 13-15, F 3 Responses Nov 14, 2013

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    Ana Is Myself ...

    ANA Is Me Myself and My Distorted Reflection ... Though I know but I still believe in the distorted perception ...   over 3 years untill now since she has been apart of me ... I need no sympathy but understanding ... I need you to feel me ...96 lbs with 5'5 feet...
    DollyDiva DollyDiva 22-25, F 45 Responses Jan 20, 2009

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    Why I Feel Like Quitting.. Need Advice

    Hello everyone, I am new to experience project and am looking for some advice on anorexia recovery. Any support is appreciated, I really need help from other sufferers right now. Let me start by sharing my story- My name is Courtney, and I am almost 19 years old. I was...
    dancer4444 dancer4444 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 11, 2013

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    "You look like a model!

    ".. But it's been the ugliest thing I could do to myself.
    lilqueenbee lilqueenbee 18-21, F 7 Responses Jan 18

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    I've been eating under 500 cals per day

    for the past month (with a few occasional cheat days). On Sunday I binged and ate around 2000 cals. I've exercised every day this week and had negative net calories, but I'm still four pounds heavier than I was before my Sunday binge! How did I gain so much weight?? :(
    depressedmistake depressedmistake 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 15

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    Anorexia Isn't Much Fun.

    I have had anorexia for about 11 years. It started when I was 5 and is still here after all this time. My highest weight was 185, my current weight is 130 and my lowest weight at this hight was 65. Umm.. I haven't had much luck in the health department due to it (frequent...
    blueskitty blueskitty 16-18, F 15 Responses Aug 1, 2007

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    Auracat Auracat 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 20

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    findmeholdmeloveme findmeholdmeloveme 18-21 2 Responses Sep 16

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    I Want To Be Anorexic..

    im 18 years old and i am over weight! see i dont mind my face and top half of my body but its my legs and belly i hate i dont even eat bad ataall and i dont sit around eeating 24-7 iv tried every diet there is and all i wanna do is become anorexic because i hate my life im sick...
    5 Responses Feb 6, 2013

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    I haven't ate anything all day!

    !! I'm so proud of my self! But te hunger pains hurt :/
    Muppo23 Muppo23 13-15, F 2 Responses Sep 17

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    Ok so I have turned over a new leaf

    and am managing to eat 700 calories a day as opposed to my normal 450!
    foreverbellaalone foreverbellaalone 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 27

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    Tomorrow Im not eating breakfast

    and its not being served at school tomorrow(half day)!So I don't have to act normal and eat! And maybe not dinner if my parents aren't home tomorrows going to be a good day:)
    nicole5227 nicole5227 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 18, 2013

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    Unstableteen Unstableteen 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 16

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    I'm so sick of being anorexic,

    I can't be a normal teen. I was pulled out of school to go treatment, then when I come home I have to be homeschool and go to all these doctors appointments. I can't even go to Carol-winds with my Girl Scout troop next week. None of my "friends" talk to me. Whenever they are...
    BooBear99 BooBear99 13-15, F 4 Responses Apr 14

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    I Have Battled Anorexia

    I have had Anorexia for 14 years.  I am only at a "normal" weight now due to force feedings. HW 160 lbs CW  130 lbs LW 64 lbs I will do anything to lose at least 30 lbs to start with and then take it from there.  I just need people to stop...
    Licorice Licorice 31-35, F 19 Responses Jul 21, 2007

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    It should read: "I think I am Anorexic.

    " I don't eat. Like actually. What I ate today: A peach, a kit kat, and a slice of cantaloupe. What I ate yesterday: Two cookies, a slice of cantaloupe, a peach, and some chocolate chips. I don't really purposefully not eat. Seriously though. I genuinely forget to eat because...
    LilysinWonderland LilysinWonderland 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 16

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    i went to the doctors yesterday,

    lost four pounds so that means im being sent back to treatment. i see him again monday to know what to plan for. well my mom and him set up a plan that if i can show him i can gain weight than i can stay home. so ever since yesterday my mom has been stuffing my face with food...
    BooBear99 BooBear99 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 6

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    Ugh I'm going through withdrawals.

    I just really want to burn off all the calories I ate but I can't. I promised someone close to my hear that I will start eating more and stop doing behaviours so I can stay out of treatment. But I feel to full and icky. Bleh I wish there was a way to get rid of anorexia
    BooBear99 BooBear99 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 7

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    I just need someone to help me stay strong.

    Still 10 pounds from my goal weight. Thin is beautiful.
    Brooke2Big Brooke2Big 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 17, 2013

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    An Open Plea to Ana's Everywhere...

    Look, I'm the exact opposite of anorexic. My only eating disorder is that I like food and drink a little bit too much. Yep. I'm fat. Some days it's hard being the fat guy. Others, I wouldn't trade it for anything. I was once well north of 330lbs... Today, I am down to 280lbs...
    drcynic drcynic 26-30, M 31 Responses Mar 16, 2008

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    I haven't eaten in a full week,

    but last night I binged and ate 873 calories and this morning I feel so sick. My stomach hurts but I just tell myself that it's all in my head and that it really doesn't. I drink water all the time and have lost ten pounds in the last week. I feel so accomplished. I don't talk...
    dropdeaddoxophobia dropdeaddoxophobia 13-15, F 2 Responses Sep 20

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    The Fight Against Ana

    I will not say "I used to be anorexic". That would be a false statement, once anorexia takes over, you will always be anorexic, the thoughts will always be in the back of your head. I am a survivor of anorexia I will say. When I became anorexic, it was just an extreme diet to...
    TeenMommyof4 TeenMommyof4 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 10, 2012

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    Put on size 0 jeans today

    and I needed a belt ^.^ so happy right now!!
    imbleedinghope imbleedinghope 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 10

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    Dear experience project,

    Hello, I hope you all are doing well.This is a little bit long, but I needed somewhere to vent.It all started at the ballet class at school, when I was told by my teacher that I need to lose weight to be a ballerina. So it really offended me and I've been having bad body images...
    Forgottencorpse Forgottencorpse 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 30

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    nicole5227 nicole5227 16-17, F 4 Responses Dec 11, 2013

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    UmaModern UmaModern 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 22

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    Hey guys I'm Clara & I'm 13 nearly 14.

    I'm planning on making a group to loose weight, sharing pictures and weights and things if your interested please inbox me:)
    TheShipsGoingDown TheShipsGoingDown 13-15, F Oct 2

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    Attempting To Recover- My Experience

    A month ago, I was put in the emergency room because of cardiac arrest. Let me tell you, I was right in the middle of drivers Ed. How embarrassing it is to have your heart stop working with 30 classmates around you is awful. I couldn't breathe, I turned blue, and I shook...
    Musicgirl84 Musicgirl84 18-21, F 34 Responses Jul 7, 2011

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    I'm Highly Addicted

    Hey guys. I'd like to say I'm not Anorexic...But that would be a lie, I am. I'm 20 years old, 5'4, 118bls. I've been underweight by 20-25bls for most of my life, till I got my first job at Mcdonald's when I was about 15.  When I was 15 I was 110 to 115...
    MorphineXxLipsxX MorphineXxLipsxX 18-21, F 7 Responses Oct 21, 2009

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    I know most of you will say,

    "starving yourself is unhealthy and you can die!!". yes, we know this. But if you starve yourself correctly by maintaining your metabolism meaning drinking water and green tea, then I believe it's perfectly fine. you're technically not starving yourself, you're just eating less...
    julianbeyonce julianbeyonce 13-15, M 1 Response Sep 24

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    foreverbellaalone foreverbellaalone 22-25, F Aug 22

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    I have been battling anorexia

    for about 2 years. Most people think it's because I want attention but I never wanted attention. I don't know what I wanted. Ana at first was nice and was my friend now I'm a prisoner to her . My nail beds are gross and purple , My hair is brittle , and I am cold all the time...
    riverludwig22 riverludwig22 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 14

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    The Asian Method Of Staying Slim...

    ... is NOT to diet. But that involves an important change in the way you think about food. Before you laugh at me and stop reading, please just give me a few minutes of your time. I live in Singapore. I am familiar with most parts of South and Southeast Asia. People are NOT...
    AndrewPenney AndrewPenney 41-45 44 Responses Sep 25, 2010

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    I have to see how many calories are on the food

    I'm eating or I won't eat it, I just can't help but look...
    TheShipsGoingDown TheShipsGoingDown 13-15, F Oct 3

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    We Have A Serious Problem. . . A Must Read

    There seems to be a growing trend with these postings on this group looking for ana buddies. Lets address this issue.    Ana buddies is an oxy-moron. Buddies, or friends, don't encourage each other to destroy their health and injure their bodies. Real friends...
    takethesebrokenwings takethesebrokenwings 22-25, F 6 Responses Sep 13, 2010

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    I love feeling hungry

    but it makes me constantly think about food and I fight eating and I'm alright I have the will power I just wish I didn't need food to survive. My best days r when I go without eating and don't even notice it. When I don't eat because I'm actually not craving food not because I...
    laxprincess laxprincess 13-15, F Sep 27

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    its been a while since i've posted here.

    A lot has changed since doing so. For one my attitude to anorexia as a whole. Two my anorexia state. And three my long term health prognosis... SO, its coming up 4 years this September since my anorexia started and April will mark 4 years in recovery. Where am i now? well i'm...
    LunaWolff LunaWolff 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 5

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    Something From Amysangels (with Love)

    My very beloved and precious amysangels asked me to post these words here: [QUOTE] For long u have ur secret. its urs. and 'she'sais u have no friends n u arent prety like models n u arent happy.and u have ur secret n u have control n u wont tobelieve u succeed.because somethin...
    AndrewPenney AndrewPenney 41-45 5 Responses Sep 9, 2010

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    I don't eat and it hurts to breath now.

    Ugh!! I hate myself right now. Why can't I just be skinny.
    LittleFuckUp LittleFuckUp 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 19

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    im 15. ive been living with these thoughts

    for 2 years. it started innocent, i thought i would be great to be skinny and it led to this. im fucken miserable i just wanna be skinny :(
    skeletora skeletora 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 12

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    maxcollin maxcollin 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    Again well, I was free of Anna

    for 3 months, but I relapsed in October. now its January, and I'm once again stuck in this he.ll. I lost a few people along the way. I'm not ready to recover as fast as I should. this is my second relapse. I got farther than last time. last time I barely lasted a month. I will...
    wishingforrecovery wishingforrecovery 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 11

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    i havent eaten anything

    since the day before yesterday and i feel great! 3 days ago i was at 137 :( then the next day i was down to 133.5 and then last night i was down to 132.1! my first goal weight is 130 but my ugw is probably about 110 or less... but that will possibly change as time goes on...
    kinkykittymeow kinkykittymeow 18-21, F Aug 15

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    86lbs but can't weigh myself anymore cause my

    mum took the scales away... Thanks mum.
    TheShipsGoingDown TheShipsGoingDown 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 3

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    Roses Are Red, Violets Are Blue. Don'T Know If You Know This, But Ana Is Out To Kill You.

    Your a disgusting cow, Right? That's why your reading this, Right? Because every time you walk pas a mirror Ana whispers in your ear "Eww, look at that piece of meat. What'cha chow down today pig?" Because your so desperate to be "thin" or "perfect" that you created some demented...