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I Am Anorexic

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 3,604 People

    any time i eat i feel like i have failed.

    i am anorexic and i am happy because i no lomger give into food. i am strong. i would love of pro ana buddy
    gonnadieskinny gonnadieskinny 13-15, F Apr 20

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    Jupiterfl04 Jupiterfl04 18-21, F Apr 24

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    Regrettably, Our friend Ana

         Allow me to introduce myself. My name, or as I am called by so called "doctors", is Anorexia. Anorexia Nervosa is my full name, but you may call me Ana. Hopefully we can become great partners. In the coming time, I will invest a lot of time in...
    takethesebrokenwings takethesebrokenwings 22-25, F 20 Responses Oct 20, 2009

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    I'm so sick of being anorexic,

    I can't be a normal teen. I was pulled out of school to go treatment, then when I come home I have to be homeschool and go to all these doctors appointments. I can't even go to Carol-winds with my Girl Scout troop next week. None of my "friends" talk to me. Whenever they are...
    BooBear99 BooBear99 16-17, F 5 Responses Apr 14, 2014

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    Attempting To Recover- My Experience

    A month ago, I was put in the emergency room because of cardiac arrest. Let me tell you, I was right in the middle of drivers Ed. How embarrassing it is to have your heart stop working with 30 classmates around you is awful. I couldn't breathe, I turned blue, and I shook...
    Musicgirl84 Musicgirl84 18-21, F 36 Responses Jul 7, 2011

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    Lately i feel worse. I can't look at myself

    anymore. I can't wear what I want anymore. I can't be me, without feeling like crap about my body. I won't eat for days and ill exercise until i can't move. I want to be perfect.
    JustineMusey JustineMusey 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 12

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    Skinny.

    There's no such thing as "too skinny". I want people to notice my weight loss. It's an achievement, and I won't stop till I get it.
    izzymeg7 izzymeg7 16-17, F 3 Responses Nov 14, 2013

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    Feel so fat and disgusting.

    Please don't hate😒
    tinyanorexic tinyanorexic 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 11

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    The thing I hate the most about fasting,

    is the constant hunger pains and the hunger headaches. I always get bad headaches. But when I express this to my mother, she gets mad because she kinda has a lead onto my anorexia. She says that she's noticed my weight going down, quickly, but I haven't noticed a single thing...
    cravingniht cravingniht 22-25, F Apr 25

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    I need to lose more weight.

    My stomach needs to go. I look in the mirror everyday and change my outfit from a pretty dress to baggy shirt and sweats because i hate my body. My parents dont understand, and u can't starve myself without them noticing.
    JustineMusey JustineMusey 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 25

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    Whos With Me

    I have an anorexia nervosa. The last 8 months have been a living hell for me. I slipped along unnoticed by my parents for a month then they caught on to my constant stomach aches or fullness they let it go fpr another month hoping it was just a terrible teenager phase. Oh boy...
    TryinghardAlltogethernow TryinghardAlltogethernow 18-21 2 Responses Jun 5, 2013

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    A pic so you can see how I'm doing now.

    I ate my first full meal in a month today
    Ashthewolf7601 Ashthewolf7601 13-15, F 5 Responses Jan 23

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    "You look like a model!

    ".. But it's been the ugliest thing I could do to myself.
    lilqueenbee lilqueenbee 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 18, 2014

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    I went to the doctors today.

    Turns out I've lost 14lbs since January (about 4 months ago). That really concerned her. She kept making a big deal about it. My parents got a little upset, but oh well. I might try to slow down the weight loss a little so they don't get too suspicious.
    Brimmless Brimmless 18-21, F May 11

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    Wtf day 5 with only gum

    and water and I haven lost a pound today. Wtf is wrong with me
    Jupiterfl04 Jupiterfl04 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 25

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    I ate as little as I possibly could today-1074.

    That might seem like a lot to some of you, but with my parents deciding what I eat for breakfast and dinner, it was an accomplishment. I resisted the amazing cookies and decent pizza at lunch and the garlic bread at dinner, along with all the miscellaneous junk food in the...
    Brimmless Brimmless 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 27

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    Ana Is Myself ...

    ANA Is Me Myself and My Distorted Reflection ... Though I know but I still believe in the distorted perception ...   over 3 years untill now since she has been apart of me ... I need no sympathy but understanding ... I need you to feel me ...96 lbs with 5'5 feet...
    DollyDiva DollyDiva 26-30, F 45 Responses Jan 20, 2009

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    I am anorexic. My family

    and counselor are trying to help me recover but the thing is, the guilt is too much. I burn it all off anyways, even through I want to try for my family. I simply can't stop though. I keep gaining and I can't take it. I still need to lose weight, I still starve for perfection.
    CyanideSpider CyanideSpider 13-15, F May 10

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    I've just turned 17 and I'm just under 90

    pounds. I've found anorexia so hard but recently I've been a lot better. I've got my weight upto where I am and I'm feeling a lot healthier. Obviously I have my bad days, but it's too be expected. Ultimately I think I'm finally beginning to win my battle.
    ameliap ameliap 18-21, F Feb 9, 2014

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    I NEED a scale that I know is accurate.

    We only have one and I'm pretty sure it's broken because it says I've dropped 2 pounds in the last few days but I feel fatter than ever.
    Brimmless Brimmless 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 30

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    kxCobra kxCobra 18-21, F May 5

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    i hate not eating for a week

    and feeling like im letting down myself and people who care
    anonymous138 anonymous138 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 29

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    Im The Age Of 13 I Am In 8th Grade.

    I Am 5foot, 3 Inches... I Am 95-100 Pounds Non Stop Up And Down. I Need A Ana Buddy?? I Need A Strict One Fast
    devinamerman devinamerman 13-15, F 8 Responses Jan 24

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    The Fight Against Ana

    I will not say "I used to be anorexic". That would be a false statement, once anorexia takes over, you will always be anorexic, the thoughts will always be in the back of your head. I am a survivor of anorexia I will say. When I became anorexic, it was just an extreme diet to...
    TeenMommyof4 TeenMommyof4 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 10, 2012

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    Its funny how my tv always ends up on food

    channel and I dont even realize it
    sassysami70663 sassysami70663 26-30, F Apr 27

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    UmaModern UmaModern 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 22, 2014

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    I'm gonna start the ABC DIET tomorrow.

    Can't wait to loose a lot more weight!
    recoveringteen00 recoveringteen00 13-15, F Mar 31

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    Ana is your mind. Don't fight it

    and you'll perfect and thin.
    IamANOREXICana IamANOREXICana 16-17, F May 4

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    Ana may be a disease

    but I look so much better with her and feel better so thank you Ana I love you😇😄!!!
    IamANOREXICana IamANOREXICana 16-17, F May 7

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    Why I Feel Like Quitting.. Need Advice

    Hello everyone, I am new to experience project and am looking for some advice on anorexia recovery. Any support is appreciated, I really need help from other sufferers right now. Let me start by sharing my story- My name is Courtney, and I am almost 19 years old. I was...
    dancer4444 dancer4444 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 11, 2013

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    I am 5'9 and 14 years old.

    I weigh 85 pounds and am hoping to loose more soon. My Eating Schedule: Monday- Wednesday 6 Crackers A Day. Thursday-Friday: Nothing Saturday: 13 blueberries Sunday: Nothing Thank Goodness I Have gym after lunch.
    EternallyScreamingInSilence EternallyScreamingInSilence 13-15, M 2 Responses Jan 29

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    Looks like I slipped back into old ways.

    .. I hate this! Just make it stop before I loose too much weight again...
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F Apr 21

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    We Have A Serious Problem. . . A Must Read

    There seems to be a growing trend with these postings on this group looking for ana buddies. Lets address this issue.    Ana buddies is an oxy-moron. Buddies, or friends, don't encourage each other to destroy their health and injure their bodies. Real friends...
    takethesebrokenwings takethesebrokenwings 22-25, F 6 Responses Sep 13, 2010

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    I look better healthy.

    I've struggled with anorexia for years and years. I hated my body. I wanted to set my face on fire. Now, I don't even give it another thought. I have respect for myself. Learning to love and accept myself. Healthy is beautiful. I'm gaining it all back.
    CreoleItalianwoman CreoleItalianwoman 31-35, F 3 Responses Apr 30

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    I am doing a project.

    I need words associated with anorexia or body image problems tht I can write on my body. All I have so far is fat, depressed, ugly, thigh gap. Please HELP
    Tiffanyportelli Tiffanyportelli 22-25, F 3 Responses Apr 15

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    Today was weird. I originally planned to eat a

    little more than usual so people wouldnt get suspicious, but I accidently ended up eating about 400 less than usual. Huh.
    Brimmless Brimmless 18-21, F May 12

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    I've seen this girl named Ana.

    She's pretty thin and tall. She has the smallest frame I've ever seen. And not one single flaw. I met this girl named Ana. She introduced herself today. She seems so very nice and kind. She says she wants to stay. I know this girl named Ana. She's so perfect and it's true. I'm...
    recoveringteen00 recoveringteen00 13-15, F 3 Responses Mar 28

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    As stupid as it sounds I want more people to

    support my eating decisions and help me be happy
    Jupiterfl04 Jupiterfl04 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 25

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    I feel so horrible I was at 98 lbs PERFECT at

    that point ik but then, my BD came and I gained then Easter and now I'm back to 111LBS please can someone help I want Ana back in my life. I NEED Ana back in my life.
    Annmarierosewood Annmarierosewood 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 6

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    This month will mark a full 2 years I've been

    recovered completely, I can honestly say anorexia is NOTHING like you think it is, it hurts me to see thousands of little girls, looking at models, and thinking "I want to be like that" because that's exactly what I did. I WAS that little girl that was jealous of skinny models...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 4 Responses May 12

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    Jupiterfl04 Jupiterfl04 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 24

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    It Isn'T Fair

    Look at me, I'm so damn skinny. I only weigh 260lbs. Someone help me gain weight. I hate being anorexic
    gainergirljiggles gainergirljiggles 22-25, F 13 Responses Sep 22, 2013

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    xbutterflyanax xbutterflyanax 16-17, F 3 Responses Nov 9, 2014

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    I hate my body no matter what I always will.

    It's hard because now and then I find myself eating and I cry. Then I drag myself into my room and cut my arms and blast loud music. I hate when I eat...I feel Disgusting when I do. All I want is to be able to count my ribs one by one and have a big thigh gap. I want mu hipbones...
    Skinandbonesss Skinandbonesss 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 16

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    An Open Plea to Ana's Everywhere...

    Look, I'm the exact opposite of anorexic. My only eating disorder is that I like food and drink a little bit too much. Yep. I'm fat. Some days it's hard being the fat guy. Others, I wouldn't trade it for anything. I was once well north of 330lbs... Today, I am down to 280lbs...
    drcynic drcynic 26-30, M 31 Responses Mar 16, 2008

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    I am so done with my body.

    I want to cut the fat off my stomach. I barely ate today... I had 2 crackers and a glass of water. I want to be skinny
    JustineMusey JustineMusey 13-15, F 3 Responses May 12

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    Trigger Warning: A year later

    and I am STILL struggling to get better... It's such a vicious cycle...I have gotten down to 450 calories a day...maximum exercise output as possible.. To top it all off...I got braces...freaking braces, guys. If eating wasn't hard enough for me. I've lost a total of 26...