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I Am Anorexic

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 3,731 People

    (TW//Weight) Today I went to a checkup.

    I was really worried because I haven't been to the doctors in over a year, and I had assumed that in my recovery I had gained enough weight to not be considered anorexic anymore. That should be a good thing, but just because your body doesn't show it, doesn't mean you don't...
    princessoliivia princessoliivia 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 7, 2015

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    Im The Age Of 13 I Am In 8th Grade.

    I Am 5foot, 3 Inches... I Am 95-100 Pounds Non Stop Up And Down. I Need A Ana Buddy?? I Need A Strict One Fast
    devinamerman devinamerman 13-15, F 12 Responses Jan 24, 2015

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    I need a pro-ana coach.

    I am really trying to lose 25 pounds if not more and I really need someone to guide me and help me along this process. Please no hateful or degrading comments.
    ishallfocus ishallfocus 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 13

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    I'm not but I hope you guys get well

    and start eating. I don't eat a lot but I still do love to eat, sometimes I just can't bother to cook. I weigh 98lbs. I do hope to go up to 110 one day but its hard to gain weight with my high metabolism. Get well soon guys. Start eating , I don't want you guys to die or...
    legzydawlyy legzydawlyy 18-21, F Jan 13

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    I'm 5'5 and weigh 94 pounds

    and it still isn't enough. My heart does funny things every day and I've started having internal bleeding due to laxative abuse. Eating disorders are far from glamorous.
    SkullRoseInsignia SkullRoseInsignia 16-17, T Oct 6, 2015

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    Relapse is terrible. I thought I had forgotten

    what this felt like but I guess I didn't. Anybody willing to talk?
    Spinner98 Spinner98 16-17, M Oct 7, 2015

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    My life has been turned upside down.

    . really she is my best friend, but she takes up every thought and every good thing I have in my life.. I dont understand how we became this close.. one day I was worried about my weight and the next day she was there to motivate me to lose weight... She's my strength and my...
    0hSheanBreeze 0hSheanBreeze 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 21, 2015

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    Hey everyone, there is a group on a new app

    called telegram. It is amazing. It can send pdfs, music, basically any file you can possibly imagine with no lag at all. And the groups can be up to 200 people! Please join and be active! https://telegram.me/joinchat/B5Rn3QJhQN6Sq-o0gDUjnQ I would love to have a huge active ana...
    Kittykat2174 Kittykat2174 18-21, F Nov 15, 2015

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    I saw my weight 107 pounds!

    !!!!! No no no I gained 4 founds. It's probably the Big Mac I ate yesterday. I can't focus at camp now all I keep thinking about is my weight. I just wish I can go back and be 100 pounds and stay there. Uggggh I hate this feeling
    BooBear99 BooBear99 22-25, F 5 Responses Jul 21, 2015

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    The Fight Against Ana

    I will not say "I used to be anorexic". That would be a false statement, once anorexia takes over, you will always be anorexic, the thoughts will always be in the back of your head. I am a survivor of anorexia I will say. When I became anorexic, it was just an extreme diet to...
    TeenMommyof4 TeenMommyof4 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 10, 2012

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    I Have Battled Anorexia

    I have had Anorexia for 14 years.  I am only at a "normal" weight now due to force feedings. HW 160 lbs CW  130 lbs LW 64 lbs I will do anything to lose at least 30 lbs to start with and then take it from there.  I just need people to stop...
    Licorice Licorice 31-35, F 20 Responses Jul 21, 2007

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    Eat. Eat. Don't think thin ,

    think healthy , think being alive , smile.
    legzydawlyy legzydawlyy 18-21, F Jan 13

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    I don't feel like anyone will ever care

    or know that I am because I'm not skinny, and I never will be
    fxndxnghappxness fxndxnghappxness 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 12, 2015

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    I'm so sick of being anorexic,

    I can't be a normal teen. I was pulled out of school to go treatment, then when I come home I have to be homeschool and go to all these doctors appointments. I can't even go to Carol-winds with my Girl Scout troop next week. None of my "friends" talk to me. Whenever they are...
    BooBear99 BooBear99 22-25, F 5 Responses Apr 14, 2014

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    murderizedd murderizedd 13-15, F 2 Responses Oct 13, 2015

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    That means I starve myself

    even tho I am hungry I just feel like I am fat but people say that I am skinny
    sparkysaysmeow sparkysaysmeow 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 19, 2015

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    Don't have an appetite anymore.

    I'm starting to enjoy the feeling of being hungry again :( I'm scared :'(
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 29, 2015

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    I've just turned 17 and I'm just under 90

    pounds. I've found anorexia so hard but recently I've been a lot better. I've got my weight upto where I am and I'm feeling a lot healthier. Obviously I have my bad days, but it's too be expected. Ultimately I think I'm finally beginning to win my battle.
    ameliap ameliap 18-21, F Feb 9, 2014

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    I Need An Ana Buddy.

    I just started with this and I don't want to give in before I give myself a chance. I'm a dependent person and with the recent death of my grandmother and the heartbreak of a significant other giving up on me... Well let's just say I have too much, I'm tired of being fat and I...
    failureisnotanoption failureisnotanoption 16-17, F 19 Responses Jun 10, 2010

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    I Want To Be Anorexic..

    im 18 years old and i am over weight! see i dont mind my face and top half of my body but its my legs and belly i hate i dont even eat bad ataall and i dont sit around eeating 24-7 iv tried every diet there is and all i wanna do is become anorexic because i hate my life im sick...
    5 Responses Feb 6, 2013

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    Well, first off I haven't been diagnosed with

    Anorexia. But I'm relapsing back into losing weight. So I joined the group I Am Becoming Anorexic. That group is terrible. There are so many people asking for Ana buddies on their. Like even more than there are in this one. I just wanted you to know that I'm not one of them. I...
    Hiway202 Hiway202 16-17, F Dec 9, 2015

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    UmaModern UmaModern 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 22, 2014

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    I really just need someone

    that understands me. I am addicted to thinspo and model obsessed. no one seems to understand, and it sucks. I feel so alone and empty. my friends are sick of me constantly bringing up calorie intake and work out plans. sometimes even goal weights. I know I shouldn't be talking...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Mar 22, 2015

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    I'm really bad with my anorexia today.

    .... I've been struggling with it since I'm 14years old. When I was younger, I started with the mindset to be thin like other girls, but as time went on and I eventually became thin it continued. Over the years, it had shifted from a yearning to be pretty to a compulsion. When...
    exhuberantviolet exhuberantviolet 18-21, F Jan 11, 2015

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    I've had Ana for 2 years

    and I've been trying to recover for 4 months. I've been relapsing and I'm not quite sure what I should do with my body now.
    CrystalHurricane CrystalHurricane 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 6, 2015

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    It Isn'T Fair

    Look at me, I'm so damn skinny. I only weigh 260lbs. Someone help me gain weight. I hate being anorexic
    gainergirljiggles gainergirljiggles 22-25, F 13 Responses Sep 22, 2013

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    iamanorexic666 iamanorexic666 26-30, F Nov 27, 2015

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    This month will mark a full 2 years I've been

    recovered completely, I can honestly say anorexia is NOTHING like you think it is, it hurts me to see thousands of little girls, looking at models, and thinking "I want to be like that" because that's exactly what I did. I WAS that little girl that was jealous of skinny models...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses May 12, 2015

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    I hate being anorexic.

    I feel like being a guy and being anorexic is the worst thing that could've happened to me. I can tell almost nobody about it because they joke about it or they say it's not possible. Why are there gender stereotypes about eating disorders? Why is a doctor the only person who...
    Spinner98 Spinner98 16-17, M 2 Responses Sep 30, 2015

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    Everybody says I am skinny.

    I just can't bring myself to believe it because when I look in the mirror, all I see is a fat, chubby girl. I weigh myself twice a day. If I lost weight, good, but I keep trying to lose more. If I haven't lost any weight, a try even harder to lose weight. If I gained weight, I...
    MelMelrules93 MelMelrules93 18-21, T 1 Response Nov 26, 2015

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    This is hard you guys.

    My mom doesn't know that I can't eat. Like I just can't. I ate a TV dinner to make her happy and then I thought I'd have a little but if chips and cheese, but my dad made me it and there had to be at least sixty chips on that plate. And a lot of cheese. And I had to eat it...
    Hiway202 Hiway202 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 10, 2015

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    I am also bi. I'm 14

    and want a girl who will text me all the time and who is very passionate but still has goals.
    ButterflyBaby7 ButterflyBaby7 13-15, F Jan 1

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    Why is gaining weight

    so hard? I did nothing wrong this time? I eat and actually enjoy eating. I mastered learning how to cook. My fear of food is slowly going away. But I went to the doctor because I was having shakes. And weighed 99Lbs. I want to be at my goal weight again. I want to look and feel...
    Singlemother78 Singlemother78 31-35, F 4 Responses Dec 7, 2015

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    "You look like a model!

    ".. But it's been the ugliest thing I could do to myself.
    lilqueenbee lilqueenbee 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 18, 2014

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    I wish I didn't eat. I wish I didn't feel empty.

    I wish I knew who I am. I wish I could go back to who I was. I wish I was skinny. I wish I was me.
    Valentine244 Valentine244 13-15, F Mar 27, 2015

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    I am 5'9 and 14 years old.

    I weigh 85 pounds and am hoping to loose more soon. My Eating Schedule: Monday- Wednesday 6 Crackers A Day. Thursday-Friday: Nothing Saturday: 13 blueberries Sunday: Nothing Thank Goodness I Have gym after lunch.
    EternallyScreamingInSilence EternallyScreamingInSilence 13-15, M 2 Responses Jan 29, 2015

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    You're Probably Anorexic If...

      Please take the time to read this entire story before commenting. Comments that do not follow the Community Standards will be promptly reported and removed.  You're probably anorexic if... You've memorized the calorie content of virtually everything...
    takethesebrokenwings takethesebrokenwings 22-25, F 21 Responses Sep 17, 2010

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    VividMEhot VividMEhot 18-21, F 7 Responses Oct 9, 2015

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    Hi, I am anorexic. With my older stories,

    you would think that I am still fat, but no. In fact a lot of people tells me that I have a great body and that they would like to have mine. But that is not the problem, the problem is that I don't believe it. I still see myself fat, and all the time I am worrying about food...
    Reiseizel Reiseizel 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 26, 2015

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    A pic so you can see how I'm doing now.

    I ate my first full meal in a month today
    Ashthewolf7601 Ashthewolf7601 13-15, F 5 Responses Jan 23, 2015

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    Ana buddy? Someone to share photos of quotes

    and motivation pics to.and will send some too
    Annmarierosewood Annmarierosewood 13-15, F 2 Responses Oct 17, 2015

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    Regrettably, Our friend Ana

         Allow me to introduce myself. My name, or as I am called by so called "doctors", is Anorexia. Anorexia Nervosa is my full name, but you may call me Ana. Hopefully we can become great partners. In the coming time, I will invest a lot of time in...
    takethesebrokenwings takethesebrokenwings 22-25, F 20 Responses Oct 20, 2009

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    Ana Is Myself ...

    ANA Is Me Myself and My Distorted Reflection ... Though I know but I still believe in the distorted perception ...   over 3 years untill now since she has been apart of me ... I need no sympathy but understanding ... I need you to feel me ...96 lbs with 5'5 feet...
    DollyDiva DollyDiva 26-30, F 43 Responses Jan 20, 2009

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    I used to be smaller

    than I am now. Why would anybody say that I need to gain more weight? Especially if my doctors are saying that I am healthy. Yeah, I lost a few pounds. But I am doing what I'm suppose to do. Perhaps it's stress. Maybe it's because I smoke and drink coffee. Those can cause weight...
    Singlemother78 Singlemother78 31-35, F 1 Response Dec 13, 2015

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    I just need someone to help me stay strong.

    Still 10 pounds from my goal weight. Thin is beautiful.
    Brooke2Big Brooke2Big 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 17, 2013

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