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I Am Anorexic

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 3,551 People

    I can't get over how disgusting I am.

    I just want to be skinny. Why is that so much to ask for :( even if I don't eat for days I feel fat. I just can't lose weight. I'm so horrible. Working out doesn't even help anymore :/ I miss being skinny.....
    Lynnboatright Lynnboatright 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 4

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    I've just turned 17 and I'm just under 90

    pounds. I've found anorexia so hard but recently I've been a lot better. I've got my weight upto where I am and I'm feeling a lot healthier. Obviously I have my bad days, but it's too be expected. Ultimately I think I'm finally beginning to win my battle.
    ameliap ameliap 18-21, F Feb 9, 2014

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    I hate this. I weighed in at 103.

    And my goal weight has always been 100. So now I feel torn. Ashamed that I "need" to gain weight..
    daisycuddling daisycuddling 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 21

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    I simultaneously feel like a giant blob

    and know I'm skinny. I want a flatter stomach and thinner thighs. I hate my body. I want to be better than I am now. I'm 75lbs and don't want to lose weight, just the appearance of fat. I'm disgusting.
    aholliday3300 aholliday3300 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 10

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    I'm really bad with my anorexia today.

    .... I've been struggling with it since I'm 14years old. When I was younger, I started with the mindset to be thin like other girls, but as time went on and I eventually became thin it continued. Over the years, it had shifted from a yearning to be pretty to a compulsion. When...
    exhuberantviolet exhuberantviolet 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 11

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    FOOD! Is everywhere! Jesus I hate it

    so much! Thats why iam fat!
    BaeF BaeF 13-15, F 9 Responses Jan 12

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    An Open Plea to Ana's Everywhere...

    Look, I'm the exact opposite of anorexic. My only eating disorder is that I like food and drink a little bit too much. Yep. I'm fat. Some days it's hard being the fat guy. Others, I wouldn't trade it for anything. I was once well north of 330lbs... Today, I am down to 280lbs...
    drcynic drcynic 26-30, M 31 Responses Mar 16, 2008

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    I Need An Ana Buddy.

    I just started with this and I don't want to give in before I give myself a chance. I'm a dependent person and with the recent death of my grandmother and the heartbreak of a significant other giving up on me... Well let's just say I have too much, I'm tired of being fat and I...
    failureisnotanoption failureisnotanoption 16-17, F 18 Responses Jun 10, 2010

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    I hate forcing myself to eat

    because later on I regret it and have to make up for it the next day even though I could have and would have been better off not eating to begin with. Fresh start tomorrow.
    Annar912 Annar912 16-17, F Jan 14

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    Why I Feel Like Quitting.. Need Advice

    Hello everyone, I am new to experience project and am looking for some advice on anorexia recovery. Any support is appreciated, I really need help from other sufferers right now. Let me start by sharing my story- My name is Courtney, and I am almost 19 years old. I was...
    dancer4444 dancer4444 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 11, 2013

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    My mom got out the cream puffs

    and I said jokingly I was gonna eat them all and she looks at me and says so are we going to the plus sizes for dresses or the normal sizes They'd be so much better off without me though they wouldn't have to pay for more food or my college or buy a new car or a wedding or prom...
    iflipppppp iflipppppp 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 13

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    Hips Ribs Collar bones Hunger

    pains Water Eating from the inside out Slowly fading Never feeling well
    Ashthewolf7601 Ashthewolf7601 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 23

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    "You look like a model!

    ".. But it's been the ugliest thing I could do to myself.
    lilqueenbee lilqueenbee 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 18, 2014

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    I woke up with a headache

    and couldn't get rid of it. I was painting at work today and I had to keep taking breaks cause the pain was so extreme. My coworkers kept blaming my headache on the paint so I went along with it. I couldn't tell them it was because I had barely eaten in 2 days
    Tiffanyportelli Tiffanyportelli 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 13

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    I Was

    i wanted to be a modle so bad and i kept getting turend away so i stopped eating but im better now and im a plus size modle and i love my body but i know what its like and its horribal to feel so ugly even when your not :(
    iliketosuckcock iliketosuckcock 18-21, F 6 Responses May 18, 2012

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    yeah, I do starve and stuff,

    but when I workout, I gain really quickly. managed to gain 4kg of lean meat
    timeisvaluable timeisvaluable 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Lately, I've been eating little to no food in

    the hopes that maybe I'll lose weight. My last relationship got me thinking. Maybe he would've loved me if I had been skinny.
    NoF7cksSeven NoF7cksSeven 16-17, F 4 Responses Jan 13

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    Do you regret making fun of me

    for gaining 5 pounds?! Because now I lost 23 pounds in one week because of it. Your words effected a girl, are you happy??
    DeterminedToMakeLifeWorthIt DeterminedToMakeLifeWorthIt 16-17, F 4 Responses Feb 16

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    For the last five weeks I have been in

    treatment (lucky me -_-) I'm supposed to be discharged next Thursday but the director may want to keep me longer cause I have terrifying nightmares that keep me up. I don't want to be in treatment longer. I swear if I'm there longer if lose it
    BooBear99 BooBear99 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 21

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    I'm so sick of being anorexic,

    I can't be a normal teen. I was pulled out of school to go treatment, then when I come home I have to be homeschool and go to all these doctors appointments. I can't even go to Carol-winds with my Girl Scout troop next week. None of my "friends" talk to me. Whenever they are...
    BooBear99 BooBear99 16-17, F 5 Responses Apr 14, 2014

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    Fasting Buddy

    I am starting a fast tomorrow. If you would like to join we can email or text. With support I think we will get through it easier.
    karebear03 karebear03 22-25, F 6 Responses Feb 3, 2013

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    I want to be sick again.

    He broke me and I want to destroy myself for him
    Saigatatarica Saigatatarica 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Do you believe someone can be fully recovered

    from anorexia? I used to think that it's not possible. But now, I believe that you can be fully recovered. I think that if we stay strong and focus on recovery; and staying healthy, anything is possible. I have a goal to be completely recovered from my eating disorder. And I...
    Singlemother78 Singlemother78 31-35, F 1 Response Feb 9

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    Feel so fat and disgusting.

    Please don't hateūüėí
    tinyanorexic tinyanorexic 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 11

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    Hey I am looking for a support buddy to help

    each other not crave to binging or eating let me know if you are interested!
    Chloe2055 Chloe2055 16-17, F 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    The Asian Method Of Staying Slim...

    ... is NOT to diet. But that involves an important change in the way you think about food. Before you laugh at me and stop reading, please just give me a few minutes of your time. I live in Singapore. I am familiar with most parts of South and Southeast Asia. People are NOT...
    AndrewPenney AndrewPenney 41-45 44 Responses Sep 25, 2010

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    UmaModern UmaModern 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 22, 2014

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    A pic so you can see how I'm doing now.

    I ate my first full meal in a month today
    Ashthewolf7601 Ashthewolf7601 13-15, F 5 Responses Jan 23

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    This is exactly what I looked like

    when I used to starve myself. I might go back to it
    5s0s 5s0s 16-17, M 4 Responses Jan 24

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    We Have A Serious Problem. . . A Must Read

    There seems to be a growing trend with these postings on this group looking for ana buddies. Lets address this issue.    Ana buddies is an oxy-moron. Buddies, or friends, don't encourage each other to destroy their health and injure their bodies. Real friends...
    takethesebrokenwings takethesebrokenwings 22-25, F 6 Responses Sep 13, 2010

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    You're Probably Anorexic If...

      Please take the time to read this entire story before commenting. Comments that do not follow the Community Standards will be promptly reported and removed.  You're probably anorexic if... You've memorized the calorie content of virtually everything...
    takethesebrokenwings takethesebrokenwings 22-25, F 21 Responses Sep 17, 2010

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    Regrettably, Our friend Ana

         Allow me to introduce myself. My name, or as I am called by so called "doctors", is Anorexia. Anorexia Nervosa is my full name, but you may call me Ana. Hopefully we can become great partners. In the coming time, I will invest a lot of time in...
    takethesebrokenwings takethesebrokenwings 22-25, F 20 Responses Oct 20, 2009

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    It Isn'T Fair

    Look at me, I'm so damn skinny. I only weigh 260lbs. Someone help me gain weight. I hate being anorexic
    gainergirljiggles gainergirljiggles 22-25, F 14 Responses Sep 22, 2013

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    Im The Age Of 13 I Am In 8th Grade.

    I Am 5foot, 3 Inches... I Am 95-100 Pounds Non Stop Up And Down. I Need A Ana Buddy?? I Need A Strict One Fast
    devinamerman devinamerman 13-15, F 6 Responses Jan 24

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    I hate cravings. Especially the ones

    where you not crave one special for, but just the feeling of food in your stomach. I've craved all day and I ate breakfast:( I started with just a kiwi, because I was feeling so ******* bad and there's only 50 cals in one kiwi, but it didn't help and I felt more and more bad...
    unlovedana unlovedana 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 11

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    Ana Is Myself ...

    ANA Is Me Myself and My Distorted Reflection ... Though I know but I still believe in the distorted perception ...   over 3 years untill now since she has been apart of me ... I need no sympathy but understanding ... I need you to feel me ...96 lbs with 5'5 feet...
    DollyDiva DollyDiva 22-25, F 45 Responses Jan 20, 2009

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    My body image has been really bad lately,

    and I don't want to eat anymore and I'm really scare to step on the scale because I think I've gained weight. I've had about 3 anxiety attacks in the last week and I don't know what to do anymore :(
    iflipppppp iflipppppp 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 4

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    There really is no point to this.

    It's more just trying to face the facts and to get myself help. I always wear a mask. I pretend there's nothing wrong with me, when there's a million things wrong. I can never face the music when it comes to my own life. I can easily help so many other people but I can't ever...
    alexthornton alexthornton 18-21, M 10 Responses Jan 18, 2014

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    I Have Battled Anorexia

    I have had Anorexia for 14 years.  I am only at a "normal" weight now due to force feedings. HW 160 lbs CW  130 lbs LW 64 lbs I will do anything to lose at least 30 lbs to start with and then take it from there.  I just need people to stop...
    Licorice Licorice 31-35, F 20 Responses Jul 21, 2007

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    I don't know if I'd call myself anorexic.

    I don't feel like I've ever had it bad. I'm here because over the last few days I had been in a feud with my parents and I refused to leave my room for anything. For the first couple of days I didn't eat anything, and on the third day I found this mostly empty can of nuts. And...
    StokesQuirky StokesQuirky 18-21, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    Tomorrow Im not eating breakfast

    and its not being served at school tomorrow(half day)!So I don't have to act normal and eat! And maybe not dinner if my parents aren't home tomorrows going to be a good day:)
    nicole5227 nicole5227 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 18, 2013

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    I've only eaten once in the past 24 hours.

    ...and now mom has made my favorite kind of cake.....god give me strength
    Lynnboatright Lynnboatright 16-17, F Feb 8

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    I just need someone to help me stay strong.

    Still 10 pounds from my goal weight. Thin is beautiful.
    Brooke2Big Brooke2Big 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 17, 2013

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    I lost the person I loved most

    because I could not let go of Ana. It's so hard to let go of her. She's been my best friend forever. I cry because I'm so torn. But I know if I want to LIVE and LOVE, I have to say goodbye to her. I just don't know how.
    daisycuddling daisycuddling 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 20

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    Ana is my best friend.

    She is always there for me. Who else is there?
    daisycuddling daisycuddling 22-25, F Feb 20

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    I'm Highly Addicted

    Hey guys. I'd like to say I'm not Anorexic...But that would be a lie, I am. I'm 20 years old, 5'4, 118bls. I've been underweight by 20-25bls for most of my life, till I got my first job at Mcdonald's when I was about 15.  When I was 15 I was 110 to 115...
    MorphineXxLipsxX MorphineXxLipsxX 18-21, F 7 Responses Oct 21, 2009

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