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I Am Anorexic

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 3,723 People

    UmaModern UmaModern
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 22, 2014

    I'm not - but I want to try the lifestyle.

    I'm disgustingly fat and other diets haven't worked. I'm 19, female, 5'5 and a horrifying 220lbs... The problem is that I'm lazy and unmotivated, l love to binge. Is there anyone who is a similar weight class who can join forces with me to get down to 150lbs? I know 70lbs is...
    Pelennor Pelennor
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Feb 6, 2016

    I wish I didn't eat. I wish I didn't feel empty.

    I wish I knew who I am. I wish I could go back to who I was. I wish I was skinny. I wish I was me.
    Valentine244 Valentine244
    16-17, F
    Mar 27, 2015

    my boyfriend is also anorexic.

    he wants me to get better. he even went so far as to threaten to tell my parents I'm relapsing. i care more about being perfect than him. but he stays. it can't eat. i don't wanna lose him. i don't wanna be put back into a clinic bc they'll force me to eat. i don't know what to...
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Mar 15, 2016

    bye guys. I heard the news.

    it sucks but oh well. I don't know if I'll be around if they ever make another ep. I hope so. I'll try to stay alive I promise. you all better do the same! I just wanted to thank single mother for how awesome and supportive you've been. I love you and food luck with the...
    deleted deleted
    Mar 23, 2016

    Regrettably, Our friend Ana

         Allow me to introduce myself. My name, or as I am called by so called "doctors", is Anorexia. Anorexia Nervosa is my full name, but you may call me Ana. Hopefully we can become great partners. In the coming time, I will invest a lot of time in...
    takethesebrokenwings takethesebrokenwings
    22-25, F
    18 Responses Oct 20, 2009

    Everyday I am reminded how skinny I am by

    teachers, or family, or friends. I eat a lot but there is no effect, I loose it all. And being this skinny is not pretty at all. Every day I put on an outfit I look at myself and I'm disgusted. I also have big hips, so that just messes up my whole body image.
    HayleyCroneoff15 HayleyCroneoff15
    16-17, F
    Feb 21, 2016

    Eat. Eat. Don't think thin ,

    think healthy , think being alive , smile.
    legzydawlyy legzydawlyy
    18-21, F
    Jan 13, 2016


    There's no such thing as "too skinny". I want people to notice my weight loss. It's an achievement, and I won't stop till I get it.
    izzymeg7 izzymeg7
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Nov 14, 2013

    I don't feel like anyone will ever care

    or know that I am because I'm not skinny, and I never will be
    fxndxnghappxness fxndxnghappxness
    18-21, F
    Dec 12, 2015

    "You look like a model!

    ".. But it's been the ugliest thing I could do to myself.
    lilqueenbee lilqueenbee
    22-25, F
    5 Responses Jan 18, 2014

    I'm so sick of being anorexic,

    I can't be a normal teen. I was pulled out of school to go treatment, then when I come home I have to be homeschool and go to all these doctors appointments. I can't even go to Carol-winds with my Girl Scout troop next week. None of my "friends" talk to me. Whenever they are...
    BooBear99 BooBear99
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Apr 14, 2014

    *could be triggering* I just don't care anymore.

    I will not eat until I am perfect. I don't care how many times you threaten me to put me back in a clinic. I don't care how upset it makes you. I don't care how I'm slowly killing myself. I will be pure or I'll die trying. and there's nothing you can do to stop me.
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Mar 14, 2016

    Ana Is Myself ...

    ANA Is Me Myself and My Distorted Reflection ... Though I know but I still believe in the distorted perception ...   over 3 years untill now since she has been apart of me ... I need no sympathy but understanding ... I need you to feel me ...96 lbs with 5'5 feet...
    DollyDiva DollyDiva
    26-30, F
    43 Responses Jan 20, 2009

    I'm not sure if it's official,

    but I don't feel like eating anything during the day. I feel turned off by seeing food and I've lost a lot of weight. I almost like to think I'm malnourished, but I just don't feel like eating at all.
    lonelylifeindia lonelylifeindia
    26-30, M
    Mar 28, 2016

    I Have Battled Anorexia

    I have had Anorexia for 14 years.  I am only at a "normal" weight now due to force feedings. HW 160 lbs CW  130 lbs LW 64 lbs I will do anything to lose at least 30 lbs to start with and then take it from there.  I just need people to stop...
    Licorice Licorice
    31-35, F
    20 Responses Jul 21, 2007

    An Open Plea to Ana's Everywhere...

    Look, I'm the exact opposite of anorexic. My only eating disorder is that I like food and drink a little bit too much. Yep. I'm fat. Some days it's hard being the fat guy. Others, I wouldn't trade it for anything. I was once well north of 330lbs... Today, I am down to 280lbs...
    drcynic drcynic
    26-30, M
    31 Responses Mar 16, 2008

    I'm anorexic and I have been

    since fourth grade. I am now 16. It's really hard especially since I'm an only child. My parents don't understand anorexia. They think that it's a man made problem and is a first world mental illness. I know that it's not true. I want to get better, I really do. Recovering from...
    anorexicwithhope anorexicwithhope
    Apr 3, 2016

    We Have A Serious Problem. . . A Must Read

    There seems to be a growing trend with these postings on this group looking for ana buddies. Lets address this issue.    Ana buddies is an oxy-moron. Buddies, or friends, don't encourage each other to destroy their health and injure their bodies. Real friends...
    takethesebrokenwings takethesebrokenwings
    22-25, F
    5 Responses Sep 13, 2010

    I am 5'9 and 14 years old.

    I weigh 85 pounds and am hoping to loose more soon. My Eating Schedule: Monday- Wednesday 6 Crackers A Day. Thursday-Friday: Nothing Saturday: 13 blueberries Sunday: Nothing Thank Goodness I Have gym after lunch.
    EternallyScreamingInSilence EternallyScreamingInSilence
    16-17, M
    2 Responses Jan 29, 2015

    This month will mark a full 2 years I've been

    recovered completely, I can honestly say anorexia is NOTHING like you think it is, it hurts me to see thousands of little girls, looking at models, and thinking "I want to be like that" because that's exactly what I did. I WAS that little girl that was jealous of skinny models...
    deleted deleted
    4 Responses May 12, 2015

    This is nothing to laugh about.

    .. This is nothing to play with... I lost several friends to anorexia. I almost lost my life because of it. And for someone to think that is funny, is just too dumb and ignorant. Those that died, never chose this disorder, it chose them. Just like it did me. So excuse me for...
    Singlemother78 Singlemother78
    31-35, F
    1 Response Mar 15, 2016

    I'm really bad with my anorexia today.

    .... I've been struggling with it since I'm 14years old. When I was younger, I started with the mindset to be thin like other girls, but as time went on and I eventually became thin it continued. Over the years, it had shifted from a yearning to be pretty to a compulsion. When...
    exhuberantviolet exhuberantviolet
    18-21, F
    Jan 11, 2015

    Hey i'm seeking help not

    for me but because my best friend is an anorexic and I'm struggling as i don't know what to say to her, i want to say words of advice but i don't know what to say, can someone help me please? I'm not mean it's just i just don't know what to say and this hurts me a lot.
    wallflower23 wallflower23
    18-21, F
    Mar 20, 2016

    You're Probably Anorexic If...

      Please take the time to read this entire story before commenting. Comments that do not follow the Community Standards will be promptly reported and removed.  You're probably anorexic if... You've memorized the calorie content of virtually everything...
    takethesebrokenwings takethesebrokenwings
    22-25, F
    21 Responses Sep 17, 2010

    I have a friend who I think is anorexic

    but I don't know.... She does NOT eat at school! She brings a piece of bread or a pb sandwich with no pb, just bread and won't eat it... She's super skinny, like 80 pounds and she always talks negative and says that she's super fat and ugly and makes it a "joke" to hide her real...
    Penguinlover02 Penguinlover02
    13-15, F
    Mar 31, 2016

    Hi, I am anorexic. With my older stories,

    you would think that I am still fat, but no. In fact a lot of people tells me that I have a great body and that they would like to have mine. But that is not the problem, the problem is that I don't believe it. I still see myself fat, and all the time I am worrying about food...
    Reiseizel Reiseizel
    18-21, F
    Dec 26, 2015

    I'm not but I hope you guys get well

    and start eating. I don't eat a lot but I still do love to eat, sometimes I just can't bother to cook. I weigh 98lbs. I do hope to go up to 110 one day but its hard to gain weight with my high metabolism. Get well soon guys. Start eating , I don't want you guys to die or...
    legzydawlyy legzydawlyy
    18-21, F
    Jan 13, 2016

    *could be triggering* I am a disturbingly 83.

    6lbs. last year I weighed almost 20lbs less then that. I don't when I will finally be perfect. I hope I live to see it.
    deleted deleted
    Mar 15, 2016
    xbutterflyanax xbutterflyanax
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Nov 9, 2014

    I've just turned 17 and I'm just under 90

    pounds. I've found anorexia so hard but recently I've been a lot better. I've got my weight upto where I am and I'm feeling a lot healthier. Obviously I have my bad days, but it's too be expected. Ultimately I think I'm finally beginning to win my battle.
    ameliap ameliap
    18-21, F
    Feb 9, 2014

    My life has been turned upside down.

    . really she is my best friend, but she takes up every thought and every good thing I have in my life.. I dont understand how we became this close.. one day I was worried about my weight and the next day she was there to motivate me to lose weight... She's my strength and my...
    0hSheanBreeze 0hSheanBreeze
    22-25, F
    Dec 21, 2015

    Attempting To Recover- My Experience

    A month ago, I was put in the emergency room because of cardiac arrest. Let me tell you, I was right in the middle of drivers Ed. How embarrassing it is to have your heart stop working with 30 classmates around you is awful. I couldn't breathe, I turned blue, and I shook...
    Musicgirl84 Musicgirl84
    18-21, F
    36 Responses Jul 7, 2011

    Feel so fat and disgusting.

    Please don't hate😒
    tinyanorexic tinyanorexic
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Feb 11, 2015

    I was recovering and I was doing really well

    until tonight. I gained 5 pounds since the last time I checked (probably around Christmas). I don't like it. All of my friends tell me I'm skinny but I'm obviously the thickest one. It's embarrassing to know that no matter how hard I try I can't reach my goals.
    mickey123xp mickey123xp
    18-21, F
    Mar 21, 2016

    I saw my weight 107 pounds!

    !!!!! No no no I gained 4 founds. It's probably the Big Mac I ate yesterday. I can't focus at camp now all I keep thinking about is my weight. I just wish I can go back and be 100 pounds and stay there. Uggggh I hate this feeling
    BooBear99 BooBear99
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Jul 21, 2015

    It Isn'T Fair

    Look at me, I'm so damn skinny. I only weigh 260lbs. Someone help me gain weight. I hate being anorexic
    gainergirljiggles gainergirljiggles
    22-25, F
    13 Responses Sep 22, 2013

    I'm 13-14 years old 90 pounds 5"4 I'm

    so fat and my friends say it too My family has told me all my life I hate ea.ting it only makes me worse and fatter
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Mar 14, 2016

    A pic so you can see how I'm doing now.

    I ate my first full meal in a month today
    Ashthewolf7601 Ashthewolf7601
    16-17, F
    4 Responses Jan 23, 2015

    I hate being home because the only meal I eat

    anymore is dinner and I just purge whatever I eat later, I can't stop eating more than I need.
    UnluckilyLucky UnluckilyLucky
    18-21, F
    Jan 5, 2016

    *Warning - could be triggering.

    * When I was around 11 or 12(in 6th grade) I started hitting puberty and getting chunky. I was at that awkward phase where my womanly curves were starting to show, but my height hadn't caught up yet. I stopped eating lunch, instead I used my lunch money to buy a diet soda...
    lil0miss0sunshine lil0miss0sunshine
    26-30, F
    Apr 1, 2016

    Whos With Me

    I have an anorexia nervosa. The last 8 months have been a living hell for me. I slipped along unnoticed by my parents for a month then they caught on to my constant stomach aches or fullness they let it go fpr another month hoping it was just a terrible teenager phase. Oh boy...
    TryinghardAlltogethernow TryinghardAlltogethernow
    2 Responses Jun 5, 2013

    I need a pro-ana coach.

    I am really trying to lose 25 pounds if not more and I really need someone to guide me and help me along this process. Please no hateful or degrading comments.
    ishallfocus ishallfocus
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Jan 13, 2016

    I really just need someone

    that understands me. I am addicted to thinspo and model obsessed. no one seems to understand, and it sucks. I feel so alone and empty. my friends are sick of me constantly bringing up calorie intake and work out plans. sometimes even goal weights. I know I shouldn't be talking...
    deleted deleted
    4 Responses Mar 22, 2015

    I am 70.6lbs. my goal is 55lbs.

    I think then I will finally be perfect.
    deleted deleted
    Apr 1, 2016

    I Want To Be Anorexic..

    im 18 years old and i am over weight! see i dont mind my face and top half of my body but its my legs and belly i hate i dont even eat bad ataall and i dont sit around eeating 24-7 iv tried every diet there is and all i wanna do is become anorexic because i hate my life im sick...
    5 Responses Feb 6, 2013

    While I am a few kilos at a healthy weight now,

    I hate it. I used to know many girls, my friend and even my brother who were all anorexic. It's this pressured feeling that when you eat, you let yourself get comfortable, which I am not. I stress out more than ever and since I started eating again I feel worse when my stomach...
    Triangless Triangless
    22-25, F
    1 Response Mar 13, 2016

    The Fight Against Ana

    I will not say "I used to be anorexic". That would be a false statement, once anorexia takes over, you will always be anorexic, the thoughts will always be in the back of your head. I am a survivor of anorexia I will say. When I became anorexic, it was just an extreme diet to...
    TeenMommyof4 TeenMommyof4
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 10, 2012

    i ate so much these past few days i feel

    so ******* gross. i made a promise to myself that i wont eat tomorrow.
    JustineMusey JustineMusey
    18-21, F
    Feb 1, 2016

    Why I Feel Like Quitting.. Need Advice

    Hello everyone, I am new to experience project and am looking for some advice on anorexia recovery. Any support is appreciated, I really need help from other sufferers right now. Let me start by sharing my story- My name is Courtney, and I am almost 19 years old. I was...
    dancer4444 dancer4444
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Nov 11, 2013

    Being healthy looks so much better,

    than unhealthy. That feeling of being in recovery is incredible. I want to go back to that so bad. I never chose to be anorexic. But I do choose recovery. Being in recovery and being healthy is very beautiful.
    Singlemother78 Singlemother78
    31-35, F
    Mar 15, 2016

    Im The Age Of 13 I Am In 8th Grade.

    I Am 5foot, 3 Inches... I Am 95-100 Pounds Non Stop Up And Down. I Need A Ana Buddy?? I Need A Strict One Fast
    devinamerman devinamerman
    16-17, F
    12 Responses Jan 24, 2015

    I need an ana buddy and I want to be

    thin anyone, please ?
    roxyy22 roxyy22
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 5, 2016

    I Need An Ana Buddy.

    I just started with this and I don't want to give in before I give myself a chance. I'm a dependent person and with the recent death of my grandmother and the heartbreak of a significant other giving up on me... Well let's just say I have too much, I'm tired of being fat and I...
    failureisnotanoption failureisnotanoption
    18-21, F
    18 Responses Jun 10, 2010

    To those who need a wake up,

    I am what you may become
    shaunrain shaunrain
    18-21, M
    Feb 27, 2016

    I weigh 155 pounds and I hate the way I look.

    ..I just want to be beautiful. I want to try being anorexic because...maybe I'll be beautiful and skinny for once
    allisonblack allisonblack
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Mar 14, 2016

    Tomorrow Im not eating breakfast

    and its not being served at school tomorrow(half day)!So I don't have to act normal and eat! And maybe not dinner if my parents aren't home tomorrows going to be a good day:)
    nicole5227 nicole5227
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 18, 2013

    I just need someone to help me stay strong.

    Still 10 pounds from my goal weight. Thin is beautiful.
    Brooke2Big Brooke2Big
    22-25, F
    Dec 17, 2013

    I thought this was a support group

    for people that want to recover from anorexia. What is with all this pro Ana bs? Pro Ana people don't give a damn about anybody else but themselves. They are selfish. I don't care if they get their feelings hurt. They are not worried about the people they are hurting, who...
    Singlemother78 Singlemother78
    31-35, F
    Mar 6, 2016

    I used to be smaller

    than I am now. Why would anybody say that I need to gain more weight? Especially if my doctors are saying that I am healthy. Yeah, I lost a few pounds. But I am doing what I'm suppose to do. Perhaps it's stress. Maybe it's because I smoke and drink coffee. Those can cause weight...
    Singlemother78 Singlemother78
    31-35, F
    1 Response Dec 13, 2015
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