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I Am Anorexic

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 3,255 People

    I need help to lose weight,

    I don't want people moaning or telling me not to I am NOT skinny enough and I need tips and how do I hide it my friends and family have noticed, they say I have lost to much weight but I look at my body and see more fat? I don't know what to do anymore
    ana98 ana98 13-15, F 2 Responses Feb 10

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    I used to think I starved myself to be skinny

    and pretty but it wasnt about that at all. I starved because I was lonely. People would treat my problems like it was nothing. I was ignored, I was rejected on a regular basis. I felt like I was rotting away from the inside. I was so depressed I would physically be in pain. I...
    Weeaboobs Weeaboobs 16-17, F Feb 9

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    I Have Battled Anorexia

    I have had Anorexia for 14 years.  I am only at a "normal" weight now due to force feedings. HW 160 lbs CW  130 lbs LW 64 lbs I will do anything to lose at least 30 lbs to start with and then take it from there.  I just need people to stop...
    Licorice Licorice 31-35, F 19 Responses Jul 21, 2007

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    I got some questions

    for an update on my anorexia. So here is an update. I have been anorexic for almost a year now. I am 15 years old 5'2. I currently weigh 63 lbs. the lowest I have ever been was 48 lbs I am in rehab and doing better. It is still very hard. I don't have a lot to say but I have a...
    2p35jm 2p35jm 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 8

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    The Fight Against Ana

    I will not say "I used to be anorexic". That would be a false statement, once anorexia takes over, you will always be anorexic, the thoughts will always be in the back of your head. I am a survivor of anorexia I will say. When I became anorexic, it was just an extreme diet to...
    TeenMommyof4 TeenMommyof4 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 10, 2012

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    I am 28 years old in two weeks,

    I am 5'7" and I weigh 102 lbs. I am currently fighting anorexia and this isn't my first time, but this time, I am not wanting to get fat again, so people think that I don't want to get better. I eat diet pills like they are candy, and I can't stop, I have tried. I have so...
    bsmnabm bsmnabm 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 9

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    I am 5 ft 106 lbs and feel fat ūüė™ I know I'm

    not, but no matter how many times I tell myself, it's like this inner me takes over and I don't remember to eat.
    nephthalim nephthalim 18-21, F Mar 22

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    Today my grandmother told me I was starving

    myself. So to prove I wasnt I ate a piece of cheese and you do not know how guilty I feel over it. I'm so close to my goal weight to. I feel like a failure
    madisynh madisynh 18-21, F Mar 5

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    I Need An Ana Buddy.

    I just started with this and I don't want to give in before I give myself a chance. I'm a dependent person and with the recent death of my grandmother and the heartbreak of a significant other giving up on me... Well let's just say I have too much, I'm tired of being fat and I...
    failureisnotanoption failureisnotanoption 16-17, F 18 Responses Jun 10, 2010

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    Again well, I was free of Anna

    for 3 months, but I relapsed in October. now its January, and I'm once again stuck in this he.ll. I lost a few people along the way. I'm not ready to recover as fast as I should. this is my second relapse. I got farther than last time. last time I barely lasted a month. I will...
    wishingforrecovery wishingforrecovery 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 11

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    Roses Are Red, Violets Are Blue. Don'T Know If You Know This, But Ana Is Out To Kill You.

    Your a disgusting cow, Right? That's why your reading this, Right? Because every time you walk pas a mirror Ana whispers in your ear "Eww, look at that piece of meat. What'cha chow down today pig?" Because your so desperate to be "thin" or "perfect" that you created some demented...
    Lynnboatright Lynnboatright 16-17, F 1 Response May 7, 2013

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    There really is no point to this.

    It's more just trying to face the facts and to get myself help. I always wear a mask. I pretend there's nothing wrong with me, when there's a million things wrong. I can never face the music when it comes to my own life. I can easily help so many other people but I can't ever...
    alexthornton alexthornton 18-21, M 7 Responses Jan 18

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    Fitting into old shirts from

    when you were at your lowest weight is the best feeling ever. So glad I didn't fight this relapse!
    just1a2girl3 just1a2girl3 18-21, F Apr 6

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    An Open Plea to Ana's Everywhere...

    Look, I'm the exact opposite of anorexic. My only eating disorder is that I like food and drink a little bit too much. Yep. I'm fat. Some days it's hard being the fat guy. Others, I wouldn't trade it for anything. I was once well north of 330lbs... Today, I am down to 280lbs...
    drcynic drcynic 22-25, M 33 Responses Mar 16, 2008

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    nicole5227 nicole5227 16-17, F 4 Responses Dec 11, 2013

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    Skinny.

    There's no such thing as "too skinny". I want people to notice my weight loss. It's an achievement, and I won't stop till I get it.
    izzymeg7 izzymeg7 13-15, F 3 Responses Nov 14, 2013

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    When did I start feeling guilty about eating a

    salad? I don't know what I'm doing anymore. I'm letting everybody down.
    just1a2girl3 just1a2girl3 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 5

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    Why I Feel Like Quitting.. Need Advice

    Hello everyone, I am new to experience project and am looking for some advice on anorexia recovery. Any support is appreciated, I really need help from other sufferers right now. Let me start by sharing my story- My name is Courtney, and I am almost 19 years old. I was...
    dancer4444 dancer4444 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 11, 2013

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    I'm Highly Addicted

    Hey guys. I'd like to say I'm not Anorexic...But that would be a lie, I am. I'm 20 years old, 5'4, 118bls. I've been underweight by 20-25bls for most of my life, till I got my first job at Mcdonald's when I was about 15.  When I was 15 I was 110 to 115...
    MorphineXxLipsxX MorphineXxLipsxX 18-21, F 7 Responses Oct 21, 2009

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    "You look like a model!

    ".. But it's been the ugliest thing I could do to myself.
    lilqueenbee lilqueenbee 18-21, F 7 Responses Jan 18

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    Ana Is Myself ...

    ANA Is Me Myself and My Distorted Reflection ... Though I know but I still believe in the distorted perception ...   over 3 years untill now since she has been apart of me ... I need no sympathy but understanding ... I need you to feel me ...96 lbs with 5'5 feet...
    DollyDiva DollyDiva 22-25, F 46 Responses Jan 20, 2009

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    I never finish anything.

    Like anything in a package I wont finish the last of it. If I keep some Ana cant tell me I'm fat. The more I leave, the less I am. Just how it is
    ineedtoknowhow ineedtoknowhow 16-17, F Feb 14

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    Im 16, and my doctor tells me im anorexic.

    I've hard this before from friends because of how skinny i actually am but the thing that confuses me beyond return is i love food. I've never had a problem with the weight that I was. I've always eaten without care to how much or how little. However i noticed the other day that...
    ineedtoknowhow ineedtoknowhow 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 11

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    All because of what people say.

    .... I fell into this lifestyle because I felt to fat for anyone to care and love me. I fell in it also because what my quote on quote family said about me yeah that's right my family! So I gave up on myself and became depressed and stopped eating! I feel no one cares but I know...
    Tryingtohide Tryingtohide 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 2

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    I feel so bad. My dad just bought an iced coffee

    for me and I can't drink it because I do NOT drink my calories even if somebody tries to force me. I absolutely freak out and do things I wouldn't normally do. He was so disappointed because we've been in a REALLY bad place recently and he's trying to make things better. Ana is...
    just1a2girl3 just1a2girl3 18-21, F Apr 6

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    I have been starving myself

    since the month my mom left my family. I think it's because of the control I feel, and lack everywhere else in my life. But I also think it's because my mom use to tell me how I was getting fat when I was in middle school. She would tell me I need to lose a few pounds, and...
    herfacade herfacade 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 13

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    I Want To Be Anorexic and am looking for ana-buddy

    As far as I know for myself I've been fat. This is not something that I decided this morning when i woke up. I'm fed up with this life, life in a fat-persons body. I don't want it to be like this anymore and now I'm doing something about it. I know all the bad stuff and i know a...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jun 3, 2010

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    I haven't eaten at all

    for the past week. I'm feeling like complete **** right now and I just can't think at all. I'm thinking about eating, but I don't want to at all. If there's anyone else out there like me, come talk to me, I can at least try to make it interesting.
    Marshallman90 Marshallman90 16-17, M 1 Response Mar 17

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    I just need someone to help me stay strong.

    Still 10 pounds from my goal weight. Thin is beautiful.
    Brooke2Big Brooke2Big 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 17, 2013

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    Fasting Buddy

    I am starting a fast tomorrow. If you would like to join we can email or text. With support I think we will get through it easier.
    karebear03 karebear03 22-25, F 6 Responses Feb 3, 2013

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    I was diagnosed with anorexia 3 months ago

    and no matter how much o starve myself i still see a fat and worthless loser in the mirror!! I just want to be skinny and I'm fed up with people thinking they know what's best for me. They don't have a clue . More and more weight is lost everyday but still i look fat and ugly...
    lifesucks217 lifesucks217 13-15 2 Responses Feb 17

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    I'm so sick of being anorexic,

    I can't be a normal teen. I was pulled out of school to go treatment, then when I come home I have to be homeschool and go to all these doctors appointments. I can't even go to Carol-winds with my Girl Scout troop next week. None of my "friends" talk to me. Whenever they are...
    broadwaybabe99 broadwaybabe99 13-15, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    You're Probably Anorexic If...

      Please take the time to read this entire story before commenting. Comments that do not follow the Community Standards will be promptly reported and removed.  You're probably anorexic if... You've memorized the calorie content of virtually everything...
    takethesebrokenwings takethesebrokenwings 22-25, F 19 Responses Sep 17, 2010

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    Umm..hi ^^ so I was just searching around

    for places where I could, um, relate to people. Stumbled upon here :) I don't know why I seem morbidly cheery um, I'm sorry. Uh anyways, hi. I'm Isabella. That's not my real name, I'd rather not give out my real name for security purposes. Eek, I'm procrastinating right now, I...
    justbeskinny justbeskinny 16-17, F Apr 7

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    Anorexia Isn't Much Fun.

    I have had anorexia for about 11 years. It started when I was 5 and is still here after all this time. My highest weight was 185, my current weight is 130 and my lowest weight at this hight was 65. Umm.. I haven't had much luck in the health department due to it (frequent...
    blueskitty blueskitty 16-18, F 15 Responses Aug 1, 2007

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    The Jokes Have Stopped...

    Now i'm losing weight, and the jokes from my father, him calling me fat, and making fun of me everyday, are coming to a stop. He is finally not making fun of me, and my weight. He hasn't called me fat, or anything all week. i kno that no one understand hwy im doing what im doing...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Oct 11, 2010

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    Whos With Me

    I have an anorexia nervosa. The last 8 months have been a living hell for me. I slipped along unnoticed by my parents for a month then they caught on to my constant stomach aches or fullness they let it go fpr another month hoping it was just a terrible teenager phase. Oh boy...
    TryinghardAlltogethernow TryinghardAlltogethernow 16-17 2 Responses Jun 5, 2013

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    Anorexics, please answer this

    for me. How long did it take you to get to your LW??
    just1a2girl3 just1a2girl3 18-21, F Apr 7

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    The picture isn't goal,

    my stomach sticks out am inch or 2. It's not about weight I just wanna look like that.
    bigca1697 bigca1697 16-17, F Apr 6

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    I have never truly came out about my eating

    disorder. I have been on and off with anorexia for a while. I recently became bulimic and I also binge eat a lot. I'm 17 and gay and want someone who has a similar struggle with this. You can message me or kick me at:ryanboy1996
    rchris96 rchris96 16-17, M 15 hrs ago

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    Regrettably, Our friend Ana

         Allow me to introduce myself. My name, or as I am called by so called "doctors", is Anorexia. Anorexia Nervosa is my full name, but you may call me Ana. Hopefully we can become great partners. In the coming time, I will invest a lot of time in...
    takethesebrokenwings takethesebrokenwings 22-25, F 20 Responses Oct 20, 2009

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    I really want an Ana buddy.

    I want somebody who lives near me so I can text them. I want them to support me and I'll support them back. I could really use the help! :)
    just1a2girl3 just1a2girl3 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 4

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    Attempting To Recover- My Experience

    A month ago, I was put in the emergency room because of cardiac arrest. Let me tell you, I was right in the middle of drivers Ed. How embarrassing it is to have your heart stop working with 30 classmates around you is awful. I couldn't breathe, I turned blue, and I shook...
    Musicgirl84 Musicgirl84 18-21, F 34 Responses Jul 7, 2011

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    I want this so badly.

    This body is my goal. It's perfect.
    just1a2girl3 just1a2girl3 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 7

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    Most teenagers fears are there boyfriend

    or girlfriend breaking up with them, or them not passing their test, but not me. My worst fear is gaining weight. Just thinking about it makes me what to just burst out crying. To my family i have lost so much weight already. They tell me that I'm fine and that i don't look fat...
    LaureenMariiee LaureenMariiee 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 31

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    Pro Ana?

    I try not to make it a habit to stir up controversy, but I feel this is something that really should be addressed...   Pro ana is something that should not be found on EP, it should not be found in the ''I am anorexic'' group especially.  There are plenty of other places...
    stormynightsky stormynightsky 22-25, F 9 Responses May 28, 2011

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    I wasn't supposed to start this again.

    When my mom found out, she was trying to help me stop. But it's not that simple. The voices in your head telling you you're fat don't stop. Ana doesn't stop telling you not to eat. When I was eating I was so stressed. I would freak out, and I never stopped throwing up my food...
    just1a2girl3 just1a2girl3 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 6

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    I've just turned 17 and I'm just under 90

    pounds. I've found anorexia so hard but recently I've been a lot better. I've got my weight upto where I am and I'm feeling a lot healthier. Obviously I have my bad days, but it's too be expected. Ultimately I think I'm finally beginning to win my battle.
    ameliap ameliap 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 9

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    Well, Not Anymore...

    Everytime I look at my experience list I see this group and I feel some what less than honest. while it is true I was anorexic: I no longer am. For me weight has always been a sensitive topic. Most of my extended family is overweight, and many have died from the results of...
    ColorMeReal ColorMeReal 41-45, F 5 Responses Oct 19, 2007

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    Ana tips? I really need some help.

    I feel gross and no one comment hurtful things please. I know I'm fat.
    marinasayshi marinasayshi 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 26

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    Fat

    I'm fat period. I just need someone to talk to daily for support and all that. I can't talk to my friends and family about this because, duh, they would take me out to eat and shove food down my troat. I hate not having control over this. I'll do good for days, then, BAM, I eat...
    thinisinhxc thinisinhxc 16-18, F 11 Responses Dec 4, 2007

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    I'm new to this site,

    in fact I have no idea how to really use it yet ;-; oh well though. I've been anorexic/bulimic since the summer of 2013, I'll lost 45 pounds so far. I've been forced to eat more lately by my parents which isn't so fun /. I've told them and the doctors that I've been getting...
    paigeypaigey paigeypaigey 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 5

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    my mother came up to my room tonight

    while I was crying. I immediately darted for my bed and buried my head into a blanket. she saw me crying and she yelled, she went ballistic. that only made me cry more of course. she was mad because I wouldn't tell her what was wrong. she figured out it was because of my lack of...
    wishingforrecovery wishingforrecovery 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 9

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    It's like a never ending addiction.

    If you were to stop smoking of course you still want to do it for a while after but the feeling goes away, it's not like that. Every single day, every time i eat anything, it's hard, it's hell. Everyone tells me how good i look and how i lost weight and if they realize i lose a...
    Detroit24 Detroit24 13-15, M Feb 19

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    I feel a binge coming on.

    .. I keep looking at food. Somebody help me get through this!!
    just1a2girl3 just1a2girl3 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 8

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    Tomorrow Im not eating breakfast

    and its not being served at school tomorrow(half day)!So I don't have to act normal and eat! And maybe not dinner if my parents aren't home tomorrows going to be a good day:)
    nicole5227 nicole5227 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 18, 2013

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    We Have A Serious Problem. . . A Must Read

    There seems to be a growing trend with these postings on this group looking for ana buddies. Lets address this issue.    Ana buddies is an oxy-moron. Buddies, or friends, don't encourage each other to destroy their health and injure their bodies. Real friends...
    takethesebrokenwings takethesebrokenwings 22-25, F 6 Responses Sep 13, 2010

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