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I Am Anorexic

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 3,572 People

    Today I weighed in at 99.

    5 lbs. It has been my dream since I was 14 to be under 100 lbs again. At 14 I was 5'2" and now I am 5'4" The sad part is, now I just want to shrink more and more....
    daisycuddling daisycuddling 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 17

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    I Need An Ana Buddy.

    I just started with this and I don't want to give in before I give myself a chance. I'm a dependent person and with the recent death of my grandmother and the heartbreak of a significant other giving up on me... Well let's just say I have too much, I'm tired of being fat and I...
    failureisnotanoption failureisnotanoption 16-17, F 18 Responses Jun 10, 2010

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    I get where you're coming from,

    blaming some one else for your disorder. I mean yeah, ugly comments can tribute to it, but you can't blame other people for your anorexia. It's mainly just being unhappy with yourself. I have no one to blame but myself, but i don't want to change the way I am. I like not eating...
    shinexnaked shinexnaked 16-17, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Lol any other anorexics like to watch cooking

    shows? I love watching Hells Kitchen Funny story I also dream about food. Specifically chocolate pie. One day I think I'd like to eat dessert again...
    kxCobra kxCobra 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 9

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    I WILL be pretty DAMMIT!

    I can beat this eating disorder.
    HalfVenti HalfVenti 13-15, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I lost the person I loved most

    because I could not let go of Ana. It's so hard to let go of her. She's been my best friend forever. I cry because I'm so torn. But I know if I want to LIVE and LOVE, I have to say goodbye to her. I just don't know how.
    daisycuddling daisycuddling 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 20

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    "You look like a model!

    ".. But it's been the ugliest thing I could do to myself.
    lilqueenbee lilqueenbee 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 18, 2014

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    Attempting To Recover- My Experience

    A month ago, I was put in the emergency room because of cardiac arrest. Let me tell you, I was right in the middle of drivers Ed. How embarrassing it is to have your heart stop working with 30 classmates around you is awful. I couldn't breathe, I turned blue, and I shook...
    Musicgirl84 Musicgirl84 18-21, F 36 Responses Jul 7, 2011

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    You're Probably Anorexic If...

      Please take the time to read this entire story before commenting. Comments that do not follow the Community Standards will be promptly reported and removed.  You're probably anorexic if... You've memorized the calorie content of virtually everything...
    takethesebrokenwings takethesebrokenwings 22-25, F 21 Responses Sep 17, 2010

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    I drank water and held my pee to weigh in at

    103.0 lbs exactly at weigh in yesterday. but this morning, I weighed in at 101.5 lbs. Why is it that I just want to be sub 100 lbs? Maybe because when I turned 100 lbs my mother asked my pediatrician if we should be concerned with the "great" weight gain. I was 14 years old and...
    daisycuddling daisycuddling 22-25, F Mar 5

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    Ana Is Myself ...

    ANA Is Me Myself and My Distorted Reflection ... Though I know but I still believe in the distorted perception ...   over 3 years untill now since she has been apart of me ... I need no sympathy but understanding ... I need you to feel me ...96 lbs with 5'5 feet...
    DollyDiva DollyDiva 22-25, F 45 Responses Jan 20, 2009

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    I hate this. I weighed in at 103.

    And my goal weight has always been 100. So now I feel torn. Ashamed that I "need" to gain weight..
    daisycuddling daisycuddling 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 21

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    I'm in a destructive downward spiral

    but nothing feels more important than this. Just this one thing. I need to be thin. Delicate. Fragile. This is the only thing I know how to do.
    Saigatatarica Saigatatarica 18-21, F Mar 10

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    I just need someone to help me stay strong.

    Still 10 pounds from my goal weight. Thin is beautiful.
    Brooke2Big Brooke2Big 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 17, 2013

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    Why I Feel Like Quitting.. Need Advice

    Hello everyone, I am new to experience project and am looking for some advice on anorexia recovery. Any support is appreciated, I really need help from other sufferers right now. Let me start by sharing my story- My name is Courtney, and I am almost 19 years old. I was...
    dancer4444 dancer4444 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 11, 2013

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    I have been told by everyone,

    even my family that I am fat. I have a weird genetic disorder where I do not get physically hungry, so since it doesn't really effect me, why should I eat?
    Believera Believera 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 17

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    Watching a documentary on Self harm

    and they're talking about eating disorders, it isn't just a choice, it's a mental illness, like bipolar. However, watching this is making me more determined to lose weight! My lowest weight was 72lbs, currently back up to 109lbs, goal weight, 80lbs!
    NavyGirlfriend94 NavyGirlfriend94 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 18

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    I just had a huge really bad panic attack

    and I was wondering what coping mechanisms you guys have for restaurants and for when Ana wont shut up and wont stop making you feel terrible, mentally and physically. I learned laying under my bed helps calm me down from my panic attacks, what do you guys have?
    SafetyPatrolRoxUrSox SafetyPatrolRoxUrSox 13-15, F 4 Responses Mar 7

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    It Isn'T Fair

    Look at me, I'm so damn skinny. I only weigh 260lbs. Someone help me gain weight. I hate being anorexic
    gainergirljiggles gainergirljiggles 22-25, F 13 Responses Sep 22, 2013

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    For the last five weeks I have been in

    treatment (lucky me -_-) I'm supposed to be discharged next Thursday but the director may want to keep me longer cause I have terrifying nightmares that keep me up. I don't want to be in treatment longer. I swear if I'm there longer if lose it
    BooBear99 BooBear99 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 21

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    I've seen this girl named Ana.

    She's pretty thin and tall. She has the smallest frame I've ever seen. And not one single flaw. I met this girl named Ana. She introduced herself today. She seems so very nice and kind. She says she wants to stay. I know this girl named Ana. She's so perfect and it's true. I'm...
    recoveringteen00 recoveringteen00 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Tomorrow Im not eating breakfast

    and its not being served at school tomorrow(half day)!So I don't have to act normal and eat! And maybe not dinner if my parents aren't home tomorrows going to be a good day:)
    nicole5227 nicole5227 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 18, 2013

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    Im The Age Of 13 I Am In 8th Grade.

    I Am 5foot, 3 Inches... I Am 95-100 Pounds Non Stop Up And Down. I Need A Ana Buddy?? I Need A Strict One Fast
    devinamerman devinamerman 13-15, F 7 Responses Jan 24

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    There really is no point to this.

    It's more just trying to face the facts and to get myself help. I always wear a mask. I pretend there's nothing wrong with me, when there's a million things wrong. I can never face the music when it comes to my own life. I can easily help so many other people but I can't ever...
    alexthornton alexthornton 18-21, M 10 Responses Jan 18, 2014

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    Feel so fat and disgusting.

    Please don't hate😒
    tinyanorexic tinyanorexic 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 11

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    I don't know if I'd call myself anorexic.

    I don't feel like I've ever had it bad. I'm here because over the last few days I had been in a feud with my parents and I refused to leave my room for anything. For the first couple of days I didn't eat anything, and on the third day I found this mostly empty can of nuts. And...
    StokesQuirky StokesQuirky 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 24

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    I wish I didn't eat. I wish I didn't feel empty.

    I wish I knew who I am. I wish I could go back to who I was. I wish I was skinny. I wish I was me.
    TeenagerInPain TeenagerInPain 13-15, F 2 days ago

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    I've just turned 17 and I'm just under 90

    pounds. I've found anorexia so hard but recently I've been a lot better. I've got my weight upto where I am and I'm feeling a lot healthier. Obviously I have my bad days, but it's too be expected. Ultimately I think I'm finally beginning to win my battle.
    ameliap ameliap 18-21, F Feb 9, 2014

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    Whos With Me

    I have an anorexia nervosa. The last 8 months have been a living hell for me. I slipped along unnoticed by my parents for a month then they caught on to my constant stomach aches or fullness they let it go fpr another month hoping it was just a terrible teenager phase. Oh boy...
    TryinghardAlltogethernow TryinghardAlltogethernow 18-21 2 Responses Jun 5, 2013

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    I used to be thin,or thinner.

    . I want to go back to that c: <3 Ana buddy? :3 I would like someone whom I can support and be supported by,in good and in bad days <3
    Tallandthin Tallandthin 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 5

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    A pic so you can see how I'm doing now.

    I ate my first full meal in a month today
    Ashthewolf7601 Ashthewolf7601 13-15, F 5 Responses Jan 23

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    I have been really depressed

    and the thought of eating makes me sick. I have dropped 8 lbs in one week and it honestly scares me. I didn't stop eating this time because I wanted to, I just physically can't eat right now. I've never dropped weight so fast like this before
    Tiffanyportelli Tiffanyportelli 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 7

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    Ana is my best friend.

    She is always there for me. Who else is there?
    daisycuddling daisycuddling 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 20

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    UmaModern UmaModern 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 22, 2014

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    I need help fast. I'm not able to run water in

    the house because basement is flooding but I really reallly need to purge right now and don't know how... someone help me before I breakdown!
    vyrlox vyrlox 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 11

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    I want to be sick again.

    He broke me and I want to destroy myself for him
    Saigatatarica Saigatatarica 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 28

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    "People with eating disorders do not choose to

    become ill, but they can choose to get better." This quote makes sounds inspiring, but often times, it depresses me. Yes, we "can" choose, but it's not easy to choose to get better..
    daisycuddling daisycuddling 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 12

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    Anorexia Isn't Much Fun.

    I have had anorexia for about 11 years. It started when I was 5 and is still here after all this time. My highest weight was 185, my current weight is 130 and my lowest weight at this hight was 65. Umm.. I haven't had much luck in the health department due to it (frequent...
    blueskitty blueskitty 16-17, F 15 Responses Aug 1, 2007

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    I am 5'9 and 14 years old.

    I weigh 85 pounds and am hoping to loose more soon. My Eating Schedule: Monday- Wednesday 6 Crackers A Day. Thursday-Friday: Nothing Saturday: 13 blueberries Sunday: Nothing Thank Goodness I Have gym after lunch.
    EternallyScreamingInSilence EternallyScreamingInSilence 13-15, M 2 Responses Jan 29

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    Today all I've had is a protein shake.

    I've biked 4 miles, had a 3 hour practice, and an ab workout. My parents obvi don't know, and I lied to my best friend and told him I ate breakfast when the topic came up although he doesn't know about my anorexia either. Now we are going to dinner at my cousins house and my...
    kxCobra kxCobra 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 7

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    Hey I am looking for a support buddy to help

    each other not crave to binging or eating let me know if you are interested!
    Chloe2055 Chloe2055 16-17, F 7 Responses Feb 26

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    I'm really bad with my anorexia today.

    .... I've been struggling with it since I'm 14years old. When I was younger, I started with the mindset to be thin like other girls, but as time went on and I eventually became thin it continued. Over the years, it had shifted from a yearning to be pretty to a compulsion. When...
    exhuberantviolet exhuberantviolet 18-21, F Jan 11

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    Regrettably, Our friend Ana

         Allow me to introduce myself. My name, or as I am called by so called "doctors", is Anorexia. Anorexia Nervosa is my full name, but you may call me Ana. Hopefully we can become great partners. In the coming time, I will invest a lot of time in...
    takethesebrokenwings takethesebrokenwings 22-25, F 20 Responses Oct 20, 2009

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    Skinny.

    There's no such thing as "too skinny". I want people to notice my weight loss. It's an achievement, and I won't stop till I get it.
    izzymeg7 izzymeg7 16-17, F 3 Responses Nov 14, 2013

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    Do you regret making fun of me

    for gaining 5 pounds?! Because now I lost 23 pounds in one week because of it. Your words effected a girl, are you happy??
    DeterminedToMakeLifeWorthIt DeterminedToMakeLifeWorthIt 16-17, F 4 Responses Feb 16

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    I have a 5 hour drive

    for my Official Visit this morning and there's a box of doughnuts in the back seat. I ate 3/4 of one this morning around 9 and I would like at least half of another one but I am terrified that I'll over indulge- that's what drives my anorexia- a need for control. And so if I don...
    kxCobra kxCobra 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 12

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    The Asian Method Of Staying Slim...

    ... is NOT to diet. But that involves an important change in the way you think about food. Before you laugh at me and stop reading, please just give me a few minutes of your time. I live in Singapore. I am familiar with most parts of South and Southeast Asia. People are NOT...
    AndrewPenney AndrewPenney 41-45 44 Responses Sep 25, 2010