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I Am Anorexic

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 3,584 People

    Regrettably, Our friend Ana

         Allow me to introduce myself. My name, or as I am called by so called "doctors", is Anorexia. Anorexia Nervosa is my full name, but you may call me Ana. Hopefully we can become great partners. In the coming time, I will invest a lot of time in...
    takethesebrokenwings takethesebrokenwings 22-25, F 20 Responses Oct 20, 2009

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    "People with eating disorders do not choose to

    become ill, but they can choose to get better." This quote makes sounds inspiring, but often times, it depresses me. Yes, we "can" choose, but it's not easy to choose to get better..
    daisycuddling daisycuddling 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 12

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    The Fight Against Ana

    I will not say "I used to be anorexic". That would be a false statement, once anorexia takes over, you will always be anorexic, the thoughts will always be in the back of your head. I am a survivor of anorexia I will say. When I became anorexic, it was just an extreme diet to...
    TeenMommyof4 TeenMommyof4 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 10, 2012

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    UmaModern UmaModern 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 22, 2014

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    Looks like I slipped back into old ways.

    .. I hate this! Just make it stop before I loose too much weight again...
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    Whos With Me

    I have an anorexia nervosa. The last 8 months have been a living hell for me. I slipped along unnoticed by my parents for a month then they caught on to my constant stomach aches or fullness they let it go fpr another month hoping it was just a terrible teenager phase. Oh boy...
    TryinghardAlltogethernow TryinghardAlltogethernow 18-21 2 Responses Jun 5, 2013

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    Attempting To Recover- My Experience

    A month ago, I was put in the emergency room because of cardiac arrest. Let me tell you, I was right in the middle of drivers Ed. How embarrassing it is to have your heart stop working with 30 classmates around you is awful. I couldn't breathe, I turned blue, and I shook...
    Musicgirl84 Musicgirl84 18-21, F 36 Responses Jul 7, 2011

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    any time i eat i feel like i have failed.

    i am anorexic and i am happy because i no lomger give into food. i am strong. i would love of pro ana buddy
    gonnadieskinny gonnadieskinny 13-15, F 5 days ago

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    I am doing a project.

    I need words associated with anorexia or body image problems tht I can write on my body. All I have so far is fat, depressed, ugly, thigh gap. Please HELP
    Tiffanyportelli Tiffanyportelli 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 15

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    I'm so sick of being anorexic,

    I can't be a normal teen. I was pulled out of school to go treatment, then when I come home I have to be homeschool and go to all these doctors appointments. I can't even go to Carol-winds with my Girl Scout troop next week. None of my "friends" talk to me. Whenever they are...
    BooBear99 BooBear99 16-17, F 5 Responses Apr 14, 2014

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    Watching a documentary on Self harm

    and they're talking about eating disorders, it isn't just a choice, it's a mental illness, like bipolar. However, watching this is making me more determined to lose weight! My lowest weight was 72lbs, currently back up to 109lbs, goal weight, 80lbs!
    NavyGirlfriend94 NavyGirlfriend94 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 18

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    Today I weighed in at 99.

    5 lbs. It has been my dream since I was 14 to be under 100 lbs again. At 14 I was 5'2" and now I am 5'4" The sad part is, now I just want to shrink more and more....
    daisycuddling daisycuddling 22-25, F Mar 17

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    Tomorrow Im not eating breakfast

    and its not being served at school tomorrow(half day)!So I don't have to act normal and eat! And maybe not dinner if my parents aren't home tomorrows going to be a good day:)
    nicole5227 nicole5227 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 18, 2013

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    I wish I didn't eat. I wish I didn't feel empty.

    I wish I knew who I am. I wish I could go back to who I was. I wish I was skinny. I wish I was me.
    TeenagerInPain TeenagerInPain 13-15, F Mar 27

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    Lately i feel worse. I can't look at myself

    anymore. I can't wear what I want anymore. I can't be me, without feeling like crap about my body. I won't eat for days and ill exercise until i can't move. I want to be perfect.
    JustineMusey JustineMusey 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 12

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    I WILL be pretty DAMMIT!

    I can beat this eating disorder.
    HalfVenti HalfVenti 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 25

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    Im The Age Of 13 I Am In 8th Grade.

    I Am 5foot, 3 Inches... I Am 95-100 Pounds Non Stop Up And Down. I Need A Ana Buddy?? I Need A Strict One Fast
    devinamerman devinamerman 13-15, F 7 Responses Jan 24

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    daisycuddling daisycuddling 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 7

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    There really is no point to this.

    It's more just trying to face the facts and to get myself help. I always wear a mask. I pretend there's nothing wrong with me, when there's a million things wrong. I can never face the music when it comes to my own life. I can easily help so many other people but I can't ever...
    alexthornton alexthornton 18-21, M 10 Responses Jan 18, 2014

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    I'm really bad with my anorexia today.

    .... I've been struggling with it since I'm 14years old. When I was younger, I started with the mindset to be thin like other girls, but as time went on and I eventually became thin it continued. Over the years, it had shifted from a yearning to be pretty to a compulsion. When...
    exhuberantviolet exhuberantviolet 18-21, F Jan 11

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    I just need someone to help me stay strong.

    Still 10 pounds from my goal weight. Thin is beautiful.
    Brooke2Big Brooke2Big 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 17, 2013

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    Jupiterfl04 Jupiterfl04 18-21, F 22 hrs ago

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    I have been really depressed

    and the thought of eating makes me sick. I have dropped 8 lbs in one week and it honestly scares me. I didn't stop eating this time because I wanted to, I just physically can't eat right now. I've never dropped weight so fast like this before
    Tiffanyportelli Tiffanyportelli 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 7

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    Skinny.

    There's no such thing as "too skinny". I want people to notice my weight loss. It's an achievement, and I won't stop till I get it.
    izzymeg7 izzymeg7 16-17, F 3 Responses Nov 14, 2013

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    Trigger Warning: A year later

    and I am STILL struggling to get better... It's such a vicious cycle...I have gotten down to 450 calories a day...maximum exercise output as possible.. To top it all off...I got braces...freaking braces, guys. If eating wasn't hard enough for me. I've lost a total of 26...
    BeThinXsin BeThinXsin 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 13

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    Today all I've had is a protein shake.

    I've biked 4 miles, had a 3 hour practice, and an ab workout. My parents obvi don't know, and I lied to my best friend and told him I ate breakfast when the topic came up although he doesn't know about my anorexia either. Now we are going to dinner at my cousins house and my...
    kxCobra kxCobra 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 7

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    i didnt eat for 2 days

    and my partner decided to get chinese and watched me eat it he stayed with me for 4 hours i couldnt be sick i feel so fat and stupid i really didnt want it i feel guilty
    givenupforever givenupforever 22-25, F 5 Responses Mar 7

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    The Asian Method Of Staying Slim...

    ... is NOT to diet. But that involves an important change in the way you think about food. Before you laugh at me and stop reading, please just give me a few minutes of your time. I live in Singapore. I am familiar with most parts of South and Southeast Asia. People are NOT...
    AndrewPenney AndrewPenney 41-45 44 Responses Sep 25, 2010

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    Lol any other anorexics like to watch cooking

    shows? I love watching Hells Kitchen Funny story I also dream about food. Specifically chocolate pie. One day I think I'd like to eat dessert again...
    kxCobra kxCobra 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 9

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    I need help fast. I'm not able to run water in

    the house because basement is flooding but I really reallly need to purge right now and don't know how... someone help me before I breakdown!
    vyrlox vyrlox 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 11

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    I am 5'9 and 14 years old.

    I weigh 85 pounds and am hoping to loose more soon. My Eating Schedule: Monday- Wednesday 6 Crackers A Day. Thursday-Friday: Nothing Saturday: 13 blueberries Sunday: Nothing Thank Goodness I Have gym after lunch.
    EternallyScreamingInSilence EternallyScreamingInSilence 13-15, M 2 Responses Jan 29

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    A pic so you can see how I'm doing now.

    I ate my first full meal in a month today
    Ashthewolf7601 Ashthewolf7601 13-15, F 5 Responses Jan 23

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    You're Probably Anorexic If...

      Please take the time to read this entire story before commenting. Comments that do not follow the Community Standards will be promptly reported and removed.  You're probably anorexic if... You've memorized the calorie content of virtually everything...
    takethesebrokenwings takethesebrokenwings 22-25, F 21 Responses Sep 17, 2010

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    I'm in a destructive downward spiral

    but nothing feels more important than this. Just this one thing. I need to be thin. Delicate. Fragile. This is the only thing I know how to do.
    Saigatatarica Saigatatarica 18-21, F Mar 10

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    Jupiterfl04 Jupiterfl04 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I hate my body no matter what I always will.

    It's hard because now and then I find myself eating and I cry. Then I drag myself into my room and cut my arms and blast loud music. I hate when I eat...I feel Disgusting when I do. All I want is to be able to count my ribs one by one and have a big thigh gap. I want mu hipbones...
    Skinandbonesss Skinandbonesss 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 16

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    I have a 5 hour drive

    for my Official Visit this morning and there's a box of doughnuts in the back seat. I ate 3/4 of one this morning around 9 and I would like at least half of another one but I am terrified that I'll over indulge- that's what drives my anorexia- a need for control. And so if I don...
    kxCobra kxCobra 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 12

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    xbutterflyanax xbutterflyanax 16-17, F 3 Responses Nov 9, 2014

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    It Isn'T Fair

    Look at me, I'm so damn skinny. I only weigh 260lbs. Someone help me gain weight. I hate being anorexic
    gainergirljiggles gainergirljiggles 22-25, F 13 Responses Sep 22, 2013

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    Ana Is Myself ...

    ANA Is Me Myself and My Distorted Reflection ... Though I know but I still believe in the distorted perception ...   over 3 years untill now since she has been apart of me ... I need no sympathy but understanding ... I need you to feel me ...96 lbs with 5'5 feet...
    DollyDiva DollyDiva 22-25, F 45 Responses Jan 20, 2009

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    I have been told by everyone,

    even my family that I am fat. I have a weird genetic disorder where I do not get physically hungry, so since it doesn't really effect me, why should I eat?
    Believera Believera 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 17

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    We Have A Serious Problem. . . A Must Read

    There seems to be a growing trend with these postings on this group looking for ana buddies. Lets address this issue.    Ana buddies is an oxy-moron. Buddies, or friends, don't encourage each other to destroy their health and injure their bodies. Real friends...
    takethesebrokenwings takethesebrokenwings 22-25, F 6 Responses Sep 13, 2010

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    I'm gonna start the ABC DIET tomorrow.

    Can't wait to loose a lot more weight!
    recoveringteen00 recoveringteen00 13-15, F Mar 31

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    "You look like a model!

    ".. But it's been the ugliest thing I could do to myself.
    lilqueenbee lilqueenbee 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 18, 2014

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    Why I Feel Like Quitting.. Need Advice

    Hello everyone, I am new to experience project and am looking for some advice on anorexia recovery. Any support is appreciated, I really need help from other sufferers right now. Let me start by sharing my story- My name is Courtney, and I am almost 19 years old. I was...
    dancer4444 dancer4444 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 11, 2013

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    I Have Battled Anorexia

    I have had Anorexia for 14 years.  I am only at a "normal" weight now due to force feedings. HW 160 lbs CW  130 lbs LW 64 lbs I will do anything to lose at least 30 lbs to start with and then take it from there.  I just need people to stop...
    Licorice Licorice 31-35, F 20 Responses Jul 21, 2007

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