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I Am Ashamed of Myself

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    If there is anyone who should be

    so ashamed of himself to the point of wearing a mask over his face out on public it is me. I am 47 years old. And the shameful part is I never left the nest. I lived with my parents until they died. My reason, and it's no excuse, I am sick to death of excuses is I was safe from...
    ATroubledLife ATroubledLife 46-50, M 1 Response Apr 13, 2014

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    Is it too late at this point to end the misery?

    I know I brought this upon myself. It started so well but now I'm slowly dying on the inside. Loosing site of who I want to be.
    Sexykitten28 Sexykitten28 22-25, F 6 Responses Nov 21, 2015

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    Normally I wouldn't care too much about this,

    but this time things feel different. I took AP World History my Sophomore year. I barely did my homework and I did poorly on the test. The homework was a lot of reading which was extremely boring and the test had the most awkward questions. But I feel like if I just did the...
    moose73630 moose73630 16-17, M 2 Responses Sep 2, 2015

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    I've been so stupid,

    and I need some advice.. Basically since the police were involved with everything, I did send a few more and sh.t, and the thing is, I can't stop. I want to, honestly I really do, but it's like a part of me wants to be a sl*t, and send pictures. I've done so much sh*t it's...
    loveyourselfalwaysxx loveyourselfalwaysxx 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 18, 2014

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    Dear oh dear daisy what have I done.

    Dear future husband NEVER let me bear an iron
    Ridingtonewyork Ridingtonewyork 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 1, 2015

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    I didnt wanna go to work today.

    I dont know the word for it but its like you are practising a profession. In my case taking care of elders for 5 weeks. I was supposed to work like this: 7-13 16-21 but I am lazy I told my mom I was sick but she didnt believe me so I said I was going to the forest. she got sad...
    Everygoodusernameistaken Everygoodusernameistaken 16-17, M 1 Response Nov 21, 2015

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    Self hatred is a sucky thing,

    indeed. I've been plagued with a bad case of it that began at a young age. As a child, I saw that I wasn't as thin as the other kids - my teeth, not as straight - and I began to dislike my differences. It's progressed and worsened as the years have gone by. The voice in the back...
    alexandr4 alexandr4 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 5, 2014

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    She stares at the mirror in vain.

    The image of a flawless girl plastered in her mind. She has to be perfect or that's what she thinks she has to be. One glance and it's a failed perception. One glance and she stares at the mirror in vain.
    Sexykitten28 Sexykitten28 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 29, 2015

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    loloasd loloasd 41-45, F 1 Response Jun 13, 2014

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    i am a coward. i am disconnected from life

    and i don't want to participate in it anymore. i have grown afraid of dying, though nothing in me wants to live. i am a burden. i feel like i can't handle anything...but even if i could i just don't want to anymore. i fear everything. i spend my time hiding. i am a coward...
    bloodRedd bloodRedd 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 17, 2015

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    I hit puberty early

    and it came with no warning labels or instructions, so I ended up having a sex addiction and did some sexual things in my life that I'm not proud of and i feel that I'm a disgrace to my wife for putting her through things that she should not have gone through.
    Rd5648 Rd5648 36-40, M 1 Response Aug 6, 2015

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    I always have been ashamed of

    who i am. But what I am could be your nightmare or the best dream you ever had. You just have to learn how to survive my game once it's started.
    Himidio Himidio 13-15, F Jan 11

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    My biggest problem right

    now is not knowing how to handle the most basic situations. I find myself stuck, unable to explain myself, or my feelings, throwing everything into a box, only have it all blown in my face last minute. I don't even allow myself to feel what I SHOULD feel in particular moments. I...
    Mirabal19 Mirabal19 18-21, F Apr 13, 2014

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    Holes In The Wall

    The last time she threatened divorce was over a month ago. It used to be that when she said she was leaving, I would go on bended knee, begging her to stay. Gradually, I tried less and less. Eventually, I told her that the next time she said she was leaving that I wanted her...
    accomplice accomplice 46-50, M 22 Responses May 17, 2011

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    for letting the bullies

    and men put me down that I felt so low I just let myself go to much i let them as well not there fault mine I am really ashamed of how I look even more so naked I will not let enyone see me naked but I am gonna try to improve myself when get medical problems out of way and get a...
    susangoga susangoga 31-35, F Jul 23, 2015

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    I always had a thirst

    for the center of attention without rationalizing what comes with it. I always wanted to be desired and looked up to. I always wished I could have better looking body parts, to mix and match what other girls have but to match it back onto my own flesh body. Some girls have nice...
    CaraBlossom CaraBlossom 18-21, F Jul 28, 2015

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    I really messed up today.

    I feel like a dirty birdie. You might as well call me that. I feel disgusting and ashamed. Why me? I was a good girl but I blew it. I feel like I can never forgive myself. I am a disappointment. I cant change the past. I hope I can forget it.
    ChelseaMonroe ChelseaMonroe 22-25, F 5 Responses Feb 14, 2015

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    I hate the fact that I like girls,

    I hate that if people knew then they'd look at me differently. Why can't I just be normal?
    arcticmonkeys9 arcticmonkeys9 16-17, F 5 Responses Jan 31

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    Once again I am ashamed of myself.

    I opened my heart and my home to someone I only knew for a month. A month is not long enough to know someone. This guy stole my medication. I guess it could have been worse. I could have been beaten, raped, or robbed. He did teach me a powerful lesson. Do not trust.
    ShyGirlie78 ShyGirlie78 36-40, F 3 Responses Feb 18, 2015

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    Being A Failure.

    Acting irresponsibly, running away, never doing anything right, then hiding, running away or being irresponsible because of it again. Fear always overwhelms me, they say "fight!, it's normal to be scared"... but I can't. I can't fight. I'm so ashamed, I can't do anything! I can...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jun 11, 2010

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    I have done some stuff I am not proud of.

    I hate that I have looked to guys and sending sexual pics just to see what my worth is. and I still do it. Also, being addicted to **** is not the best thing in the world.
    Doesitmatter841 Doesitmatter841 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 23, 2015

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    I am 18 years old and just pathetic.

    I have a ton of things to be ashamed about. My life is so screwed up that I don't even want to bump into anyone that would ask me about how my life is going so I avoid that by staying away from people. I don't even wanna be around family. I'm very much physically unattractive...
    justpathetic justpathetic 18-21, F 5 Responses Dec 10, 2015

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    I Think I Have Too Much Time On My Hands...

    I get online and I make this virtual connections and I never learn they are not real. That these people would never be interested in meeting me in real life. That I am just entertainment. No matter how many time I get disappointed I find myself logging on again. How utterly...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 28, 2012

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    I'm so stupid. I always fall

    for someone Then they turn around and are sharing their love with another girl. Why do I have to be so blind? I don't want to feel this pain any longer.
    Sexykitten28 Sexykitten28 22-25, F 7 Responses Dec 13, 2015

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    I made a big mistake.

    I was working in a place that was very toxic with a overbearing director and supervisor. I was looking for a new job since my boss listened into my calls, micromanaged my work and threatened my job. There was a training that I needed to go to, but the director has been...
    LilyLove2014 LilyLove2014 31-35, F 2 Responses Jun 11, 2014

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    sarahbear420 sarahbear420 16-17, F 4 Responses Oct 9, 2015

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    im in my 20s and I'm more ashamed

    than ever for not being a normal person with a normal life.my self esteem is pretty non existent as well,I can't go into a store without being uncomfortable,I see the way people look at me and my family so it really isn't all entirely in my head,-.-I'm just ashamed.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Dec 9, 2015

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    It'd be greatly appreciated

    if anybody can care to comment on my experience. I offered to volunteer at our local fair to gain community service hours. They assigned me to work at a game booth, where all I had to do was restack the cans if anybody succeeds at knocking them over and provide prizes. It was...
    renzneeds renzneeds 16-17, F 3 Responses Sep 29, 2015

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    I feel like I'm not good enough.

    I want to do so much to help others but deep down I know I'll never make a difference in this world the way I want to.
    Sexykitten28 Sexykitten28 22-25, F 8 Responses Jun 26, 2015

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    I'M Ashamed Of My Thoughts.

    For as long as I remember I have been fantasizing about men spanking me. Usually it's my teachers but sometimes even complete strangers, I used to try everything to stop thinking about it but when my guard was down I was fantasizing again. Growing up I was so ashamed and kept...
    TheMrsGiggles TheMrsGiggles 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 31, 2013

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    I was listening to the radio,

    and this song came on that I loved. Then I found out Justin Beiber sings it. I can't even look at myself in the mirror right now.
    PraiseBeToYevon PraiseBeToYevon 31-35, F 22 Responses Jun 25, 2015

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    I'm ashamed about the fact

    that I'm 21 and haven't had a proper relationship, let alone dated people before.
    LittleMidnight LittleMidnight 18-21 3 Responses Sep 2, 2015

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    While I was being raped I got hard

    and **********. My therapist says this is not unusual and that many women also ****** whir being raped. It is just the bodies way of releasing the stress and outrage. Then men laughed and said that I was enjoying it. Since then I have had no doubt about getting rid of my boy...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Dec 9, 2015

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    It was in fall 2014. I had moved to France

    for my bachelor. I felt like I wasn't welcomed there. People were cold and even in my classes, no one ever talked to me. I was really homesick, lonely and depressed. Then i met him. He was kind and we quickly became friends. I guess it's because i needed a friend at that time. I...
    Khivens Khivens 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 17

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    You got a @ss so fat lets make a baby!

    And another one lol we den boys song
    swaged104 swaged104 13-15, M Jul 1, 2015

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    I am ashamed of my sexuality

    and my obsession with the topic of sex. It would be easier if I knew what my sexuality was, then maybe I wouldn't think about sexuality so much.
    TryingToLoveLifeNow TryingToLoveLifeNow 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 15, 2014

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    I am polyamorous and I am rejected by my

    husband. My sex drive has gone through the window ever since he started telling me that I just want every men on top of me (which IT IS NOT THE CASE). Now everytime we have sex I feel dirty and embarrassed of myself. I feel that I'm not giving myself value by sleeping with him...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 9, 2015

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    when i was younger I used to always be made fun

    of in school i feel like such an outcast still...
    travisdalton travisdalton 13-15, M Aug 26, 2015

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    cashetty69 cashetty69 51-55, M Aug 23, 2015

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    because I shouldn't have started to self harm

    over a year ago. Up to this day I haven't told my parents about this, neither about my anxiety and other problems. I don't think that I will ever find the courage to tell them.
    elincense elincense 18-21, F Jun 17, 2015

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    im slowly reaching that wall in life

    where i can go no further. im lost and i have nowhere to go now... last year i joined a college course (Catering) and being a very poor finacial student i was on the verge of being kicked out of the course. someone had quit the course a few weeks on and left their knife set...
    shadowgothicgirl shadowgothicgirl 18-21, F Dec 14, 2015

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    Shame

    Shame is so painful to the psyche that most people will do anything to avoid it, even though it’s a natural emotion that everyone has. It’s a physiologic response of the autonomic nervous system. You might blush, have a rapid heartbeat, break into a sweat, freeze, hang your...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jul 6, 2013

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    I like loli girls in anime.

    .:( in bad ways:( though god forbid I would ever do that to a child cause it was done to me but I still find anime loli girls $exually attractive...I'm such a ped@phile..but I would never find real life little girls attractive. I would risk my life to save real live little...
    YLIhououin YLIhououin 18-21, M Jun 14, 2015

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    Not In My Nature.

    Something bad had occurred when I was just seventeen. A very bad decision that threw me into a very deep depression. I can't believe I even went through with that decision. It was one of the worst decisions I could ever make and, to be honest, it wasn't ME. The decision...
    EllaRose EllaRose 18-21, F 16 Responses Dec 24, 2008

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    I have done and said some pretty despicable

    things to people. I have a tendency to inconvenience others with my irrationality.
    Dreambrother Dreambrother 18-21, F Nov 26, 2014

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