I Am Ashamed of Myself

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    I Think I Have Too Much Time On My Hands...

    I get online and I make this virtual connections and I never learn they are not real. That these people would never be interested in meeting me in real life. That I am just entertainment. No matter how many time I get disappointed I find myself logging on again. How utterly...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Nov 28, 2012

    I'm so stupid. I always fall

    for someone Then they turn around and are sharing their love with another girl. Why do I have to be so blind? I don't want to feel this pain any longer.
    Sexykitten28 Sexykitten28
    22-25, F
    5 Responses Dec 13, 2015

    im in my 20s and I'm more ashamed

    than ever for not being a normal person with a normal life.my self esteem is pretty non existent as well,I can't go into a store without being uncomfortable,I see the way people look at me and my family so it really isn't all entirely in my head,-.-I'm just ashamed.
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    2 Responses Dec 9, 2015

    It was in fall 2014. I had moved to France

    for my bachelor. I felt like I wasn't welcomed there. People were cold and even in my classes, no one ever talked to me. I was really homesick, lonely and depressed. Then i met him. He was kind and we quickly became friends. I guess it's because i needed a friend at that time. I...
    Khivens Khivens
    22-25, F
    Jan 17

    Sometimes I do things

    that I'm ashamed of. I don't know why I do them. Maybe I just do it for the attention. After it's over I feel so ashamed and disgusting and dirty. There isn't enough soap and hot water that I can use to scrub the feeling off my skin.
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    5 Responses Apr 14, 2014

    I am ashamed of my sexuality

    and my obsession with the topic of sex. It would be easier if I knew what my sexuality was, then maybe I wouldn't think about sexuality so much.
    TryingToLoveLifeNow TryingToLoveLifeNow
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Feb 15, 2014

    I always had a thirst

    for the center of attention without rationalizing what comes with it. I always wanted to be desired and looked up to. I always wished I could have better looking body parts, to mix and match what other girls have but to match it back onto my own flesh body. Some girls have nice...
    CaraBlossom CaraBlossom
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jul 28, 2015

    While I was being raped I got hard

    and **********. My therapist says this is not unusual and that many women also ****** whir being raped. It is just the bodies way of releasing the stress and outrage. Then men laughed and said that I was enjoying it. Since then I have had no doubt about getting rid of my boy...
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    1 Response Dec 9, 2015
    loloasd loloasd
    41-45, F
    1 Response Jun 13, 2014

    She stares at the mirror in vain.

    The image of a flawless girl plastered in her mind. She has to be perfect or that's what she thinks she has to be. One glance and it's a failed perception. One glance and she stares at the mirror in vain.
    Sexykitten28 Sexykitten28
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jun 29, 2015

    Normally I wouldn't care too much about this,

    but this time things feel different. I took AP World History my Sophomore year. I barely did my homework and I did poorly on the test. The homework was a lot of reading which was extremely boring and the test had the most awkward questions. But I feel like if I just did the...
    moose73630 moose73630
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Sep 2, 2015
    cashetty69 cashetty69
    51-55, M
    Aug 23, 2015

    I feel like I'm not good enough.

    I want to do so much to help others but deep down I know I'll never make a difference in this world the way I want to.
    Sexykitten28 Sexykitten28
    22-25, F
    6 Responses Jun 26, 2015

    I was listening to the radio,

    and this song came on that I loved. Then I found out Justin Beiber sings it. I can't even look at myself in the mirror right now.
    PraiseBeToYevon PraiseBeToYevon
    31-35, F
    15 Responses Jun 25, 2015

    I have done some stuff I am not proud of.

    I hate that I have looked to guys and sending sexual pics just to see what my worth is. and I still do it. Also, being addicted to **** is not the best thing in the world.
    Doesitmatter841 Doesitmatter841
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Jun 23, 2015

    I'M Ashamed Of My Thoughts.

    For as long as I remember I have been fantasizing about men spanking me. Usually it's my teachers but sometimes even complete strangers, I used to try everything to stop thinking about it but when my guard was down I was fantasizing again. Growing up I was so ashamed and kept...
    TheMrsGiggles TheMrsGiggles
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Aug 31, 2013
    sarahbear420 sarahbear420
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Oct 9, 2015

    Self hatred is a sucky thing,

    indeed. I've been plagued with a bad case of it that began at a young age. As a child, I saw that I wasn't as thin as the other kids - my teeth, not as straight - and I began to dislike my differences. It's progressed and worsened as the years have gone by. The voice in the back...
    alexandr4 alexandr4
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 5, 2014

    It'd be greatly appreciated

    if anybody can care to comment on my experience. I offered to volunteer at our local fair to gain community service hours. They assigned me to work at a game booth, where all I had to do was restack the cans if anybody succeeds at knocking them over and provide prizes. It was...
    renzneeds renzneeds
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Sep 29, 2015

    You got a @ss so fat lets make a baby!

    And another one lol we den boys song
    swaged104 swaged104
    13-15, M
    Jul 1, 2015

    If there is anyone who should be

    so ashamed of himself to the point of wearing a mask over his face out on public it is me. I am 47 years old. And the shameful part is I never left the nest. I lived with my parents until they died. My reason, and it's no excuse, I am sick to death of excuses is I was safe from...
    ATroubledLife ATroubledLife
    46-50, M
    1 Response Apr 13, 2014

    Everytime I'm in love with someone i tend to do

    anything for this someone. The story is always the same: I get dumped, pretend I dont care, keep on trying, still in love and only let go by the time I find someone else...and the story happens all over again. I though things had changed last year because my relationships were...
    lobee lobee
    22-25, F
    1 Response Feb 17

    My whole entire life is one continuous cycle of

    being ashamed. Whether it's my body, my personality, my clothes, the way I speak, my socioeconomic status, the people I love, my views on certain subjects, my actions, anything. I am ashamed.
    RuinedAndLost RuinedAndLost
    18-21, F
    2 Responses May 13, 2014

    My parents have made it clear

    since I was young that I am expected to be this dominant woman with no emotions that can handle anything thrown at her with grace. On the outside I can push my emotions down and pretend for awhile but I am ashamed that I am nothing like that on the inside. The real me is scared...
    Kpopcrazy3661 Kpopcrazy3661
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Nov 18, 2014

    I made a big mistake.

    I was working in a place that was very toxic with a overbearing director and supervisor. I was looking for a new job since my boss listened into my calls, micromanaged my work and threatened my job. There was a training that I needed to go to, but the director has been...
    LilyLove2014 LilyLove2014
    31-35, F
    1 Response Jun 11, 2014

    I really messed up today.

    I feel like a dirty birdie. You might as well call me that. I feel disgusting and ashamed. Why me? I was a good girl but I blew it. I feel like I can never forgive myself. I am a disappointment. I cant change the past. I hope I can forget it.
    ChelseaMonroe ChelseaMonroe
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Feb 14, 2015


    Shame is so painful to the psyche that most people will do anything to avoid it, even though it’s a natural emotion that everyone has. It’s a physiologic response of the autonomic nervous system. You might blush, have a rapid heartbeat, break into a sweat, freeze, hang your...
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    4 Responses Jul 6, 2013

    I always have been ashamed of

    who i am. But what I am could be your nightmare or the best dream you ever had. You just have to learn how to survive my game once it's started.
    Himidio Himidio
    13-15, F
    Jan 11

    I look at myself in the mirror

    and im disgusted by what I see. I feel like the most unattractive person on this planet. I feel as if everything is wrong with me. Even the way I smell. My personality as well. I have anxiety. Im always shy and constantly on edge. I don't interact well with others. It feels as...
    Gophillies8 Gophillies8
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Mar 6

    I'm ashamed about the fact

    that I'm 21 and haven't had a proper relationship, let alone dated people before.
    LittleMidnight LittleMidnight
    2 Responses Sep 2, 2015

    Holes In The Wall

    The last time she threatened divorce was over a month ago. It used to be that when she said she was leaving, I would go on bended knee, begging her to stay. Gradually, I tried less and less. Eventually, I told her that the next time she said she was leaving that I wanted her...
    accomplice accomplice
    46-50, M
    22 Responses May 17, 2011

    I am 18 years old and just pathetic.

    I have a ton of things to be ashamed about. My life is so screwed up that I don't even want to bump into anyone that would ask me about how my life is going so I avoid that by staying away from people. I don't even wanna be around family. I'm very much physically unattractive...
    justpathetic justpathetic
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Dec 10, 2015

    I have done and said some pretty despicable

    things to people. I have a tendency to inconvenience others with my irrationality.
    Dreambrother Dreambrother
    18-21, F
    Nov 26, 2014

    Just got my EP export,

    I am so glad I could save the things, that it is not all gone to waste.... but I am so scared of reading the private messages between me and many people here, specially the old private messages that go back in years and have actually disappeared on EP but now are all exported...
    MissGaga MissGaga
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Apr 6

    Once again I am ashamed of myself.

    I opened my heart and my home to someone I only knew for a month. A month is not long enough to know someone. This guy stole my medication. I guess it could have been worse. I could have been beaten, raped, or robbed. He did teach me a powerful lesson. Do not trust.
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Feb 18, 2015

    Wish he would open the blinds a little wider.

    These binoculars are cheap.
    TamraTaytay TamraTaytay
    31-35, F
    4 Responses Feb 20

    Not In My Nature.

    Something bad had occurred when I was just seventeen. A very bad decision that threw me into a very deep depression. I can't believe I even went through with that decision. It was one of the worst decisions I could ever make and, to be honest, it wasn't ME. The decision...
    EllaRose EllaRose
    18-21, F
    15 Responses Dec 24, 2008

    Dear oh dear daisy what have I done.

    Dear future husband NEVER let me bear an iron
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Sep 1, 2015

    im slowly reaching that wall in life

    where i can go no further. im lost and i have nowhere to go now... last year i joined a college course (Catering) and being a very poor finacial student i was on the verge of being kicked out of the course. someone had quit the course a few weeks on and left their knife set...
    shadowgothicgirl shadowgothicgirl
    18-21, F
    Dec 14, 2015

    I am polyamorous and I am rejected by my

    husband. My sex drive has gone through the window ever since he started telling me that I just want every men on top of me (which IT IS NOT THE CASE). Now everytime we have sex I feel dirty and embarrassed of myself. I feel that I'm not giving myself value by sleeping with him...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Dec 9, 2015

    when i was younger I used to always be made fun

    of in school i feel like such an outcast still...
    travisdalton travisdalton
    13-15, M
    Aug 26, 2015

    I hit puberty early

    and it came with no warning labels or instructions, so I ended up having a sex addiction and did some sexual things in my life that I'm not proud of and i feel that I'm a disgrace to my wife for putting her through things that she should not have gone through.
    Rd5648 Rd5648
    41-45, M
    2 Responses Aug 6, 2015

    If you read my previous post from last year,

    you'd know that I had an abortion. No it's something I just don't parade around saying. However, on this website I am comfortable enough to express my emotions. My issue is, is that I almost had a pregnancy scare. But knowing I may have been pregnant didn't feel like it did the...
    RedRose1992 RedRose1992
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jul 22, 2015

    My biggest problem right

    now is not knowing how to handle the most basic situations. I find myself stuck, unable to explain myself, or my feelings, throwing everything into a box, only have it all blown in my face last minute. I don't even allow myself to feel what I SHOULD feel in particular moments. I...
    Mirabal19 Mirabal19
    18-21, F
    Apr 13, 2014

    Is it too late at this point to end the misery?

    I know I brought this upon myself. It started so well but now I'm slowly dying on the inside. Loosing site of who I want to be.
    Sexykitten28 Sexykitten28
    22-25, F
    6 Responses Nov 21, 2015

    I hate the fact that I like girls,

    I hate that if people knew then they'd look at me differently. Why can't I just be normal?
    arcticmonkeys9 arcticmonkeys9
    16-17, F
    4 Responses Jan 31

    Being A Failure.

    Acting irresponsibly, running away, never doing anything right, then hiding, running away or being irresponsible because of it again. Fear always overwhelms me, they say "fight!, it's normal to be scared"... but I can't. I can't fight. I'm so ashamed, I can't do anything! I can...
    deleted deleted
    4 Responses Jun 11, 2010

    How Could I Ever!!!!

    Leave my kids.........that is my shame.  I left them.  Abandoned them.  I never returned home.  No explantion.  Just left. I had taken enough.  The years of lies.  Of humiliation.  Of abandonment.  Of never being good enough. Of not counting.  Of being discarded.  Of...
    flodials flodials
    41-45, F
    8 Responses Apr 12, 2012

    for letting the bullies

    and men put me down that I felt so low I just let myself go to much i let them as well not there fault mine I am really ashamed of how I look even more so naked I will not let enyone see me naked but I am gonna try to improve myself when get medical problems out of way and get a...
    susangoga susangoga
    31-35, F
    Jul 23, 2015
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