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I Am Ashamed of Myself

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    Today I am really ashamed of myself.

    .. Well I don't want to disclose the reason thereof... But that's for sure am not going to continue the things which I did unintentionally even :'(
    godblesssouls godblesssouls 18-21, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Have you ever just stared at yourself way too

    long that you begin to look really ugly? lol I do this.
    xlyricbelle xlyricbelle 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 8

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    My parents have made it clear

    since I was young that I am expected to be this dominant woman with no emotions that can handle anything thrown at her with grace. On the outside I can push my emotions down and pretend for awhile but I am ashamed that I am nothing like that on the inside. The real me is scared...
    Kpopcrazy3661 Kpopcrazy3661 18-21, F 5 Responses Nov 18

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    I have done and said some pretty despicable

    things to people. I have a tendency to inconvenience others with my irrationality.
    Plutonianbabe Plutonianbabe 18-21, F 8 hrs ago

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    Lost my virginity to someone

    who didn't deserve to de-flower me. I thought it was love but definitely isn't.
    isabellaalyssia isabellaalyssia 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 6

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    What am I even? I'm not pretty.

    Not funny. Not likable. Boring. Ugly. Fat. My friends say I'm opposite, and I used to think the same, but it slowly started to turn.
    PanicAtTheDiscount PanicAtTheDiscount 13-15, F Jun 13

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    My whole entire life is one continuous cycle of

    being ashamed. Whether it's my body, my personality, my clothes, the way I speak, my socioeconomic status, the people I love, my views on certain subjects, my actions, anything. I am ashamed.
    RuinedAndLost RuinedAndLost 18-21, F 2 Responses May 13

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    I Have No Right To Complain

    I'm ashamed of my depression. A constant unyielding cycle that makes me ungrateful for everything good I have. All I can see are my flaws, failures and regrets. I am more or less solvent, I own a house, have a freelance business that is doing ok. I don't have any reason or right...
    mcNod mcNod 31-35, M 4 Responses Nov 28, 2009

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    Being A Failure.

    Acting irresponsibly, running away, never doing anything right, then hiding, running away or being irresponsible because of it again. Fear always overwhelms me, they say "fight!, it's normal to be scared"... but I can't. I can't fight. I'm so ashamed, I can't do anything! I can...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jun 11, 2010

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    Not In My Nature.

    Something bad had occurred when I was just seventeen. A very bad decision that threw me into a very deep depression. I can't believe I even went through with that decision. It was one of the worst decisions I could ever make and, to be honest, it wasn't ME. The decision...
    EllaRose EllaRose 18-21, F 16 Responses Dec 24, 2008

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    I'm ashamed that a lot of the time i do

    everything possible so i look male and i just dont feel normal when i change genders. I know its not in my control but i often feel ashamed of my sexuality and gender.
    ricequeenn ricequeenn 16-17, M Nov 5

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    I am ashamed of my sexuality

    and my obsession with the topic of sex. It would be easier if I knew what my sexuality was, then maybe I wouldn't think about sexuality so much.
    TryingToLoveLifeNow TryingToLoveLifeNow 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 15

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    So volleyball try outs at a new school my

    sophomore year. I had been sick for 3 weeks and was still sick on my try out day. Found out I had bronchitis and had started my period that day. I go to my try out, the teams practice. All they were doing was serving and these drills I didn't know because they taught them over...
    connieawaller connieawaller 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 6

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    Sometimes I do things

    that I'm ashamed of. I don't know why I do them. Maybe I just do it for the attention. After it's over I feel so ashamed and disgusting and dirty. There isn't enough soap and hot water that I can use to scrub the feeling off my skin.
    ShyGirlie78 ShyGirlie78 36-40, F 6 Responses Apr 14

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    I am in a really bad place at the moment,

    I can't believe I have come this far in life and ended up with nothing but debt. I have worked full time since I left school years ago, I used to be married with my own house, now I rent and live with my son. These last 5 years have been hard and I've used my credit cards to...
    Thisstupidlife Thisstupidlife 46-50, F Oct 10

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    1 Mil. Reasons....

    i am ashamed of my past and the fact that i had 20 boyfriends. it killes me now when i think what a stupid girl i`ve been. maibe that`s why i believe i deserve how my husband is treating me. you know..."what goes around, comes around". i`m ashamed of myself for not...
    BetterMe BetterMe 31-35, F 4 Responses Jul 5, 2009

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    I'm So Afraid..

    I'm a 19 year old girl. My mom raised me up single handedly and has been the support system in my life. My mom and dad lived separately, my only memory of him was when I was about 5, I saw them quarreling, and then he shove her aside and left the house. I thought to myself, 'I'll...
    SoPetrified SoPetrified 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 19, 2012

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    I'M Ashamed Of My Thoughts.

    For as long as I remember I have been fantasizing about men spanking me. Usually it's my teachers but sometimes even complete strangers, I used to try everything to stop thinking about it but when my guard was down I was fantasizing again. Growing up I was so ashamed and kept...
    TheMrsGiggles TheMrsGiggles 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 31, 2013

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    My biggest problem right

    now is not knowing how to handle the most basic situations. I find myself stuck, unable to explain myself, or my feelings, throwing everything into a box, only have it all blown in my face last minute. I don't even allow myself to feel what I SHOULD feel in particular moments. I...
    Mirabal19 Mirabal19 18-21, F Apr 13

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    If there is anyone who should be

    so ashamed of himself to the point of wearing a mask over his face out on public it is me. I am 47 years old. And the shameful part is I never left the nest. I lived with my parents until they died. My reason, and it's no excuse, I am sick to death of excuses is I was safe from...
    ATroubledLife ATroubledLife 46-50, M 1 Response Apr 13

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    Many small actions I took in my past cause me

    suffering now. When I think of what things I said to people, I feel like I should be hated for who I am. It does not make sense, but everything that hurts me now is something which I did not understand and did not know that I was doing. In fact, some of the conversations I feel...
    FunnyLookingCorpse FunnyLookingCorpse 18-21 1 Response May 7

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    this may sound odd. I'm not sure,

    but I feel ashamed me because of what I haven't done. I'm only 22 but I feel like my life has been kind of meaningless.
    EFairy EFairy 22-25, F 7 hrs ago

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    I'm ashamed that I used to be

    so whiny and a complainer. I used to be dramatic and I cut myself. I feel so stupid for acting that way in school. My family was poor, I was bullied because my clothes didn't fit right. We lived in a nasty old trailer. My parents were old and sick.It hurt me to know they wouldn...
    tinywoman tinywoman 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 6

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    How Could I Ever!!!!

    Leave my kids.........that is my shame.  I left them.  Abandoned them.  I never returned home.  No explantion.  Just left. I had taken enough.  The years of lies.  Of humiliation.  Of abandonment.  Of never being good enough. Of not counting.  Of being discarded.  Of...
    flodials flodials 41-45, F 9 Responses Apr 12, 2012

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    Our treatment of the enemy prisoners of war

    violated the Geneva Conventions, Army doctrine, ROE, and jus in bello. It was a long time ago. I'm sure everyone has forgotten.
    PhresnoPhoenix PhresnoPhoenix 36-40, M a week ago

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    Stufy Stufy 46-50, F 2 Responses Sep 24

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    My brother makes me so frustrated.

    I don't know what to do to make him show me more respect. I can't hurt too bad, but I want to at the same time. I don't like that part of me. It's not who I am. I control my anger towards him most of the time, but he gets into a mood that everyone hates. I don't know what to do...
    PotentialDeath PotentialDeath 13-15, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    This past few days is the hardest days of my

    life and I am ashamed of my own action therefore, i declare that it is a close case from now on.
    LoveHadassah LoveHadassah 18-21, F 5 Responses Nov 5

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    loloasd loloasd 41-45, F 1 Response Jun 13

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    I just came back from swimming tryouts

    when I'm sick and threw up 3 times at school before the tryouts. Probably didn't make it on the team for sure. But my coach said I can try out a different time. I just feel so embarrassed.
    AtlPunk1D AtlPunk1D 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 6

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    Finaly Out!

    am really ashamed of what i did in the past.....when i was 13 years old i had sex with my brother and my cousin brother the same night.i now feel so dirty and ashamed of myself! i wish to turn bark the clock and stop that day! i cant face my brother or my cousin now.
    epvanilla epvanilla 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 13, 2012

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    I fill my emptiness with distractions,

    it used to be adult films the buying DVDs the shopping spree at the bookstores. I know it's not normal to be depressed and also thinking about s*x but it's one of my only few distractions right now. I wanted to study and concentrate on learning but I have no motivation...
    SwanNual SwanNual 22-25, F 3 Responses Oct 15

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    I Think I Have Too Much Time On My Hands...

    I get online and I make this virtual connections and I never learn they are not real. That these people would never be interested in meeting me in real life. That I am just entertainment. No matter how many time I get disappointed I find myself logging on again. How utterly...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 28, 2012

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    I've been so stupid,

    and I need some advice.. Basically since the police were involved with everything, I did send a few more and sh.t, and the thing is, I can't stop. I want to, honestly I really do, but it's like a part of me wants to be a sl*t, and send pictures. I've done so much sh*t it's...
    loveyourselfalwaysxx loveyourselfalwaysxx 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 18

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    Shame

    Shame is so painful to the psyche that most people will do anything to avoid it, even though it’s a natural emotion that everyone has. It’s a physiologic response of the autonomic nervous system. You might blush, have a rapid heartbeat, break into a sweat, freeze, hang your...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jul 6, 2013

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    Why must I hurt the person I love

    so much and lie to them.. He's slipping away and I want to spend the rest of my life with him.. Don't know what to do...
    Reneeamamda Reneeamamda 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 5

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    Why do I have to be such a disappointment.

    .. Why can't I be perfect... I can't even look in a mirror without breaking down and crying... Why haven't I committed suicide yet...
    GoodbyeLife GoodbyeLife 13-15, F 4 Responses Nov 18

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    That's why I hide from everyone I know

    when back in school days or university I see them I run as fast as I can. What am I doing with my life? I'm breathing but not living. Just like everyone else said I am wasting my life away.
    SwanNual SwanNual 22-25, F 3 Responses Oct 17

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    Holes In The Wall

    The last time she threatened divorce was over a month ago. It used to be that when she said she was leaving, I would go on bended knee, begging her to stay. Gradually, I tried less and less. Eventually, I told her that the next time she said she was leaving that I wanted her...
    accomplice accomplice 41-45, M 23 Responses May 17, 2011

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    I Am A Disgrace

    My whole life..Ive been shunned.No Freinds, My parents have never been there for me.I went around and messed around with Drugs and Alchohol.The only person that was their for me was God.Last May I got expelled....I started dating the girl of my dreams last year and now this year...
    EdSAINTDINO EdSAINTDINO 18-21, M 3 Responses May 25, 2011

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    There's a word for people like me in Chinese

    it's called "Fan Jian" it's a really rude word. The meaning means that from what I understand is a person who'll notice others only when those people who norm ally's nice to them ignores them. It's like I wanted attention from people who's unavailable or simply just don't give...
    SwanNual SwanNual 22-25, F 3 Responses Oct 16

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    I can never seem to make myself proud.

    I am horribly ashamed of almost everything I do. Where is my self respect and respect for others. Where are my morals that I held so dear. Where is the innocent girl who just wanted to love and be amazed by the world's beauty. When did i become so roughened.
    Awakening29 Awakening29 26-30, F 4 Responses Jul 19

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    Self hatred is a sucky thing,

    indeed. I've been plagued with a bad case of it that began at a young age. As a child, I saw that I wasn't as thin as the other kids - my teeth, not as straight - and I began to dislike my differences. It's progressed and worsened as the years have gone by. The voice in the back...
    alexandr4 alexandr4 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 5

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    How I Ruined The Only Thing I Have Ever Been Good At.

    I was in the United States Navy. I was a Hospital Corpsman. I picked up rank in almost Navy history record breaking time. I chose to attach to the Marine Corps. I lost 40 lbs. and became one of the most influential people in my unit. Everyone looked up to me and came for advice...
    Helikma Helikma 22-25 3 Responses Nov 11, 2011

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    I made a big mistake.

    I was working in a place that was very toxic with a overbearing director and supervisor. I was looking for a new job since my boss listened into my calls, micromanaged my work and threatened my job. There was a training that I needed to go to, but the director has been...
    LilyLove2014 LilyLove2014 31-35, F 2 Responses Jun 11

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    I secretly got married 2 years ago

    after only knowning my husband for 3 months, the only people that know are a few friends. My parents are very old fashioned and would have never accepted him so I secretly married him hoping that one day I would tell them and they would have to deal with it. My marriage went...
    rainbowcloudkisses rainbowcloudkisses 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 6

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