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I Am Ashamed of Myself

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    Shame

    Shame is so painful to the psyche that most people will do anything to avoid it, even though it’s a natural emotion that everyone has. It’s a physiologic response of the autonomic nervous system. You might blush, have a rapid heartbeat, break into a sweat, freeze, hang your...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jul 6, 2013

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    That's why I hide from everyone I know

    when back in school days or university I see them I run as fast as I can. What am I doing with my life? I'm breathing but not living. Just like everyone else said I am wasting my life away.
    SwanNual SwanNual 22-25, F 3 Responses Oct 17

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    Due to my current situation I've had to rely on

    my parents for help to do simple things like going to the bank and getting groceries. I am used to being very self sufficient and therefore am very ashamed of myself for accepting their offer to come assist me with this. I feel like I shouldn't be so upset, I don't deserve to be...
    SimiRayea SimiRayea 22-25, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I can never seem to make myself proud.

    I am horribly ashamed of almost everything I do. Where is my self respect and respect for others. Where are my morals that I held so dear. Where is the innocent girl who just wanted to love and be amazed by the world's beauty. When did i become so roughened.
    Awakening29 Awakening29 26-30, F 4 Responses Jul 19

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    I made a big mistake.

    I was working in a place that was very toxic with a overbearing director and supervisor. I was looking for a new job since my boss listened into my calls, micromanaged my work and threatened my job. There was a training that I needed to go to, but the director has been...
    LilyLove2014 LilyLove2014 31-35, F 2 Responses Jun 11

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    My whole entire life is one continuous cycle of

    being ashamed. Whether it's my body, my personality, my clothes, the way I speak, my socioeconomic status, the people I love, my views on certain subjects, my actions, anything. I am ashamed.
    RuinedAndLost RuinedAndLost 18-21, F 2 Responses May 13

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    Not In My Nature.

    Something bad had occurred when I was just seventeen. A very bad decision that threw me into a very deep depression. I can't believe I even went through with that decision. It was one of the worst decisions I could ever make and, to be honest, it wasn't ME. The decision...
    EllaRose EllaRose 18-21, F 16 Responses Dec 24, 2008

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    Sometimes I do things

    that I'm ashamed of. I don't know why I do them. Maybe I just do it for the attention. After it's over I feel so ashamed and disgusting and dirty. There isn't enough soap and hot water that I can use to scrub the feeling off my skin.
    ShyGirlie78 ShyGirlie78 36-40, F 7 Responses Apr 14

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    Trusting And Helping People

    I used to trust and help people all the time, but I just can't do it any more. I have helped so many people over my life, and now that I need it, nobody is here. I moved people into my home, gave them food, shelter, and charged them nothing.. Now they are on their feet, they stab...
    vonniematt vonniematt 41-45, F 2 Responses Oct 18, 2013

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    I Have No Right To Complain

    I'm ashamed of my depression. A constant unyielding cycle that makes me ungrateful for everything good I have. All I can see are my flaws, failures and regrets. I am more or less solvent, I own a house, have a freelance business that is doing ok. I don't have any reason or right...
    mcNod mcNod 31-35, M 4 Responses Nov 28, 2009

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    If there is anyone who should be

    so ashamed of himself to the point of wearing a mask over his face out on public it is me. I am 47 years old. And the shameful part is I never left the nest. I lived with my parents until they died. My reason, and it's no excuse, I am sick to death of excuses is I was safe from...
    ATroubledLife ATroubledLife 46-50, M 1 Response Apr 13

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    I Am A Disgrace

    My whole life..Ive been shunned.No Freinds, My parents have never been there for me.I went around and messed around with Drugs and Alchohol.The only person that was their for me was God.Last May I got expelled....I started dating the girl of my dreams last year and now this year...
    EdSAINTDINO EdSAINTDINO 18-21, M 3 Responses May 25, 2011

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    First off, I can't create a new account,

    but my name is Maria , I still regret things from being a little kid, for example, when I was about 7/8/9 (age-wise) and me and my mom and I were playing a board game , I got mad and said something really mean I can never sleep at night and I cry every day about how many flaws I...
    NOWAYSIR NOWAYSIR 16-17 Dec 9, 2013

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    I'm ashamed that I used to be

    so whiny and a complainer. I used to be dramatic and I cut myself. I feel so stupid for acting that way in school. My family was poor, I was bullied because my clothes didn't fit right. We lived in a nasty old trailer. My parents were old and sick.It hurt me to know they wouldn...
    tinywoman tinywoman 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 6

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    1 Mil. Reasons....

    i am ashamed of my past and the fact that i had 20 boyfriends. it killes me now when i think what a stupid girl i`ve been. maibe that`s why i believe i deserve how my husband is treating me. you know..."what goes around, comes around". i`m ashamed of myself for not...
    BetterMe BetterMe 31-35, F 4 Responses Jul 5, 2009

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    WARNING: Rambles ahead.

    Sunday night. Ugh. How humiliating. I don't even know what all I said or did, but I know it wasn't my proudest moment. Apparently my hobbies include getting drunk, making bad decisions, and making a fool of myself. -_- Anyways, a total surprise message correspondence today...
    CaptainHowdy21 CaptainHowdy21 22-25, F Jan 14

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    My biggest problem right

    now is not knowing how to handle the most basic situations. I find myself stuck, unable to explain myself, or my feelings, throwing everything into a box, only have it all blown in my face last minute. I don't even allow myself to feel what I SHOULD feel in particular moments. I...
    Mirabal19 Mirabal19 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 13

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    Being A Failure.

    Acting irresponsibly, running away, never doing anything right, then hiding, running away or being irresponsible because of it again. Fear always overwhelms me, they say "fight!, it's normal to be scared"... but I can't. I can't fight. I'm so ashamed, I can't do anything! I can...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jun 11, 2010

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    I am in a really bad place at the moment,

    I can't believe I have come this far in life and ended up with nothing but debt. I have worked full time since I left school years ago, I used to be married with my own house, now I rent and live with my son. These last 5 years have been hard and I've used my credit cards to...
    Thisstupidlife Thisstupidlife 46-50, F Oct 10

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    I Think I Have Too Much Time On My Hands...

    I get online and I make this virtual connections and I never learn they are not real. That these people would never be interested in meeting me in real life. That I am just entertainment. No matter how many time I get disappointed I find myself logging on again. How utterly...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 28, 2012

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    There's a word for people like me in Chinese

    it's called "Fan Jian" it's a really rude word. The meaning means that from what I understand is a person who'll notice others only when those people who norm ally's nice to them ignores them. It's like I wanted attention from people who's unavailable or simply just don't give...
    SwanNual SwanNual 22-25, F 3 Responses Oct 16

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    I Hate Me.

    I broke up with my boyfriend today. I don't know if I over reacted. I was feeling really depressed last night, but it was really late and I didn't want to wake him so I texted him saying I was depressed and would really like to see him today. In the morning he texted me back...
    imgettingthere imgettingthere 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 26, 2011

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    Many small actions I took in my past cause me

    suffering now. When I think of what things I said to people, I feel like I should be hated for who I am. It does not make sense, but everything that hurts me now is something which I did not understand and did not know that I was doing. In fact, some of the conversations I feel...
    FunnyLookingCorpse FunnyLookingCorpse 18-21 1 Response May 7

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    I'm So Afraid..

    I'm a 19 year old girl. My mom raised me up single handedly and has been the support system in my life. My mom and dad lived separately, my only memory of him was when I was about 5, I saw them quarreling, and then he shove her aside and left the house. I thought to myself, 'I'll...
    SoPetrified SoPetrified 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 19, 2012

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    No Trust Worthy

    WHY CAN'T STOP TRUSTING PEOPLE WHOM ARNT a TRUST WORTHY. Why do I keep TRUSTING my friends eventhough the don't trust me.sometimes I have these thoughts about them talking behind back, the only person who trusts me is my mum and I've really been try to do her proud and give her...
    waytime waytime 18-21, M Oct 1, 2013

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    I'M A Terrible Fukn Person

    I made Diego cry by dancing mambo with another man ..I am a devil women!!!!!
    kapirino18 kapirino18 18-21 1 Response Oct 5, 2013

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    I am ashamed of my sexuality

    and my obsession with the topic of sex. It would be easier if I knew what my sexuality was, then maybe I wouldn't think about sexuality so much.
    TryingToLoveLifeNow TryingToLoveLifeNow 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 15

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    I was a boy studying in 9th Std.

    I was pretty and handsome. I was a brilliant student too. Because of this some boys felt jealous. So they taught me bad things. But I was not caring them. What Happened was........
    1920er 1920er 26-30, M 1 Response Feb 22

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    Finaly Out!

    am really ashamed of what i did in the past.....when i was 13 years old i had sex with my brother and my cousin brother the same night.i now feel so dirty and ashamed of myself! i wish to turn bark the clock and stop that day! i cant face my brother or my cousin now.
    epvanilla epvanilla 22-25, F 4 Responses Jul 13, 2012

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    loloasd loloasd 41-45, F 1 Response Jun 13

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    How I Ruined The Only Thing I Have Ever Been Good At.

    I was in the United States Navy. I was a Hospital Corpsman. I picked up rank in almost Navy history record breaking time. I chose to attach to the Marine Corps. I lost 40 lbs. and became one of the most influential people in my unit. Everyone looked up to me and came for advice...
    Helikma Helikma 22-25 3 Responses Nov 11, 2011

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    A Wasted Life

    I never appreciated that my father lacked ambition. Some how, i have managed to inherit this. I cannot self motivate, and in so doing become that while i hated. I dont blame anyone else but me and know that my failures in life have to do with ONE thing. ONE common denominator: Me...
    kaishakunin kaishakunin 26-30 2 Responses Sep 30, 2012

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    Scar Tissue

    i go to school the next day with a lump in my throat from the tears im holding back. No one looks at me like usual i dont exist. under my clothes are painful cuts trying to heal themselves, cuts that shouldn't be there in the first place. i still can't believe what i've done to...
    TRUELOVE1211 TRUELOVE1211 16-17, F Jan 19, 2012

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    Ever since this girl first walked into our

    school for the first time, I couldn't take my eyes off her, and I know I probably wasn't the only one gazing at her beauty. Through my mind I was thinking "you know what, I'm gonna try to talk to her, I need to man up, I need to know how to talk to a girl and here's my first...
    elugo123456789 elugo123456789 18-21, M Apr 3

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    How Could I Ever!!!!

    Leave my kids.........that is my shame.  I left them.  Abandoned them.  I never returned home.  No explantion.  Just left. I had taken enough.  The years of lies.  Of humiliation.  Of abandonment.  Of never being good enough. Of not counting.  Of being discarded.  Of...
    flodials flodials 41-45, F 9 Responses Apr 12, 2012

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    Always

    Sometimes when walking in the halways, i feel anxious and insecure about my self. I feel ashamed when i remember my mistakes or i do new mistakes. When I see a pretty and hot girl i feel that I would never be with a girl like that and that I don't deserve it. I sometimes feel...
    Fuckencio Fuckencio 16-17, M 1 Response Nov 23, 2013

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    What am I even? I'm not pretty.

    Not funny. Not likable. Boring. Ugly. Fat. My friends say I'm opposite, and I used to think the same, but it slowly started to turn.
    PanicAtTheDiscount PanicAtTheDiscount 13-15, F Jun 13

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    I've been so stupid,

    and I need some advice.. Basically since the police were involved with everything, I did send a few more and sh.t, and the thing is, I can't stop. I want to, honestly I really do, but it's like a part of me wants to be a sl*t, and send pictures. I've done so much sh*t it's...
    loveyourselfalwaysxx loveyourselfalwaysxx 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 18

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    Scared

    I'm scared and I have no right to be. I thought I put all this behind me. Things were bad for me in high school. But college, college was a godsend. Everything worked out. I have good friends, and I'm the captain of one of my university's athletic clubs. (We're going to try and...
    Amonkira Amonkira 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 27, 2012

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    I'M Ashamed Of My Thoughts.

    For as long as I remember I have been fantasizing about men spanking me. Usually it's my teachers but sometimes even complete strangers, I used to try everything to stop thinking about it but when my guard was down I was fantasizing again. Growing up I was so ashamed and kept...
    TheMrsGiggles TheMrsGiggles 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 31, 2013

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    Stufy Stufy 46-50, F 2 Responses Sep 24

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    Holes In The Wall

    The last time she threatened divorce was over a month ago. It used to be that when she said she was leaving, I would go on bended knee, begging her to stay. Gradually, I tried less and less. Eventually, I told her that the next time she said she was leaving that I wanted her...
    accomplice accomplice 41-45, M 23 Responses May 17, 2011

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    I'm turning 30 this January

    and I'm the heaviest I've ever been at 326lbs. I was abused-emotionally and physically-pretty severely as a child and started to gain weight when my sole source of safety, my grandma, died when I was 8. Then I was bullied at school and at home for being fat. I developed anxiety...
    iheartelliott iheartelliott 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 22, 2013

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    I fill my emptiness with distractions,

    it used to be adult films the buying DVDs the shopping spree at the bookstores. I know it's not normal to be depressed and also thinking about s*x but it's one of my only few distractions right now. I wanted to study and concentrate on learning but I have no motivation...
    SwanNual SwanNual 22-25, F 3 Responses Oct 15

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    I lost my virginity at the age of 6.

    I didn't want him to take it but now it's gone. I've done horrible things with men but I never wanted to.
    ameliaandmore ameliaandmore 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 14

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    Somebody Please Listen For Once

    I am so worthless. Everything I touch fails. I have straight ds and fs all through high school. I alwaus wanted to be a marine corps officer but I cant get into college. Ive been expelled 3 times and im being forced to get a stupid ged. I have no friend. Everytime I think I have...
    banne15779 banne15779 16-17 2 Responses Nov 29, 2011

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    I Am So Ashamed Of Myself. :/

    It all started in 6th grade when a few other girls at school starting picking on me. I became the quiet shy kid in school, that just sat in the back of the room and didn't talk to anyone. I lost my best friend because she wanted to be popular and I wasn't. I started eating to...
    emmaperri emmaperri 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 6, 2012

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