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I Am Ashamed of Myself

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    My biggest problem right

    now is not knowing how to handle the most basic situations. I find myself stuck, unable to explain myself, or my feelings, throwing everything into a box, only have it all blown in my face last minute. I don't even allow myself to feel what I SHOULD feel in particular moments. I...
    Mirabal19 Mirabal19 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 13

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    Over The Past Couple Years

    Im 15 and Im a disappoint in my family cause all the stuff i did and i regert some but others i dont cause i learned and no one in my family lets it go they keep reminding me and one year i decide to be an idiot and start cutting my self cause i couldnt take what every one said...
    Angelbaby15 Angelbaby15 13-15, F Jul 31, 2012

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    Being A Failure.

    Acting irresponsibly, running away, never doing anything right, then hiding, running away or being irresponsible because of it again. Fear always overwhelms me, they say "fight!, it's normal to be scared"... but I can't. I can't fight. I'm so ashamed, I can't do anything! I can...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jun 11, 2010

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    A Wasted Life

    I never appreciated that my father lacked ambition. Some how, i have managed to inherit this. I cannot self motivate, and in so doing become that while i hated. I dont blame anyone else but me and know that my failures in life have to do with ONE thing. ONE common denominator: Me...
    kaishakunin kaishakunin 26-30 2 Responses Sep 30, 2012

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    Scared

    I'm scared and I have no right to be. I thought I put all this behind me. Things were bad for me in high school. But college, college was a godsend. Everything worked out. I have good friends, and I'm the captain of one of my university's athletic clubs. (We're going to try and...
    Amonkira Amonkira 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 27, 2012

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    Sometimes I do things

    that I'm ashamed of. I don't know why I do them. Maybe I just do it for the attention. After it's over I feel so ashamed and disgusting and dirty. There isn't enough soap and hot water that I can use to scrub the feeling off my skin.
    ShyGirlie78 ShyGirlie78 36-40, F 7 Responses Apr 14

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    I was a boy studying in 9th Std.

    I was pretty and handsome. I was a brilliant student too. Because of this some boys felt jealous. So they taught me bad things. But I was not caring them. What Happened was........
    1920er 1920er 26-30, M 1 Response Feb 22

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    loloasd loloasd 41-45, F 1 Response Jun 13

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    My whole entire life is one continuous cycle of

    being ashamed. Whether it's my body, my personality, my clothes, the way I speak, my socioeconomic status, the people I love, my views on certain subjects, my actions, anything. I am ashamed.
    RuinedAndLost RuinedAndLost 18-21, F 2 Responses May 13

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    I Am A Disgrace

    My whole life..Ive been shunned.No Freinds, My parents have never been there for me.I went around and messed around with Drugs and Alchohol.The only person that was their for me was God.Last May I got expelled....I started dating the girl of my dreams last year and now this year...
    EdSAINTDINO EdSAINTDINO 18-21, M 3 Responses May 25, 2011

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    No Trust Worthy

    WHY CAN'T STOP TRUSTING PEOPLE WHOM ARNT a TRUST WORTHY. Why do I keep TRUSTING my friends eventhough the don't trust me.sometimes I have these thoughts about them talking behind back, the only person who trusts me is my mum and I've really been try to do her proud and give her...
    waytime waytime 18-21, M Oct 1, 2013

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    Shame

    Shame is so painful to the psyche that most people will do anything to avoid it, even though it’s a natural emotion that everyone has. It’s a physiologic response of the autonomic nervous system. You might blush, have a rapid heartbeat, break into a sweat, freeze, hang your...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jul 6, 2013

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    I Have No Right To Complain

    I'm ashamed of my depression. A constant unyielding cycle that makes me ungrateful for everything good I have. All I can see are my flaws, failures and regrets. I am more or less solvent, I own a house, have a freelance business that is doing ok. I don't have any reason or right...
    mcNod mcNod 31-35, M 4 Responses Nov 28, 2009

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    Trusting And Helping People

    I used to trust and help people all the time, but I just can't do it any more. I have helped so many people over my life, and now that I need it, nobody is here. I moved people into my home, gave them food, shelter, and charged them nothing.. Now they are on their feet, they stab...
    vonniematt vonniematt 41-45, F 2 Responses Oct 18, 2013

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    I am ashamed of my sexuality

    and my obsession with the topic of sex. It would be easier if I knew what my sexuality was, then maybe I wouldn't think about sexuality so much.
    TryingToLoveLifeNow TryingToLoveLifeNow 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 15

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    I've been so stupid,

    and I need some advice.. Basically since the police were involved with everything, I did send a few more and sh.t, and the thing is, I can't stop. I want to, honestly I really do, but it's like a part of me wants to be a sl*t, and send pictures. I've done so much sh*t it's...
    loveyourselfalwaysxx loveyourselfalwaysxx 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 18

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    How Could I Ever!!!!

    Leave my kids.........that is my shame.  I left them.  Abandoned them.  I never returned home.  No explantion.  Just left. I had taken enough.  The years of lies.  Of humiliation.  Of abandonment.  Of never being good enough. Of not counting.  Of being discarded.  Of...
    flodials flodials 41-45, F 9 Responses Apr 12, 2012

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    Somebody Please Listen For Once

    I am so worthless. Everything I touch fails. I have straight ds and fs all through high school. I alwaus wanted to be a marine corps officer but I cant get into college. Ive been expelled 3 times and im being forced to get a stupid ged. I have no friend. Everytime I think I have...
    banne15779 banne15779 16-17 2 Responses Nov 29, 2011

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    Scar Tissue

    i go to school the next day with a lump in my throat from the tears im holding back. No one looks at me like usual i dont exist. under my clothes are painful cuts trying to heal themselves, cuts that shouldn't be there in the first place. i still can't believe what i've done to...
    TRUELOVE1211 TRUELOVE1211 16-17, F Jan 19, 2012

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    I'M Ashamed Of My Thoughts.

    For as long as I remember I have been fantasizing about men spanking me. Usually it's my teachers but sometimes even complete strangers, I used to try everything to stop thinking about it but when my guard was down I was fantasizing again. Growing up I was so ashamed and kept...
    TheMrsGiggles TheMrsGiggles 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 31, 2013

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    What am I even? I'm not pretty.

    Not funny. Not likable. Boring. Ugly. Fat. My friends say I'm opposite, and I used to think the same, but it slowly started to turn.
    PanicAtTheDiscount PanicAtTheDiscount 13-15, F Jun 13

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    I Hate Me.

    I broke up with my boyfriend today. I don't know if I over reacted. I was feeling really depressed last night, but it was really late and I didn't want to wake him so I texted him saying I was depressed and would really like to see him today. In the morning he texted me back...
    imgettingthere imgettingthere 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 26, 2011

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    I can never seem to make myself proud.

    I am horribly ashamed of almost everything I do. Where is my self respect and respect for others. Where are my morals that I held so dear. Where is the innocent girl who just wanted to love and be amazed by the world's beauty. When did i become so roughened.
    Awakening29 Awakening29 26-30, F 4 Responses Jul 19

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    Many small actions I took in my past cause me

    suffering now. When I think of what things I said to people, I feel like I should be hated for who I am. It does not make sense, but everything that hurts me now is something which I did not understand and did not know that I was doing. In fact, some of the conversations I feel...
    FunnyLookingCorpse FunnyLookingCorpse 18-21 1 Response May 7

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    I Am So Ashamed Of Myself. :/

    It all started in 6th grade when a few other girls at school starting picking on me. I became the quiet shy kid in school, that just sat in the back of the room and didn't talk to anyone. I lost my best friend because she wanted to be popular and I wasn't. I started eating to...
    emmaperri emmaperri 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 6, 2012

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    If there is anyone who should be

    so ashamed of himself to the point of wearing a mask over his face out on public it is me. I am 47 years old. And the shameful part is I never left the nest. I lived with my parents until they died. My reason, and it's no excuse, I am sick to death of excuses is I was safe from...
    TheBrooklynKid TheBrooklynKid 46-50, M 1 Response Apr 13

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    Not In My Nature.

    Something bad had occurred when I was just seventeen. A very bad decision that threw me into a very deep depression. I can't believe I even went through with that decision. It was one of the worst decisions I could ever make and, to be honest, it wasn't ME. The decision...
    EllaRose EllaRose 18-21, F 16 Responses Dec 24, 2008

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    I Can'T Help It

    I feel embarrassed and I haven't told anyone but, I love my gay music teacher. He is one of the few who people that that sometimes say hi to me or are always nice to me. He is funny, attractive and we share a intrest in the same things. I can't stop thinking about him. He is one...
    Feb 2, 2013

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    I Am Just Too Broken

    I have too much secrets, regrets, and problems to be happy. I have been put down a lot of times, but im strong i stood up. But im starting to realize that i am just too broken to stand up next time i fall. I wont be able to smile, wont be able to laugh and have fun. Its getting...
    ScaredFlower ScaredFlower 16-17, F 3 Responses Nov 6, 2012

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    As i posted the other day i am lonely

    and i hate it. Today at the gym some guys told me to go out tonight and see the worldcup game but i said no. This happens all the freaking time. No idea why. Then i stayed alone at my apartment to see the game. And then the other problem arised. All my life i was obese. Last...
    just22 just22 22-25, M 2 Responses Jul 8

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    I'm turning 30 this January

    and I'm the heaviest I've ever been at 326lbs. I was abused-emotionally and physically-pretty severely as a child and started to gain weight when my sole source of safety, my grandma, died when I was 8. Then I was bullied at school and at home for being fat. I developed anxiety...
    iheartelliott iheartelliott 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 22, 2013

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    Ever since this girl first walked into our

    school for the first time, I couldn't take my eyes off her, and I know I probably wasn't the only one gazing at her beauty. Through my mind I was thinking "you know what, I'm gonna try to talk to her, I need to man up, I need to know how to talk to a girl and here's my first...
    elugo123456789 elugo123456789 18-21, M Apr 3

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    I'M A Terrible Fukn Person

    I made Diego cry by dancing mambo with another man ..I am a devil women!!!!!
    kapirino18 kapirino18 18-21 1 Response Oct 5, 2013

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    Always

    Sometimes when walking in the halways, i feel anxious and insecure about my self. I feel ashamed when i remember my mistakes or i do new mistakes. When I see a pretty and hot girl i feel that I would never be with a girl like that and that I don't deserve it. I sometimes feel...
    Fuckencio Fuckencio 16-17, M 1 Response Nov 23, 2013

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    Another Beat Down?

    This event occurred at lifetime fitness center where most of my stories take place. So this kid named Oran and this other kid I don't even know started to pick fun on me about my shoes. I didn't have hyperdunks at that time and was wearing 6.0s. He had a broken ankle and talked...
    basketballforlife basketballforlife 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 19, 2013

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    I made a big mistake.

    I was working in a place that was very toxic with a overbearing director and supervisor. I was looking for a new job since my boss listened into my calls, micromanaged my work and threatened my job. There was a training that I needed to go to, but the director has been...
    LilyLove2014 LilyLove2014 31-35, F 2 Responses Jun 11

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    1 Mil. Reasons....

    i am ashamed of my past and the fact that i had 20 boyfriends. it killes me now when i think what a stupid girl i`ve been. maibe that`s why i believe i deserve how my husband is treating me. you know..."what goes around, comes around". i`m ashamed of myself for not...
    BetterMe BetterMe 31-35, F 4 Responses Jul 5, 2009

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    Holes In The Wall

    The last time she threatened divorce was over a month ago. It used to be that when she said she was leaving, I would go on bended knee, begging her to stay. Gradually, I tried less and less. Eventually, I told her that the next time she said she was leaving that I wanted her...
    accomplice accomplice 41-45, M 23 Responses May 17, 2011

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    WARNING: Rambles ahead.

    Sunday night. Ugh. How humiliating. I don't even know what all I said or did, but I know it wasn't my proudest moment. Apparently my hobbies include getting drunk, making bad decisions, and making a fool of myself. -_- Anyways, a total surprise message correspondence today...
    CaptainHowdy21 CaptainHowdy21 22-25, F Jan 14

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    I Think I Have Too Much Time On My Hands...

    I get online and I make this virtual connections and I never learn they are not real. That these people would never be interested in meeting me in real life. That I am just entertainment. No matter how many time I get disappointed I find myself logging on again. How utterly...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 28, 2012

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    I lost my virginity at the age of 6.

    I didn't want him to take it but now it's gone. I've done horrible things with men but I never wanted to.
    ameliaandmore ameliaandmore 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 14

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    I'm So Afraid..

    I'm a 19 year old girl. My mom raised me up single handedly and has been the support system in my life. My mom and dad lived separately, my only memory of him was when I was about 5, I saw them quarreling, and then he shove her aside and left the house. I thought to myself, 'I'll...
    SoPetrified SoPetrified 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 19, 2012

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    I'm ashamed of myself

    because I'm short, ugly and am deaf in one ear, hardly anything to be proud of. I always have a hard time wherever I go, nobody really seems to like me either. I bet this was the reason I was home schooled my entire life because everyone was ashamed of me and I was several steps...
    SchwarzeWitwe SchwarzeWitwe 26-30, M 3 Responses Aug 13

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    First off, I can't create a new account,

    but my name is Maria , I still regret things from being a little kid, for example, when I was about 7/8/9 (age-wise) and me and my mom and I were playing a board game , I got mad and said something really mean I can never sleep at night and I cry every day about how many flaws I...
    NOWAYSIR NOWAYSIR 16-17 Dec 9, 2013

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    Dummy

    I have this issue, that whenever i am nervous or scared, i kinda do the opposite of what i want to do. it's pretty bad. so of course when i wanted to tell my mom about my boyfriend, i did not act the way i wanted to. before i could tell her we got i an argument. . . not about him...
    cagedinside cagedinside 18-21, F Jun 6, 2013

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    Finaly Out!

    am really ashamed of what i did in the past.....when i was 13 years old i had sex with my brother and my cousin brother the same night.i now feel so dirty and ashamed of myself! i wish to turn bark the clock and stop that day! i cant face my brother or my cousin now.
    epvanilla epvanilla 22-25, F 4 Responses Jul 13, 2012

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    How I Ruined The Only Thing I Have Ever Been Good At.

    I was in the United States Navy. I was a Hospital Corpsman. I picked up rank in almost Navy history record breaking time. I chose to attach to the Marine Corps. I lost 40 lbs. and became one of the most influential people in my unit. Everyone looked up to me and came for advice...
    Helikma Helikma 22-25 3 Responses Nov 11, 2011

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    I'm filled with so much regret. Lord please help me. And hold and tell my baby everything will be okay. You tried to give its life to me but I took it away. I'm so ashamed and so...
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    Ashamed of not living a life up to society's standard. I m single heading 35 yo. Ashamed of not achieving what society had expected me to be: no marriage no kids. I m living a...
    Mangostrawberrybanana Mangostrawberrybanana 31-35, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    Truth Hurts! At my age, with my lack of accomplishments In my situation (STILL) and no improvement I was so stressed out by an event tonight I really needed to get it off my chest...
    SashaAmazon SashaAmazon 31-35, F 2 Responses Sep 9

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    I'm not ashamed Of who I am Sure I maybe too weird for you but if you can't accept it then please just leave me be because I'm not gonna change
    BabyDuchanne BabyDuchanne 16-17, F 2 Responses Sep 7

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    This is the first time I am opening up about myself, and I truly cannot stand the person I am, all for one small aspect of me that in reality should not be as big of a deal as I...
    skh22 skh22 18-21, M 2 Responses Sep 7