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I Am At the End of My Rope

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    Just yesterday I sat in a church parking lot of

    all places with a sweater in my car tail pipe and turned the engine on. I sat there a good fifteen minutes before I got out to see why I was still awake. The sweater had blown out of the tail pipe. I told my husband and he had no response. We were arguing prior to that, but...
    blueswansahm blueswansahm 31-35, F 1 Response Jun 24, 2014

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    Losing

    I know im young but so much has happened in my life. Before I was even 13 I lost my older brother, my grandmother, my cousin and my uncle. Also when i was 5 my dad left. After a while he came back. He said I was worthless, that i didn't deserve to live. Recently the family i have...
    pumpkin1997 pumpkin1997 13-15 2 Responses Dec 31, 2011

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    Ready To End My Miserable Life....

    Let me start by saying I have had a rough life since I was a child, and after suffering abuse have struggled with anxiety and depression off and on my entire life, last year after finally leaving my abusive alcoholic husband I finally met the man I've been waiting for my whole...
    Calliebaby13 Calliebaby13 31-35, F 3 Responses Nov 24, 2012

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    In The End

    I've been driving down this road for so long, but now I realize that even if I had the will to stop, I can't, because the breaks no longer work. So I'll keep driving until I crash in the inevitable wall ahead. What does it matter anyway, when all I have left is this anguish, this...
    IronLotus IronLotus 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 2, 2011

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    I just feel like I give up on life.

    ...I have no will power left to save myself.. I have no drive to go on...
    cutter36475 cutter36475 18-21, F May 13, 2014

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    My Life Is a Train Wreck

    I am at the end of my rope also.I have one of those lives that just doesn't feel like it is worth living.I used to cut myself to let some of the pain out but I can't now because I am seen by so many doctors due to my up coming lap-band surgery.The worst part is I can fool every...
    gwenb gwenb 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 10, 2008

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    Slipping Down

    I am broke, jobless, alone and a shell of what I hoped to become. I don't know where it all began but somewhere at some point I fell into a deep dark hole. Did I mention that I am also withdrawing from psychiatric medication?I feel as though I have stepped into an abysmal hell...
    dyrector dyrector 61-65 Jul 1, 2013

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    I Give Up

    Every time life starts to turn up, it turns to s*** again. I just opened a store, then my friends abandon me, I **** up and lose the love of my life, I have no place to live except with the woman who murdered my best friend... Oh and now I can't even go there because my truck...
    Ishisaurus Ishisaurus 26-30, F Aug 8, 2013

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    mierdamundo mierdamundo 31-35 Aug 28, 2013

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    I took out thousands of dollars in student

    loans...worked for three years and lost my job in May of 2013. My possessions are in storage and I'm living with my in-laws. I see no way out...no way of getting a job. I'm a miserable failure and my kids will suffer because of it. I think my loans can be forgiven if I die...my...
    jaylgee jaylgee 46-50, M 3 Responses Mar 7, 2014

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    Confusing Messages

    Me and well, common law husband have been together for 4 years. things were really good and then have been getting worse. the past few weeks he has done nothing but treat me cold. I ask him to talk to me and tell me what is wrong and he gets annoyed and says i am nagging and that...
    angellcagle angellcagle 41-45, F 3 Responses Sep 16, 2013

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    So I met the love of my life,

    we plan on getting married but we can not get approved for an apartment because my previous landlord or should I say slum lord took all of my deposit and then lied and charged me a whole another $1100 then sent it to collections. I've gotten to the point of advertising to sell...
    Thekelticdragon Thekelticdragon 36-40, M Mar 8

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    How did I end up stupid enough to get my self

    into this mess. I have had my heart captured by the woman I thought was my soulmate and she has not taken care of it at all. I feel trapped now because my life has come to a complete crisis point. I have lost my job unfairly, I have been in quarrels with my family, I am in...
    WokenandOpen WokenandOpen 31-35, M Feb 21

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    My Rope

    My rope,I'm at the end,The **** life's dealt,Please help,I want control,I don't wanna die.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M 1 Response Jan 31, 2012

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    When I was 16 years old,

    I met the love of my life. And now 32 years later, I am not sure that I can survive another day in his presence. We have been through SO MANY trials and tribulations over the years. Normal things such as financial and communication troubles, but also major life changing events...
    auntpearl42 auntpearl42 46-50, F Dec 29, 2014

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    I Am Really Almost Ready To Give Up

    Ok Ive had friends but right now this point for some odd reason it feels like no one is talking to me and everyones avoiding me. I basically right now only have one good friend but she is a busy person and cannot hang out alot. Ive had friends but now it just seems that everytime...
    kittie26 kittie26 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 3, 2010

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    I Feel Ready To Give Up

    -That's it. I got nothing left to fight for, and nobody to turn to. For the little I have achieved in my life... it's not enough. It was never enough. I have distanced myself from everyone out of fear that they could hurt me That I would hurt them. For all my hopes and dreams...
    themanoflegends themanoflegends 26-30, M 1 Response Oct 28, 2012

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    I have been looking for employment

    for 14 months. Going on numerous interviews, even being flown to interviews across the country and nothing ever pans out. Also the previous company I worked for over payed my severance and they expecting me to pay it back, which is not a small sum of money. I am back living with...
    Unemployedbum Unemployedbum 36-40, M Dec 5, 2013

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    Can't Hold On Any Longer

    I'am broken. I have a miserable and crappy life. I'am worthless, depressed and alone. I have no one in my life who cares about me. I have been into so much pain over and over again. I'm tired. I want to end it. I want to stop the pain. It's so hard to go through the pain...
    kmisfit123 kmisfit123 18-21, F 5 Responses Jul 21, 2013

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    Tie A Knot And Hang On?

    Yeah right. I'd rather let go. Sometimes we have to learn about futility. If hanging on creates more pain in your arms and the situation is hopeless the whole time than it is needless pain. When a situation is hopeless you are destined for disappointment so the more energy you...
    chrysalid chrysalid 18-21, F 5 Responses Feb 7, 2012

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    I Crossed The Day Out With An X Because It Was All Over

    Life changed forever. I have a great life, but I am afraid it can never be the same.  How am I to deal with that? 
    Fractions Fractions 26-30, M 2 Responses Oct 18, 2011

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    Just Wtf

    ive been putting up with my life for 18 years now. i was bullied and beat up during my elementary school days, but i endured it. i was teased during my middle school years, but i endured it. i was an outcast during my high school years, but i endured it. i could barely finish...
    imallihave imallihave 22-25, F Aug 23, 2011

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    I just don't know anymore.

    .like I can't escape. I feel like I'm being mentally tortured every minute that passes by. I have faith in what I believe, just don't hear anything back. I am grateful that I am in one piece--safe & not in a violent environment every minute of my life. I just feel like I'm going...
    sicajae7 sicajae7 26-30, F Feb 21, 2014

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    There Is More Rope Than You Think

    Dig deep. I've been living my life for years in spiritual crisis without end. As a lover of the surreal I am completely destroyed by absence. Absence kills me. The abcence of anything but the mundane makes me feel dead even though I have never known anything different. I am the...
    chrysalid chrysalid 18-21, F Jul 22, 2012

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    I Am Losing My Grip....

    I am losing my grip on this things called "life" I am not sure how much more I can take, and how much longer I can hold on. I am losing everything, and losing my will to want to even try anymore, sometimes I just want to give up, and not have to face it anymore...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jun 7, 2009

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    I Dont Know What to Do

    i am now at the end of my rope... im taking my last breath. i am being hung by my toes, and it hurts i cant live like this anymore.... but where do i have to go to after this... after this i go to heaven(where everyhting is great and happy) that just seems like a long ways...
    xxcoixx18xx xxcoixx18xx 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 26, 2009

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    i don't know what to do anymore.

    i feel empty. this strange kind of empty, lonely, uninteresting.. i just want to shut off my brain. I don't want to think any more, i'm tired, tired of feeling tired and empty. it's so hard to describe, i guess you have to have experienced it to understand the way i'm feeling...
    Kate197979 Kate197979 31-35, F 2 Responses Jun 24, 2014

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    I Need Your Help...

    I'm 30. I'm currently unemployed, am an honorably discharged veteran of the Navy, and I'm so ******* depressed and in such a bad spot in my life, I don't even know where to begin. I was doing fine up until I got out of the military, which was in 2005. Since then, I've...
    Darkaera81 Darkaera81 31-35, M 2 Responses Nov 15, 2012

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    Living and Partly Living

    this is a part of a recent post on my blog..... I've been putting a post off for a few days. Looking for an excuse to gather thoughts and anecdotes of the past few months and deliver a legitimate bit of my life.  With advent of twitter, blogging seems to have become the 8...
    afazchas afazchas 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 15, 2009

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