I Am At War With Good And Evil Inside Of Me

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    Even under the glow of a blood moon I cannot

    seem to shed light on my darkness, nor give a face to the demons that haunt me, it does however give a crimson glint to the bars of my cage and I am able to see how small my prison truly is. At first I wish someone could save me from this place, but I know that even if we were...
    LovingDead LovingDead
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Apr 15, 2014

    "Men are like steel. When they lose their

    temper, they lose their worth. ""The best among you are those who are slow to anger and swift to cool down."These stupid quotes has been haunting me since forever. It doesn't feel right to express yr anger in manners you wanted to. But it doesn't feel good at all swallowing it...
    FaitAccomp1i FaitAccomp1i
    70+, M
    4 Responses Mar 5, 2015

    The Fox And The Dragon

    I find that the question of good and evil inside of a person really depends on how much they tend to either side of the spectrum. Like myself, I find my strength in the evil side. It's secure, plus the energy given off by misery makes me feel better than the energy of triumph or...
    quinndragosen quinndragosen
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Aug 13, 2012

    I dont even know who's side I'm on anymore.

    I want to be good, but the evil is so much easier. It feels so much better. I know it's not right. It's not who I want to be or who I should be. But I'm wondering if maybe it's who I am...
    LouDog319 LouDog319
    31-35, M
    1 Response Mar 30, 2015

    Not just with these two

    but any contrasting opposites. I feel like two people who are complete opposites and do not compliment each other in any way
    AnonClair AnonClair
    18-21, T
    1 Response Feb 20, 2015

    I have a constant negative voice in my head

    that insults my every move. it's hard to live with but at least it stops me from embarrassing myself I guess.
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Dec 22, 2015

    Conflicting thoughts constantly plague me,

    torment fear and hate have taken residence here, wandering in the dark without guidance, jagged spires of unknown darkness rise from the ground, I destroy everything around me.
    LovingDead LovingDead
    26-30, M
    3 Responses Jun 29, 2014

    I think most men if they are honest with

    themselves encounter this often. I know I do. And it mostly entails what I want to do vs. what I know the right thing to do is. Too often the "right thing" is compromising what will make you happy when you have responsibilities to uphold such as husband, career, family, bills...
    simplefunman simplefunman
    41-45, M
    2 Responses Jan 3, 2016

    Sometimes i wanna be evil

    but the angel inside of me is too scared to try new things
    maeaprille0126 maeaprille0126
    31-35, F
    2 Responses May 4, 2014

    I feel like I have the heart of God

    but the mind of Satan. I know I can be a good person. I'm usually very nice to people. I mostly keep all my hatred bottled up inside my mind. I know what gets me angry. I get angry and I think violent thoughts when I see things I can't have or experience. I just don't understand...
    ForeverALoser ForeverALoser
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Mar 31, 2015

    I am at war with myself,

    my enemy is inside me, he knows my fears and my insecurities, he knows where my weaknesses hide, yet I know nothing of him, I lie awake at night and wonder what if only one of us gets out of this fight alive? When and how did I come to this crossroad? Why is he the way he is...
    LovingDead LovingDead
    26-30, M
    3 Responses Apr 14, 2014

    I'm filled with hate

    and a little of love. I'm trying to guide myself towards the light but each day, I feel like the darkness within me is winning. Why am I filled with loneliness, bitterness, and hate?! I try to find someone I love, but everyone I thought I cared about, was a fake feeling.
    MidnightDragons MidnightDragons
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 30, 2015

    Yes you are. Want proof goto my facebook Steve

    aceves cover photo mountain scene read and look close at all my photos zoom in and study,,,, The after life Is... Destroy the demons that are inside you my friend only you have the strength, and God always has your back if you go with him.
    Isaiah42 Isaiah42
    41-45, M
    Jun 3, 2015

    I hate when the goodness comes out,

    being bad is my true nature.
    torontoguy2 torontoguy2
    26-30, M
    Apr 6, 2016

    Some days the goodness within is winning other

    days It takes a 360 turn and I end up being a bad *****..temper and all.I can never win with my ying and yang aura..
    Haze94 Haze94
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Dec 26, 2015

    Conflicted between free thinking soul

    and a person who exhibits and reflects my moral upbringing.
    Becface112 Becface112
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Sep 30, 2015

    I'm at constant war with the demons

    that reside in my soul .. some days I feel as if I'm on the winning team and I'm conquering the evil within me,, other days I feel the demons taking me over more and more .. I'm unsure if I will ever conquer the evil , but I am set to never stop fighting .. everyone has good...
    imperfectbeauty imperfectbeauty
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 10, 2014

    The Inturnal Struggle

    the internal struggle my evilside Rage and my good side Amber just what i call my evil nd good side I've been fighting them both for like forever it so hard to try to be good when one side of me wants so bad to hurt and push people and do mean thinks and one side wants to feel...
    KillerRage KillerRage
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 28, 2012

    Fight Tonight

    My evil side came out this evening. And I had happy earlier today when I went shopping. I don't want to say what this side wants to do because it goes against my beliefs and things dear to me. I have had this "person" inside me since I was 15. Maybe it is repressed anger from my...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Jul 3, 2011

    During the breakup with my ex,

    he lied his way through the breakup, and soon after he was with someone else. I was in a situation where I could either go without saying anything to him, or tell him I know he was lying and that he was a cheater and a liar. The fact that he was with someone else, I didn't want...
    deleted deleted
    Feb 20, 2015

    Past relationship was 6 years together,

    9 total with him being the only one I'd let have me. The one before that 11 years, a beautiful daughter from it, straight momma boy. The ex -ex con-he lives with someone else, has his kids involved with her.. I say good for you. I try to move forward, crash burns! Now I find...
    deleted deleted
    Feb 21, 2015

    I am pretty much evil,

    but I'm starting not to care. I've been asking around this app why some parents are so emotionally abusive to their kids on purpose, and I was replied with, "Because we like to see you in agony", "Just something to pass the time". And my mind started taking me out of this time...
    DementedKarkat DementedKarkat
    16-17, T
    1 Response Apr 23, 2015

    It is as though my soul has become the very

    essence of fear. Either i am afraid of the world around me, or I have a deep urge within me to insight fear in others, and see their faces go pale with pure, undeniable fright, then i black out and anything goes. It's sick. But I absolutely love But other people... They're...
    IronIvory7 IronIvory7
    Nov 14, 2015

    its like a full 100% Angel

    and full 100% demon fighting for control every second it hurts in so many ways
    deleted deleted
    Aug 2, 2015

    Inside me a demon, slowly takes control,

    Infecting my mind, and corrupting my soul, I snap on those around me, its they who pay the prices, When I am left with them demon, and to my own devices, He wears me like a mask, a full bodied disguise, He spills all my secrets, as I watch helplessly through my eyes, My life is...
    LovingDead LovingDead
    26-30, M
    4 Responses Apr 15, 2014
    popples123 popples123
    31-35, F
    7 Responses May 4, 2014

    It's a never-ending battle.

    No matter what, both sides will always clash and argue. Sometimes, they'll be at peace. It all depends.
    MisunderstoodGirl69 MisunderstoodGirl69
    16-17, F
    Jun 4, 2015

    We all have good and bad in us.

    Nobody is 100% good or 100% bad. I am trying to be at good side. Evil is nothing but a fear of depression and failure which is making me enemy of my life!
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Oct 6, 2014
    josef2000 josef2000
    16-17, M
    1 Response Sep 2, 2015

    Cherokee is telling his grandson about a fight

    that is going on inside himself. He said it is between 2 wolves. One is evil: Anger, envy, sorrow, regret, fearful thinking, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority and ego. The other is good: Joy, peace, love, hope...
    SkollHati SkollHati
    22-25, M
    1 Response Feb 2, 2015

    The good side tells me I shouldn't be

    so bitter, jealous and hateful. That I should focus on the positive things, be logical. But the evil side supports me and tells me I should be mad, and think all the dark thoughts that plague my mind, the evil side tells me it's fine. I don't know which I prefer.
    LikeICare13 LikeICare13
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Jan 15, 2016

    It's the moment you think you can't

    that you realise you can. I'm not a creature of circumstance. My sanity depends on these convictions.
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Oct 10, 2015

    A war wages on, for control of my soul.

    Good vs. evil. Who will win, I don't know. And I don't care, if I had it my way, I'd pick neither side and just be myself, create my own side, both consisting of good and evil but with less remorse or feelings. Where those who have been tormented or sad, have been in pain and...
    NightwolfBlackheart NightwolfBlackheart
    26-30, M
    6 Responses Dec 10, 2014

    Some days i love everyone.

    Other days i am filled with hatred. It's a never-ending battle.
    Megsupermario Megsupermario
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 31, 2015
    blackheartlover blackheartlover
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 22, 2015

    The demons are fighting back.

    ... Coming into my dreams.... It makes it hard to escape if I'm being tormented in my dreams!!!! Get out of my head! These demons keep drawing me in to dark places :/
    Catho Catho
    18-21, F
    Feb 19, 2015

    Everyone has this. We are at war.

    Spiritual warfare. God, Devil, Angels, Demons. But only one side will win. And I speak for the light in the world. I pray for all who battles this fight. Amen.
    deleted deleted
    Sep 30, 2015

    most of the times i dont want to engadge in

    fights because im scared to seriously hurt the other person. i dont want people to see me as that kind of person xp
    kyanitestone186 kyanitestone186
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 23, 2015

    I guess it'd be a good idea to get on here

    and talk myself through it. For the past week I got in touch with my darker side and literally drove myself insane. I didn't know how to act or think it was terrible. And then one day I woke up and I just wasn't like that anymore. The problem with me was that there was a side of...
    kxCobra kxCobra
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Apr 12, 2014
    Moonlighwolf Moonlighwolf
    18-21, F
    Feb 9, 2016

    Everyday. I spent years learning to control

    and curb my temper, trying and trying to stuff everything hateful deep down where it could never escape. I'm not going to say 1 person "made" me lose it, but I allowed 1 undeserving person close enought to undo years of hardwork, and now I find myself trying to piece it all...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Mar 25, 2015

    I just need to die. The voices say so.

    Other people say so. I say so. Sadly nothing is going right and it won't get better.
    AngelWithASecret2 AngelWithASecret2
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Jan 11, 2015

    When I was a kid 9th of age I saw a devil

    standing beside me while i was lying on my bed. It was midnight around 2am it was raining so hard outside rain was strong and there are thunders and lightings hes skin was red his eyes are dark but his pupils are red he had two horns and i can tell he was hairy i couldnt see his...
    Saint12 Saint12
    22-25, M
    Apr 27, 2015

    Aren't we all? Isn't

    that just human nature?
    SoCalSoBeIt SoCalSoBeIt
    26-30, M
    3 Responses Apr 21, 2014

    The precursor to my current subversive

    relentless darkness was a blinding rapturous starlight. I ponder if I have manifested this hell, then again maybe not, maybe this is a type of systematic self-destruction written in the stars, a poison long overdue in running its course. I drown in the line between worlds, the...
    LovingDead LovingDead
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Feb 7, 2015

    I'm not just one person,

    I am two. I have the girl inside me who cowers in a corner with tears streaming down her face but with a mask covering up her sadness. She smiles everyday and breaks when she's alone, she can't survive this anymore. She dreams big, where she can be free and fly. No more pain for...
    BleedingAngel BleedingAngel
    18-21, F
    4 Responses May 2, 2014
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